#( I'd burn the world down for you ; nora & xavier )

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The atmosphere, as always, was electric. Komodo was fairly packed with people out to enjoy their friday night, not to mention the great drinks, dancing and party factor the only club in town provided. Xavier was no exception of course. This place was one of his regular spots, a hunting ground for pretty ladies to have fun with and take home, or the occasional handsome male that swung his way. He had been on the dancefloor for a while, walking towards the main bar to get some refreshments, when a eerily familiar laugh made its way to his ears, making him momentarily freeze in his spot. Oh no. Oh hell no.. Slowly turning, he cought sight of his sister at the bar, talking to some tall good looking drink of pure sin.

Quickly, the drinks he was going to get and the girls he had been dancing with was long forgotten. With poorly disguised briskness, panic simmering like a tight string in his chest, Xavier strode over, inserting himself between his sister and the stranger. "Piece of advice man, walk away. She's not available." he said in a clipped voice, his expression cold and dangerous. Making it very clear he would make the guys night hellish if he did not piss. off. Luckily, he was one of those individuals who did not want trouble. Raising his hands up and drifting away without a word. Turning back to his sister, Xavier's demeanor changed to one filled with immediate concern. "Nora. Are you alright?" he asked, trying to gauge just how late in her night he'd intercepted this.

@norafcx

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If growing up with Nora had taught Xavier anything, it was that she had a lot of emotions all at once. And the worst thing he could do, was to be reactive to those emotions or what might come out of her mouth when she was upset. He had been on the receiving end of a lot of harsh words with her, but never once had he taken them to heart. Only when she was calm again did he put much stock in what was thrown his way. "Nora, you are not nor have you ever been a burden to me. This isn't your words. I know you want something deeper out of interactions with men, you have told me so yourself." he spoke calmly but firmly, assured that he knew what was in her heart, not what she had impulsively chosen to do out of distress. That was the beauty of their close knit relationship. He knew his sister to her core.

Releasing her, but slowly keeping pace with her movements, Xavier followed her gaze to the male she had talked to cozying up to another girl. He was not surprised, though his anger burned somewhat for the slight to his sister. Most men, himself included, were pricks who did not think much about anyones feelings once they'd had a few to drink. And most only ever wanted one thing. To get their dicks wet. Noticing how Nora turned back in his direction, he extended his arms to her. Letting her know he was there ready to keep her steady and safe. Once she leaned into him, he held her tight with one arm, while guiding them both towards the door, attentively listening to her words. "No sweetheart. He is just another pig who does not deserve your tears. I know everything is such a mess and very rough for you right now. That's why I am trying to protect you from all of this. You aren't ready to handle the ups and downs of it yet. Give yourself some more time and you will be." his words were gentle and reassuring. Hopefully this one stint would be it and she would understand that she wasn't in the best state to cope with this yet. "Nora, you are enough. You are more than enough. You just came out of a long term marriage. You went trough something traumatic. I know your brain is telling you that its on you, that you are to blame. But that is not true."

“Maybe that’s the point, Xav! Maybe I want to be indecent! Maybe I want to be scantily clad and throw caution to the wind and to not be a complete burden on my big brother, for once in my sad and desperate and pathetic excuse of an existence!” The words of her mother rang inside her head at the latter part of her confession. It was hardly the first time a similar statement had driven Nora to such a state. Tonight had been no exception; it was painfully obvious that a recent interaction between them had led her to a place she wouldn’t go near otherwise, and she was sure Xavier knew it, too. 

Determined to find the man that Xavier had scared off, Nora attempting to push off the steadying hands of her older brother in search of her former suitor. But her resignation quickly turned to regret, once she noticed him in a nearby corner with another woman, bodies pressed together in a way that made Nora’s stomach churn. It wouldn’t hadn’t taken much, given the alcohol that she consumed, but the visual was more than enough. The feelings she hoped to push away returned with a vengeance, the image of the duo snogging in the corner causing her to immediately rush back to Xavier, whose arm was already outstretched towards her. Still the image continued to burn in her brain; a vivid reminder that, no matter what she seemed to say or do, it was never enough. She was never enough. “Am I that repulsive? That off-putting? That… that…” Words failed her now, voice cracking as she leaned into her brother, with quivering lips and tears in freefall. “W-why can’t I ever just be enough? Will I ever be enough?”