#'Cus I don't have to be mentally unwell alone

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SCREAAAAMING, YES, HOLY CRAP, WE BOTH HAVE THE SAME BRAINROT, BUT IT'S FINE, BECAUSE WE FOUND MAD LAD COMPANIONSHIP WITH IT

THANK YOU, MAN. I have no idea how to respond to this either without just nodding but looking like a psychopath. Like the gif of Willem Dafoe nodding creepily lmao

Hehe, that's where I come in, man. I'm a writer, not as much a roleplayer >;) So, thinking about how Error views things too is quite literally in my job description-

F i n e. I'm not really a "roleplayer" as much as "just hasn't found any way to roleplay." I used to be one heck of a roleplayer back in the day. When I was like. 12. But Undertale didn't exist back then, and I haven't ever roleplayed since Undertale became a thing (Y e s, I know that makes me sound old, okay. I a m, I have lived for what feels like centuries even though people still refer to me as "young"/"kid")

AND Y E S. YES, I LOVE EXPLORING ERROR'S HAPHEPHOBIA IN AS REALISTIC WAY AS I CAN, THAT'S ME RIGHT HERE-

I don't think Error can just. Get over his haphephobia. It'll take time and it's not as simple as "Oh, he's cured now." He'll relapse, some days will be better than others.

But I don't think he'll never get better.

To say that he'll never get somewhat comfortable with touch, even with those he loves and trusts, is sort of... sad? Like, you're basically saying he is doomed forever to be controlled by his fear and I don't think that's a good or healthy way to write about fear, I guess.

Like, y e s. Fear has a habit of controlling you. It can be debilitating. But it can be worked through. You don't have to live your entire life avoiding everything that triggers your fear, especially if you have a good support system. So I like imagining that Error can touch and cuddle and all these things, but he might need a warning. You can't just tackle hug him 'cus that'll trigger him. And he might not be able to do it all the time. He might back out before or during something simply because he just can't do it that day. But that's okay. You just need to be patient and love him. Let him decide when to touch and for how long <3 Even if he can't just "get over it," he can definitely find ways to cope with it

So, that's why I like writing Ink being a supportive boyfriend with Error, even if it's difficult at times because Error was okay hugging Ink yesterday, but not so much today <3

I don't tend to write his glitches as being physically painful though?? Like, it's perfectly fine if that's how someone writes/envisions it, but I imagine it being more... psychological. It doesn't "hurt" per se, like physical burning pain or anything, but it feels like when your foot is asleep. Dialed up by 100 and to your entire body. Like your very bones are made of TV static or there are a million tiny bugs crawling under your skin and there's nothing you can do to get them out. So, it's not painful, but the discomfort can be excruciating. I mostly do it this way because I couldn't find a common consensus researching if haphephobia actually gives people physical pain or if it's just a mental block they cannot overcome.

ALSO, MAN, THANK YOU <3 <3 I WORKED REALLY HARD ON IT. I THINK YOUR ART IS FREAKING BANGER TOO, IT'S WHY I REBLOGGED YOU IN THE FIRST PLACE

Can you guys tell I have a favorite pair of sillies yet . . .