#* and hopefully people will be able to reblog this one omg idk what that was about tbh

[little-miss-dilf-lover]

hi!! no need to reply since this does not pertain to writing or your stories (though there all SO GOOD!!) but i’ve been trying to get my account off the ground for a while now after loosing my old one (i had a following but i wasnt active for like a year before i lost it 🥸) if your willing to share any tips i’d appreciate it so much! if not that’s okay too! regardless you are so talented and i love your work! xx

hii!! aw omg you’re so sweet, thank you!!🫂

okay so this might sound completely pointless and annoying, but I have honest to god no idea how my account does so well, it’s a genuine shock to me as I never thought anyone would read my stuff

so im not able to say specifically what helps, as I have no idea how

- but for me, I think consistency, posting a good solid amount definitely helps. I went through a stage a while back where I wrote all the time so that helped (but don’t tire yourself)

- I think knowing your audience helps as well, like knowing what they like, if you have more of a fluff following and what they like specifically or if they’re more into smut, like what kind and how. also some writers are known for their angst while some are known for their headcanons. so I think maybe a specialty helps. I have more of a smut following, I have some feral bitches (I say with love) in my inbox, so i rarely get angst, (which is good bc im not good at it)

- this might sound utterly stupid, but I think have fun with it, post things bc you enjoy it and are proud of them, and hopefully that confidence will attract some attention etc

- make things clear and easy to see, idk if it’s just me, but if I can’t see clearly what it is im gonna be reading, I’ll probably won’t read it- so I think that helps

- broaden out who you write for, or be open to write for other people (if that suits you ofc) or a lot of the time, some writers have a decent following bc of one character who they write really well. like some are known for strictly writing one character and they do it so well, but also, some that write for a few and still do it really well. I guess it just depends on how comfortable you are with other characters (but don’t exert yourself)

- reblog and share other peoples stuff (feedback and stuff), and I feel like you get good karma from it, like you’re thanked for being so nice I guess

- be flexible (within reason) make sure it’s not too much for you

- might be corny as shit, but be yourself or if you’re not comfortable be what you want to be, and be how you wish to be interpreted

- also I think making sure you come across friendly helps make you more approachable and easier to talk to. I feel like a lot of the time people are scared to talk to mutuals (dw I am too) but making sure that it’s clear that you’re kind, definitely makes it easier

sorry if these are too much or not enough, or wrong😭 but hope these help!! if you anything else you can message me💌

[lenteur]

HIIIII OMG OMG OMG YOUR REBLOG WAS THE CUTEST THING EVER ❤️ i saw it this morning when i woke up to feed the cats and it made me smile SO WIDE <3 CAT PHOTO IS AT THE BOTTOM 🖤

please whenever you feel the need, just sleep <3 even if it's the middle of the day. try not to stay awake just to sleep at night 💔 i really hope you feel better ❤️

i honestly think idols can pull off the colour pink so well, wish i could dye mine pink but i only suit darker colours of....colours 😂

ikr <3 though i started watching 911 again and i was up til 4am watching it 👀 i know one of the main actresses of glee was revealed to be a bully behind scenes which idk didn't surprise me tbh. i used to love her as an actress but her interviews felt so off to me </3 i really hate bullies 😡😡😡

IM SO SO HAPPY YOU LOVED IT <3 i was actually really struggling with your gift because i was seeing other peoples and i felt like mine wasn't great but then i remembered you saying how the gift was us getting to know each other and that you'd be happy with anything 🖤 i'm really happy you like it <3

BESTIES 4 LYF ❤️ also!!!! tea and biscuits. my favourite snack <3 i'm gonna hopefully start watching a kdrama on friday, bc from then to tuesday, i'm off work so i'll have some time to relax 🥰

i was waiting for you to reply before i posted the gift, i didn't want to post it and then i had to let you reply to an anon. 🖤 you've been so so so kind to me and i just love you already ❤️ i'm so EXCITED to talk more!! 💎

Toffee on the left! Luna on the right ❤️

hey hey hey 💖 of course! it was a great surprise to finally know who you are 💗 now that i've looked at your blog, i can see all the little clues you left during our conversations. especially the wednesday and criminal minds stuff haha

tysm for thinking of me 💕 i am trying my best at taking care of myself but thankfully my mom is with me and she's such a huge help 💝

ah staying up until 4am to watch something reminds me of my teenage years 👀 even if i wanted to i wouldn't be able to do so now </3 which is a good thing hehe oh really? 😡 i mean i'm not surprised either but i'm getting tired of all these celebrities thinking they're better than others. it happens everywhere but, when in a group (ie a show, a group of singers, etc.), there always seems to be one who wants the spotlight to themselves. it's getting repetitive 💔 i already have a hard time getting into a show, but seeing stuff like that, it's no wonder i don't want to watch new shows anymore. i don't have time for drama. i just want to enjoy what i watch in peace, but this makes it hard sigh

i know i wrote a novel in the tags but it's really really pretty 💟 the fact that you took time out of your day to make something for me means a lot. you'll never have to worry about something like that with me 💖 and let me reiterate: our friendship is the true gift 💘

oh if you start the kdrama (or is it a jdrama? cdrama? tdrama?) please let me know which one it is 💓 i'm hoping i can start watching summer strike either tomorrow or this weekend because the premise (and all the gifs i've seen) is really interesting and i think i'll like it 💞

i had a feeling you were waiting for me to answer. i also wanted to answer the last anon message before you revealed yourself or else it would've stayed in my inbox forever hehe💕

OK. okok! i was waiting to answer the rest of your ask before talking more in depth about my new cats toffee and luna (yes, by revealing your cats to me, you are now contractually obligated to share custody of your pets i'm not kidding! jk) UM EXCUSE ME? YOU SHOULD'VE TOLD ME YOU HAD THE MOST BEAUTIFUL CATS IN THE ENTIRE WORLD!!! like they're so pretty they could be on the cover of vogue, elle, harper's bazaar, any other magazines (my fashion knowledge is limited lmao) 😻 if your friendship wasn't enough (which it is), seeing toffee and luna made this event 124877523368751222222565457426545214852485x better (won't bother deciphering this number but just know it's a lot!) wowowowooooooooooooooooooooooooooowowowowowowowowow! user lenteur is currently disfunctioning </3 cause? (Y)OUR CATS 😻😻😻

[softxsuki]

Hiiiii! Could you write some comfort with the MHA boys and what they would do if you were feeling lonely???💛 My favs are probably Kiri and Todoroki, but I love all of them so you can write whoever you want. And whenever you want to ofc

Kirishima, Todoroki, and Bakugou (Separate) With Reader Who Feels Lonely

Pairings: Kirishima x Gn!Reader, Todoroki x Gn!Reader, Bakugou x Gn!Reader

Warnings: mentions of feeling lonely

Genre: Comfort

Post-Type: Headcanons

Word Count: 1.1k

Summary: In which you start to feeling lonely one day and the boys notice and try to comfort you/alleviate your loneliness.

[A/N: OMG HI. This request was at the very bottom of my ask box. I honestly don't even know how long it's been sitting there, but I'm soooo so so so so sorry for the long wait. I hope you're still around to see this post NJKEANF let me know if you are! If not, then hopefully you manage to run across it while browsing through the tags or through someone's reblog? idk. I made it gender neutral and it can be read as a platonic or romantic relationship with the boys, whatever you guys prefer :) Hope you all enjoy!!! I'm glad to be back from my break :D <3]

Kirishima:

There’s no denying that Kirishima is a ball of positive vibes who can practically be-friend anyone, including grumpy ol’ Bakugou

You had been quietly observing him, how he was able to make the whole room roar with laughter at something he said and suddenly you felt a little alone, sitting in the dining room eating some food on your own

Of course you were friendly with all of your classmates and you spoke to some of them more than others, but you were the closest with Kirishima

You felt loneliness creep into your heart as negative thoughts made their way into your mind–You’re not important to him, he talks to everyone like that. He’ll find someone more interesting than you one day and you’ll be all on your own. Why can’t you charm the room too, hm??

It was like that for a few days, those negative thoughts just dug you deeper and deeper into a hole of loneliness to the point where you stopped going to the common room and hanging out with everyone as you settled with sitting in despair on your own in your dorm

I feel like it would take Kirishima a while to notice that something is off with you, but one day after turning to say something to you, he realizes that you’re not there and he’s scratching his head, leaving everyone to their own conversations so he can look for you

He finally checks your dorm and sees you there on your bed, scrolling through your phone with a frown on your face, which makes his heart break

He’d ask you what was going on and you’d just tell him that you didn’t want to get in the way of everyone's fun

“Y/N, I have the most fun when I’m with you. I’m just sorry I didn’t notice your feelings sooner. I can get a bit carried away in a room full of people, but out of everyone here, you’re the most important person to me. I don’t want you feeling lonely so long as I have a say in it. Let me know if you feel like that again. Okay?”

You were relieved to hear that he did still care for you and you agree to his words, making a mental note to not let your mind get the best of you

Kirishima would spend the next few days giving you his undivided attention and he’d even find a way to include you in his conversations whenever he does talk to your classmates–he never wants you to feel lonely ever again

Todoroki:

Todoroki is used to being on the sidelines; he practically was on his own growing up thanks to his father…so once Midoriya took him into his inner circle of friends, he couldn’t imagine being lonely anymore

Because of his own experience with feeling lonely, he realizes your own feelings pretty quickly

He notices you sitting on your own and watching everyone from a distance, but as soon as he looks at you, you’d look away

He approaches you straight away and takes a seat across from you, “Do you not like our classmates? If you don’t then I can just hangout with you, just the two of us.”

You’re taken aback by his question, immediately shutting that thought down. It wasn’t that you hated his friends, you just didn’t want to intrude on friends that were already his and not yours

Whether it’s because you’re shy or just intimidated to befriend his friends just because you were close to Todoroki, he lets you know that you’re more than welcome to join his group even if he isn’t there

Todoroki would grab your hand and drag you off to the group consisting of Midoriya, Iida, Uraraka, and Tsuyu, who greet you with grins, instantly welcoming you and starting up conversation with you

Aside from including you in his friend group, Todoroki would try to pay more attention to you and spend one on one time with you whenever you were both available

He never wants you to go through the loneliness that he grew up experiencing ever again and he’d pay extra close attention to you incase it happens again so he can put a stop to it quickly

Bakugou:

Bakugou on the other hand likes to be alone for the most part, even though the Bakusquad hardly ever give him a moment to himself, so he doesn't realize you’re feeling lonely immediately, simply because it’s not something he’s ever really felt

You had been trapped in your room studying for this exam day after day for about a week without a word from Bakugou or any of your friends

You figured someone would stop by to check on you or entertain you whenever you took a break, but it had been uncharacteristically quiet in your dorm

Little did you know that Bakugou knew you were studying and warned everyone to not bother you so you could focus, not realizing that the lack of human contact was bringing this cloud of loneliness over you

He finally notices your change in demeanor one day as you’re both walking back to the dorms together

He asks how your studying is going and you kinda shrug him off, not wanting to be mean, but you felt hurt that he wasn’t going out of his way to spend time with you when you needed him the most

He stops in his tracks, “What the hell did I do now? I haven’t even bothered you for the past week so why the cold shoulder?”

“That’s exactly it! You haven’t stopped by or texted me or anything for the past week. I’ve been on my own without human contact for all that time, I feel horrible,” you let out, feeling a little relieved to have that weight off your shoulders

He doesn’t know what to say about that, but grumbles an apology and shoves his hands in his pockets as he continues to walk to the dorms with his bag slung over his shoulders

The next few days are relatively a lot less lonely as a few of your friends stop by asking if you’re free to hangout for a bit, which is when you’d take your breaks

Bakugou would start coming to your room wordlessly every afternoon with his own textbooks and homework, making himself comfortable beside you at your desk as you both do work in a comfortable silence

Even if he wouldn’t speak much, so that he wouldn’t disturb you, just having him there with you every day made the world of a difference

With him by your side, the loneliness that once filled the air of your dorm was long gone

He’d feel a little guilty about giving you space before, so he’d do anything to make it up to you

REQUESTS ARE OPEN :D

Posted: 3/28/2022

[shorkbrian]

ASKS

Hello again, asks are compiled under the cut. Please block the tag #shorkbrian answers a lot of asks# If you’d prefer not to see these types of posts from me. If I haven’t answered your ask, it’s because I’m saving it for a thirst, drabble, or fic.

I don’t ignore asks, but sometimes getting around to them overwhelms me lol. pls accept my apologies lol k here we go

I am very glad, I legit was so scared that it was too long and that it’d be disappointing bc the smut wasn’t super IN YOUR FACE yknow? But man am I glad to hear that.

I’m looking directly @ you

Someone noticed omg!!!  A lot of times I just put whatever song I played on repeat while writing that fit, but I have a *yandere* playlist that I listen to and it gets me going. Ty for noticing!!!

I’ve considered opening them permanently but I just... idek. I’d have to start deleting or ignoring the requests I don’t vibe with and Idk how to handle that lol. But thanks for the well wishes, hope your next few months treat you well friend!

Watermelon sugar why

Srsly you’re sweet but just wait until I start to really get going with all my nasty kinks okay, then you’ll be rethinking this strategy hunty lol!

I literally stalk @.vermiliren and @.kazooli and @.seita lol. Maybe when I get my blog more cleaned up, I’ll create a list of creators that I enjoy, along with fic recs. For now, here’s a link to my AO3 bookmarks which I read one like almost every single night bc I’m a horny gremlin.

I am the shark king. Sharks are my thing bro u don’t even know. I love them so much, they're dumb and big and beautiful and yeah I wish I was a mermaid who got to swim with them. Also I changed it bc I’m trying to make my blog more *professional* and all that so I can start being taken seriously askjakjdf

Compliments suck, if I'm being down and out honest. This does not bother me at all, I’m just unsure how to respond. I think I would prefer no comments, but I’m trying really really hard to just say “thank you!” and move on before I get uncomfortable. Having to fight with someone about how I perceive my self worth is exhausting, and especially so for the poor person that was just trying to say something nice and be nice to me. 

They do make me quite uncomfortable my dear lad/lassie/lasso. Say what you wish in the tags tho ! I don’t really reply to those, so there’s no pressure on me to have to say something back. I do however, see all the tags ppl use and some of them make me laugh so hard cause they’re so spot on, and it makes my day. like “Mark me down as scared AND horny” and “Bakugou better be able to bench 165 cause imma throw my fatass in his mf lap” and it kills me.

I SCEREAMED AKDHGSYDGASJSD this is the only format I'll be taking asks in now, no compliments just a yes/no answer to if my works help u cum god bless

you used the /gen!!!!! IDK what these are called but the /S and /gen and /J save my life!!!!

Frick you’ve figured me out, I do try to put like a nail-in-the-coffin sentence at the end. A lot of times it never works right, but I cannot for the life of my figure out how to end a single post ever. If anyone knows hmu pls ty

(Also ps I checked out ur blog cause yans are my jam and it is very much Not garbage!!)

That’s very kind of you, but pls don’t stay up past midnight it’s bad for ur Brian you’ll make bad decisions bro trust me all of my stuff is written after midnight

You will lafff..... but I will tell anyways..... I was prescribed a “life coach” after I got out of the hospital, which was really just a poorly disguised softcore “make sure u don’t yeet urself” type of thing. He had me write down things I liked about myself, and when I returned the sheet of paper still blank, he wrote stuff down for me. Like five sentences of “My hair and skin are unique and special” “I like animals and enjoy being kind to them” “I am worthy of respect” etc etc. and I had to look in a mirror twice a day and say those sentences to help “boost my self worth”. It sucked so bad dude, and I like got upset about it every time it came up, until finally my therapist was like “... this aint doin this sad bitch no good” and my parents got designated for yeet watch instead.

I know, logically, that (the majority of) people are not purposefully taking time out of their day to make me feel bad. They're trying to be encouraging and loving, and I appreciate it so much. But like... what do I say? If I say thanks, it’s almost like acknowledging what they're saying as true, and I can’t live with myself thinking I’m more than I am. I’m sorry you’ve had experiences that make compliments difficult for you also, I understand bro and I hope that your future holds healing and peace for you. 

Hopefully I won’t vent as much anymore lol, I’ll try to do that on my sideblog where I reblog really trigger-y memes akjdafhkjf. But thank you for your kind words bro, they’re appreciated and put in a nice lil jar.

Ah dw! This doesn’t sound like a jab. I think all of us r so sad n depressed and feel unworthy of love, so the fantasy of a Yan coming and forcing it on us and not leaving even when we lash out is just..... so attractive my heads gonna explode

me, thinking about kiri at any given moment like:

I have the next Hybrid! Kiri fic like lined up, but I’m so demotivated be I was SO CLOSE to finishing, and then wiped my computer like an IDITO

Waso, I’m taking horseback riding lessons bc my mom went:

and my grandpa told me that one of his horses was named Awaso and I immediately thot of u fun fact. But you’re so very kind, and I enjoy seeing you in my inbox. I’m never tired of u homie. You are loved and important, and it’s not an illusion. Even random strangers on the internet can feel soft towards you bro, and dats me, I’m the random stranger that likes u.

So I took Russian for a year, my dear friend, because I wanted to see if the language myth of “Russian is the hardest, Korean is the easiest” was true. I would say yes. So instead of like translating this and typing out a coherent response, I’ve resorted to google translate I’m so sorry but Виктор мог плюнуть мне в глаз, и я бы поблагодарил его. Also, the way Vitya is written in cryllic makes my heart swell it looks so cozy idek what I mean by that but it does? I treasure you man, hope to see you around in the new year and maybe??? we be good friends

Can any year be good when Kirishima Eijirou doesn’t exist?

cryface;;sad.jpg

I just imagine anyone who comes across my stuff, sitting at their computer shocked and slightly horrified, maybe turned on like

Daddy Aizawa makes me

Wait!! I have something to aid your troubles!!

ur welcome now u can be horny whenever you’d like 

pls every time we talk about Kirishima I have to act surprised like 

LISTEN BBYGORL I have had therapist Suga in the works since *checks notes* November. I am excited for it yeahhhhhh but sadly, I don’t think I will be continuing piano teacher Suga. The story is petered out in my mind, idk where it would go. Therapist sugarbird tho? We have some thots about this. Coming soon to theaters near you

[facets-and-rainbows]

Volume 11 question corner (historical restoration)

Welp, one of my posts [here] got flagged DESPITE BEING ENTIRELY TEXT but it’s a reblog from a deactivated OP asking for a translation and CANNOT BE SAVED, so I’m gonna repost it here for posterity. Enjoy this quaint ancient translation of some volume 11 extras.

December 8, 2013

todo-john-august-cat:

BEGGING FOR JAPANESE-SPEAKERS OR JAPANESE-KNOWERS

to translate at least one interesting fact from the info lists. (maybe Lightning’s class and meister type if there is it)

please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please (Q,Q)

desktop-warrior:

Here’s what I got from Google Translate, combined with my very rudimentary knowledge of Japanese grammar. Don’t quote me on this. It’ll likely be quite inaccurate.

Interesting facts for Angel: - “Joke is not through” - I’m assuming this means that others’ jokes at his expense don’t get through to him, or he takes it all in good fun. Or, HIS jokes don’t make sense to others. - “Demon sword Caliburn enslavement” - Also a tricksy one; from the wording of it, I’m assuming it means he’s ‘enslaved’ Caliburn. - Feminist. No joke. - “No mercy to those identified as enem[ies].” Duh! :D

Interesting facts for Lightning: - Cynic - “How it is called Lightning, which was quite strong enslavement familiar.” From what I gather, this means that Lightning got his nickname from a powerful familiar demon he uses. Which means he’s a Tamer, and we might get to see him in action soon, hopefully. :D - Something about either hating not showering for a week (quite long, if you ask me), or not minding that he doesn’t shower that long and he does so quite commonly. I guess that goes with his scruffy appearance. - “Weak and cleaning.” Probably means he’s slovenly, which wouldn’t surprise me.

Now, for Lightning’s Meisters: it looks like he has all five of them, not surprising for an Arc Knight, but it looks like he got one of them (Tamer) twice. Again, don’t quote me because I’m guessing here based on images of the Exorcist ranks list I found online.

And, ah, if I could ask for a teeny favour, if you can: does Godaiin also get a character profile in Volume 11? I really like his character, so would you be able to upload his profile if he has one? If he doesn’t, or if you don’t want to, that’s perfectly fine.

todo-john-august-cat:

omg, what a clever people on internets ! thank You so much

unfortunately in the 11th volume there are only two profiles, BUT Goddain appeared in characters card (idk what it’s proper name) for the first time

[broken image link, used to be a pic of that page]

(I’m not good in tumblr :( is this picture clickable and downloadable?)

desktop-warrior:

Oh, haha, there was nothing ‘clever’ about what I did! I’ve enabled my keyboard to be able to type Japanese characters. So I copied out the facts and then put them through Google Translate. I took a first-year Japanese course in university, so I understand mostly how Japanese grammar works. I looked at the results and interpreted them in the way that made the most sense to me. You can talk to anyone who knows a little more Japanese and they would’ve done a much better job than I did. :D Nonetheless, you’re welcome.

And thank YOU for uploading that character card! What I wanted to know most of all was Godaiin’s first name, which I do now.

facets-and-rainbows:

Your translations seem pretty darn accurate as far as I can tell : ) “Joke not through” means that Angel doesn’t get jokes. I had to look up フェミニスト in like three dictionaries before I was convinced that it still meant “feminist” in Japanese, but he is indeed a feminist against all expectation. “Enslave” is a strong word; maybe “employ”? “Lightning” is apparently a title given to some sort of master Tamer/Aria (I think?). I don’t know what the second “Tamer” meister is. I don’t think it’s been mentioned before. He’s bad at cleaning and bathing, like you said.

I have volume 11 here, so I guess I might as well paraphrase the fan question corner thing they’re doing. It’s got some neat little facts.

-Angel’s middle initial is A, not O. The times when it was O were typos. -Angel is half English and half French. He and Lightning are canonically multilingual (Angel claims to have dabbled in 8 languages!). They are actually literally speaking Japanese in their scenes. Not just for the reader’s convenience. We’re just gonna go with the explanation that all the foreign exorcists are good with languages because it is, in Lightning’s words, “cooler that way.” -Rin sleeps with his eyes open. A lot. It creeps Yukio right out. -The sandwich Shiemi eats in Chapter 46 is made of herbs from her garden. It was “bitter, but good for you. Probably.” -Paku is doing fine in regular school despite seeing demons all the time, thanks for asking. -You can get TO cram school with magic keys, but you have to take the long way back unless you have a key for your next destination. -Rin is the easiest character for Katou-sensei to draw. Angel is hardest because hair is hard. Lightning is also kind of hard because she’s not used to him yet. She can’t pick a favorite character because she’s spent years of her life developing and identifying with each and every one. -Mephisto is impressed that you noticed how his fingernails only look pointy when he’s not wearing gloves. But you shouldn’t worry too much about it. He’s a shapeshifter and he can do whatever he wants. -If you want to know what class everyone is in in regular school, you’re gonna have to figure it out yourself from the school festival scenes. The information is there. -As previously covered, Godaiin’s given name is Sei. He apologizes for it. -Yes, Amaimon’s face was smoking when he came out of the cuckoo clock in volume 10, just like it was when he went into the cuckoo clock in volume 4. Yes, this is because time is meaningless inside the cuckoo clock. -Caliburn, Angel’s sword, is a trans woman in the manga despite being a cis woman in the anime. It doesn’t matter to Angel whether his sword is a man or a woman. But don’t get your hopes up, Caliburn, he probably didn’t mean that in QUITE the way you think he meant it. Angel’s kind of dense. -You have to recite a demon’s Fatal Verse word for word. Unless you’re really good. Like, Lightning good. Then you can freestyle abbreviate it. -Mephisto will neither confirm nor deny that he is the Mephistopheles from Goethe’s Faust. -If you can’t see demons, can you see Rin’s tail etc? The answer is SURPRISINGLY COMPLICATED. Rin says regular people can’t see the flames. They CAN see the ears, fangs, and tail, but no one seems to mention it. They don’t notice much. Then Mephisto talks about perception and the human brain and inattentional blindness for long enough that he has to be cut off. -How’d you like the cross-dressing, guys? Rin: It was funny! Suguro: I feel like I lost a part of myself that day. I don’t want to do it again. Konekomaru: Agrees with Suguro. Shima: I thought I was really cute but not as cute as real girls lol. Yukio: It was part of the mission. -If the twins are complete opposites, how is Yukio’s cooking? Is it edible? Well, he doesn’t really cook much at all. It’s totally not because he cut himself as a child and is afraid of chopping stuff NO IT’S NOT SHUT UP RIN. -Yes, twelve-year-old fan, it is okay if your original story copies Blue Exorcist a lot. But once you become a manga author yourself, you’ll need to branch out. You’ll understand when you’re older.

[marie-bluem]

Hi, it’s been a while since posted, rebbloged, and wrote an entry on my blog. I don’t know if any of you will read this as it has been a while since I posted anything (it’s also okay if you don’t like or reblog this post to let me know that you have read it! I know most of you have liked to remain anon (hope one day I could know who most of you anon are though ^^) but anyway, thank you to all of you anons and mutuals who still follow my blog and have sent me soft, kind anon asks  (˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ )  I really appreciate it. I actually thought most of you would have unfollowed me after being on a hiatus for a while since last November, but you didn’t and have continued to stay with me through my tumblr blog journey which in some sense had become an important and precious part of my own journey haha. Anyways, thank you for silently supporting me, respecting my personal entries by not reblogging them and asking me about it first if it was okay to do so 💖. Thank you for respecting the type of content I have reblogged and posted on my blog despite not maybe being the exact same content you might originally followed me for (as it is after all my own personal blog and space) and respecting each other’s preferences and themes 💖.Also thank you again for all your fun, positive and soft anon asks. I’m sorry if I haven’t gotten the chance to answer some of yours (I will try my best to do that soon!) or always seem to respond to them a bit too late but I want you to know that I really have appreciated them all and that they have all brightened my days thank you ✨🌸💌. I hope that all of you and your family have been able to stay safe, happy, and healthy during this dark situation. I pray everyday for this situation to end soon. I didn’t know how 2020 was going to be like after what happened towards the end of 2019, but I was hoping for 2020 to be brighter and full of nicer surprises and chances as it was going to be my last year (senior year) at my university but I guess that’s the thing about life- it’s unexpected and anything can happen from one moment to the next. To be honest I wasn’t actually sure, since last Nomvember, If I was going to come back onto tumblr and continue posting or reblogging or not. A lot of things happened towards the end of last year and some things at the beginning of this year that led me to have less free time and be less active on social media. One of the main reasons why I stopped being less active is because my school work and schedule slowly started to become a bit more overwhelming again and I was starting to become a bit worried that I might start feeling bad like I did during the winter semester of 2017-2018. At the beginning of this year I began my final year at my university so because I have already completed all of my general courses and core requirements to graduate, all of the classes that I have left to take are strictly ones required for my major. So, because I’m a biology major most of the classes and labs I have left and started to take at the beginning of this year are all either biology based, chemistry based and just one physics based and all of them are worth between 3-4 credits so the grades that I get in those classes are heavily weighted and can either greatly benefit my gpa or lower it by a lot which I can’t really afford to happen because sadly almost all of PA programs are very petty and often highly prejudice when it comes to applicant’s gpa, grades (particularly grades on the science courses they require an applicant to have taken in order to apply for the program), as well as the amount and quality of patient contact hours an applicant has because after all sadly medicine and healthcare field is a very competitive field so yeah me and my friends like my close friend Erika can’t afford to get C’s as our final grade or do bad on those classes required for our major and PA programs. Anyways, because of that at the beginning of this semester the classes that I needed to take and started to take are Organic Chem 2 + its lab component, Molecular biology + its recitation component, Physics II + its lab component, clinical medical terminology and its immunology component and because of that it was hard for me to organize a schedule that would be okay with me since I would have to commute to university. Because my organic chem lab was long as well as my physics lab I couldn’t fit more than 2 classes on some days so my schedule ended up being one where I was commuting to school 4/5 days of the week and on 3/4 days I was waking up at 4:50 am and leaving my house at 5:30 am to try to get on time to my morning lectures on those days and was getting home at around 9:00 pm on some days because of my chemistry labs and lecture. So because of that I was having to stay up very late on weekends and on some weekdays working on a lot of pre and pos-labs and lab reports as well as trying to find time to catch up on revising material for some of my other classes in order to be prepared for exams and quizzes. So yeah, because of that I was slowly starting to feel overwhelmed, tired and bit anxious once again because I wasn’t sleeping well so because of that I decided to take break from all social media and stopped being active on my blog to give myself a break from technology and take care of myself more and give myself more time to rest.Thankfully though I now knew what to do to start feeling better whenever school starts to feel a bit overwhelming so I didn’t feel nor have felt as bad as I did in the past like in 2017. Also even though the classes did feel very overwhelming at the beginning of this semester, I was able to find ways to feel better, destress and handle those classes and soon enough I started to get the  hang for the pace of all those classes specially now since all of my classes got moved online. Also, this semester I also had two of my close friends who were taking most of those classes with me and so I was actually really happy this semester that I had some close company whom I can rant along with during exam times lol  so I’m really thankful for that <3. I’m also really thankful to them and my friends for listening to me rant about my days lol, ranting along with me about shows and dramas were watching, celebrities and artists we like lol and just cheering up me through these past semesters and taking me to try new things and activities like  roller skating even though most of us couldn’t skate ;-; lol but it’s okay I’ve had a lot of fun and reminded me of when my elementary school would rent roller skates and had roller skating parties in the gym after school omg. Anyways, yeah because of that I went on a hiatus on all my social media because rather than distracting me it was just making me feel more sad and I don’t know I just had no motivation to post anything or even write because I was just really sleepy and tired. For that same reason and other ones, logging onto my tumblr blog started to feel more like a routine and started making me feel sad so I slowly started to drift away from it. Actually because of that I’m trying to be a bit active on my blog again to see how it makes me feel during this time of social distancing. Depending on that, I don’t know if I’ll start being very active on here again or slowly start being less active again or decide to take big break from tumblr again. If I ever do decide that I will not continue blogging on here in the future, I don’t plan on deleting my blog because this tumblr blog has in a sense become like a very personal and precious archive of entries of different points in my life. This blog has in a sense served as an archive for the various emotions/ moods and thoughts my teenage and young adult self has felt and thought as well as an archive for all the various things I have loved, liked, become inspired by and fangirl over lol so yeah I don’t think I could ever bring myself to completely delete this blog. Also I’d like to think that hopefully some years from now into the future when I’m older it will feel nice and nostalgic to have this blog to look back on some of these things archived in this blog and would make great stories to talk about with my friends who also had their own tumblr blogs or my boyfriend, husband or kids idk lol and just smile and laugh about the things that my younger self used to feel moody about, loved and continue to love and or fangirled and probably continue to fangirl about lol and share with them all the cool music my present self  used to enjoy and enjoys listening to lol  and yeah. I think that is why I really love keeping journals, diaries and making music playlists -because they can help capture something intangible like feelings or memories one might have during a certain moment of time or one might feel or have about a certain group of people or person like friends and that one can then look back on, read or listen to whenever one might be in the mood to reminiscent those precious memories and feelings (also I’m just very weak and soft when it comes stationary, journals and journal designs and playlists ^^ I just think it’s nice and that journal entries, letters, and playlists are their own love language 💖 ＾▽ ^ ) Anyways, I’m really thankful  to all of you who still continue to visit my blog and hope that all of you are safe and healthy and continue to be safe and healthy. Also if by any chance any of you have all of your grandparents and parents close to you continue to be nice to them, maybe try to use this time to spend more time with them  if you can , even if you aren’t at home but are close with your parents and family, remind them of how much you love them or simply ask them about their day because this life can be unpredictable and anything can happen from one second to the other. Also because I now will have a bit more free time I’m going to try to start reblogging some things on here again apart from getting back into some of my old hobbies like drawing and painting which I’m excited to do but also kind of a bit scared because I haven’t done it in a while, answer more anons and maybe even make a post with links to some of the playlists I have created/ song recommendations since some of you anons have continued to ask for some of my music playlists/ song recommendations 🤗 (be warned though, my music taste is kind of interesting/ all over the place?? lol i just enjoy listening to a variety of songs of different genres, language etc but yea hopefully you’ll like some of them like some other anons have and maybe recommend some songs to me too 🤗. Anyways this kind of ended up being way longer than I thought wow but yeah oh also if by any chance any of you still have some cherry blossoms still in bloom close to your houses  look at your windows and look at them whenever you feel down or need a change of scenery they are very pretty- the sight of them and of flowers have helped me feel better during this social distancing ✨🌸 Okay I’ll stop now ;-;