#(esp on the hair because it has all 4 colours! it's so fun seeing those bits up close. for me anyway)

[alackofghosts]

sjfsjfh i keep staring at the sun bc i am so proud of it 🥹

[caffiene-fueled-fuckery]

My M*A*S*H Fic Olympics Contributions

Hello!! I thought I’d link the pieces that I wrote for the M*A*S*H Fic Olympics that ended on Monday. I didn’t get to do all 7 days, but I got 5, so I’m super proud! Links and brief summaries below!

Day 2: Weather

Title: When It Rains, It Pours

Pairing: Gen, Hawkeye & BJ, Charles & BJ

Prominent Tag(s): hurt/comfort

Word Count: 1,129

Status: Complete

Day 3: Horror

Title: Blood in the Water

Pairing: Father Mulcahy & OC

Prominent Tag(s): hurt/comfort, trauma response, blood and gore

Word Count: 2,159

Status: 1/2 Chapters

Day 4: Orange

Title: Shades of Amber, Heart of Gold

Pairing: Gen, Max Klinger & Kellye

Prominent Tag(s): POV Max Klinger, One-sided Attraction, Colour Theory

Word Count: 362

Status: Complete

Day 6: Injury

Title: God, Keep My Head Above Water

Pairing: Father Mulcahy & OC

Prominent Tag(s): Deaf Character, Hearing Loss, Hurt/Comfort, Developing Relationship, Mutual Pining

Word Count: 3,766

Status: Chapter 1/?

Day 7: Secrets

Title: Halfway Between

Pairing: Gen, Radar O’Reilly & Max Klinger, Radar O’Reilly & Henry Blake

Prominent Tag(s): s03ep24 Abyssinia Henry, Episode Continuation, Max Klinger Sees Ghosts, Grieving Radar O’Reilly, Canonical Character Death, Emotional Hurt/Comfort

Word Count: 1,868

Status: Complete

I had a lot of fun the past week writing all these pieces! It was definitely a challenge, especially being so new to the fandom and trying to gauge how my interpretations of the characters fit into the narratives. I’m typically an angst writer, so the short piece about Kellye was a challenge, but I ended up being really proud of it! Also, the OC in both the fics with Father Mulcahy are the same OC. I’ll put some details about her down below! Those fics were both floating around in my head before the fic olympics started so yeah, it was self-indulgent. Apologies, lol. If you give any of these a read, I’d love some feedback! Reblogs are welcome! :)

About my OC in the two Mulcahy fics:

Name: Della Woods

Gender: Female

Pronouns: she/her

Sexuality: Straight

Birthday: May 12th, 1922

Age: 29 (at the start of the war)

Hair Colour: Chocolate brown

Hair Style: curly, falls just below her jaw

Eye Colour: Light brown

Skin Tone: very pale

Height: 5′9″ (yes she’s tall for a woman, esp in the 50s)

Job: Nurse, has experience with psychiatric patients (though this doesn’t come through in the first fic, I hadn’t really thought about it yet)

Love Language (giving): Physical Touch (main), Words of Affirmation

Love Language (receiving): Quality Time, Words of Affirmation

Temperament: Energetic, Playful

MBTI: ENFJ

Scars or markings: One above her left hip that curls around onto her stomach (from an accident many years ago), lots of freckles

Her relationship with Mulcahy: they’ve been really close friends/best friends pretty much since Della joined the 4077th, which was just after Mulcahy did. He got very comfortable with her over time because she never tried to pull anything on him, but she wasn’t cautious around him and actually called him by his name (which is John in these stories bc I can’t keep up with how many times it’s changed, but he tells the other nurse to call him that so idk that’s what I went with). She’s very physically affectionate and likes to tease him, and she’s pretty much the only one who can get away with that. Aside from Hawkeye, she’s the only one that Mulcahy will be vulnerable in front of. 

While he’s shy, Della is a social butterfly, and she’s kinda wild when she wants to be, which makes him worry. It’s warranted, she’s a bit of a daredevil, lol. But when the roles are reversed and he pulls something reckless, she’s all over him. And again, aside from Hawkeye, she’s the only one that’s comforted him/seen him cry, and also is the only one that knows how to handle him when he gets sorta panicky (I wrote in another post somewhere that I headcanon him as having terrible anxiety). They both love each other a lot and overall it’s a very playful relationship, but don’t mess with either of them because you will feel the other one’s wrath. 

When it comes to jealousy, Della knows she gets jealous and tries not to, but ultimately fails. Mulcahy on the other hand doesn’t understand why his chest feels so tight when he sees her off with some guy or hears the other men talking about her (she sometimes sleeps around and dates but it’s really only because she can’t have the person she really wants. Or at least she thinks she can’t). They both have rather intense feelings for each other, but Della never said anything because she figured she could never have him and he never said anything bc of his vows and also a lot of denial. TLDR; they’re chaotic and playful but also very emotionally close and care about each other a lot. Best friends fr. 

Other random facts about Della:

-she’s incredibly perceptive to subtle changes in people and their moods

-99% of the time is chaotic and playful but when something happens or someone is upset she immediately cools to like 1% and is incredibly gentle. It’s like whiplash, honestly. 

-she’s terrified of birds. Especially chickens. But somehow, hot chicken sandwiches are her favourite...

-she has a friend back home who is deaf and knows very basic ASL

-her mother died when she was a teenager

-she’s from Philadelphia, PA, just like Mulcahy, but they never met before the war

-she became a nurse and moved into an apartment with her best friend, but her friend moved out when she got married, and now Della just has a vacant room in her apartment back home

-she shares a tent with Nurses Kellye, Baker, and Able

-Klinger knows she has feelings for Mulcahy but never says anything about it. Just sort of gives her a knowing look

-Frank actually doesn’t bully her like he does with a lot of the others. He actually seems to like her. And everyone is bewildered by this. But Della is a little shit and will use it to her advantage to help the others

-Mulcahy may be camp therapist tm but Della is group therapist tm. She’s also the only one who knows how to calm Mulcahy when he’s anxious (I head canon that he has horrible anxiety but I’m likely just projecting but its fine) and is the only one (other than Margaret and BJ/Trapper) who can calm Hawkeye when he’s it one of his rants or is overstimulated (back on my ADHD/Autistic!Hawkeye bs)

-She used to play field hockey

-She finds her dress uniform too stuffy and would much rather wear her worn in fatigues instead

-She’s a night owl and goes on walks a lot at night after stressful days

Anyway yeah so that’s my M*A*S*H OC. I might make another who is closer to Radar’s age bc let’s be real, he needs a friend his own age. Thanks for reading if you made it this far. I was brainrotting and needed to put all of this info somewhere so here it is!

[jinwoostro-archive]

(1) heya lanna!!!! slipping in today without a jinjin scenario aye (lmao i just finished typing and i lied there’s one at the end of these series of questions) and you don’t have to answer this series of asks at all but aye i ?? think ?? you’re having a hard time right now and i know it’s very cliche to say this but it will ??? get better??? i don’t usually talk about this so this is going to be a little choppy but ah fun fact basically

RIP LMAOOOOO i don’t remember which part i sent that was 2 but eyh i typed it out on a doc so here’s what i think it was: (2.1) fun fact basically i had to go on meds about 5 years ago bc of more or less (what i think are) the same things you’re feeling rn and ye it was ?? not a fun time there was a lot of helplessness and apathy and physical pain and Not Enough Energy or Motivation to Survive and i was forced into getting help and ?? i don’t know what your family situation is like or(3) i’m not saying i know what you’re going through or that i know it’ll help you but it’s def an option that worked for me and it’s something that might work for you too ;;;;but i’m going to say that i’m rly glad i stuck through the worst of everything because now literally everything is brighter (esp after our sons debuted i’m rly rly rly glad i stuck around in this world long enough to meet them and see them shine) and because now i know a lot more things about the world and myself that(4) i wasn’t so much aware of before so here goes this is what i learnt and this is me being sappy as fuckyou’re important. you probs watch doctor who lmao ur in the uk but do u remember that one episode when eleven went “i’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before”?? you’re so so so important and i know a lot of people think someone’s importance is based on how much they do for other people?? but it’s literally not true???? sometimes existing and being there that’s(5) enough that’s you being important because fun fact you’re irreplaceable!! you’re not important because you send nice messages or whatever you’re important because of the reason you do those things you’re important because you’re you and selfless and kind and so so so beautiful inside and out you’re important because you came into people’s lives and started existing and ?? that’s irreplaceable there’s a Lanna-shaped hole in everyone’s lives and the people lucky enough to get(6) the hole filled???????? goddam because you as a person mean so so much to me (even with your terrible memes smdh lanna i will never forgive u for baldstro) and if it so happens that you’re also lighting their lives up by existing because of the beautiful person u are???? a double deal tbh but listen you are so so so important because you’re you and nobody else can replace you ever not a bot not another person conclusion: i love you and you’re important to me and the other people you’ve(7) you’ve met on this godforsaken site and also i lost my train of thought but also consider this - jinjin sitting with you in a cafe, holding your hand and sipping iced coffee. he has his gold glasses on with his green hoodie (only because you stole his white one smh lanna why) and when he moves in the light you can see them flash slightly in the light. his hair is pushed away from his forehead so he can see better but sometimes a couple strands fall over his eye and you brush them away so(8) /you/ can see him better. and his eyes are soft and warm and the colour of chocolate and caramel and you wish you could somehow capture him like this, with the afternoon light in his hair and him looking at you with adoration and your hand in his. and he’s brushing his thumb over the back of your hand and looking at you with his head tilted to the side, almost as if trying to memorise you, when he suddenly says, earnestly, “what music do mummies like to listen to?”(9) WRAP MUSIC LMAOOOOOOOO I’LL SHOW MYSELF OUT -boyfriend!jinjin anon anyways i hope you have a good day :')

wow,,,i mean holy fuck that was a lot and idk if it’s because it’s nearly 4am or im kinda highstrung rn but askdn im a mess and idk im just crying.Unfortunately, my parents don’t believe i have any mental illnesses or that it is possible for me to get it so i don’t think it would be possible for me to get help :((But i’ll stick through it! I have really good friends and im grateful for all they’re doing and even if theyre not aware of it they’re helping me alot.okay this is dumb but when you mentioned that doctor who quote i just cried even harder because i know exactly which episode you’re talking about because that episode hit me really hard. rip he’s said a lot of quotes that have stuck with me all these years and it’s helped a bit too..tbh i didn’t really see an importance in myself like,, i found no reason why i should be here or why anyone needs me or anything like that. but, really, thank you so freaking much. bit cringe but this was kind of a realisation that i do matter in some way? rip it doesn’t sound real but fuckin hell it really just hit me then. i really fucking wish there was some way to show you how much i appreciate this and how much it means to me but,,,idk,,im kinda just shaken rn.ahem nYWAYS onto the jinjin part,,,holy freakin hell I can picture that so clearly in my head.tbh i would always steal his clothes bc they’re oversized nd i bet theyre the softest thing :’))) (just like him)honestly,  u write this too well, it makes me feel so many things :’)) (im highkey missing his longer hair now bc i wanna touch it now rip)istg,,,if he did that joke on me,,,i would stare at him for a minute adn then grab his face and tell him how cute and adorable he is while squishing his cheeks,,bc im freakin whipped for this boy

[r-o-se]

Just a tad bit over 101 thoughts on Produce 101 Season 2 ep 5 [watch it here]

Me: Hahaha 60 thats too many people I won’t talk about all of them

Me: Talks about 58 or so 

Welcome back to my p101 lets play number 763 today i will teach you how to make a diamond sword come for Park Jihoon’s winking stay for emojigate and sad teenagers

1.      It starts with an auditorium clip, BoA is talking about her experiences and a voice crack in Japan when she was a baby and the piano cover of Nayana is truly in the top 101 worst things I’ve heard in a while lmao

2.      I.O.I Sohye, Yoojung and Sohee are the MC’s for this cursed elimination episode

3.      They are showing how to vote and the sub just says ‘you cant vote anyways’ lmao u right bro

4.      Anywawys its time for my faves get fucked I’m gonna be real depressed

5.      I need to get a life I reciognize way too many kids from here

6.      NEW HAIR COLOURS HERE TO SAVE MY LIFE

7.      Some kid just got a shock out of the sudden start of dance battle music

8.      DOYEON AND YOOJUNGGGGG SPECIAL MC’S TO DANCE BATTLE EVERYONE ARE GOIN NUTS

9.      They put Bangarang on one A grader backflipped onto the stage

10.   Soo many people on the stage it’s a mess aahahah

11.   First battle is MMO Daniel vs Cra.ker Haknyeon Danny boy is b-boying and twirling on the ground and Haknyeon b-boys too pretty even evenly but I’m Daniel biased SUE ME

12.    Next Samuel vs CS ent Jinhyung, then Sungwoo vs Kim Yongjin and then GON ent Hong Eunki vs Park Jihoon EUNKI FUCKING HUMPED THE FLOOR LMAO

13.   Ok real talk Eunki is so flexible holy fuck now time for modern dance collab stage by Eunki, then joined by JungJung which is the prettiest fucking collab of this entire show this far wow I’m shook they twirl and shit so prettily msg me for link I’m on phone rn rip

14.   Is that….. Seunho??? Surely not??

15.   Hyungseob and Moonbok kings of embarrassing themselves and

16.   They played what does the fox say… rly now… and then BTS Fire… And then Very Very Very…. Who the fuck made this playlist lmao

17.   Ok they’re choosing the dancing king now we all know its Jaesuk but still

18.   ITS HONG EUNKI YOOO HE DESERVED IT GOOD BOY GOOD BOYYYYYYYYY

19.   Entire D grade got new bootsies thanks to Eunki’s performance yoooo both modern dance babes are there

20.   They playin Nayana on ungodly hours Daehwi looks like he wants to stab himself and everyone are dancing in their beds or on the floor whatever goes

21.   Someone’s sleepin in a Pikachu onsie

22.   Lots of half naked and confused boys running lmao quality content Baekho looks dead inside

23.   JONGHYUN GOT THERE FIRST GOTTA BLAST

24.   Some rando trainees stroking Guanlins soft sleepy face same lmao get it

25.   Some dude came up and he looks like he could snap me in half

26.   That dude is gonna measure their shoulders and get them to sweat blood probably

27.   How the fuck did Ren just do this w his shoulders omg what on earth

28.   Bunny Danik won shoulder competition with 60cm

29.   Little Woojin has problems with holding plank poor baby

30.   NOW PLANK WITH ONE HAND HOLY SHIT

31.   ARM WRESTLING WITH PLANK YOU SERIOUS

32.   Omg the dude who goes against Jihoon, it’s Sunghyuk I think, is like ‘will I get evil edited?’ LMAOO DUDE KNOWS anyways he won

33.   It is actual arm wrestle time damn son

34.   MUSCLE SHOT COMPILATION I APPREACIATE YE BOII

35.   Baekho can’t show his arms bc he has tats I’m so emo over this

36.   Lmao one dude winked during 1v1 arm wrestling and the other due is like ‘why are u making this weird’

37.   EVERYONE ARE DOING SEXUAL ASS FACES IM W E A K AAHAHAHAHA

38.   Kenta told his opponent to ‘eat well’ or some shit in Japanese which apparently sounds like ‘fucking bastard’ in Korean aaahahah

39.   Everyone are soo hype over this macho battle (Including me lmao)

40.   I think they are going against their song teams

41.   Bruuuuuuuhhh KIM YONGBIN IS RIPPED

42.   AAAAAHAHAH ITS BIL TEAM 1 POPULAR BABIES VS TEAM 2 BUFF FUCKBOIS THIS IS SO FUCING FUNNY AAAHAHAHAH

43.   Baekho: alright everyone come here

Team 1: *takes a step back*

44.   He fucking destroyed everyone POOR CHILDREN AAHAH FUCK DUDE

45.   Haknyeon played around with Guanlin aka the weak child of team 2 and now Baekho is taking revenge this is the most unlikely friendship of this show and I LOVE IT

46.   Guanlin is havin the time of his life laughing poor baby Haknyeon got his arm fuckin smashed

47.   Oh my goddddd its elimination time for reals now I want to fucking dieeeee

48.   Almost 25 MILLION votes in total holy fuuuuuuckkkk

49.   Everyone are scared as hell out of their minds and holding hands

50.   FCUK DUDE IF JINWOO OR HAN MINHO ARE DROPPING THEN I AM FUCKING DEPRESSED

51.   Park Woodam fell from 1st place from onstage voting to 68th overall holy shiiiiiiittt people are cruel

52.   If it’s like last season and they show all trainees one by one I don’t think I’ll say all of them out only the special ones esp to me because I’m biased ok SORRYYY

53.   One kid just got saved by his 3000 vote benefit

54.   INSU MADE IT FUCK DUDE THANK GOD HE DROPPED SO MUCH THO

55.   HWISEUNG BABE GOT THEREE GET EM HIGHJ NOTES AND HIGH VOTES MY BOY he fell too tho?? Everyone I love are falling w h y

56.   WOO DAM WOO DAM WOO DAM MADED ITTT aahahahah Sohee is supporting him too

57.   Me: I’ll only mention the ones I know

Me: *Talks about everyone*

58.   Kim Youngjin made itttt AND BYUN HYUNMIN THE KTIGER TOO YESSSSS

59.   Sunghyuk rose from 95 to 51 wooowwww holy SHIT HES CRYIN SO HARD BABY BABY BABY

60.   Miracles do happen kids

61.   Jungjung fell but still made the cut I’m so blessed

62.   RBW Hwanung made it but he has fallen a lot so many have fallen in ranks who are the ones who rose??

63.   Ha Minho made it… fuck dude I’m so depressed I really liked him so much… when the news broke out… I’m fucking depressed how could he do it? I was really rooting for him hard… I’m so sad how could he…..

64.   JINWOO MADE IT JINWOO JINWOO JINWOO MADE IT FUCK IM SO BLESSED FUCK DUDE JINWOO MADE IT

65.   If MMO doesn’t debut after this all together I’m gonna sue CJM

66.   Jinwoo was at 80th spot at one point fun fact he made it to 45 because hes so fucking great ok LOVE JINWOO I BEG U GUYS HES AMAZING

67.   SANGGYUN MADE IT TOOOO AND THE CUTE RAPPER FROM MANSAE TEAM WOO JINYOUNG TOO

68.   Visual choosing time lmao a number of them chose themselves

69.   Ong Seungwoo is so fucking sassy and pretty and KNOWS hes pretty his expressions are sooo good holy fuck

70.   Ren got 7th from visual ranking wow I’ll pretend to be surprised

71.   Hyungseob got 6 hell yeaaaaa DUDEEE Seunho got 5th for his baby image

72.   MINHYUN GOT 4TH IVE ALWAYS TOLD EVERYONE HE HAS THE  PERFECT IDOL LFACE KITTY EYES AND EVERYTHING NOT YALL SEE WHAT I MEAN NOW U OPEN UR EYES

73.   ‘When he’s not smiling he’s hot and when he smiles he is cute’ I AGREE

74.   Hwang Minhyun king of having single eyelids and a soft round nose and STILL being fucking perfect even to Korea’s killing standards

75.   Holy shit Guanlin is #3 both Cube boys soooo high ranked

76.   Top 2 is between Jihoon and Bae Jinyoung lmaoo classical cute idol visuals

77.   Jihoon won and even tho his wink is overhyped I do admit he is killer gorgeous

78.   Back to eliminations it’s sadness time

79.   ‘Full of expressions’ ‘Oh it’s Justin!’ It’s Jisung cmon

80.   ITS NOT JISUNG IT’S A KID FROM 93RD RANK  YEEHYEON HOLY SHITTT

81.   What is the bunny hop thing Jihoon keeps doing wtf its so cute

82.   EUNKI GOT THERE 36TH PLACE AND THE OTHER S.HOW TRAINEE DONGSU MADE IT TOO IM SO SO SO PROUD AND KIM YONGGUK AND KIM TAEMIN YOOOO MY BOYSSS

83.   YUEHUA FAM GOINN UP ONE BY ONE JUSTIN MY SMALL KIDDO LOVE U

84.   JELLY HEESEOK MADE IT GOD BLESS UP BLESS UP JELLY PRIDE

85.   KENTA YOOOO MY BABY JAPANESE RICKY PRETTY CUTIE BABY BOY

86.   HOTSHOT TAEHYUN MADE IT TOO HE LOOKS SO SOFT WITH PALE HAIR

87.   Everyone from Vibe have made it besides Hyunwoo…. God damn sad….

88.   BIG WOOJIN MADE IT IM HAPPYYYYY HYUNBBIN AND SUNGWOO AND SUNGWOON TOO AAHHHH TOOO FUCKK IM SHOOKT

89.   This is the ghost hidden camera ft emotional letter to yourself kinda cheesy lmao

90.   Aaaaahahah Kenta took the chair to swing at the mirror and Hyungseob actually fucking flinged his chair towards the camera, slipped on the floor and then ran out

91.   Seungwoo looks like the scream painting aaahahah fuck

92.   Guanlins reactions are so slow this is fucking hilarious hes like those sloths from zootopia

93.   AAAAAaaahahah fuck Moonbok was really into the talking to himself thing that when the ghost appeared he was like ?? what

94.   Omg they’re dragging Baekho’s beard now lmaooo my fuckboi babe NU’EST have been dragging his facial care way before p101 get on witht it

95.   MMO won’t shut up is the next talking topic apparently it’s because Jisung won’t shut up lmao I LOVE ALL OF THEM

96.   Jihoon’s fashion is the next thing in drag list aahahah poor boy

97.   Ok back to eliminations time to be sad

98.   ‘Loved by other trainees… Pledis Kang Dongho’ u sure they all look so scared of him lol

99.   Ren right after him 20th and 19th places and 18th is the little Woojin and 17th Euiwoong

100.   16TH KIM JAEHWAN MY DUDE MY DUDE YOOOO INDIVIDUAL TRAINEE PRIDE

101.   AAAAHAHAHHA SEUNHO WANTED TO STAND UP ASAP THEY SAID CUBE LIL BIRD KNEW IT AAHAHHA

102.   Moonbok dropped a lot goddamn this is weird kinda ironic considering I’m finally starting to warm up to him aahahah

103.   Sewoon got there Jinyoung got there

104.   BAEKHOS NICKNAME IS SEXY BANDIT AAHAHAH I BET HES HAPPY ABOUT IT AAHAH FUCK HES SO FUNNY

105.   MINHYUN BACK IN TOP 11 YEA BOIIIII

106.   Haknyeon is dropped to 10 wow damn ok but lbr mnet hates him for something they don’t show him at all lmao what did the poor boy do

107.   Guanlin is 9 lil kid aw WAIT WHAT HE SPEAKS ENGLISH??

108.   JONGHYUN IS 8  IM SO SO SO PROUOF OF HIM HE DESERVES IT SO MUCH IM SO GLAD HE GOT THERE BABY BOY HIS EYE CONTACT W MINHYUN BEFORE SITTING NU’EST LOVE IS REAL

109.   Daehwis rank dropped holy shitttt hes 7th?? Goddamn? Wow? From 2 to 7 goddamn WAIT HE SAID HE’LL BE LESS ANNOYING UR NOT ANNOYING BABY I PROMISE U CUTE

110.   HYUNGSEOB MADE ITTTTT FUCK DUDE  

111.   DANNY BOY DANNY BOY DANIK DANIK MADE IT HE IS 5TH I LOVE HIM SO MUCH HE AINT EVEN PINK ANYMORE BUT HE STILL BUNNY CUTE

112.   JISUNG HAS RISEN SO MUCH DUDE IM SO PROUD OF HIM also lmao Daniel almost fell over in his chair when he appeared

113.   Jaehan and Taewoong are a bit salty… I’m too ugh I love them so much I’m emo they didn’t make it…

114.   Dam son Seungwoo just said he’d wanna have a battle with Samuel he goin all out giving Mnet material aahahaha

115.   JISUNG IS THE THIRD BRUH HE IS THIRD HES CRYING I LOVE HIM FUCK THIS IS SO SAD MMO GETS SEPARATED AND JISUNG IS SO EMO FUCK THIS IS SO CUTE AAHAHHAHA HE HAS RISEN FROM 35 FIRST WEEK TO 3RD IM SO PROUD OF THIS BOY DANIEL HUGGED HIM ON HIS WAY UP

116.   Now it’s a compilation of good sides of Sammy boy and Jihoon

117.   Jihoon got over a million votes holy fuckin shit and Sammy boy is 2nd

118.   AND NOW TIME FOR THE 60TH PLACE AAAHHHH the candidates are Sangbin, Dongha, Hyunwoo and Wontak

119.   SANGBIN MADE IT THANK GODDDDD INDIVIDUAL TRAINEE PRIDE YOOOO HE RANKED LAST ONSITE VOTING AND NOW HES HERE IM SO SO SO PROUD

120.   Hyunwoo is tearing up during his speech…… poor boy got 61st place… this is so depressing truly a shitty rank to be at…

121.    So……. Moonboks buddy is off, Youngbin the nose boy got eliminated, MMO is divided, Yuehua Seunghyuk got left behind alone, Gunmin the kid who got hit with balls during his intro clip is gone and Im Woohyuk aka the kid mnet edited to look bad is gone too. Riperoni

anyways ya this was sad heres a screenshot of daniel almost falling overr w his chair + some other shit lol

holy trinity of ‘pretty and knows it’

save small cute sungwoon

[berrymeter]

what do u think of 4th gen kpop groups

omgg i basically like sent the same ask to alicia... i'm being watched /j. well. it depends on which group we're talking about but generally speaking i take issue with 1. all the music sounding the same, 2. all the concepts looking the same, 3. half those idols being like 15 when they debut and 4. groups no longer focus on durability or quality, only churning out content & "impressive" dance performances. Allow Me To Elaborate.

the music. you could play a song from any boy group and unless i know the song or recognise some members' voices i could not tell you who released that song. and girl groups are not exempt from that either! i can think of maybe four groups from 4th gen that have a distinct sound (and one of them's sound is Bad yes i mean the lost children), and like... yeah i'm gonna agree with alicia beets enceetee & bleakpink kinda ruined the musical landscape for 4th gen tbh all companies wanna have their own hit group so nothing's genuine really. it's all trying to appeal to an audience that lost its taste to streaming culture so you can throw a bone at them and they'll eat it. it's really sad to see like occasionally someone will have a good release here and there but it's nothing phenomenal, the groups that started out with their own sound eventually adapted to a more generic sound and while some can make it work they are not all onf.

the concepts... ugh. after school had a fucking marching band concept. vixx had their mv censored because their mv was too explicit like i can't even watch the uncensored ver. everyone in 2013 just lived with black eyeshadow in their entire eyelid area... there was drama! great outfits! now you look at music shows and boys are in fancy suits or Fancy Suits With Two Colours!, if you get lucky a boy will wear suspenders or a harness, but like... there's nothing going on... the girlies also look the same a lot of the time like they're all suddenly dancing in safety shorts and we're all still losing our minds everytime a girl shows up with hair cut above her shoulders. same with boys, any guy with long hair is praised even if the hair looks like dead hay and that isn't even limited to 4th gen it's just the 4th gen climate, i mean look at how many ppl obsess over taemin's ugly extensions! it's upsetting!! we have to live through oneus xion's flat blond hair with no volume still! no one's willing to be bold anymore the last time i had fun looking at looks it was just bc hyojin was a cowboy and jayus' lip ring 😭 and before that it was onf again during rtk... say what u will about their cover of everybody at least there was some makeup going on :( feel like pure shit just want fun looks back and none of these fake dark concepts where nobody actually looks threatening or scary or at the very least dramatic and edgy... channel your inner mozart l'opéra rock idk!! do something!!

the uh kids. i don't think i need to elaborate much but like when i see a 15 y/o debut i only think of how much i wanna strangle the person who debuted them like there's so much going on. younger ppl are so much more likely to be abused & manipulated & their boundaries not respected esp with girl group members and like, fame just isn't a life for teens! there shld be an age limit for castings like u should be at least 21 or something to audition imo (& like this applies to western celebs too who is letting their kids get close to grown adults the moment they get a little bit of fame? ugh just do ur homework)... and there are so many creeps just waiting for them to turn 18/19 so they can "legally" be gross about them. idk i'm just not into that lmao

and the performances... lol. groups these days barely have vocals and they never had rappers to begin with (i'm not qualified to talk about that in detail but i can definitely hear that every 4th gen rapper is not the rapper they think they are). if a group has an okay vocalist companies will just not train them anymore and focus exclusively on dancing, and they end up having to do the dancing AND THEN sing above what they reasonably can do bc the company refused to take care of training them, and like i really fear that in 10 years jongho will not be singing anymore beloveds not going to lie here... besides. the performances are always supposed to be this big show, all impressive and all, but 1. no synchronisation 2. they just steal choreos from each other at this point 3. there's no soul in it! they're made to dance choreographies they don't understand! they don't get how to move their bodies so it's just gonna look stiff and painful, and injuries upon injuries upon injuries are just bound to happen bc they're also rarely given the time to rest properly (or they just don't want to in fear of being let go or accused of laziness, stuff like that). it's not worth it anymore. you don't need the most intricate or showy dance moves to have a moving choreos, especially if it's sacrificing the vocals... like, those are supposed to be songs first and foremost, but nowadays it's more like a backing track for the lukewarm performance these groups give. idk. it's upsetting. who did this

so yeah i think not only 4th gen groups but the music overall that we've been getting in this 4th gen era have all just been a big letdown. and it's such a shame. some artists are still doing it right ofc it's not every single one of them but like above it all sm really is the blueprint for making even your old groups release trash music in 2021 (not you exo)

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All of the questions 😈

Jokes on you bitch I have time since I’m waiting for drag race to air but oh my god this is gonna be long so i’ll pull an Iza and put it under a read more 

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?

I don’t know

2. Are you outgoing or shy?

Shy, even though I don’t feel like I am, people tell me I’m shy

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

My brother when he comes here oh my god. I miss him. I’m going to make him watch a couple crazy music videos and possibly scar him. 

@lettiehigh and @akakuro4869-blog and @rippling-waves when I get back to Hong Kong and Tiff and Bella and Karl and Ellie and Miss R and everyone else

@samrull and Lettie again and maybe @lecafenoirx if I go to Bristol in September to see flor

4. Are you easy to get along with?

I’d say so! Unless you give me a reason to dislike you lol

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

Probably but that’s a stupid question since I don’t drink :)

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

Kind people. Usually more on the feminine side? Even the more muscular guys that I thirst after have a few feminine traits like a higher-pitched voice.

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

Nope, I’m going back to Hong Kong so there’s even less chance of me being in a relationship lol

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

Ryan Ross [insert tongue emoji]

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

Nope. I’m usually way too open, quite a few of my friends are this way too. Literally one time my brother and I shared a hotel room and the first thing he said when my folks were out of earshot is complaining how he can’t jack off for a whole week (I asked him why he couldn’t do it in the shower, he said it was too much effort to do so standing up XD)

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

Kasia or Iza about body image? define deep

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

“Call him or dump his useless ass?” to Lettie

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

Victorious by P!atD, Dodie Clark’s cover of Somebody Else by the 1975, I Need My Girl by the National, Pożyczony by Sylwia Grzeszczak and Honey by Kehlani

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

Yeah! People at school used to love braiding my hair because it was so long. And I like playing with people’s hair, because I can French braid on others but I can’t do it with myself :/

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

Sometimes?

15. What good thing happened this summer?

I’ll say last summer since it’s not quite summer yet now. Well, I was accepted into Edi, got a 38 on the IBDP which is not too bad, and celebrated my birthday with my squad (rip)

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

Yep :)

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

I fkin hope not 

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

My first actual crush or like, elementary school crush? But no on both counts

19. Do you like bubble baths?

I’ve never had one :/ I’ve never had a ~bath~ tbh. I want to try in the summer because home in Hong Kong has a bathtub. 

20. Do you like your neighbors?

I like my flatmates here, we like the same kind of porn and vines. I don’t know my neighbors well enough back home

21. What are you bad habits?

I trust too easily, I am intelligent but lazy when it comes to schoolwork (I procrastinate), I worry way too fucking much about everything, I have crushes on people that I should NOT have crushes on sometimes (see: gay men)

22. Where would you like to travel?

I answered this a while back I think but as far as I could remember it’s a lot of european places - Oslo, Aarhus (I’m going to Copenhagen!!), Moscow, Tallinn, Berlin, Lublin, Warsaw, Kraków, Gdańsk, Lyon, Lisbon, Prague, honestly just count in every capital haha. I’m not good at geography. Also, Tasmania, Tokyo, Osaka (I’ve been twice but it’s. So good), London, Glasgow are all places I’d go again. 

23. Do you have trust issues?

With my mum yeah lmao

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

Talking to my friends (basically everyone I’ve tagged up there I don’t have many friends lmao)

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

My thighs because they’re heavily scarred, my tummy because fat, double chin, face because weirdly big lips and weird shape and small eyes, honestly most of my body if I’m being honest, when I’m not corseted. 

26. What do you do when you wake up?

Go through tumblr, twitter, instagram, kik, snapchat, emails, facebook, usually in that order. And then maybe scroll a bit more through tumblr and drag myself awake. Brush teeth and drink juice for breakfast. 

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

My skin tone is fine. I’m kinda pale for a Chinese girl (according to others, but my skin’s gotten darker in recent years) so I sometimes have to use white people products. I only lighten my skin for doing goth-y makeup so in those instances i’d love to have lighter skin. (then again, I’m talking like...wallpaper white if possible pls)

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

My friends and my brother. 

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

What exes lmao

30. Do you ever want to get married?

If it’s with the right person yeah. 

31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail?

My hair is long enough for several pony tails

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

Men - Jawn and Ryan Ross

Women - Stephanie Beatriz and Lynn Gunn

33. Spell your name with your chin

 cbhreusftjd

34. Do you play sports? What sports?

Exactly - what sports?

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

Without TV. I can’t live without music. 

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

Would’ve said yes up to this morning haha

37. What do you say during awkward silences?

So, do you know what a furry is?

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

Emo, responsible, kind, good sense of humor, understanding, appreciates Ryan Ross, doesn’t mind me checking my phone a lot [insert date in Hong Kong meme]

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

Damaged Society for band merch, Ann Summers for lingerie, various taobao shops for lolita fashion, Restyle for corsets

40. What do you want to do after high school?

Study linguistics at university. Hey! I’m doing that!

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

No but most people do

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?

I don’t feel like talking/I’m depressed/I’m thinking

43. Do you smile at strangers?

Not like randomly?...

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

NEITHER I LIKE BEING SAFE OH MY GOD

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

Brushing my teeth or needing to pee?

46. What are you paranoid about?

I’m paranoid that I won’t graduate uni, about not being able to find a job that I will be happy at (doesn’t have to be a dream job but I don’t want to work at something I hate like a factory), I’m paranoid that no one will ever love me esp. romantically, that my family will never accept me as a bisexual woman, that I won’t be able to migrate to the UK before I’m 30 or worse before China takes back Hong Kong in 2047 and I will be trapped in hellish censorship conservative society, that depression and anxiety will drive me to off myself before any of that could even happen

47. Have you ever been high?

Noooooooooo don’t do drugs :( I say, even though I am friends with a drug dealer lol

48. Have you ever been drunk?

Nope, alcohol tastes gross

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

Recently no. But like when I was a kid yeah

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

Pink!

51. Ever wished you were someone else?

Every day :/

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

I want to weigh 80lbs. It’s been this stupid ‘goal’ throughout teenagehood and I know it’s stupid and unhealthy but I really want to. I don’t care if I won’t have boobs. 

53. Favourite makeup brand?

Maybelline has good concealer

54. Favourite store?

Damaged Society

55. Favourite blog?

Can’t make me pick between these two 

56. Favourite colour?

Pink

57. Favourite food? 

Tiramisu and also siu mai but only the fish ones because they taste like garlic and also calbee chips, british junk food is garbage compared to the stuff we have in hong kong (they’ve got good sweets here though)

58. Last thing you ate?

Spaghetti carbonara

59. First thing you ate this morning?

I didn’t eat today till dinner which was spaghetti carbonara

60. Ever won a competition? For what?

I got first runner up in a nationwide comp for poetry. I wrote a depressing poem that ended up with my English teacher sending a concerned email to my folks lol

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

*gasp* I am a good student

62. Been arrested? For what?

Oh my god. I’m a good girl. I’m not with that kinda shit

63. Ever been in love? 

I have fallen in love but not like...reciprocated love, no

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?

Ooh this is fun. He offered to be my first kiss and I said sure and we made out and it was nice and less scary than I thought but I forgot to close my eyes

65. Are you hungry right now?

No I had too much spaghetti :(((((

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?

are you calling my tumblr friends fake

But no I love them all. Also given that half of my irl friends are on tumblr idk what to say lmao

67. Facebook or Twitter?

Facebook

68. Twitter or Tumblr?

Tumblr is the MOST SUPERIOR SOCIAL MEDIA BECAUSE IT IS TRASH

69. Are you watching tv right now?

We’d need a TV license for that. and a TV. so no

I’ve got netflix

70. Names of your bestfriends?

Lettie, Chloe, Iza, Natalie, Daniel (my brother), Karl, Bella (but she’s mad at me so idk), there’s a couple of people who I consider close friends but idk if they’re okay with me calling them my best friends

71. Craving something? What?

A GETAWAY FROM THE SMOOTH TALK THAT’S KEEPING ME GROUNDED  TO THE CARPET IN MY ROOM MY QUIET BLUE TOMB OF YOU

72. What colour are your towels?

Both purple why

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?

One. Or zero if I kick it to the floor by accident. I mostly hug it.

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

No :(

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

zero. I have a stuffed L Lawliet from Death Note though. It’s a present for my mum when I get home. I’ve also got a few stuffies back home courtesy of Lettie and Bella

75. Favourite animal?

Humans but I like dogs and cats and rats are kinda cute too?

76. What colour is your underwear?

Right now it’s white but I’ve got beige and grey ones I’m kinda boring

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

Chocolate

78. Favourite ice cream flavour?

Coffee

79. What colour shirt are you wearing?

White, my waterparks shirt :)

80. What colour pants?

Blue denim shorts

81. Favourite tv show?

Drag race, b99, the good place, parks and rec, ASOUE

82. Favourite movie?

Dzien Swira it’s funny and depressing

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

Mean girls but i’ve not seen the second one

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?

Mean girls, idk what the other one is

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?

The nice girl

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?

Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh idk...the blue fish? Ellen Degeneres? 

87. First person you talked to today?

Iza

88. Last person you talked to today?

Kasia

89. Name a person you hate?

Uhhhhhhhm Doanld Trump?

90. Name a person you love?

My brother he’s so smart and creative and sweet and makes the worst puns and he loves fall out boy and tries to be an edgelord and it’s super adorable so that’s great 

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

My feelings bc they dumb

92. In a fight with someone?

Kiiiiiiiinda? More like she’s mad at me and idk what to do about it because i refuse to go to fucking london with her because international plane tickets are expensive as heck and she wants me to go in the middle of summer when i’m home

93. How many sweatpants do you have?

easy, 0

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?

A Lot. Like 10. 

95. Last movie you watched?

Dzien Swira

96. Favourite actress?

Sara Canning and Stephanie Beatriz make me v gay

97. Favourite actor?

Neil Patrick Harris because Count Olaf

98. Do you tan a lot?

No lmao

99. Have any pets?

m-my brother...?

100. How are you feeling?

Impatient because drag race hasn’t aired yet. Lonely because my favorite flatmate moved out and there’s no one to chat with me at 3am anymore. Frustrated because my crush-y feelings are being dumb. Sad because my mum is kiiiiiiiiiiiinda homophobic and I imagine myself getting married to a woman not a man (it’s more likely) so :/

101. Do you type fast?

68 WPM? Is that fast?

102. Do you regret anything from your past?

I regret a lot of things. But it’s okay I’ve not turned out too bad overall considering. I’m also glad I did a lot of things, so

103. Can you spell well?

I think so yeah

104. Do you miss anyone from your past?

Yes absolutely in particular one person because sometimes I regret things that I did with good intentions and never stop regretting :/

105. Ever been to a bonfire party?

I’ve been to a campfire so kinda??

106. Ever broken someone’s heart?

Nah

107. Have you ever been on a horse?

Yes!! When I was a kid

108. What should you be doing?

It’s 1am so prolly sleeping but who has time for that amirite

109. Is something irritating you right now?

Yeah my mum. And my feelings

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?

Yes lmaoooooo don’t read me like this

111. Do you have trust issues?

This was a question up there. Why is it asked again. You’re making me have trust issues

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

Ooh shit I don’t know I haven’t cried in front of people for a while mostly because I shut myself in my room but prolly my brother or my mum back home 

113. What was your childhood nickname?

Never had one (that I liked)

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?

~that’s not a thing~ uwu

115. Do you play the Wii?

No my mum is against video games

116. Are you listening to music right now?

Yes I’m listening to Dear Uber Driver

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?

Never had it

118. Do you like Chinese food?

I like dim sum and egg tarts and a lot of HK street food so yes? 

119. Favourite book?

Suck Less by Willam

120. Are you afraid of the dark?

Sometimes, but at other times it’s oddly comforting

121. Are you mean?

:o I am the least mean person to exist 

122. Is cheating ever okay?

No unless it’s in NTAL but even then it’s like hmmmm is it tho

123. Can you keep white shoes clean?

Lol no

124. Do you believe in love at first sight?

I think it’s possible but unlikely

125. Do you believe in true love?

Yeah I’d like to

126. Are you currently bored?

No because this is keeping me entertained until I can watch drag race

127. What makes you happy?

Talking to my friends, sending them dumb tumblr shitposts, sending my brother disturbing gifs, getting weird gifs from Chloe, thirsting over Jawn with Iza, hearing that my friends are happy, reading and sharing poetry with friends, listening to music, playing the ukulele, eating junk food and watching b99, answering tumblr asks, writing poetry, drawing

128. Would you change your name?

I don’t like Christie so yes. Would change my Chinese name too it’s too annoying to write. 

129. What your zodiac sign?

Leo//rabbit

130. Do you like subway?

No :(

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

Brenda, he’s gay. Very very very gay, think a 6 on the kinsey scale

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

Again. this has been asked. What kinda unprofessionalism

133. Favourite lyrics right now?

I think with my heart and love with my head

134. Can you count to one million?

I mean...in theory yes but why would I do that 

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?

I told my mum I was striaght lmao

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?

Closed. What the fuck

137. How tall are you?

5′2

138. Curly or Straight hair?

I have straight hair, I want wavy hair. Or bangs. 

139. Brunette or Blonde?

I have black hair. I tend to have blondes/general bright hair as a ‘type’ when it comes to romantic affection/crushes but it’s also not v accurate

also, I want pink hair. I had a dream where my brother loved MANIA so much he dyed his hair purple

140. Summer or Winter?

WINTER. BUT WITHOUT SNOW. Summer brings out my skin problems so I have a v valid reason to hate it. Also I’m fat so my thigh chafe in summer if I walk more than an hour

141. Night or Day?

I am usually, unfortuantely, only awake at night and like maybe late afternoon. 

142. Favourite month?

I don’t have one. December I guess bc it’s acceptable to play christmas music. or June bc pride month

143. Are you a vegetarian?

Nope. I don’t love meat though. 

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?

Milk. With sea salt and caramel. I’m a classy hoe

145. Tea or Coffee?

Coffee. Either iced americano or some sweet frappe shit

146. Was today a good day?

Today was a very good day. I told my crush I liked her, slept away most of the day, watched a lot of brooklyn nine-nine and listened to Dodie while doing German and Polish on duolingo and I read Chloe’s poetry and it was very good. Link here. And Kasia gave me lots of good song recs. And drag race is up soon (it’s technically tomorrow but whatever). 

147. Mars or Snickers?

I can’t pick because Snickers has such a great texture, but also mars bars has the perfect nougat to caramel to chocolate ratio? Probably mars wins out by a bit

148. What’s your favourite quote?

“Hewwo” - Aquaria, RuPaul’s Drag Race

149. Do you believe in ghosts?

I’d like to think souls can see what we’re doing after they pass away.

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?

“Adjective opposites and their comparatives” from a Polish grammar book.

Thank you for this long ass ask 

drag race still hasn’t fucking aired so i’m gonna watch more b99 and drink fanta