#❄ ― RAMBLINGS & SCREAMS. ╱ discussions of life and the beautiful under the sun.

[zorkaya-moved]

HSR!Zarina and Diamond are besties. That's all you need to know.

"Besties" means she worked for Diamond as a bodyguard for a couple of years (2) when she was teleported from Earth to another world by Elysia.

"Besties" means Diamond sees Zarina as a beast on a symbolic leash.

"Besties" means Diamond is fully aware of who Zarina is (Apostle of Origin/Emanator of Origin) and thus lets her cooperate with IPC and expand the touch of Origin because it's a beneficial ordeal for both sides (IPC gets resources from lands that are more filled with the power of origin and Zarina gets rides and gets access to certain information).

"Besties" means Diamond sees Zarina as a helpful tool and Zarina is fully aware of that because it's vice versa.

"Besties" means Diamond tried to kill Zarina twice and learned that it's a waste of time. She failed once and succeeded once when Zarina allowed to be killed just to prove a point.

"Besties" means Diamond and Zarina have been seen together often but there is no true friendship between them and only mutual benefit.

[zorkaya-moved]

never forget, this is zarina with everyone aside her family (includes her team, her lover, her closest friends):

[zorkaya-moved]

zarina cannot stand mariah carey's song and her defrosting. it's quite hilarious because several people on her team absolutely love it. during christmas season, zarina is the one who drives the car while everyone sings christmas songs and she looks like she cannot wait to drink and smoke far away. it's comedic gold.

[zorkaya-moved]

@volfinas and i really sat down and went 'lucilius created lucifer to be the perfect version of himself, morael as the copy of himself (mirror) and belial as his rebellion (cue the serpent)' and I'll never be the same.

[zorkaya-moved]

if you were here from the very beginning of this blog, you've heard me mention that zarina was also inspired by... featherine augustus aurora from umineko. and it feeds right into her post metamorphosis verse. and featherine is also the reason why I'm SO insane about black swan as the observer. i love those characters who overlook the story as a whole.

this is how zarina also acts and why she always acts as if she's in total control of the narrative: it's one of her traits, one of the ingredients to her creation. the control or, sometimes, the illusion of control. sometimes, that control can be her observation skillset but it can also be a weakness as someone who sees themselves as distant, isolated, and alone.

zarina, at the very end, is written as a villain who does everything BEHIND THE SCENES, she is not an aggressive villain who does anything out of pure maliciousness. she does everything to watch the show happen, to witness the chaos, to take delight in the entertainment said chaos brings. it's the story of people for her, it's the story of their struggles and their decisions. as a villain and as a character, she is written as someone who looks at many others as characters, as a story, and she may see herself as a writer or an actor as well.

however, she adds the events to make the story more interesting because otherwise... life would be just too boring. and boredom is her biggest enemy because it begets apathy, it brings cold and it brings frigidness that shatters bits of her humanity. by witnessing chaos, she witnesses human nature and thus metaphorically feeds on it to keep herself entertained.

[zorkaya-moved]

You know what. beta design black swan works great for zarina in genshin after she's absorbed the abyssal serpent because she's becoming a part of the abyss and it's commonly having those darker colors / purples and dark blues. This is perfect. But also add her shorts from the current design and I'd recolor the middle but godssss I wish I had an HQ picture of this.

[zorkaya-moved]

Casual reminder that Zarina needs to hug something or someone when she's asleep. That's why she has so many plush toys on her bed. She loves her plush toys to hug. She needs to hug someone/something when she's asleep. It's her subconscious desire to be close to someone and not be alone.

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@volfinas

never forget about how both know and understand social expectations but give two shits about it sksjsins if lucilius made lucifer to be 'a more perfect version of himself' then morael is the mirror and there is a lot to unpack there skdnskns 🫠🫠😭😭

I need to scream about this in a whole new post because there is SO MUCH we need to unpack there. and I love how you wrote that morael is a mirror to lucilius because it makes me go and become even more unhinged with how their expressions sometimes match, their eyes cold, their smiles sharp and cold, their approach logical and rational with lack of any sympathy/empathy, and it's just THERE IS SO MUCH. was it intentional? was it not? there are so many possibilities and so many things to note on, to unpack, to add, to discuss. bibi, I'm literally so insane about their messed up dynamic as a creator and creation... mirror creation. oh boi.

[zorkaya-moved]

alright, askbox is open for this. ;) let's see. this was the HARDEST thing to do with zarina idk why. she doesn't have many specifics. her type is weird, it's all over the place.

[zorkaya-moved]

still laughing over gbf verse where belial is lucilius biggest supporter and morael is lucilius biggest 'i hope you stay dead' supporter

[zorkaya-moved]

going back to jing yuan being a little funny silly cat man and acting like an old man just to spite zarina who is - for memes sake - is considered a fossil for being 50k+ years old.

zarina @ jing yuan: