#₊ ⊹ㅤ ㅤW.Bㅤ ␥ㅤ I'm doing this for my family ↬ dynamics

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for walburga: does your muse have any kids? tell us about them!

Sometimes Walburga felt empty when she heard a question about her two boy; regulus and sirius. What could she say? Walburga felt—yes, she felt empty, hollow. She hated feeling that way because most of the time, it was because she was scared. But when she was scared, she was a child again, and she was more afraid of being a child again than anything else in her life. She hated feeling this way. And sometimes she thought to herself how much her loved her boys, her dear boys. She didn't show love; she was cold, cruel, and much worse to others. But with them, it was different—it was almost like a love that she couldn't see herself giving to anyone, not even to herself. She loved those boys, even if she didn't show it enough. She missed the way she used to be; she missed everything, actually. They were the darkest sin she could have. Sometimes she wished they both stayed kids forever, because it felt like they were growing too much, slipping away from her fingers, hugs, and love. And she used to feel that every time they grew up, she lost a part of herself that went with them. Because when someone leaves home, their presence never really leaves.ㅤ "My boys..." Her voice trembled for a moment. She had closed herself off so much over the years that she barely remembered what it was like to feel the tears fall and let her body sink into loneliness. How long had it been since she had felt the skin of one of her boys, since she had even truly looked at them? She wasn't a good mother; she knew that. But she still missed everything the way it was before. "My little king and my little problematic one..." The nickname sounded familiar and nostalgic on her lips as her worn fingers touched the book of innocent fantasies that she used to read to them when they slept. But now, where were her boys to listen? She bit her lip, holding back the tears that threatened to fall. It was in that last moment that she felt truly vulnerable.

also responding to this ask too: for walburga - are you grieving something or someone? do you feel like you lost something or a part of yourself with it/them?

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tag dumb – walburga

₊ ⊹ㅤ  ㅤW.Bㅤ  ␥ㅤ  I'm doing this for my family  ↬ mirror

₊ ⊹ㅤ  ㅤW.Bㅤ  ␥ㅤ  I'm doing this for my family  ↬ musing

₊ ⊹ㅤ  ㅤW.Bㅤ  ␥ㅤ  I'm doing this for my family  ↬ dynamics

₊ ⊹ㅤ  ㅤW.Bㅤ  ␥ㅤ  I'm doing this for my family  ↬ edits

₊ ⊹ㅤ  ㅤW.Bㅤ  ␥ㅤ  I'm doing this for my family  ↬ threads

₊ ⊹ㅤ  ㅤW.Bㅤ  ␥ㅤ  I'm doing this for my family  ↬ wanted

₊ ⊹ㅤ  ㅤW.Bㅤ  ␥ㅤ  I'm doing this for my family  ↬ answered

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tag dumb – pandora

₊ ⊹ㅤ  ㅤP.Rㅤ  ␥ㅤ  grief is a woman too  ↬ mirror

₊ ⊹ㅤ  ㅤP.Rㅤ  ␥ㅤ  grief is a woman too  ↬ musing

₊ ⊹ㅤ  ㅤP.Rㅤ  ␥ㅤ  grief is a woman too  ↬ wanted

₊ ⊹ㅤ  ㅤP.Rㅤ  ␥ㅤ  grief is a woman too  ↬ edits

₊ ⊹ㅤ  ㅤP.Rㅤ  ␥ㅤ  grief is a woman too  ↬ dynamics

₊ ⊹ㅤ  ㅤW.Bㅤ  ␥ㅤ  I'm doing this for my family  ↬ threads

₊ ⊹ㅤ  ㅤW.Bㅤ  ␥ㅤ  I'm doing this for my family  ↬ answered