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perpetualxfire · 2 years ago

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(The real question here. As I debate whether or not I want to try to be active again.. In the past I've only ever interacted with either the people who dragged me onto this hellsite (same people who gave me my current screen name on a forum over a decade ago aha) or the friends I made through them and that chain reaction, but almost all of them are gone now so I'd be starting almost from scratch aha;;; I've never been opposed to new people but I'm terrified of talking to people, which doesn't work since apparently I'm historically remarkably intimidating;) (But the question here is do I finish Season 18. I know Carolina and. The new gruff guy that's an obvious Sarge stand in but made more sympathetic. Their interactions were the only thing keeping me in; I have a lot of still simmering thoughts about the season that... I'll keep to myself unless asked I suppose. I've also been told my boo got a really good finale despite being Worf Effected again (looking at you for the first one, Miles.);;; I just... I'm such a nerd about making sure I know my canon inside and out so I know where I'm straying from it that it feels wildly inappropriate not to watch and still be active >.<)

#>> out of character;;#(I'm just so terrified of people;;;)#(Online or in person. Everywhere.)#(Like to the point that there are people that I've known for YEARS that I struggle to call friends)#(not because they aren't! Like. by all accounts they are!!)#(I'm just /terrified of people/)#(and now that I'm finally seeing a therapist. and psychiatrist. and figuring out... all of THAT.)#(We've entered a 'it's gonna get worse before it gets better' state right)#(And I WANT to talk to people.)#(Carolina's always been like. My tether. Ever since I first connected with her.)#(because somebody on my old forum said 'hey you're good at writing combat pick a freelancer')#(welcome to: how I got into RvB!)#(We were a Transformers Forum :'). )#(ahhhhhh)

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