#( the TLDR is i'm so stressed and i want to sleep for a whole week lmao :') )

[tierra-paldeana]

// i wish i could have enough time to talk about this at length but holy shit, man. the teacher at the academy i got into a few months ago is an absolute nutcase. i could go on for hours about how he's the least competent person i've ever met, contradicting himself at every turn, talking to us like we're idiots constantly, being unfairly hard on us and trying to gaslight us into thinking he did or said whatever when he, in fact, did not. he's working us to the bone, and i'd like to talk about the bane of my existence at presence.

for anyone reading this: i have nothing against overw4tch as a game. but we were told that we were meant to replicate its artstyle in less than 3 months, in order to design a character in that style... which would be fine and dandy... if he didn't give us unrelated assignments and forced us to participate in events that extract precious time we could use to work throughout the months. not to mention, everyone in the class has VERY different skill levels, and pretending that we all excel at that style in less than 3 months is just plainly impossible. i've had to endure criticism that was less contructive and more an attack on me as a person, an ungodly amount of rushing, 4-hour-sleep nights, having to eat less than 3 meals a day just so i could go at the speed he desired, and just a lot of sacrifice towards something that i have no hope for. this has made me develop a deep hatred towards that game and also my teacher that i just cannot put into words lmao

i'm still doing all i can, don't get me wrong, but i have matters to attend to irl that tie my hands and i just don't have 24/7 to pour onto these assignments and projects. i've had to force myself to take breaks otherwise i'd be in a much, much worse state

i could go into a lot more detail but i don't have the energy or will rn, i just want to sleep and rest and go back to rping on here, but i got shit due on the 20th, so again i apologize if my absence or silence are quite prolonged here. i wanna get back here so bad, and also go back to drawing the things that i like ggjfjghjhg

[lazer-bunny]

I hate vacations

Heyyy, when something goes wrong I usually just get sad but I'm actually genuinely angry for once. If you didn't know, I HATE vacations. That's sounds backwards but I hate the stress and the money involved in going somewhere else. I'd rather be getting work done and being comfortable in my own home. So obviously I'm being dragged away from my computer for my entire vacation week off from school. So no video games or working on my own game like I wanted to. 

I hate planes, because airline companies, in my opinion, are ridiculously selfish. John Mulaney had it right. Except this isn't delta. Like spending hundreds of dollars on tickets and being asked to spend another $20 for one hour of wifi? So I couldn't use any of my stuff for the whole flight. I couldn't get any of my commissions done in four hours. Also guess what?? AIRLINE COMPANY SENT THE ENTIRE PLANES LUGGAGE TO FUCKING OREGON, this trip is to Southern California. 

I'm sorry I'm just exhausted and I'm still really sick, so you know I'm doing FUCKING FANTASTIC AND TOTALLY ENJOYING BEING DRAGGED SOMEWHERE I HAD NO INTEREST IN GOING. Now I have none of my clothes too, I'm going to die here.

EDIT: Here's something more coherent, sorry. TLDR: I hate vacations and they give me horrific anxiety and painful panic attacks. I wanted to stay home and be productive. Plane lost my suitcase, I have no clothing until they locate it. Upset because I have to sleep on hotel room floor.