#❪ i feel like im dissecting Amanda's brain rn this is so fun ❫

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how do u feel abt everyone u know?

Everyone? That's a pretty generalised question, but sure.

John: so caring and kind to me, I love him like a father. He's taught me everything I need to know to survive and to carry on his legacy. I don't think I can begin to describe how grateful I am that he chose me. John helped me quit my addiction when I thought it wasn’t possible. Sometimes, we clash a bit. His methods don't make sense to me sometimes, but I always try to do what he says because he always has good intentions. I love him wholeheartedly. He brought me back to life.

Jill Tuck: she's sweet and she's kind. We don't talk anymore but I appreciate her trying to help me with my addiction...until she decided to give up on me.

Lynn: we have a complicated relationship. She's sweet but with a fiery streak. Very hot. But after the shotgun collar trap, I'm pretty sure she hates me. At the least, she distrusts me. I don't blame her and I don't know how to fix it.

Hoffman: Piece of shit. Die. Die with fire. Who the hell let the ape out of its cage? Well—okay, I hate him, but I guess I admire his resourcefulness. I appreciate when he helps me with traps. It's hard to like him when he constantly disobeys John, though. One of these days, he's gonna say the wrong thing and I'll hit him. I can’t wait.

Lawrence: I like him, he's nice and smart. We don't talk much. I'd like to talk to him more but I think he hates me. Okay, no, I know he doesn’t, he said he doesn’t, but why doesn’t he? I put him in a trap. And I know the trap changed him, for the better—but also for the worse. It's...complicated.

Adam: again, it's complicated. We're friendly, amiable. But I put him in a trap as well. I think my guilt gets in the way of us. I don't know how he feels about it. I feel like a piece of shit because I am a piece of shit. Every time I'm around him, I get awkward because I don't want to hurt him again.

Scott: he's...an interesting one. He's nice enough, he's mostly chill. He kept flirting with me even though I'm a lesbian, which was pretty funny. I went to one of his concerts once. It wasn’t the best but it wasn’t complete shit either. Overall, he's pretty decent.

Niki: Probably one of the few friends I have. I shouldn't have but I've grown a bit of an attachment to her. She's funny and kind and really, really, pretty. I'm not gonna say anything else because if I do, I'll say things that I want to keep to myself.

Brent: I think the trap he was in messed him up more than he wants to let on. I know he appreciates it because he was able to serve justice to that monster Easton, but killing someone when he was that young...It's got to have messed him up. Has it even sunk in for him? That he's a fucking murderer? Poor kid. Makes me wanna keep an eye on him, make sure he's protected.

Eric Matthews: piece of shit. He ruined my life. I thought I killed him but apparently, he's somehow still alive. If anyone knows his location, tell me, I need to finish the job. I'll make sure John doesn’t find out this time.