#(i'm still coping with the da4 news)

[leliwardens]

probably no posts exist but if they're out there....or anyone has any thoughts about a far more grounded take on divine leliana i would love to hear them.

like in its base form, the inquisitor is justinia in this situation (maybe marjolaine if you're feeling ~spicy~) where you're putting her in a position where she'll essentially be fighting, masking, "playing the game" for...the rest of her life really. even a steeled!leliana has to violently put down rebellions, which in itself could have a number of layers. the key difference is this is something she actively wants and asks for, but i feel it's an apt and interesting comparison.

she wants to make and does enact radical changes, this is good, but given centuries of how deeply ingrained it is in all of society how much work that would be not only trying, keyword trying, to undo it all but actually rebuilding from the ground up. leliana freeing the mages is a good start but vivienne has exceptionally realistic reservations and opinions for a complete dissolving of the circle system, society at large is mostly convinced mages are dangerous (they can be) and can react accordingly. even in a perfect world a proper system is put in place to go from circles integrating into a normal life, there is the public opinion and always will be (esp given in recent memory a mage blew up a chantry, and then again a temple.)

and this is all just one part of what leliana's contending with on top of being a controversial choice for divine (like justinia prior, they both weren't born into it), returning the shartan part of the chant (and ideally...doing something about the alienages), opening the faith up to everyone (extremely loaded on all fronts with this lmao), and, if romanced, marrying/publicly romantic the hero of ferelden (SO many thoughts on this esp if the hof is an elf/dwarf/mage/etc.)

idk i think there's a lot more to explore and think about than just "she's the best divine".

[deedala]

🎇 Happy New Year Friends!! 🎇

From the Diary of Virginia Woolf: January 2, 1931: Here are my resolutions for the next 3 months; the next lap of the year. To have none. Not to be tied. To be free & kindly with myself, not goading it to parties: to sit rather privately reading in the studio. Sometimes to read, sometimes not to read. To go out yes—but stay at home in spite of being asked. As for clothes, to buy good ones.

For today's return to WTW, i thought it might be fun to celebrate the ways in which we survive and manage to find peace and happiness in our one precious life here on Earth. And so...

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✨W e e k l y 🌟 T a g 🌟 W e d n e s d a y✨

Name: Deanna 🌱

Location: oHIo🌽

Astrological Sign: Scorpio 🦂

What's a TV show or movie you plan to re-watch this year? obvi i'm in a constant state of re-watching shameless but otherwise right now im thinking maybe some bob's burgers, some futurama, austenland...

Whats a book or fic you will probably re-read this year? ooohh you know...the usual suspects tbh: cooperative gameplay, itqd, faffy, love is a ballfield, none the wiser, the menagerie... AND...*IF* DA4 is gonna actually come out soon I'll probably re-read my fav stories from Tevinter Nights!!!

What is a song you will likely continue to play on repeat? uuhh right now its still chappell roan's whole album and hozier's unreal unearth. im sorry for cheating on my own question and basically naming like 30 songs lol

What's a tasty treat you look forward to eating more of this year? i dont think i managed to eat enough chocolate chip cookies last year, i should eat more. also i haven't had an andes mint in forever??? need some of those STAT. oh my god i totally missed out on girl scout cookies last year too!!!

What's a time sink that you will continue to sink time into this year? scrolling tumblr ofc!!!

Did you pick up any habits in 2023 that you plan to continue? not really?? maybe kind of reblogging my own posts more and trying not to feel bad about it??

What's your toxic trait? leaving petty little thoughts in my friends DMs while they're sleeping 😛

What is a coping mechanism you will continue to indulge in this year? ✨disassociation✨

Tell me something you like about how you look! my skin has been pretty nice lately, good job skin. (do you guys remember that old vine of the broken toy that would just say "sssskkiiiiinnnn" when squeezed?? i remember lolol)

Give me at least three adjectives describing things you like about yourself. loyal, generous, thoughtful

----------------------------------- Now for tagging nuggets: additionally I want to thank @mybrainismelted and @jrooc for helping me with this post!! @michellemisfit @mmmichyyy @darlingian @too-schoolforcool @juliakayyy @gardenerian @heymrspatel @heymacy @gallawitchxx @metalheadmickey @mickeysgaymom @thisdivorce @transmickey @tanktopgallavich @lingy910y @suchagallabitch @shippergirl121fic @the-rat-wins @thepupperino @energievie @callivich @lee-ow @purplemagpie @sleepyfacetoughguy @softmick @vintagelacerosette @sam-loves-seb @crossmydna @creepkinginc @suzy-queued @rereadanon @iansw0rld @milkmaidovich @sickness-health-all-that-shit @palepinkgoat @auds-and-evens @ardent-fox 💖

[broodsys]

thinking about this past year tonight. esp about how i stopped smoking weed.

weird to think it's been like a year now? bc i was a heavy smoker for a long time - many times a day every day and strong weed. i was pretty desperate to kinda... not exist? part of it was managing untreated adhd, (still unmanaged, but i've found ways to cope) bc i found that weed actually let me think about/engage with one thing at a time, which was very unique. but a bigger part of it was just using it to escape. and i don't resent it! i needed that escape at that time. similarly, none of this is meant to shame anyone who still uses it, whether for fun or for coping or for medical reasons or anything else

but i really didn't know what of myself i'd get back and what was lost, i only knew that eventually i'd lost a lot of friendships - bc i was scared of fucking them up, very aware that being high all the time was affecting me - and i lost touch with all my hobbies. so getting back into dragon age, although unrelated to me stopping smoking, came at just the right time. i threw myself into writing fic. sometimes i threw myself into it too hard and needed to reassess and take a step back. but i feel like i've found my rhythm with it now and i'm so, so grateful that i did. for a while i really feared that i'd lost my ability to write creatively. in retrospect i can see that this fear was a little naive, bc the skill can be built, but it was still a very real fear i had at the time. and i proved myself wrong! really wrong!

even now, i still think about smoking p much daily. sometimes there's an urge. but it's easily ignored, especially because i did not like feeling high in the end. i went from needing it to feeling pretty disgusted with an inebriated state kinda all at once. i kept smoking for a while even after i started to hate it bc i figured it was just a phase and would pass, y'know? the idea of stopping was scary. but i kinda just stopped. and it was okay. and it was good.

i'm still figuring myself out while sober. it's going to take time. but this year has taught me a lot about myself, and i'm rebuilding old friendships and finding new ones, i'm pursuing my hobbies, i care about my passions again... it's good. it's not all good all the time bc ofc it isn't, nothing is, but i like being and feeling like myself even when things are really bad. i'd prefer to be me dealing with the bad than someone who doesn't even feel real anymore "dealing" with the bad.

da4 is coming out at the end of this month, and it feels good. i feel ready. i don't know if i would've been if it'd come out earlier, honestly. it's an important game for me and i wouldn't have wanted to play it through the first time stoned off my ass. so i'm glad it's happening when it is, now, when i'm at my most ready, when i'm at the height of my passion for this franchise that has been part of my life for so, so long. it's good.