#'yes i eat live bugs. it reminds me i have agency. you cannot live your life in fear of anything'

[kath-artic]

idk why all these people think its okay to stomp all over MY life with THEIR fears. “oh you shouldn’t eat this before you go to a party” i dont care. “oh you shouldnt wear that if youre going walking” i dont care. “oh my friend said ‘i dont like that your daughter goes for walks at night because there are some sketchy people that live here’” well your friend can smother herself to death in all that worry for all i care. do you want me to just sit and rot? do you want me to go back to being afraid of what other people think to the point that i forget what it means to be me? i’m afraid enough, i don’t need you adding your shit to the mix. and don’t get me started on how bullshit it is that you defend everyone in my life but you never defend me. i confided in you when my best friend punched me at a party and all you said was “he probably has some personal things going on that you don’t know about.” you think i haven’t thought that way my whole life? you think i havent given everyone a million passes already? i cannot dwell on the fucking minutiae any more than i already have, i dont need you reinforcing that behavior. i am surrounded by problem oriented people and it isn’t helping me to stop being one.