#[Blows myself up] [Regens] ''DONT ACT SURPRISED WHEN IVE BEGGED YOU TO LISTEN SINCE I WAS A KID!!!!!!!'' [Blows up] | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

vaniliens · 11 days ago

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Theres a very edgy voice inside of me who keeps telling us its better for us to just die and like. Of course we're not gonna do that & their excuses & aggression are kinda silly but their lines would be bangers if we put in it in a similar context. Thats not about me killing myself maybe. I mean something fictional.

#nillas #they say an intrusive thought and an impulsive thought are very different things but this guys making me question how blurry the line is #Im not gonna write a dramatic novel length suicide note full of my dissatisfactions towards the world or anything like that #and then idk drown myself????? I cant even drown myself anywhere here but lets indulge i guess.#but man would it be cathartic to be able to scream ''DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE YOU SHOULD ALL JUST DIE!!!!'' while crying pathetically #and then like blow myself to bits and then regenerate my limbs so i can write another edgy bit like ''FUCK MY STUPID BAKA LIFE!!!''#[Blows myslef up again] [Regens] ''IF YOU HATE ME SO MUCH FOR KILLING MYSELF WHY DONT YOU FOLLOW ME TO HELL!!!!''#[Blows myself up] [Regens] ''DONT ACT SURPRISED WHEN IVE BEGGED YOU TO LISTEN SINCE I WAS A KID!!!!!!!'' [Blows up]#[Regens] ''IF ANY OF YOU KILL MY DOG I'LL FUCKING HAUNT YOU ILL KILL YOU ILL KILL YOU ILL FUCKING KILL YOU!!!!!!!!'' [Blows up] [Regens]#''Ok thats enough writing ill go back to doing more next time I hit a low point to cheer myself up :)''#''Im so glad i can blow myself up repeatedly and reset my muscles & joints god this feels way better :)''#vanili powder #head stuff #<- hi girl im out mentalling your illness #Ours?#Wondering if its an our problem or of its just you #Im so glad im alive like this if i had to deal with this shit when im just 1 guy in 1 body i wouldn't even make it #Well I guess technically I didnt??????

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