#(not that i'd get help even if i wanted to because our healthcare sucks ass <3 but that's beside the point)

[zemos-bathrobe]

i genuinely don't know how to cope with what the world has become, and is becoming. i'm so scared and i don't know what to do

[hopeshoodie]

List 10 facts about yourself, then put this in the ask box of 10 of your mutuals. Learn to know your mutuals ✨✨

🥰🥰 highkey the reason I made this side blog (aside from keeping fanfic in one place) was to make friends because irl no one wants to listen to me rant about a mobile app for two hour so now that I feel that's happened I 💖💕💞💖💗 yall are so spectacular

Ok so 1. I work as a paralegal in a real estate law firm. Ideally I'd like to save up to go to law school, but college absolutely wrecked my mental health and having an 8 to 5 is the kind of stability my autistic ass desperately needs. Plus I want to work in a field that's actually meaningful, like criminal defense, because right now I'm just helping rich people move their money around.

2. I desperately need a pet. When I was a teenager I had frogs/snakes/an axolotl/a giant African millipede/rhino beetles and I adored having things to care for. Now that I'm finally living on my own I could get a dog... But I'm so afraid that I'll have to move and not be able to bring them with me.

3. I have no taste in music. Like none. I'll listen to the same broadway soundtrack on repeat for days and be perfectly content. Right now I'm oscillating between Hadestown and The Band's Visit. Like sure I like hozier and willow smith and fleetwood mac but like... I dont really listen to actual music unless I'm with someone else.

4. I'm really hard pressed to think of things and I'm only at 4, oh shit. Lmao. Um I've had covid-19? Last month I was so sick I thought I was dying and went to the emergency room. It was the most pain I've ever been in and I had an ovary get so twisted for so long that it had to be removed. After a bunch of tests they found out I had an ear infection, corona, and lymes disease all at the same time. I'm doing fine now, but like....... my body was absolutely riddled with bacteria.

5. I'm teaching myself how to tattoo!! When I was in high school I really wanted to be a tattoo artist but my parents unequivocally said no. But now that I'm an Adult with Adult Money, I bought a few machines and have been working on fake skin and oranges to try and improve my technique. Once I'm happy with that I'm absolutely going to try and tattoo myself. I already have six pieces, but I feel like one I've done myself would be the most meaningful.

6. I really enjoy sewing and make a lot of the items in my closet (I'm just really into dark academia and masculine cottagecore and that stuff's hard to find in the right fabrics). This year I sewed a renaissance faire dress based off of Erika's blue dress from Barbie Princess and the Pauper, but then corona cancelled the ren faire lmao

7. Ummm.... I write stories for the app Episode? They're not great? But I grew up coding and their donacode system is super easy to pick up, plus you get to write dialouge and code the rest, which is perfect for me. I suck at writing non-dialouge and am good at photoshopping and coding so it balances out.

8. I dont really 'stan' celebrities, but I fucking adore Chris Fleming so much. Go on YouTube right now and look up his special 'Show Pig'. It's so funny. Also Keanu Reeves and Britney Spears are both really good people #FreeBritney

9. We can just get all of the statuses out of the way, right? Lmao I'm an autistic and depressed lesbian whose got plenty of trauma and grew up poor. It's not like that defines my life, but it lowkey kinda does? Like those things absolutely shape how I approach the world. Idk. I'm also a leftist who thinks America needs to nationalize healthcare and abolish the police so 🤷‍♀️ also the only good presidents the USA has ever had are Jimmy Carter and FDR and even then they had issues..... All of our presidents have been racists or immoral villains because we're a 🎶🎵fascist police state🎶🎵

10. I have a policy where if something really excites me to my core I do it. After being depressed for over a decade, anything that really gets me vibing is a good thing. And I haven't regretted a thing- it's had me getting a lot of tattoos and going a lot of cool places and do some risky but fun stuff. One of these things was last year I shaved my head. I'd wanted to do it since I was like 12 because I've always hated my hair (is it dysphoria? uh oh we don't have time to examine that) and so I did it and I loved it. I'm now in the process of growing it out only because I have a tattoo on the back of my neck that I'm tired of people asking about, so I basically have a mullet rn and it looks REAL boo boo the fool. But it's okay because I'm the ~~prettiest girl in the villa~~~ lmfao

This was super fun. Imma have to go through my mutuals and see who already did this, but thanks for tagging me 💖✨