#🎨 ❝ ᵇᵉʰᶦᶰᵈ ᵗʰᵉ ˢᶜᵉᶰᵉˢ ; ( ooc. )
an independent , private , headcanon-based portrayal of leila williams from fifty shades of grey. narrated by jackee. minors dni. ( blog / credit )
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hey all 9 of you, wanna plot?
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i know fsog was a bad series but damn we're this dead?
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like for a starter
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hot take: christian was in love with leila and treats ana the way he does because of her
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maasverse leila tho...
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leila leaves behind a lot of her artwork when she leaves christian. so what i'm saying is, ana probably finds some of it and christian has a lot of explaining to do.
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hmu if you want my disco im going to bed soon
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what if christian and meredith grey were related
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guns
guns make leila uncomfortable to the extreme. she wants them nowhere near her.
her fear of them began because of her husband , matthew. matthew was an experienced hunter and an avid collector. he cared for them very carefully. every night , he polished at least one. he would drive into the olympic national forest every other weekend to go hunting. at first , leila didn't mind. she liked the fact that he had a hobby , and that they had fresh meat more often than not. ( venison is delicious. ) in the beginning of their marriage , she respected guns , but she didn't fear them.
she fears them now.
matthew's abuse went beyond physical , though in domestic abuse situations it's nearly impossible for things not to. whenever leila did something to particularly upset him , matthew would grab one of his guns. he kept all kinds , not just hunting rifles. he had revolvers , he had pistols , he had a shotgun. he would methodically take it apart and shine them , all the while telling leila what guns could do.
he would describe to her what guns could do to a human body ; he would tell her how no one would find her body if he got mad enough. that he could dump it in the national forest and the mountain lions would get rid of the evidence before anyone noticed.
“ it. ”
he always said “ it. ”
she knew he was right. she didn't have any friends in forks. she didn't have any friends anywhere , not anymore.
he had everything planned out. he would say she left him and no one would question him , because no one knew her well enough to say otherwise. it'd be the talk of the town. small places like that never had enough to gossip about.
she had taken one of his small pistols with her when she left. she barely knew how to use it. her aim was terrible.
after the accident , after geoff , she'd sit with the gun and stare at it and think. she could never decide what she wanted to do with it. whether she wanted to kill matthew , or anastasia , or herself. a few times , she'd empty the thing and hold it to herself. how badly could it hurt if i shot herself here , she'd think with it pressed against her temple. how quickly would i be gone ? she wrapped her lips around the barrel and squeezed the trigger and fantasized about what it would be like to be free.
to be dead.
although she's not as eager to die anymore , she still doesn't trust herself around guns. they bring back a host of bad memories. she and her therapist have decided it's best if they're not around her.
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leila's w/re is her url
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leila's bdsm test results
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hmu if you want my disco i'm gonna go lay down
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talk me out of making leila's various homes on the sims
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timeline
this is a rough timeline of when things happened. i will give more detail or add more as it comes to me.
age 18 — leila moves to seattle from new jersey. she got into an art school she loved and she is working hard to make it work , despite the new state and coastline and independence. she works at a dennys and lives in student housing.
age 19 — matthew starts showing up at leila's job. he immediately starts flirting. leila thinks its harmless and that he's kind of cute.
age 21 — leila is chosen by the school to donate her artwork to a charity auction. christian is there. they meet , hit it off , and she soon becomes his submissive.
age 23 — leila realizes she's in love with christian. it takes her a lot , but she eventually works up the courage to tell him. christian lets her know that there's no hope for more with him. leila leaves him as his submissive and finally gives matthew a shot. they date for less than six months before he convinces her to drop out of school to marry him , and they move to forks , where he continues his career as a policeman.
age 24 — matthew hits her for the first time. at this point , he's successfully isolated her from everyone she knows. she hasn't talked to her family in at least a year. she's made no friends in forks because he rarely lets her out. he has been mentally and emotionally abusing her for a while. it started out slow , to the point leila didn't notice initially. by now , though , leila doesn't think she can leave him.
age 25 — leila meets geoff by chance at the grocery store. he recognizes the signs of abuse and tries to convince her to leave.
age 26 — leila runs away with geoff. she manages to steal $2,000 from her husband. they leave in geoff's car. he is killed beside her in a car accident. they had just made it to seattle from forks. it was only a three hour drive and leila spent most of it trembling in fear that matthew would know and find them. when geoff dies , leila has a mental breakdown that results in her stalking anastasia. the last time she was really , truly happy was with christian ; she wants to know what ana has that she doesn't. she is not in her right mind , but her intentions are self-harm , not murder.
age 27 — leila is under the legal care of christian grey. he is her legal guardian ; it was to his custody that she was released from the mental hospital. she lives in her own studio apartment , which is paid for by him. she's gone back to school , which is also paid for by him. she often tries to pay him back , to no avail.
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leila's a passenger princess <3
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