#((im going to delete myself now by e))

[realnielsbohr]

i hate being stressed about like. things that are actually stressful. normally i could be like "all is well 😌it will be ok no matter what" or whatever but i genuinely cant do that here. if i dont get this sorted out im genuinely fucked

[steampoweredskeleton]

.

Ignore

[todayisafridaynight]

#ANYWAY LET ME COOK. im not a good chef but i can at least cook an egg lemme see what i got...

This is leagues ahead of Jo as per Substitute Father so I'm sure you'll do great <3 NOT TO SET THE BAR LOW... Arakawa POV part of that was sooooooo cute but I am of course VERY MUCH LOOKING FORWARD regardless of what you've got in the oven :] I think it's funny we always end up with roughly the same concepts but I just shoehorn RGGJo into it instead

DO YOU SEE WHAT I MEAN THOUGH WITH HOW THE MARKETING FOR YLAD KEPT HAMMERING IN THE SON THING ONE WAY OR ANOTHER... BUT THE SCENE YOU WERE TALKING ABOUT IS FUNNY and honestly half of the things Westerners [<- counting myself just this once] find funny in RGG apparently aren't intentional so what's one more

Substitute Father haunts me since i really don't like it but i also know that One (1) person really enjoyed it so i don't want to delete it SOOO the most i can do at this point is try to write something better as an apology and try to forget.. and hopefully let arakawa FPOV in a better fic..

BUT YEAH LMAO they really werent subtle bout it in retrospect.... teehee..

[edelblau]

just going to make a separate post about this since it's kind of a one time cost and w/e

i've been suffering from a debilitating loss of mobility for years now, i still don't know what's wrong and all my attempts to find answers have been badly stymied. while im still trying the fact remains that for years now i've been unable to walk or stand for more than 5 minutes at a time (generously) without severe pain in my middle-lower back that ends up extremely negatively impacting the way i walk even beyond the pain itself.

ive been struggling with this for a long time partially because i wanted to do things right and use my disability coverage to gain assistance in receiving mobility aid, getting diagnosed, etc, but its become clear that if i continue to try and do that it's not getting done. i don't have the mental or physical capacity to go through the steps required and even if i did id still be waiting months for things to clear.

anyways i just dropped ~178 canadian dollars on a mobility aid myself since getting it covered, while theoretically possible, isnt practical. i just had a commission finished so i can eat the cost for now, but it's also Pretty rough on the bank account to do so and i'm not going to pretend that i'm not hoping to drum up maybe a few more commissions or donations to help me with the cost because while im not going bankrupt from my choice it definitely is not Good for me and equates to like a quarter of what i receive monthly from disability. ill try to delete this post later

[sunnychuuya]

GEISS WHAT TOME IT IS

Time to PROBABALY FUCKING PISS MYSELF OVER SALLY FACE CUZ I SUCK AT DEALING WITH HORROR

I have light tho so maybe I won't be as fucked over

I'm hi key so glad I'm making these posts cuz I don't remember what the fuck happened last night

-IM NOT A GIRL

-wrf is wrong with miss rosenberg girly pop get help that's dark

-mr Addison family is dead! Dude I don't fucking care he's suspicious as hell

Watch this turn into nothing hes prolly just a fucking dude idc tho hea sus

-Oh FUCK DID SHE JUST FUCKING DIE WHAY THE HELL

WHAT THE FYCK WAS THAT

What the FUCK FUCK

HUH ?!

-bro my bracelet is like a little tight and I had it pressed under my leg and it fucking imprinted sals name on my arm lmaoo

-MEGAN LORE?

-okay wait this might be a stretch- Megan has a cross necklace and ik Travis is like super christian(ive seen him with a cross necklacein fanart i dont think its on his canon sprite tho?); and ik Kenneth is the one who sh0t sal but what reason would he have to be involved here idk I just wanna get down all my thoughts even tho most aren't righg

-nvm rhe necklace is in the building apparently im dumb

-Wait actually sal hasn't started school yet has he? So he wouldn't know travis anyway

-idfk

-having the light on makes this game so much easier go play

-IM NOT DOING DRUGSS

-"I just want you to know ghat I understand what it's like to be afraid. To hide away from the world" rahehhehe sal ur 15 u shouldn't have to be offering advice to an adult I wanna be sals friend so bad it's unreasonable

-I d o n t. L I k e m r a d d I s o n

-PLEASE LARRY LOOKS SO GOOFY I LOVE HIM

-"Holy fuck knuckles" jnfjdjdjd

-oh pleasant so I'm assuming Megan's mom was a cheater

-is Megan's Dad the one who killed them ??

-yea okay I'm a fucking dumbass I just want to try to connect everything even if it doesn't work I'm low-key tempted to just delete that paragraph about the necklace but shh it's fine

-GUYS WTF IS THIS

YEAH SAL SHES DOIN GREAT

-oh a noose!

-VIDEO GAMES

-feel like this game is foreshadowing 4 sure

-like there's no way this is just here for some reason

-dam devourerers of God is sick name bro almost makes me hope this is foreshadowing

-j i m

-the way chapter 2 faded out like that is sus this is foreshadowing for sure

-GREG

-oh okay so this is just real fucking life then?

-well that makes me scared about the devorous of God thing especially cuz the circle things I keep seeing

-this is ominous bro

-this game is underestimating how much of a dumbass I am wtf is happening I'm walking in circles

-made it back to the circle rock

What.

Why did it restart

Gyys I'm too dumb for this

Circle rock again

Help I'm in the dark now had to turn off my lights what do I dooo I'm so bad at this

it restarted avajn fml

I sent out a post as a cry for help but I might just have to look up a tutorial

FUCK IT. I'm going to sleep.

Goodnighttt I made like nooo fucking progress despite playing for two hours

@mypinterestgotbannedsoimherenow

[sophisticatedgia]

I made dinner for my boyfriend, his roommate, and myself! Daiya gluten free Alfredo w mushrooms sauteed in organic olive oil w garlic and onion powder. Yay! But I forgot my boyfriend doesn't like mushrooms. He says there are maggots in them. Ooopsy, so I picking out his mushrooms now. Then bon appetit!

Today I organized my area of belongings in his apartment. Organized and cleaned bed, did two loads of laundry. Took out trash twice and did the dishes!

My boyfriend rode his e bike today and used public transportation, im impressed and proud of him. He's been playful and upbeat. I also organized some of his many cords and put them in tote bag.

See im not useless! I am in a good mood. I've been connecting with different females on Tumblr in a friendly manner, it makes my life more bubbly!

I do however wonder why real life friend alix hasn't texted me. I tried calling her once and texting her once. We were supposed to do a self love photoshoot together. Is that sophisticated? Not exactly, but sounds fun!

Alix if you can hear me, hiya! I miss you.

Today I am wearing my green fairy shirt. the fairy honestly reminds me of one of my mutuals lol. I remember back in the day when I told her I had OCD and hyper fixate on people's blogs, she was very kind to me and said something like, "im glad my blog is a comfort to you" . Thank you for being my mutual again @fieldsarebreathing 🧚!

her photography is so elegant and dreamy, dark and often earthy. It's gorgeous! I want to post more of her photography on here but difficult to find.

Waiting for my bf to get out shower so we can eat~~~~

White clean sheet, beige clean pillow cases. I made a TikTok complaining about how a friend said I looked like Courtney love. I got mostly positive feedback. My bf was like omg why u lifting ur shirt up? For a minute I really thought he was angry with me. I almost deleted it. From now on I'm going to be modest (which is more sophisticated hopefully) and keep my tummy covered in photos....even though he was just joking around and bein playful.

I remember when I was a strict Christian I would avoid mirrors and tell myself constantly "it's what's on the inside that counts"

Anyway time to eat with boyfriend! TTYL 🐾

[cheddar-baby]

Hey man can you delete the zoophile cat post, its kinda weird and not the troll responce you think of it as.

I walk into a huge respected art gallery ive saved up all my money and im so excited to see a beautiful painting or maybe a glicee print i turn the corner and fall to my knees ripping the hair out of my head eyes red spraying tears because a famous well respected artist just TROLLED me so hard with her ZOOPHILIA PRANK i go home and my kids no longer make eye contact my wife puts her leg out and trips me i try to drink away the pain but the baby has already drank all my pabst this is my life now after the cat photos i kill myself by closing the laz-e-boy recliner on my head

[radiovisual]

are you going to come back?

((I keep telling myself im going to, but im not sure. Im especially unhappy with how this blog was written and how it looks at the moment, bc theres a lot of things id Want to change before getting back into rp here, but I have no energy or motivation to do so 😔 my art block from last year is Still ongoing, im still deeply fixated on other fandoms, and VERY recently I had an epiphany of some kind and haven't been able to stop paying attention to the news, bc anxieties about what's happening in Gaza/the West Bank, Sudan, and Chile, and not to mention this next American presidential election, have me reassessing my priorities in life, ykwim?))

((Im still around technically, i wont be deleting this blog or anything, im just in kind of a tough spot, mentally+emotionally+physically, and that makes it hard to get reinvested in something like this.))

((There's also the factor of... feeling rather restricted in this community. It's not any particular person or group of ppls fault, people are entitled to feel however they want around fictional subjects and themes, but i know that the types of things that i like to write and rp are dark and mature, and this fandom [despite the Nature of the show itself and the topics it covers] tends to attract a lot of very aggressive, very judgemental people -- as im sure youre all aware 😂 i found some friends here, but even still, a lot of the time i know i Can't get into the kind of stuff i ACTUALLY want to write, because most of the ppl in this community would [at least, way back when,] assume that That kind of writing means I'm a bad, dangerous person who wants to engage with those themes in real life 🙃. Which isn't to say anyone is Wrong for avoiding me if darker themes trigger them, by all means PLEASE block me for your sanity if thats what you have to do!! but when most all of those Exact Themes are LITERALLY, graphically present in the show, now, it's like. Idk man whats going on! Why are you here! if sexually abusive relationships bother these fans so much, then Why are they in THIS fandom of all places instead of somewhere tangibly Safer for their sanity, yk???))

(( i don't know. Maybe im just a brat, but ive always felt a little put out by the Hazbin community online. Its extremely self policing and isolating trying to find people i can feel comfortable talk to about my ideas, so ive kind of... given up and moved on, found a nice group of Freaks to be perverted about the Avatar sequel instead lmao))

((So... idk. I guess we'll see. But im very sorry it may have been wishful thinking when i said id come back. I really, truly meant it at the time -- things just changed 💔, both in me And in the community. And maybe theyll change again, idk!but i Do know there's people in this overarching Hazbin Tumblr RP community who don't like me very much (which is Okay), and I don't want to force myself to walk on eggshells anymore -- so I'm won't💪😎))

((I adored my time here while i was active, whuch it why i wont delete it -- i go back to re read threads all the time! -- but unless there's a group of sexual weirdos developing that i could fall in with AND I can find a way to balance this with the rest of my life, im still gonna be on this indefinite hiatus 💀👍 sorry))

((Btw -- Palestinians are in desperate need of e-SIMs to keep in touch with their loved ones and to organize humanitarian aid within the Gaza strip itself -- if any of you have a few spare dollars, please consider getting involved. I know the news is very quiet rn, especially if you're in America like me, but let me make this very clear; We are. kind of sort of Already IN World War Three. Russia and China and the global south are finally starting to hold the west accountable and the west is failing a shitting its pants about it Spectacularly. The world order is literally shifting. There's not one, but SEVERAL major international conflicts brewing right now, as America is sliding into fascism at break neck speed bc Genocide Joe is finally realizing he's probably not going to get re-elected [on account of all the genocide] on TOP of finally seeing the tangible effects of climate change. South America and Australia are on FIRE. Like NEVER before.))

((Never Again is Now. We could be going over the temperature "tipping point" of the planet BY 2030. now is NOT the time to be wallowing in escapism, no matter how much we desperately need/want it. If there is EVER a time to get involved with the real world and to take a step back from the internet and high stress fandom bullshit, it is NOW. No matter what Side of these issues you stand on, EVERYONE needs to be voting, everyone needs to be paying attention.))

(( if you can't afford esims [no shame, i often can't either, money is tight everywhere], then at the very least get This website open in your tabs. It generates revenue with free Daily clicks, the proceeds of which are all sent to UN organizations -- particularly UNRWA, which is VITAL to maintain not only getting aid INTO Gaza, but also retaining Palestinians legal right to return to their land -- without UNRWA, Isreal can begin to LEGALLY, haphazardly "deport" Palestinians, which would take YEARS to reverse through future court proceedings. Do your part, it only takes a few seconds a day 💪🌱))

((Alright, thats all! Sorry if you wanted a short sweet answer, but ive actually been ruminating on all of this, so thank you for this ask, for giving me a chance to talk about it all. Im happy to see this community thriving in the wake of Season 1, even if im not joining in myself -- you all keep up the great work, and keep having fun with it ❤ let it empower you to explore the value of Charlie's message and think of ways to impliment it in your daily life And on the world at large‼))

[purplegirl20]

Thanksgiving Travel

Pairing: Damian Priest x Self-Insert (Me)

Summary: Damian and I are getting to travel before Thanksgiving day.

Warning: None

Tagging:@ghoulsister1 @omg-im-such-a-masochist @babiidee28 @sparkleva25 @alicejoaquin1990 @vintage-pvssy @ashkrystal @theworldofotps @nyc-kyra-93 @ziasaph @priestparty @queenzay @sultryfandoms @auburnwrites @windhamsrotunda@rheaanddamianfan@theclawdeen1442@tmt-77@blueberryomega@ironshamelessyouth@lisashield @blaxkbunnie

Note: This story is a drabble. I hope you still enjoy my story and Happy Thanksgiving Everybody.

November 23rd: Thanksgiving Eve

It was a hectic Wednesday evening. I was packing up my luggage, getting ready to see Damian's parents for Thanksgiving.

Shaynell: Alright, let see. ID, check. Portable chargers, check. Phone, check. My tablet, check. 2 pairs of my purple wireless earbuds, Check. Phone chargers, Check. Plane ticket, Check. Perfect.

I quickly grabs my mini backpack. and put my phone, plane ticket, chargers, and earbuds in the bag.

Shaynell:(sighs) Perfect.

I look myself in the mirror and inspect myself and fixes my hair.

Shaynell:(sighs) Perfect.

(phone vibrating)

I quickly grabs my phone and saw Edge's text.

Edge:(text) Hey Boston Cream. Happy Thanksgiving

Shaynell:(text) Hey Sprinkles. You.

Edge:(text) How are you?

Shaynell:(text) I'm ok. Just going to New York with Damian to see his parents for Thanksgiving. How about you?

Edge: Getting a break from filming Percy Jackson to be with my family. Beth is cooking some turkey and Ham.

Shaynell: Cool. I hope you have a safe Thanksgiving.

Edge: You too and happy travels, my little boston cream.

Shaynell: Thank you sprinkles.

I smile and quickly deletes the texts and put my phone away in my purse.

Shaynell:(sighs)

(Honking)

Shaynell: Oh. Damian's here.

I quickly grabs my luggage and bookbag and turns off the lights. I quickly left the door and lock the door behind me. I saw Damian, waiting for me.

Shaynell: Hey Bunuelos.

Damian: Hello, my little chocolate cake.

He smile and kiss me on the lips.

Shaynell:(chuckling) I miss you.

Damian: I miss you too. You ready to go?

Shaynell: Definitely.

Damian: You got your ID and plane tickets.

Shaynell: Yea. I have the paper ticket and my E-tickets.

Damian: Perfect.

We quickly get into his car and drove off to the airport.

90 Minutes later....

We finally arrived at the airport and quickly parked in the parking garage.

Shaynell: Finally. We arrived.

We quickly grabs our luggage from the trunk.

Shaynell: Don't forget to lock the door when we're done.

Damian: Got it Babe.

Shaynell:(sighs) Alright. I'm so excited and nervous at the same time.

Damian: I know.

I smile and quickly paid for our parking space to get our parking tickets.

Shaynell:(sighs) I can't believe. I have paid 19 bucks a day. So 6 days. You owe me.

Damian: I will.

Shaynell: Alright.

We then left the parking garage and went inside the airport.

20 Minutes...

Shaynell:(sighs) Finally. We checked our luggage and deal with TSA.

Damian: I know. How much time until boarding time?

Shaynell:(sighs) 1 hour.

Damian: Good. We have time to eat. What you want to eat?

Shaynell: McDonalds.

Damian: Ok then.

We speed walk our way the nearest McDonald's to get a quick bite. After dealing with the long line, we finally got our food.

I quickly pulls out my tablet.

Damian: Mija. What are you doing?

Shaynell: Going to watch AEW: Dynamite. I want to see the match with Kenny Omega before our flight.

Damian: You really like AEW, don't you?

Shaynell: Hey, it the only entertaining thing on Wednesday.

He playfully rolled his eyes as he took a bite of his Big Mac.

After waiting for our flight for an hour, we hears our flight number.

PA: Flight to New York with has now started boarded.

Shaynell and Damian:(sighs) Finally!

We then grabs our bag and wait in line to get in the plane. After 20 minutes, we finally show our plane tickets and went inside the plane to find our seats.

Shaynell:(sighs) Finally.

Damian: I know right.

Shaynell: At least we can relax.

Damian: For now.

He smiles and kiss me on the lips, making me gigle.

Damian: I can't wait to spend the next few day with you.

Shaynell: Aw. Damian. You're cute.

We spend the rest of the night, dealing with the rest of our flight.

[figula]

im trying really really hard to be a good partner to ben these past few months w/ this post-wedding depression or whatever (we dk if its even the wedding anymore at this point vc its been like 3 months like. what is the reason) and i think i am doing a good job hon estly but like im finding it so so hard the longer it goes on, the longer it goes on the more i am finding myself having hours-long crying fits bc i dont know what to do or how to fix it or w/e & it's really really stressing me out so much now. these past few weeks ive just felt like garbage most off the time (not helped by this month-long period from HELL) and i was pretty decent at taking the good days as they came + dealing with the bad days when they came for sept/oct but three months into this ride tbh im feeling absolutely fraught and desperate waiting for something to change long-term and. yeah i will probably delete this bc when he wakes up im sure its not going to be a winner to read i just had to get it out somewhere

[raisethe-velvet]

ok so like 2 of my mutuals made posts about their lore so. fuck it here’s lumi lore that no one asked for 

i had a gacha phase when i was like 12, posted it all on a now-deleted instagram account

i used to frequently get into arguments in youtube comments and on discord servers when i was 10-12 and how i wasn’t banned from this one animation memer’s server whom i wont say the name of for simply being annoying as fuck is beyond me 

i work at coles. before that i worked at mcdonalds. i am very nonverbal why did i choose to work in customer service i cant fucking speak

when i was 6 i was genuinely convinced i was the reincarnated fairy princess of another world

i used to roleplay on roblox when i was 10-12 before all the good rp games fucking died 

i was obsessed with collecting dolls as a child and in recent months have fallen back into that 

i played crush crush at the very young age of 12

i played yandere simulator at the even younger age of 11

nightcore phase i never quite grew out of

i have ocs that i never draw and never talk about and wonder why no one asks me about them or talks to me about them

and holy shit do my ocs have l o r e

ive dyed my hair pink 3 times

i also go by the name stardust but no one calls me that so. yeah

i actually have zero connection to the name lumi at all and regret naming myself that but its kinda what everyone knows me as and my url so im just used to it 

i cant think of a better name anyway and stardust is my online only nickname

[steampoweredskeleton]

I had to social and present ideas to a group of ppl who all really scare me today and crashed so hard afterwards that I completely forgot to email ppl back so I'm gonna do that first thing tomorrow but I'm still anxious they'll be angry at me even though they went the email 30 mins before the end of the day and it was non important

[crowmatica]

CROWMATICAS DRAG RACE EPISODE 1; TALENT SHOW!

images are just outfits keep in mind

(THE QUEENS BEGIN TO ARRIVE IN THE WERKROOM)

AMANDA CANNON:

Walk this plank, walk all of this plank~ (she giggles)

I'm Amanda cannon, I'm 26 from Boston, Massachusetts. I'm your designated pirate, and I will be going overboard!

WICKED WICCAN:

I cast a spell on you, and now? You're mine. (He smirks)

I'm wicked wiccan I'm 27 from Jersey City, New Jersey.

My style is kinda weird sexy alt boy who may be bad, but makes you wanna be bad with him.

(Amanda gasps) oh wow you're like- tryna fuck, huh?

(he nods) it'd be a pleasure~

(she giggles)

BLOODY MARIE:

bloody marie, bloody marie (she pauses) guess I came early! (She said in a thick French accent)

I'm bloody marie, I'm 32 and originally from France, but now I live in Little Rock, Arkansas. My name is bloody marie because I can't stop looking at myself in the mirror.

MERYL STRIP:

Nevada? I hardly know a' (she said in a fake jersey accent)

I'm meryl strip, 42, from Las Vegas Nevada. I do burlesque, so that's why I went with the name. I'm very show girl, pageant, slutty. You'll see.

VICTORIA LAPSE:

(she shook her boobs and made a sexy face) I'm winning, I'm winning, I'm winning! Oh- I lost it. (She pouts)

I'm Victoria lapse, and I'm your favorite lapse in judgement. I'm a runway girl, and I usually have something extravagant on. I'm 22, and I'm from New York city!

(the others gasped)

MERYL STRIP: that's Victoria lapse, shes like THE it girl.

MAYA KENNEDIE: nothing bad ever happened to the Kennedie's! (With an E)

Hi guys! I'm Maya Kennedie, I'm 29, and I come from the lovely town of Los Angeles, California, my style is pageantry and I've won several titles. These girls don't hold a candle to me.

KITTY GIRL: Meow.

I'm kitty girl, I'm from Maine, and I do drag and stream online, I'm 19, and I am very inspired by Lolita fashion!

VERGA METAMORPHOSIS:

(belt singing) IM ALMOST THERE! ALMOST THERE!

I'm Verga and I...... disapprove of your behavior. I'm a weird girl from Seattle, washington and I do what I call conceptual drag. Others just call it bad! I'm 34, and I think this footage should be deleted.

MIRAGE FANTINA CALHOON:

sorry I didn't notice you there, I was stalking my prey.

I'm Mirage Calhoon, originally from Florida, but I prefer if you pretend walt Disney manufactured me. I'm 30 on the dot. No more, no less.

CROW MATICA:

hello queens, it's me you're host, Crow Matica. Tonight's challenge will be a talent show!

(Victoria does a baton drill)

(Wiccan swallows a sword)

(Maya does a ballet number)

(Mirage does flips)

(Verga does a ribbon dance)

(kitty does a song performance)

(Amanda does knife throwing)

(Meryl does burlesque)

(Marie plays the piano)

Alright.... I've made my decision.

Marie, Amanda, Meryl, and Verga, stay here. Everyone else you're safe. Marie, Verga, You're safe. Amanda and Meryl, you're lypsyncing for the win.

-the duo perform to bark like you want it-

Amanda does great

Meryl does amazing

*CONGRATULATIONS MERYL STRIP YOU'RE THE WINNER OF THIS WEEK'S CHALLENGE.*

[albedostartarus]

Ok no this is gonna sound cheesy as hell but. Im unattractive by every conventional way and it bothered me a bit when I was little right which is. Fine. I remember actively putting on more powder on my face when going to school hoping it’d cover up some of the spots and shit(it didn’t I just looked fucking stupid).

In 11-12 grade which was during the pandemic I got a BIT more confident bc of the hair, the long hair helped. But I HATED how I was fat as fuck with the double chin and the horrible skin (which is a consequence of my own actions)

Cut to college and just. Man, I’d worked out a decent bit before college so I’d lost a bit of weight but I wasn’t quite there yet. That combined w my sudden change in schedule, the overwhelming amount of sudden unhealthy food l gained back the weight, I got dark circles, my schedules were all over the place (are) (worse)

It didn’t help that my friends here are like. Z. Mk. They’re like. The Standard. Plus parsons kids IN GENERAL dress rlly well and are well kept. So Yknow. Everytime I go out or am on campus I get that way too familiar feeling of being stared at like everyone’s looking and laughing behind my back I know it sounds cringe asf but man it it’s not fun. And like. On top of that,

I’m just. Not Capable of socialising. I can’t talk to people I can’t make friends like that— I sometimes wish we had a mini pandemic again because the pandemic helped me SO MUCH with finding friends I made more friends in like 6 months of pandemic than I did E V E R and now that they knew I was fun I could hang out w them and they’d not mind the bad social skills much bc they knew me from online.

I wake up and I look in the mirror and like. The reflection PHYSICALLY disgusts me I don’t WANT to look at myself— I actively avoided taking pictures during the niagara trip because I just. I hate pictures of myself— I DELETED my dating profiles because I can’t stand my pictures being out there. It’s SO BAD why do I look like that it’s kit even just skin or whatever it’s just. It’s everything, head, chin, eyes, nose I look like a fucking. I look so bad if I look at myself too long I just, I just get angry and sad.

Dylan was showing me footage of mysekf on camera from when he filmed me for his assignment and I genuinely got a little nauseous ��� (although this might’ve been because i hadn’t eaten food like. At all)

If I eat the Normal amount of food I feel bad bc I think it’s too much and I feel horrible and fat as fuck and actively avoid having too many calories

I wish.

I wish I didn’t look like this

I might find the whole REDACTED aspect interesting not just because It makes BAGS of money but also because. Man the. The validation sounds like it would be nice to have, strangers on the internet aren’t obligated to be nice to me like friends and family, is there an opinion more honest than that? Funnily enough I’ll probably suck at that too considering how bad I look

Makeup is my last resort if it doesn’t work I’ll just come to terms with being ugly and stupid and try and be good at something else

[rpwbkoala1i]

i know this is guilt trippy but i really dont care right now i am in the er again over this

if you really do mean that you wont talk to me ever ever again, if you mean that i hope you know that will be the reason i get even worse i was only okay last time you cut me off beacuse i had wrestling i feel like i have nothing now i will never get better by you forcing me out of your life and i will continue to obsess over this and harass you and repeat th e same mistakes i did and hurt myself ive already hurt myself so many times over this. if youre fine with that which you obviously are ypure obviously just gonna replace me and not talk to me and be best friwnds with a 14 year old now then okay have a nice life ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

the only thing i even have to comfort me is the fact we sawe eachother and you touching me and shit and its making me wanna kms im not happy abojt anything else

when i go to south carolina i swear i am going to go ask to get my stuff back unless you talk to me by then and actually talk and also delete any fucking pictures of me forever if youregonna be like that then im not.doimg this witjout being upset n@placeholdery @placeholdery @placeholdery @placeholdery @placeholdery

everything you said to me was a lie

[rainbowgod666]

《Ok, fablolus bob was Like That, but how did it ACTUALLY GO?》

(Clears throat) well, time for the deep voice i guess. Considering im doing this from a burialgoods video... so.

Slaneesh

So, lets put ourselves in her situation.

Infinite pronouns. Vaguely feminine body. The literal physical manifestation of everything NSFW ever, regardless if that term means "hentai" or not. The concept of overdose made manifest...

And a mortal just told you that you dont exist because "cogito ergo sum" or some shit. I do however have a... "transcript" of what happened

(Recorder playing)

Slaneesh:...ok but seriously, i LITERALLY saw you pull out a child from soup, throw it on the ground, and saw that thing grow to a full fledged space marine in FIFTEEN. FUCKING. SECONDS. I have nurgle right here-

Nurgle: hi

Slaneesh:- and he checked seven times. And considering seven is HIS number i think we gotta give it to you: you are THIS CLOSE to do stuff none of us coul-

Fabius: n... o...

Slaneesh:... cu- h- i mean, come again?

Fabius: th...er...e... a...r...e... no... g- g...o...d...s...

Slaneesh:...ok. i say we... i cant believe im saying this- i say we stop this.

Khorne: WHAT

Slaneesh: listen. Whatever the fuck is this mon'k- i mean human doing is WAY outside of our scope. He survived my "extend Planck Instant to infinity" thing with literally just some fucking ibuprofen. I think-

Fabius: you... dont... think... you're just... an overgrown... s...t... orm...

Slaneesh: oh great the mic was on this entire- ok. Listen here you overglorified nurse. Usually Khorne is the angry one but I think its my turn now-

Khorne: THATS... NOT HOW IT FUCKING WORKS BUT FUCK YOU I GUESS YOU DESERVE IT...

Slaneesh:... "fuck me yourself coward" jokes aside: you literally "fucked around and found out" at the Laer temple, and I watched. You modified space marines to the point that even the lightest brezze was the most arousing thing since the discovery of "meat-beating", and I watched. You fucking cloned horus in such a way that all it was left to effectively make a second horus was our boons and i. fucking. watched.-

Tzeentch: did he clone horus? Or did he just bring him to life? Then again how do we kn-

Everyone: SHUT THE FUCK UP TZEENTCH.

Slaneesh: (scoffs in "this fucking waste of tentacles i swear") anyways. The point is NOT our "existence" or "powerscaling". The point is: i wanted to congratulate myself for your work. There is only ONE dude on Anathema's side who can do what you do, and the only human thing left of him is how he thinks. So-

Fabius: you... are just... a phenomenon... i think... therefore... i am... you dont think... therefore... you... aren't... (faints)

Slaneesh: ok fuck this, im dEFINETIVELY not high enough to deal with this and i didnt put anything in my orifices to at least TRY and be presentable. I wanted to pull off that Quaestor shit i perfected and it turned out to be a shouting match against the galaxy's most annoying fuck ever. At least Anathema is more polite and logical with his "thing"

Khorne: WAIT, IT WAS A FUCKING SHOUTING MATCH THIS ENTIRE TIME?

Slaneesh: a

Nurgle: kid, it was a figure of speech. Close that darn recorder and lets go back to work. I am worried isha tried to "ku'gath" herself (again) while i was here.

Khorne: OH OK. BUT STILL, IF IT WAS A FUCKING SHOUTING MATCH I COULD HAVE JUST TOLD HIM TO FUCK HIMSELF

Slaneesh: yeah...

Khorne: (noises of giving a planet deleting friendly back pat to slaneesh) YOU KNOW WHAT? YOURE FUCKING RIGHT YOU [the friendliest barrage of insults ever]! BUT SERIOUSLY NEXT MORTAL THAT DOES THIS IM BRINGING MY CHAINSWORD

Slannesh: yeah. Guess youre right

(Recorder stops)

I rest my fucking case lmao