#(they are not both ~20ish.) so there's like an actual moral reason to not ship them.

[azumasoroshi]

going fucking insane over one of my wips because it's for a really small subgroup of a really small fandom of a really small fandom of a really big fandom that everyone fucking hates because people are cancelled like every other week and basically i cant talk about it with anyone without needing to explain like 60 pages worth of story that I wrote PLUS no one wants to talk about me because it's one of the cringiest ships in existence that sounds HORRENDOUSLY heteronormative on paper and like half the fandom calls them siblings even though they have been confirmed multiple times not to be and the other half is like oh the girl would never be in love with the guy because she's in love with the player!! as if being in love with her ideal of the player is healthy for her all and can't change or she can't fall out of love with someone whose interactions were limited to basically just looking at her, clicking through her text and DELETING HER

yeah so is about monipai as in monika from ddlc and senpai from friday fucking night funkin (i know. im sorry) im so down horrendous im on like seventeen doses of copium and counting and there's 11 total monipai works on ao3

one of them is mine and the other ones are either written by a 10 year old (because it's fucking fnf, what sane adult would write unironic fnf fanfiction) or unfinished (because fnf fics get no traction and unless you're fucking insane like me and have 60 pages of pure brainrot there is NOTHING keeping you going for such a nonexistent audience) and oh my god why am i here

the other fandoms ive been in recently are vashwood and shizaya and those are great!! those are normal!! vashwood has been getting boatloads of content that i cant stop looking at/reading and im getting fun ideas for aus and there's so many people in the community rn to interact with

and shizaya is a bit of struggle because the fandom is smaller but there's so much older content to go through/reread that it's fine and my posts about them get some traction and in some places you can actually talk to people who have been in the fandom from the beginning of time and overall it's a good fun time

AND THEN THERE'S MONIPAI. the ONE straight (bi4bi according to me and im always right) ship in fnf that no one likes because they're "sibling coded" for some god forsaken reason (and im usually all for sibling headcanons/prefer them over romantic ones but NOT THIS ONE SENPAI LITERALLY CONFESSED HIS LOVE FOR HER IN THE MOD) and it'll only make sense to people who like DDTO enough to not forget about it after playing like 19832529 other mods and even THEN like half of them ship it in the really cringe heteronormative way that dudebros ship them like GOD FUCKING HELL GET ME OUT OF HERE

ive never been madder about anything ive shipped ever. i LOVE getting comments on my fic and im surprised ive gotten any at all but holy shit

you know that one person who made like 3000 fics for their honeyworks throuple. honey i feel you cuz what the fuck is this

and with my usual ships i can send them to my friends who know what to expect and be like ok so these are the gayasses you're obsessed with this week but with this one. like the very premise is so ridiculous id be laughed out of their dms but this is literally like the most in-depth and serious ive gotten about any of my fanfiction plots ever (there's like themes and callbacks and motifs and everything, thats how you know it's bad). this is probably better written than my book drafts and it makes me SO MAD

ive even considered like. what if i just made them my ocs, since i've developed them so much and the plot is entirely my own creation. that might even be easier but the fic is so heavily based off of canon content that it just wouldntd make SENSE how am i supposed to rewrite all that canon lore when i take them out of it. i cant. im stuck tying them to ddtoverse

back to what i was originally talking about: basically i got this really nice comment on ao3 on my monipai fic and i was smiling really hard and spinning in my chair and i was inspired to try and write again so i update my. oh it's 71 pages. 71 page document to try and update chapter 3 and i end up going to my other ideas and workshopping them and suddenly ive penned down ideas for 4 DIFFERENT CLIMAXES?????????? AND THEY ALL HAVE THEIR PROS AND CONS AND THEY ALL BASICALLY LEAD TO THE SAME ENDNIG AND I DONT KNOW WHICH ONE TO CHOOSE AND I CANT ASK ANYONE BECAUSE IF THEY'RE INTERESTED ENOUGH TO READ IT I WANT THEM TO READ THE FIC AS IT'S BEING UPDATED BUT NO ONE'S INTERESTED ANYWAY

and trying to ask about which one i should choose while removing all incriminating details (read: monika and senpai's names) is so hard because there's SO much i have to explain as backstory and no one even responds to it anyway so there's no point :sob:

anyway i love monipai and specifically my version of monipai and it's legitmately ruining my life how's your day going

[conoscenze]

REFERENCE BLOBS! for various shit. posting it also because id like to hear opinions about any of the things written in this post.

victorian au; salice and adona are witches undercover as a widow (the first) and a snarky maid (the latter). they both migrated from italy to england in this verse aswell.

some people say that salice killed her previous husband just to inherit his allowance, but the truth is that there has been no husband since the start. she created that rumor for herself so to assure a general aura of danger around her. enough to keep people from wanting to snoop into her house and thus discover that she is actually a foul necromancer. ran away from venice to the london suburbs in order to escape from the local church’s investigations, who suspected of her resurrecting activities and “illegal treatment of corpses”.

adona is simply a witch that happened to commit a mistake as a kid, killing the village she’s been living with since as a child because of a foolish mistake as casting a spell for a pest. from there on she managed to escape a fate of death thanks to her former love interest, who died because of the same pest she caused; he gave her a new identity and a chance for her to live elsewhere, outside of italy.

timeline verses for

karmina (as koschei the deathless, the feared monster that stole wives and husbands alike)

kaede (teenager verse; everything is horrible and she is at her absolute worst. a kid that may seem edgy but has seen too much shit and has valid reasons to hate the world and humanity)

salice (younger verse / about 20ish & teen verse / 16-ish. both set way back. she’s a little different from those times, although not much, but it’d be nice to try and explore ?? you know?? although highschool times wouldnt be open ship-wise because of greta. got a gf to love)

min seo (HIGH SCHOOL VERSE. THE WORST YEARS. THIS KID LIVES THRU TERRIBLE ABUSE. SHE FEELS BAD. AND SAYING THAT IS A GREAT UNDERSTIMATION.)

and canon verse for salice, aka set in the necrologio canon. necrologio is set in the 90′s thus won’t have a LOT of the shit that we have nowdays but it’d be interesting anyways. she would be stuck with a dead teenage boy and a cop behind her ass investigating what she does, and not only that. idk. some more thoughts

obligatory greek pantheon au (i rly want salice as athena and adona as a dionysus of sorts, or maybe imagine salice as ares... yum)

SLAVIC pantheon au (i gotta do more research but boy salice as marzanna)

actually redesign and look over marza bc i love my goddess

client verses for salice (aka verses based off clients she has ---which are other muses?? anyone?? pls? she will serve u as long as u pay her)

adona with eyebrows

adona giving an insight on what she thinks about loving older people (from her own experience). also adona finally talking and letting all the plied up shit inside OUT

can you imagine karmina gaining a love interest? that’d clash terribily with her whole set of morals boy

kaede facing her fuckin issues help her please

adona and salice dating have u fucking thought about that???

THERES AN INVISIBLE PERSON SALICE DATES IN NECROLOGIO. I NEED TO DEEPEN THAT. BC THEY CUTE AF