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kozuwhore · 6 months ago

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i actually never thought i'd have to make a post like this but this has actually annoyed me so much. in my previous post ,, i mentioned how me and my former friend ,, luma ,, are no longer in contact with each other due to an argument; an argument that started with them getting jealous of my irl friend and felt as though i had 'replaced' them.

while i will not only talk about that ,, i will also be disclosing their behaviour that they have performed whilst me and them had feelings for each other at the time. i will be going through everything from start to end.

before i begin ,, i want to make a quick note: if you are going to send any hate towards luma ,, that is on you and you only. i am not telling you to send hate because it won't make you any better than how they are. if you want to ask them questions about what has happened ,, ask them in a polite way and avoid any conflict.

@/scaryans aka luma was my best friend of two years ,, nearly going on three. we met on wattpad due to having a shared love of yandere simulator (neither of us support the creator) and our friendship progressed from there. we became closer upon finding out we both had feelings for one another; however ,, their toxic behaviour began inflicting onto me when i mentioned lucifer morningstar from hazbin hotel:

this was the conversation we had after me posting about lucifer. mind you ,, i never said that i was romantically interested in him ,, i just said that he was a cool character and that he is me. luma ,, however ,, got 'flashbacks' to how their ex used to be interested in not just hazbin hotel but lucifer as well. as a result ,, luma kept giving me dry responses and kept going on about how they wanted to die because of this simple matter.

in these screenshots ,, i am literally begging luma to forgive me because they would be upset with me and become depressed ,, which is something i didn’t want given how i was lovesick at the time and wanted them to keep loving me. my blinded loyalty to luma is the reason why i kept sticking by their side up until this point. shortly after me apologising ,, i agreed to never mention lucifer / hazbin hotel again to them and they forgave me (mind you ,, i had to ask if it was alright for me to mention the show).

truth be told ,, i did get jealous over some characters that luma liked as well (but i didn't say i was going to kill myself because of it). one character in particular was scar from wuthering waves ‐ he will be an important topic. i felt inferior to scar and often compared myself to him ,, something i talked to luma about:

throughout this vent with them ,, they gave me little responses and told me to watch a youtuber in hopes of calming me down when i told them about me still panicking about telling them this. they told me that they're not good at comforting others ,, which is understandable ,, but at the same time ,, i wrote MASSIVE paragraphs in hopes of making them feel better:

going back to scar ,, shortly after i told them about my feelings towards him ,, they later ask me to create headcanons and smut ideas for him not even half an hour later:

they say that it's because a few hours / half an hour feels like a couple days and that it's not an excuse; but you don't bother to change your behaviour after we had a talk that nearly cost us our friendship (before now)? the first time we discussed if our friendship should come to an end is when the callout post from @/rusmii was created and i kept finding stuff regarding people talking about luma / the experiences they through with them:

a day after i posted this to the server ,, luma puts in the chat how their mum wants them to drop me. of course ,, i was confused because it was so out of the blue but then this was the explanation:

not once did they say / imply that they don't want anyone talking or sending stuff related to the post. prior to this complaint (not even a week later) ,, we were having a conversation that consisted of them posting a meme about how they feel in regards to the post:

this was us talking about their rant and how i found something else following the callout post. i literally asked for their consent and they're making it out like i could give two fucks about how they feel ,, but i have done nothing but respect their boundaries in comparison to what they did with me with scar.

speaking of scar ,, i will now talk about how my irl friend's mention of scar (as well as my friend being in the groupchat) has resulted in why i'm making this post now. firstly ,, in regards to my friend ,, they asked me if they wanted to be part of the chat upon me mentioning a few topics (such as anime) that were involved (and that they enjoyed). i asked luma and they said yes.

may i mention that luma enjoys making new friends and they were really nice to rachelle (my friend) upon them joining the chat. however ,, luma started to become jealous of rachelle due to her putting her discord name title in the chat as 'olivia's n1 bff'. she meant this as a joke because no one can have a number one best friend but luma took this heart:

i reassured them and everything was fine between us; up until yesterday. me and rachelle were at work together and i started talking about the game ,, wuthering waves ,, and how it's a channel in the chat that keeps popping up. i talked about how my friends in the server have their f/os ,, showing rachelle different pictures of them ,, but when i showed the picture of scar ,, she got a picture of him and posted it to the chat. she talked about how she's gonna play the game because scar looks cool.

but luma being luma ,, they took it wrong and thought rachelle had a crush on them. rachelle isn't part of the selfshipping community and knows little about how attached luma is to scar / jiyan. this resulted in another conversation between us:

i asked ,, if not BEGGED ,, rachelle to take the message down because luma was clearly upset about it. she did so and everything was calming down in the chat. but luma decided to send me a message about our friendship AGAIN while the second screenshot was sent to the server SIX MINUTES LATER:

in regards to them talking about us not being best friends anymore ,, i had to comfort them AGAIN about it ,, which is when i started to get annoyed about the whole thing. we made up again but for some reason three hours later they sent another rant (classic luma behaviour):

today ,, rachelle responded to the rant and everything they said was the complete truth that i wish i got to tell them before our argument outside the chat. luma aka "the person who doesn't take responsability for their actions" soon sends a response:

you call it a "comfort space" but you're literally making me and my friend uncomfortable BECAUSE NOT ONLY ARE WE SENDING "DM-LIKE" MESSAGES TO EACH OTHER IN THE CHAT:

AND THE FACT THAT SHE DIDN'T KNOW THAT YOU HAVE AN UNHEALTHY ATTACHMENT TO A FUCKING FICTIONAL CHARACTER IS PATHETIC. how were we making a disturbance in the chat? you never said any specific person being uncomfortable with how we were talking plus rachelle only knew me PERSONALLY in the server ,, so did you really expect them to make friends that fucking quickly? good fucking bye.

yesterday ,, that was when our argument began and we finished it today. the following screenshots are what i consider to be the highlights of our dispute:

i can't add anymore screenshots due to the image limit but luma responded with "OH MY GOD CAN YOU ACTUALLY LISTEN TO ME FOR TWO SECONDS WITHOUT DICKRIDING RUNI AND THOSE ASSHOLES?" + "i swear you’ve been piggybacking off them this whole argument and it makes no sense."

you told me to take accountability for sending several apologies after i did something to upset you - which was a one time thing - and i did that ,, i respected that ,, but it's ironic that you're the one telling me to take responsibility when you haven't done that after two expose posts. THOSE POSTS were mentioned in the argument because you haven't grown yourself; you're still gatekeeping characters ,, getting overly jealous over my friend and saying that i "replaced" you.

just like rachelle said ,, you are chronically online and you need to go touch some fucking grass (without using it to smoke with). i reassured you TWICE about our friendship and you were still going on about it as if your whole world is crumbling. not only were you trying to gatekeep scar but you were beginning to want to gatekeep me ,, an actual human being ,, as well. if those two callout posts didn't help alter your behaviour ,, i hope to god this one does because this is coming from your former best friend of two years ,, which are years that i will never get back because of your toxic ways.

i regret ever defending you ,, i regret ever having feelings for you and i regret being your friend. you mean absolutely nothing to me and don't even think about my opinion as an excuse to guilt trip others into thinking you're the victim; you'll just be acting like a carbon copy of gabby hanna again.

if my other friends in the server don't wish to make contact with me anymore ,, that is fine. please talk to me in private and (for the love of god not) dick ride luma in the server or elsewhere by defending them with how they've acted that lead to this.

i would like to apologise to anyone that luma has villainised such as runi ,, zai ,, briar ,, ari and many others because you had every right to dislike them for what they have done to you / caused to others. the fact that i was siding with them didn't make things any better and i should have realised the moment the events that happened between you and luma were going on sooner. if you wish to speak with me about anything (whether it's about luma or not) ,, my dms are open and that goes for anyone else that wasn't mentioned above.

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vincentask · 19 days ago

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Chapter 1: MidNight Plaza

It’s as if the world was against her.

The once optimistic, creative, and energetic little girl just suddenly felt like the world wanted to take revenge from her for taking the special person in her life away from her.

The girl, who looked like she was around twelve was going to go back to her Auntie’s house after school, all through the while she could not stop thinking about what had happened…

No, I can’t keep thinking about her, it

happened all so fast but….

She isolated herself from her friends, even if her auntie and father wanted to talk to her, but it always felt.. empty… when talking to them. As if there was something missing…

She looked down into the pave ways of the street, keeping a fast and steady pace for herself while she was kicking the tiniest rocks on the street

Who would do such a thing, she thought,

No this can’t be right, why is no one telling me what happened? I want to know the truth!

As she crossed the alleyway that she usually crossed, in the corner of her eye she spotted a fluffy, pink bird-like creature with cat ears. She stopped her stride for a minute and looked at the strange, and rather cute creature for a minute.

“Timmu, timmu!”, the creature exclaimed, it wanted the girl to follow her. She followed the creature up, at least there was something to cheer her up about, it looked a bit cute..

At the end of the alleyway, she came across an abandoned, yet grandiose theater with glistening lights on the facade and with a big sign that read:

Wonderworld Theater

She never heard of this theater at all in her town, so she looked from left to right to see if anyone would take notice of the theater, but people passed by as if it never existed… it’s as if time stopped when she approached it.

From the corner of her eye, she spotted a poster standee of a shadow on what it looks like the shadow was wearing, a top hat bearing a grin. She found it...unnerving at best.

“Timmu?”, the small creature questioned. She looked down on the creature who was entering the door, it was as if it was saying “Well, aren’t you coming?”

“Well, who couldn’t say no to you..?”, she said to herself, so she opened the door and went inside….

Once she entered inside, the entrance doors immediately shutted with a click!

She jumped and turned back and tried to pull the doors back open.

Great. Locked.

She didn't know what to do so, she looked around...

The theater inside almost didn't even looked like a theater at all, the entrance inside was a gorgeous checkered floor, and a pristine chandelier on the cathedral like ceiling. There were mirrors on the walls that looked like there were shattered, some were covered up with linen blankets. Someone must've broke inside, the girl thought as she tensed.

There were also movie posters on the wall as well, some posters were stored in untouched boxes in the dust, there were also props and other nick-nacks that weren't organized and left in the dust. The actors and the language on the posters were ones that she didn't recognized either.

Maybe the theater was closed? But why were the doors open in the first place?

As she continued to look, she saw in the corner room--a tall man, sitting in a chair looking at the gem, he had a glittering top hat with a red band around it, with a flamboyant white suit and cape and heels, adorned with red frills on his wrists and red ascents on his legs, the same man from the poster. He was looking at a yellow gem until he caught a reflection of the girl....

Eeyahoo~?

...?!

The girls heart rate skipped a beat in surprise at the man's sudden deep voice,

"Why, hello there..."

He slowly stood up from the chair, and suddenly was floating and spinning rapidly and bowed in front of her with a gracious bow,

"...And Welcome!", he welcomed with charisma, giving a friendly smile. The eyes in the red band of his top hat seemed to

The girl was unable to speak, it all came out as stuttering as she was trying to say what was going on.

The man only circled around her, his grin never fading. He was almost amused by her and chuckled as she was stunned until he pulled out the same fluffy pink-like bird with cat ears.

"Here child, have this! And tell me lass, what is that you amiss?", he asked. He pulled out a stethoscope, a popsicle stick as if to check her throat, he even checked her eyes as well. It's as if he was trying to emphasize his sentence in a theatrical way, she was trying to congest and ask what was going on, but it almost felt like the man was bouncing all over the walls of energy in this theater.

"What I mi--?"

The man interrupted her as he comedically threw away all the doctor supplies, "Why of course, a piece of your heart!"

"My hear-? YAAAAAAAAAHHH!!!!"

He grabbed her by the sides and laughed triumphantly as he pushed her and dashed in lighting speed into another theater door.

He then placed her in a more smaller theater, and spun her around in a playful manner. it had a ton of tables and chairs, it even had it's own bar in the back.

"Now what--" she asked as the man was humming and kicking boxes and cleaning of any remaining dirt and dust as if he hadn't cleaned this place in days or years,

"Is going on? What are you doing in this part?" the man laughed joyously smiled, cutting her off mid-sentence again, it was almost getting annoying.

"Now I'm sure you have tons of questions you have in your mind, but for now...." he snapped is fingers and immediately and all of the room went dark, all of the stage lights were directed by the flamboyant man with the top hat.

"It's time....for the show to start!" he boomed with grandiose.

He started with a theatrical stance... and then started dancing and twirling, and even doing backflips. The man was so elegant and fast with his dancing and his movements, the girl was almost mesmerized by him.

The man then snapped his fingers and suddenly, he summoned clones of himself as back dancers, one of them flew and spun right by to her and somehow shapeshifted into a chair for her to sit.

It was as if she was floating on where she was sitting, with the little creature in her hand, she was then sended straight to a portal summoned along the stage, the man joining along with her as well...

So far it was as if along the ride... someone or something took her....

The girl was walking along the vast, empty and almost dream-like city. It was what she could think of right now at this stage, no new ideas were thinking of her at this time. Except the plaza, the plaza fountain and the big, humongous chapel; all quite similar to the ones she saw in her city. When she was walking around the shopping area in the plaza, she stopped and saw on the windows two blank mannequins.

She tilted her head and all of the sudden, there was a flash of creativity that struck her immediately so she went inside the little shop.

There, she saw an empty boutique… there were even more empty mannequins, a vintage green sewing machine, and some paper with a pencil with an eraser. It seemed like the mannequins were neverending as she overviewed on how many there were…. She felt a little uneasy about how many there were.

She glanced down at the paper on the desk, she picked up the pencil, as if by a quick second she was done with a simple summer dress. Now how to sew it and put it somewhere… Surely, her favorite hobby to do was to draw and design dresses in her sketchbook. She didn’t know how to sew her own designs, but she dreamed of being a fashion designer someday..

It seemed like hours, or years, or who knows how long that she has been drawing and designing. It was so easy for her; draw a fashion design, and the sewing machine will do it for you. She wish she could do this forever until… In the corner of her she saw a yellow gem drop on the floor, with curiosity striking her she picked it. It was pretty at first but looking at the reflection of it, it’s as if she saw someone… or something in the gem. She couldn’t recall who it was but it looked like the person was really happy, it sounded like from the gem, cheering and laughing. She smiled a bit but then, looking at the floor there were more gems lying on the floor! Her eyes widened with shock as she saw more and more scattered across.. Before she continued to pick them up, these small, shadowy creatures with white masks and pink and purple creatures tried to eat them and swallow up.

“What…? Hey! Give those back!” she shouted. She ran and tried to swoop back the drops before the shadowy creatures tried to swallow it whole, but she couldn’t with no prevail. The more they tried the more faster they were than her.

She was about to give up and keep drawing until a shadowy figure swooped through her vision.

Huh?!

Swish, sling, swoosh! The figure captured the drops and fought the creatures with what it seems like a sword and captured the drops in an instant.

Who was that….?

The figure looked like it counted up the drops in his hand and grinned with satisfaction, as if by magic he swooped in his jacket, making them disappear. The girl was in shock.

The figure looked like a man, he didn’t really say much but when he turned to her, her heart skipped a beat and beated faster. The man was really tall, he had a caliver hat with feathers pinned on the side, it seemed to pull right down to his eyes like a mask. When he looked at her for a good minute he squinted his eyes and gave her an impish grin, it was full of mystery and it was as if he was begging her to come along, but there was something in her mind that was forbbinding her to go. As her heart calmed down, in her left hand was the yellow gem that she had earlier, when she was about to catch him up assuming that he dropped it, he was gone.

“Questions, questions, questions!”, a voice exclaimed in the distance, it was almost angelic at least. “Growing curiouser of this theater by the day aren’t you? Oh, you poor little lamb, you wander and wander for your own sake for a day or two..”

Click clack clack, the golden heels from the man echo off the shop, or her stage, as the girl was greeted by a handsome, tall man with striking white hair and white cloak that covered his shoulders.

It was Lance, the Maestro of Wonderworld

“Huh?!” the girl fumbled by the response as she hid the strange gem behind her back, “I-um… well… it’s.. nothing” she didn’t want this stranger to be concerned about what she saw.

“Really?….Nothing?” He chuckled as tilted his head, speaking in a kind manner as if he heard this many times.

“Yeah! I’m sure!” she said nervously, “But… uh…” she looked around her stage and then down again, kicking some of the dirt on the ground lightly.

Lance, being the most patient as ever, waited for the girl to say at least something with a sad smile. He putted his hand on her shoulder, but before he could say anything he looked around her near empty stage, “Well one things for sure; for a stage this grand. It does need some sprucing up at hand!”

“Sprucing up…?” she asked

“Hmm,” Lance thought, “this is your first time here, yes?”

The girl nodded.

The shoulder on his hand felt… nice.. warm.. comforting? A sharp ping of warmth crossed to her heart, this was the most content she felt, she didn’t know why though. It’s as if this is what she really needed the most.

“By the way, mister,” she asked, “who are you?”

"...You don't know who I am..?" Lance inquired,

The girl shook her head no.

"Ah... well.."

Lance hadn’t introduced himself yet so smirked in a cat-like smile and bowed down like a prince would,

"My name is Lance, the Maestro --or perhaps your guide-- of Wonderworld. My job here is to make sure your heart is in tact. With the state that you are in my dear, tis not the fact!"

Your heart is in tact...? She felt like she's heard of this before.

"Say, wasn't there someone who's just like you?", she asked.

"What could you mean, love?" Lance tilted his head in curiosity.

"Well, I just saw a man with a hat, or... maybe I saw one before I'm not sure...." she pondered, "but, this one had a sword and he was grabbing.... I think it was gems?? lt was shiny for sure!"

Lance tensed up, almost knowing what the girl was saying, but he had a confused, yet almost amused look in his face. He was so amused by this little girls inquisitive questions and what details she can remember on the top of her head, it was.. adorable to him to say the least.

He chuckled, "Now now, I'm not sure what you mean, but I can assure you that there is me and only me! If you are thinking about those 'creatures' grabbing gems, those are the negati. They're quite harmless, as you can see."

His head turned and pointed to the black, ink like creatures with neon patterns and stripes, grabbing and munching at the remaining gems.

Even though they were cute at least, that still doesn't answer her question.

Everytime she questions something, why does no one answer to her..?

Lance could notice that she was a bit discouraged at the answer, but he could sense that something else was wrong. He brushed his long, silver like hair to his ear and kneeled down in a gentle manner.

"Child, if there is anything that worries your mind, speak! Please know that I am always here to talk if your heart remains week.." Lance said in a gentle and reassuring manner. He held both of her tiny hands, contrast to his abnormal, large hands and gave them a reassuring squeeze.

The child made a deep sigh of relief, as if she needed to hear that from this kind gentleman. She broke from Lances hands and shrugged,

"It's... nothing. But...."

"But?"

"...Didn't you say that my stage needed...sprucing up?" she asked, as if changing the subject.

"I have haven't I..? Well, since this is Wonderworld, the stage here is at your command!" he struck his friendly smile as he got back up, "Your stage here is quite a unique one in my case. Shall I teach you tricks on what and where to place?"

"What do you mean?"

He gently grabbed her hand, his eyes twinkled with intrigue, "Come come! I shall show you!"

He lead her out of the boutique and in the middle of the empty shopping area of the plaza. He waited for her as if to do something, but it felt like she was more confused than ever.

"Alright....? Now what?"

"Nothing..? Not a single thing that you can think of?" he mused.

"What's there to think about? Is some building just going to pop out of nowhere?" she quipped sarcastically.

And just like that, another building from the shopping area did in fact, popped out of nowhere.

"Well, if you can think of that my dear!" he giggled.

Her eyes popped from surprise and her mouth fell open, she couldn't believe she actually thought of that.

"Just like that?!" she exclaimed.

"Just like that." Lance confirmed, "Now then, think of other things that can add to your own stage--add your own flare. Or change the place up if you like--theres no reason to stop there!"

She hummed, thinking of other things in her stage to add. She looked from left to right to center for other props she could add. She added more shops, some city props like street lamps, fire hydrants, some apartments, even a fountain in the center. It didn't had a statue in the center, but she didn't mind.

As Lance watched and helped the girl set up her stage, he commented, "You know, you remind me so much of a detective--always inquisitive and looking for clues. It's no wonder your striving out for answers--ike looking for news..."

Lance's eyes widened as if they thought of an idea, "That's it--Detective! Your name shall be Detective."

"Detective? You know you can't really name someone by their appearance... it's a little silly." she gave a sheepish laugh.

"Who says you can't? I believe you can." Lance shrugs.

As Detective thought about it, something stumped her. Why couldn't she remember her name...? She was actually gonna tell Lance her real name, but for some reason she can't remember.

Really silly indeed. However, detective that a cool sounding theme to it, so she let the thought go and stuck with it.

"I guess you have a point," she agreed.

As she was done with what she wanted from her stage, Lance rested his hand on his hip and gave an approving nod.

"Very good, and very well done! I'd say, love--you have quite the imagination on where you have gone..."

He looked around the stage and was on awe with the night time-like and dreamy atmosphere that Detective had brought out.

"Now then, I leave you at your own command. I believe my job here is done for a while--but please do not hesitant at all to call me by my name--I will be there to ail to your needs, hand in hand." He bowed graciously in farewell. His sincerity looked like he really meant what he said to Detective

Before he disappeared with a flourish with his hand, Detective called to him, "Lance, wait!"

Lance was half-transparent as he looked at Detective in an inquired look.

Detective softly smiled to Lance, "...Thank you."

Lance smiled back in a mysterious manner, as if knowing what was going on with Detective; leaving her on her own on her stage.

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