#'you and i live in different worlds after all' aaaaaa the pain sehyuk would feel if hamin said that. angst so delish i would be so

[yuuminni]

obsessed, OBSESSED with the possibility of hamin leaving sehyuk when/if he finds out what sehyuk did to keep him by his side and its so so so so mean of haribo to Hint at this but never actually expanding on it. like it's such a weird point to end the series on... at this point hamin still doesn't know/understand the kind of effort sehyuk had to put in and Still feels like having to put in in order to keep their relationship. and its not hamin's faults he doesnt understand and keeps interpreting sehyuk's behaviors as him just being a nutjob, because the real reason is even more insane. sehyuk keeps engineering these situations where hamin is put in danger and then need sehyuk as a guard dog because he cant fathom hamin staying with him out of his own volition. he did and still does all that because he really did/does believe he would mean nothing to hamin otherwise ("we've never met before because that's all i've ever meant to you," "when he looks at you [...] you feel like you mean something, even if you don't.") its so unhealthy - despite all that rough handling and generally how pushy/demanding/arrogant/etc he behaves towards hamin he's hamin's dog - willingly - because he can't see hamin willing to stay with him if he's not "used" by hamin in some way, essentially echoing the sentiment that has been instilled in his head by his abuser when he was little: "my father abandoned me because he had no use for me," "i can only stay here because i have a purpose." and wouldnt it be so fun to watch That boil over. if hamin finds out and leaves. wet pathetic dog sehyuk not knowing what to do. but haribo said naaah