#🎶 I've got queue under my skin 🎶

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Still not here for the time being, I hope nobody has forgotten about me /srs

Just a reminder to please tag me in anything you'd like too (within reason) like your ships (obv no doubles of my partners), or things that even remind you of me or my ships, chain games, etc

Dms are open too if you want to communicate, I'll see them whenever I return.

Also a reminder that my ask box is open if you want to send anything at all (letters, your day, something exciting that happened to you, anything positive really) No pressure of course.

I can't say when I will be here, my "episodes" unfortunately don't have due dates. So I'll be back when I'm back.

Hoping my partners will help me through some of this scary stuff. I do rely on them for comfort and it's nice to know they're here for me and want to support me when I'm like this, even when I feel I don't deserve an ounce of it.

Hope everyone is doing well. Miss ya.

[smokeyxpixels]

I think mobile hellsite™️ should have the ability to both block and report spam at the same time like it does on desktop. Makes squishing p0rn bots easier. Lol

[kadenrambles]

@the-ruby-eyed-rat

so fucked up that baby rats are like adult rats but small

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Hey, I'm not here right now and I'm not sure how long I'll be away but please tag me in stuff so I can see it when I get back. It can be anything, your content or things that remind you of me (or my ships) or anything really (within reason)

I need positivity thats for sure, no pressure at all but if you want too, feel free to send me asks either off or on anon about anything or letters or your day or well..anything positive. Again absolutely no pressure to do so.

Sorry I'm not around, I'm just not well mentally, its really bad this time and I'll admit, I'm scared(by literally everything) but I know it eventually stops... just feels endless when I'm "in it"

Hope everyone takes care.

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Playing the sims (different world) made Obi-Wan and I

👉👈

We had a kid...her name is Haylee ....

Anyways thats not what I'm posting about, what I'm posting about is how Haylee got in a little tat with Obi-Wan and I started to giggle irl because an option said "Find common ground"

Haylee, don't you know? Obi-Wan has the high ground! 🤭🤭🤭🤭

Pls laugh

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So I'm getting better at making wallpapers for my phone

:3c lookit my pretty boyfriend~

(double for size and watermark to prevent cropping // theft) || doubles dni || proship//neutral dni

Maybe if I get more confident I open moodboard // wallpaper comms? 🤔

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To most this is probably going to sound weird and stupid and "cringe" but please remember I am ficto and my feelings are real and serious and I'd like them to be acknowledged that way, I'm not used to talking here as if they're actually real(the way they feel real to me irl) I got inspired to be more open about posting about them like this so here goes:

So, maybe things got a little real. Maybe he is helping me a lot recently... maybe...maybe I am getting extremely attached to him-

sure, he can be a dick at times, yes he's done some pretty rotten things in the past and hurt people for his own selfish gains, do I condone his past behavior? Absolutely not but it doesn't stop the feelings that keep bubbling up and spilling over inside me when I'm with him.

I won't say I love him or anything but I do feel a pull towards him that is hard to describe. Both times he's helped me in terms of my mental illness....both times I felt a little better.

I'm not 100% but thanks to him, his support and reassurances, just to hear someone else say I'm not a terrible human, I'm not a monster or I'm not "crazy" "insane" unfit etc and to have him tell me that despite what I go through he won't abandon me....not like other people in my life have over this....it's nice..

I act all tough and act like I hate that he makes me feel things but in reality.... I don't. I like the banter, the push and pull, it's fun but a part of me just wants to be open and honest about how I feel for him.

Will I stop that push and pull type of behavior? Not fully, as stated its fun and Jamie loves it too but there will be moments like these where I will just talk from the heart.

This guy side swiped me. I was fully intent on hating him from the start as I read from others that Jamie is a prick and I felt if maybe I keep it up and keep it up it turns into a crush that fizzles out and he just is kinda here (?) Someone I go to when I want some silly fun...nothing more nothing less.

I never expected the late night talks, the reassurances, the support, it's different with him. He sees the sides im terrified to show people and seemingly out of nowhere, he knows what to do to make me feel calmer, a little more at peace. Its strange only two other f/o (in different ways) have managed to actually reach into my soul like that and you know them both well...

I won't say I am in love but I will say that I think I'm starting to fall—

This was absolutely terrifying to post I don't like truly being vulnerable so much like this, definitely wouldn't be surprised if I wake up tomorrow morning to anons being jerks about this or making fun of me. My feelings are real and they're the truth I just hope y'all won't laugh at me or tell me that my feelings aren't valid because I have more than one f/o, I guess...I have multiple f/o yes but my feelings aren't any lesser than someone who only has one f/o what i feel is genuine and very very real to me. I'm rambling... just gonna hit schedule

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Sorry feeling weak and gonna cry thinking about all the "firsts" Revan would experience with Kaden .

First Smile:

The first time Kaden smiles at Revan, it’s genuine and warm. Revan likely teases them about it later but treasures the moment deeply.

First Laugh:

Hearing Kaden’s unrestrained laugh for the first time after a rare, funny moment or a joke from Revan would feel like winning a battle Revan didn’t know they were fighting.

First Touch of Affection:

The first time Kaden reaches out for Revan, whether it’s holding their hand, brushing fingers against theirs, or giving a light hug, would be monumental given their guarded nature.

First Vulnerability:

Kaden opening up about their past, fears, and emotions for the first time would be a deeply intimate moment. Revan would realize the depth of trust Kaden has placed in them.

First Confession:

Hearing Kaden admit their feelings whether explicitly saying “I love you” or confessing in a more subtle way would hold immense weight given how rare such expressions are from them.

First Display of Jealousy:

Kaden showing jealousy or possessiveness, even in a minor way, would be unexpected and endearing to Revan, showing how much they care for him.

First Time Crying in Front of Revan:

Kaden allowing themselves to be vulnerable enough to cry in Revan’s presence would be a powerful moment of trust and connection.

First Protective Instinct:

Kaden stepping into harm’s way or fiercely protecting Revan for the first time would leave an impression, showing how deeply they value them.

First Playful Banter:

When Kaden feels comfortable enough to engage in playful teasing or joking with Revan, it would be a small but meaningful milestone in their relationship.

First Night Together:

Whether it’s simply sharing a quiet, intimate moment or something more romantic, the first time they let down all their walls to be fully present with Revan would be unforgettable.

First Admission of Fear for Revan:

If Kaden admits they’re scared of losing Revan, it would reveal just how much Revan means to them, despite their usual stoic front.

First Spontaneous Gesture of Love:

A surprise kiss, a tender embrace, or a small, thoughtful act like preparing something special for Revan is significant.

First Time Trusting Revan with a Secret:

When Kaden shares something deeply personal or a secret from their past, it solidifies the bond of trust between them.

First Self-Initiated Compliment:

Kaden might not be the type to dish out compliments, so the first time they genuinely praise Revan, whether about their strength, character, or appearance.... itwould mean a lot.

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I mean I don't have the guild currency for him anyways (as I'm not high enough level to participate in wars yet) but...

If I say please can you just give him to me game? 👉👈

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I feel like Anakin would know just by my body language that I wasn't doing okay. Of course he would ask me if I am and my response would only solidify his theory that I'm struggling again.

He knows my tells, how my voice seems to change but if you're not paying attention it just seems like a normal response. "I'm doing good~" no, no I'm not, my tone was forced and a little higher pitched than normal.

I feel like he wouldn't flat out just tell me "you're lying" or "No you're not" instead, he'd say nothing at first and wrap me up into a big hug, giving me one of those long hard squeezes I usually love when I'm not doing okay.

Then he'd finally says "It's okay to not be okay. You don't always have to mask it and pretend that you're fine, you're allowed to feel whatever it is your feeling. It's not weak to feel bad.."

He knows he got through when I just start crying my eyes out into his chest. Regardless if I know why I'm feeling the way I am or not and he would just hold me and let me feel what I feel without words, without judgements. If I wanted to talk about it he would gladly listen to all of my doubts and worries and he would do everything he could to reassure me through everything. He'd rub my back gently and hold me close.

He's just there for me. I never feel like I'm all alone in what I go through when he is here.

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I am posting this at a later time. Queued post goes brr because I am embarrassed (in a fun way)

Embarrassed that I am into another character played by HC >///>;;;

I am looking....r-resp- [Voice crack] ReSPECtfully... [loud sweating]

His name is Luke. the story is literally about light and dark. No really, it's a darkness that eats people and the only way they're "safe" is literally by being in the light. Which is hard to do considering the city had a blackout when it first started.

Luke is a reporter and at first glance seems like an asshole, detached and uncaring but in reality, he carries a deep sense of regret because he prioritized his job over making connections to others so now that this "darkness" has come he feels isolated and lonely. ;_;

I'm not saying I'm already thinking of ideas for a self-insert but I totally am-

The first time I read about the movie my first thought was "oh my god it sort of reminds me of one of my fave ARG's in its early days" (the sun has vanished) <- before we knew any story, and everything was still new and mysterious.

Anyways, I am becoming very attached to Luke >////>; don't look at me, don't say anything, I like to story a lot, I like him a lot, and I have many ideas flip flopping around in my brain.

Like for instance:

we find one another and he's all reserved but I am very vocal about how I'm glad pretty much everyone I knew in my biological family is gone and he instantly gets pissed off because "I had a family; I had people in my life!" unlike him who distanced himself and was too absorbed in his work. It wouldn't be until much much later in our story that he finds out that my family... they weren't good people, and he starts to understand why I was happy they disappeared out of my life

D-Don't worry about it...

the story albeit spooky(tm) is about one of my favourite things- basically an eternal night… mind you--the 'dark' is alive and is swallowing people whole >_>; but still...

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I ALREADY KNOW DOES IT LOOK LIKE I HAVE $200/$300!? *crying*

[smokeyxpixels]

Well while I wait 500 years for both games to install/update I forgot I own disciples III and undead hoard be looking gorgeous what the fuck?

I've had this game for like 1-2 yrs only now playing it.

Close up of this beautiful monster:

you are GORGEOUS! I cannot wait to see everyone else! Oh god the Ghosts might kill me! I love this???? hullo!?

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Just found a photo that I'm not okay with. Someone took this man's wonderful freckles and beauty marks and shopped them off his face??? and called it "cleaning him up"???? fucking excuse me????

Op give me your address details I just wanna talk for a minute cause bitch what the fuck? How dare you? He's incredibly handsome just as he is and I will fight you 1v1 style in a Dennys parking lot. lol

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I have distressing news... I'm addicted to tictacs- They sound nice when I bite them and the inside of my mouth feels like winter.

I've had like..13 in the past 3-4 minutes...

F/O come and take these delightful minty seducers away from me-

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Friendly reminder I believe in rb karma. Wanna rb an ask game from me? Send me something from it then rb it.

Too many rbs without rb karma will most likely get you blocked. I know it sounds mean but it sucks having someone rb something from you and you get nothing meanwhile they get tons of asks.

Don't wanna send me anything but wanna rb the game? Please rb it from the source instead.

Just reminding everyone that I am not a rb machine for you. I'm a person who wouldn't mind participating in the games I rb. 💜