#[for those who don't know it's a joke thingy at this point]

[ask-elland-n-will]

As our all-favourite prefect slowly awakened from his slumber, he was greeted by a certain teal-furred menace perched on his lap, pulling out one shiny Christmas tree ornament after another from his pouch, all while maintaining an intense stare-down with the Slytherin.

"Nosy... It's not even morning yet, go back to Papa... Er, I mean to Seb..." Will mumbles groggily: his sleep was interrupted by somebody sitting on him, and he doesn't even have to open his eyes to know who his guest is. The prefect waves his hand in the air abstractly and tries to doze off, back to his sweet dreams of a care-free fox.

But the weight on his body does not wish to disappear at his dismissal. With a heavy heart and a small tired whine, Will opens up his eyes a little. As expected, Nosy is still there. And something in his niffler pouch is glowing.

Will watches, bewildered and lost, as his teal protege pulls out one Christmas ornament after another, the pool of gently glowing decorations ocumulating on the prefect's blanket. He is too sleepy for this. Why is Nosy looking at him like that? Wait...

"Those are... the decoration I spent hours charming and placing all over the Slytherin Commons, aren't they..."

He is very tempted to pretend that nothing has happened. There is no niffler, there are no Christmas decorations, and it sure as hell isn't the middle of the night. William closes his eyes but can still sense the lights through his eyelids. He blindly reaches out to pet the child on his soft teal head.

"Nosy, sweetie, this is all really pretty. Mama Niffler approves. Why don't you go place those around your Papa now? I am sure he would love to be a pretty fairy, surrounded by pretty decorations. Pretty decorations for pretty Papa Niffler..."

Aaand he is asleep again.

[suninyourmoon]

ASTROLOGY OBSERVATIONS (2)

🗣 Not professional astrologer! It’s only based on my own experience, people that i know, and self-observation. So please take with grain of salt! :D

Venus in Libra peeps could be those who keep nagging about how they want a relationship so bad. (i know a few people in my life with this placement and they can't stop complaining about how single they are help)

Leo moon are lying to themselves if they say they don't like attention. (perhaps don't realize it yet?)

A lot of Venus in Virgo people that i know at some point in their life will questioning whether they really want a marriage or not. (yeah me too)

Someone said "i can't see myself getting married. I don't know, it seems unrealistic to me" yeah you are Virgo Venus in 12th house retrograde.

I mean, Venus in Virgo itself already make this person picky when it comes to love, and then the confusion and unrealistic idea they had because of the neptune influence. And in retrograde? jeez. i believe they have been in a relationship but then the relationship they had never meet their expentation because this people have a hopeless romantic idea of what romance is.

Venus in Sagittarius / 9th need a lot of freedom. Have a special place for foreigner in ther heart. Love someone who can keep up with their wild energy. Love people who is aware of society problem. Might also into smart people. Probably like to joke around with people close to their heart as well. (or people in general)

Moon in 7th house / Moon in Libra find comfort from being around people.

or they might feel the need to be in a relationship so that they won't feel lonely. Might dealing with co-dependency. (i know it's not your fault but please seek theraphy)

Friend of mine have 7th stellium (5 planet) and i swear to god, the attachment issues they have with is not a joke. They struggle with being on their own and need someone approval in every aspect of their life. Feel like they are incomplete if they're single. Too selfless, too giving. Later in life, people with this placement might have to realize that they should learn to stand on their on feet.

Neptune in 3rd house might having a hard time to communicate what they want to say. They also might say something they don't mean.

Uranus in 3rd house saying something in such a random way. i can't understand you sometimes,,,,,,

Chiron in 2nd house peeps could deal with feeling unworthy and feel unsave. They could feel guilty if they spend money on themselves. My Friend with this placement struggle with fear of end up lacking money all the time.

TW : ED!

i've met a few people with Chiron in 1st house, all of them stuggle with self-image and body dysmorphia, and also struggling with Eating Disorder. :(

END OF WARNING

Those with Jupiter and Saturn together in 8th House will likely to be extremely wealthy. They are hardworking and blessed with money.

They might also are curious about the deeper things in live, spirituality and the theme around 8th house but at the same times fear of the unknown and uncertainty. They might be those people who want to dive deeper into sex (or just have high energy on that) and desire devoted relatonship but hold themselves back and blocking themself from intimate relationship because a deep fear of commitment. It's very frustasing when jupiter and saturn are in the same house.

this is actually synasty thingy but i felt like i need to mention this, DO NOT MESS AROUND WITH SOMEONE YOU HAVE 8TH HOUSE SYNASTRY WITH WHEN YOU’RE NOT READY AT ALL🩸👄🩸 i have my experience with someone who my planets fall into their 8th house (stellium), and they are OBSESSES. I help bring their true and darker side of them so now they’re attach on me, it’s sorta my fault for trying to fix them tho that’s why i’m telling you stop messing around with this synastry if you’re not ready.

8th house placement… did astrology became your free therapy because they can validate ur emotion and understand you so damn well? Same👍🏻

Mercury-Saturn aspect, i know it’s a good thing to be careful with ur words but please say something if you really want to say it. You literally limiting ur self sometimes and overthinks a lot

There someone i know said that they don't know how to get mad and have Mars-Saturn aspect. These people (Could be Saturn in 8th house as well) might been told during their childhood that it's wrong let their temper loose so then growing up they feel guilty to express their anger and try to burry those temper.

They also could be those who struggle with supressed sexuality.

idk but my mom have Scorpio Mars and used to make a lot of sexual jokes during my childhood. (please don't do that)

Sagittarius Asc peeps i knew in the first impression look so innocently religious and calm, and they always turns out to be not. Like, literally

Thats it✨ thankyou sm and you can give me a feedback 💥 cheers peeps🫶

[rileyh20]

do you have ponyboy and dally hcs

I don't know if you meant platonically or romantically or if you just wanted the separate characters

So I went with separate characters

Lemme know if that isn't what ya wanted tho!

Ponyboy Curtis:

A pyromantic, he loves fire (Until the church shit)

Suicidal Ponyboy go burrr- (Even if it’s accidental)

Has a fucking terrifying glare, but only actually glares at people when they wake him up (His poor brothers)

Chubby Ponyboy… (Especially after the book cuz his brothers made him eat more to gain nutrients and stuff)

Should not be left alone around a stack of books (He’ll read them all in like two hours)

A really fast reader, but he reads the book over and over again to the point he basically memorizes it

Major third wheel, doesn’t matter if the ship is Jally, or Stevepop, or something else, he’s just a third wheel at heart

Definitely reads the book before he watches the movie 

Sometimes when he wants to write he just can’t, so he does other things instead, but once he’s in the zone, he’ll write for hours without hearing anything around him (He’s just like me fr)

Sarcastic and sassy af sometimes (Because I want him to be, no other reason)

He likes grandma hobbies (You know what I’m talking about, the knitting, sewing kinds of stuff, crafting thingies)

He would be the kind of person who helps you get your locker unstuck when you are either too scared to ask a strong person, or you don’t want your locker beaten into scraps when you could just ask Ponyboy

Cooks sometimes, he ain’t the best, but he isn’t terrible at it (He especially does it if Darry looks like he had a long day)

Sometimes he’s the only person able to stop Sodapop from putting food dye into the food (Especially if Darry is the one cooking)

Sorry y’all, but autistic Ponyboy is what I got for you guys 

May or may not be gender fluid (Let me live my life)

Gets the WORST FUCKING ANXIETY when someone is driving, especially if it’s someone he doens’t trust driving like Two-Bit or Sodapop 😭✋

Okay, but you can’t argue with me on the fact he’s bi coded, and also asexual cuz I want him to be

Has made a joke about Tuesday being “Twosday” (Two-Bit), and everyone just quotes it every now and then

OH ALSO, A DIFFERENT TIME HE GIVES A TERRIFYING GLARE IS WHEN SOMEONE MENTIONS HIS GREEN EYES

Religious Ponyboy… I love you religious Ponyboy

Okay, but on a different note, I think Ponyboy is religious, at least in some way

Somehow knows everyone's full government name??? And also sometimes with use maiden names depending on how angry he is 😭✋ 

Will learn other languages so he can shit talk/swear in front of the gang

You know Ponyboy has those chubby cheeks, just squish his face

I love the HC of Ponyboy being taller than Darry when he grows up, but hear me out, Ponyboy getting a random growth spurt and just somehow being very tall when he’s like 16 or something

Also, gentle giant Ponyboy, please

Dallas "Dally" Winston:

Scared of spiders

He’s also scared of dogs

Ough, I’m thinking bi tbh

Will kick children

Has a soft spot for both Ponyboy and Johnny

Will go violent if he learns someone he cares about got hurt, both emotionally and physically

Sometimes draws, but doesn’t do it that often

Sorry for not having as many for Dally! I've been neglecting my duties to make HCs 😔

[ipoxcky]

🕷️

spider-verse_headcanons

MILES MORALES:

whenever he gets nervous/embarrassed, he'll turn part of himself invisible, like maybe he'll stick his hand in his pocket and make it go invisible

SCENARIO: at the college admissions office, rio would tell the lady, "he makes sure that he recites his time tables every night so that he can't mess up on those challenging calculus problems!" and then he would do the invisible thing and go "stop, mami, she doesn't need to know that..."

he'll also put his head on the desk with his hood up and turn his face invisible in school if he's bored

he would probably also do that when he's crying

did the invisible hand thing with fake blood to prank ganke on april fools, ganke freaked out and almost called an ambulance before miles told him it's a prank

had a shoe-collecting phase at some point

aggressively tender headed bc his hair is always nappy from putting on the suit and his mom goes CRAZY with the comb

got little twists in his head when he was younger, but now he keeps it out. his mom will still twist his hair occasionally just for fun and he hates it

secret SoundCloud rapper whose account has like 20 followers and it's him just freestyling. the only person he told about the acc was uncle aaron who's his number one fan

PAVITR PRAHABKAR:

always pulls the "is it bc i'm _____?" card, ESPECIALLY with hobie just to mess with him and hobie would go "don't chat to me mate i don't even like the u.k. myself"

talks with his hands definitely

has seen every romance movie known to man and forces the others to watch them with him if they can

VERY facially expressive, throws the STANKIEST faces at people he doesn't like, yes he's good at reading others but it doesn't take much to read him

falls over when something shocks him bc it's like his little joke

laughs to himself a lot but doesn't tell anyone why

knows a bunch of horror stories on command, the first spiderpeople sleepover he freaked everyone out and miles couldn't sleep without the light on

just dance GOD

can raise both eyebrows individually

GWEN STACY:

had an agressive minecraft phase when she was 8 where she got the creeper hoodie and never took it off

definitely had a full pixie cut at some point

theater kid, definitely goes to watch broadway shows with her dad every so often, has met famous people because of it, her favorite one is probably dear evan hansen (idk i haven't seen it)

ben platt worshipper

drums on anything she can get her hands on

music blaster

tried electric guitar for a blip of a moment

morning person, stretches anywhere and everywhere

her favorite thing is DESTROYING pointe shoes because she can take out all her anger. this one time it got to a point where after her shoe destroying sesh she started crying because she didn't realize she had so much pain built up inside her

tutu hater

takes french and already knows a ton from ballet

wheeze laugher

pastel note taker

really pretty handwriting when she tries, chicken scratch when she doesn't

HOBIE BROWN:

surprisingly good american accent

knows a bunch of magic tricks to entertain kids experiencing homelessness on the street

headphones always on so they're absolutely demolished and holding on for dear life, too bothered to get a new pair

REALLY good with kids, does anything to help them preserve their childhood because he feels like his was gone too quickly

good whistler

beats everyone in board games

knows a lot about politics for someone who doesn't rlly like them

can judge people's character based on first glance

black nail polish never leaves his fingers

goes on really long rants about the state of the world

reads self help + philosophy books

hops the subway/metro thingy

lips always moisturized, but his hands and knees r lowkey ashy sometimes (i'm blk it's okay y'all)

doesn't drink soda

tries to be vegetarian because of the stuff he's seen (worked at a fast food restaurant and was grossed out about the stuff they were serving), that and he loves animals so

natural remedy kind of guy who would drink chlorophyll water

dreams of being a tattoo artist

uses sound effects of random things in his music, raps/sings his poetry about capitalism and stuff

keeps tin jars and cans

doesn't kill bugs and instead lets them go free

[alliumdykes]

Omg hi ur so sexy and awesome hahaha talk about the game How Fish Is Made hahaha

Omg wow hi person who totally isn't me I'm going to talk about How Fish Is Made and its semi-sequel/next chapter The Last One Then Another.

Spoilers under the cut, this is very long.

Ok so I just LOVE this game sm. Like I am luring you in with haha funny joke for my long-ass essay rant explination thingy.

But I love this game. The feeling of being in the machine. It's both organic and mechanical. It makes the machine feel biological and man-made at the same time. But also neither. It feels wrong. All the fish you meet NEED to know if you choose up or down. It's the most important choice you make. You MUST choose up or down. It leads into a debate about if you should choose up or down, fishes telling you to choose up while another yells at you to choose down because their so smart they were stuck.

You find a fish whos in fear, they can't choose up or down? Do they go up with their best friend? Or down with the rest of their family? They need you to choose for them. You fall down flesh tunnels, fish seeing frozen fish and calling it art. Its so disgustingly human in some way. At one point you need to open a gate, but a fish is stuck in the gears, thinking there was a way to beat choosing up or down. And technically they did. But not through escape. but from being killed by you, you have to kill someone to progress. And you have no choice.

You enter a room full of water, but you can't swim. you can never swim. you must flop.You meet a fish whos tongue had been devoured by Cymothoa exigua, who sings you a cheerful song about how you just have to live with the bullshit that you are put through. After you are put through the song full of parasites there you must continue on your journey. You enter a room full of fish eggs everywhere and you are forced to stop. you get a dialogue text saying "Why do you deserve it? Will you be able to live with it? Try and try and try and try and try again. Ah, those double action hinges have always been there, just for you, right? You'll come back. Everyone does. Weak. Or you'll go looking. one way or another, right? Weak." Before your forced to keep walking, thinking about what you were told. I like to think its some meta-commentary thing, about how we will go look for another ending of the game, if you do something different you will get another, better ending.

This can also be interpreted as how in life if we make a choice, we could choose one. but in the end we will always want to see what happens if we choose something else. Maybe if I did this instead it'll of end out better? Maybe if I do this in this way instead of that it will be better! but it doesn't matter.

You enter a room, with lights and a fish in the middle. They say this is about conviction. But also. They're just a fish in a room with intimidating lighting, they acknowledge this. How do we know that they know it? They just look smart.

When you finally make the choice a fish whos seen the amount whos gone up and down. You ask the fish to go up or down, they say that whatever one they go through that they will tell you what they see. but you don't.

You go through. You get a message that I transcribed here. I like to think that the monologue is about the selfishness that comes with grief. That you feel that you've had it the worse, what you have gone through is worse then what everyone else has gone through. no one else has gone through the same suffering that you have gone through. but its not true. its rude and selfish.

You can get two endings, a large blob when you go up and you become apart of a sandwich if you go down. I think this is meant to be that no matter what you choose, their as bad as each other. But you have a choice, the only good thing is that you have a choice.

Ok now onto The Last One Then Another.

This takes place after the first, and your in a large blob no matter if you choose up or down. You free the blob and start to (quite literally) consume bits of dead fish around you, gaining enough to burst through a shut door. a fish asks to come with you. you can say yes and consume the fish, or you can just leave. this is the only time you can do this, the only time you don't have to consume.

You go to a boat or bathtub (I'm unsure) and you follow the light to a bloody bandaged head where you can only see an eye and the mouth of the man. You can rather leave or consume. You aren't large enough to consume though. so you must leave. You go through this fleshy tunnel where there's a fish feasting on a birthday cake. You have the option to leave or consume. Although but you have to consume to progress. You go back to the main area where a whole is opened in the middle. You go down to see just the eye of the bandaged man after consuming a small fish.

The man tells you a joke that goes like this "Three men are in the hospital. The first man cries 'I lost both my hands, they told me I'll never work again!' The second man wails 'I lost both my legs, they told me I'll never work again! The third man? He rejoices 'I lost my hearing, they'll never be able to tell me I'm fired again'" before laughing and just sitting there.

You go through a thing where it's only able to fit a specific size, you go into a room, with fish parts, a bunch of mouth wash and a fish covered in mouth wash. The fish cries for you to take them with you. Saying that choosing up or down was stupid. or was it left or right? They can't remember. So you take them with you. You go back to the main area and go up to the bandaged and what do you do? You consume him. You have no choice. You must consume.

You then change into a first person perspective cutscene, your a person on a ship giving pain killers to a bandaged man without both hands, without both feet and with no ears. A Deaf man who has no hands and feet, like each of the men in the joke. You feed the man painkillers with the first option being the same mouthwash in the room near the bathtub boat thing. You feed the man the painkillers then get an ad for mouth wash. and then the Cymothoa exigua in friend-os mouth appears asking you to wishlist the game mouthwash.

I like to think the second part/chapter is about over consumption. You must consume consume consume. And the choice you made that was extremely important doesn't matter, because all you must do is consume.

Anyways thats my thoughts :3

[honeybeewhereartthee]

Pink KKOMAS 184

Spoiler for my stories

Sheep: hello! Welcome to sheep live stream!! This is sheep and today I'm going to teach everyone how to make a love potion.

Bee is once again bamboozled by the sudden system screen appearing in front of him when his drinking that fruit drink hallow brought.

Bee, coughing his lungs out/j: cough cough. Agh why do you keep popping Livestream so randomly.

Sheep: well dear VIP. Certain someone ask me to make one anyway. Might as well get donation — cough teach everyone in my dearest viewers about how to make one!

Hallow peak at the system screen, the familiar sheep from a few days ago is in it.

Hallow, mumble: it's the person cc have in his hate list.

Sheep: ah... That feeling is mutual. He should just keep his small little bratty self in that house of yours. Now I have to bother taking care and brainwashing someone he left here.♡⁠(⁠Ӧ⁠ｖ⁠Ӧ⁠｡⁠)

Hallow:... Ah.... 😨 So that creation don't explode yet...

Sheep Livestream went for a pause as a " on break " screen appear for a moment but some noise in the background about nagging someone before the Livestream comes to a continue again.

Sheep: you joke me, dear viewer. 😇 You almost made me worry for a minute. Cause I smell something burning just now.

It's a good thing that hopeless romantic idiot is too loved by the world in weird times like this. When sheep went to check on Riku to see if this person indeed going to explode.

Luckily, His not going to combust out of the blue as long his not triggered to do so. And that yandere went and tried to make cookies but it charcoaled it up. That was the smell coming from.

That stupid protagonist felt bad that Riku made the food and it be wasted and eat it up.

NN who's eating whole cake in the corner notice the system screen but doesn't comment on it. He enjoy eating the sweet cause his going to drain bee bank account ( he reasoned ) and totally not cause those sweets are delicious ( he lies to himself )

Sheep: anyway imma tell you how to make a love potion. Through fair warning. It's not really a love love potion.

Doll: what's the point calling it love potion then.

Sheep: because clearly it can make love happened between two people.( ≖͈́ ·̫̮ ≖͈̀ )ﾆﾔｧ

Doll:????

Addy: it mean they fuck instead.

Hallow, embarrassed by how frank his best friend is: ADDY !!

Doll:...

NN attention now went to the system screen: ...hmm...

Bee, curious: you don't know how to make a real love potion?

Sheep laughs: dear VIP member of mine. You should know that the more you force something the more it won't go your way. But then again. If you try to make someone to force to love you. Is it even real or fake? It will end one day, it's just a moment of fantasy. You'll wake being hated once the spell run out.🤭

Bee:....

Sheep: anyway if your interested making a new one..just get some blood of that woe—fae spouse of yours through you can use your own blood too and mix it with noir flower, or vermillion flowers. You can put it in some candies.

Somehow that recipe sound very familiar' bee thought. He felt he made that thing many times before.

Sheep: that won't work on other species through since it's just happy drug for faes.

Bee:...

Fuxk, it's that calming candies that mc often made with their magic candies. Agh that's why it sound familiar.

Sheep:....

Purple who's listening haft asleep wonder if he should tell them about an event from long time ago, where he did accidentally made one.

Eh but that's probably should be keep a secret or else his paycheck will be deducted for missing with soul mate fates.

Sheep seems to be looking at someone beside him. But no one can see who it was. As the filter is on.

Sheep: what do you mean you don't want to make one anymore? Agh. I thought your going to the smut route with that new interest of yours. Whatever.

???:....

Sheep: if it's a cat- wolf thingy, just buy catnip, dummy.

???:....

Sheep: not interested.

Sheep seems to remember that his in Livestream and look at the viewers and notice something. Someone have donated when his busy talking to the protagonist.

System:

Saoirse have donated 333,333 MV

Saoirse have become top member of the channel! And gain high tier privileges.

Sheep, who don't like that new VIP even one bit give a disdain yet it turn to a gentle prince smile like a curse to him to never be threatening: ........system you disgust me.

System: system doesn't understand what you mean. System felt kind enough to not touch the money from you.

This made sheep even more angry, he hope system takes that filthy money away.

Sheep:

I guess it's time to make it jinx away by the OP jinx of the protagonist

Sheep look at his viewer who seems to be doing something else and just listen to him rumble.

That captain is currently driving an air ship. That new VIP is currently watching two people playing in the park. And bee is distracted by other pink KKOMAS.

And the fluffy yellow bunny that have watch him since day one is looking at him while following certain core fae who's walking into a dark path. Through he doesn't seems to be notice by the core fae at all.

Sheep: hmm I still have few minutes before I end stream. Shall I and my fellow knight sing for you all who seems to have a wonderful day today.

As he said that. Sena who joined the protagonist little herd of animals squad and tsukasa. The two sing little romance.

Through it's kinda odd sight seeing a bunny, a sheep and a fish head singing in live stream. But it's a good song. It made the listening viewers enjoy it very well.

They donate money obvious ( ❛ ֊ ❛) it's a fruitful Livestream.

[lil-melody-moon]

Hello Mel! I hope you’re doing well 🥰 I’ve seen that you reblogged the album ask thingy. I’m not sure if I have to give you the name of the album and a number or just the album and you answer all of the questions. So, If it’s not too much to ask, can you answer all of the 10 questions about Quadrophenia? I know how much you love that album and I’d like to know your thoughts on that one❤️ Also, you know how much I love to see your posts talking about the music you love hehe. Love ya <3

Hello, I've been doing so so but thank you for asking <3

The thing for it is to give a name for the album and some numbers, but what you ask for is perfect! I was hoping for someone to asking about "Quadrophenia", thank you that it was you! So without further ado.

1. Favourite and least favourite track?

Oh Gosh this will be difficult.

"5:15" is my favorite track of the whole album because of a few things. First being the fact that this was the first song I heard from this album. Funny story, mom wrote down a Depeche Mode song called "Little 15" and she wrote that it is a The Who song so I typed it in and "5:15" came up so we've listened. Mom didn't like it very much, but I fucking vibed - you can imagine my sheer surprise when I've found the album where this song was. Also, The Who's compilation CD I have has three tracks from "Quadrophenia" and "5:15" is one of them. Those three are never played quietly on dad's stereo system, never.

Now to the least favorite I actually don't know if I have one like that. I literally love every track on this album, but maybe I'll go with "I Am The Sea" because it's only an ambient of waves - which is very nice as an opening, considering how the story on album opens with "The Real Me", but ya know. Almost no music.

2. Side A or B? (for later releases: first half or second half; for doubles: A, B, C or D?)

This is a double so I have to choose between C and D - A and B are good too, but the rest of the tracks after "5:15" my beloved <3

And I think I'll go with C so that would include: "5:15", "Sea and Sand", "Drowned" and "Bell Boy". There's just something in those tracks that makes me get lost in music each time I hear them. I'm always missing the point where "Sea and Sand" ends and "Drowned" starts. Either it's so smoothly going from one to the other or I'm just so lost between notes. Plus there's "Bell Boy" come on, how could I not pick this side? XD

3. Thoughts on the cover art/packaging?

Just look at this beauty! Washed from colors, depressing with only Jimmy on the cover while the rest of the band is seen in the side mirrors. The cover speaks for itself. The first time I saw it I just felt I was up to listen to something good and damn, I wasn't wrong. I love the cover so much that I would be glad to have it as a poster in my room. I'm not joking, I even saw a similar big flag to buy and if I had money and space in my room for it, I would buy it - this album is my religion <3

4. Are any of the tracks important/meaningful to you? Why?

Oh God, the whole album is important, but if I have to narrow it to a few songs... I will talk about very personal stuff here.

"Cut My Hair" Now this is like an opening track to the beginning of the story, to see how Jimmy feels emotionally, but the tone and the entire setting of how his life looked, now that is what brought my attention right from the beginning. The guy just doesn't fit in, feels like an outcast and this verse right there:

Why do I have to be different to them? Just to earn the respect of a dance hall friend Have the same old row again and again Why do I have to move with a crowd Of kids that hardly notice I'm around? I work myself to death just to fit in

It reminds me of my days when i tried to fit in the society I live in. Now, I literally don't care how other see me, but I can see that with my clothing, interests, way of thinking I just don't fit in and I probably never will. But I gave up on "moving with a crowd" long time ago. And from here, my dear friend, things started rolling.

"I'm One"

This one is a simple matter, first verse bringing this in:

Every year is the same And I feel it again I'm a loser - no chance to win Leaves start falling Come down is calling Loneliness starts sinking in

Describing the loneliness Jimmy feels is very personal. I might not show it, but I'm a really lonely person, not being able to find the second half, searching for some understanding on that matter. I have the luck to have my mom who understands me because she was going through the same, but ya know. It ain't the same as having a boyfriend. Plus I just love how the last three lines of lyrics in this verse creates that autumn vibe <3

"Drowned"

Just because of the general tone and a call for freedom. The only ones truly free in this world are birds, we as humans are not. This chorus:

Let me flow into the ocean Let me get back to the sea Let me be stormy, let me be calm Let the tide in and set me free

Speaks exactly about it. Just to be free as the ocean's waves, it just sounds so nice <3

"Love Reign O'er Me"

I see this song as a call/prayer for love, for some understanding and affection. On top of that, it's also the emotional conclusion of the whole story, chaotic one, but so good to listen to every time. I think the most beautiful verse in this song is this one:

Only love can bring the rain That makes you yearn to the sky Only love can bring the rain That falls like tears from on high

I had the luck to discover this album and get first stage obsessed with it after watching a documentary talking about Keith Moon's death. I had the luck to fall in love with this song at that time and this verse which I quote here is exactly how I felt back then about it. Doesn't mean I feel differently about this song now, oh no, actually this song is the most meaningful to me from the few I've mentioned. I will sound insane now, but lonely heart searches for replacements and mine found such a one in this lunatic. Yep, I'm in love with Keith Moon. Can't help it, just like I can't help it but connect this song somehow to this weird situation.

5. When did you first hear the album?

UMN... September last year, I'm sure of it. Second The Who album I've listened to, wait a bit. ...23rd of September actually (month after Keith's birthday, can my discovering of The Who and him somehow become even more weird?). I had this album wrote down to listen to later after discovering "5:15" by accident as I've described above. I remember this day clearly.

I was fresh after lunch, excited actually just by seeing the cover. Listened to it once and then it went on repeat. I had to listen to it three times to have enough for one day. And it played for the entire week without breaks. This was just the beginning of my obsession with it tho XD

6. Have your thoughts on the album changed since you first heard it?

Yep they did. From first: "This is great" to the now "Favorite album of the 70s" I had like three stages with this one.

First stage obsession was the first week that it played each day.

Then came the second stage at the beginning of this year, just after I've watched the movie.

To then come to the third stage when I'm playing this album whenever I feel bad or songs from it are stuck in my head. A religion, you should understand XD

7. Are you a fan of other works by the artist/in the genre?

Of course! I will not rank The Who's albums here, but every single one of them has something good in it. Every single one is somehow different. I don't know how did they pull this off, but they did and OH am I so glad for that!

Also, I can kind of call myself a fan of Pete Townshend, especially if it comes to lyrics, I fucking adore how he writes and honestly I can't wait to have free time to get to his solo albums <3

8. A lyric you like from the album

I actually talked about this one in The Who ask, but here, a fragment from "Bell Boy":

Some nights I still sleep on the beach Remember when stars were in reach Then I wander in early to work Spend my day licking boots for my perks

Love Keith's soft voice in this one, I adore it. There are no words that could describe what I feel when I hear him there.

9. How did you discover the album?

Like I've said, through my mom's mistake, but it was a day after I've listened to "Who's Next" that I went to see other songs by The Who and "5:15" started playing randomly. I recognized it immediately and I wrote down the name of the album, just to give it a listen a few days later.

10. Do you own/would you like to own a physical copy of the album?

I don't own a physical copy of it, but I want it, I really want it at home. It's as important to me as getting "Help!" and "Abbey Road" by The Beatles and those two were a must at home. Same with "Waiting for the Sun" by The Doors. All three mentioned are at home already, "Quadrophenia" has to be here as well.

But I will say this. I will feel sorry for my neighbors once I get it. I can't play the three tracks quietly, let alone the entire album XD

[shwoo]

Nearly forgot about the new Fionna and Cake episodes, (Destiny and the Winter King) and had to go to bed immediately after watching it, but now I have thoughts! About those two episodes specifically. Very overthinky thoughts in places.

I got tired and took all day writing this, so it might decrease in coherency as it goes on.

-It's nice to see Simon having motivation again. Even if that motivation is to... basically die.

-Simon is such a nerd, with his excitement about the library and his Ship of Theseus joke! I love him. Why did he not actually go into the library, though? :(

-I wrote a fanfic once when a Farmworld character comments on a normal Adventure Time style character's lack of nose, and the character covers it self-consciously! It was... weirdly validating to see the show make the same joke?

-Farmworld Jake is still alive... Did main world Jake not die of old age? I'm sure a normal dog wouldn't have a longer natural lifespan than a magical talking dog who is also half stretchy alien.

-Farmworld Finn's named kids have the same names as Finn's pillow kids in Puhoy! That was a cool callback, even though pillow Bonnie's name made more sense. Did Finn not name her after Princess Bubblegum in the pillow world, or did he also know a Bonnie in Farmworld?

-I thought Jay was a girl for most of the episode, until someone referred to him with masculine pronouns. I like living in this world where I could think that despite his thing for Little Destiny being obvious from the beginning. (I like that gay relationships are more commonly and casually depicted in fiction than they used to be)

-I like Farmworld Finn. He's a good person who's doing his best. I hope he didn't die in the end. It seemed a little ambiguous.

-Simon, you of all people should know not to talk positively about the crown to someone who was cursed by it. Unless he didn't realise Finn ever wore the crown?

-After Simon assumed that Jay's dad was another version of him, I was hoping he'd find out what did happen to him in this universe, but I guess the corpse was a little bit close to the giant nuclear bomb thingy.

-Cake apparently reads AO3, or at least something adjacent enough to know what enemies to lovers is, which is impressive for someone who was a normal housecat like a day ago.

-The next episode has a Gumlee subplot for some reason? Okay! And Gary's not wrong that Fionna flaked out on him. She could've at least tried to explain where she was once Winter King fixed her phone, but she didn't.

-Also I love that Ellis P was randomly at Fionna's apartment too. They only just met.

-I wonder how much of the differences between the Winter King and Simon are intrinsic to this world's Simon, and how much are a result of him using the crown. He's definitely still influenced by the crown, but I'm not sure what his line about Betty is implying. Did he start feeling that way because of this universe's point of divergence, or did the point of divergence happen because he never liked her as much as the main Simon did? He reacted so calmly about her that I don't think he was lying.

-Interesting contrast with Simon being fine in the snow while Fionna and Cake are clearly freezing. That's some superhuman cold tolerance Simon has.

-"How'd you stop being Ice King" "I just tried REALLY HARD and now everything's great!" "Oh, okay,"

-Was it winter in the Fionna and Cake world in the first episode? The world is obviously affected by Simon's mental state in some way, and now it's snowing over there.

-I'm not sure what to think about ice Marceline, but wasn't she older than that when she turned the family axe into some kind of lute? I don't know if this world's Marceline is supposed to be dead or not, but Winter King seems to have depicted her at that age for a reason.

-I thought it was a role reversal world when the Candy Queen showed up, but all her Ice King-like traits were just foreshadowing! Disturbing, disturbing foreshadowing. I thought it was interesting that she did the same leg kick thing while playing the piano that the Winter King did. Or maybe that was a just a callback.

-Simon seemed to legitimately like her song. He's so sweet when he's not marinating in self-hatred.

-No wonder the Candy Queen feels such a sense of kinship with the Winter King that she wants to mash them up in a blender. He's giving her all his negative traits so he doesn't have to deal with them.

-The Lemoncarbs were never going to like Gary's proposal. They're Lemongrabs and he's a Princess Bubblegum, and there's been multiple episodes about how incompatible their interests are.

-Fionna did that weird demagickifying Prismo thing like Cake did with one of the hot dog people in the second episode. Does that only happen when they're feeling happy and accepted, or was the timing coincidence? Also, I think it might have something to do with why Prismo's not supposed to create things, since it uses the same effect as his powers. Their world is probably inherently unstable regardless of whose head it's in, or something dramatic like that.

-I'm glad Fionna's rethinking her self-centred worldview. Maybe she can also realise that her own world isn't as boring as she thinks, because I'm pretty sure that's also a metaphor for Simon's self-hatred. Though would it still be a metaphor if she's not currently in his head?

-So we've had a revisit of Farmworld, where FInn was negatively affected by the crown's curse, and a world where Princess Bubblegum is negatively affected by the crown's curse. Is Marceline up next? She was at least as important a secondary character on the original show as PB was. And more important personally to Simon.

[theniftycat]

Angels, Demons, and the Presence of God

A Good Omens Analysis done by an atheist who's kinda invested in Christianity. Avaunt if it might make you uncomfortable.

Themes, through lines, and tendencies - Part 1

Parts: 1, 2, 3.1, 3.2, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12

God introduces us to the story, she tells us what's wrong and what's correct.

We're compelled to believe her, she's God, after all, she knows everything.

But why is she here? Why is she telling us this story? Simple. It's just a game for her.

So, if we trust God from the start, then her response to everything must be correct, and yet, after Adam and Eve are expelled from Heaven, it's hard not to agree with Crawley here.

"I can't see what's so bad about knowing the difference between the Good and the Evil," says the demon, the one who had just been the snake who brought Adam and Eve to their damnation. And yeah, we, as humans, can hardly imagine life without that knowledge. What would it be? Just living in the garden forever, like ants in an ant farm? No free will, no desire, no fear either. Being a shell. Even animals know and have those things.

So, of course, by placing the tree of knowledge right there, in the garden, not "on the Moon", God set humanity up. It was just a matter of time, an experiment, if you will.

And nobody but God knows what the plan is.

By whom? There is the Word of God, we literally just heard it, but in this situation we, external observers, are on the same level as God who is telling us the story. She winks and smiles, and we laugh at her jokes.

If everything is part of the Plan, is it even possible to do a wrong thing?

Both of them are concerned that they did the opposite of what they were supposed to do. And they kinda did. Crawley kicked the Plan into motion, while Aziraphale possibly led to War becoming a thing.

However, isn't all of it, everything, a part of the Plan?

They are aware of the difference between the Good and the Evil, they think that these things are what they are and what they're supposed to do, but with everything being in the Plan, it's nothing more than a stage play where they play their parts as they're supposed to. Unavoidably.

Or do they?

Almost 6000 years later and it's time to end things.

But Crowley has developed a little thingy one could call "free will".

Not wanting to fulfill the plans of Hell that are in correspondence with plans of Heaven, Crowley doesn't put his all into his prescribed function.

Meanwhile, Aziraphale is just Doing What He Wants, Gabriel, on the other hand, is here strictly for business.

Not long after, God graces us with her presence again. This time she explains how the Antichrist got swapped into the wrong family. While she does explain it, we don't get the idea of whether she wanted it to happen.

The thing is that it's demons and angels who move the Plan, people have free will and therefore, they aren't controlled directly by God. But what happens if a demon half-arses his assignment and then a couple or more people misunderstand what's happening? The Plan starts cracking at seams.

The card trick explanation is there not only for the viewer, but maybe for God herself. She never explains her actions, after all.

And does being All-knowing mean that you control everything there is to know or are you simply aware of everything?

And then the Antichrist is named Adam, not as a destroyer of worlds, but as the first human who was created to experience the world purely, as a newborn.

God, who knows everything, uses "perhaps" and "probably" when talking about the third child who we never see again. That shows just how little she cares. He's just a normal human with a normal life. Who cares?

After learning that the world will end, Aziraphale is calm because he's sure his side would win. Crowley doesn't argue with him on that, he simply points out that life in Heaven would be unbearable for someone as accustomed to Earthly pleasures as Aziraphale.

The only thing that can persuade Aziraphale to listen is the perspective of lunch, a small Earthly pleasure that Aziraphale can't refuse himself. Something he wants, not something he has to do.

Crowley's argument for the world is that there are innocent lives that don't deserve to be destroyed. He'd been burnt, he knows what being punished is, especially, punished for something you don't see as a crime.

Aziraphale, on the other hand, believes deep down that every punishment is just because it's inflicted by God who can't be wrong.

And this is Aziraphale's main argument. He's an angel. The main thing angels possess is obedience.

Then Crowley appeals to Aziraphale's programming. Because the Antichrist is of Hell, Aziraphale should try to stop him.

Aziraphale thinks he's doing the right thing, but even then he still slips and reveals a bit of what he's thinking about working with Crowley who can also see that being a real possibility, even if subconsciously. And he knows that it's not the worst thing in the world, even if it's awful.

Heaven is pleased with Aziraphale's actions, but they're also indifferent. He comes off as a bit of a try-hard and they know that the Plan doesn't account for him. Still, their lukewarm reaction is very mild because they don't see yet that Aziraphale is once again led by his wishes.

When the Armageddon draws near, Crowley suggests that Aziraphale could kill the Antichrist. It really sounds weird as Aziraphale is still seen as a goody-two-shoes by the viewers. But the fact is that Crowley simply can't do it himself (he's too soft) while also not seeing any other options, except for asking the only person he trusts to do it. And it's wild, but that's literally his only option.

Aziraphale doesn't refuse to kill the boy, his belief in the greater good is too strong to make murder impossible.

When Crowley asks Aziraphale to not do his magic act, Aziraphale knows he can still do it because that is what he wants. And Crowley won't do anything about it because he's too soft.

And then, as they're ready to act when the Hellhound appears, they wear clothes that are the opposite colours to what they usually wear.

Angels are supposed to obey, but Aziraphale only wants to indulge himself.

Demons are supposed to be evil above all, but Сrowley doesn't have an evil bone in his body.

They don't have the traits of their opposite factions, but they lack their factions' defining traits. As it has been said many times by many people, they are more human.

Crowley has a lighter side (his compassion), Aziraphale has a darker one (his judgement).

Then we meet the actual Antichrist, a boy who want to live a happy life.

God introduces us to him, he's just a boy living his life, unaware of his destiny, unaware of the fact he even has a destiny.

But God knows. God knows.

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This is the first part of my analysis. It's based on the first episode. Further parts will follow, one per episode.

I haven't reread the book for this, it's based only on the show, so if you see any points that can be made differently based on the book, don't fault me.

Parts: 1, 2, 3.1, 3.2, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12

[fictionfixations]

question

was watching someone put in a joke submission for the nijisanji en vtuber thingy (where they were asking ppl to apply) and. i have to ask. if they so clearly want someones whos like. successful, or good at being a streamer/content creator

then like. at that point. why do you even need to go the company way for vtubing?? cuz imo ppl tend to go towards companies for 1. being able to start with a good fanbase (as in the company advertises you and you get those fans coming over to see your content) and i guess if they're a good one, 2. guidance and all that jazz on wtf to do, and basically having outside help to manage stuff

but like. at that point if you have your own stuff, whats the appeal of applying to another company to do it there instead when they own kinda everything you'll ever do when there???

these ones you can kind of excuse as asking if you have any experience, and then they can plan accordingly if they decide to take you on, but..

(goes on to ask your follower counts to stuff if you have them?? which. i really doubt theyd go so in-depth if they didnt care)

but like backtracking a bit i have a few comments to make

Last I checked their managers don't tend to be too great at English, though. I think they're required to know at least some, but some does not equal to being able to properly communicate between the liver and them accurately.

Again, if they want experienced people, then what entices those people to leave behind what they've done so far to join them?? I honestly don't get it. Or is it a case of they're good at what they do but don't have a big audience???

so assumedly you'd have to have something you've done that you feel performed well. maybe its just me but that seems very vague. i mean i guess its a way to find hidden gems and learn a lot about the person applying based on that. but i feel that still pushes the idea that this person needs to have done something, have some sort of experience and so and so but i could be wrong

HM.

[the-crow-binary]

A little thingy about a "Joachim defeats Walter" scenario. <3 (pre and post-Death fight in Joachim mode)

Joachim: Now, now, Death… what do you think you're doing? Death: My master desire this soul. It's not like you would have any need for it, without the Crimson stone… Joachim: Your "master"? So you betrayed Walter, huh? And here I thought you were his most loyal servant… And may I know who is that lovely new master of yours? Death: You may not, unless he decides to reveal himself to you. Joachim: Hah… Haha… Hahaha…! You… You…! After all this time… after you protected this bastard from me… after you stood aside and watched me rot in my cell!! Ignoring my misery for centuries…! How dare you help someone else NOW!? How dare you betray Walter for a nobody, when you wouldn't do it for ME!? Death: … Joachim: Unforgivable… No, I will never forgive you for this. Ready his swords You are as much to blame as Walter, and so you will receive the same punishment as him! Death: You really think you can defeat me, Joachim? All those centuries trapped in that cell really made you lose your mind. Joachim: Shut up!! The only sounds I want to hear from your cursed mouth is the sound of your screams as I cut you in half!!

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Joachim: You've got some nerves, I'll give you that… Showing yourself to me when you are still so vulnerable. Mathias: I do not fear you. Joachim: Oh, really, little bat? Gets suddenly very close to him, swords ready to attack You should. I could cut you to pieces so easily, you would never see it coming. Mathias: Then what are you waiting for? Go ahead. Joachim: … You think I would not? How arrogant. Mathias: I think you are a smart man. You know killing me now would be useless… after all, I have absorbed Walter's soul, thus stealing his ability to come back to life. Not to mention the powers the Crimson stone provides me… Joachim: … Mathias: So what is the point? Would you risk it all for a brief moment of satisfaction? Joachim: I have nothing to lose. Mathias: Wich means everything to win. Come with me, Joachim. Joachim: Hah! I just freed myself from one arrogant Lord, and you expect me to fall for another?? I will not become a slave ever again. I will die a second time before it happens. Mathias: I have no interest in getting a slave. What I wish for is… company. Joachim: You are joking. Mathias: Please, trust that I have no reason to lie to you. I could use your knowledge and assistance in this new life of mine… you will be my equal, not a servant. Joachim: An equal? I should be above you. You are nothing but a brat to me. Mathias: Your age and experience is exactly why I need you. However, I am the man with the most powerful stone ever created here. The same you longed for all this time… Joachim, grabbing his throat in rage: Do not say a word more!! You don't know anything about me. Mathias: … Will you give me the chance to learn, then? Joachim: I am not so easy to seduce, little boy. Mathias: I am not trying to. I seek your guidance and help, nothing more. Joachim: Groan, lets him go You truly are a strange one. I do not trust you. Mathias, passing a hand on his throat: I intend on leaving this country, go to another one, create a new life away from this… humanity. You are free to follow me or not. May it take you days or centuries… Just know I will always have a place for you by my side. Joachim: Why would you go so far for a stranger? Mathias: I wonder… Maybe I, too, have lost my mind.

[this-is-chaos-magick]

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I agree with all of this pretty whole heartedly (except for the Marvel hates her part, I just think screenwriters for the studio don’t know how to write her because of how much the comics writer truly despise Wanda as a character. House of M sucks and you’ve been dooped lol). But to your point of Wanda trying to find help, and find people who will still accept her (which definitely makes the monumental task of changing easier), and I’ve always thought that the X-Men would be pretty perfect for that part of her story.

I say this because the X-Men are very well known for some of their members having done some extremely awful things (for some of them, worse than what Wanda did in MoM), but the thing about those members is the fact that they’re not only trying to be better and redeem themselves, but in some way have a found a pseudo family or found some form of relationship where they feel seen and aren’t alone. With Wanda, I always think of Rogue, someone who was raised as a rather villainous force, who joined the X-Men, and hasn’t felt like a good person, but she still tries, and is never alone, and I think that’s something Wanda needs at this point. More than reuniting with Vision or finding her kids, it’s finding a good, stable support system, one that’ll encourage her to do better and get therapy, have empathy for her and her past, and just generally give her a safe space to be seen and fuck up.

I’m sorry for the rant, I know it’s also extremely X-Men pilled, so my bad. But I genuinely want Wanda to be treated with empathy from people who will see her for who she is.

Hey sorry again for the late reply,

I was being sarcastic (is that the right word😭) on the mcu hating Wanda thingy, it's like a running joke eversince dsmom... since they keep making her suffer :(

I agree with ur comment about Wanda being with the mcu X-Men but I don't think X-Men is coming to the mcu soon, it seems Feige keep dilly dollying about them (and also....I don't think x men fans would want mcu Wanda's character to be with them...and the discourse would be annoying) mcu writing kind of sucks right now...and let's be realistic .....Wanda is mostly likely gonna come in the next avengers movie as a shock value and probably...oh god probably gonna be captured by RDJ's doom or some annoying shit like that...and I hate the fact that's mostly like is gonna happen...💀[annoyed screaming] Since mcu knows how to disappoint us with always making the worst choice possible

Okay enough with negativity let me be positive, 🙏

With Agatha all along releasing...and her having a coven, if Wanda returns... somewhere in the future I am hoping for her to be with Agatha and her friends...I know Wanda and Agatha have issues with each other, but them both being free of the darkhold influ...maybe they will understand each other, try to forgive each other and then be friends and then mentor her? I want Wanda to learn more about magic I am upset that Wanda literally just got into magic in the mcu and they killed her quickly...:((((( we really need a scarlet witch movie, tbh I don't think Wanda actually died in the dsmom even tho I always makes a post about it (I am dramatic ass hell) you know since the witches road is getting used in Agatha,

you know I have a idea for a scarlet witch movie

its mixing the original writing from mcu writers ( Jac Schaeffer save us) and a bit of Scarlet witch (1994) storyline, trust me I already think this through it could work with the right writer and director [I'll make a separate post why I think so let me just edit it in the drafts if anybody is interested] also gives Wanda a villains to fight that could work with her mcu storyline

[gay-dorito-dust]

The way I never talk on this app so I don't know whether I should reply to o.g or make a new ask 💀🤷🏾‍♀️

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🥺 "me me" aggh my cold heart 🤧

I feel like it's a cop out to say he'll understand memes about the 90's, so I'm skipping that.

🤡🤡 the way I can already hear him saying, "but it's clearly not a butterfly."💀 I think he would get reaction memes the most because they can at least show emotion and when to use them.

Ahhh 🤣🤣 not the 'old eye squint and moving the phone' I yelled when I read that. It's unfortunately accurate. You're not projecting. You're seeing the truth. I thought the exact same thing.

The way Leon ages me with his dad jokes. He wouldn't just kill, but annihilate a meme by constantly using it. It'll be even worse if it already dead, which it probably is. He's a mix between annoying and "you're doing great sweetie", because he finally understood a meme but won't shut up about it.

I...i...I don't know what to feel or think. I genuinely and passionately hate the minions. I try not to let those feeling carry over to people..but 💀

I can totally see Ethan liking the minions memes. I mean he already has a kid, so clearly he's not making good life decisions.

The way you put me in a delimma. It's more like seeing the truth I don't want to accept, but Leon's humor is shit. The dad jokes aren't even the good dad jokes. The facebook memes he uses are the ones that are hella pixelated too 🫡 that's the cornball that won my heart. (just more depressed and traumatized, re4)

I don’t talk much on here either and when I do it’s normally through DMs with my mates talking shit. 🦦

Leon wouldn’t understand the term ‘dead meme.’ He’d be like “but they aren’t sentient beings, so how can a me me be dead if it’s not alive?” (He’s unnecessarily philosophical and I don’t think he knows it.)

How could I forget reaction memes! Yes! Leon would at least get those and would use the shit out of them to the point of extinction.

Bonus if he keeps using the same one over and over again for everything because he thinks it fits everything, even in moments where it might not but…it’s Leon, once he discovers reaction memes.

he thinks he’s the first one to find them.

Leon: did you know about these reaction me me thingys?

You: …yes.

I myself, also fucking hate the minion memes but once I recognised they’re existence I had to make it everyone’s problem. (I honestly don’t remember what was the point of them)

Leon is the only one who thinks his humour is funny and the pixilated memes? My god you can barely make out what it’s supposed to be and can’t barely read the text because of how poorly made it was that you’d think Leon did it himself.

You: Leon what did you send me?

Leon: a me me.

You: I can barely reader it

Leon: *dad sigh* here let me read it for you. (Proceeds to tell you what the shit meme actually is.)

I love Leon, I truly do, but he’d be that type of person that thinks he’s cool and ‘with the times’ for referencing the most ancient of memes that no one remembers. (He’s not.)

I’m honestly glad I’m not the only one who sees him doing the eye squint. He’ll needs glasses with how close he puts the phone to his face.

[sakrafka]

I'll delete this later and I know the post caption is probably just a cute joke thingie, but I love this piece so much, not only because the art is beautiful but because this is exactly what I'm trying to do with my artwork too, make women into little creatures and it makes me feel so represented! Again I know this caption was more of a "meme" than a serious thing but it still made me happy I know this wasn't the artist's intention and these are my own personal thoughts - this might sound stupid but it took me so long to figure out I was a woman because I never even realised that women can be like this. I don't mean literal werewolves obviously, but it's hard to explain - the fact that you can point at a picture of hairy werewolves dancing and say "girls on their period" instead of "little guys/bro's night". Yknow how everyone looks at a creature/animal and goes "he/him/little guy" assuming that everything is male by default, because people usually only recognise women when they are pink/girly - because womanhood is mostly a performance. Men can exist as they are, they don't have to shave, have eyelashes, etc. and everyone will recognise them as "men", while women have to do this whole performance. You would have to glue eyelashes, boobs and paint an animal pink to make people recognise it as a "she". This is not every case ofc but it's just mostly my experience.

And so for the longest time, I thought in order to be a woman I had to do this "performance" as well, because that's just what womanhood is. And it never felt right, I could never do it (especially as an autistic person, and someone who’s always felt disconnected from their body), which made me believe I wasn't a woman at all. Like most people, I associated women with pink/feminine/babies/girly stuff, because I never had any other representations. I could never relate to this stuff, and when people tried to force me into playing with dolls and wearing skirts and make-up, it just made me hate those things. Not mention the general discrimination and misogyny that women go through, that I too experienced from as far as I can remember, I started to feel alienated from womanhood. I grew to dislike womanhood as a whole and I wanted to get as far away from it as possible. To push myself away from all of this.

Women existing in their natural state - again, I don't mean literal werewolves - but being hairy, fat, "ugly"; I later had to LEARN that women can be like that, that we can look neutral and even masculine. Because when women do this, they get othered… punished, in some way or another. I struggled with my gender for a long time because of this, I identified as nb/trans man for years, but it never fully felt right, because my identity came from hatred and dislike towards womanhood, rather than love and acceptance, it was a way to avoid my past bad experiences. (I DO NOT speak for general transmasc experiences, this is just my personal experience, as someone who didn’t have any representation of their gender and had to figure it out on their own. I’m on HRT now and I’m a happy genderfluid person, I even do make-up and wear skirts sometimes!)

This is why I call lots of my creature-characters and clay figurines "she", because to me, it feels so gender-affirming and makes me so happy to have this kind of representation, as weird as it might sound. With my art, I want to give the representation I never had for fellow gender noncomforming, masc, and ND women like myself, who struggled with their gender and thought they couldn’t be a part of womanhood, and for non-women who, for any reason, just want to reconnect to womanhood on some level.

I’m happy that at the end, I realized women can be so much more. That I can be free. Women can even be hairy werewolves dancing around fire. Being a gender-noncomforming hairy, stinky woman-creature is absolutely my gender and I'm so happy when I see art like this

Girls when their periods sync

[musicrunsthroughmysoul]

Oh, I just found out the hard way that the keep-reading thingy doesn't work at the beginning of posts anymore as it used to. Haha, oops, sorry. This is horrifyingly awkward.

I just remembered the (at least two) times that my best friend told me that before they really met me they were interested in asking me out but that they assumed that I was already in a relationship.

I'm still, to this day (we've been friends for like seven years now, I think) trying to wrap my head around that idea.

Like...apparently my vibe is 'taken/in a relationship'???????????? HOW????????????????????????????

I have to wonder if it's possible to be so asexual that people just assume you're in a relationship/unavailable. Or if those things are connected. Because I don't understand otherwise how my vibe comes across that way. I've literally never worn symbolic* jewelry and tbh I already hate wearing jewelry beyond earrings, anyway, so I don't understand how people visually think that.

I guess it's fine if my vibe is 'unavailable' in general, though, because it means that people (especially cishet men) don't hit on me, which is good because I generally don't want to be hit on...

And now I don't know what the point of this post was anymore except to wonder, 'So...exactly how weird am I? And apparently this level of weird is a good thing [for me]?'

Although, while I'm thinking about it, I will add another TMI, and that is...sometimes in the back of my mind I wonder, 'Am I lonely? Would it be nice to be in a relationship? To be in love?' The thought just doesn't cross my mind that often, and when it does, my response to all of those questions is just, 'No.' I see what happens with other people in relationships, and most of the time to me relationships just seem so unnecessarily messy, not to mention rather difficult work (so kudos to those who DO make them work, and put in the effort to do so! Amazing job, all of you, and I am not being sarcastic in the slightest!), so I'm like...god, I'm just too lazy and eternally caught up in all of my own bullshit [to varying levels of self-awareness] that I just...can't be bothered to seek out a relationship to add all of that shit to, lol. Maybe when it comes to being self-aware, that's something that someone in a hypothetical relationship with me might appreciate, but at the same time, my passive-aggressive, 'still waters run deep' tendencies would not appeal to nor help a SINGLE GOD DAMN PERSON (much less me), and so, I might as well stay single to protect everyone else from my bullshit. Because in the end, anyway, change is difficult, no matter how self-aware a person is, and I just do not want to make anyone wait for me to change for the better. That's just too much wasted time, and maybe I should be sorry for being selfish, but I would rather waste my own time than anyone else's if I can help it.

*Okay that might be a slight lie from *coughs* when I was in high school with my 'wife', but if that was 'symbolic' then it was also symbolic of BEING A JOKE on behalf of internalized homophobia. If you have no idea what this is about: COOL! You have not read that particular vent post where I mentioned the story behind that. If you do know what this is referring to: sorry, and, you get a cookie? idk

[b1zmuth]

Chapter 1

‘’Welcome Home.’’

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Crossing the threshold from the mortal to the non-mortal realm is no easy task. 

That's of course, if you're a complete dumbass who doesn't understand or grip the simple concept of stealth. 

A lone white figure walks across the ethereal realm, bedazzled with crystals and moons that reflect one anothers light, stars that coat the room in a multitude of colors that show off its most important aspects, and the very apparent constellation-based theme of the realm.

Nothing is more beautiful than the unending light of the ethereal realm of Cosmica.

In this realm, it looked more on par with a lavish hotel lobby, with the exception of a long, winding river that divided the mortal side to the non-moral- with a transparent crystal bridge connecting the two. 

And so it begins that the white figure continues his constant stride, their steps never missing a beat and making a loud ‘’thump!’’ sound with every step- heads turning to investigate the obvious disturbance in silence.

It seems that they’ve gained the attention of the lobby.

Grins and smiles were flashed their way, with surprised and happy waves that were returned, all the way up to the reception desk which homed a nerdy-looking shadow, who was currently busy shoving his nose into the novel he was holding.

‘’Ah, Neutral! How was your mission?’’ The shadow said with a quirked head, ‘’You took a mighty long time with that one..covering for you was no easy task!’’ He said, flicking his wrist to the side and lowering his eyelids.. Or just turning his blue illuminated eyes into downwards-turned semi-circles.

‘’Sorry. Killing politicians and staying off of the radar of those damned eff-be-eye agents is just as much of a hassle.’’ The white figure said, digging in his pockets and fishing out some egg-shaped objects, and gently placing them on the counter.

The shadow quickly counted the amount of egg-shaped objects, that were more akinned to those ‘’soul core thingies’’ that he had seen in an anime called ‘’Madoka Magica’’? That's what he thinks the name is anyway. ‘’Six? Damn, that many politicians pissed off Shade? Do you know what they did?’’ 

‘’Guru- don't you think its time for a smoke break?’’ Neutral retorted, their hand quickly turning into a harsh point at the clock, and a small snort coming from the taller, masked person.

Only giving a small sigh in return, Guru slid out of his chair and walked into a nearby room- most likely going to retrieve a coworker to handle the rush hour wave- and walked back with said coworker, grabbing his pin-adorned messenger bag and meeting up with the snow-white male.

‘’Going on lunch break with your bag? Didnt know the anime figurines ate with you’’ Neutral snickered watching as the shorter male flashed him an annoyed look. ‘’I'm going HOME. decided after running into you and your jokes that I probably wouldn't be able to take Horrids bullshit cooking, no point on staying for my lunch break if HE is going to be delivering that excuse of a meal.’’ Guru sighed loudly, leaning his head back.

The taller male laughed, and now his full body could be seen- a white ski mask with goggles adorned his face, with a white ushanka to complement his mask- and you guessed it! A white puffer jacket with matching white pants to complete his outfit.

‘’If you just summoned his ass I swear I'm going to strangle you. You know he heads every call to his name.’’ Neutral crossed his arms, rolling his eyes at the thought of Horrid appearing to annoy him and ruin his peaceful afternoon, once a-fucking-gain.

‘’I outta scream his name 3 times right now just to spite you! Always teasing me for no reason..!’’ Guru rolled his eyes and pointed his shadowy hand at the blindingly white male beside him. ‘’Please don't.’’ the other responded, playfully slapping away the shadowy hand.

And so, they continued their walk. 

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‘’Well, thanks for walking with me again Neutral, did you want to come in and have a drink?’’ Guru smiled at the taller male and warmly invited him inside, who only declined in response. ‘’Nuh-uh, hell no, I do NOT want to step foot in your cum infested house, I feel infected with bacteria just standing here,  OUTSIDE of your door.’’

‘’Ugh! This is what I get for being a good samaritan!’’ Guru scoffed, flashing the bird at Neutral and slowly closing the door in his face. 

‘’Toodles!’’ Neutral said in a sing-song voice, holding up his hand as he turned to walk away and continue his walk towards his own house. With that fucking Horrid.

Luckily enough the walk back to his house wasn't far, just a small thirty-minute walk- 30 minutes of uninterrupted silence, peaceful silence that he had been longing for after his third assassination in the mortal realm- as much as he enjoys talking to Guru and his other roommate, the blissful silence is miles better.

‘’Oh right, the other roommate, Gray. 

If me and Horrid ever had some fucked up variation of a lovechild, Gray would be the unfortunate product- wait what? Eugh, I have to stop referring to Gray as our lovechild… he doesn't deserve that god-awful title.

…But it's true! Gray sometimes acts the same way as Horrid, but he usually acts like me- finding peace in solitude. By far he is my favorite person to be around- aside from Guru of course.’’

Neutral was lost in his thoughts, and I mean totally lost in his thoughts- all the way up until he noticed that he was about to pass his apartment- and groaned at the new thought of how he would play mental-mind-fuck with himself to guess who would be at home.

‘’Fuck that.’’ Neutral said, pulling out his phone and quickly dialing some numbers- listening to the line ring on his end. ‘’Yellur, this is Gray speaking, whaddya want?’’ An up-beat-toned voice came from Neutrals phone. 

‘’It's me, Gray. Are you at home?’’ He asked, praying that Gray would say he was at the house for once- ‘’Nah, I'm at the store getting some food for the house- Horrids with me by the way, havin' a hard time keeping his ass from stealing random shit.’’ Gray responded to Neutral, sighing over the phone and continuing to have some small talk with the other on the phone before eventually saying his goodbyes and hanging up.

‘’Thank fuck.’’ 

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The door to the shared apartment opens, revealing two males holding grocery bags, one on the left seemed to not have any head whatsoever, just wearing a grey beanie and matching silver shades to make up for his head, with a grey outfit.

The latter on the other had no eyes, just prominent teeth, a black beanie with black headphones, and a matching black puffer jacket + black jeans. 

Not to mention that both wore piercings, but only the black one wore facial. 

‘’Neuv! We got groceries!’’ The gray one called out, lifting his arms once he saw a groggy Neutral sleepily walk down the stairs who took some bags off of his arms and set them on the kitchen counter- ‘’What all did you two buy?’’ Neutral asked, starting to take some of the things out of the bags and sort them out. 

The gray one let out a small chuckle, going up to help with sorting out some of the items- ‘’The basic necessities, and some drinks… and uh some chew toys for Horrid’’ he responded nervously watching Neutral's expression fade, mainly worried about the fact that he would be pissed about him buying chew toys for Horrid... ‘’Oh, okay.’’

Now that was questionable. Usually Neutral gets pissed when Gray and Horrid spent his money on bullshit things, or if they didn't buy him his original flavored chips with queso dip to make up for it.. Gray did buy him that this time but buying something as bad as Horrid some TOYS? Yeah, chips and queso was not saving his ass. 

Two quick calling whistles came from Neutral- ‘’Horrid, c’mere.’’ to which Horrid, who was putting away perishables turned around and questioned his call but still listened, ‘’Heard you did a good job not mass murdering the innocent souls with Gray, so i dont mind you getting some new chew toys- will you stop chewing on me then?’’ He smiled under his mask, unbeknownst to the other two who thought he was being sarcastic and twisted.

‘’Yeah, whatever.. What are we going to watch tonight anyways?’’ 

‘’The ENTIRE fucking Conjuring series of course! What else would we watch? Dora the Explorer?’’ 

And so it came down to all three boys watching Dora the Explorer for the night, lighting up blunts and passing it around- making jokes at one another for their shared stupidass responses to Dora's questions and just all around having a great time together. 

‘’Neuv.’’ Horrid turned and looked at the taller male who was probably too high to even comprehend a full sentence- ‘’Yes Horrid, what do you want from me.’’ oh, maybe he can comprehend…

Horrid only snickered, taking a drag from the recently passed blunt- ‘’Welcome home, I missed yah.’’ puffs of smoke came out of his mouth with every word, before eventually passing the blunt to Neutral, who lifted his mask to right above his nose before pausing- ‘’As much as you fucking annoy me, I missed you too bud.’’ he responded, flicking Horrid on the cheek and finally taking his own drag, smoke coming out of his nose. 

Only when a blunt and weed are involved, is really the only time Horrid and Neutral express how they really feel, unlike the other hand, Gray says shit the second it pops up in his head.

Bizmuth 24' | Praying mom doesnt see this one gang..