#[[this just...really hurt and upset me. I'm gonna take a beat. dm me if you need me]]

[he11fireclubtm]

for some advice on the whole trans masc eddie thing , i think if it’s something you plan to do all - you should make it a permanent part of his canon or don’t do it all. it just feels kind of odd in a way to decide to make it only a verse or a “sometimes” thing. i don’t know how to explain it in a way that makes sense but idk. i just really feel like it’s something that should be apart of his character if you want it to be but if you’re afraid to fully commit to it then i think you shouldn’t have it be a thing at all. being trans isn’t just a “sometimes” thing irl - does it make sense what i’m saying at all? i’m not trying to hate or make you feel weird or anything i’m just being honestly. also giving people the option to have him pre or post op also kinda gives odd vibes, & treating post op like he’s “basically not even trans” (i know that’s not how you worded it just that’s how it feels) feels very weird. like idk i don’t think you’re intending any of this but it feels very odd & kinda off vibes & idk transphobic kinda? esp since you’re considering the people who might be uncomfortable with him being trans which like - i’m sorry but if they are & you decide to do this, then they should just unfollow. like … idk if any of this is making sense but this is all just coming across a way i don’t think you’re intending to but i just think you should make him transmasc if you want & have it be a permanent part of your canon, across all verses & not just be one verse or only sometimes. & don’t give people the pre or post op option, so they can feel like he’s “normal”. decide how you want him to be & they can take what they get. & don’t let the transphobic/uncomfortable people have a space on your blog, if they really have a problem w it they can leave. this isn’t me trying to tell you how to run your blog or trying to come off as a hater i’m just trying to show you how things might be coming across & trying to offer some advice to fix that - anyways i wish you a good day & hope you figure this all out

[[Sorry it took me a minute to actually respond to this cuz I started crying lol. I'm a big baby. I never meant to come across that way, especially as someone in transition myself. I would never want to come across as transphobic in any way, shape or form. This whole discussion was to see what the reactions would be if I made that a main part of Eddie's storyline. and the pre op/post op was for storyline purposes or things of that nature, not for him to come across as "normal". Since when has Eddie ever been "normal"? This was a discussion for my comfort while at the same time trying to be understanding to those that I write with. And yes, as I had said multiple times in that post before I deleted it...I was also scared which was why I had it in it's own separate verse originally. I can't help that I have anxiety and with all due respect this is still my blog so if I have a full storyline for my muse like this or I have it as a side verse then it should be my decision. Though again I apologize if my wording came across wrong. If you need to unfollow then please do so, I'm not here to hate on anyone. I am not here to cause drama. I am here to write my muse as I see fit and express myself as I see fit. I find it kind of insulting to have it explained to me as "being trans isn't a sometimes thing" like I don't know that???? I spend every day of my life currently in a body that makes me dysphoric. That is not a SOMETIMES THING. THAT IS A I WAKE UP IN THIS BODY EVERY DAY KIND OF THING SO I KNOW HOW THAT PART FEELS. I hope you have a good day as well. I am going to go try to stop crying now and pick up the pieces of my day. Thank you. I'll take what was said into consideration if I decide to ever bring this subject up again. ]]

[imagoddamnonionmason]

I was gonna DM this to you, but I thought it’d make more sense if I sent it in as an ask instead.

Bullet was ordered specifically to be on her best behavior as the meeting’s extremely important. She’s in her best dress, but is wearing a wool cardigan over it to hide the scars and the tattoos that are ‘unprofessional’. For half of the meeting, a couple of people kept making comments towards that would usually end in Bullet getting into a screaming match, but she has to bite her tongue.

Eventually, she ends up getting overstimulated and excuses herself ‘to the bathroom’, where she deadass climbs out of the window. Girl goes outside and starts beating the shit out of the dumpster at the back of the building they’re in. When her knuckles are bloody and she runs out of curse words, Ester lights a cigarette.

She doesn’t notice that Klaus was also overstimulated and also escaped the same way she did. I kinda imagine Ester had a thing for him so she’s pretty embarrassed when she finds out he’s there too.

Girl’s there, mascara running, makeup completely ruined, broken hands and red in the face.

They’d end up talking and going to a different spot nearby, maybe a rooftop or a park, and they actually talk for a while, and it ends with Ester taking her cardigan off and leaning her head against Klaus.

Lmk what you think 🤭

Ok firstly this got me kicking my feetsies and feeling so silly, I love it - soft moments for these two seem like they would be very far and few, especially for Ester due to everything she has been through and the types of missions she's had to go on and complete. I feel like throughout the meeting, Klaus would have been sparing her glances - I'm also assuming this is like a formal meeting? Maybe he's in a suit for some reason, either way, doesn't matter, dude is in a suit for a reason I'll get to later (and also because a suit makes him look phenomenal).

They're sat slightly across from each other, listening in to whatever discussion is happening, then it goes from tabletop to standing around muddling around with the crowd. Maybe it's a meeting followed by a 'get-together' or some sort of underhanded meeting with the cover of a party or something. Idk, I'm seeing shady shit happening, you get me?

ANYWAY!

It's gotten to the point in the night where everyone is getting a little louder, the noise level is complicated with different sounds and heightened volumes and he'd actually prefer to be in a warzone. He can handle the complicated soundscape of a battlefield, but humming voices make his brain vibrate in a way that hurts and he doesn't like it. He doesn't know why Graves sent him this is the worst-

Yes, he's in the bathroom, looking for a way out without people noticing and of course the only thing he can think of is escaping through the slightly open window - it was a bit of a squeeze, given his height, but he managed and then escaped down the fire escape, like the metal stairs (I have no idea where this is set, but stick with me here).

He hears commotion, hurries further down because someone sounds really upset and he's like 'oh fuck-' and when he sees that it's Ester, he stills. When she turns to see that it's him, he's like a deer caught in headlights. Stood there, tall and gangly with too much limb and not enough confidence to place them somewhere that isn't in an awkward position. So he kinda just fidgets on the spot.

But then he notices the tears, the bloodied knuckles and he's very still again. But the kind of still that is laden with concern and a slight disappointment that he hadn't noticed earlier signs that she wasn't ok. I feel like maybe they've been working together a lot more and he's come to trust her (and fancy her a lil bit). Firstly they're comrades, he should know when a fellow soldier needs aid, but also she's a friend and he's annoyed he didn't notice. He's worked so hard to start noticing social cues and yet here he has failed to.

He slowly walks up to her, silent, and extends his hand out to her, fingers curling a little to indicate he wants to see her hands. He turns them over and inspects the knuckles, tuts a little bit with an understanding that they must sting, at least, before he pulls a handkerchief from his inside pocket.

"For the blood," he would say, a little awkwardly.

Then he'd look back from where he'd escaped from, wince a little at the thought of both of them heading back in, and makes the decision that, no, they're not. I think a park would be nice, sitting on a lone bench, in the dark with possibly a singular lamppost shining down on them. When they're both settled there, he's loosened off his tie, undone the top few buttons of his shirt and is sat, a little more relaxed now it's just the two of them. I think they probably haven't really spoken just yet, just walked there in comfortable silence before he turns to her to ask, "want to talk about it?" His voice is very quiet, soft, gentle, his accent clinging thick to his words.

"Who said these things?" He'd ask, with full understanding that she can hold her own, but he doesn't want her to have to. He'll steal their kneecaps and feed them to their mothers, especially if he finds anyone making comments like that again. I imagine they would have been about the scars. He'd fistfight a god if they spoke horridly about her looks, her appearance, her in general.

I think he'd be shitting himself as he does this next bit, like that anxiety someone gets when they really like someone but is scared that they're about to fuck it up forever, but also now is the moment to be tender and plunge into the depths of possibility. He cup her cheeks, wipe away any tear stains, and it takes a lot for him to do this, but he does.

And he'd invite that closeness, for her to rest against him, and he would wrap a protective arm around her and they'd continue talking into the night. It's not awkward like he thought it would be and I'm not sure how they'd get onto the topic of partners, but I feel like it would be a slight train wreck. He just asked the question straight up a little bluntly, thinking he'd been smooth as fuck lmao.

"So you are dating someone?"

"No..."

"Right..." He'd panic a little bit, "would.... would you.. like to? maybe?"

[punkscowardschampions]

Ali & Tommy

Ali: [Let us assume he has gone back to school now and this was a weekend affair] Ali: You forgot your 🕯 Ali: expect it in the post, minus the disappointed note from Ro I've taken out Ali: ✈️ trips not guilt trips, welcome Tommy: leave it in, LOVE to hear what she's gotta say about why I'M the one being a holy show Ali: You aren't respecting the sanctity of her offering, is very much the point and gist Ali: she put more letters to it, as standard Tommy: 'course she did Ali: It does mean a lot to her Ali: but yeah, nice to have my 📅 to myself again, can't lie Tommy: meant so much she fucked off soon as the 🎂 candles were out Ali: You know she isn't the party 'til dawn sort Ali: anyway, they'd be coming in for morning service 😅 Tommy: I know it's her party & she can 😭 if she wants to Ali: If I'd known that was the theme, could've made party bags with 🧅 & 🧻 Ali: well, at least you were in your element 🕺 and you kept Meena and Carly entertained Ali: the hostess not being overly concerned herself, like Tommy: this family's hostess with the mostest has & always will be me, honey Tommy: what else do they teach me at this school, like? Ali: I had no idea you were at finishing school, my apologies Ali: how's things with keeping a man then, Holly Housewife? Tommy: Why stop at strutting with 📚 on our heads when we could do it in 🩰 perfectly en pointe, carrying a sulky ballerina all the while? Basically a Latin motto Tommy: & yet I still can't keep a man, cheers for the reminder Ali: Maybe now you're of age they introduce the final string to your bow Ali: quadruple threat = 🎤🕺🎭🍆 Tommy: 😂🤞🙏 Tommy: stole your girl regardless, tell her to call me when she's slept off the festivities Ali: No doubt she will when she's between the next couple of parties 😜 Ali: your girl is here actually, helping Ro 'organise' her presents Ali: dunno where she parked her 🎃 Tommy: I'll join Fraze in the red corner 😍💋💔🤬🎯👿🥤🤡🥵🛑💘 Tommy: those dolls do go walk abouts if you don't keep a 👀 but obviously she was 🤞🙏 I was still there Ali: He might misconstrue that and come to fight for her honour Ali: 🤞🙏 she's in LDN too, naturally Ali: lots of them are haunted, but that last part of your sentence there is the MOST 😱 ever Ali: it's weird when you approach anything fuck boy like Tommy: miscommunication is his thing™ no hard feels or feelings full stop, 'course 💪🚫😭🚫😍 Tommy: what can I say? being back DOES things to me Tommy: it's all the positive masculine role models this family has Ali: Guess it beats a total lack of @Joseph Ali: though he sent her some book about musical theory so he still manages to be the favourite somehow 🤷 Ali: and hey, dad is the best Tommy: v catty & then cuddly of you, Kit Tommy: he doesn't respond to MY efforts at being a daddy's girl exactly the same way somehow 🤷 Ali: we're both living up to what's expected then 😼 Ali: could just be I'm better at it than you though Ali: if your ego will allow it Tommy: can't let our sister fly that flag alone, like Tommy: as for who's better at kissing the arse of authority figures, don't need to dignify that with an answer 'cause my school report will Tommy: you ain't never been a pleasure to have in class Ali: I might genuinely have to shoot myself if anyone ever said anything so asinine about me so you're right Ali: that would be such a waste of potential, not until I've lead a more scandal-filled existence Tommy: you could respect the hustle Tommy: it's getting me 🩰 perks Tommy: disciplined is the head that wears the 👑 hoe Ali: I know all about discipline, trust me Tommy: we've all read 50 shades, you can't take it as gospel Tommy: Ro could write a better bdsm bibe when she's done at church Tommy: bible* Ali: It's all fun and games 'til I walk in on her flagellating herself Ali: how are we explaining that to the shrinks Tommy: that she misunderstood a more sexy f word? Ali: we don't want to look like we're trying to lock her up for that Ali: way too retro, bro Tommy: She wants to be catholic Tommy: I didn't make the rules Ali: No, then da really would hate you Ali: she's got worse Tommy: Yeah Tommy: I know, no amount of drama from the golden couple could detract Ali: not that I haven't heard enough about that though Ali: guess there's too much to put in a passive-aggressive note Tommy: 🙄🥱😴 Tommy: She wasn't even THAT late & tbh I wouldn't have blamed her for doing a Joe no show Ali: I would've understood if she was upset when she wasn't coming Ali: I am when Joe doesn't, whatever Ali: but I think she was actually MORE upset that she did come in the end, and not just because she was messy, but because Ro thought she wouldn't Ali: I don't get it, they're complicated, always have been but ??? Tommy: she can't hold being a good sister over her, like you can't me being the most fabulous brother in existence 🏆 Tommy: the fuck ups are more fun to bring to a 🥊 Ali: I guess that's more likely than them being all 💕💞 Ali: but fucking hell, does it hurt to hope Tommy: it's hurting you 😿 Tommy: she'll be too hangry to hope Ali: I have no hope or agenda for your 🏆 or 👑 dear brother Ali: but seriously Ali: what does she want Tommy: like you said ???? Tommy: there's every chance I'm bringing too much McKenna magic to the motives & she don't wanna bear a grudge til the end of her days Ali: because it doesn't sound like her at all Ali: if you can't be honest in the DMs where can you, eh, to quote that romcom Ali: fucked if I know what to do about it right now though Ali: maybe I need to sleep off the festivities, or get something to eat Tommy: long as you're not so hysterical you run into the path of an oncoming car, to recall another faithful role of hers Ali: have you adapted that for the stage? Ali: get 5 of you to be the 🚗 Tommy: dibs 'cause I can't do the accent Tommy: not that loads of 'em posh kids can either Ali: they'll have spent enough time gentrifying the east end to have it down, offensively so but all adds to the hysterics Tommy: I'll pitch it then 💡 Tommy: go down better than her 🎤🎵 Ali: better than her when she got hit by the car, like Ali: give me credit or I'll turn up and make a SCENE Tommy: like I wouldn't be LIVING for that Tommy: if we are being honest in the DMS Ali: I'll work on my RICKKAAAAAAAAAAAY Ali: maybe can convince Ro to be Sharon Tommy: hang around your ma in law & you'll ace it in no time Ali: Ha Ali: she'd accept Peggy, not Pat Tommy: fair, Laoise's ma's the one more likely to express herself with big earrings & animal prints Tommy: but I don't know if Sam Mitchell is a favourable role for Carls, what did she ever even do? Ali: Are you trying to tell me it's NOT a look? 🤔 Ali: or that you rate Laoise's mum? Ali: The character, nothing, the OG actress lost her nose so we're all agreed that's a no Tommy: I'd rate seeing her da on the doorstep in nothing but a bow tie for how mortified she'd be when I uploaded it Tommy: Grant's also no, he knocked Martine on her arse way before that car Tommy: but if she's Phil, you're Sharon so that's a yeah from me, like Ali: Don't, her dad always gave me those vibes Ali: and you ain't actually on the street still to have to witness that 🤮 Ali: I don't know how she'll feel about going bald, I'll float it gently before getting out the clippers Tommy: Do Rock's while you're there, he looks feral Tommy: even that nonce wouldn't have him Ali: You know his ears would get chapped Ali: hair is essential or he'll fly away on the breeze Ali: and we'd all be devastated, obvs Tommy: don't start me thinking about that scene in Dumbo, cheers very much Tommy: 😭😭😭😭😭😭 Ali: Such a depressing film Ali: disney gives me bad vibes Tommy: the park is creepy & you won't catch me there Tommy: whether or not Walt was a Nazi it's still a nah from me Ali: Wee bit concerning that emotional manipulation and forced fun trumps facism/literal Nazis for you but we'll 🤐 Ali: ma is in enough of a mood and she'll only direct it at me so nah Tommy: well his racism is disputed depending whether you're in camp 😇 saint him 🙏 or camp cast him into the hellfire 👿 Tommy: the forced fun & emotional manipulation is just facts Ali: 👿 advocate Tommy: I'm gonna go to hell 🤞 he's an ally Ali: 😬 Ali: it's a punishment, not a holiday Tommy: it'll be a grand hol for my pores Tommy: love a sauna sesh Ali: that London smog is not it Ali: how black is your snot? Tommy: as Ro's soul 💀 Ali: Thomas Tommy: Alison Ali: 🛑 it Tommy: she'd 🖤 to hear it but FINE Ali: you're an enabler, it is known Ali: not the kind of encouragement I'm after tah Tommy: enabling you & your lady love to have a good time, yeah 🕺💃 Tommy: & I fully expected her to turn up with a pet raven is all I'm saying Ali: the best was made of it by all, despite it all Ali: even her, in her way Tommy: despite Kayne appearing 🤵🥀 & all in her case Ali: yeah Ali: ugh Ali: he's harmless enough, bless him Tommy: she'd beg to differ right now Tommy: you're gonna wanna hide the 🍄🍄💀 til she calms down Ali: You don't need to tell me Ali: I think he's just really oblivious Ali: like all lads Ali: it wasn't you know...assaulty Tommy: It's not his fault she's team true love's kiss & he AIN'T it Tommy: who could EVER measure up to the 💭💞 Ali: standards, cool Ali: unrealistic expectations, less so Ali: but I can't really advocate for reality at this point in the game Tommy: You don't need to tell me, sis Ali: you're team turn-a-stage-kiss-real, yeah Ali: it's more realistic than fairytales, anyway, look at strictly Tommy: I'm team when's my life been a shitty made for netflix flick never mind a 🐸🤴📖 Tommy: crushing realism ftw Ali: 💔 Ali: If you didn't have a tragic love-life to complain about, you'd be too insufferable 🤴💩 Tommy: comforting Tommy: I'd HATE to morph into Fraze of a few years back Ali: I'll let you know if you start getting freckles Tommy: I'd know if I woke up with those brows Tommy: nowhere to hide, like Ali: 👺 Tommy: 😂 Ali: What are you getting ma for her bday/have you got already (suckup) Tommy: I left it there if you wanna find & shake the 🎁 Ali: Wow, you really didn't wanna pay postage that bad huh Ali: I'll see if I can 🔮 Tommy: with what? I'm skint after buying hers & Ro's Tommy: & it'll be 🎅🎄🎁 before too long Ali: that's what people really mean when they say dance don't pay Ali: gifting an interpretive dance is nothing but pretentious and unwelcome Ali: I can bodge together however many crafts I need and save my dolla Tommy: been there, tried that one Tommy: so much for your so called genius Tommy: ain't even thought of earning any by busting out the 🎅🎄🎵 classics for a busking sesh, works with 🩰 too I'll have you know Ali: 'til you knock over an old lady and have to leg it, like Ali: and if you hadn't noticed, I've been a little busy making a replica Ro, tah Ali: my creative juices are juiced right now Tommy: I'll make it look like part of the show & have the punters eating out of my palm when I catch & twirl any 👵 before they touch ground Tommy: yeah well you've got time from now, fair game on all things yule from Nov 1st Ali: 👌👌 clearly the LDN ones are more receptive because they're vicious 'round here with their 👜s and I'm only trying to give them the tea they ordered Ali: if ANYONE should advocate for Christmas not dragging, like Tommy: it's Irish dancing or fuck all back there, 365 🌧 or ⛅ Tommy: little girls scam every bit of that trade Ali: ironic when it's catch these hands in every other aspect Ali: so you'll fit right in, eh Ali: feel traumatised yet? Tommy: I'll do my best, as ever Ali: 🤴 Ali: meanwhile ma will have to make do with whatever IOU present I can knock up Ali: maybe I'll babysit, that's never not gonna work Tommy: she was on about going out 🍽 wasn't she? Tommy: Carls will never not be down either Ali: get him to make her a cake Ali: sorted Ali: providing he washes his hands...a full hose down may be necessary actually Tommy: she's survived the 🧁 he brings back from school & we've all seen the state of him at day's end Ali: yeah, cheers for the immunity boost little 🦠 Ali: fair, I'm pretty sure we put some weird and wonderful things into our bakes at his age and no one died Ali: Laoise nearly but you know Tommy: close but no 🚬 Tommy: typical of that bitch Ali: sure a 🙏 was said to finish the job at mass Tommy: if you see her ma mascara running in an lbd, I demand to be the first to know Ali: I'll pap her in her time of distress, it's fine Ali: I can hide up trees for HOURS if needs must Tommy: I'm not above piggybacking on the 'tragedy' to get better grades or a hol Tommy: do your part, like Ali: she won't fall for 🍄 again Ali: her brother might if Ro puts 'em in her gob Tommy: 💞 Ali: more of a mood than without Ali: add a little danger Tommy: she'd appreciate the drama more than anything he could ever do Ali: 💔 Tommy: nah, we're not shipping that Tommy: not today Ali: You gotta make some bad decisions before you make the right ones Tommy: a bad decision was the colour of her 👗 Tommy: the last thing that girl needs is a boy right now Ali: Okay you can't come for anyone vis a vis colour, boy Ali: even if I still see it when I close my eyes after however many weeks sewing Ali: but you may have a point re. a boy Ali: just, some socialisation wouldn't hurt Ali: and as far as they go, he's harmless Tommy: 'Course I do, she can barely exist in front of us Tommy: if they went on a date, what's she gonna do, order a glass of water? Ali: like you haven't seen her fake eat a plate of food Ali: it's only noticeable to all us that she's not actually putting any in her mouth Tommy: 🔮✨ Tommy: if he's TRULY harmless he don't deserve to be harmed by her attitude Tommy: which anyone else not bound by family love & loyalty would call something loads harsher Ali: Don't Ali: I feel bad enough for Meena sometimes Tommy: @ Carly too & we all know it Ali: Yeah, Carly can handle it though, she's mostly unphased even if it is a total thing 🙄 Tommy: She's a 👸😇 I doubt Kayne is that pure of ❤️ or intentions tbh Tommy: & Meena can handle anything so Ali: he's deffo a virgin though Ali: which yes, makes for more desperation, but he can't be that forceful if he dunno what he wants, you know Ali: yeah but God knows why she wants to come 'round here and get more of it at times Tommy: No shit, Kit but everyone's seen a porno, it's not the 70s Tommy: dress for it all you like Tommy: maybe she wants to get out of her own 🏡 Ali: everyone also knows it's bullshit Ali: whatever else she's got that much about her Tommy: does he though? Tommy: all I'm saying Ali: either way, it isn't like she's going to have a miraculous change of heart Ali: we all saw how well it went Tommy: Yeah but what if it makes her heart set on finding someone else to play 🤴 Tommy: you'd know better than me what goes on in her head Ali: She's 15, I don't see how any of us can say or do anything to stop her if that's what she does want Tommy: 15 technically Tommy: 🤷 Ali: If we can't make her eat, you know Ali: what hope do we have for anything beyond that Tommy: 0 Tommy: & it's fucked Ali: Yep Ali: but it's not as if that bombshell has only just been dropped, I guess Ali: we'll carry on doing what we can Tommy: 🔮✨ Ali: ✌💚