#囀る鳥は羽ばたかな��

[chuele]

Saezuru: Why You Need to Read it Twice (3) The impact of Yashiro's words on Doumeki

Every word Yashiro had said, Doumeki remembered completely. And four years later, Doumeki used those exact words of Yashiro to respond in their conversation.

(1) Gentle in bed

4 years ago: 4 years later:

(2) Pull harder

4 years ago: 4 years later:

(3) There's nothing more to it.

4 years ago: 4 years later:

The things Yashiro had once 'requested', the things Doumeki couldn't do at that time, Doumeki is now returning one by one. The pain of being left behind, accumulated over four years, has shaped Doumeki's current behavior.,.

(to be continued)

[mixos11]

I looove this one (pls ignore the birds i don't know how to draw them)

[danmeibrainrot]

‼️SAEZURU CHAPTER 58 SPOILERS‼️

Misumi comes to know that Doumeki is working under Tsunakawa

Misumi is not happy that Yashiro has been hiding the fact that he met/reunited with Doumeki

Misumi calls Yashiro his mistress

Yashiro's Casino appears to have been raided by other thugs and Nana warns him against going there

Kuga appears! He is working as a mechanic now

Doumeki has "come back" Many times after the incidents of chapter 57 true to his word (with sexy panels of their 'meetings')

The chapter ends with rain and Yashiro thinking back to when he had asked Doumeki what it feels like to fall in love 🥺😭😢

[dragomfry]

Yashiro Being Healthy

The man is traumatized, but I’m glad he still takes care of his basic needs (besides the obvious one) and is getting them fulfilled, too. Here’s a compilation of Yashiro being healthy.

Yashiro caring about his cleanliness

Yashiro getting his beauty sleep

Yashiro eating something other than dick

(yeah that’s why I like my pfp so much)

Yashiro socializing and idly chitchatting with friends

Yashiro having a better support network. Nana and Sugimoto, my beloved two. We need more Sugimoto, Yoneda! Doumeki is here too cause he clearly does still care about Yashiro, it’s just that the way he’s been going about it has been iffy.

Please hug Yashiro and treat him like this again, Doumeki! He is strong but delicate, too 💔

Ok, some of these are from extras but they’re canon in my heart damnit

[benvey0]

[ryan566t6]

Color on.

[traineraino]

I saw this scene from Princess Mononoke circulating around on Twitter and it reminded me of Yashiro and Doumeki so I had to draw it heheh ♡

[cielelyse]

Favourite 5 Saezuru Scenes

I recently reread Saezuru for the umpteenth time and just needed to gush about it like a crazed person who constantly hallucinates about Yashiro being happy and soOooOOooo.................

1. Why now? (Chapter 25)

These 3 panels kill me always... although it's the entire chapter 25 actually, and not just these panels. This broke me when I first read it nearly a decade ago, and it breaks me every time I reread it. I recently just listened to the drama CD for the first time and wanted to hear how this scene played out (a.k.a. wanted to hear Yashiro moan wkegh;ghwle) and I did not expect to start bawling and sobbing uncontrollably when his flashback appeared. WITH THE MUSIC AND EVERYTHING. THEY DID NOT SPARE ME. FUCK. What was supposed to be a tender and gentle and loving and intimate scene between them turned into Yashiro facing the effects of his childhood trauma -- that will never cease to hurt me. Doumeki saying "kashira, kashira, kirei" right before that broke me in a way reading that scene in English couldn't. I WILL NEVER GET OVER THIS and if I keep writing about it I'm gonna cry again so:

2. Car ride back from Kageyama's clinic (Chapter 4)

This is mostly for nostalgic reasons, really. I first read Saezuru in 2013, and I wasn't used to Yashiro at first. I didn't know what to make of him.

So what happened was that I read "Don't Stay Gold" first and was like... there's a manga about this mildly threatening and unreadable yakuza dude who's Kage's friend…? Who played cupid for him in a weird way? HMMMMM dubious, dubious. Would I even like him? It took me a while, but I finally gave Saezuru a shot anyway, and I remember feeling uncertain about Yashiro up until those panels. I remember it so starkly, because this was the instant I fell in love with him. I think it was because this was the first time I understood the depth of his loneliness (since I hadn't read his high school oneshot yet at this point).

There's just something about how Yoneda Kou-sensei draws these kinds of pages that just resonates with me so well. I CAN'T EVEN DESCRIBE IT. It just connects with me the way Yashiro connects with me, and that was pretty much it for me. Obsession sealed. Life signed away. For the next 10 years I would follow the story closely and routinely check every few months for updates. Yashiro became one of my only 3 comfort characters, and rereading Saezuru always gives me a catharsis and sense of peace that I didn't know how to find elsewhere.

3. "To go on living this strained existence... no longer holds any meaning to me." (Chapter 34)

This scene is one that I come back to every time I'm down. AM I A MASOCHIST? I really like the June translation too: "To go on living this strained existence no longer holds any meaning to me." I think the way the panels divided up those thoughts were brilliant!

This especially hurt me because for the entire manga up to this point, Yashiro has stated that he completely accepts himself and he's happy with who he is. It wasn't until his realization during the sex scene with Doumeki and how much he's said/done hurtful things to Doumeki afterwards -- who he considers pure and sweet and good -- that he thinks this.

4. "Falling in love feels like this" (Chapter 33)

The first time I read this, I had to set my PC down, go out to my apartment balcony, and just silently stare out into the night and resist the urge to smoke (that was half a joke) (I did feel a pang in my chest though) (and I did have to fight very hard not to smoke lwkehg;hge). I love the dialogue right after these panels too, when Yashiro said, "Your sister was lucky that you were there." That, along with Doumeki's reaction, hurt.

This was such an intimate scene between them. Yashiro was so vulnerable. So was Doumeki. I hadn't realized this until I reread Saezuru this year, but these two have always had such intimate scenes right from the start. It was a slow burn, yes, but they had always been instantly drawn to each other: Doumeki thinking Yashiro was beautiful and captivating, and Yashiro doing something he doesn't normally do with his subordinates the first time he met Doumeki. And it didn't clue in for me back in 2013, but their conversations with each other were much more intimate than the conversations they'd have with anyone else, right from chapter 1. I find that so precious.

5. Dream (Chapter 40)

I couldn't not include a scene from post-timeskip, BECAUSE I LOVE POST-TIMESKIP. I love Darkmeki and I love Yashiro and I love that the theme of post-timeskip centers around "change". Wish I could include that conversation Yashiro had with Tsunakawa about it, because I thought that drive-home was brilliant. I really appreciate that Yoneda Kou didn't have Yashiro and Doumeki get together right away after they have sex, and I really appreciate that the question was raised of: Do people change? Can people change on their own, or would you have to force them? Or are we always the same at our core? And I think the answer is of course a mixture of all of it, and that it's very much circumstantial and subjective, but I love how we're able to see the shifts in both Yashiro and Doumeki. How both men aren't quite the same people we knew pre-timeskip. Ten years ago I didn't think I would meet a version of Yashiro that wouldn't talk about sex 24/7, but here we are.

(Not to say that they're completely different now. They're still our Yashiro and Doumeki of course; I just wanted to gush about how well Yoneda Kou were able to flesh out her characters in such a complex, multidimensional way.)

ANYWAYS, I went on a rant without even mentioning these panels of Yashiro's dream. I love everything about it: Doumeki's face not showing, Yashiro running away and turning back to see Doumeki not there anymore, and that last panel of him standing in the middle of nowhere, lost and empty and lonely -- all of that was so incredibly told in pages of no words. UGH YONEDA KOU IS A GENIUS. It reminds me of that page of Yashiro looking at a mother and child in the rain; it's one of my favourite scenes too.

Honourary Mention (Chapter 4):

I should end with a more light-hearted one. THIS WAS CUTEEEE. I remember reading this for the first time and thinking Yashiro was just salty that his roleplay got ruined. But upon second reread (and maybe I'm delusional here), I thought he might've been happy to hear Doumeki say that.

We know Yashiro gets angry and irritated whenever he's happy to hear something sweet from Doumeki (like that extra when they ate together LOL), and that he had the same reaction of kicking the chair when Doumeki said he can't touch Yashiro's hair anymore. Which was cute to say. So I thought Yashiro might've lashed out in annoyance because he was glad that Doumeki doesn't mind. (I tried putting myself in Yashiro's shoes so many times trying to imagine how I would feel if Doumeki had said this............. and somehow came up with "happy" xD)

...........or maybe this was obvious to everyone and I've just been clueless. AAAAAAAA THIS IS WHY I LOVE ABOUT SAEZURU SO MUCH. It never spoon-feeds you information and lets its readers interpret :")

[noniedarkmeki]

It's confirmed that we'll have chapter 59 on November 29🩶🩶!!

[lovelybutachan]

Second post about Saezuru 😂

On the occasion of the release of volumn 9, the collaboration cafe "Day/Night" has been held in Tokyo and Osaka. Last week my friends travelled to Tokyo and they helped me to visit this place.

This time, theme is mafia and pyjama (like the story in the extra paper included with volumn 9)

Impressive moments of volumn 9 are printed and hung all over the wall

When you order drink or food, you can get random paper coaster as bonus. 1 coaster per drink/food

About goods, we have acrylic coaster, illustration card, can badge, acrylic standee, acrylic key holder and metallic clearfile.

Each 2500yen you spend on books and goods (book is a must), you get 1 of 4 postcards as another bonus (you can choose the one you like). I got all because I have some kind of OCD. Once I buy, I buy all or nothing 😂😂

I also went to another collab cafe when volumn 8 was released but i was too lazy to post here 🤣 i will try to post it in the future.

[xcatterfly]

Happy birthday Yoneda Sensei ♡

[chuele]

Saezuru: Why You Need to Read it Twice (4) Has Doumeki changed?

(Expanded edition of Part 3: The impact of Yashiro's words (and acts) on Doumeki)

Has Doumeki changed?

Perhaps, judging solely by Doumeki's responses and his words of Yashiro—cold and rough. But if look closer, we can still see glimpses of gentleness in Doumeki's actions. Doumeki's current actions is a direct reflection of Yashiro's past words.

(1) Scrub the back

4 years ago 4 years later

(2) Cover the head with a towel

4 years ago 4 years later

(3) "Just carry me in" <=> "I'll carry you there"

4 years ago 4 years later

Doumeki still keeps the habit of taking care of Yashiro until now:

(4) "Your suit is hanging there"

4 years ago 4 years later

(5) Cover with blanket

4 years ago 4 years later

Doumeki remembers everything Yashiro said and done, after four years Doumeki's response while changed, but still seems somehow unchanged.,.

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Previous parts:

Part 1: Saezuru: Why You Need to Read it Twice (1) A single glance from above

Part 2: Saezuru: Why You Need to Read it Twice (2) Rain and the Echoes of Trauma

Part 3: Saezuru: Why You Need to Read it Twice (3) The impact of Yashiro's words on Doumeki

[mixos11]

Made a chibi version!

Also i changed my username. It's Mixos now, and you guys can find me on instagram - @miixos11

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‼️SAEZURU CHAPTER 59 SPOILERS‼️

Doumeki doesn't admit that he and the Mama are a thing but does admit that he went to her home

The plot is more Yakuza centric

Looks like Okuyama has Cancer

It is not Doumeki's flashback

Yashiro appears in the chapter as well but it's Yakuza centric

Overall it seems like the Yakuza plot is gearing up. Storm clouds are gathering. I'm so scared for both Yashiro and Doumeki😰😱 Hoping and praying for the best🙏🙏

[kyrieren]

Umbrella vs. Rain: The Driving Forces of Saezuru (3)

Note: my analysis relies heavily on visual elements

III. Aiai gasa (相合傘) - Under the shield of love

"相合傘 - Aiai-gasa" is a combination of the word "相合 - Aiai" - doing something together, and the word "傘 - gasa" - umbrella. Literally, it refers to the act of two people sharing an umbrella. However, as the word "Ai" is homophonic with "愛 - Ai" - love, "Aiai-gasa" connotes a derivative meaning: Love Umbrella. In "Saezuru", empathy and love are the umbrella that shields characters from the rain (or I believe so).

Yashiro vs. Mother & Child

The five panels on this page vividly embody the adage "A picture is worth a thousand words." Following Yashiro's forceful removal of Doumeki from the car, a profoundly expressive and iconic scene unfolds. The stark contrast presented is striking: Yashiro isolated in the car versus the Mother & Child duo outside, together under the rain. While Yashiro remains sheltered within the car, impervious from the rain, Mother & Child rely solely on an umbrella for protection. Yet side by side, the prowess of their bond shines through against the glooming backdrop. Their love acts as an impenetrable shield, leaving them unscathed. In stark contrast, Yashiro, who has just pushed away the person he loves and loves him back for mutual protection, finds himself alone. Despite the physical safety of the car, the rain metaphorically pierces through him in the darkness. It’s not the umbrella itself, it’s love that defends people against the rain. Yashiro has never had love before, but as soon as he has, he’s got no other choice than to let it go. That look in his eyes gives a mix of tragic resignation to his fate, the paradoxical coexistence of envy over and disdain for love, and the determination to give up love.

Fortunately, Doumeki refuses to give up on Yashiro, despite his cruel words. He quickly returns, bringing along an umbrella and water for medicine. His determination to stand by Yashiro's side and shield him is palpable. As soon as he enters, the car is brightened up and the rain retreats back to be outside of the car.

In this scene, Doumeki's arrival with the umbrella not only shields Yashiro from the rain's darkness but also symbolizes his loving presence guarding Yashiro off from his turmoil.

Although Yashiro may not yet be brave enough to acknowledge or confront his feelings, his expression subtly transforms from a frown in the first panel to something softer in the last. This instant change reveals the other side of Yashiro genuinely doesn't protest Doumeki's return, hinting at a hidden vulnerability beneath his tough exterior."

2. Moratorium

This cover is the scenery illustration of an extra where Yashiro has Doumeki run an errand to buy him an umbrella. For Yoneda sensei never half-asses anything, I'd like to take an approach regarding the characters' setting and the story's developments on this painting.

This marks the beginning of Yashiro and Doumeki's journey towards each other, as Doumeki endeavors to stand by Yashiro's side. Amidst the pouring rain, their bare heads stand out starkly in a sea of umbrellas, emphasizing the pain they both endure. In the bustling crowd, Yashiro remains motionless, a solitary figure amidst the chaos. The red light he is leaning against represents his childhood trauma and the yakuza world. Literally and metaphorically, Yashiro can't go even if he wants to. Yashiro's relaxed posture against the crimson glow signifies his reluctant acceptance of his date, a tragic resignation to his circumstances.

On the other side, Doumeki opts not to shield himself with the umbrella he carries and dashes to Yashiro with big strides. This bold act underscores Doumeki's unwavering commitment to protecting Yashiro, even at the cost of his own comfort and well-being. He willingly discards himself. That's why it doesn't end well.

3. Not yet Aiai gasa (相合傘)

When Doumeki returns, Yashiro's intuition clicks when he sees only one umbrella with him, but screws the idea of Aiai gasa right away by forsaking Doumeki drenched in the rain.

The 7th and 8th panel summarizes Saezuru until the end of the Hirata's arc - Yashiro pushes him away through assault, while Doumeki endures it all to remain by Yashiro's side. Aiai saga is meant to be two people under the umbrella, not one. Ironically, despite their deep affection and fierce desire to protect each other, their relationship falters due to a lack of mutual commitment to being together. Another significant contributing factor is their profoundly low self-esteem: Yashiro, feeling undeserving, violently pushes Doumeki away to protect him, while Doumeki, undervaluing his worth, tolerates mistreatment and violence for Yashiro's sake. In this sense, they both push Doumeki away, unable to bridge their emotional barriers.

In the 9th panel, Yashiro blames Doumeki for his tardiness. While Doumeki is indeed late, it's evident that it's not his fault. His arrival into Yashiro's world comes after Yashiro has endured immense suffering alone for a long time, leading to a coping mechanism that rejects Doumeki's presence. However, Doumeki's entry into Yashiro's life marks the end of the Moratorium. Yashiro can now begin to move forward, although the process is slow and painful, signifying a gradual progression towards healing.

By all accounts, in their complicated case, love love alone is not sufficient. Acceptance, self-appreciation, and the mutual wish to be together are essential components for Aiai gasa to work for them.

4. Aiai gasa (相合傘) - Under the shield of love

I'll be positive saying that Yoneda sensei has hinted at their happy ending in this poster for the Rain event, or at the very least, a phase where they accompany each other out of love.

This is Doumeki and Yashiro post-time-skip. The image of them under the umbrella signifies a mutual desire to be together at last. Doumeki holding the umbrella for Yashiro, who is already slightly damp from rain droplets, symbolizes Doumeki's belated but meaningful presence in Yashiro's tumultuous life. This time, Yashiro allows Doumeki to take care of him, indicating a shift in their dynamic. Doumeki's actions also suggest a growth in his self-esteem, from nothing to something.

Their interaction speaks volumes. Despite Yashiro's sulky expression and bombastic side eyes, Doumeki meets his gaze directly. This subtle interaction hints at their ongoing communication and mutual efforts to understand each other better.

Under the shield of love - Aiai gasa, they are navigating their complexities. Under the shield of love, anything is possible, I believe. The mutual understanding, if they successfully arrive, would not only empower them but also serve as a shield, safeguarding and freeing them from their birdcage.

Read the previous parts here:

Part 1:

Part 2:

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