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"is it depression, or am i between hyperfixations?"
-the title of give-soup-please's latest autobiography
#god help me if it's both lmao#this is not bad depression with ideation and the like#but it's manifesting as an extreme malaise#don't care about anything. don't want to do anything. just want to sit on couch.#i don't generally do well when i'm in between the hyperfixations#i need media to think about to keep me afloat#hmmmmm#so- neurodivergence comes in many forms#for me- i take great comfort in soothing myself with repetitive media#which means it's hard to branch out into new things#which leaves me in a position of 'i need to try something new to find something to latch on to'#and the other part of my brain starts screaming#i tend to get overly attached and ride the up and down waves to the extreme when it comes to experiencing new media for the first time#i generally spoiler myself for all new media so i can watch it and be mentally prepared to deal with it#but of course this causes my brain to stagnate and desire surprises while rejecting them outright#so i find myself in a complex position of-#'this old media isn't cutting it.'#'but i can't bear to try anything new right now'#'if i try something new i gotta vet it and look up all spoilers before heading in'#'because i'm feeling too fragile to handle catharsis that is too large right now'#(insert spongebob card here)#'my god it's been more than ten months since i've tried any new tv show or video game'#'i'm stagnating. can't move forward and i can't move back.'#'FUCK'#just wanna love the stuff i remember loving- you know?#yeah...#(melts into soup puddle on the floor)/neg
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