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[mymelodyisme]

It’s Critter, updated, bitch.

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Blind Channel advent calendar

Day 3: “My universe is empty without you”

„Okay, let’s just do this now“ Joonas said, jumping out of their bed.

„No we can’t. It’s barely after midnight“ Joel tried to argue.

„There is no rule saying that advent calendars have to be opened at a certain time“ Aleksi chimed in, siding with Joonas.

„Honey, how much sleep would you get, if we decided to wait until the morning?“ Joonas asked Joel with a teasing but warm smile on his face.

„Don’t call me honey. And none obviously, but we still can’t…Hey don’t leave me here alone…“

Quickly climbing out of bed, Joel made his way to the living room to join the other two at their selfmade advent calendar. It was actually Joonas idea to start this new tradition now that the three soulmates were complete. And Joel actually liked the idea, until he realized that he actually had to find presents for it too. And it wasn’t that he hated giving presents, he just didn’t know what to give, and those two were the most important people in his universe which made it even harder.

„We really don’t need to do this now��“ Joel tried again.

„Yes we do. You are obviously way to nervous about this. And I don’t want to imagine how many horror scenarios your mind will make up about this if we leave it until the morning.“ Joonas replied with Aleksi adding: „This could just be a part of the tradition, I bet no one opens their couple advent calendar at midnight. Also what are you so nervous about?“

Well… There are about 1000 things that Joel could argue with now. But for some reason his mind and mouth didn’t cooperate at the moment so he just stayed quiet only saying: „Just open it, you will see“

Joonas and Aleksi did as he said. They knew that no matter what they said, the nervousness wouldn’t leave until they saw what he got them.

Joel could hardly stand still seeing them both unpack the third (and first he packed) package of the calendar. When Joel first got the idea for this particular present, he was really excited and also already nervous about it. He knew he could never give Aleksi his soulmark back, but maybe this could show him just how much he belonged to their side. How much he was needed in their universe. Or maybe Joel just horribly overstepped and they will both hate him forever…

Joel was so caught up in his own head and nervousness that he didn’t even notice that Joonas and Aleksi had unwrapped his gift until he felt two bodys hug his own. „Our universe would be so empty without you too Joel“

Joel’s present: Three dog tag necklaces, that on one side have a star, a moon, and the sun engraved into them. Joonas one says on the back: My sun to light up even my darkest days. Aleksi’s one says on the back: The star that finally appeared on my starless sky. And Joel’s one says on the back: My universe is empty without my sun and my star

- 🦋 wearing a santa hat

LET ME KISS YOU ANON!

Oh my god this is adorable and so on point, I'm so happy with this gift, thank you so much!💕

„Our universe would be so empty without you too Joel“ - Let me go cry in a corner😭 And the engravings omg they love each other so much and Joel just wants to give Aleksi the feeling of belonging, you're giving me too many feelings.

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(GO TO PART 2 AND PART 3)

PART 1

I’ve been meaning to do this for a while and just never got round to it, but figured now was finally the time!

This post is basically a bunch of random trivia and references for OHDH based on stuff I’ve researched when writing. There are a few things in my next couple of chapters that I thought warranted further explanation if anyone is interested. And well even if they’re not, it’s handy for me to refer to when I no doubt forget things 😂

I’ll keep adding to it as much as I can, including going back to older chapters whenever I think of anything.

1. The bombing in Madrid that happens whilst Horacio is living there in chapter 6 actually happened in real life in 1992, which is the year I placed Horacio in Spain.

2. The crucifix necklace that features throughout the fic was based on the chain we see around Carrillo’s neck in the scene below (and the screencap doubles as a nice bit of eye sex as well 😉). I just headcanoned it had a cross attached to it, seen as we see him praying with Trujillo and I think it’s highly likely he had a Catholic upbringing in Colombia. 

3. Linking on from the above, thanks to this post I also found out part-way through writing the fic that there was a prop necklace made for season 2, but we never see it on screen (we were robbed!!).

I don’t know if this is the same one from season 1, I suspect it’s not otherwise why would the auction not mention that? Plus the one above appears to be silver (although the lighting is terrible in that scene so who knows?!). 

The auction page says the following about the prop, along with a charm bracelet:

Now, I haven’t been able to fathom out what they mean re: the charm bracelet tbh. Because the first time we see it is when Steve goes to dinner with Connie in The Enemies of My Enemy:

He gives it to Connie to give to Olivia, but Connie tells him to keep it because he needs the luck. This scene takes place after they visit Juliana Carrillo, but what I don’t get is a) Why would Steve still have it after visiting Juliana if he was supposed to give it back to her? and b) If it is supposed to be Carrillo’s, what was he doing with it when he died? Because he clearly wasn’t wearing it lol. I can only think his wife/daughter gave him it for good luck and he just carried it around on him, which is a thought I have a lot of feelings about 😭❤️

Anyway...I digress lol. As for Carrillo’s necklace, I ran with the auction site saying the medallion is of a deity, and after falling down multiple research holes, I found out there is a Colombian deity called Bochica. 

Bochica looks like this:

I went through all of the Colombian deities and to me, the medallion looks most like Bochica out of all of them.

Now, this is where I lost my mind slightly. Because Colombian mythology states that Bochica is the God of morals and laws 👀👀 So, I can only assume it was a deliberate choice by the writing team/prop department to include Bochica on Carrillo’s necklace. Which makes it even more of a crying shame that we never saw it in the show! 

Linking back to OHDH for a second, as I’d already given Horacio the crucifix necklace by the time I was aware of this prop, in chapter 14 I decided to add a second one that belonged to Horacio’s dad instead. And it may make another appearance in a future chapter ���

4. In chapter 13, Horacio talks about celebrating Día de las Velitas every Christmas (the candles in the guesthouse were his own tribute to it). It translates to ‘Day of the Little Candles’ in English and is celebrated on 7th December in Colombia. In the same chapter, Javier also mentions Las Posadas which is celebrated in various Latin American countries and Mexico between 16th and 24th December. 

5. In chapter 13, the song on the radio at Chucho’s celebration meal is Look At Us by Vince Gill. Because the lyrics just felt apt for where Javier and Horacio were at by this point of their relationship ❤️

6. If you want an idea of what I had in mind for ranch!Horacio in chapter 13 (when Javier can’t control himself in the kitchen 😉), this is basically it:

This is Maurice Compte in There is a New World Somewhere (which you should definitely watch if you haven’t already btw) and even though I wrote a damn fic about this film lol, I had forgotten he wears this outfit. And it wasn’t until I went looking for gifs of Maurice wearing jeans (because I just couldn’t imagine Horacio wearing them for some reason 😂) that I realised he was basically ranch!Horacio 👀

7. The scenes between Horacio and Chucho in chapter 15 were slightly inspired by the fact that both Maurice Compte and Edward James Olmos starred together in Mayans MC. I remember watching Mayans early last year after I’d started OHDH and could not believe my luck, because their interactions in that were kinda how I imagined Horacio and Chucho (although Chucho doesn’t at any point attempt to kill Horacio, unlike their respective characters in Mayans 😂). The scene of Horacio drinking on the porch and of Chucho covering Horacio with a blanket were nods to similar scenes the actors shared in Mayans MC. 

8. Speaking of Edward James Olmos, in chapter 15, Horacio finds a book on Javier’s shelf called With His Pistol in His Hand by Américo Paredes. A film adaptation was made of it in 1983 called The Ballad of Gregorio Cortez starring none other than, you’ve guessed it...Edward James Olmos. The detail of Javier and Horacio watching the film serves no purpose other than a fun Easter egg for my own amusement tbh 😂

There are also a few other literary references in the same scene as the above that I thought were kind of apt: Rosario Castellanos (a Mexican author/poet), One Hundred Years of Solitude by Gabriel García Márquez, Giovanni's Room by James Baldwin

9. In chapter 15, Chucho talks about making an altar for Mariana each Día de Muertos, which translates in English to the Day of the Dead and is celebrated in Mexican culture on 1st and 2nd November. 

A large part of my inspiration for this came from a book called Everyone Knows You Go Home by Natalia Sylvester which I highly recommend. 

10. Whilst on the subject of other books I’ve read that have inspired me for this fic, here are a few more (and I’ll add any others I read in the future): 

Like This Afternoon Forever by Jaime Manrique

Fruit of the Drunken Tree by Ingrid Rojas Contreras

Under the Mesquite by Guadalupe Garcia McCall

11. In the opening scene of chapter 16, Chucho is cooking with a Mexican spice called epazote. And ok so this is really random, but I have to thank this interview with Tony Dalton (Lalo from Better Call Saul) who is from Laredo, for educating me on the existence of this spice. He talks in that interview about how he schooled the BCS writers on authentic Mexican cooking and got them to change a line in the script to include epazote. So, I thought why not use it here when I’m writing about characters in Laredo?! Frijoles de la Olla is also a Mexican bean dish that uses epazote in the recipe. 

12. In the scene where Javier and Horacio reunite, I kind of had the bottom gif from this post in mind, which is a scene from another Maurice Compte film called I Do. Obvs Horacio is wearing a cowboy hat as well, but you get the idea 😉

13. In chapter 16, when Javier tells Horacio everything about Los Pepes and Bill Stechner, I expanded on the canon detail that Bill Stechner was an instructor at the School of the Americas and was involved with conflict in Nicaragua, and decided that it was highly likely Horacio and probably Javier as well, would have received some sort of SOA-related training. 

As is so often the case, I got sucked down a research rabbit hole and ended up reading this book: The School of the Americas: Military Training and Political Violence in the Americas by Lesley Gill

This was an interesting paragraph that made me think of a certain scene in Narcos, I can’t imagine why 👀

14. Chapter 16 is named after Like a Prayer by Madonna because it just suited the mood and also, some of the lyrics are so them ❤️

15. The show sets Javier’s and Horacio’s trip to Tolú in December 1989, but never specifies a date. My anniversary with my husband also happens to be in December, so in chapter 17, I may have given them the same anniversary 😳

EDIT TO ADD: Erm, the show actually did specify a date for their trip to Tolú. And you'll never believe which date:

For some reason, I only noticed this in August 2023, so there you are, they actually do share my anniversary based on canon's timeline of events 👀👀👀

16. The song they dance to in chapter 17 is Can’t Help Falling in Love by Elvis Presley. I kind of need to do a shoutout to The Killers for covering the song and planting the idea in my head to use it here after setting up in chapter 15 that Javier kept Mariana’s records in his bedroom ❤️

17. The poetry book Javier gifts to Horacio in chapter 17 was heavily based on An Anthology of Spanish Poetry: From the Beginnings to the Present Day, Including Both Spain and Spanish America by John Armstrong Crow. I particularly wanted to include Federico García Lorca because he was a gay Spanish poet, who was tragically assassinated for his socialist political views. 

18. Thank you to this post for helping me figure out that ‘Mi hogar’ was the right Spanish phrase for ‘My home’ ❤️

19. There’s also a callback in chapter 17 to Horacio discovering Javier’s copy of Giovanni’s Room by James Baldwin in chapter 15. Weirdly, I included this detail before I read or knew anything about Swimming in the Dark by Tomasz Jedrowski, in which the gay main character bonds with his boyfriend over Giovanni’s Room. The way I SCREAMED when I read Swimming in the Dark, having already included a reference to Giovanni’s Room in chapter 15 👀👀

20. I’ve already mentioned Las Posadas in chapter 13 and seen as chapter 17 takes place a year after chapter 13, I thought I’d go into more detail about the celebrations. You can read more about the significance of the piñata and various traditions here and here.

21. Chapter 17 mentions Día de los Reyes Magos, which takes place on 6th January and closes out the festive season. Rosca de Reyes (Kings’ Loaf) is a type of sweet bread traditionally eaten on this day.

22.  Fiesta San Antonio is references in chapter 17 and is an annual festival that takes place in San Antonio every April. Cascarones are a tradition at the festival, where confetti-filled eggs are cracked over the heads of your friends and loved ones (I loved discovering this fact!).

23. I did a lot of reading about Madrid and Spain for chapters 18 and 19, so I’ll talk about the books I found the most useful here:

Snow on the Atlantic: How Cocaine Came to Europe by Nacho Carretero

This book was INVALUABLE in helping me link together Spain and Colombia with regards to drug trafficking (of which I knew nothing about beforehand, funnily enough). In fact, it’s now my headcanon that this is what Horacio would have been involved with when he was exiled to Madrid in the show lol. Galicia is a region of Spain where drug trafficking clans operate and they ship product in from Colombia to distribute through Europe. Weirdly, I saw a news story about this in the UK the other day (April 2023) where traffickers were using submarines to smuggle cocaine off the Spanish coast, so this kind of thing very much still goes on!

There was also a line in the book about Pacho Herrera visiting the clans in Galicia back in the 80s/90s, so that’s where I got that line from in chapter 18.

Operación Nécora is covered in the book, but you can also read more about it here as well (this was another namedrop in the conversation between Horacio and Álvaro).

The Book of Casey Adair by Kevin Harvey

A book about gay characters living in Madrid in the 80s – perfect research! I do have more to say about this one, but I’ll save it for after chapter 19 has been posted.

For any Pedro fans interested in A Strange Way of Life that’s coming out later this year, Pedro Almodóvar gets mentioned quite a bit in this book!

Without a Second Thought: A Memoir of Life in Franco's Madrid by Diane Lorz Benitez

This was a memoir of an American woman living in Madrid in the 70s and 80s, so just at the end and immediately after the Franco regime. Again, I will say more about this book after chapter 19 has been posted.

24. The bombing that killed Álvaro’s brother, Jaime, is based on the one that actually happened in Madrid in 1993. Please note I have not based Jaime on any of the real victims; the date of the bombing just fit the timeline of the story.

25. El Retiro Park exists in real life Madrid, as does the Fuente del Ángel Caído (fun fact: it sits 666 metres above sea level 😈), the Palacio de Cristal, the lake and the Monument to Alfonso XII.

26. La Semana Santa is Holy Week in Spain, which begins on Palm Sunday and ends on Easter Sunday. If you’re alarmed by some of the outfits shown in that link, don’t be, as they came first and it was a certain white supremacist group who did the cultural appropriation.

Some of the foods referenced in chapter 19 are traditionally eaten during La Semana Santa. Here are a few recipes: Espinacas con Garbanzos, Croquetas de Bacalao, Bartolillos Madrileños, Buñuelos de Viento, Flores Fritas and Torrijas.

27. I previously mentioned reading Without a Second Thought: A Memoir of Life in Franco’s Madrid by Diane Lorz Benitez (see point 23). In chapter 19 of OHDH, Señora Romero talks about hiding people from raids back in the days of Franco. This book references such raids by Franco’s men during the Spanish Civil War and explains how the porter in the author's apartment building used to hide people like this. So, given the age of Señora Romero, I decided she would have been in Madrid around this time and it felt fitting for her character to have put her neck on the line for others.

28. While on the subject of historical Madrid, I also previously mentioned reading The Book of Casey Adair by Kevin Harvey (see point 23 again), which follows a gay American postgrad student living in Madrid at the start of the ‘80s. It focuses largely on his personal relationships and sexuality, the political upheaval in Spain around that time and also the HIV/AIDS crisis.

I cried my eyes out at the ending, and it got me thinking about my own fic. When I first started it, I wasn’t expecting it to become so detailed with history and realism beyond what we see in Narcos, so I didn’t plan on talking about HIV/AIDS at all. But now we’re here and research has become a big part of the process for me, so even though I didn’t want it to be a significant subplot (because there's enough going on already), I wanted to at least acknowledge the existence of HIV/AIDS in a story about bisexual men set in the ‘80s/'90s. And I think it adds another layer to the sense of relief Javier and Horacio are feeling now they’ve come through the other side of everything ❤️

29. In chapter 19, the phone call between Javier and Chucho delves into their family history and gives a bit of backstory about how Chucho’s and Mariana’s parents came from Mexico to the USA. The following book about repatriation of Mexican and Mexican-American people from America in the '30s has been an invaluable resource and I couldn’t have written this scene without it: Decade of Betrayal: Mexican Repatriation in the 1930s by Francisco E. Balderrama

30. I chose Cattleya orchids for Trujillo's wedding, as it's the national flower of Colombia.

31. The church where Trujillo gets married is the same one seen in The Sword of Simón Bolivar (season 1, episode 2) where Javier is anxiously waiting for news from Helena (also just feel the need to say I'm obsessed with the framing of this shot below, it has subtext written all over it lol):

It's the Iglesia del Señor de las Misericordias and the below picture shows the balcony Javier and Horacio talk over more clearly:

32. I included several Colombian wedding traditions in Trujillo's ceremony and the reception (disclaimer: I'm not Colombian and unfortunately have never been to a Colombian wedding, but I've tried my best with research and appreciate some people may do things differently). The candle ceremony, arras coins, mantilla veil, the shoe game and belt contest, La Hora Loca, the bride and groom having godparents (padrinos and madrinas) rather than bridesmaids/best man, Trujillo's guayabera and bandeja paisa are all referenced here and here.

33. Feria de las Flores is a festival of flowers held in Medellín every August.

34. Jardín Botánico de Medellín exists in real life, and really is a stone's throw away from Iglesia del Señor de las Misericordias. However, I may have taken artistic license with the Orquideorama (the orchid canopy under which the reception is held). It does exist as below, but it wasn't actually built until 2006 lol:

I'd already decided on the botanical gardens being the reception venue, then I saw someone's beautiful wedding photos and decided I had to have the Orquideorama and the tables amongst the trees ❤️

35. I won't link each dish separately, but for most of the wedding food, I used this Colombian recipe site for ideas.

36. Cumbia is the national dance of Colombia, so I had to include it in chapter 20.

Lucho Bermúdez was an important influence in cumbia music and you can listen to Tolú here.

I've had a hard time tracking down the origins of Noches de Cartagena. It seems to be one of those old traditional songs that everyone has done a version of, e.g. here's one version that sounds very different to this one. So take your pick!

37. Given Javier's background, I wanted to include something from the Tejano/Texan music world as well: Laura Canales was a Tejano musician and Hank Locklin made country music.

I also want to mention this piece written by a gay Texan man about dance hall life and his sexuality. It's so beautifully written and the lyrics to a Hank Locklin song called Please Help Me, I'm Falling certainly hit different from a queer point of view. Immediately after reading this piece, I wrote Javier's memories of dancing in chapter 20.

38. If anyone didn't already know what shirt stays/garters are, you're welcome:

They're commonly worn in the military/police, apparently, so I figured there's no way Horacio would put up with an untidy shirt 😉

39. Carolina García Velásquez, who is mentioned in the final scene of chapter 20, is the innocent bystander killed by accident in the La Dispensaria raid. The show didn't give her a name, so I did, just to give Horacio some closure really.

40. For some strange reason, the show never gives Trujillo a first name. So, in the OHDH universe, he's called Felipe, just because I thought it suited him tbh lol.

41. I don’t think I’ve ever really mentioned the fact I decided to kill off Horacio’s dad lol. The only reference to Carrillo’s parents in the show seems to be this one-off line by Escobar when he’s having his bitch-off with Horacio over the phone:

So, this suggests in canon, Carrillo’s parents are very much alive and well. But in the OHDH universe, I liked the parallel with Javier losing his mother (seen as it’s very heavily implied she’s no longer around in the show, and I believe the mother of the real life Javier Peña died too) and helped to develop the thread of grief running throughout the fic.

42. I established in chapter 17 that Horacio’s family live in Manizales. So, once I started researching the city and discovered it’s part of the coffee growing region of Colombia, the idea of the coffee farm in chapter 21 just sprung to mind.

43. La Leyenda del Mareco (The Legend of the Mareco), which Horacio tells Javier about in chapter 21, is a story from Antioquian folklore that I came across in my research.

44. The sudado de pollo recipe cooked in chapter 21 is based on this one and this one (for some reason, the voice of the chef in the video totally reminded me of Juliana Carrillo’s lol).

45. The line in chapter 21 about Madrid being good enough for Simón Bolívar stems from the fact he lived there for two years and married a Spanish woman named María Teresa Rodríguez del Toro y Alaysa.

46. The references to La Violencia (The Violence) relate to a civil war that took place in Colombia between the Conversative and Liberal Parties in the ‘40s and ‘50s. Given how old I placed Horacio and Eduardo, it fit that Eduardo would have been a serving police officer around this time, and I liked the parallel of him being as morally conflicted as Horacio ended up becoming.

The Colombian military and the CNP were largely on the side of the Conservatives, and were up to their necks in brutality and corruption (police officers who were known to be Liberals were also kicked out of the force). So, for me, it kind of puts the outrage/surprise in the show at Carrillo’s more extreme methods in a new light, because plenty of police officers/soldiers before him did a lot worse lol.

Ironically, a lot of those displaced in rural areas by La Violencia fled to cities like Medellín and that's how Comuna 13 was born, which obviously went on to become a victim of Escobar's violence.

Some books I read that add a lot more context about this era:

In Evil Hour by Gabriel García Márquez

Blood and Fire: La Violencia in Antioquia, Colombia, 1946-1953 by Mary Roldán

47. Speaking of Gabriel García Márquez, the line Javier quotes to Alejandra in chapter 21 is from One Hundred Years of Solitude (“We came,” they said, “because everyone is coming.”). In the book, it comes after a railroad is built to Macondo (the fictional town the story is set), which sees the beginning of capitalist imperialism in the town as the American banana companies take over and exploit the Colombian workers.

The line before the one Javier quotes is: “Look at the mess we’ve got ourselves into,” Colonel Aureliano Buendía said at that time, “just because we invited a gringo to eat some bananas.”

It just felt like an apt comparison to America’s involvement in the War on Drugs, so that’s how that ended up in there.

48. In the same conversation between Javier and Alejandra in chapter 21, he calls cowboys ‘vaqueros’ whereas she refers to them as ‘llaneros’. ‘Vaquero’ is the Mexican word for ‘cowboy’ and ‘llanero’ is the Colombian equivalent.

49. The two cats in chapters 21 and 22, Caturra and Bourbon, are named after types of coffee beans.

50. In the conversation between Horacio and Elena in chapter 22, I couldn’t have written the parts about the jaguar, snake and condor without Infinite Country by Patricia Engel (I’ll talk about this book more again after chapter 23).

Another book by a Colombian author that inspired me for chapters 21/22 was The Man Who Could Move Clouds: A Memoir by Ingrid Rojas Contreras (the same author as The Fruit of the Drunken Tree, which I’ve mentioned above somewhere).

51. In chapter 22, when Horacio says: “But there can be a certain kind of freedom in the dark....” I have to give a nod to Black Sails. It’s a quote I’ve talked about before on my Tumblr after I realised it had unintentional similarities to chapters 1 and 2 of OHDH (I only watched Black Sails for the first time in 2023, so wasn’t aware of Flint’s quote back in 2021). Obviously, Flint isn’t just talking about queerness in his speech to Silver, but I used light/dark metaphors in a similar way at the start of this fic, so this is just another callback to that.

52. The mention of El Dorado (‘The Golden One’) in chapter 22 is in reference to the Spanish conquistadors’ quest for a hidden city of gold when they came to Colombia and other parts of Latin America. The legend centres on Lake Guatavita (located near current-day Bogotá), which was one of the sacred lakes of the Muisca people (of which Bochica is a deity of). They were said to carry out rituals at the lake involving their leader being covered in gold dust and trinkets/jewellery etc. would be thrown into the water as offerings. The Spanish colonisers found the lake and tried to drain it in order to hunt for gold, but nothing substantial has ever been found. The lake is now a protected area and attempts to drain it are illegal.

53. The Simón Bolívar half-man, half-condor statue in Manizales mentioned in chapter 22 exists in real life:

54. Here’s the Colombian coat of arms referenced in chapter 22, which also forms part of the CNP emblem:

55. Bochica has been mentioned previously, but I added reference to Chibchacum here as well, who was the one to cause the flood that Bochica stopped with a strike of his staff by creating the Tequendama Falls (also near current-day Bogotá).

56. Día de Todos los Santos refers to the Catholic tradition of All Saints Day, which as explained in chapter 22 differs from Día de Muertos. I wanted to show the differences between Colombian and Mexican culture here – and by extension, Horacio’s and Javier’s different experiences -  but then also maybe have one kinda influence the other based on Horacio’s time spent in Texas.

57. Calentado is mentioned in chapter 22 and there’s a recipe if you fancy a traditional Colombian breakfast and here’s a recipe for cocadas as well.

58. Eduardo’s term of endearment for Elena is ‘Mi media naranja’, which literally translates from Spanish as ‘My half an orange’ but really means ‘My better half’ or ‘My soulmate’. I went with soulmate in my translation, as it feels more significant/appropriate to me. The reference to a postcard with orange groves on it in Eduardo’s trinket box is also a nod to this nickname, just because lol.

59. In case anyone was wondering, or didn’t pick up on it, the scene towards the end of chapter 22 between Horacio and Javier in the car and looking down on Medellín is the same spot from chapter 5 where they said goodbye before Horacio left for Madrid. It felt like the perfect full circle but everything is obviously different now ❤️

[my3amletterstoher]

I’m in love with you too baby 😘🤗🖤

Damn 😭😪 I hit the posting limit.

I love you so much 🖤

Holds you tight

Kisses you

Record player playing music

I rock you back and forth to the music

Kissing on your neck

And down to your breasts

Caressing them

And caressing your arms

And back

While listening to you talk

Attentively

Making us some more tea, you join me in the kitchen

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I’m right here baby. Extra love for my baby on the weekends 🖤

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I’m right here baby. Sorry for the delay.

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Gives you a big hug and kiss

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I heard your soul tell me again that you miss me. I bring out the most in you, and things that no one can (& vice versa), that’s what makes us special. I want that for that rest of my life. When you came back out to me on the 22nd , nothing suppressed, I love that. You make me feel feelings that I never felt before and in ways that I can’t explain. And I know you feel the same. I feel like it’s so important to say something to you. See, when we don’t suppress ourselves with each other we make each other feel so happy and at home. The happiest. We don’t just see but feel. And I’m sorry that when it was coming out more you felt like I wasn’t there. And the way I reacted. I feel like those parts that come out were/are made for me. You’re perfect af. We’re each other’s everything: mind, body & soul. We’re perfect for each other. We’re meant to be. I love our dynamic. I love us. We truly are the perfect match in every way. And life is meant for us to spend the rest of our lives together. 🖤I love you so much. You are a masterpiece.

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Getting ready to hop in the shower.

Holds you.

Really wish I didn’t hit the post limit 😑

I don’t think it’s been this cold outside in some years. The Falmer’s Almanac said it was going to be cold though. They predict the weather and stuff. Using nature. Astrology as well. The books have a whole bunch of interesting stuff in it.

🖤💋

Projecting to you

You’re so incredible. A masterpiece.

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Holds you and kisses you.

Sending Servi to you.

I’ve been working on making him stronger. They grow as days go by and the more attention is given to it. And it becomes stronger that way as well. Meditating with it as well. I’m going to get a vessel for him (a house). We need some of those little jars w/ the cork in them. I think they have done that can be necklaces too. Then they can be worn around then placed on the dresser or something to charge. Now I’m working on baymax some more. Adding more attributes to him. Holding you while doing so. I’m going to do the ritual tomorrow since I can’t post videos right now.

Visualize yourself as a white light w/ a hole in it. Black floor. Our door w/ our symbol on it. We see our beach. and walk through our forest, we feed, play with and check it, we go into the forest and to our drawbridge, and go into the portal, we see a funky psyedelic bowling alley, there’s funk music playing, people in bell bottoms, Afros’s galoreeee, we walk around, it’s dimly lit, neon lights, fog machines , disco lights, we put on our bowling shoes, and start to bowl, visualize the bowling ball in your hand, and rolling/throwing it (what do they call can that? Lol) and trying to knock the pins down, we play for a few hours, and play around doing so, we’re laughing and having a good time, we sit down to get a bite to eat, I grab your hand and kiss it, caught in a gaze watching you eating, I tell you how beautiful you are, we talk for a while, and bowl some more, strikes on all sides, we walk around the alley a little bit, to check out all the sights and sounds , there’s this dance floor , DJ playing funk music, strobe light blinking, and lighting up the room, after we’re finished hanging out at the bowling alley, we find our portal

~~~~~~~~~

🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🔒⛓

I love you so much baby. You are so perfect. Beautiful and Sexy.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I feel you baby

Gives you a hug. Holds you. We head back to our log cabin.

I think I finished Baymax. Sending him to you.

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Visualize yourself as a white light w/ a hole in it, tappin into you. Kissing you on your soft lips, hand wrapped around your neck. Just enough for a little air to come through, I push you up against the wall, I rip off your bra, and grab your breasts, and sink my teeth in them, and licking on your nipples, i grab some ice and rub it on til they turn numb, then I pour hot wax, watching it trickle down your body, I lick it off, from your breasts, and from down your body, I kiss you on your lips, and sinking my teeth into your neck, pinning you into the wall while I’m penetrating yours, taking my fingers out and having you lick it off, sucking me hard, with that sexy ass fierce look on your eyes, you start to sway your hips, and dip it low, I cheer you on as you move, I grab your hips and pull you in, I kiss you on the lips, and bite your lower lip, I hold you close, running my fingers through your hair, I grab your hands and kiss them, and gently rubbing on your shoulder, and on your back, we french kiss, I kiss down your neck, and nibble on your shoulder, I lay you down on the bed,I stare into your eyes, and caress your hand, I hold you tight, and caresses your breasts, we talk about any and everything, as I rubn my fingers through your hair, I wrap you up in my arms, firmly, as we read some books together, as I rub your arms, legs, and breasts with the tips of my fingers , I kiss you on your shoulder, and on your lips, we read all types of books together, action, romance, we go outside to watch the sun set, I grab the blanket, we hold each other, I kiss you on your lips, and suck on your breasts, i lick on your pussy,licking on your clit,,

~~~~I didn’t give up on you baby Projecting to you

Deep breathing, 4in, 6out

Sending you energy

Holding you, kissing you, showering you w/ love , wrapping my arms around you, I love you so much baby, sending energy up and down your spine (you might not feel it in the exact area but feel it in general)

Doing the LBRP

The reason you’re not feeling or getting the results sometimes is because you lack patience baby and you have to have and keep faith. Some days things aren’t going to big massive.

Im not mad at you btw.

Some times you/we will do things and you won’t be about to see or feel it on a large scale but you have to believe that what you/we did will manifest/is working. Sometimes the results will take a long time but even so you have to believe/have faith. Plus the more we do stuff and most importantly when we get together privately things will be so much better. When we’re face to face I’ll be able to just verbally say/do things right while it’s happening and not stop so that way we can just focus on what we’re doing.

The more focus and concentration? The better the results.

~~~~~

We’ll do the ritual tomorrow okay? Hope it didn’t sound like I was getting on you. Bc I do understand you like no other. Nothing is wrong.

~~~~~~~

Projecting to you

Whats on your mind baby?

I love you so much 😘🤗🖤😍

Sending you energy

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Holding you 😘🤗🖤

~~~~~

I get you and understand you like no other 🖤

I’m right here baby 🖤

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Visualize yourself as a white light w/ a hole in it, a black floor, our door w/ our symbol on it, we see our beach, and we head to our forest, hand in hand, we walk to our drawbridge , to our portal, to our nightly bonfire, to watch the sunset, I hold you in my arms, as I gaze into your eyes, holding you, and singing to you,

Projecting to you

I’m right here

I throw some herbs in the bonfire, I look at you & smile, you smile back w/ that gorgeous smile of yours, I hold you tight, as we smoke a mix, and sing to you in your ear, I stare into your eyes,

~~~~~~~~~~

I liked yesterday and the day before, we’re each other’s everything l. IG Stories please . I’m right here please. I miss when you would reach out to me. Please reach out to me. Let me be your drug, your go-to, be addicted to me, don’t be ashamed , I need you, I WANT TO SEE YOU🖤

Can I see you baby?

Im right here baby. I feel the same way. 🖤 can you take me back to the 22? Matter of fact.. Can I feel that yearning for me? Because I’m right here yearning for you. I want to feel that craving, that although I’m your Dom you command / and demand me, that you’re beg for me, because I’m not afraid to beg for you , I’m not afraid to tell command anything I want from you, I’m not afraid to scream from the roof tops. It’s reciprocated. All feelings, deep.. the deepest feelings we have, it’s all reciprocated.

Can we go back to our bonfire baby?

We’re near the bonfire, I hold you in my arms, as we drink our tea, I rock you from side to side, as I sing to you, I gaze into your beautiful eyes and kiss you on your hand, as I run my fingers through your hair, I ask you how your day was, we talk about what comes to mind, I stare into your eyes while doing so, and rub on your arms while doing so, holding you on my arms, I kiss you on your luscious lips, and on your neck, I rub on your back, with the tips of my fingers, holding you close, kissing you on your cheek, i give you a stuff animal as a surprise, and kiss you on your lips, I throw some more herbs into the fire, lavender and rose buds, on your neck I kiss you, arms wrapped around you as we’re under the blanket, as the sun sets and stars settle in the sky, i caress your breasts, and suck on them, such perfection, cuddling with you, we get up, and find a portal, our portal opens to restaurant, for dinner, it’s a vegan restaurant, it’s modern, well lit, has a lot of different food choices there, this place is real fancyyy, I’m talking ‘bout square platesss, dishes with sauce squirled arounddd, so we order this sampler plate, some veggies with some sauce, I look you in the eyes as I put some in your mouth, and you feed me too,

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My sub. 🖤🔒⛓

So much more than my fantasy though, so much more deeper.

I got the best gf/sub in the whole world. And that’s for real. My vampire 🤤🖤🔒⛓

Stick my fingers all the way down your throat and suck until I use circulation. Let’s fulfill all of each other’s fantasies. You rock my world baby 😩🤗😍🖤

Eyes so beautifullll, your eyebrows, your breasts, your lips, your hair, the way you move, the way you’re ART, such a masterpiece, in such a perfected way, in every way, so divine and fine, so blessed that you’re mine, so fucking beautiful, and enticing. Gives you a kiss. And holds you. Licks you on your face. Sway your hips in your Choker baby and put it on your IG Story 😍😍🖤

~~~~~

Kisses you and holds you, you’re the freaking greatest baby, FAWK 😩😍😍 visualize yourself as I white light w/ a hole in it, visualizing a black floor,our door w/ the symbol on it , we see our beach, and the forest, we see our drawbridge, and its portal, we head to the top of our mountain, looking at the stars, we turn into bats, soaring the night sky, we fly high above buildingssss, and between them, we soar up higher , and reach the starssss,and all the planets, dipping on the Milky Way, that’s a romantic date, we land near this waterfall , and turn back into our form, I grab your hands and whisk you around, and pick you up, and give you a bigggggg kiss, and squeeze you so tight, while staring you in your eyes, you make my mind, body & soul melt 😩😍😍😍, I kiss you again, you sit on my lap as I hold you and squeeze you tight,I sign the temptations My Girl to you, we smile at each other,we sit and look at the stars, at stare at you looking at the stars, I take pictures and videos of you, I take some Candids, and you pose for some, perfection, I start directing, I give you a kiss, and start kissing your neck, I could stare/look at you all day 😩😍😍😍, bask in you all day 😩😍😍, holds you as we continue to look at the stars, as we smoke, I caress your breasts, and rub on your thighs, we make our way to the portal, and to our log cabin, I tell you to fix us something to eat,I stare at you, I’m watching you, you look so beautiful & sexy , I grab your ass while you at the stove, then I hug you from behind, I give you a big kiss, and rock you from side to side, we sit at the table and eat, we talk, I hold your hands and rub it, we feeding each other, kissing you on your neck, we head back to the couch, We play some video games, then I suggest we go out to bomb and tag some buildings, so we put on all black, spray paint masks, get the spray paint in our backpacks, we go into the portal and into a city scape, we bombing trains, and tagging buildingssss, we climbing up on ladders, and stair ways, Fireescapes, we made a sigil and tagging it every where, we tagging our names + forever , we make our way back to the portal and back to our cabin, I grab you and kiss you on your neck, and bite on your neck, I push you down to the bed, you biting on your lip, I tell you to play with your pussy for me, I watch so enchanted by it, your rubbing on your clit, getting me so wet, I tell you put your fingers in it, and lemme taste after, you feeling on your titties too, got my nipples so erect , I tell you squeeze em for me, then I order you to turn around , and throw your ass all up in my face, and spread those cheeks for me, cause I wanna see that booty hole breathe for me, taking me to ecstasy, i tell you to smack that ass for me, I’m getting off so much , touching myself while watching you, I rub on your breasts, and suck on em, while choking on your neck, I grip it even more, as I’m caressing and rubbing on your tits, I run my fingers down your pussy, with my mouth I fling that clit, and suck on your lips, putting my tongue inbetween it,

~~~~~~

About to hop in the shower

[Tumblr has a 10 images per post limit so I can’t post anymore pix or gif right now but you already know it’s still going down ]

Deep breathing 4in, 6out keep up that pace, visualize yourself as a white light w/ a hole in it, I’m tappin in, sending you my energy, invoking, kissing you on your lips, and biting down on your neck, caressing you, gripping on your thighs, and kissing on them inwardly, loving up on your body w/ my tongue, biting on your nipples, grabbing you by your hair , balling it up and snapping your neck back, your spine I’m rubbing on that, licking on that ass from front to back, putting my finger in, while I’m touching that pussy, you move that ass around for me & throw it back, dipping my tongue in it, and rimming it, sucking on your thighs, gripping your waist, and caressing your breasts, and rubbing on your nipples, i kiss you on your lips, biting and sucking on that bottom one, I place hickies on your chest, sucking on every inch, playing on your clit and your ass, that’s dinner and dessert, I lick your pussy from the back, and slurp it up, I’m tracing all your geometry, grabbing on your ass leaving scratch marks , rubbing on you and caressing you, on your neck and shoulders I place kisses on, kisses tracing the side of you, sucking on your thighs,rubbing my fingers up and down your spine, and around your booty hole, and in it, licking it all around,and down and up, rubbing on your legs and thighs, and kissing down your legs,, rubbing your ear, caressing your face

~~~~ my bad I dozed off, I feel you, I’m right here. I hit the line limit in this post 1 sec...

[leonthewitch]

Adding onto this and adding more characters because I couldn’t resist 😭

Xiao, Kazuha, Thoma, Eula, Venti, Zhongli, Gorou, and Kaeya with a witch significant other/best friend

Long post!!

Content Warning/Briefing: talks of biases against witchcraft, cussing, g/n reader, realistic witchcraft (not fantasy witchcraft! Ofc there’s a little fantasy bc it’s genshin but most is based off irl practices), skinship/physical touch, mention of fake death for Zhongli, Zhongli‘s is lowkey more like a storyline, tavern mention for Kaeya’s,

Btw; I totally don’t mind if non witches read this!!! Just keep in mind to be respectful 💖

(Also if you’re gonna be mean please leave 😀 literally let me collect my silly little gay rocks and do my silly little gay rituals in peace ISTG)

🎋Xiao🎋

Confused

He is often very confused

Says he doesn’t understand anything that’s in the rituals you do and that it doesn’t make sense but he becomes the infamous surprised pikachu meme the second he realizes that shit works

Is supportive in his own little ways though

If he spots an interesting looking store he may subtly drop their business card on your counter or something

Or if he’s feeling real brave he just might go up to there and buy you something himself

Hell no he can’t give it to you face to face bc he’s embarrassed so he just drops it on your bed or something of that sort

Gets all shy if you mention it

“W—Wha—… oh… the necklace thing— yeah, yeah, it’s not a big deal I— I just saw it and thought it was cool, alright? … no I didn’t know it was one of your favorite crystals. No… … stop it.”

He totally knows all of your favorites

Even though he acts like he doesn’t listen to your ramblings about your endeavors he TOTALLY listens to every single word

Plz don’t tell him if he brought you a crystal you already have

Even if you’re excited ab it he will definitely get all grumpy

Then he needs cuddles. Pls if you’re comfortable give him cuddles.

“… I’m not upset. You’re reading my emotions wrong I— adepti have n—no time for that— what—… you… want me to ‘snuggle’ you? I… god, you’re embarrassing.”

No you’re not!! He’s just a grumpy little man who denies the fact that he’s touch starved

Also if you gift him a spell jar that shit is gonna stay with him for eternity make no mistake

He’ll preserve it as best as he can and will probably tie it around his neck as a necklace or something

I’m so gay for him bye

🍄Kazuha🍄

THE MOST CURIOUS BABY

Please teach him everything and anything you know he is literally so interested in learning

He saw your altar one day and asked what it was and the rest is history

That same month you noticed how interested he seemed in what you’re doing craft-wise and invited him to visit one of the local supply shops with you

He was like a kid in a candy store

Literally.

You ended up buying him his first little crystal necklace!!!!!!

He was hooked

It was a clear quartz that he decided on getting, basically because you had said it’s a good blanket-type crystal, aka works for help in a multitude of departments

Oh no you got him hooked/j

He’d ask if you could make him a protection charm for when he battles

And if you do you’d better expect him to never take it off when he’s in battle. Never.

🌹Thoma🌹

The utmost supportive boi

Does his own research as to not “bother you” about your practice (even though he really wouldn’t be a bother)

One time he came to your house with a bag of amethyst pieces and a beaming grin on his face as he held it out to you

“I was taking a stroll and found some of these, so I used my spear to mine them! How do they look—? I—I read somewhere witches like amethyst, right?”

He’s absolutely precious

Occasionally when he sees a herb, crystal, tea, or anything in between he thinks maybe you’d like, he goes for it and gets at least a little for you

Overall is really sweet and likes to learn about your craft and what you dabble in mainly, but he’s also very good about not invading your space at all

Though if you ever want to show him stuff or just have him there he’s sprinting

He will gladly hold you while you read up on some witchcraft books

Probably would want to ask for a charm of some sort, perhaps for protection or diligence

🌨Eula🌨

A SWEETIE

Also very much supportive energy

Would probably ask for you to make her a charm for courage

Gets very interested though whenever you mention how dance can be apart of some particular rituals

You bet your ass that if you ever mention that you want to try to incorporate dancing into a ritual that she would totally not so subtly say she wants to help

She also thinks that kitchen magic is quite interesting as well and likes it whenever you bake something!!

Yule treats are specifically her favorite in all honesty

If you bake Yule bread? Get a slice fresh from the oven or it’ll be gone in less than a few days

Sometimes if you two go out to the market together she’ll nonchalantly ask questions

Like; “so what about wheat? Does it have some sort of magick meaning…?”

She tries to play it off and be “chill”

She does not do a very good job of it this time around

☁️Venti☁️

“So u into deity work aren’t u 😳✋”

Don’t be mistaken he will tease you ab being so close to him and not doing any type of deity work with him

“Well I mean it’s literally venti why not do deity work with him?” You ask

Oh you tried

he giggled.

Then he fell to the floor laughing

Then you tried again

He fell asleep on your shoulder

If he continues to whine enough though eventually you agree to use one of the feathers from his wings in his archon form for a protection charm

Ngl he got so excited and it was the absolute cutest shit

And all it really is is just a cord necklace with the feather secured onto it, alongside a crystal he found and oh so proudly presented to you one day

And also ngl now hilichurls aren’t running towards you, it’s more like they’re running AWAY from you once they spot that necklace

He’s honestly very respectful though despite the deity work teasing

He brings it up from time to time and asks if there’s anything new you’ve been studying or practicing but he doesn’t overstep any boundaries at all

🪐Zhongli🪐

Ok so you two actually met through deity work before he staged himself tanking it

Probably like about a month or two beforehand, you were trying to contact the electro archon

Not the geo archon

But here we are

Basically you were chilling y’know, had your incense burning, in a meditative state, had offerings ready

Then just some big ass dragon appeared outside of your window

“Baal is busy can I take a message to her for y—“

Your screech stopped him from saying anything else

“Oh— apologies—“

He shrunk—?

Oh someone’s at the door

…

HE’S HUMAN—?

He was in his archon form still at that point so he wouldn’t reveal his current actual “human” form

So this is where you actually meet Zhongli as Zhongli for the first time, not big dragon man

“I am Rex Lapis— Morax, if you will, uhm— I noticed you were seemingly trying to contact Raiden Shogun, correct?”

All you could do it literally give the smallest nod ever

He just awkwardly smiled after that

“Ah, yes, then like I was saying before, I apologize but currently the electro archon is… struggling. With things. But if there’s something I can do— I… would be happy to make your assistance?”

And that’s the story of how you met an archon out your bedroom window

Fast forward a few weeks and you and Zhongli now have weekly tea meetups simply bc you both realized how you enjoyed each others’ company

Sometimes it’d be out in Liyue harbor (he introduced you to his “human” form and life), or even outside in Guili Planes, or somewhere like there,

But there were also the times that it was just at your house, incense burning, the moon high over the two of you, and a calm air

Sometimes you’d even fall asleep, only to wake up the next morning with those two cups clean and back in your cupboard, incense safely put out, and a small piece of topaz in your hand

Yes you have a topaz collection now

Though someone forgot to mention that he literally was planing his fake death

So when you heard of Rex Lapis’ descent occurring soon you ofc were gonna go and see him and maybe tease him ab a few things

God, Zhongli won’t ever forget how mortified you looked when he made eye contact with you right before he ‘died’

You almost ran over to him if it weren’t for the Milileth grabbing you

That night as you walked home you couldn’t even try to keep quiet with how hard you were sobbing

You didn’t even hear the group of treasure hoarders that were beginning to gang up on you, until you heard their groans of pain

You jumped up of course, ready to try to fight, but just froze when you saw you were in Zhongli’s shield, with him right in front of you

He looked so worried

“I… Please accept my dearest apologies, this was planned, I… Could have sworn I told you but I realized quickly I was mistaken—“

He was cut off by the first hug he’s gotten in probably years, maybe even decades, and your pitiful sob of; “Morax!”

Definitely wasn’t expecting that but wasn’t opposed to it at all

He just held you close and let you cry, trying not to cry a little himself

“Now, now, dear—… it’s alright. I’m here.”

❄️Kaeya ❄️

Confused 2.0

Probably the conversation when you two had first talked about it went a little like this:

“Witchcraft— do you mean like… you use a catalyst—“

“No, Kaeya, witchcraft. Not catalysts.”

“… you know that doesn’t exist, right…” *insert nervous laughter*

“… ok. Give me a lock of your hair then.”

“A lock of my what now”

“Give me a lock of your hair. It shouldn’t be an issue if it’s ‘not real’, right?”

“… fine then.”

“You hesitated”

“No I didn’t”

So you now had a protection spell bottle with blue hair in it that he now had staring him down on his work desk

Every so now and then he just

Stares at it

In fear? Maybe so

But he was shocked when he realized it was actually working

It started the day you gave it to him when he got out of trouble with Jean ironically enough

Then it continued when a flower pot from a window above narrowly missed his head while he was walking in the town

Then the last straw is when he narrowly missed accidentally getting Diluc’s elbow to the face while he was in the tavern

Came to your place that night looking like the “☹️” emoji in shock

“What the hell why does this work.”

Now he very much respects your work and craft

🌟Gorou🌟

BEST BOY

No because if you two live together you HAVE to double check with what incense he’s okay with

He loves jasmine and mugwort, can’t stand cinnamon and rose, and a few others, but majority he’s neutral about

But with his sensitive nose poor thing has to stay out of the room until it’s faded a lot so he won’t feel like he’s just straight up shoving herbs up his nose

No he didn’t just get distracted by the selenite it’s just sparkly shiny thingy he was only looking/hj/s

He really likes it when he can just lay his head on your lap while you write things down in your book of shadows or read up on some guides/books

Honestly he really likes your craft and finds some type of peaceful feeling in your space of practice

Respectful babie though he doesn’t go near your things unless you specifically say he can

He most likely will fall asleep on the floor next to it though

Like I said peaceful dude

Side note: GOROU CAME HOMEEE

ok but xiao with a witch s/o or bestie send twt