#♡. just 'cause i'm ready to die for you baby ; doesn't mean i'm ready to stay ( luk & ellis )

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POSTCARDS & POLAROIDS       ⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯ @timelovcd

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Label Me (2019) dir. Kai Kreuser

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@timelovcd Luk said : "i’ll dream each night of some version of you that i might not have but i did not lose." to Ellis.

THE MAD DOG FINDS ITSELF WITH THE COLLAR digging into the flesh of his neck until he chokes on the heavy iron taste of his own blood ( snarling and biting     ⎯⎯⎯⎯ he probably deserved to be here after a godforsaken red-eye flight surrounded by screaming children and their disinterested fathers. ) Shoulder still aches, either from the weight of the world or the weight of an opponent slamming his heel against the sturdy bone and firm muscle until one of them had to give. A week to heal from the injury ; two to get his act together ! who gives a fuck about dreams when their bodies are entwined and there is a pamphlet for cheap takeout stolen from the desk of the mediocre hotel.

One day he will make it big. MAKE THE PIN. HOLD THE GOLD OF THE WORLD CHAMPIONSHIP IN HIS HAND. One day. One day. One day he is going to ask Luk ❛ what are we ? ❜ with words rather than a bruise on his collarbone and a hickey on his thigh. One day Luk is going to answer ❛ nothing that matters ❜ and leave. So god forgive him if he does not ask. God forgive him if he digs into the warmth of a willing body that welcomes him back time and time again. FORGIVE HIM if he mistakes a warm bed in an off-brand hotel for a home. ❝ Do tell me that you make me pretty in your dreams. ❞

Laughter sounds like a bark. Barking dogs don't bite, and especially not when they're wearing an untied bathrobe and take up over half the space of the creaking bed. ❝ I'm here, aren't I ? So stop yapping about losing me — ❞ he will. He will because the music will echo and the character of Lucas will walk off backstage. ❝ — I'm not leaving. I came all the way here, didn't I ? ❞ A WOUNDED DOG SEARCHING FOR A SPOT TO LICK HIS WOUNDS !