#🎶 I've got queue under my skin 🎶

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So I'm getting better at making wallpapers for my phone

:3c lookit my pretty boyfriend~

(double for size and watermark to prevent cropping // theft) || doubles dni || proship//neutral dni

Maybe if I get more confident I open moodboard // wallpaper comms? 🤔

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I think mobile hellsite™️ should have the ability to both block and report spam at the same time like it does on desktop. Makes squishing p0rn bots easier. Lol

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To most this is probably going to sound weird and stupid and "cringe" but please remember I am ficto and my feelings are real and serious and I'd like them to be acknowledged that way, I'm not used to talking here as if they're actually real(the way they feel real to me irl) I got inspired to be more open about posting about them like this so here goes:

So, maybe things got a little real. Maybe he is helping me a lot recently... maybe...maybe I am getting extremely attached to him-

sure, he can be a dick at times, yes he's done some pretty rotten things in the past and hurt people for his own selfish gains, do I condone his past behavior? Absolutely not but it doesn't stop the feelings that keep bubbling up and spilling over inside me when I'm with him.

I won't say I love him or anything but I do feel a pull towards him that is hard to describe. Both times he's helped me in terms of my mental illness....both times I felt a little better.

I'm not 100% but thanks to him, his support and reassurances, just to hear someone else say I'm not a terrible human, I'm not a monster or I'm not "crazy" "insane" unfit etc and to have him tell me that despite what I go through he won't abandon me....not like other people in my life have over this....it's nice..

I act all tough and act like I hate that he makes me feel things but in reality.... I don't. I like the banter, the push and pull, it's fun but a part of me just wants to be open and honest about how I feel for him.

Will I stop that push and pull type of behavior? Not fully, as stated its fun and Jamie loves it too but there will be moments like these where I will just talk from the heart.

This guy side swiped me. I was fully intent on hating him from the start as I read from others that Jamie is a prick and I felt if maybe I keep it up and keep it up it turns into a crush that fizzles out and he just is kinda here (?) Someone I go to when I want some silly fun...nothing more nothing less.

I never expected the late night talks, the reassurances, the support, it's different with him. He sees the sides im terrified to show people and seemingly out of nowhere, he knows what to do to make me feel calmer, a little more at peace. Its strange only two other f/o (in different ways) have managed to actually reach into my soul like that and you know them both well...

I won't say I am in love but I will say that I think I'm starting to fall—

This was absolutely terrifying to post I don't like truly being vulnerable so much like this, definitely wouldn't be surprised if I wake up tomorrow morning to anons being jerks about this or making fun of me. My feelings are real and they're the truth I just hope y'all won't laugh at me or tell me that my feelings aren't valid because I have more than one f/o, I guess...I have multiple f/o yes but my feelings aren't any lesser than someone who only has one f/o what i feel is genuine and very very real to me. I'm rambling... just gonna hit schedule

[kadenrambles]

@the-ruby-eyed-rat

so fucked up that baby rats are like adult rats but small

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I mean I don't have the guild currency for him anyways (as I'm not high enough level to participate in wars yet) but...

If I say please can you just give him to me game? 👉👈

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I feel like Anakin would know just by my body language that I wasn't doing okay. Of course he would ask me if I am and my response would only solidify his theory that I'm struggling again.

He knows my tells, how my voice seems to change but if you're not paying attention it just seems like a normal response. "I'm doing good~" no, no I'm not, my tone was forced and a little higher pitched than normal.

I feel like he wouldn't flat out just tell me "you're lying" or "No you're not" instead, he'd say nothing at first and wrap me up into a big hug, giving me one of those long hard squeezes I usually love when I'm not doing okay.

Then he'd finally says "It's okay to not be okay. You don't always have to mask it and pretend that you're fine, you're allowed to feel whatever it is your feeling. It's not weak to feel bad.."

He knows he got through when I just start crying my eyes out into his chest. Regardless if I know why I'm feeling the way I am or not and he would just hold me and let me feel what I feel without words, without judgements. If I wanted to talk about it he would gladly listen to all of my doubts and worries and he would do everything he could to reassure me through everything. He'd rub my back gently and hold me close.

He's just there for me. I never feel like I'm all alone in what I go through when he is here.

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Just found a photo that I'm not okay with. Someone took this man's wonderful freckles and beauty marks and shopped them off his face??? and called it "cleaning him up"???? fucking excuse me????

Op give me your address details I just wanna talk for a minute cause bitch what the fuck? How dare you? He's incredibly handsome just as he is and I will fight you 1v1 style in a Dennys parking lot. lol

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I have distressing news... I'm addicted to tictacs- They sound nice when I bite them and the inside of my mouth feels like winter.

I've had like..13 in the past 3-4 minutes...

F/O come and take these delightful minty seducers away from me-

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Friendly reminder I believe in rb karma. Wanna rb an ask game from me? Send me something from it then rb it.

Too many rbs without rb karma will most likely get you blocked. I know it sounds mean but it sucks having someone rb something from you and you get nothing meanwhile they get tons of asks.

Don't wanna send me anything but wanna rb the game? Please rb it from the source instead.

Just reminding everyone that I am not a rb machine for you. I'm a person who wouldn't mind participating in the games I rb. 💜

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He's literally the cutest ever and I want to hug him and kiss him and cuddle with him and kiss him some more and make him laugh and make him smile.... My literal sunshine. 🧡💜🧡💜

Your smile is so contagious that I smile too, it's hard to be sad when I have someone like you~ ah, I love you so much my heart can't stand it~ you make my heart flutter and skip a beat. You make my cheeks flush and butterflies fly around in my stomach, I feel like I'm on a roller coaster descending from its incline~ I feel a thrill and I feel unconditionally happy~

You were suppose to be a one time thing but you became so much more and I can't ever even dare of letting you go. You mean so much to me now and I'm more than happy to have you stay with me. For as long as you'll have me 💜🧡💜🧡

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How come you never get commissions done. Every self shipper does so why not you?

First of all this is such a weird ask? Why ask me this? Hi?? What???

Second of all their "cheap" $45 USD comms are $60 CAD for me for usually the basic comm like a bust shot/half body sketch (it would be even higher muns if I wanted something full bodied or coloured) and I don't have that kinda money to toss around willy nilly LMFAO

Plus I have a good art app now so I can just make my own content??? Plus sometimes my friends gift me art of my ships which is always nice and I am highly appreciative of that.

THIS ASK IS REAL STRANGE NGL

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I forgot how concerned Hancock can be and how he sounds as he says it is just so idk how to describe it. Hancock makes me feel like he's taking care of me? I accidentally fell from a high place and lost some health and instantly he was like

"Damn are you alright!? Anything broken?"

Like- if I did break something I think Hancock would take care of me. I love my ghoul husband so much.. 💜

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I ALREADY KNOW DOES IT LOOK LIKE I HAVE $200/$300!? *crying*

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Made some picrews of my Fallout self-insert and my Watch_Dogs self-insert.

Fallout Self-Insert

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Watch_Dogs Self-Insert

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Oof getting that weird feeling again where I think if I'm not here for a bit everyone will forget I even exist and I'll come back to 0 friends...

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When Alex wants to muster up the courage to talk to Kaden at the mailroom. He's used to hiding behind a screen lol

(used a meme as ref)