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I love these two

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HERE IS NATHALIA AND I AM DEVASTE D😭😭💕😭💕😭💕😭💕😭💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

wait y'all I know we hate AI (this should be ok bc just pulling from AoT screencaps) but can we pause for a minute so we can all create one of these Attack on Titan AI OCs people are doing over on twitter.

my girl is EATING bitches up I fear. (not literally tho lmfao, no titan)

make yours: HERE

Template - BOLD words to replace with your own. Attack on Titan screencap of a female with long length ombre black to brown box braids hair, dark eyes, caramel skin , round long oval face , plump lips, blood on cheek, murderous look. Scenery is beautiful. she is wearing a green cloak. WIT Studios season 3 screencap.

No pressure tags: @callm3senpaii @honeeslust

Anyone else! (sorry I cant remember rn who likes AoT since I am more into JJK fandom on here)

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Today I did my makeup, It's been so long.... I felt happy. I've been in the sun a lot lately so my foundation doesn't fit me anymore and has left me white... finally. I feel happy, remembering that I'm a beautiful woman🥰🥰💓💓🌹🌹🌹🌹

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A great picture smiling 😁💖💖🥰 I really enjoyed today

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My oc on Spoof on Titan au 🩷🩷🩷💖💖💖✨✨🪔🪔🪔🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

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Thank you so much for your help, once again. I'm the anon who sent you that ask, and although I was afraid and ashamed all the time, I no longer feel the same way anymore and have come to thank you publicly since I couldn't properly come by message. It was a subject that I couldn't let go of at all, and it turned out that I'm here today realizing the truth in the closest way I could get to. I really tried to ignore it and go it alone, but I ended up sending the ask without any expectations.

I still feel guilty about mentioning a topic as heavy as this, and even in a way sad because no matter how hard I tried not to identify with the ego to let it go, I felt that it would not be worth killing such a divine and adorable creation that only wants to be carried in the arms of God until it ends its journey. I already knew about the journey and I was really determined to try something that day before I sent you the ask, through meditation or anything that would lead me to empty absolute. I'm glad I didn't do this, me or my friend, and that something didn't leave us without seeing the truth in the first place. There was a purpose that gave us a different option. In this case, the right one.

Again, thank you so much for making this available. Very much so. I don't think the same way anymore and my head hasn't been so quiet for so long... I had a lot of obsessive thoughts... many. Thank you very much and when it's available I'll be back. Not to tire you out or make you keep repeating yourself, but knows how to discover new important poles to be explored for everyone. God bless you 🙏🏻🙏🏻🌹🌹

Hi, I hope you're doing well. I'm the user who sent you the question about death and i came here to thank you. You don't need answer and i even ask you here not to answer, but if you can and want, i'd like you to read it 🙏🏻🪻

The questions of death i addressed were more about shifting into desired reality, or attaining the enlightenment of Being. I saw many concepts, sucess stories, posts and everything about "don't identify with the bodie/circumstances" and change of consciousness, go to another desired reality, void and that, that if taken in contrast attached to each different type of traumas and limiting beliefs, was very difficult. That's why i mentioned about "zombie" and attaining the Self, Absolute, through death. As if death takes us to the core of everything without illusion/traumas and any limitation holding us back not at all. Some are so tired that they want to reach the self without enduring more days and days without knowing when they will succeed; i know it may sound confusing, wrong and I'm complicating things, but i wanted to explain my point in case i confused you ((even if there's no really need to))

Maybe i'm being too impatient or we complicate things, but it's part of everyone's process. Thank you so much for your answer to my ask, i'm very grateful ((this is something me and a friend had been thinking about. We both went through this kind of thinking, she went first and i on the day i sent you the ask.. and i needed to talk about it)) but with just one post you helped with a change of perception.

When we feel welcomed, it's a blessing. Thank you very much indeed 🙏🏻💓💓

Thanks for writing back. I know you asked not to post this and I would have but I felt it necessary to address some of the things you wrote, as it might clear up some confusion and help you.

"that if taken in contrast attached to each different type of traumas and limiting beliefs, was very difficult"

I understand completely. For traumas, this was something I felt I had to address before I could let go of ego completely (I had tried before but some things are just too deeply entrenched and you need to uproot and dissolve those first). I highly recommend reading the posts under my releasing tag here as it's all based on what I personally did to release them. It's also what Lester did for his realization (he went all the way with this method actually). Honestly, the peace alone that it gives makes it more than worth it (forgetting about self-realization for a second here) but it also helped me drop a lot of ego concepts. You can apply this to any ego concepts to be dropped (including limiting beliefs) and not just trauma but I highly recommend using releasing to address and release trauma. Give it an honest try, it will help a lot.

"That's why i mentioned about "zombie" and attaining the Self, Absolute, through death. As if death takes us to the core of everything without illusion/traumas and any limitation holding us back not at all.

Self isn't something you have to attain. Ever. You already are It. Right now. Really! You can never stop being Self, even when you think you are not It. Death of ego identification is the only real solution and this does not come from death of the physical body. The ego can continue on after physical death. Only you can dissolve the illusions, traumas and limitations by dropping them.

I'm going to share some excerpts from Autobiography of a Yogi which describes the karmic process after physical death for one who has not released identification of the body-mind-ego. You don't necessarily need to believe in any of this but the understanding of the three bodies (physical, astral and causal) of a limited being is consistent from what I've read of Advaita Vedanta teachings and Lester Levenson, Siddharameshwar Maharaj and Robert Adams who are all fully realized masers have all covered this too.

“The undeveloped man must undergo countless earthly and astral and causal incarnations in order to emerge from his three bodies. The physical karma or desires of man must be completely worked out before his continued stay in astral worlds becomes possible,” my guru elucidated in his thrilling voice. “Two kinds of beings live in the astral spheres. Those who still have earthly karma to dispose of and who must therefore reinhabit a gross physical body in order to pay their karmic debts could be classified, after physical death, as temporary visitors to the astral world rather than as established residents.” “Beings with unredeemed earthly karma are not permitted after astral death to go to the high causal sphere of cosmic ideas, but must shuttle to and fro from the physical and astral worlds only, conscious successively of their physical body of sixteen gross elements, and of their astral body of nineteen subtle elements. After each loss of his physical body, however, an undeveloped being from the earth remains for the most part in the deep stupor of the death-sleep and is hardly conscious of the beautiful astral sphere. After the astral rest, such a man returns to the material plane for further lessons, gradually accustoming himself, through repeated journeys, to the worlds of subtle astral texture.” “Normal or long-established residents of the astral universe, on the other hand, are those who, freed forever from all material longings, need return no more to the gross vibrations of earth. Such beings have only astral and causal karma to work out. At astral death these beings pass to the infinitely finer and more delicate causal world. At the end of a certain span, determined by cosmic law, these advanced beings then return to Hiranyaloka or a similar high astral planet, reborn in a new astral body to work out their unredeemed astral karma.” “Just as most people on earth have not learned through meditation-acquired vision to appreciate the superior joys and advantages of astral life and thus, after death, desire to return to the limited, imperfect pleasures of earth, so many astral beings, during the normal disintegration of their astral bodies, fail to picture the advanced state of spiritual joy in the causal world and, dwelling on thoughts of the more gross and gaudy astral happiness, yearn to revisit the astral paradise. Heavy astral karma must be redeemed by such beings before they can achieve after astral death an unbroken stay in the causal thought-world, so thinly partitioned from the Creator. “Only when a being has no further desires for experiences in the pleasing-to-the-eye astral cosmos, and cannot be tempted to go back there, does he remain in the causal world. Completing there the work of redeeming all causal karma or seeds of past desires, the confined soul thrusts out the last of the three corks of ignorance and, emerging from the final jar of the causal body, commingles with the Eternal.

Now I also don't want to cause more concern by sharing this because I imagine maybe someone who reads this will be thinking "oh great, I need to go through the astral realm and the causal realm after this and work out other karma?" but it need not be so. Lester said one can become fully realized in this lifetime in the material realm here and go all the way back home to the Eternal/Absolute as a shortcut without having to go back up through the various realms individually. He also said this realm is the best for becoming fully realized because it's the worst and most hellish realm which gives us the most incentive while the astral and causal realms are a lot nicer/heavenly so there's less incentive to end the whole cycle and just go all the way Home (though there is still suffering because there are still limitations until you shed all bodies, end all cycles and return back to the Absolute).

Although this information might be comforting to someone if they don't think they can be fully realized in this lifetime but are confident they can shed their material attachments and karma since they can stop reincarnating in the physical realm at least? If anyone wants, I can share the book as some of the chapters are quite interesting although I was hesitant to share it sooner because I'm not sure if it will help or cause more confusion or anxiety about the cycles (though personally for me it gave a lot of clarity because I'm pretty sure the void state is actually being aware in the causal realm because you are still perceiving so it's not pure conciousness).

Some are so tired that they want to reach the self without enduring more days and days without knowing when they will succeed

Succeed in what? Self-realization? You are the Self right now. But I understand what you mean. No matter how much you read those words, until you have your own realization of that truth, it's not going to mean much or make much sense. You just have to surrender and accept the present moment instead of wondering when it's going to come and whether you will fail or succeed. Just give up thinking about outcomes altogether and just do what you need to do each day and it will come one day on its own without you thinking on it. Stressing about it is just feeding the ego and mind more with self-imposed limitations; it won't help your realization at all. Just stay sincere on the path and keep the faith. If you are earnest and sincere, you will definitely have your realization.

The mind will rebel in the beginning, but with patience and perseverance, it will yield and keep quiet. Here patience is wisdom; don’t think of failure. There can be no failure in this undertaking. All will happen by itself. You need not do anything, only don’t prevent it. It all comes spontaneously; you need only to hold on to the ‘I am’. It is very much like digging a well. You reject all that is not water, till you reach the life-giving spring. Nisargadatta Maharaj

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I've disabled social media. No Facebook, no Instagram. Gadly never used Tik Tok in my life. I feel light, one of the best feelings I've ever had in my life 💖💖🌹🙏🏻🙏🏻

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I haven't drawn in quite a while. It was natural. Look at him, hehe 💓💓🙏🏻🙏🏻

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I made this hello kitty pen today 🥰💓💓 getting better!

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"Q: Well, she had to go out and look for a job, she had to go to an agent, she just couldn't sit down and wait.

Lester: I say all she had to do was to let go and be herself. Then even if she locked herself in a chamber somewhere, the things would have come to her. You don't sit down and wait, you don't do anything. Just let go of the sense of doership. You just know that everything is perfect and then the slightest thought you have will quickly come into being. There's no limitation on God, the Self. Whatever you thought, would have to come into being if you let go, because you're invoking your infinite power, your Self. Nothing can stop it!

Q: But at the same time you have to struggle to get some action.

Lester: No, I said just the opposite, I say lock yourself in a chamber and padlock the outside of it and if you do what I'm saying you'll find that it will be effected. It has to be. Nothing can stop it! Omnipotence is invoked!"

Lester Levenson"Keys to the ultimate freedom - Thoughts and Talks on Personal Transformation"

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In fact, I've been very confused about the idea and perspective of the effort. That the effort was not to feel bad or to get fulfillment even in hard times (I have been pushing myself a lot to get fulfillment and not feel pain or fatigue. But now reading Lester's book, perhaps, I didn't need all that? That we could all sit down and focus on growing within before anything else, so that our Realization dissolves our problems. Not least because, in fact, none of this ever existed.

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My birthday is coming up.... ❤️🥰🥰❤️

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Angels look at me, evolved beings from other dimensions watch me from up there, or even here next to me. I ask myself: Do they dismount seeing tears coming out of my eyes when my heart cries?

I'm so hurt and frustrated, depressed, needy, impatient, hard. Impatience and sadness resonate in each and every reaction of mine irl, no matter how hard I try to smile and be kinder, gentler, and more positive. It shows in me and the fact that I don't triumph over the pain makes me frustrated and hate myself. I want to be good even when I'm sad, some people do it so well... I want to be able to reach this level of performance. I don't want to be a burden or rude in other people's lives, but to hug and make them laugh more, feel loved.

My ego is too negative... I want to be able to love it and hug it when no one comes. There's no need to fight no one, people are your loved ones and not threats. I'd like it to understand forever. I need to heal ir because no matter how many times I let the ego go, it keeps coming back and asking for the same healing. Maybe I don't want to face you, and face your pains? What's up? Please don't cry anymore my daughter. Please don't cry. I don't know how to care for my ego really and I need to study more about it.

I wish I had someone else taking care of me too...

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Before, I was OBSESSED with manifesting because of money. I put my peace and happiness in money, which my manifestations of being rich would make me carefree and at peace. I've been studying the Self to learn (and get money) but nothing entered my head at a certain point, it was as if money was everything (I'm from Brazil, inflation and taxes, increasing poverty and devaluation of diplomas so imagine the head of the Brazilian aka the most anxious people in the >world<) and I couldn't understand it properly why couldn't I get my money.

So, for some reason, I ended up going into studies of economics, history, sociology in general, and there I saw when and how the first notions of exchanges of currencies, capital, goods and values emerged. Progressing with studies in economics, and along with it, loss of the value of money in inflations and bankruptcy of entire nations, I understood more or less how money is made and even with so little I've already been able to catch vision. Damn, in Venezuela for example, in some years ago more than 5 digits in the account, mountains of money barely buy 1 kg of meat. The money itself... it's not stable. Stock markets crash, banks close. It's not eternal And it's flawed. We are in the materialistic age and mountains of garbage of overconsumption are engulfing the planet.

Nothing is eternal. I still want money, my dreams, though... but not obsessively and painfully as before. I was so empty about 2 years ago......

And now, as I study more and more, I seek peace in Self. The true and eternal peace that resides in us and is always within our reach. There's no effort. We don't need to prove anything. It doesn't need our suffering. Happiness is in fulfillment, and more and more I am able to keep myself more at peace.

Thank you.

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"Therefore, in an unenlightened condition of identification with the mind, what is sometimes mistakenly called joy is the usually brief side of pleasure, within the continual alternation of the suffering/pleasure cycle. Pleasure always comes from something outside of us, whereas joy comes from within us. The very thing that gives pleasure today will cause suffering tomorrow, or it will abandon us, and that absence will cause suffering. In the same way, what is usually called love may be pleasurable and exciting for a time, but it is an additional attachment, a condition of extreme need. which can turn into the opposite in the blink of an eye. Many "loving" relationships, after the initial euphoria, oscillate between "love" and hatred, attraction and aggression."

The Power of Now - Eckhart Tolle.

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With each "day" that passes according to earthly terms, I realize that I came to the body of a girl whose heart cries every day.

Every day her mind wishing for peace, freedom, happiness, and health. How much she needs, needs, begs me, to be loved. I love her. But she... she still cries a lot. On my journey walking through the gardens of life, I deeply feel all the emotions that Amanda feels. I am aware that my true nature is "happiness" and "absolute peace" however, I do. I like to give Amanda the freedom to be able to process her pains and passions. "What is Amanda going to feel today?" and it's like I drown in her feelings and find a whole secret world, full of curiosities and emotions not understood. I confess that I like to feel, what it's like to be her. Amanda has big, curious eyes, always looking at the world as well. Whether it's looking at a beautiful house with gardens, or the tiniest ant that carries its food. "So fierce, so strong," she thinks. Her heart soon aches. "I wish I was strong as that"

She does the chores. Tired. Her adorable brothers, always laughing, but fighting a lot. Fights and more fights. Every day.

What she asks so much of me yet... it didn't arrive. She looks at her little old house and feels her eyes and nostrils ache in tears: "I need to do everything... but it's not like there's anything out here to achieve?" And she's so afraid. So much fear, being there is nothing to fear and I'll aways be with her to protect her from everything.

Beyond that, Amanda see couples on the street, on social media, everywhere. Smiles and more smiles, promises. A mere glimpse of touching hands makes Amanda's ears go up, and if she had a tail, she'd sure be wagging. She smiles and everything is beautiful, her cheeks burn, her heart flutters. The sweat on her hands with small cuts and burns moistens her clothes (Amanda is learning how to be a good cook) and then, her eyes double in size. "When will it be my turn?" and then... again, that familiar feeling. Sadness. Amanda has always been a girl who idealized romances since as a child, what she had inside her house was almost the total opposite of what they call "romance" here. Ah, that feeling which leads human beings to ruin.

Amanda, by the way, always had a boyfriend in mind. I know him very well, because he's also my creation but... with what she liked. I remember when Amanda dictated to me her wants and desires of her ideal partner, and I delivered everything she wanted into her imagination. She has always been, and is, so happy there. Amanda loves my home that she owns in her body, such a house called by "imagination".

She's always been around here, and she's still kind of addicted, because here I give her everything she wants without the slightest effort. Here, she is happy, free, loved, and very beautiful. Her parents don't suffer at work and she has a beautiful house, as she always asked me and still asks of me. Her mouth salivates imagining trying the foods she sees in videos, she dreams and always asks me for delicious dishes. And I, in extreme love and compassion, give it. How many dishes she dreams of.

But I wanted her to... believe more in me. To know that my house is the only real house that exists that from here, she can have everything she wants materializing for her on Earth. That Amanda's house isn't the one she has now, or any house she sees on the Internet. Her home is me, and unlike the Earth plane, here everything is ready.

Flowers, a garden, dolls, a beautiful kitchen and the husband she dreams of are already here, waiting anxiously for her. I also look forward to her. For more than my creation, she is my daughter, with a body and an ego that has been through a lot in this world and that she not only can, but must rest.

Here everything is hers, everything. I hope she realizes this soon and looks no further on Earth, outside of my home, which is part of it. I gave it away exclusively just so I could make your dreams come true, without even lifting a finger.

Nothing on Earth is real. I've given her a wonderful world, but one that she can't let herself get too carried away in order not to get hurt... but Amanda is stubborn. I love her so much, even though she longs to be loved by someone other than me and herself. She wants her prince and I'll give to her. She wants people to be happy and dreams of her friends making their dreams come true and being loved too. She just wants everyone to be okay.

I will give everything to her. I want to see her happy because by experiencing her body I can understand what she goes through, incessantly. She deserves it.

My dear. You're all set. Come to your room, your gifts, and it's all here for you. More than any material possessions, you will have the freedom and be in union with me, because you are a part of me. The womb of life. Here Amanda can sleep and eat as much as she wants, whatever she wants. I will hold her in my heart with me where she will always be warm and feel loved, for there is no love and peace like Mine.

I'm waiting for you to wake up and come to me my dear Amanda. I'm your home, your craftsman, your imagination.

From " " to Amanda.

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I know that I am the "I am". I'm not the body or any ego. I keep myself aware of it. However, I want to take care of Amanda. Please make her happy. Let her cry as much as she need