#( this is Ridiculous )

[rederiswrites]

I feel so drained. It's been such a week. The same pain we're all feeling, of course, with a few extra things thrown in for fun. Animal death to follow, if you don't want to deal with that.

The kids all adapted readily to a classroom environment, despite my worry, and did so well so calmly that I'm very proud and much reassured. It was still four plus hours away from the house every day. They all helped keep the chores done, so the drain was mainly psychological. But I don't like driving, and sorry everyone, I don't like being in town. The seagulls I could hear from my parked car the fourth day were almost hilariously welcome. Parking lot rats, but that reminder that nature exists was a balm to my soul.

Kiki died yesterday. He'd been in rough shape, but still enjoying life. We knew it was a matter of time til something critical failed, and that there wasn't anything likely to help him short of truly major expensive things that still might well not help. Then he declined rapidly this week. I held him for the last three hours. He cried terribly if he wasn't held, and Phantom had to hold him while I got dressed, so at least we know being held was a comfort to him. It was an expected death, and timely in its way, but when at last he didn't draw another breath, I was so, so tired.

I put him where Ciri could check him out and understand, however her mind understands these things. I didn't think to do that when Hrothgar died, and Ciri went around the house meowing for him for a week. It seems to have worked, because she's quiet today. After he died, I went straight to bed and slept til it was time to leave for class, and then stayed parked next to the class and slept in the car.

When I woke up, the car wouldn't start. Left something on, I guess, though I couldn't figure out what. Jacob was on his way home, but turned around, and the car jumped and started up just fine. In fact, before @mythicalfungi0-0 's dad showed to collect her, so before we would have left anyhow. So again, nothing but a psychological drain, really.

On the way home, we listened to music--Phantom has some great tunes fit to the times that I'll have to share with you. After a period of silence, I said, "OH! We need crocus bulbs." And Phantom said, "Oh! Right!" to the bewilderment of the Borrowed Girl. Crocuses, to go on Kiki's grave, next to Hrothgar's by the pond. It lies next to a large rock projecting from the ground. Someday we'll etch their names into the stone. I've ordered them, in a different color than the ones on Hrothgar's, so that we can think of both of them when they bloom.

I got a good night's sleep last night. Spoke to my friend who fosters kittens this morning. Today, I will keep planting flowers. I think the future will have flowers.

[fkufather]

look up then 😘

My life would be significantly improved if I was Regulus Black and I got to kiss James Potter.

[fairuzfan]

Scrolling through a blog because I remember them being pointed out as Zionists a while back and then I found this post about standing together where the tags are FILLED with non-Palestinians calling BDS performative and shit like yeah I'm aware they fought the israelis at the border of Gaza to let aid in but by the time BDS had come out with the condemnation of standing together, they WERENT doing that. They were just talking. They didn't do SHIT when bds put out that condemnation. Now that they're finally doing something (too little too late btw) you wanna take this as a chance to yell at BDS?? Do you guys think it's appropriate to tell Palestinian orgs what they're doing correctly or incorrectly based on your own viewpoints??

"They work to deradicalize israelis so they use a specific vocabularly" I want you to know that Palestinians have been using that vocabulary for 75 years. No they're not doing something new. They're doing the same thing our elders have been doing for generations. And do you know what we learned from that? That israelis hate our guts more than you can fathom.

If standing together had FROM THE START done shit to help Palestinians in tangible ways, I wouldn't be saying anything. But they didn't. They JUST started a couple months ago with their efforts at the Gaza crossing so now you want to moralize and say "at least they're doing something"??? By all means they should continue doing this, I'm not telling them to stop but the way this post is just so rude... bds initiatives are widely supported by most Palestinians around the world (and yet we criticize it still, obviously) so you all have absolutely no reason to take this as a chance to diss it if youre not palestinian.

You guys actually need to stomp this shit out from your posts why the fuck are you all letting this happen. Bds has been around for longer than standing together and DOES help Palestine by making it clear that companies building on west bank territories (which the companies are owned by ISRAEL not Palestinians) will not be bought from or supported, meaning that they withdraw their contracts to put the israeli government in a monetary bind.

Also you all talk about "israeli deradicalization" as if we are at a point in time where deradicalization is the goal. We know people in '48 and the West Bank and Gaza. Like sorry but that is not what we are thinking about right now! Slow change might have been useful a while ago, but we literally cannot afford slow change right now.

That is to say I really don't care that much about standing together despite what it may seem. They do not occupy my mind nearly as much as i talk about them. I'm just astounded that you guys are giving them money when you can be donating to Palestinians in Gaza directly.

Also I was right, silverfox66 is a zionist so. Don't reblog them.

[logansargeantsbabymom]

As much as I hate to keep posting about this, I got a lovely message from a fan!! I feel like you should read them:

Like bro, I’m here for fun. Why is this shit happening to me??

I’m so tempted to just fucking delete tumblr as a whole. Like I write and post on here for fun and I love writing because writing stories about things I wish I could experience in life is kinda therapeutic for me but why should I write and share if this is going to keep happening to me?

I’m honestly just about fucking done.

(not even an hour later) edit:

COPYING A FUCKING A STORY WHERE IM TALKING ABOUT A FUCKING TRAUMATIC EXPERIENCE IN MY LIFE IS FUCKING INSANITY! ARE YOU KIDDING ME? I WAS SHAKING AND SOBBING WRITING THIS BECAUSE I HAD TO GET IT OFF MY CHEST AND YOURE MAKING IT “YOUR OWN STORY”??

i’m fucking done with tumblr. i’m done.

[amberluvsbugs]

To everyone who saw the 'I lost someone' post I made on Monday. Me and my coworker Toby have received information that Ari did NOT pass away and just left discord and did this all to get the attention for the PPT community. I am beyond disappointed.

[xsimbaaa]

Like come on man

COME OOOOOOONNNN 😭🤤🧎🏻‍♀️

[foreverextraordinary]

Richard Castle and Kate Beckett in Castle 3x01, "A Deady Affair"

[chandralia]

this actually means everything to me idc

[thankyouforthememoriesworld]

AZZI GET UP, YOU'RE SIMPING ON MAIN

[sillylittlemothman]

[ang33333333l]

Alright fuck it, the way some of yall write Floyd to be an abusive asshole is downright DISGUSTING. You rather accept the idea a person who have mood swings would hurt or leave their partner whenever they're "bored" then accept the idea that someone who's been struggling with these issues KNOWS how to FUCKING HANDLE IT. Also Floyd leaving his romantic partner?!? Wtf is wrong with you??? Do yall not know how to analyze already existing relationships between characters to see how they would be in a romantic one?? Or are yall too blind to see SHIT?!?

[rederiswrites]

The second day of driver's ed (in Maryland they are required to take an absurdly excessive 30 classroom hours outside of school), Phantom packed a very nice snack box for herself, Mythical, and the Borrowed Girl. For the next two days, the Borrowed Girl shamelessly consumed over half of the snack during break, despite it being meant to split three ways. On the third, she made an offhand comment in the morning wondering what Phantom was going to pack for her. Phantom snapped and announced that she wasn't the babysitter, and the Borrowed Girl was no longer to have access to the snack. She brings a squeezie pouch as the shame -snack. The Borrowed Girl has just messaged me that she is still banned from the snack box, and Phantom has just thrown the squeezie pouch at her.

This is all hilarious to me, especially as I have openly supported Phantom the entire time, through the Borrowed Girl's multiple laments on the subject. I disavow the throwing, sure, but "pack your own damn snack, I'm not your keeper" is a message I endorse. At this point, the Borrowed Girl even acknowledges the point, on an intellectual level. But on a much more practical level, she's still stuck like the fledgling bird, walking up to the worm and then waiting with open mouth for it to jump in.

[cowboyunderscore]

can it be, you fear to die?

click for better quality they make me sick

[girlsdads]

Hello?! What the fuck

[fairuzfan]

Once again begging people to read nur masalha and Nadia Abu El-Haj for actual Palestinian archeology facts. You all just spout zionist propaganda completely seriously and I'm just here shaking my head.