#(got to prove you're not a coward if you want to get his blessing)

[captain-dville]

Can you ask Nastya if she'll go on a date with me, I'm too scared to do it myself.

I'm not hooking you up with her. If you want to take her out, get your shit together and ask her yourself. She doesn't need some weak-willed idiot.

[janiedean]

you're so brave for posting your pics considering what you look like!

... are you one of the jc anons hanging around here? just asking for science.

anyway, you know what? fuck that, I never go for it because I feel like I’m bragging and I should probably stop doing that.

so: you know what? you’re right. I’m absolutely brave for posting a bunch of pictures of myself on the internet when I’ve spent two-thirds of my life feeling unattractive as fuck because everyone told me I was. actually, I was brave in the first place for dolling myself up, putting on a dress I liked that fit me and that I half-sewed/made myself for a character I dearly like that’s really not a fan favorite. okay, it wasn’t the most successful cosplay in existence and it’s improvable, but I did it also to prove myself that I actually had the stomach to go somewhere full of people with a damned fancy dress that excuse me looks good on me and have fun.

honestly? I never dared cosplaying anything before in my life. when I was younger I felt ashamed and I thought I was unattractive as hell so I never found the guts, in my twenties I had to work through all the damned internalized bullshit about my looks/my weight I had going for me (because of course I bought into other people making me feel like shit about it) and on top of that for reasons everyone here knows if they followed me for years I thought my chest looked ugly as hell to the point that when I got a breast reduction 70% of it was for health reasons and 30% was because my therapist actually sent me there with the blessing like ‘this is causing you endless psychological issues so you should definitely do it’.

then this year I went like, hey, you know what, I’m turning thirty, I’ve come to terms with a lot of stuff about the above internalized bullshit, even if other people don’t like me I honestly can’t give two fucks about what other people think of me and I want to have fun and do things I never did before because something else dumb like, hm, other people’s opinions about my looks or my hobbies or whatever fucking else.

so you know what? yes, I’m totally brave because even if I spent twenty years feeling like brienne of tarth does on any given day of her life I’m trying to get over it, I’m totally brave because I spent time and money (and thankfully I had people helping me with it bless them) and effort on making myself the damned dress, I’m definitely brave because I’ve always wanted red hair but bar a fairly bad experience with regular dye in high school I never went for dying it and this time I went out, bought the damned henne and did it myself (and it came out looking way better than I had feared it would). I’m absolutely brave because I put the thing on without chickening out and spent one day in it feeling good about myself because hey, I made it and I wore it and that hair looks good on me and no one else was doing that character. okay, fine, I could have been braver because I didn’t really have the guts to go on and say hi to other asoiaf/got cosplayers (yet) because it was the first time I ever did it, but don’t worry, I’m working on doing it next time I do it. (actually, I’m planning on bringing both that and my terrible face to a con where gwendoline christie is attending but nvm.)

and yes, I’m definitely brave for posting those pictures online, but not for the reasons you think. I am because I’m terribly self-conscious about sharing my looks and I know I have to get over it if I want to feel better about myself and make my own life better, and even if this morning I angsted over those pictures for a good half hour and on how to tag them and so on then I decided fuck it and clicked on post the damned things anyway. I’ve seen people objectively less good-looking than I am sharing cosplay pics where they look great because they don’t care and you know what, I always envied people who can just do what they want without worrying about that. so I’m trying to do the same. dearest anon, I didn’t post those pictures for you. I posted them for me and to show myself that I could actually have the guts to share them online. did I do it hoping to get compliments? maybe, because let’s all be real, it’s all good for the ego, but honestly, I don’t really think it’s too selfish. darling, I’m brave because in order to share those damned pics I had to get over or at least temporarily ignoring/getting over twenty years of thinking that kind of shit was for good-looking people with self-confidence and not for me.

and guess what? I don’t give a fuck about what you think about my looks, especially since you can’t even bother to show me your face. what I give a fuck about is that I went out, did it, had fun, caught the chance to have my hair the way I always wanted it to look and that I look good in it (even if I thought the rest was shit, that definitely worked out), wore a fancy dress that I would never have the chance to wear at any other moment and that since I had fun, my dear, I will do that again.

that said: I was brave enough to share (nice) pictures of me (for once, no one ever takes good pictures of me in that sense also because I hate people taking them for obvious reasons so my dear it was actually a brave thing that I had them taken at all :) ). you certainly were coward enough to not show me your face or even your username. I don’t know who out of the two of us comes out of it looking like they have more issues, but believe me, I’m working through mine. if you feel the need to go online on anon telling people they’re ugly, let me give you advice: you’re not working through yours and you should start as soon as possible.

and I sure as hell hope you don’t tell your friends this kind of thing, otherwise I honestly feel sorry for them. :)

[whimsically-ominously-auspice]

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Love her... She wears a casa around town in Cuba to remind others to stay home and go out when only necessary, make as few trips as possible and combine all your needs into one trip out.

It says "I'm at home .... "

It also says to me... "Im as safe outside as I am inside my home" it remains not to be in terror of the pandemic. Be comfortable about what the COVID and dangers of racism is out and about. Shit is gonna hit the fan. Be comfortable with it. Its gonna happen and there's no stopping it.

Idk who she is or that she expects her messages to go that far but for me they do.

Cops nervous to go to work. Be as comfortable out as you are in. No one is in those police cars they burn. Take out your personal belongings, be prepared to leave your car if necessary to be burnt.

If you are police all you have to do is Surrender.

You. We.

Its about equality.

The message is: you expect us to surrender to you. So surrender to Me. Give me your name and number. Tell me that you will cooperate and care about me.

Tell me you won't plant drugs on me. Tell me i killed someone of another race that i didn't simply because of the color i am

Treat me fair and with equality to truth and justice.

That is all a police needs to do. Surrender the truth. You ask. You demand. You punish until you find the truth. Make sure it is truth.

Surrender. Feel as we feel. Feel as hundreds of thousands of millions black men near a nervous white woman. But give us just the truth and we will obey your demands 0f "step back" and "move back"

Outside. In the public street. It is our home. Civilians and professionals. Treat us as you would in your home. Because we are all in our home we all share when we are in public.

Love.

That is what this blessed Cuban Woman says to me.

The police merely need to surrender.

The Atlanta PD. I ordered the CIA to inflict terror upon you. Go outside and your police car is in flames. Feet from your unwet down house. I asked them, i told them i demanded. Go fuck them up. They want to tell the public they don't care? Tell them NO ONE CARES ABOUT THEM.

3 have been set on fire. And 17 have been stolen. They decided as a team. On their own. To protect the town's assets in Zone 5. And to steal the police cars. You're not using them you're not qualified. You're unwilling. So they stole them instead. They arent afraid. They will fuck you up and kick your fucking asses. But they respect the Mayor. They're not afraid of her. They aren't afraid of anyone. They know in 15 minutes I'll have them on their way to a private island that is protected by the fiercest military in the world And they will lay around in paradise and no one will ever touch them for legal abuse. But they do respect her.

So they will repair the damage done by hotwiring the police cars and make a key via a locksmith skill for the patrol cars. And they will wait for her to fill them with a qualified officer. Because they respect her. They love Her.

I didn't not love nor respect her But my anger was very very high. And i thought fuck them, I'll buy her whatever police fleets she wants. Cause i want them to suffer.

But they're all "Sabrina, we get you baby but we know something else that's just a bit better for you and we're gonna do that. Its gonna fuck them all up real good and send the message you're saying. But we're gonna be a little bit more chill."

That's love. That's family. They confiscated evidence of these police officers possible wrong doing. A federal judge could and would sign off on the "theft" of those police cars. But we escalated and bypassed.

According to Tree. There's only 5 willing to go back to work. But they're also arrogant fools that tree doesn't even like. But he said leave them be. Let them work.

Leave them be. Bees sting once then die

Leave them alone is another story.

I get it. It was a justified homocide. I feel the same. They talked for over 40 minutes then the cop said i think you're still wasted. Take a breathalyzer. He was still too drunk.

At the same time he was just saying he would just walk. His sister lived down the road. He lied about being lost so he could say mistaken identity. Because he was there to check out for his kidnapping.

Because he knew, the cop, he was a kidnapper -- he felt it unsafe to let him free in the streets.

Watch the video, the entire 40 plus minutes. You will see exactly why I do not allow my CIA to engage in verbal communication.

This is exactly why I tell them "just kill at the first moment you can"

I protect my men and women of "Enforced Protection"

Now add to the knowledge of who he is and look at his necklace. It's designed to look like an undercover police badge in a leather case "to protect it from scratches"

You're on the street. He's drunk and angry. He kidnapps you with chloroform and ties you up, bound and gagged. He's a big man. He can do 23 (it's been proven Bec he's done it) people off the street in less than an hour. Call a van for pick up.

It was a justified homocide.

So you're a cop. And you know this. And You refuse to go to work. You know who and what he was and why he wasn't allowed to be free in the streets.

Then you refuse to continue protecting innocent citizens.

That makes me mad. You're no better than Rayshard Brooks. You're fucking letting it happen. Id fucking punch you dead in the face. All 25 of you.

Why don't you just start going out and kidnapping yourself?!? Huh?!?! You ain't doing shit But letting it happen!!!!

Prove it is justified if you're so fucking angry you wanna quit. Fucking prove it was justified and help them two arrested by doing it yourself.

Prove the justice by killing those human traffickers you know are. Kill them all in your uniform.

Instead you decide to be a civilian and serve war from your couch. Except youre not. You're nothing but a COWARD.

Just sitting on the couch. You're too scared to stand up to the District Attorney or make a meeting with the Mayor. You cower and you hide and you become what you're supposed to protect zone 5 from.

Because you refuse to protect. Every single domestic violence act. Every fire. Every lost child. Every single crime. You put that shit in your heart not that you couldn't get there in time. Not that you couldn't protect them because lies. BUT THAT YOU YOURSELF DID IT. You put that in your heart the moment you called in sick.

You yourself did it. Because people will start doing more bull shit. Because they know THERE IS NO COPS IN ZONE 5. THE PURGE IS ON.

Every single mother fuckera calling in coward crybaby committed those crimes.

It wasn't encouragement. You're guilty because it occurred. Its all on you. Its all your fault.

Next girl slapped by her husband. Or raped by her brother. That's the fault of Zone 5. They did it. May as well pulled out their own dick and got the pleasure. Too.

Its not a gimmick. Its the truth.

When APD of Albuquerque, New Mexico walked out with wooden batons. They too did every bearing by a police officer in a riot. That is who i saw. That is who i know.

I was beat as a little girl. 5 years old. And 7. For going and asking for help. "Sir could you help me..." I never got to finish because i was beat down.

Left bloody in the streets. Even raped and no one did anything. The cops did both..

So yeah FUCK YOU SURRENDER TO OUR DEMANDS OR YOU WILL SUFFER.

Im suing the City of Albuquerque in 6 different law suits. Including trauma i received when viewing a video of the APD in their riot gear with batons.

Not even protecting the statue!!!! But attacking innocent people in the streets while CRIMES AGIANST PUBLIC PROPERTY WITH VIOLENT STRENGTH was being committed feet away.

Personal trauma and suffering.

I still suffering.

I won't sue APD of Atlanta. Because I took away their police cars which will be returned to the city's mayor. She seems to have common sense and decency.

We already have plans for those two fired. To help them. Don't think I'm stupid because I get relaxed.

But the rest of that shit? You work for 911? 911 been calling. Over and over.

CIA does NOT ANSWER 911. That's not their job. We don't work for you. You dont call in sick and get paid to be a little bitch and order us around to do your job while you're being paid doing nothing and my CIA don't get money from the police. That's what APD expected.

THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT HUMAN TRAFFICKING IS.

Mi Casa. Su Casa. Treat it as it is.