#( things this moodboard makes me wanna do: kill andrew & kill andrew and did i mention killing andrew )

[survivorpanem]

EPISODE NINE - “CONTROLLED BY THE WHIMS OF THE MAJORITY  “ - ISAAC

I survived? Honestly I'm a little surprised. I kind of expected to go out this round because of an idol play or a super split vote, but all of the pre-tribal nerves were for nothing because what shocked me even more was that everyone was on the same page to get rid of Ryan. I don't know what exactly flipped the other four onto voting off Ryan, but I'm assuming it's because he turned into a huge rat or something. I'm final nine now, only four more tribal councils to survive before I'm in the top five. I feel like this game is incredibly boring so far, but the point is for me to win... And honestly, sorry sponsors, but I need to get to the end with as many allies as I need. I don't think I'm jumping ship anytime soon. ;)

Later...

In this game, there is nothing more valuable than knowledge. I knew there was going to be an auction today because of the timing and nature of the "live event". I'm kind of glad that it ended up becoming non-live because now I know all of the items up for sale, and I hope that I spent my 500 tokens wisely. I wanted to take something that needed to be in no one else's hands but my own, and that was the magnifying glass. Nobody on this tribe needs that kind of information, especially not if they're going to try and use it against me. My votes so far this season have been "as expected" but that doesn't mean they will stay that way forever. I am planning on making big moves in this game and nobody needs to know that I'm going to begin a path of deception. Knowledge is power, and I'll be its wizard, honing the power as I choose. I need to take control of them game if I wanna win.

THIS FEAST WAS SO LIT!! I always have the strategy of putting at least 20 tokens on each item then betting rest on another item and this time it worked out SO WELL!! So the first item I won is a strategy session with Owen. I'm gunna wait until I find out who wins immunity to use it because I might some ideas depending on who wins. The next item is a moodboard from Amir. I don't know what that is? I hope it comes with something good. I did get a clue to the hidden immunity idol but then ZACK JUST HAS TO TAKE IT! But since I also won the Outback Steakhouse reward I told him I'd split it with him if he shared the clue with me. TOO BAD IT WAS THE SAME CLUE I GOT FOR KILLING RYAN DKDVDKSBDBD WHATEVER. Now I get 3 extra points in touchy subjects but so does Zack so whatever. I should have kept it for myself.   Then I got my sponsors an extra 3 points to buy me stuff so yay! And I found out Isaiah bought me a map of the arena which means I get to look at someone's vote BEFORE tribal council! And in case I haven't mentioned it before Drew bought me an extra vote earlier in the season so I still have that! And last but not least, I got a bloody bracelet which is a hidden immunity idol that I have to play on someone else this tribal council. I'm so excited this auction was incredible! So right now the immunity challenge is touchy subjects. As I was filling it out I started to realize that Sam B seems to running this game so I don't know if it'd be too early to shake some shit up but depending on what's going on I could potentially figure out who's voting who, play the idol on whoever is getting majority and convince people to vote Sam or if someone else comes out as running the season in the answers but I don't think that'll happen. I just wanna do something interesting with all of my shit.

Winning immunity this round is so important to me. I think I know how people are going to answer some of these questions so I want to say that I might have this in the bag?? But you never know. I could get every single negative one and JC could get every positive so it's either going to reveal a ton and hurt my social game a lot, or I'm going to get every single thing correct and be safe. If I have immunity, I have no fear going into tribal with the plan to vote off Jordan. If an idol is played, we'll be down an ally but it means that Sam G will likely decide to not flip since they weren't going to end up benefiting her game long-term or something. I want Jordan to go SO BAD NOW because he is going to end up being a huge threat later on down the road and no one is really like... on that same wavelength as me? Also, there's Andrew. Zack in particular was downplaying him a ton so I think that Zack is going to keep Andrew in his front pocket or something until it becomes convenient to use him to get to the end. I just think that if Andrew or Isaac or Jordan make it to the end, they're going to beat everyone else because they have the most friends on the jury now. I'm going to really try to get my alliance of five to stick together for as long as possible because I really want to Pagong those nuArma freaks. Occidere til the end!

Later...

I'm... probably screwed. I legit needed that immunity more than anything and it's very telling by the fact that I got the touchy subjects response for that, too. Wonderful. Sam G has this bloody bracelet thing that she's promising to use on me and it's like... so use it lol. I want her to make it public right now that she's using that thing on me but she's like, "nah I'll just use it like a regular idol". I hate having my fate put into someone else's hands like this and she's really putting all of this out there for me that I'll be safe no matter what... ugh. I got one of the worst scores in that challenge so it's just pretty much depressing for that to have happened. It shows my social awareness isn't where it's at all, and now I'm going to have to try to get back to the top again.

me: shares everything I got in the feast with Jaiden and tells him I'll probably be playing the bracelet on him me: patiently awaits for him to tell me what his magnifying glass is

LITERALLG TELL ME DAMMIT!!!! Anyways I won immunity!! YAY!! I really wanna do something to shake this game yo because frankly it's a snooze fest and will continue to be if we don't do something since me Jaiden JC Sam B and Zack have majority and can even convince people on the other side to vote against each other so it's like a good position for us if we stay loyal to each other but 1) I don't want Sam B anywhere near the end and 2) I'm really bored so I wanna do something. I need to figure out what's going on in my own damn head so I can plan out stuff I wann talk to Owen about because maybe he can help me find a way to do something fun and crazy, eventually get rid of Sam B but still stay in this good position. If I can't get rid of Sam though I need to get rid of Isaac because I think he's more of a number for her than he is for me and I'm not about that life. If you're not my number you're not my concern and I'm gunna cut you

Later...

Okay you know what also I really need to chill because I may have immunity now but I won't have it forever and if I don't win this season (which I most likely won't) all these confessionals are gunna be so embarrassing so I guess this is my apology confessional because I probably won't chill so I'm sorry for anything I've already said and anything I will say in future confessionals.

Two confessionals in one night? I must be dying. Anyways, I'm watching these interviews again because I like the entertainment but it's also really interesting to see how things have changed so far in this game. I like watching the ones with people who got voted out already :~) GOD IDK WHAT TO WRITE ABOUT. I wish I could do another audio confessional but its not the right time for me unfortunately, so for now let's just write on a really pressing issue in this game for me. I think it's very clear that this season is going to be very predictable for the rest of the season. Some people aren't submitting confessionals or doing challenges or giving their 100 in any aspect of the game at all. We're being really boring. I fucking get that. I'm putting my faith in Sam that she's going to give me the immunity tomorrow so I want to try and shake things up just enough to restore color to the game. I want to still make that "big move" that everyone talks so highly of, and that big move is getting Andrew and Isaac to start waking up in the game. I want that competition to be in the way and I want them to begin to play harder than they ever have before. Maybe their quietness around me isn't a result of them disliking me as a person, but rather their low energy to carry out the rest of the game in madness. The person that holds a ton of power in this game right now also happens to be my closest ally. I'm starting to see the bigger picture and open my mind to the idea that this could be extremely beneficial for me going forward. I need to work really hard on gaining the control of the game through Sam G because she literally has every single person wrapped around her finger at times. It would be a disservice to suddenly eliminate her the next round because I'm still not the "second in command" in terms of who has the capability of overtaking the role she has on the tribe. As it stands, Jordan needs to go this round without a doubt. Jake would probably need to leave following this, but I want individual immunity at his boot because it would a pretty difficult move to make. I think Sam G wants to include Isaac in an alliance with him and I don't trust Isaac for a damn second, so my original loyalty to JC and Zack would be super critical to getting rid of her because I know they're aware she's the biggest threat in the game going towards the end. I'm trying to have as many options as possible so that I can figure out the best route to win the game. I take things day by day because every single day is a new opportunity to develop friendships with people on this cast. I spent a good chunk of today just working on Zack and getting to know him better as a person and I feel relationships with JC, Andrew, and Isaac continuously deteriorating. Sam B is super hard to talk to because DAMN, she's kind of boring?? I love Sam to death but she just doesn't have much to bring to a conversation so it's hard to always know what she's thinking and I really just don't have a ton of stuff in common with her in the first place. I also need to start building up a case for the jury to vote for me because as it stands, I'm going into the majority with some of the best players left in the game. None of them have given up like the other people in this game seem to have, and the path to the final five seems pretty much laid in golden bricks for us. But then once we get to five, I don't have those opportunities I was talking about. I don't have the ability to flip the script and overthrow the clear leaders of this game. I need Isaac and Andrew and Jake to give me just an inch, because then I'll be able to take a mile and runaway with this game in the bag. I have nothing to present to the jury right now, and that's such a problem.

The game of Survivor is all about Risks and Rewards. This vote I'm risking everything to save the remnants of despair (my alliance) in a better position come final 8 and I'd rather go out with a purple rock in my hand than have the rest of my game controlled by the whims of the majority.

So as usual, the vote is fucked! Zack and I are suddenly a final 2 and I guess we're running with that? It already showed a benefit I guess because the name was between Jordan and I but he got the target onto Jordan. But then I guess Jaiden's ass decided to move the vote to Sam B? Which is fine because she has a power to stop someone from voting against her. And ultimately the name our alliance of myself, Sam B, Isaac, and Jordan have landed on is JC. Which took a lot of discussion to get to. They initially wanted Zack out, but because I'm getting closer to Zack and want to keep him close (and the fact that he supposedly took a target off of my back) I got the name onto Jaiden. And then the name moved to JC because I also mentioned that JC makes me anxious in this game and I don't want them going far. So hopefully JC will go tonight. Which I feel absolute shit about. And I guess them and Sam G. think the vote is Jordan? So idk either they stupidly split their votes between Jordan and Sam B. and JC goes or JC will go anyway because Sam B. stopped Jaiden from voting. Like I said, I'll feel bad about JC going but, another issue is possible damage control with Zack. Also with Sam B. I'm connected to basically everyone in this game which is horrifying but I need this move to happen so that the alliance of 4 can move into power. So I hope this works.

YASSSS BITCHES I FOUND THE FUCKING IDOL!!!! On my first try after getting the clue ;) Zack stole Sam's clue but she took him with her on the outbeak trip so that he'd reveal the clue, but apparently it was the same clue she got from voting out Ryan? Ok well werk I guess? So the clue was that it was "To find what you seek, you wouldn't necessarily need to be in the arena" so I was like okay ummm it has to be something really big that someone could see from far away because every location was in the arena. So I look through the description of each of the places in each area and see a distinct tree or whatever and the other places don't really fit the description so I'm like it has to be here!! I check and little did y'all know I found an idol!! Continuing my trend of finding an idol in every storybook game I've playedddddd I'm so excited and happy this was really the push I needed to have the confidence to make more moves!

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