#{ I'm really glad you submitted one!! i love ur boy }

[tearsofcalamity]

wriofucker's fine by me lol unless u have another nickname that'd be both as accurate & funny!

i wasn't too clear earlier; i think our mandatory education goes up to 9th grade, and then it's like a minimum of 4(ish) years for a uni degree. so it's not all that different lol

nahh im telling you i had one macroeconomics class once and it fried my fuckin brain. only reason i could stand it was because the professor was too right-brained for his own good (he'd start his lectures with a song he liked. i wrote a bunch of barely-relevant shit abt environmental pollution on the exam—he was super passionate abt it—and he just let me pass<3 loved that guy). ik i said it before but good luck on ur studies!! im sure you'll absolutely kill it out there. and, thank sm! i actually finished the short story assignment last night but im too scared to submit it jdhdj

im so glad you've got more kaveh brewing omg he's so<33 bit of a shame you're not into kavetham (they make me bite & scream) but that's just fine; more kaveh/reader for the world! except the world is me and nobody else<3 can u imagine teasing kaveh in public, maybe he's even all nice & plugged up, and you're warning him not to let a single person figure out what's going on bc he's for your eyes only<3 but it's so difficult and you're relentless and it feels so, so good... he doesn't even care about people finding out anymore, but he wants to be a good boy for you... phew. lord have mercy

HAHA WRIOFUCKER IT IS THEN!! happy to have a named anon :D

ohhhh I see I see! okay yeah so it's pretty similar just a few differences! I think the only reason I'm surviving my business/econ work is cause I've got a math-wired brain lmfao. I've got autism ("high functioning" but I don't really like that term for it, I think the more acceptable one is "low support needs") and I got the "math autism" as my friends put it so that's probably a bigger part of it. I like making spreadsheets and working out equations HAHA, also thank you for the well wishes I actually just found out I passed calc 2 with an 82% so I'm very happy about that!! I'm glad to hear you got your short story done as well, sounds like you're moving through it all good <3!!

HONESTLY I don't hate the ships (like either kavetham or haikaveh I think they're different? like some shippers put the top's name first or something?? I'm not 100% sure) like I TOTALLY see the chemistry don't get me wrong, I think it's mainly just that I get so sad seeing like nearly 0 kaveh content without alhaitham included. I love both of them but kaveh's got such a unique and deep story too, yet people often just kinda treat him like an accessory to alhaitham likely cause he's 4 star and haitham is 5 star so it turns me off of the ships a bit </3 still though that's so true MORE KAVEH/READER!!!!

oh don't even get me started on teasing kaveh in public there's so many ways you could do it and each one would make him squirm more than the last... shove a nice little vibrator deep inside of him, remote controlled of course, and enjoy watching his knees practically buckle every time you up the intensity. ooh, maybe he's giving a one-time academic seminar for some kshahrewar students and you just stand in the corner, grinning at him all the while while he shakes and tries his best to keep his voice level, praying his face isn't as red as it feels...

or play around with him in the tavern, sit right next to him and brush your hand along his inner thigh while he squirms, not sure whether he wants to move closer or further way from you... this one's easier to hide since his flushed cheeks could easily be attributed to a bit too much to drink, but once he's grabbing at your wrist to push your hand into his bulge at last, he knows by your stare that he's messed up. I mean, he hadn't kept his promise to be good, had he? guess you'll just have to rail him over his workbench back at home when he least expects it! (totally ignore his needs/pretend he's not acting super horny when you get back at first, though, he'll be so good for you when you finally do bend him over)

[foozle-woesies]

Omg omg omg omg guess whose back? Back again? Dizzy's back. To spam his friend. Okay but like deadass I want to know your most significant angst Hcs. Literally any characters just what have you really thought about with who cause I know I've got a list of them for pretty much every character so I wanna know ur favs. Give me yummy angst I'm hungry.

🍓Genshin Favs Angst Headcanons🍓

Wooooo!!! You have submitted a GOOD ask buddy. This post will include:

Kaeya Alberich

Diluc Ragnvindr

Il Dottore

Tartaglia

I have more favorites than this, but these are the guys I’m always thinking about.

Warnings: familial death, depression, alcoholism, descriptions of s/h, mentions of internalized homophobia and transphobia, and general violence.

❄️Kaeya Alberich❄️

This isn’t even a headcanon, I’m pretty sure it’s very heavily said in the game- Kaeya’s an alcoholic. And that suave personality of his? I really think it’s just a front.

I see Kaeya has having some serious battles with depression. It takes quite a lot of energy to uphold that smooth façade, leaving him feeling unable to do anything but drink and sleep.

I think Kaeya has a horrible time even just getting up in the morning. Like, it physically hurts him to think about. In the mornings he’ll feel such hopelessness and dread that, again, it just hurts.

I think Kaeya is also deeply hurt by how cold he and Diluc are to each other. Diluc is too, of course, but more on that later. He feels abandoned by Crepus, even though he’s aware that it wasn’t his father’s fault he died.

I also think Kaeya was envious of Diluc and Crepus, even if his father loved the boys the same. Crepus was Diluc’s biological dad- something Kaeya also wanted to have.

Not as angsty as everything else, but Kaeya’s always cold because of his cryo vision :(

Another small one- Kaeya has really textured hair imo. But due to his lack of self care, his hair gets matted often. He’s already tender headed, so combing through it hurts bad. He can hardly bring himself to care for it by the time it’s so matted. Not just because of the pain in his scalp, but because of the pure and utter shame it brings. He couldn’t even gather the strength to do something as basic as brush his hair- how weak could he possibly be?

This is a lot more specific to my au but I’ll try and keep it generally related to the actual game. Kaeya knows both his brother and his spouse are trans and is fully supportive. He supports any queer person in Mondstadt. When it came to realizing he himself was gay, though, it was a bloody internal battle. I’m glad to say he was able to accept himself quickly and live happily with his husband <3.

🔥Diluc Ragnvindr🔥

I think, as the Darknight Hero, Diluc’s an extremely reckless fighter. He’s covered in scars from fatui and abyss mage attacks, but also burns. His hands specifically are burnt to the point of nerve damage in his hands.

He hides these burns with his gloves. This is also why he leaves bartending to his employees- it’s hard to not drop the glasses and spill the drinks due to the damage.

He doesn’t ever pay much mind to his injuries and hardly goes to the hospital when he should. He prioritizes his mission as the Darknight Hero over his own safety. Perhaps he just wants to carve a meaning into his life, feeling as though he lacks one.

Diluc is not one who is good at handling complicated feelings. Quite honestly, Crepus’s death hasn’t exactly registered to him. Obviously he knows it’s happened, and he grieved, but… he just pushes it so far down. He’s easily irritated by the topic of Crepus.

This irritation becomes evident whenever Kaeya tries to talk about their father, even though it’s always in a fond manner. In general, discussions between the brothers end in screaming and shouting.

Diluc doesn’t hate Kaeya, though, it’s quite the opposite. Diluc frets a lot over his little brother. His lack of emotional tact, and Kaeya’s unwillingness to open up, just keeps driving the brothers farther apart.

Diluc is trans. Of course this isn’t an angsty headcanon within itself! Rather, I want to talk about the things that can come with it. I like to think Mondstadt is generally a very accepting nation (I choose to think all of teyvat is, really). But once in a while, a drunkard in the bar will make a nasty comment towards this fact. He acts as if these comments mean nothing but it bothers him deeply.

Actually, Diluc feels insecure about being a “real man” quite often. It’s a pretty persistent bother. I’m glad to say though, at the end of the day, Diluc is proud and confident of who he is :3

🧪Il Dottore🧪

Dottore’s backstory isn’t really in the game atp (except for Zandik’s legacy, except it’s not even canonically stated to be Dottore so who really knows at the end of the day?? I def think it’s him tho), but I have my own theories. I feel like Dottore definitely had a horrible childhood. Was he probably kicked out of his village for a good reason? Yea. But still. I can’t help but imagine he had no one to care for him, therefor harboring his bad tendencies.

By the time he got to the Akademiya, I think he was also bullied pretty badly. This worsened his hatred towards people and made him even more of a shut-in.

Dottore is just tired all the time and I mean TIRED. It’s a miracle he’s even functioning.

I don’t have much for Dottore atm… sorry!

🫧Tartaglia🫧

Tartaglia is really struggling while in the fatui. Sometimes, he’s really zoned out. He’s good at keeping up that charming and energetic front for jobs, sure, but if you know him personally or just see him around Zapolyarny palace, he’ll seem like a totally different person. He seems to be… remembering the things he’s seen and done.

Sometimes, he’s totally angry and freaking out. He has a hard time controlling his emotions, all of which seem to appear as anger. This always ends with him breaking something, hurting someone, or even hurting himself. These tantrums are triggered by even the smallest things. I really think he has a ton of resentment, despair, and fear bubbling underneath the surface, resulting in seemingly random breakdowns.

I don’t think Tartaglia really enjoys the fatui. When he crawled out of the abyss, he was a scared, vulnerable young boy. I don’t think he could process what he experienced at the time- I don’t think he can nowadays, either- and I think the fatui used this to their advantage. To try and make him better harbinger material, they stunted his recovery by saying what he went through wasn’t that bad, it was just something that strengthened him. They brushed off any possible mental degradation as him just “being weak” and “needing to be stronger”. He doesn’t realize any of this.

I think that contributes to his need to train more and grow stronger. His over-exertion with battling, and focus on physical pain is a way for him to ignore the mental anguish he’s truly in.

Beyond losing the light in his eyes, I think Tartaglia’s entire face changed. Obviously he grew up, and that changes people’s face, but I mean in a different way. His cheeks are sunken in, his eyes even more so. Around his eyes and the tip of his nose were constantly discolored and red. His lips were chapped and bloody. He seemed tired, even with that fun mask he put on. Honestly he lacks a lot of self care. He wants to focus on his strength rather than such “small matters”. He honestly looks… pretty fucking terrifying, even inhuman when he’s violent. It’s sort of the way a shell-shocked soldier will look different when he returns from war.

About him ending up hurting himself. I think he’ll just grab at any part of himself and scratch and squeeze, resulting in jagged cuts and bruises. He has to take his anger out on something physical. If his anger is directed at another person, when he was a younger man, he’d just hurt them. As he grew, he just broke things around him instead, screaming and shouting all the while. He regrets this every time it happens. He doesn’t know why he lacks control.

All in all, Tartaglia is a deeply troubled individual who’s been manipulated into believing he is fine. He’s been lied to and told his job is a great thing for the world. Maybe one day, he’ll snap out of it and realizes he needs to leave.

[morningstar-descended]

[I debated a lot with myself on if I should fill one out or not. On one hand I really enjoy your blog and how you write Lucifer. On the other, I’m incredibly intimidated and shy and will probably immediately regret this once it’s submitted but here I am anyway. I’m aware you’ll probably get a million of these, so if accepted, I’ll likely only send the occasional ask in character or reaction to any events that may happen on the blog. Super casual stuff. If interested, I have his pictures here  and a profile for him here if you’re looking to know more about him. Thanks for taking the time to review my application!]

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Thank you for your application, Mr. Ethan Prew.

[ziracona]

Hey!! It's me!! The fool who read the entity of ur story and then realised it was 4am before she went sleep. I'm here to gush about ur fic. I think my favorite part of the story is when Adiris is trying to heal Quentins arm and she's recalling Ishtar journeying to Eretsu and.. "And when Ishtar finally reached the base of it, she was overtaken by every disease in Erṣetu, and executed there, and her corpse was hung. On a hook." I can just FEEL the impact that remembrance had on her. Just. Damn (1)

Hey! First of all thank you so much for this massive ask/comment!!! It’s so sweet and it is always amazing to see comments so long they take multiple submits. 💙💙 Figured I’d consolidate these to one ask so you don’t have to hunt and peck through my answers for the right order. : D Although there’s a bunch of questions in the last one, so that one is also gettin’ it’s own answer post.

So! AH! The Ishtar realization! That would be bone-chilling. Like, the fact that myth has got so many similarities to the reality of the realm itself is creepy to me, and I ain’t even in that world! Poor girl goes through like 12 crisis back to back.

And thank you! I’m so glad you liked her feeling bad for Quentin in spite of it all, and Dwight and Quentin trying to do their best. I love that Quentin & Dwight both keep being like “😔 I’m so sorry I’m being so illogical and dumb but I don’t want to hurt her like—“ and the other immediately is like “—Oh no, thank God! Me too!” Fascinating that from both her POV and theirs most of the fic, the other is a bad person(or people), yet they’re choosing to be/trying to be kind and forgiving and understanding anyway. I really feel for Dwight giving his whole “Why did you have to do this? We just wanted to go home. And now I’m going to have to kill you, when you can’t fight back, and that’s going to fundamentally change who I am as a person in a way I don’t like for the rest of my life, and there is nothing I can do about it. Because if I don’t, Quentin will lose any chance to survive, and I can’t let that happen. But the worst part is? I’m gonna have to do all this, and it’s not even gonna matter. For almost certain, we’re still going to die, and I’ll have done it for nothing, but because I can’t know that, I’m going to have to do it.” Like SON. 😭 Also fkn liar McGhee going from existential crisis about his inability to give Quentin medical care & fear he won’t wake up while crying over his body, to “Oh no you’re fine don’t even worry just take it easy. : )” to Quentin’s face so he won’t worry—someone get this boy a therapist!! I love Dwight... Also love that both Quentin & Dwight immediately go “Fuck. Well we can’t kill her now. TuT” as soon as they realize what Adiris is/why she does it. Writing them together is always fun, because they’re the kind of friends who mind meld and become “Oh my god there’s two of them” when they hang out 🤣. My boys... TuT

And yeah! I remember you! Hello again! : D 💙💙💙 YEAH! Poor Adiris. God, it would be so hard to deal. And she’s such a completely lonely person who has had her worth as an individual and everything she has to give routinely invalidated and betrayed by everyone she’s ever tried to find worth in, so that would just crush her like a battering ram. It’s so sweet Quentin and Dwight go to her—like of course they do, they want to know what’s going on, and why she’s acting this way, in a world where nothing ever changes, and they also are just both who they are as people— but it’s such a meaningful and wild, contextually, thing to do for someone like her. Quentin trying to liken it to how he felt back when he thought Freddy got killed for no reason because of him, and hadn’t done all the awful stuff he did, to be better at being empathetic to her. My boy. TuT AH! And yeah!! That’s (the scene where she’s gone into septic shock) is probably my favorite one, because this poor girl is so fucked up in so many ways, and she has no idea. And it’s so sad that when she stops thinking clearly because she’s dying of sepsis and has gone into shock, she makes herself wake up when Dwight starts stroking her head to try to comfort her, because no one at least since she was with her parents as a tiny child and maybe ever had really done that, or shown her physical affection at all. And she makes herself stay awake because it feels good and she doesn’t want it to end. : ( And realizes he’s even touching the half of her face that is all gross and covered with abscesses and growths and dead tissue from the plague and she’s so happy because she knew nobody healthy would ever be willing to touch her anywhere she’s damaged, which is 90% of her entire body, but someone’s doing it anyway. And she’s just so happy she stays conscious for that. : ( : ( : ( it’s so SAD girl got me depressed for her. God, she’s so lonely.

And you’re completely right! Adiris never had friends in Babylon, because she was a servant in a temple, following a strict hierarchy—the temple owned her, she was basically a slave. And then she was a priestess, and she was supposed to be above everyone else. So she’s never had anybody to just be normal with or towards, not since she was still with her siblings back when she was so little she can barely remember. Dwight and Quentin, if she can call them friends, are her first ones. And if not, they’re certainly the closest she’s ever gotten to friends if not. The survivors would be her first friend group her whole life. : ( And I am very sad for her. :’-]

Yeah! TuT She’s a sweetheart. She’s the kind of person life really should have beaten all the kindness out of, but somehow has not just managed to retain it, but to retain it as a core tenant of her personality. I think she has realized she has a lot of similarities to them—to Quentin spiritually and in morals, and to Dwight in personality and some significant amount of lived experience—but I don’t think she’s really thought of it in terms of being like them or like the survivors, more just that they have some similarities. She’s never really had a place she “fits” so I don’t think she even really has the instinct to find places or people with whom she’d click or belong. It’s not a part of how existing has ever been for her. The most she still years for and tries to find is significance and being wanted and useful. I really hope she gets to a sense of community, though, because it’s true, and she deserves it. TпТ

AHHH thank you again so much for all of this!!! 💙💙💕💖💙 it was a joy to read!

[thegeminisage]

(same anon) i saw your tag and i'm just going to bombard you because i have written all of this without any other merlin fans around me. it's an s4 au, character study, interminable introspection, mainly gwen/morgana with some merlin/arthur, way angstier than the first one. i'm submitting it to after camlann, so plenty of edit time. and i'm such a fan of your fic, btw! actually exploring the repercussions of magical repression! emotional magic! and also your arthur voice is fantastic.

ANON!!!! i’m sorry i didn’t answer til now i was binge watching disney plus with my poor quarantine-crazy mother. the mandalorian is rad so far if anyone was wondering

anyway that fic sounds radical i fucking…love gwen/morgana & i really wish there had been more of them after The Poisoning bc gwen was one of the only people who never wronged her prior to that. we could have had it all!!! their post-evil-morgana dynamic was so underutilized…………when after camlann starts posting i will scan the entries with mine own eagle eyes & see if i can find it. i almost joined that one myself lol but i couldn’t wait any longer…hence me making my own dang graphics

also THANK YOU wtf…my heart is so full!! arthur is my Favorite Boy…i’m glad my arthur voice is good…if i come away from this with nothing else that made it all worth it…i just want him to learn empathy and accidentally set a lot of stuff on fire i am truly SUCH a simple woman?? i’ve had a lot of fun playing with emotional magic and i’m lowkey wishing i had posted it all at once just so everyone could see the END already!!! but i will have self control and Wait. 

ANYWAY i bet you’re gonna kill it, your fic sounds dope as hell & the world needs more femslash. ur doing the lord’s work for sure pls know u have all my support!!!