#[Deliciously Vain ] - Aesthetics

[meowzfordayz]

welcome home, my love

Shinazugawa Genya x Reader

Word Count: ~500

CW: traumatic references

Emergency Request Fulfilled: my mental and emotional health has gone down the gutter and entered the sewers that Ratatullie surfed through :,)

and i need some good ol Genya fluff

preferably where gn!reader comes home from a long mission and Genyas just babying them cause he missed them so much pls

There are many things to be grateful for when you return home from a mission. First, of course, is that you’re even returning — staying alive is no small feat. Second? If you’re relatively unscathed, then definitely getting to shower. If you are injured? Then receiving medical care takes priority, but at least medical care also means uninterrupted rest. Third? Sleeping on your own futon with its plump pillow and soft kakebuton. Not a musty tatami mat. Not a pile of leaves. Not an abandoned temple’s damp stone flooring, stars glimmering through its rotting thatched roof (albeit the aesthetic is stunning… until you’re trying to fall asleep with a crick in your back and cold seeping into your bones). At the risk of sounding vain, these little luxuries are often enough to satisfy you, the inevitable pains and losses of each mission somehow lessened as you melt into your outdoor soaking tub, its wooden panels smoothed by years of use. When you challenge and execute death on a nearly daily basis, it’s the simple things that keep you sane.

Except for Genya. Your decidedly not simple lover.

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You’re almost home when you start smelling the tantalizing flavors of someone’s dinner. The worn, aching half of you wants to scowl, envious of the aroma, wishing you could grumble at the person responsible for so thoughtlessly flaunting their cooking ability. Your reasonable, appreciative half silently wishes a happy meal to the lucky individual — or family. Slowly, your estate comes into view, faint floral notes beginning to entwine with the more savory scents of assorted meats and vegetables, your mood simultaneously souring and lifting. Everyone deserves moments of indulgence and gentleness… Myself included you huff, unable to stop the petty pout of your lips.

“My love, you look… confused?” Genya greets you, excitement at your arrival evident in his tone even as he remains predominantly focused on his task, eyes flitting upward toward your tired figure.

“Why does it smell delicious?” you demand.

“Ah,” his nose scrunches, ears warming, “You think so?” “Did you steal our neighbor’s dinner?” you growl.

He raises a concerned eyebrow, gesturing nervously at the scene before him, “... no?”

It takes a long moment for realization to hit.

You gasp, “You’re cooking?!”

“For you,” he mutters shyly.

“And the soaking tub?” you ask giddily.

“Recently cleaned and filled with the hottest water I could tolerate,” he confirms your suspicion, “I added a bit of that fancy oil from your side of the sink.”

“How much time do I have?” you’re breathless now, heart bursting with adoration, limbs eager to finally relax.

“As much time as you’d like,” he chuckles, “I’m happy to bring dinner out to you. We can watch the sunset together.”

“You’re incredible,” you gush, hurrying to plant a wet kiss on his cheek, “I feel like crying.”

“So cry,” he shrugs, “I’ll wipe your tears.”

A happy noise bubbles in your throat, hesitant to leave for the bath as affection roots you in place, “You love me.”

“I do love you,” he nods, “I missed you,” voice lowering to a solemn murmur, “Thank you for returning to me.”

Because he hates to think that, someday, he could kiss you, and not even know he’s saying goodbye.

[danpuff-ao3]

Rare Pair Tag Game

Rules: List the top rarepairs that you like outside of your OTP, and why you ship it! (Criteria for what makes a rarepair is up to your own discretion.).

Thanks for the tag @writcraft!!

Tagging: @perverse-idyll, @lizzy0305, @fleetingdesires, @cindle-writes, @serenaew, @tackytigerfic, @sweet-s0rr0w, @broomsticks, @lumosatnight, @indigo-scarf, @the-paper-monkey, @maesterchill, @snapesnailtape, @kellychambliss, @givereadersahug, @coconutice22, @likelightinglass, @crazybutgood, @sugareey-makes-stuff, @anaxandria-writes, @greenmegsnoham, @siriusly-sapphic, @thistlecatfics, @vdoshuand anyone else who wants to play! But no pressure to anyone I tagged, either! 💛

Now....onto the ships!

OTP is Snarry of course! And most of my rare pair loves, or other ships in general, feature DRACO my beloved!

Draco/Sirius: top tier for me because of that juicy, juicy age gap. And a hint of incest for extra flavor, but also isn't too close for comfort. There's the Harry connection (Sirius as the godfather and Draco as the rival), and the war connection (Sirius in the Order and Draco as a teenage Death Eater.) Lots of room for tension. But they're both also very bright and gifted. Sirius is rebellious enough to catch Draco's eye (very "bad boy" of him) and Draco is sassy enough and quick enough to keep Sirius entertained. Plus I see them both as being a bit vain and will both especially love how good they look together. 😉 Basically: lots to explore and lots of potential that I am DYING to play with, and to see played with more! (Really need to do a rec list for them soon....)

Draco/Remus: also really up there for me. Again: the age gap. But also! More to play with. There's again that Harry connection and the war connection we see with Sirius, but the whole dynamic changes with Remus. The pureblood boy raised in pureblood culture and Remus, who is not only a half-blood but a werewolf! Also: poor. Everything about Remus should be "wrong" but I think they could complement each other well. Remus is very smart and has lots of experience with troublesome Marauders....Draco's not going to give him any problems! Remus is patient and experienced and while he is capable of temper, and capable of mischief, he also has quite a stable and reliable presence to him that I think would appeal to Draco. Remus feels like a "safe" choice on a personal, one-on-one level, though their relationship itself would get all sorts of heat from all sides. Remus will find Draco to be endearing, even with all his sass and drama, and in Remus Draco will find love and acceptance he's never truly had before.

Draco/Ron: ah yes my enemies to lovers + opposites attract loves!! Both purebloods, but raised on opposite ends of the spectrum, Draco with the blood supremacy and in high society, with the Weasleys as "blood traitors" and poorer. Draco is the spoiled only child, Ron the sixth of seven children. The Gryffindor & the Slytherin, the Order vs the Death Eaters, and so on and so forth. Both very smart, both pretty temperamental, both pretty competitive. A lot of tension and a lot of fun. It's all SPARKS between them and I can see them both realizing how attracted (if not connected) they are waaaaay too late and being horrified by it which is hilarious. There's a lot of humor potential here, too, with two quick witted men! Also the aesthetic! Red hair and blond hair, blue eyes and gray eyes! 😍 (Listen, I can't lie, the aesthetic is just too good!)

Draco/Charlie: this is a fun one! A lil baby age gap. Plus Draco being the dragon, and Charlie being the dragon keeper. It's obvious but oh so delicious. There's the idea of some initial tension due to their families' history, but one easily moved past since they don't have personal history between them. Plus I see Charlie as very like Remus in being a sorta patient and stolid presence, and someone who can put up with all Draco gives and provides a safe place for him to be himself and be accepted and cared for. Also all the fun potential of postwar Draco escaping England and going to the dragon reserve and training as a healer there!!!! I'm a sucker for those stories, not gonna lie. Charlie is so fun and adventurous and I think he can really brighten Draco's life and help Draco find more of who he is in a safe and non-judgemental place.

Draco/Albus Severus: age gap galore! Dating the son of your childhood nemesis who looks like a mini him?? Too much fun I can't lie. (Also and this is very specific to me, but c'mon....Snarry + Dralbus???? Harry being horrified but also his son is just in the position he was in many moons ago!!!!) (I'm writing a fic like that right now, it's just slow going, but one day!!!! One day it will exist in the world.)

Neville/Percy: This one is hard to explain but like....the awkward romance vibes! Uptight Percy and chill but shy Neville. Neville can respect Percy's rules and standards I think, while Percy can appreciate Neville's strength and skill. Both are people whose contributions are often overlooked or belittled so them appreciating each other and finding that support and respect in each other would do them both a world of good I think!!

Neville/Remus: Age gap! Soft sweet bois. There's not enough of these two out there I swear, and they're both characters I have so much love for!! They're strong and decent and they've both overcome so much in life, and I think they'd have a nice steady and comfortable relationship once they got together.

Hermione/Ginny: It's so hard for me to find fics of these 2 that work for me but I still have so many feelings. They're such competent ladies. Very individual and independent and confident. I love the idea of Hermione being the brains and Ginny being the brawn haha! The bookworm and the athlete!! 😍 All the awkwardness of dating a friend and extra awkwardness if we keep Harry/Ginny and Ron/Hermione as temporary relationships (until everyone realizes they're gay, of course.) Ugh. There's just so much potential here and I need it!!!!

Ginny/Gwenog: mega rarepair but oh god I love them. 2 athletic ladies!! Plus age gap, at least some sorta age gap. I also love to headcanon Gwenog as a Slytherin and a bit arrogant and playing the story of "don't meet your heroes" with Ginny hero-worshipping Gwenog until they meet and get off on the wrong foot!! But then obviously fall together!!!! I need it I swear. I need to write more of them, maybe in the same universe as Red All Over...🤔

Fleur/Hermione: god I love them. Like with Hermione/Ginny it's putting two very skilled and competent ladies together. Brave and strong and sure in who they are and also their values. Fleur is also pretty dang badass. She was a champion!! I especially adore the idea of Fleur being a good role model for femininity and how it's okay to be fashionable and get dolled up for oneself, but also how women can still be capable while being attractive, and even if she's a little vain there's more to her than just that. And Hermione having to face her own prejudices against more "girly" things. And maybe Fleur having some disdain for Hermione's "know it all" attitude, and them working through bad first impressions and finding someone they can really connect with and have as a teammate in life. I really love the idea of them bonding over activism and Fleur being impressed with Hermione's passion, and sharing her own struggles as being part-Veela and the struggles her Veela family members have dealt with.

Severus/Filch: Age gap! Also: caretaker/student? Yes please. Something about this pair does it for me. Not as a forever love kinda thing, but definitely a special connection for two men who are starved for connection. Think about it: Filch is a Squib working in a magical school! No wonder he's so bitter. And the students don't treat him much better than he treats them, really. Then we have Severus, who is so skilled and so intelligent and so under-appreciated by practically everyone around him. By his peers. By his teachers. Even at home (whether or not Filch knows this), between Tobias not liking magic much, the abuse at least between Eileen and Tobias, but also I like to see Severus as being too bright as a kid and his parents not really knowing what to do with him in general. And then Severus being bullied at school for not being handsome enough or charming enough or having the right connections or having money, etc. And Filch sorta seeing something he relates to, not being appreciated, and himself learning to appreciate how sharp Severus is and how independent and capable he is. And Severus having someone who looks out for him, and who sees him, and having a safe place to be.

(Originally this was numbered but Tumblr tells me I exceeded the character per block limit 😒) (Anyway this next one is number 12 which is a good number to round off on.)

Harry/Scorpius: I've said it before and I'll say it again: Snarry is my husband and Scarry is the hot pool boy I fantasize about. I legitimately feel like I'm cheating on my OTP when they're in other ships but something about Harry/Scorpius draws me in! Part of it is, much like the reason I ship Snarry, I love both Harry and Scorpius so much. And this is Cursed Child Scorpius, the Cinnamon Roll, who is beyond precious and I adore him. Plus you know: age gap + "child of my school nemesis who looks just like him" and you know....+ son's best friend. It's so wrong and awkward and fun!! Especially when it's Scorpius having a massive crush on Harry from basically childhood and Harry eventually seeing him in a new light. PLUS with Snarry being forever in my head and heart, it's the idea of having another love so different from his first, which is softer and sweeter and both are really good but in different ways. And maybe Severus and Scorpius can each hold their own special, unique place in his heart (though I don't dare think long on why Severus might not be in the picture anymore...) Anyway idk Scarry just does it for me and I'm obsessed, but please don't tell my husband (Snarry.)

.....if you made it all the way through this, 10 points to your Hogwarts house.

[infiniteanalemma]

Ding, ding! The poll results are in and we have a winner! It's daffodils for Astarion! 🥳

To be honest, I was a little surprised by this result. I sort of expected a foxglove sweep, but daffodils are so fitting. I kind of love the imagery for this idea. The symbolism is delicious! 😙👌 Great choice, everybody!

Before I get into my thoughts on that symbolism, though, I've been thinking about the next possible piece. I think I'd like to do Wyll next. He deserves more art, and I'd like to stretch my artistic muscles a little. (I may regret saying that by the time I get finished with Astarion's, though.) It's surprisingly difficult to find flowers that fit Wyll both symbolically and aesthetically ... I'm still looking into it a bit, but you can look for that poll in the next few days. I'd love to hear suggestions, of course!

Also, would anyone want to see WIP sketches, or should I just post the finished product (such as it may be)? I've always been a little hesitant to post "unpolished" work like sketches, but after working on NaNo this past month, it seems public accountability does motivate me to get off my rump and do the thing. I just don't know that anyone is actually interested. Well, anyway, just a thought...

I'mma ramble a little bit about daffodil symbolism and why I like it for Astarion, but naturally I'm putting that bit beneath a cut for length.

So, let me start by saying flower symbolism is an absolute mess. Obviously I couldn't fit all of the potential meanings in the poll description, but a lot of times, flower meanings are contradictory. No matter where you look, you'll find another source that says something different. I tried to get the general gist, but that meant leaving a lot of things out.

That said, daffodils are interesting because their meanings are in such opposition to each other. They're symbols of hope and despair. They're both for renewal and being backward-looking. It's contradictory, and that push and pull is interesting.

Also, as I sort of implied in the poll, daffodils are a group of flowers that fall under the group called Narcissus -- named after the Greek myth of Echo and Narcissus, from which we derive the term narcissist. For those who don't know the basic story, the nymph Echo falls in love with Narcissus, who is beautiful but vain. She approaches him, but he spurns her because he is too arrogant. Depending on which version of the myth you go by, either she curses him herself or he is punished by the gods for breaking her heart. Either way, he winds up falling in love with his own reflection and pining away, with the Narcissus flower blooming where he dies, entranced into immobility and unable to look away from himself.

A fitting irony for Astarion -- someone who was vain and dismissive of others, who ended up cursed for his arrogance. It's ironic, in that Astarion's curse denies him the ability to see his own reflection. Instead of death, he is transformed by unlife. He is a sort of inverted Narcissus, punished for his vanity, not allowed to ever see his own reflection again and not allowed to die but, in an ironic sort of way, this is the thing that allows him the opportunity to change and grow -- a renewal, a transformation.

Astarion is a Narcissus who was forcibly humbled, denied his reflection, forced to use his once greatest asset as a weapon against himself, then given a chance to repent, to change. Unlike the actual Narcissus, who was forced to drown in his own folly and arrogance without ever realizing his punishment, denied the chance to change or redeem himself, Astarion gets a second chance. Of course, the player can give him a push to transform into a better version of himself, or to embrace his worst aspects. The player is his mirror, symbolically and even in-game (the mirror scene), allowing him to become whatever they reflect back to him.

There's something pleasing about the parallels, but the inversions are even more pleasing, in my personal opinion. Anyway, it's all very tasty and giving me a lot of ideas.

[anchorpackaging]

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[heredis-sanguinis]

Tag Dump

[Out Of Blood] - Out Of Character

[Hello My Darlings] - In Character

[Deliciously Vain ] - Aesthetics

[Care To Make A Donation] - Prompts

[Please Let It All Out] - Ask

[Trickling Progress] - Answered

[Hmm Something Is Leaking] - Crack

[This Is My Realm] - Worldbuilding

[I Am Lord And Master] - Headcanons

[You Look Like Someone Who's Got A Lot Going On Beneath The Surface] - Promo

[Who's For Supper] - Rules Read

[I'm absolutely parched] - Musings

[saeyoungs-sunflower]

Hello!! I like your hc so much! So i was wondering can i request the rfa+v, and saeran with an mc who is really insecure with her body so she starve herself on accident? If you’re not comfortable than you don’t have to!! Thank you tho :)

Hey there! Thank you so much, I’m glad you enjoy them😊I hope it’s okay but I mainly left out the eating part/made it brief. I’m really sorry, it’s just a bit of a delicate topic for me to write about but I really hope it’s still okay for you.

Just a reminder that it’s okay to feel insecure, but remember that you are not defined by your insecurities. I also don’t believe that there is one definition of beautiful, nor do I believe that thinking you are beautiful is vain or arrogant. Please be kind to yourselves, and if you are going through a rough patch with your body image or self-love, then I sincerely hope this can be a comfort for you and, if you can, I encourage you to reach out to someone or talk to a professional. My DMs are always open, if you ever need a chat or to rant then I’m here to listen. You are welcome and loved here💛

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RFA with an insecure MC

Zen:

❤︎ now, if you’ve done his route, then you know that this man understands

❤︎ and we also know that his looks are very important to him, so he completely acknowledges your feelings and in no way invalidates them

❤︎ but that being said, this man worships your body

❤︎ if you guys weren’t together he would be the best wing man because he LOVES to praise you and lift you up, even if you aren’t feeling particularly insecure

❤︎ you got a new outfit? “YES GIRL YOU WORK IT” you do your makeup different? “YOU ARE SO TALENTED AND ARTISTIC YES” you’re in your sweats and your hair’s a mess you feel totally gross? “THAT’S MY GIRL RIGHT THERE WOW YOU ARE GLORIOUS”

❤︎ he’s very vocal about his love for you and his love for your body

❤︎ sometimes it can be a bit embarrassing and usually comments on your appearance can make you feel uncomfortable/self-conscious, but for some reason when he does it it gives you a lil confidence boost <3

❤︎ we’re no stranger to the fact that he is hot as fuck

❤︎ honestly makes a little mad like who gave you the audacity to look like that hMMM?

❤︎ so when you first started going out, your confidence plummeted

❤︎ and it didn’t help that, whilst the majority of his fans loved you and loved the relationship, there were a few that really got to you

❤︎ they would post some not very nice comments about you on the forum

❤︎ they were just jealous fanatics, but you didn’t know that and took what they said to heart

❤︎ you started working out a lot after that, probably a bit too much

❤︎ Zen picked up on this, and he was all for exercising with you but bbygirl you’re over doing it and you really don’t seem to be enjoying it

❤︎ so he decides to teach you how to dance!!!!

❤︎ that way, you still get the endorphins from exercise, but you also learn a great skill which gives you loads of confidence because guess what!!! you’re a natural and you look gorgeous when you dance!!!!

❤︎ teaches you that working out doesn’t necessarily need to be done for aesthetic purposes, and you can have loads of fun with your boo whilst you do it!

Yoosung:

★ bit like Zen, he kinda understands how you feel

★ he often expressed it in the chatroom that he was jealous of Zen’s looks, so I think this boy is also a little insecure

★ poor lil chicken nugget you’re beautiful too

★ but when you chose him over Zen?? oh boy the confidence boost

★ it was then that he got to appreciate that his looks didn’t mean everything, and he was grateful that he got to learn that from you

★ so when he found out you were insecure, it made him sad because??? you’re literally perfect????

★ he noticed that you were always second guessing yourself

★ you would always try on and so many outfits/do your hair over and over until giving up and throwing on whatever, but you always looked so defeated

★ he made a note from then on to always show you off to his friends like yeah bitch this is my hot ass girlfriend who also happens to be the most amazing person on earth what about it?

★ his social media is flooded with candid photos of you and the captions were always about how beautiful you were and how lucky he was to have you

★ however, he was still a little suspicious about your insecurities

★ when you were together and he asked if you want to grab something to eat, you had always “already eaten”, which started to seem unlikely especially in some situations

★ so whenever you came over, he would cook you SUPER delicious food

★ this boy is a cooking GOD

★ he also tried to make sure they were fairly healthy and balanced meals so you wouldn’t feel guilty about eating

★ little by little, your relationship with food became healthier once you discovered how good it could be when you cook properly

★ but also insecurities and bad eating habits don’t go away over night

★ so he always leaves post-it notes around reminding you to eat and take care of yourself, and also one’s that tell you how much he cares and loves everything about you

★ he’s so damn cute somebody hold me

Jaehee:

☞ GIRL SAME

☞ i know i’m repeating myself but this lady gets you

�� we know that when she started working for Jumin, he made her cut her hair and wear fake glasses, and even though she looked HOT AS HELL (yes baehee work it) she just felt wrong and uncomfortable about her appearance

☞ so she could pick up on the fact that you were insecure from the get go

☞ she noticed how you would shy away from pictures, and you always wore clothes that would hide your body

☞ well that just won’t do

☞ something must be done

☞ you wILL FEEL THE LOVE MC YOU WILL

☞ organises a shopping trip for you to try on some hella cool outfits

☞ invites Zen along because, as stated above, he is very vocal with his praise and is just really good at hyping you up

☞ pretty sure everyone in the shop hates you because Jaehee and Zen do not hold back whenever you come out of the changing room lmao

☞ you may have been kicked out of one shop but let’s not worry about that

☞ you came home with some pretty fire outfits that were really flattering on you and just made you feel great ya know?

☞ Jaehee is usually pretty shy when asking you personal questions

☞ but she wants to help you, so one night over dinner she manages to get you to open up to her

☞ and man Jaehee is a good listener

☞ as a woman, i feel like she is able to understand where you’re coming from more than any of the others, so you’re in good hands :)

Jumin:

♚ this man…

♚ he just doesn’t get it i’m so sorry

♚ it’s not that he doesn’t care about your insecurities or thinks you are ridiculous for feeling that way, not at all actually

♚ looks were just never something he really thought about it in general

♚ he knew he was ‘good-looking’ and he knew what was considered ‘good-looking’, he just never cared about it much

♚ at first he was just like??? but you’re literally MC??? what is there to be insecure about???

♚ you had done pretty well at hiding your insecurities at the beginning of your relationship

♚ which was helped by the fact that Jumin would never assume that you had anything to dislike about yourself, so he never looked out for/noticed the signs

♚ it took a whole year guys damn

♚ it had been a year since you got together, so he wanted to take you out for a lovely meal

♚ but he also bought you a beautiful dress

♚ haha…

♚ this was where it went tits up lmao

♚ you were so grateful for it, it was a really stunning dress and you were actually pretty excited to try it on

♚ and so was he hehehe

♚ but when you came out of the bathroom and looked at yourself in the mirror, he noticed that your eyes were welling up and boi your face did not look happy

♚ Jumin’s like: ??????

♚ Jumin.exe has stopped working

♚ instantly takes you in his arms, shushing and cooing you as he rubbed your back

♚ “My love, what is it?”

♚ after a few sniffles, you knew you just had be honest with him

♚ “I’m sorry, Jumin. It’s the most beautiful dress I’ve ever seen but I just ruin it…it belongs on someone else, not on me.”

♚ holds you so much tighter and even starts to feel tears prick his own eyes

♚ he takes a different approach to compliments

♚ he finds a way to compliment your appearance without sounding superficial or fake

♚ instead of “you’re beautiful”, he goes for “your smile lights up the room” or “you carry so much warmth and kindness in your eyes”

♚ it’s his way of letting you know that he thinks you’re the most gorgeous thing to walk the planet, but while also telling you that you are so much more than what you look like

Saeyoung:

☀︎ hoo hoo boiiiiii

☀︎ i’m just gonna cut to the chase

☀︎ he found out during some ~sexy times~

☀︎ i’m not going into graphic detail it’s not that kind of post ;)

☀︎ things were getting hella heated like damn

☀︎ so he started to ya know like…unbutton your shirt

☀︎ why am i actually getting embarrassed while writing this i need to get a grip

☀︎ spot the virgin lmfao

☀︎ but then you stopped him and he’s like P A N I C

☀︎ terrified that he crossed a line bby chill for a sec

☀︎ but then you ask if you could turn off the light and he starts to suspect that you don’t want him to see your body

☀︎ he’s so gentle about the topic it’s very sweet

☀︎ he wants you to know that he loves every fibre of your being, but he also doesn’t want to push you if you’re uncomfortable

☀︎ “MC, I adore every part of you, including your body. If you want me to turn off the light I absolutely will, but if you let me, I want to show you just how much you mean to me.”

☀︎ you hesitated, but eventually agreed to leave the light on

☀︎ and JESUS CHRIST HE DID NOT DISAPPOINT

☀︎ Saeyoung has an incredible attention to detail, as well as patience

☀︎ and he took his sweet time with you lemme tell ya

☀︎ you’re pretty sure he kissed every inch on your body whilst also whispering his praise as he did so

☀︎ he honestly made you feel like a Goddess

☀︎ everything he said was sincere and he just treated you with so much care and love and that shit is contagious

☀︎ ever since then, he was more physically affectionate with you until eventually you didn’t even think twice when undressing in front of him

☀︎ hello yes i would like to order one Saeyoung pls thank you

☀︎ actual love of my life

V / Jihyun:

❁ he asked you to be his model for one of his paintings

❁ and you were like ummmm……okay maybe it won’t be too bad????

❁ but this man has no chill

❁ he wanted you to be semi-nude and you were like h e l l  n o

❁ he was also Confused™

❁ you tried to make up some excuse but it was hopeless

❁ so you just told him that being nude in front of him was already difficult for you, but for you body to be on display for others to see was just too much

❁ this sweet man

❁ his heart broke

❁ it hurt him so much to know that someone with such a kind soul ever doubted her worth, especially because of something like your looks

❁ you were absolutely stunning to him, but he wanted you to believe that yourself

❁ he made a deal with you that if you modelled for him and were still uncomfortable with the outcome, then it would only ever be seen by you two

❁ you reluctantly agreed, and he made it his mission to make you see yourself through his eyes

❁ it took him a while to complete, but when he did oh man

❁ you full on started sobbing

❁ OH SHIT HE MADE MC CRY PANIC PANIC

❁ someone help this man

❁ you managed to tell him that you weren’t crying because you were upset, but because you never thought that you would ever see yourself as beautiful

❁ but the way he painted you GOOD G R I E F

❁ he made you look ethereal, and you couldn’t believe that this was how he saw you

❁ you didn’t even focus on the parts of you that you would usually hate because he made them look so heavenly and like,,,they belonged there???

❁ “Jihyun, you made me look so lovely.”

❁ “No, my love, that’s just what I saw. Everything you see here is you, nothing else.”

❁ okay great he made you cry even more goOD jOb jIhYuN

Saeran:

☽ ha ha ha ha ha

☽ you thought Jumin was bad?? oh i am so sorry my guy

☽ he just has no clue

☽ “What do you mean? Why do you care about how you look? You’re not ugly or anything.”

☽ gee thank you Saeran

☽ but also you are not helping in the slightest

☽ he’s REALLY not good at expressing his affection okay pls give him a break

☽ but he’s not heartless come on now

☽ it took him a while to fully understand where you were coming from, and even then he struggled to find a way to help

☽ Saeran is a very quiet supporter

☽ it’s hard to spot to the naked eye, but you know when Saeran cares for you because you feel it

☽ the first thing he notices is your body language

☽ and since he doesn’t really know what to do, he kinda just...adjusts you

☽ for example, if he sees that your body language is very closed off, almost like your trying to hide your body, he’ll silently move your shoulders and fix your posture so you are more open

☽ and if he sees you bow your head or try to block your face, he’ll silently lift your chin up

☽ but the most important part is that when he does this, he always smiles at you

☽ now Saeran is very careful with expressing his emotions. so when he does show his feelings, you know he means it

☽ so you started to hold yourself with more certainty and confidence, because it made him smile to see you not hiding away

☽ ‘fake it til you make it’ is a very real thing, and eventually it became natural to embrace every part of you

☽ when he became more comfortable, he told you that he was proud of how far you’d come and how he loved to see you feel good in your own skin

***

Thank you anon for the request, I hope you’re doing okay. Once again, anyone is welcome to message me if you’re struggling and need a friend to talk to <3 x

[heyyyharry]

Y/N wants to be prettier

(a blurb from the Flatmate Series / pre-relationship)

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Y/N used to go through a phase when she would be self-conscious all the time. Seeing a bikini shot of an Instagram model could make her want to eat a bit less and starve a bit more just so she could feel a bit thinner.

Going college, she believed she’d grown out of that toxic mindset. She was eating normally and exercising regularly, and even if she still sometimes looked in the mirror after a shower and wished that her nose was a bit smaller and her waist a bit tinier, she wouldn’t consider doing something detrimental to her health in order to achieve that. She felt like everything was going fine. But then, she fell in love with her flatmate.

She had shamefully compared herself to the girls he’d brought back to their place way before she realised her feelings for him, but it wasn’t until then that she became more obsessed with looking more like them and less like...her. It felt like high school all over again with all the constant self-loathing, and she had to keep telling herself to never go back down that path. But every day it got a bit harder. Because those girls were real and not some edited photos on social media. And the thought that there were actual people who looked that attractive and she wasn’t one of them made her feel a lot more insecure.

“I just found out that one of my eyes is greener than the other, like it’s not even in an aesthetic way, it’s just weird,” Layla brought up the topic when they were having lunch together on campus.

“You know what is weird?” Trix spoke. “My nose! If you pay attention, you can see that I actually have really small nostrils.”

“What are you talking about, Trix? Your nose is perfect.” Niall chuckled.

“One of my legs is shorter than the other. I think it’s genetic,” Harry said, giving a shrug.

Meanwhile, Y/N was sitting in silence as she couldn’t relate to how these good-looking humans could just easily point out their own flaws. She could never do that for she felt like hers were worse and more noticeable, and if she talked about them, they would be the only thing people saw when they looked at her. She didn’t need to be more self-conscious than she already was.

“Doesn’t it bother you how we will never get to know what we actually look like? Mirrors are liars. They flip and distort our real image,” Layla said while staring at her reflection in the pocket mirror.

“I knew it! I’m too pretty in the mirror, it’s impossible.” Trix exclaimed while pinching her tiny nose and everyone laughed except for Y/N.

“We’re all uglier in real life, that’s a fact.” Layla shrugged. “Thank God, I’m too pretty so my ugly is still very pretty.”

As Harry and Niall made fun of Layla for being so vain while Trix was hyping her up by telling her she was indeed ‘very pretty’, Y/N found herself getting lost in her own thoughts.

If the image in the mirror was the prettier version of herself and she hated it, then she was certainly hopeless! No wonder boys wouldn’t pay attention to her. She looked uglier in real life and Harry would never settle for less than the girls he usually hooked up with. People said looks didn’t matter, but how could someone make an effort to get to know you if they didn’t find you attractive?

And so the sad and insecure sixteen-year-old living inside of her had dug her way out. That girl told her to skip dinner that night, and she did, because ‘it’s just one meal,’ she said. Besides, Harry would stay out until three in the morning, so he wouldn’t know she didn’t eat to question her about it. She thought she was doing the right thing when she went to bed with a grumbling stomach.

The next morning, she woke up to the smell of bacon and eggs and Harry’s singing voice coming from the kitchen.

“Morning!” he happily said as she walked in with sleep in her eyes. “I’m making breakfast. Want some?”

“No, thanks. I have to get to class early,” she said and walked to the counter to pour herself a glass of water, feeling Harry’s eyes on her as he brought his breakfast to the table.

“Aren’t you hungry?” he asked when she put down the empty glass. She was taken aback by the question but didn’t let it show.

“No. I had a big meal last night so I’m still full.”

Harry paused for a second. “You didn’t eat anything last night, Y/N.”

Y/N was frozen to the spot. Her eyes went round as she looked at him. “How—”

“The food is still in the fridge. You didn’t cook anything last night and if you’d ordered something then the trash bin wouldn’t be empty.”

“Okay, Sherlock Holmes.” Y/N scoffed, thinking adding humour would lighten up the mood, but her flatmate still looked dead serious. “You got me, all right? I was too tired so I went to sleep early.”

“Y/N.”

“What?”

“Is something wrong?”

“No.” She lifted her shoulders and plastered a smile on her face. Harry’s face screwed up as he suddenly walked up to her and pressed his palm against her forehead. She looked up at him, her heart was thumping and she had to hold her breath until he finally pulled away.

“You’re not sick, right?” he mumbled, his brows knitted.

“No, I’m perfectly fine,” she said, but the way he was staring her down made her feel uneasy. He looked like a disappointed parent who knew exactly what their kid had done wrong but was giving her a chance to own up to it.

She swallowed hard, looking at her feet and letting out a long heavy breath.

“It’s just two meals,” she finally whispered.

“I knew it,” Harry muttered as he ran his hand over his face and shoved it into his messy curls. “You’re fine, Y/N. You don’t need to lose more weight.”

‘Fine’? She wanted to scream out loud, I don’t want to be ‘fine’. I want to be noticed. ‘Fine’ would get ignored. Why settle for ‘fine’ if you could be ‘good’ or ‘great’ or ‘perfect’? But she wasn’t going to. She couldn’t.

“I think I would look better if I was skinnier,” she timidly told him.

“That’s so stupid, Y/N.”

“Well, you keep saying that but I know you have your own definition of beauty and it’s not me,” she blurted, leaving him speechless and she couldn’t even look him in the eye as she went on, “my definition of beauty is not me either, and since I cannot change my face, at least not now, my body is the only thing I can take control of.”

“Can you though?” He shook his head and held her shoulders tightly, forcing her to look at him. “Y/N, you will never be satisfied with what you are because we always choose to see the worst in ourselves. But do you know what I see when I look at you?”

She pressed her lips together and didn’t answer him.

“I see a smart and hard-working girl who never fails to make me laugh and doesn’t put up with my bullshit. You’re so much more than your looks, but if you ask me, I think you’re so fucking pretty.”

He thinks you’re pretty, she thought as her heart fluttered, but what if he doesn’t mean it? He could be telling you the things you wanted to hear.

“You sound like some inspirational quote on Tumblr.” She laughed slightly, shaking her head. “You know what? I’m late for class.”

Harry grabbed her wrist before she could turn away and didn’t give her a chance to question as he picked her up bridal style and didn’t budge as she started hitting his chest.

“If you think you’re so heavy then how am I holding you up like this?”

“Stop it! Put me down!”

Harry ignored her screaming and squirming as he carried her to the table and sat her on the edge so he was standing between her legs. She was panting, his hands were on her hips. The position they were in made it so easy for her to just lean in and meet his lips with her own. The idea made her shiver as her brain told her to get out of that situation before she did something stupid and embarrassing, but her limbs had turned paralysed and she was unable to move.

“I could carry two of you on my back and wouldn’t feel a thing, so don’t you dare tell me that you need to lose weight. That’s complete bullshit,” he said, putting his hands on the counter on either side of her. She swallowed hard as he leaned in, his breath tickling her face and her trembling hands balled into fists on his shoulders.

“Now I’m gonna make you breakfast, and you’re gonna fill that empty stomach of yours with my delicious bacon and eggs,” he poked her stomach, making her giggle and swat his finger away, “then I’m gonna drive you to campus and pick you up later and we’re gonna go to restaurant and have a big meal. Are we clear?”

“Yes, sir.”

When he gave a smirk, her face went red as she didn’t realise what she’d just said.

“What?”

“You called me sir,” he said with amusement. “Oh dear, is that what you’re lowkey into?”

Blushing hard, she pushed him away, eyes fell to the floor as she hoped he couldn’t see how embarrassed she was. She could feel his eyes burning holes on her skin as a smirk spread across his lips when he leaned against the counter behind him while crossing his arms. She didn’t say a word and quickly got off the table and pulled up a chair.

“Why are you still standing there? Make breakfast for me!” she grumbled at him.

“Oh, you wanna be a dom now?” he joked.

Y/N rolled her eyes as Harry looked over his shoulder and gave a playful wink, and all her doubts and insecurities suddenly vanished. 

[flying-elliska]

I live how creative you are. Teo amazing ideas in tuis new chapter- one is saving themselves for marriage (I am imagining a deliciously romantic reunion haha) and the other is seeing if they still want each other as full humans. Not sure of the latter will happen but still a brilliant concept to create some suspense. Kudos!

Aw thank you 🌼🌸🌼🌸 love that !

The "saving themselves for marriage" thing makes sense for the plot (sacred marriage ceremonies were a thing in Ancient Greece apparently lmao) but tbh mostly bc it's an interesting smut scenario and also, I love a slow burn so much that I'm going to put some even after they got together 😂 that sort of tension feeds on frustration, after all ^^

As for the other thing - that's very much part of the fundamental theme of the fic, fate vs agency and free will. I can understand the appeal of soulmate stories - the safety of knowing there is someone who you fit with on every level, the idea that your longing is not in vain ; it's a great metaphor for how complete love can make you feel BUT when I think about it more...I don't find it very romantic ? If your love has been preordained by the universe, it feels kind of boring and rote. There is a lack of freedom and agency in there, and also it can lead to an idealization of love as some pure perfect infallible thing that I'm not too fond of. Instead I prefer couples who have to choose to be together, who have to fight the universe, fate, and their own flaws - it feels so much more special and rewarding when they do make it. And there's a lot more tension and suspense in that for me.

In this fic tho I wanted to have my cake and eat it too 😂😂 bc there is an aspect where their energies and personalities are super compatible and that's very sweet and aesthetically pleasing and dreamy ; but they're still choosing each other and have to fight to make sure their relationship is not controlled by outside forces. Plus it would just be super OOC for these two to just go "ok nvm let's just go play god house husband and wife and do everything that's expected of us" lmao.

[heredis-sanguinis-moved]

Tag dump

[granddaughterogg]

The day Death forgot something - part 1

Soo, guys, this was supposed to be a short story. Ya know, an itty bitty one. But it has grown to such a degree that I see no point in putting it here in its entirety. After all no one wants to read my long-ass posts.

This is mostly domestic fluff with a slice of life feel to it. Found family, sibling interactions, Reader being both Death and War’s girlfriend (not yet Strife’s, it’s Complicated) as a background and all that jam. Includes my headcanon that War hates spiders, because I find it hilarious. Perfectly SFW.

It seems that whichever chaotic deity stood behind those incidents, they’ve saved their best for War. 

It all started with a leaky roof.

The Four have bought themselves - and you - a house. They did so with coinage looted in countless different realms. You'd always treasure the facial expression of the bank clerk. Poor guy squirmed in his seat while explaining to four freakishly tall, fiery-eyed, fully armoured individuals that Makers' hacksilver (mere 26 pounds apiece) doesn't register as "money" in those parts. 

Most interesting day in his career, that's for sure.

The house in question was old.

Not dilapidated; just run-down enough to justify the low price. It has soon become obvious that it will have to be torn down and then rebuilt to fit the non-standard sized tenants. Poor War always felt so despondent among tiny human doorframes, their pitifully brittle walls and dainty knickknacks, prone to shattering at the slightest nudge. 

You know, like tables and such.

Strife could navigate among those just fine; despite being the noodle of the pack, he’s got the proprioception of a seasoned ballerina. Still claimed that all this hunching makes his back hurt. 

Death and Fury could fit into a human-sized environ without much problem. 

Yet she bristled at the thought of wearing lower heels, and your beloved would loathe admitting that he’s a short Nephilim. One thing is to know something; another altogether is to put it into words. 

Death has a recurring problem with this sort of thing.

So you didn’t make him. This house needed revamping anyway.

And it has been done. After countless trips to the local Home Depot, after summer weeks full of construction work - while you lived in a tent in the overgrown garden and the Four camped under the stars like they’re accustomed to. After amazing feats of Horseman cooperation and as much squabbling (Strife and Death had opposite opinions on anything), the house has been finally ready to be lived in. 

Under the latter’s lead, your boys displayed adeptness at carpentry, even if they didn’t pay much heed to the decorative side of things. War etched some protective sigils into the walls, the doorstep and the ceiling joist - and that was it. You had no idea what those exactly mean, but they sure glowed pretty in the dark. 

The house turned out to have a raw, pioneer aesthetic. There was a rustic stone hearth and lots of stained wood everywhere. You thought this starkness to be rather fetching.

Fury - who couldn’t be bothered to work with wood, but did care about them comforts and frills - made Death undertake another shopping trip. This time towards IKEA.

You enjoyed your first night spent in a proper bed like nobody’s business. Only partially because this was also Death’s bed.

And then the roof started to leak.

It was a slow leak at first. One morning Strife would drag his long ass down the stairs for breakfast, yawning and scratching, tendril hair pointing every which way, and claimed that he’s woken up to water splashing on his face.

„Maybe a bird relieved itself on you”, said Death flatly.

„In my own bed?!”

„Must have been a dedicated bird”, was the uncharitable response, followed by a swig of coffee. (Black, no sugar.) Fury rolled her eyes to high heavens but said nothing. You on your part couldn’t help but titter; even War’s dour Morning Expression gave way to a snort. Strife shot him a side-eye. 

„Don’t you neigh, my square-shaped brother. Birds don’t poop on your head cuz they can’t find it.”

The Big Guy harrumphed and focused on his cereal. Strife slumped on a chair with an annoyed puff, stuffing his face with two toasts at once.

Next time is was Fury who fell prey to the stealthy leak. One day you dropped by to chat. She was brushing that awe-inducing mane of hers while sitting in front of a large mirror. Fury had a proper vanity installed in her bedroom; a sturdy, antique-looking affair, covered with lots and lots of little bottles. As far as you knew, all of them contained some sort of magic. Fury took this whole beautifying thing to the next level.

So there she was, styling her coif with a self-indulgent smoulder when – PLOP! - something fell from the ceiling and landed precisely on the top of her head.

Fury shrieked.

„WET!” she cried out, eyes bulging, hands frantically pawing the ruined hairdo. „What was that, Little One? WHAT WAS THAT?!”

You suspected that the disgrace of having bird droppings touch her precious hair would cause someone as vain as Fury to shave it all off. And to remain bitterly bald while never, ever disclosing the reasons for doing so.

So it was with relief that you could state what you just saw:

„Oh, it’s just water.”

„Water?” She eyed the ceiling suspiciously, both hands still submerged inside the fluttering blue flame (Ice Hollow was the look du jour). „But...how?...”

Both of you glared upwards like two paranoid magpies. Still, nothing else has happened.

It seems that whichever chaotic deity stood behind those incidents, they’ve saved their best for War. 

It happened during dinnertime, too. You’ve just cooked a new dish – garlic butter shrimp pasta – and proudly displayed it to the Horsemen. The twins were already munching in abandon. Death excused himself politely. He seldom ate at all but would stay at the table nonetheless, sipping his extra bitter coffee or as unforgiving tea. You knew he did this entirely for your sake.

Meanwhile, the established big eater of the bunch seemed to have his reservations.

You watched the Red Guy pin his eyes to the full plate in front of him, fighting to retain his stony expression. The corner of his mouth twitched.

„What is it, baby?” You teased. „The shrimps are well and truly cooked. They ain’t gonna pounce at you.”

War exhaled. „Don’t misunderstand me, Little One...” he said, eyeing the dish with comic seriousness. „I would never dare to question your, eh, cooking abilities. I am just not that fond of food with tiny legs. It reminds me of many a thing I had to slay...”

„War’s afraid of spiders!” Strife chimed in, his mouth full.

The Big Guy sputtered in indignation. 

„I am not afraid of anything”, he stated, accosting his enfant terrible of a brother with a glare. „I just don’t like things that...walk like that.” He made a crawling gesture with his good hand.

„Too bad”, Strife licked his long fingers. „This shit’s delicious!”

War crinkled his wide nose and said nothing.

„So it’s about the visuals, huh?” you said, struck by an idea. „Would it be okay for you to try it just a little bit - if you couldn’t see it ?”

„Huh?” War clearly didn’t follow.

„Please don’t make our brother eat with his eyes closed”, murmured Fury between slurping in more pasta. „He makes a fair mess as it is.”

„Wouldn’t dream of it”, you grinned. „What I mean is: just close your eyes and I’ll hand feed you.”

„...Okay.”

Death cocked an eyebrow - his lip curving upwards - but he said nothing.

„Uh-oh,” said Strife. „Here comes the lovey-dovey stuff. Excuse me while I go and puke.”

„And put all this food to waste?” Fury taunted.

The gunslinger shrugged in defeat and went back to munching.

You picked a decent amount of food on the fork, lifted it and smiled at War, who stared you in the face with that endearingly earnest expression. He must’ve really hated arthropods in any shape or form, you thought. Yet he was willing to overcome his disgust. 

For you.

„Close your eyes.” He did, and suddenly there was much less light at the table. „Open wide!”

That he also did. You placed the shrimp inside his mouth with a jeweller’s precision. Strife sniggered.

„...Well?”

War’s snowy eyelashes fluttered while he pressed his jaws together, focusing on the taste. You saw his Adam’s apple bob a little.

You loved this big lug of a man so much.

„How is it?”

„Mmm. Good.” Those lightning blue eyes were looking at you again, wide and smiling. „This was really good.”

„Well then, ready for another round?”

War nodded, pressed his eyelids together and gaped, willing and trustful in that childlike way of his which always turned your cynical heart into jelly.

PLOP.

Suddenly many things happened at once. 

Strife howled with laughter, while Fury’s face became a picture of slack-jawed bewilderment. Death, always the quickest to react, was already standing up, one hand pushing his chair aside and the other outstretched protectively towards War. Who was clearly choking.

You watched the Big Guy wheeze and gurgle as if glued to your seat, paralyzed, motionless, the shellfish on your fork like some absurd sceptre.

You didn’t do this.

Death kicked War’s chair out of the way and held his brother in some Nephilim rendition of a Heimlich Maneuver, shaking him unceremoniously through the coughs until the latter went slack in his grasp. 

Finally, War stopped wheezing and did a dog shake.

Only then you were finally able to move.

„Oh, fuck. War. Are you all right?”

„I seem to be.” The Big Guy shot you a dizzy half-smile. Flyaway strands of hair covered his reddened face.

Death cautiously let him go and taxed you with a somewhat less-than-tender stare.

„I didn’t do this!” It hit as hard as a spoken accusation. You waggled the fork with the shrimp still on it. „I didn’t do anything!”

„Then what in the Nine Hells was that?” Fury wanted to know.

„Water”, gasped War, pointing upwards. „A lot of water fell into my mouth at once...I think.”

The four of you suspiciously eyed the ceiling.

Except for the lanky one, who was still guffawing.

„Strife. Did you see that happen?” Death’s voice was perfectly level. Focusing on the task at hand. You felt relief washing all over you; the Reaper clearly didn’t think that you just tried to choke his favourite brother.

Which was a good thing...your bond notwithstanding.

And out of the Four D might’ve been the fastest to react, but it was the gunslinger who had the perfect eyesight.

„Y-yeah!” Strife wiped the tears of mirth away. „Like, at least half a litre at once – boom! Hilarious.”

„What is so damn funny?” You could do with less of Strife’s sense of humour right now.

„Aw, come on there, pumpkin pie. It’s not like he could die from that. Or from anything else.”

You rethought this statement. „Right...yet D reacted!”

„Death used to do this all the time when we were kids”, Fury said softly, tilting her head in your direction. „We’d choke on anything, really. And back then, before we were anointed Horsemen we could have actually died, you know.”

„I guess old habits die hard”. Strife put on his shit-eating grin.

War nodded at his eldest and that was it. The whole „thank you for caring” compressed into one curt gesture. 

You smiled at War and then at Death. He caught your kind, appreciative stare, pressed his lips together and looked away.

PLOP!

(to be continued)

[ifthereisnowind]

capitalism

context: why does it make me cringe? why does sales make me cringe?

why did I feel for a while that I don’t want to get caught up in the career ladder?

why do I judge people who chase money or fame?

what should truly motivate us at work

In a perfect world, when it came to choosing an occupation, we would have only two priorities in mind:

– to find a job that we enjoyed

– to find a job that paid us enough to cover reasonable material needs

But in order to think so freely, we would have to be emotionally balanced in a way that few of us are. In reality, when it comes to choosing an occupation, we tend to be haunted by three additional priorities. We need:

– to find a job that will pay not just enough to cover reasonable material expenses but a lot more besides, enough to impress other people – even other people we don’t like very much.

– we crave to find a job that will allow us not to be at the mercy of other people, whom we may deep down fear and distrust.

– and we hope for a job that will make us well known, esteemed, honoured and perhaps famous, so that we will never again have to feel small or neglected.

reforming capitalism

The system we know as Capitalism is both wondrously productive and hugely problematic. On the downside, capitalism promotes excessive inequality; it valorises immediate returns over long-term benefits; it addicts us to unnecessary products and it encourages excessive consumption of the world’s resources with potentially disastrous consequences – and that’s just a start. We are now deeply familiar with what can go wrong with Capitalism. But that is no reason to stop dreaming about some of the ways in which Capitalism could one day operate in a Utopian future.

What we want to see is the rise of other – equally important – figures that report on a regular basis on elements of psychological and sociological life and which could form part of the consciousness of thoughtful and serious people. When we measure things – and give the figures a regular public airing – we start the long process of collectively doing something about them.

The man is indeed employed, but in truth, he belongs to a large subsection of those in work we might term the ‘misemployed’. His labour is generating capital, but it is making no contribution to human welfare and flourishing. He is joined in the misemployment ranks by people who make cigarettes, addictive but sterile television shows, badly designed condos, ill-fitting and shoddy clothes, deceptive advertisements, artery-clogging biscuits and highly-sugared drinks (however delicious).

We intuitively recognise it when we think of work as ‘just a job’; when we sense that far too much of our time, effort and intelligence is spent on meetings that resolve little, on chivying people to sign up for products that – in our heart of hearts we don’t admire.

Fortunately, there are real solutions to bringing down the rate of misemployment. The trick isn’t just to stimulate demand per se, the trick is to stimulate the right demand: to excite people to buy the constituents of true satisfaction, and therefore to give individuals and businesses a chance to direct their labour, and make profits, in meaningful areas of the economy.

This is precisely what needs to be changed – and urgently. Society should do a systematic deal with capitalists: it should give them the honour and love they so badly crave in exchange for treating their workers as human beings, not abusing customers and properly looking after the planet. A standard test should be drawn up to measure the societal good generated by companies (many such schemes already exist in nascent form), on the basis of which capitalists should then be given extraordinarily prestigious titles by their nations in ceremonies with the grandeur and thrill of film premieres or sporting finales.

There’s no shortage: we need help in forming cohesive, interesting communities. We need help in bringing up children. We need help in calming down at key moments (the cost of our high anxiety and rage is appalling in aggregate). We require immense assistance in discovering our real talents in the workplace and understanding where we can best deploy them (a service in this area would matter a great deal more to us than pizza delivery). We have unfulfilled aesthetic desires. Elegant town centres, charming high streets and sweet villages are in desperately short supply and are therefore absurdly expensive – just as, prior to Henry Ford, cars existed but were very rare and only for the very rich.

But we know the direction we need to head to: we need the drive and inventiveness of Capitalism to tackle the higher, deeper problems of life. This will offer an exit from the failings and misery that attend Capitalism today. In a nutshell, the problem is that we waste resources on unimportant things. And we are wasteful, ultimately, because we lack self-knowledge, because we are using consumption merely to divert or quieten anxieties or in a vain search for status and belonging.

If we could just address our deeper needs more directly, our materialism would be refined and restrained, our work would be more meaningful and our profits would be more honourable. That’s the ideal future of Capitalism.

In the Utopia, businesses would of course have to be profitable. But the success of a business would primarily be assessed in terms of its contribution to the collective good.

On changing the world

the only way to bring about real change is to act through competing institutions. Revolutions in consciousness cannot be made lasting and effective until legions of people start to work together in concert for a common aim and, rather than relying on the intermittent pronouncements of mountain-top prophets, begin the unglamorous and deeply boring task of wrestling with issues of law, money, long-term mass communication, advocacy and administration.

Our collective ideal of the free thinker is that of someone living beyond the confines of any system, disdainful of ‘boring things’, cut off from practical affairs and privately perhaps rather proud of being unable even to read a balance sheet. It’s a fatally romantic recipe for keeping the status quo unchanged.

We have to make what we already know very well more effective out there. The urgent question is how to ally the very many good ideas which currently slumber in the recesses of intellectual life with proper organisational tools that actually stand a chance of giving them real impact in the world. From a completely secular starting point, it can be worth studying religions to learn how to alter behaviour.

This is what religions have, for their part, excelled at doing. They’ve realised that if you put down an important idea on paper in somewhat pedestrian prose, it won’t have any lasting or mass impact. They’ve therefore, over their history, engaged the most skilled artists to wrap their ideas in the coating of beauty. They have asked Bach and Mozart to put the ideas to music, they have asked Titian and Botticelli to give the ideas a visual form, they’ve asked the best fashion designers to make nice looking clothes and they’ve asked the best architects to design the most impressive and moving buildings to give the ideas heft and permanence.

We should use the history of religion to inform us about the role of repetition, ritual and beauty in the name of changing how things are.

There is a great deal of large-scale ambition in the world, but all the largest corporate entities are focused on servicing basic needs: the mechanics of communication, inexpensive things to eat, energy so we can move about. While our higher needs – for love, beauty, wisdom – have no comparable provision. The drive to grandeur is missing just where we need it most.

Good business

So, inevitably, businesses will evolve to profit from their wishes. Capitalism has not traditionally been interested in whether these are sensible, admirable or worthy desires. Its aim is neutral: to make money from supplying whatever people happen to be willing to pay for.

Philosophy, by contrast, has long recognised a crucial distinction between desires and needs:

A desire is whatever you feel you want at the moment.

A need is for something that serves your long-term well being.

And it’s our needs that are required for a satisfying, fulfilled life (which Plato, Aristotle and others call a life marked by eudaimonia).

Capitalism goes wrong when it exploits this cognitive flaw: large numbers of businesses sell us stuff that we desire but which (in all honesty) we don’t need. On longer, calmer reflection we’d realise those things don’t actually help us to live well.

Sadly, it’s easier to generate profits from desires than from needs. You can make much more money selling bad ice cream than by marketing Plato’s dialogues.

In a utopia, good businesses should be defined not simply by whether they are profitable or not; but by what they make their profit from. Only businesses that satisfy true needs are moral.

Good capitalism requires that we address two, core educational needs. Getting us to focus on what we really need, what the real challenges in our lives are. And getting us to focus on the value of particular goods in relation to our needs: that is, how do these particular purchases help with eudaimonia?

So, in search of a better economy, we should direct our attention not simply to shopping centres and financial institutions, but to schools and universities and the media. The shape that an economy has ultimately reflects the educated insights of its consumers. When people say they hate consumerism, what they often mean is that they are dismayed at peoples’ preferences. The fault, then, lies not so much with consumption as with the preferences. Education transforms preferences not by making us do what someone else tells us. But by giving us the capacities and skills to understand more clearly what we genuinely do want and what sort of goods and services will best help us.

tbc

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100 Days of Productivity 🏖 . Day 23, 24

💕 created an uplifting Father’s Day for everyone ✅

⭐️ Kiddo helped me cook a pot roast

⭐️ and we baked our first ever cheesecake (peanut butter cheesecake with an Oreo crust and a chocolate ganache), which against all odds came out delicious

It was..every bit the emotional roller coaster I’d feared.

😆

It took two walks to the store. I was up until past midnight taking care of things.  I.. was not in a great mood by the end of the evening. Even though I followed the Insta pot recipe to a T, I discovered in the morning that the cheesecake was still raw in the middle. I was about to abandon hope, but thankfully, Google had some tips. I ended up ‘rebaking it’ on the lowest heat my oven can go, checking on it every five minutes for probably a good 45 minutes then re-setting, re-cooling the whole damn thing this time partly in the freezer, then to the fridge. Making the ganache was surprisingly easy though. As I lifted away the pan I could almost hear a drum roll in my head. Well, it looked like cheesecake! That was a start, but the moment of truth would be RB’s expression as he took a bite.  Miraculously, it all worked out. I did a little dance 😆

⭐️ navigated a crowded grocery store without letting my bubbling anxiety attack get the better of me

⭐️ got the house a bit more straightened up

⭐️ FINALLY  put together that steam cleaner that’s been sitting in the box next to the piano since Xmas 😬😅

💙  more than halfway through Pride and Prejudice

💚 Been hula hooping

💜 got kiddo outside in the sun where she had an opportunity to play with some of the hopefully non-problematic children in my apartment complex

I’m a little nervous for.. A number of reasons, but console myself that we are outside and at a certain point we have to live a little. I can’t stay away from everyone forever. I am vaccinated. My partner is vaccinated. That’s the most I can do. I can’t hide us away until this is all over when the truth is there might always be some new variant, some new possible concern. In this moment, I just want my little girl to be able to run through the grass, through the playground laughing with the other children as they twirl in pool toys like inflated ballerinas. For a little while I just want us to be present and happy.

🐾 did some GSD socializing/training

My dog is acting like an unnecessarily anxious idiot, whimpering and whining, but that’s OK. He’ll live. he needs to be desensitized also. This was actually improving until they brought out their dog, which made GSD immediately inconsolable. It all worked out though. GSD and their dog play well together. As soon as GSD realized who it was he was very happy. I’m glad he was at least mindful to not disjoint my shoulder and his enthusiasm. We even let them off leash for a little bit to get their puppy wiggles out. GSD is small for his breed, but still much larger than most dogs. I was glad that he is good-natured and not into establishing dominance. 

💙 it’s been a few days now where I can officially say after months of trying different skin care products, my face is finally clear enough where I feel comfortable again not wearing make up ✅

That’s a big deal for me. Vain as it is, dealing with cystic acne pecks at my self-esteem.. It’s nice to have a little bit of my aesthetic and confidence restored.

Father’s Day Thoughts….

Aside from calling Grandpa, we usually let Father’s Day pass as unremarkably as possible.  this year I invited RB and his son over for what I hoped would be a nice, very early dinner. Although I find the growing closeness between Kiddo and RB to be moving, RB and I are both mindful to not distress her by posturing him as ‘the new dad’. So the other day on the trail when Kiddo mentioned to me she wanted to make him a card I had a moment of hesitation, looking beyond the trees a little, but also not wanting to project onto her good nature with my grown-up over-analytical-ness. I tried to hint at my concern without making a big deal of it, checking in to make sure she was doing OK because ‘fathers’ is a painful topic at times. She understood my meaning and explained that she liked RB as a person and he is ‘a father’ so she’d like to make him a card, which was just fine.

Indeed, what she writes inside the card is comical and congenial.

Yet… I see her extra care, focus she’s putting into the card, even more so than mementos she gives me. Her effervescence is thinly veiled, bubbly, chatty, discreetly excited that they will be coming over tomorrow, and that for the first time ever, we will be celebrating a Father’s Day. She is glowing when she hands RB his gift. I notice the creases to the corners of his eyes as he smiled warmly, touched. They hug again. RB’s son admires the spring she has created to make the cat-dog cartoon pop out when the card opens. The kids right after until l’inner is served. The pot roast is a hit. The kids discuss mostly Minecraft, but I’m able to change topics briefly to the Mars rover 360 footage.

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🌊🍇🌷 for Alex?

🌊 What does your OC do on their days off from working, school or whatever else it is they may do? Do they enjoy relaxing, shopping, hanging out with friends? What is a normal day like for them?

Normal days

Work. Working out, either before or after her shift, depending on whether it's a sparring day or a weight-training/running day. Then cooking, cleaning, meal-prepping, and other fun adulting activities. Maybe a walk around the lake if the weather's nice. Movie and book inside if it's not. Possibly a booty call too, if Mason decides to show up at some point. That's happening more frequently now, but she's not exactly complaining.

Days off

Pretty much the same unless Tina, Felix, or Nate are dragging her out somewhere. Well, they don't really have to drag her out, she's just more… inclined to be a social hermit if they don't. She does regularly go on little vacations with Tina, though. Overnight trips to the city. Weekend trips to Vancouver island. Longer road trips down to the States.

She also does a fair bit of solo hiking and camping in the summer. Tina occasionally joins her for that, not often. And she will invite Mason to join her as well, after they're in a relationship. Possibly before that point too, if it comes up somehow and he actually expresses interest.

🍇 Does your OC have any bad habits? Does your OC have any addictions like smoking or drinking? How did they fall into these habits and why?

No addictions, but she does vape weed pretty regularly. Indica strains. Helps with the anxiety. She drinks, too. Less for the anxiety, more because moscow mules and gin old-fashioneds taste fucking delicious.

She's pretty goddamn nosy as well. Will definitely eavesdrop and creep in the medicine cabinet when she's in someone else's house. But her worst and most self-destructive habit by far is the way she swerves around deeper emotional engagement with people because she's terrified of vulnerability and because it's fucking painful to even consider the possibility that other people might actually care about her.

(thanks rebecca!)

🌷 How much effort does your OC put into their looks? Do they care much about how they’re dressed or what their hair looks like or are they not bothered? Could they be considered a snob or a slob?

Quite a bit, actually, especially if you count all the working out.

She's definitely got a regular (and expensive) skincare & haircare routine. Sunscreen. Moisturizer. Retinol and serums. Deep conditioning and protein treatments too, for hair that long and thick. Frequently wears pricey makeup as well, though cat-eye eyeliner and cherry-red YSL lipstick are about as adventurous as she gets. Nails are buffed and trimmed short always, occasionally painted in different colors. Hair is generally styled up somehow, usually in a big puffy dutch braid for office hours and a tighter bun for exercising.

She's somewhat picky about the clothing she wears—even the workout stuff, to some extent. Has a capsule wardrobe going along with the whole minimalist aesthetic. Likes high-quality pieces, stuff that's built to last and will mix and match with everything. Not a fan of fast fashion and she will save up for designer things and strategically nab them during sales.

And… she would inwardly bristle at being called a snob or vain for any of that. Being criticized for it would actually sting. For her, taking very good care of her physical appearance and allowing herself to indulge in luxury for that purpose…

Well, that’s kind of the primary way she's received actual care for most of her life, so…

(ttttttthanks rebecca!)

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Swimsuits & Hot Tubs 👙

Pairing: Jenlisa Fandom: BlackPink Rating: M Tags: AU, girlfriends, kind of smut, tropical aesthetic? Summary: Jennie and Lisa relax on vacation; Jennie shows off her sexy new swimsuit.  A/N: Inspired by my bi ass ogling pretty girls in swimsuits and this playlist. 

Fifth retrowave playlist playing off the YouTube app in her phone, generous glass of sangria in hand, body stewing in the heated, bubbly waters of a hotel hot tub—Lisa was vibing. 

She was thankful work let her take the full amount of days she requested off, and she was even more thankful her schedule aligned with Jennie’s. It had been too long since the couple had been able to vacation together. The togetherness was much overdue. They decided to travel somewhere tropical, somewhere spring breathed vibrant life into flowers and trees; back home, spring was taking its own vacation. 

Eager they were to explore the town, share a scoop of raspberry gelato and local chocolates from a shop, smile at dogs as they passed by them on the sidewalk, and marvel at a true orange and pink sunset into a wave-crested horizon. Eager evermore was Jennie to model her brand new designer swimsuit for her lovely redheaded girlfriend and their tropical home away from home. As Lisa relaxed in the hot tub, Jennie slipped into her skimpy swimsuit, snapped a few selcas, and sauntered out onto the hotel pool deck to show off. She covered herself modestly with a patterned, silk cover-up she bought with poor impulse control at a cute shop in town. It was short, though, and showed off just the right about of thigh. Lisa always said she loved her girlfriend’s thighs, so naturally Jennie had to indulge. 

When she walked up to the secluded enclave where the hot tub was, Jennie smiled when she saw Lisa snap to attention and mirror her girlfriend’s smile. Biting her glossed lower lip, Jennie sauntered to the metal railing by the steps that lead into the warm waters, the thin fabric of her cover-up slipping down her shoulder in a naughty yet sweet display of skin. Shamelessly, Lisa’s eyes drank in the exposed skin, gaze lingering until she was sure Jennie saw her looking. Call it vain, but Jennie loved how confident Lisa was about appreciating her girlfriend’s beauty; it made her feel as beautiful as Lisa always told her she was.

Jennie stopped short of the steps and untied the bow holding her cover-up on. The material slid down her shoulders and pooled at her elbows. She posed before letting the garment fall to the floor. She stood confident and stunning in a baby pink, one-piece swimsuit with a vintage cut that accentuated the curve of her hips. On her plush lips she wore a glossy magenta that matched the magenta eyeliner flicked into a sharp cat-eye. Always the diva, she wore large, gold hoop earrings that matched her gold bracelet.   God, she was breathtaking. And she was all Lisa’s.

Jennie’s inner exhibitionist was starry-eyed at the gaze of desire she received from her always-generous girlfriend. “You like?” she teased, but she wanted to hear Lisa say it, confirm it.

“Of course I like it... You are riveting, sweetheart.” Jennie smirked as she tucked a strand of honey-brunette hair behind her pierced ear. “You haven’t seen the back yet.” She wasn’t even coy as she turned around to show off the back of the swimsuit—a plunging cut down her back showcasing the delicious indent if her spine, down to a narrow strip of material barely covering her ass; it wasn’t a thong, but it left very little to the imagination. Stitching at the center scrunched the material together to accent the supple roundness.

“No wonder you didn’t let me see it when you tried it on at the store... I wouldn’t have been able to control myself in the dressing room...” Lisa confessed, eyes dark and lips stained of sangria. “Well... that’s ‘cause I wanted you to not be able to control yourself here...” Jennie said with a flash of the devil in her eyes. Steam settled over the hot water like a soft fog that enveloped her as she pointed a well-manicured finger at Lisa. “Oh?” Lisa hummed, head quirked. She waded across the hot tub as Jennie slowly stepped down the tiled steps like a princess greeting her prince. “Come here, baby girl…”

Jennie licked her lips as she met her girlfriend halfway in the hot tub, warm water surrounding them. She draped her arms around Lisa’s shoulders as the latter grabbed her by the hips, drawing them ever closer. They kissed tenderly, intimately, until Lisa got a little too greedy and deepened the kiss with fervent passion. Jennie broke from the kiss to gasp and moan as Lisa trailed open-mouthed kisses down her throat, her collarbones, her cleavage. Fingertips dipped beneath the hemline of her hips, tracing the outline of her hipbones, thumbs pressing into the sexy indents of her thighs. Kittenishly, Jennie hooked a leg around Lisa’s leg to reel her closer.

Their lips met again and again and again until Lisa couldn’t take anymore teasing. She grabbed Jennie’s ass and lifted her up, causing her to wrap her legs around Lisa’s hips as she carried her girlfriend to the edge of the hot tub. As soon as Jennie sat upon the tile, she leaned back, legs still around Lisa’s hips, and fluffed her long hair with a damp hand. The diva in her never ceased. Rolling her hips and biting her bottom lip, she silently demanded for her girlfriend to touch.

“I love it when you bait me like this,” Lisa confessed, not the least bit shy. Jennie only grinned in return, tilting her chin up and downcasting her gaze to further play up her diva image. It drove Lisa wild, made her want to do anything and everything to her tease of a girlfriend.

Impulsively, she slid her hands up Jennie’s body, smoothing over her shoulders, skipping her breasts intentionally to earn a pout from the elder, down her stomach, over the dampness between her legs, up between her breasts before finally cupping her supple breasts. Jennie dropped her head back and sighed as Lisa gently massaged the soft skin, thumbs brushing over pert nipples. They were so obvious underneath the thin material of her swimsuit—Jennie knew exactly what she was doing.

Lisa was so wet. She knew Jennie had something naughty planned when she withheld sex from her girlfriend several days prior to their vacation. She’d been pining after Jennie for so long, too long, and all she wanted to do was devour her. Trailing her groping hands down Jennie’s body again, she took time appreciating her delicious thighs with affectionate squeezes and lovebites. The closer her hot mouth got to Jennie’s wet heat, the more Lisa wanted to slide her swimsuit aside and plunge her fingers deep into that sweet, sweet heat, tongue lapping the wetness gratefully.

Shit, she couldn’t hold off anymore. She scooted Jennie back and looped her arms under her girlfriend’s thighs, lips pressing chaste kisses lower and lower until the intoxicating scent of Jennie’s sex filled her nose. Her tongue darted out and she licked a fat stripe over the cloth, and Jennie shuddered from the exquisite contact.

“Stop teasing,” she whined, bucking her hips and threading a hand through Lisa’s reddish hair.

Lisa smirked against Jennie’s wetness. “Me? No, no, you’re the tease, baby girl.” She licked again, savoring the sexy divide now apparent through the material, and she couldn’t help but trace a finger over it. Jennie moaned and pulled Lisa’s hair slightly, impatient. “You want more?”

“Of course I do,” Jennie replied almost instantly.

Who was Lisa to deny her?

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☕️☕️☕️ for 'Arsenic and Old Lace', 'The Old Dark House', and 'Wait Until Dark', please?

☕️ Arsenic and Old Lace

I was shocked that this was a Frank Capra movie when I first saw it. It’s so dark and farcical, with little to no Capra-corn whatsoever. It’s never too frightening (well, except two scenes I can think of, and both involving Jonathan!), but with the macabre subject matter and delicious horror movie aesthetics it’s perfect for October… or really, anytime. I could watch it whenever, and I have had success showing it to people who don’t normally watch old movies.

While Cary Grant didn’t like his performance in this movie, it’s in my top five favorite Grant performances-- he’s hilarious. Yes, he’s over-the-top, but hell, what’s wrong with that in this instance? He’s playing a man bordering on hysteria and surrounded by murderers! Who wouldn’t go nuts?!

But Raymond Massey and Peter Lorre certainly steal the show for me. Peter Lorre is a great blend of creepy and funny (btw, creepy + hilarious is just about my favorite character type), but Massey never goes for laughs. He wisely plays it straight, lending even more menace to the proceedings. That one scene where he has Mortimer at his mercy is genuinely creepy—both that and the dark scenes in It’s A Wonderful Life show how horror-esque Capra could get when he wanted to.

Arsenic and Old Lace is just about the perfect Halloween movie. My other family members aren’t into horror movies at all (my mom’s exceptions are Psycho and The Innocents), but everyone enjoys this one. The autumn atmosphere and spooky moments just make it go perfect with pumpkin spice, jack-o-lanterns, and chilly evenings.

☕️ The Old Dark House

The first time I saw this movie, I was disappointed. It seemed too kooky and light on plot. But a subsequent viewing changed my mind and now this is one of my favorite movies. Beyond the “guests trapped in a creepy house with a weird family” scenario, there’s just so much going on: class conflict, repressed sexuality, and unspoken family trauma, for one. For real, this is a movie I wish there was more fic of—I would love to see how others interpret the nature of the relationship between all the Femms.

I love the entire cast, from the crazy Femms to the troubled guests stranded in the house. It’s seriously difficult for me to pick favorites when picking a favorite character. I love Rebecca Femm and her blend of religious mania and sensual jealousy. I love Horace Femm’s gin-loving, cowardly antics. Morgan is both frightening and heartbreaking. And Saul is a hoot despite also being a guy you’d NEVER want to be trapped in a house with.

And unpopular opinion, I think Gloria Stuart does a great job as the vain Margaret. I think there is way more to her character than people give her credit for, and she has her own mini-arc within the overall story.

I really need to pick up the blu-ray. The old DVD I’ve got does the cinematography and lighting no favors. James Whale knew how to conjure atmosphere, even in his more comical outings, which this movie certainly fits into: it’s a transition piece between the straightforward horror of Frankenstein and the more outrageous horror-comedy of The Invisible Man and Bride of Frankenstein. Out of those four classics, this one might be my favorite, though Frankenstein is very, very close.

☕️ Wait Until Dark

Oh Lord, a movie I never shut up about. I watched this one on a whim on TCM and did not expect to become totally obsessed with it, but like The Old Dark House, it just snuck up on me and is now one of my all-time favorite movies. I consider it an example of perfect slow-burn pacing, for one, and few movies build up dread so deliciously, right from the first frame.

How do I love it? I love the way it’s a time capsule of the late 1960s. I love how even it’s exposition-heavy scenes are entertaining and creepy rather than leaden and rote. I love how it’s scarier than more overt gore-fests despite only having the bare minimum amount of blood or direct on-screen carnage. I love the understated cinematography, the horror-movie lighting, the queasy strings and discordant pianos of the soundtrack.

I always enjoy the small details in the background or in the performances. Like, I love how when Susy is comfortable, she has little trouble navigating the apartment, but when frightened or nervous, she has to feel about it more. Or I love how controlled and minimal most of Roat’s movements are 99% of the time—it makes him all the more uncanny, like he’s some kind of monster only pretending to be a human.

I always wondered why I found the movie so scary despite it not being beyond a PG-13 rating and I think the secret might be that Audrey Hepburn, more than in any other performance I’ve seen her in, feels so thoroughly like an ordinary person, someone you could see yourself living next door to, and this makes her peril seem more urgent and frightening. I always wonder “what if this were me??” when watching Wait Until Dark, and that might be the secret to its success after all these years.

Thank you for the asks!