#'thats unsanitary and gross and also annoying'

[sovaharbor]

there is nothing more humbling than having to stand in your bathroom to swallow your nightly pepcid pill because you're ashkenazi and have a fucked up GI system but also your throat stops working right when you panic and you always panic about taking pills so then you panic thinking about your throat not working right when you swallow a pill because you hate having to cough/gag a pill up when you can't swallow it down so then you have to spend a solid minute swishing a nasty disintegrating pill around in your mouth as you panic because you can't make your throat work and then you're starting to get nauseous from the pill disintegrating and that makes you wanna not swallow even more and then you finally force yourself to swallow the pill and it just gets stuck there for a moment while you fight the urge to panic-gag and you can visibly see yourself getting paler in the mirror as your entire body goes into throw-up-or-flight mode but the fun secret trick is that you're ALSO an emetophobe so you're starting to panic over feeling like you're about to throw up and