#[ if only i could i'd swap our places be runnin up that hill forthehonorandthegorly]

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"You know, I actually do give a shit about you, smart ass." ( 2k3 Leo Raph :'3 )

| Muse interaction

Cool off. chill out blah blah blah Raph has heard it all before. So fine that what he was doing he thought with a good clear huff to himself staring out to the skyline filled with the lights from the city they lived just mere feet below their whole lives. Raphael wasn't sure how long he been out here there wasn't much to do either in truth just admiring the the city lights view from the docks. The salty smell from the water was strong even where he stood and the chill in the air had him shuddering just a bit, the air was even cooler nothing dangerous he couldn't handle of course but he was more just trying to work off his current bad mood purely just being petty in the moment.

When he hears a sound he knows all to well it somehow louder than the sound of the ocean wave back behind him from where he was resting back against old wood rotting pier railings. The sound of kanata sheaths idly moving in against a shell the slight ring of metal came out. Leo could be hard to notice he knew how to keep his steps light so he was being purposeful with his steps. Raph rolled his eyes and kept staring forward refusing to give his so called leader his attetion.

"The great an' brave leader finally out to clean up his trash, uh?" Raph comments, sure that wasn't anywhere near what Leo said when they had thier blow up eailer, but it was how Raph took it to mean, and he was making that clear at the moment.

"You know, I actually do give a shit about you, smart ass."

Raph tries he really dose to resist cracking the smile that's starting to show on the corner of his beak. He can't help himself. It's funny when Leo breaks the usual serious persona they seemed so damn insisted to hold on too all the damn time. That was the thing between Leo and Raph though sorry wasn't really needed to say.

" nice to know ya can get 'hat Damn stick outta ya ass sometimes." Raph teases looking at Leo now for real. " an' yeah I know Leo might give ya hard time well a lot, but don' worry I know. Else ya wouldn' be such a fuckin' pain in my ass all the fuckin' time if ya didn' ride my ass all the time." Vulagr sure but still got his point across at least.

"Least ya git tha balls to speak back and talk...well yell. I can least admire 'hat."

Sure Raph and Leo at best had a rocky relationship between them they always have after all. Butting heads is just what they did, Leo matched Raph tempers and tangents all the time. Sure it annoyed Raph that Leo never fully seemed to listen to what he said. More felt like he did it to bait it all out and get Raph to focus his rage on him instead.

But ture or not Raphael was glad they did.

"Still ya the biggest fuckin' prick I know." Raphael adds in unnecessarily maybe. "But ya know I love ya two an' all." It's why the things Leo said stung but he wasn't going to voice that.

"Let me guess Splinter told ya to get me or somethin' ? Or ya jus' doin' the leader thing and makin' sure I aint causing shit up here? Cause I ain't see? I ain't some mindless violent meat head all the time." He tries and defends himself a bit " an' i anit goin' back yet. So beat it" soon gesturing with a nod of his head for the space beside him. "or...ya can stay fine too." His voice mumbles a bit ar the end there.

"Ya know I don' hate bein' round ya or hate ya" closet Leo was getting to an 'I love you too' so he should take what he could get here "so ya can stay with me if want....could maybe rave back home in bit?" A hidden offer that Raphael was secretly hoping they take.

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Raph’s big brother skills are god tier - they had to be with the 3 extreme chaotic types he has for younger brothers

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2012 Raphael - All Symbol Headcanons please uwu

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12 Raphie turn uwu I'm constantly sadden by people making him out to be abusive well openly ignoring how he contradicts his words all the damn time. Claims his brothers are annoying and he would be better on his own. First thing he dose when any of them are in trouble? run to their rescue. extends to others even like rushing to save April or how often he covers and protects Casey. You can't go off what he says gotta watch what he dose Raph is emotionally stunted and illiterate. He loves his family and friends he's just not able to communicate it ;3; Honestly I love his character arch in the show it's very much in the background seeing him going from Cocky and closed off to humbling himself a bit and opening up more. I just wish not most of his episodes centered around his fear of bugs (totalt of 3 times we get this plot) considering some of the stuff he dealt with u-u

𝓕 : My muse’s handwriting. (Is it good, bad, difficult to decipher, do they prefer writing by hand or with the help of some form of machine, e.t.c.)��

"I know how to write jeez." Two examples since the show dose give us this little peek of Raph's work on the party wagon. Raph writes in cursive and he kind of hates it. Raph just has the artist eye and because hes so used to writing tools from drawing he has a nice flow when he writes. Has one of the far more easier handwriting to understand. it is a nice little peek into who he is because its clear to read you can see that Raph is pretty confident the rounded look to his letters also shows he is creative with artistic ability but seeing as we have his art in view we already know this. He writes fast though because he is kind of impatience unless it for like the party wagon painting her than he'll take his time. It's often the only time you'll see Raph hold patience.

✈ : My muse and  traveling. (If they do it frequently and why, if they never left their home town, e.t.c.)

"hmmm been a lot of places? See we went to space cause of the tricetrons. UH been to Japan twice one for time travel and I think Don said we went to some other world Japn that other time too? Uh saw Egypt and Transylvania as well? Soo I dunno whats more distance?"

I guess comes down to what you think is the furthest distance? In America it's up to the Farm House. On the planet? Thanks to Ranet him and his brothers have gone to Parts of Europe, Japan and even Egypt. He has been to Space and not just space different planets well there. Not to mention the few times he's go to full different dimensions. Which I dunno in a way is nice seeing how there was a good chance they would never even seen the surface of New York.

✿ : My muse and nature. (If they are an ‘outdoorsy type’, like the sound of bird’s singing, if they have never set foot in a forest, e.t.c.) 

"Eh I 'ike the city too much who needs the outdoors." Lies, during the farm house arch Raphael was fucking thriving in the woods. This boy was out there every day training and even taking care of things around the place like chopping wood for fires and what not. I think he came to really love being out in the woods since they had so much freedom even with the doom hanging over his head. Once Leo was awake from his coma you can see Raph being able to fully enjoy it. The few times they go camping or travel in more nature settings he never has any issue with it, its a nice change of pace from sewer tunnels and brick city buildings.

He was having the time of his life even when him and brothers tried to figure out how to simply start a fire he was pretty damn excited for a fire even if the rain took it out soon after. Heck first solo patrol he goes on hes wearing his vision quest outfit for no reason at all. Raph just really got in tuned with nature didn't take much for him to do so on his quest either able to connect with fire pretty easy. Also one of the times Raph's anger issue were really centered because he was anger all that fresh air seemed to be good for him.

Closest he gets to nature in the city is when he sneaks away to the docks. He loved the woods of course but he loves the beach even more. He likes the feeling of walking on the soft sand, loves the sound of the waves washing over it. When the moon is is wide and full it's near sliver light seems to just reflect over the water and give the sand an unmatched look. It's the pretties thing he has ever seen and only recreated once by a certain pretty boy of his.

☼ : My muse’s first memory. (Where it was, who was with them, how this memory makes them feel, e.t.c.) 

"First? well I guess watching Splinter fightin' ? I kind of remember getting rolled over by that shopping cart too?"

I love Lone Rat and Cubs it's such a good episode makes me sad it was all the way in season 5!! But man It's just cute watching Splinter take on his role as the turtles Dad. And just watching him slowly watch his turtles personalities start to come in to fulrition. Raphael watched Splinter run to check on him when he got hurt and honestly? Raph as a baby turtle could have easily died at that time falling flat on the ground, having been ran over even and only his plastron chipped? To then watch Splinter's own anger flare and send him into a murderous rage on the kraang? Yeaaah I feel this was a core memory for old Raphie boy here uwu

Raph seems to really make strength and fighting out to be important. Often refereed to have a fiery warrior spirit even. Watching his father lash out when someone he cared for got hurt and won? Familiar isn't that?

☙ : My muse’s favourite food. (Bonus: A memory, be it good or bad, associated with said food.)

"I'll eat anything that aint fuckin' algae"

The turtles went a good while eating a very limited source of food for clear obvious reasons, but having pizza was like a mind blow experience so much so they wanted Mr.Murakami to make them pizza as well getting their pizza dumplings a dish they pretty much only seem to eat there. So safe to say Raph loves Pizza. He's pretty simple and more goes for just pepperoni often grossed out by Mikey's experimental toppings.

I'd also say that Raph also is a fan of lasagna because it was what Casey's dad made when he went to first meet them. Sure the whole meeting was awkward as fuck. But Arnold was hardly phased by A giant turtle in his house. He called him by name, he looked at Raph when he spoke. he didn't talk to him through Casey, and yeah maybe asking how long has he been a turtle been enough to make Casey face plat on to the table. Raph knew there wasn't any malice in Arnaldo's voice.

He did something Raph didn't know he wanted he saw Raph as he was he was scared or put off and even acknowledged it as just something normal he never diverts from the fact Raph is in fact a fucking mutant turtle. It's just who Raph is. And Raph can never explain it but he will always apperacite how Casey's Dad was with him and continued to be. So yes he loves lasagna but only caseys dad's I think it be cute if he learned how to make it since he takes on role of cook for his own family ;3;

♬ : My muse and music. (What type of music they like listening to and in what context, what music they would never listen to, e.t.c.)

"Pft come on i'm all for metal music, punk or just good classic rock. Though Taylor Swift is my girl."

Of course Raph loves anything with good drum beats in it so he can learn the parts of those songs himself on his own drum set. He loves metal and music more in that vine. Loves the vibrations from those kinds of songs and groups. They are loud and it's kind of why he likes them so much it makes it easier to pick up on the sound from and its often how he learns to play those parts from listening so intently.

Of course hes got a soft spot for some pop music but nothing tops his love for Taylor Swift music from here start to her current sound even. Shake it off happens to be his all time favorite song and often what he listens to when hes just having a bad day. Lets to have little spa days listing to it on repeat uwu. It why he never would judge Casey on some of his taste in music cause Raphs a swifty u-u a proud one yes but still can he really mock anyone when he's over there in his room singing to bad blood? Nope besides he likes to think his and Casey's song is Wonderland.

Didn't they tell us don't rush into things? Didn't you flash your green eyes at me? Didn't you calm my fears with a Cheshire cat smile?

↺ : My muse and the past. (Do they live in the past and struggle to let go of past grievances, or move on more easily, is there anything in their past they want to forget, e.t.c.) 

"Gotta be like a stone in river."

HAHAHAHHA not never this boy has never been able to just move on and let things go he just claims he dose. Donnie puts it best when telling raph to get new material. Raph never is full able to work though things though so it's hard for him to just let it go. He just brushes it off but that means it's never really resolved.

Hell his issues with Splinter is the biggest clue to this fact. Raphael never gets to fully get into how he feels because he struggles with expressing his emotions and feelings. From people not really letting him have the stage so he can talk, jumping in to fill in the gaps or put words in his mouth that isn't what he is trying to say at all. Which of course frustrates him because no one is listening! or giving him that simple need to be heard. Raph isn't looking for solutions he just wants his emotions to be heard. That is why his anger issue are so bad his temper is trying to express how he is feeling but it just comes out in a burst of furry and rage.

Raph never able to turly work over things that get to him it's why he seems to have issue with Leo its not aimed at Leo he just became the target. Raph ties so fucking hard he just wants Splinter's affection and praise. Splinter states he once wanted to be an artist and its why he named his sons after artist of his favorite period in time of art. And Raphs pretty good at art and takes it serious even knowing enough to name characters after works of art or artis themself it what he did with Chompy. He loves to fight and train and genuinely enjoys sparring and practicing. He often is the one who wins the sparring matches and when he dose? He seeks Splinters praise! He wants his Dad's approval so damn much. That Raph assumed he would be leader but when leo is made leader with out a second thought? Sure explains why Raph at the start is so critical of Leo's leadership. Questions his orders and heck he often gets Mikey and Donnie to agree with his side over Leo's turning the team against Leo more than once. But it was never even about Leo.Raph only ever seems to start expressing this resentment later when he finally calls out Splinter.

Raph just wants Leo to slip up knock him down a peg or two even show Splinter he isn't perfect and shouldn't be the so called favorite. Its kind of awful of Raph to see Splinter giving leo that weight of responsibility purely out of favoritism. It's pretty clear Raph admires Splinter he always shows him respect. He controls his temper around him listens to Splinter over any one even. This boy just feels he can never measure up to Leo in his fathers eyes.

Splinters death hurts them all of course but it hurts Raph worse because he never got to repair their relationship. Raph tried to follow his Dad's advice but it just never worked for him. To let things they get to him roll off his back like water, soon Raph found himself drowning in all that water. He was never water it was like his flames were being extinguished. It's what he needed most for people to see his fiery nature not as something bad because fire isn't always dangerous either.

☾ : My muse and sleep. (How much they sleep, how much they wish to sleep, if there is something that never fails to put them to sleep, e.t.c.) 

"Eh I dunno I sleep when I sleep and get what I need I guess."

Raph is a night owl he likes to stay up but he also dose struggle with sleeping a bit. So he is often just up watching tv till his eyes grow tried. Sometimes Raph sleeps just a bit more than he normally dose because sometimes getting up is just to hard and he rather be in bed.

✧ : My muse and art. (If they have an artistic side or not and why, favourite artist if they have one, e.t.c.) 

"..I like art"

Raph and his art skills I wish got more love just cause it's so an underrated part of his character. I truly feel he got into it because of Splinter. But he soon took a real interest in it on his own learning about different artis and paintings even to points he uses it to nickname Mona and name Chompy after who I am going to claim to be his favorite artist Picasso.

Raph loves to draw a lot but it's something he more keeps to himself but his brothers I feel know raph can draw, he has draw fan art of Captain Ryan for Leo and used to draw with Mikey when they tots. He sort of got into the habit of Drawing special stuff just for Casey it was a subtle way at first for him to express he had a crush on them. Casey also being able to draw soon landed them to start making street art together and it was kind of his favorite thing to do nearly beating going out and getting into fights together even. I like to think he has drawn on Casey a few times with washable markers of course. Sometimes just the little grim reaper he draws Casey Vigilante look.

For a short time after Splinter dies though Raph can't pick up a pencil again and refuses to do anything art related. It just hurts too much. Chompy getting into drawing though sort of helps bring Raph's love for it back. In a way it's him getting something he never had with Splinter. He wanted to connect with Splinter so bad but just couldn't but his own kids? It sort of helps heal something in him that was always hurting he wasn't aware of.

❃ : My muse and social media. (If the muse is/would be on social media and why/why not, their general opinion on it, e.t.c.) 

"Eh not really for it much if im honest, people online are annoying."

He has some social media but he isn't active persay. Raphael isn't much for sites that would require more interaction on his part he more for stuff like Vine or youtube cause watching others videos is a bit more fun. of course he kind of likes the skater trick videos or mimicky jackass stuff that was pretty popular back then. He has a tumblr and sometimes he'll post his art there a few of his street art/ tagging as well. But never went and like connected with people online Raph kind of sees no value to it he rather it be in person even if he wont admit to it.

✉  : My muse and others. (If they social and outgoing or more introverted, and why. If they prefer communicating with others face to face or in written form, e.t.c.). 

"Hmm I like maybe ten people at best."

Raphs just a grumpy turtle lets be honest. I would call him introverted though. He isn't very pleasant on a first meeting and he kind of doesn't give a shit to win people over either when meeting someone. But he dose tend to prefer others company at times, heck hell actively look around to see if any of his brothers are available to hang out with. Annoyed if they more occupied with other things. At other times he rather be alone and needs to be alone even.

But some people seem to be exceptions Raph dose seem to like hanging out with his brothers training with Leo, watching tv with Don or sitting in Mikey's room. But of course his favorite person to be alone together with is lCasey his best friend and boy friend uwu. Sometimes he can just exist in Casey's presence without saying a word. Though often when alone? They are a bit busy making out and such soooo talking isn't always needed uwu. But other times they are just happily cuddled together just soaking in each other.

▶ : My muse and level of education. (If the muse has some form of education, what education they perhaps wish they had, e.t.c.). 

"Smarter than bone head so clearly ya don't need it."

Raph's decently smart actually sure he isn't on Don's level or even Mikey's surprise genius but he is clever. A more creative thicker than a logical one for sure. Fights tends show this best since he can often adjust what he is doing on the fly. Like in his and Casey's fight he has to switch up what he is doing a lot. Taking advantage of what he can to get one up on Casey. He goes from brute strength to more tactical movements as Casey's way of fighting dose throw him since they can go both offense and defense easily. And Raph has a far more defense style of fighting.

He doesn't always understand what Don is saying and has to ask them to re-explain. But at the same time sometimes he'll make suggestion that sound stupid like shooting sonic blasts into the air only for Donnie to back it up and state he's not wrong just not in the litteral way he may take it.

But was able to learn how to make use of hitting pressure points just from watching Splinter do it.

I would more say he has Spatial intelligence, he is a visual person its easier to understand something when he can see it and works well with his ability to draw.

◐ : My muse and animals. (If they like animals and treat them well, do not care for them at all, e.t.c.). 

"I may like them a lot."

Raph is just making himself out to be a Disney Princess here, he loved and took such great care of Spike. He knows how to talk to pigeons and clearly loves them from how he petted one. He spoiled both Savage and Chompy as turtles. Knew exactly what they needed from their diet to their tank. Raph often watches animal documentaries as well and can get a bit too tied up in them. Easily grows attached to the ones more focused in the videos and will get visibly upset if anything happens to them. Like if a cub is killed he will be upset for days and often it's covered up because well he's Raph hes a walking bad mood. If asked? he knows he'll get laughed at but he really was upset okay u-u

❒ : My muse and gifts. (If they are good/bad at finding gifts, good/bad at receiving gifts, good/bad at wrapping gifts, e.t.c.) 

"uh? I don't really do 'em I guess?"

I feel its not really something the turtles do but I like to think for special occasions Raph will go out of his way to do something nice either find something his brothers mentioned liking or needing. He tends to go further for Casey but that's his boy friend uwu the more physical thing he gave Casey of course was their collar at first he was just messing around when finding one in some old shop. It was a joke a first wanting to make them pout cause hes cute when pouting, but then Raph kind of saw it as something Casey could keep from him something that was a more tangible visual of him and Casey dating. Of course, it played into a few kinks that Raph didn't know he had either. Outside that I feel Casey has gotten a few drawings from Raph not a lot just a few here and there. He rather Casey only have like finished work if he gives him anything like that.

☘ : My muse’s relation with their family. (If they speak with each other and how much, if they are close or estranged, e.t.c.). 

"uh..ya know it's fine."

Raph loves his brothers theres no way around that he may fight with them find them annoying even and hell sometimes wish he was alone. But Raph would kill anyone who hurts them. He often puts them before himself "I don't care if I get hurt but my brothers?" Raph is very protective of his brothers and he would gladly die protecting them but his job is to protect them. He's a tough guy but he has a soft sport for all three of them.

Mikey of course that's his baby brother anything happens to him puts him in the worst panics and brings out the worst of his aggression. Raph also will help pick Mikey back up when he's been beaten emotionally down.

Donatello despite how he may drag them at times it's clear Raph is looking out for Donnie in his own way wanting to protect them from more emotional pains. Which is funny because in the show at least Don even with the fact he will call Raph a baby and often remark on bringing up old stuff all the time, also is the most in tune with Raphael. Often the only one who feels bad if he was the cause of Raph being upset. Raphael also tends to mess with Donnie the most in sparing matches its far more like playtime for him if not a lot of bullying. Think you can blame this on the fact that Donnie would fight back against Raph when they were tots. Don's like the only brother Raph will out right admit almost beats him in fights as well, Leo's his rival can't and wont do that. Mikey is baby brother he hate if they ever one up him after all. Donnie though? He even states how Donnie impresses him at times. I think Don showing concern for Raph's emotional state often helps with why they are the way they are sure they bicker. Raph and Don seem to often take eachs other sides pretty easily if they aren't fighting between themself of course. Don often agreeing with Raph against Leo. And Raph encouraging Don's own rebellious nature when going against Leo's orders. I'd say Raph and Don have a bit or rockyness between them still sadly and has kind of made Raph get distant from his twin in this verse when he was told Don had a crush on Casey he got visibly upset the reason for it was because he felt like him and Don always had a good relationship he could just always count on one fact. Donnie was there for him but he couldn't tell him about this? Even if Don is right and maybe Raph would have stepped back he just wished they would have trusted him. When it turned out Don was sick Raph of course worried about his brother and moved past this but as stated he never really got to properly air things out with Donnie and has sort of let that distance grow which he felt more when he and Casey were in a difference universe sort of using that worlds Donnie as a stand in made he see that well he really just misses his twin brother.

Leo of course they have their rivalry but it's clear that was never targeted at Leo. Raph loves Leo and he and Leo are very close referring to themself as the A team even. They often can work well enough with out talk needed between them. And can goof around easily. When Raph was in such a fit of rage Leo hugging him snapped him out of it. Often Leo can get through to Raph the best And Raph soon learned to understand what Leo's dealing with and ties to be his right hand more than another follower. Raph is honestly? very close to Leo despite everything Leo meet him head on sure they fight but Leo will try and at least give raph that space he needs to talk but he will also let Raph well be a little brother at times when he rests against them or just needs to seek out a sense of saftey he always turns to Leo. As sad as it is he can go to Leo over Splinter because he knows Leo dosen't think bad of him how he feels Splinter dose. He would rather die then admit any of that but Leo's nearly a parental figure for Raph. Losing Leo scares him more than losing Splinter ever did.

When Raph's and Casey's turtles mutate of course it's like them forming their own family. Raph honestly just wants his sons to know they don't need to earn thier love he will always love them and be proud of them if they make mistakes he isn't going to scold them he rather understand why they needed to think a bit more through thier choices. Wants them to know they can always tell how they feel no matter what. Help them with thier own anger issues maybe even as well. Raphael just dosen't want Savage ad Chompy to ever feel like he did growing up he might still mess up but he wants his sons to at least know he loves them more than anything and would burn the world if anything happened to them uwu

Raph of course has his in-laws as well which I feel is a special relationship for Raph. he met Angel first and she can get him to do anything I feel. He let her paint his face up and though he hates it? Hell always let her do it. He sees her as his own sister and when she did slip and get mixed up with the Purple Dragons landing Casey in trouble not once did he yell at her over it. Casey mom he only met once when she had pasted and needed to figure out how to help Casey. Se was nice and kind to him and seemed to trust Casey in his care which to Raph was like having a blessing. If Casey mom felt Raph was good for Casey then he must be and honestly? it help his jealousy and fears. Casey father I went into I like to see it as Raph kind of getting the parent relationship he might have more needed growing up. He may never get to that level of comfort that Casey has with his Dad but he dose grow to feel he can turn to Casey dad when needed.

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"Raph, hold up!" Leo's quick to grab the hothead's arm, hoping to stop him from getting any further. "Donnie's still our brother! We haven't lost him, remember? I'm asking you to THINK more about what you're about to do." ( for 2k3 dramamama ofc x3 )

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Raph had gone into blind rage before, unable to fully tell what he was doing, who he was around even, or where he was. Nearly taking his lash outs too far like nearly beating Mikey with a pipe. Everything went white, all he saw was red and left him nothing more than a blind seething creature of anger. This time though? Oh this time was worse. He was blinded by his anger but it wasn’t fuled by his rage it was the feeling of betrayal eatting away at him. Don was his brother! Fuck they may all fight or razz each other time to time but Raphael liked to think he showed he was there for them. But finding out Donnie had some truce? And even relationship with that lunatic Bishop? well maybe he wasn't sure sort of jumping to conclusions on his own end there. In the least aware they liked the guy in that way. But the real meat on the bone he need to pick with them was the simple fact Donnie didn’t tell him them about it. Fine sure that be hard to bring up to the family but he was going behind their backs this whole time! Raph was on a rampage through out the lair, kick down anything and everything that managed to get in his way. No room was off limits as he started to look around for Donnie, even busting into Leo’s bedroom. He didn’t give a tiny rats ass having gone about tearing Leo’s room apart in case Don was hiding in there somewhere, somehow. Ranting about what he just found out to the eldest. When he found no trace of Donnie though he huffed and hissed under his breath turning away ready to move on to the next room.

“Raph, hold up!”

Raph paused as Leo grabbed on to his arm, didn’t do much to clam him but it was enough to get him to stop moving at least. Letting his shoulders lift up and down as he was breathing heavily. Willing to listen to his brother..well maybe he was seeking out attetion for a reason. After all he knew well enough that Donnie wasn't likely going to be in Leo's room. It was a bit of an excuse to bring this to Leo's attetion. Raph couldn't wrap his head around the idea in the slightest. Donnie made a truce fine he could understand that part and a truce with that freak Bishop would be good for them especially but he was in love with the guy? He did say anything g about any of this to no one? Especially him? That hurt. If he were honest least to himself. Maybe towards Leo?

"Donnie's still our brother! We haven't lost him, remember? I'm asking you to THINK more about what you're about to do."

Lost him? That idea hadn't once crossed Raphs mind till Leo worded it themself. Was that what was happening? Were they losing Donnie to that looney? He slightly jerks her shoulder out from under Leo's hand. Arms crossing over his plastron as he turned to look at Leo a bit "brothers don't lie, and sneak behind each other's back not about this sort of thing Leo!" Raph voiced, maybe Leo would catch what he was trying to get at trying to say. Raph wasn't excstly going to out right word what he was feeling no he would let the temper speak instead. Eyeing Leo's face lookong for anything. Something, that showed how they were feeling or taking this. But fuck they were hard to read and it was passing him off hiw hard it could be to see what Leo was thinking or feeling je was good at the poker face when he had to be serious.

"what did you know?!" Raph accused suddenly, his voice raised as he did. "Ain't you possess? Worried even?! Did you head what I said? Don's out there making goo goo eyes with the fucking enemy Leo!" He repeated as he threw his hands up into the air now. "And yet you wanna worry about what I might do to him? What if he's getting tricked? Being played? What if we find out brother dead!?" There's a slight crack well he speaks. He clicks his tounge against his teeth and turns to look off to the side finding a spot on tje floor to focus on. Arms falling at his sides as he stand there still seething in rage.

"What dose he not trust us?" Dose he not trust me? He wanted to voice, but he didn't need to feel excluded in this mess.

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Dig them up; let's finish what we've started

Dig them up, so nothing's left untouched

(this made more sense before the words started melting together in my mind lmfao

Leo is having a hard time being the new leader. He doesnt want to let his family down)

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I'm assuming you meant Raph xD

When Raph and his brothers play Mario games he picks princess peach all the time

Something cute before I move on to some angst uwu.

Raph definitely is the sibling that also had to take on a sort of parental role to his brothers because of Splinter

Sort of lost out on his own childhood due to this need to step up (and if you wanna hear about lost childhood just wait till I answer the splinter on I have for these)

It is why he feels so responsible for his brother's safety and well-being.

If his brothers had nightmares he was the one to comfort them a lot and help calm them down. even stay and sleep with them so he could protect them from what scared them.

It's why he's so hard on them when they get older because he wants to know they can be okay without him. But his brothers clearly rely a lot on him. And he tries to be that support they need it why he gets so frustrated when he just can't quite do the job right.

Raph had to sort of had to grow up faster than the rest of his brothers

It's why he has an attachment to things like teddy bears the last little bit of childhood he can have.

Mikey is clearly the favorite brother cause he's the baby of the family. Raph is the most protective over them cause they are the youngest and kind of always sees them that way. Why he has a hard time with Mikey doing anything on his own.

Donnie, Raph is the most cautious. Not always best at being as critical with Donnie much rather trying to spare thier feelings when he can the last one he's likely to snap at unless they really drive him up the wall with thier middle child antics.

Leo is clearly Raphs best friend out of his brothers. Despite thier differences (all versions fight me on this)

Raph is the hardest on Leo and gets on his case the most. Of course, he still would give his life to protect his brother despite that all. I feel Leo frustrates him because on the one hand, Leo is far too easy-going and on the other hand, Leo is one of thier best fighters not to mention a great strategist he just also can be the worst about taking things seriously.

Leo's whole need to be the best thing also gets on Raph nerves so he tends to not praise Leo much due to his more slack nature.

Definitely takes. A bit of a right-hand man role after Splinter decides Leo was going to be the leader of the team.

After the movie? Raph is very proud of his brother for finally stepping up

However

He holds some resentment over this shift of power and the change in the dynamics. Raph

There is definitely a period of time for Raph to get used to this change but it's hard.

Any betrayal from Leo towards him hurts more than anything a villain could do to him u_u

Rapheal is pansexual uwu look her literally had an outfit with the colors of the flag I'm calling it cannon!

Raphael's eye color is green uwu I just think he looks nice with them

Huge animal lover. They just don't love him back u_u

Can't watch horror films alone u_u usually, has Donnie join him maybe Leo but he's pretty sure Leo with razz him the most.

Raph doesn't feel he's worthy enough to be loved uwu

Raphael as a kid lost in the sewers by himself. Either exploring them or dying a game with his brothers. He wasn't lost for long but it was enough to build up his dislike for being alone.

This and the care taker role he took on with his brothers is why he has separation anxiety

Raph definitely adopted Josielynn as a little sister the second he saw her. She has no choice in the matter. 

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“I’m so tired of constantly doing this with you. Why do you resent me so much? What the hell did I even do?!” ( hello, one more because I saw something & added onto it. u_u 2k7 Leo & Raph pls )

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Even with Leo being back eh things hadn't change around the place. Splinter didn't want them to go right back to the old days till they had all learned to work as a team again. How was that gonna happen? They..they were all a mess anymore. Everything fell apart not make what they all did. Raph tried keeping away sticking to his own way, he didn't wanna lurk in the shadows. He was a warrior, least it was how he used to see himself.

Tch. All just cause Leo was tasked to go on some trip that they themself extended letters stopping as they were just hiding away doing as he wished. Only to come back as if nothing ever went wrong? Expecting them to fall in line with his orders follow his lead. Yeah that went great the first time they all went out. It was easy to tell how off they all were. Mikey and Donnie hadn't been exactly fighting still after all they were out of practice. Not that anyone knew but Raph, he had still been in action. But not in a unit like before. He forgot what it was like. "Look how great everything went, guess our missing leader ain't enough to put it back to how it was. So much for all yer traveling uh?" Raph went on to say once he and Leo were alone. Nothing new here it was likely to go as it always did and would least that what Raph was expecting only for Leo to snap back this time.

“I’m so tired of constantly doing this with you. Why do you resent me so much? What the hell did I even do?!”

Raph slightly froze he could for once see it on their face. The exhausted they were wearing, the irrational well that expression he knew as he sort of just gritted his teeth near growling under his breath

“ Don't take much to figure it out Leo" He huffed a bit "You left. You left all of us and don't go and say cause Splinter told ya to go on your little trip. Cause ya stayed away longer than he said. Pft so much for bein' a teacher's pet." He near spat out the last word. "Admit it first chance ya had outta here away from us all you took it!" Could Raph really blame Leo? how often had he thought of doing the same after all? Stepping in closer to Leo "Ya tried of it then just leave again clearly wasn't hard the first time to get away from me!" He meant to say 'us', but 'me' was what came out. "Why stick around if all ya wanna do is leave! why do i resent you?" he growls a bit staring them in the eyes purely fueled by anger and..more so much more. It was always out in anger how he spoke to cover and hide everything else. He felt..he felt so lost. He had no idea who he was, no idea what todo.

"I Didn’t need a leader to come back I needed my brother okay!” Raph yelled finally and in truth it felt so fucking good to let it out. Pausing, as he himself caught what he said as he slightly lifted a hand up to his beak as if he didn't understand he was the one who spoke just now. He looked up at Leo a second before casting his gaze away balling up his fists before he goes to speak again. "We all did but you left and stayed away.. and we were made to just put our lifes on pause? then you don't come back when you were meant ta..and I don't think any of us were sure ya even wanted to come back. Was it that much bettera out there? on ya own? ya always liked playing the lone card didn' you." His hands start to shake but it wasn't out of anger as he moved to crossed his arms over his plastron keeping them hidden. "Did you ever plan on comin back?" his voice got low when he spoke up. Before he let a growl out "fuck this!" Turning on his heels so he could take off, he didn't want to face the answer Leo might have.

[ducknotinarow]

( Harassing meme- for Raph 2k12 ) Do you resent any of your brothers? It's just you & Leo always seem to butt heads. Do you think you could have been the better leader?

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A low growl came out from the back of his throat he always felt like the blood in his veins started to burn when he grew annoyed and flustered like this during training sessions. Of course, as predictable as it was it lead to another blow up from Raph. Hollering at his brothers before he stormed out from the dojo and made his way out from the subway tunnels. He needed one air and to get away from the rest of them for a bit just long enough to work out his anger. Of course because it was always him that was the issue wasn’t it? Pushing the manhole cover back into place before he made his way around the empty alley found himself in there was a fire case so he could sneak to a roof here in a moment. For not though? He looked around finding all kind of trash scarred around the perfect thing to vent out his anger on.

Most of the discarded stuff was busted already but it helped to bust old brooms over his knee and toss empty glass bottles against brick walls eventually lifting the tin trash can on its own. Lifting it high above his head to only throw it as best her could. His mistake as it came right back his way and smack aginst him.

Flat out on his back as he looked up ringing in his head as he took time to wait for his skull to stop throbbing. When the words came to him.

Do you resent any of your brothers? It's just you & Leo always seem to butt heads. Do you think you could have been the better leader?

He furrowed up his forhead and quirked his beak to the side chewing that all over. "I don't resent them..." He didn't of course he didn't. "They just know how to make me mad. That's all Mikey's always messing around, Don's always calling me a baby and Leo." There was a pause as he laid on the ground. "Yeah I know I butt heads with him all the damn time I can't help it he just gets under my shell so easy!" He huffs moving his hands to rest onnthe ground as he starts moving to sit up now. "Mister perfect. Splinter Jr more like it. Dosent matter how many times I bear him in a match Leo's already seen as the better one. Better ninja, best choice for leader, better fighter, better mediator, better skills, better focus, better student the better brother the better son!" He began to list off the anger in his voice growing as he had listed each thing that crossed his mind. He didn't mean for the last bit to come out but it did. Closing his eyes tightly as he tried to clam himself down.

He heard it all the time his anger was an issue. His biggest flaw but he couldn't help it. "I know somethings wrong with me it always comes up...I don't know why...they all look at me like it so easy not to be...me. especially stupid Leo. It's like it all comes so easy for him and I just..." letting his fave drop into his hands a moment.

"I don't think I be a better leader, I've tried being leader and I almost lost Mikey and Donnie I froze up...I don't know how Leo can make those choices." Dragging his hands down his face as he sighs heavily. "I see it all the time dad looks at me doset matter hiw good a fighter I am ill always come short..." deep breath taken in "I thibk it be better if o was alone cause I don't think they need me."

[ducknotinarow]

@forthehonorandtheglory

Leo: What did you do?

Raph: Alright, but you can’t get mad at me.

Leo: What did you do?

Raph: Okay, first. I was minding my own business-

Leo: BULLSHIT!

Raph: I was!

Leo: And exactly what happened whilst you were "minding your own business"?

Raph: So I was just chillaxing in my room like a baller, then all of a sudden these shmucks kicked in my door. One of them yelled out "Get on your knees!" and I responded with "I’m not your mother last night!"

Raph: And they took exception to that.

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“They hurt you, didn’t they?” ( Hmmm. Leo & Raph, but which verse - I'll let you surprise me uwu )

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Dick!

Big jerk! Cry baby! The water was nice and cool over his skin, as he was resting in the more shallow area of the pool of water of their lair. It was his favorite place to brood when anger brunt out but hadn't made him feel better. Sometimes when he cooled off he just sit around with the rest of them but, he wanted to be alone. Just to much on his mind..sometimes he missed Spike. Well slash he guesses. He used to talk to his pet turtle when he got like this. So it hurt that he lost that now someone he could confined everything to. Some who would listen to him, with out judgement. He had gotten into a bit of fight with Mikey and Donnie. Splinter didn't help with the issue much once again being talked down to about how quick he was to snap and yell out in anger. He knew it was an issue of course he knew it was an issue!

Eyes opened to find Leo stand just over him looking down at him, he fixed his beak in to a fine line. Speaking of judgement. That wasn't fair he knew that Leo didn't..judge him. Not really. He could hear them say his name from under the water and moved to sit up now, scooting over to the side to make room for Leo to take a spot next to him.

"Hey." He had well not much energy to try and pick a fight with them or even snark out that he wanted to be alone. Nah it was clear he didn't want to be alone right now. Despite the fighting Leo was also the brother Raph could just sit around this like, their presence was nice. When they weren't fighting or when Leo wasn't being a total teachers pet.

“They hurt you, didn’t they?”

"uh wha?" Raph asked turning to look at his brother now a bit shocked they seemed to figure it out. "Pftt what me course not never I.." words start to die in the air as he tried to defend and keep up appearances just now. He got it all the time how he was just so sensitive or emotional. God he fucking hated it sometimes the teasing was just.

Raph twisted a bit so his shell was against Leo's now slightly leaning back to rest against them. It was an odd habit of Raphael's but a sigh of him being willing to talk. It was just easier to open up when they couldn't see him like this. Least that why Raph assumed he did it. Drawing his knees in to his chest now lowering his chin to rest on his knee pads. "I guess. I dunno Leo I think aye do it ta my self if anythin' I just." man words were hard, it was so hard to set words to how he felt because they tend to fail him. He tipped his head back to rest it against the lip of Leo's shell. Seeking out comfort from them right now but this was as far and willing he was to express that. "I'm trying Leo I really am tryin, but..never seems like I make an ounce of progress." Raph tried to express to his brother. Leo was bad as the rest of them calling him out on being a big baby and reducing his moment of anger as nothing more then a cry for attention.

Which okay maybe they were at times.

"I think somethin's wrong with me." He finally words it out, trusting Leo for once with this and just fucking hoping it was okay for him to do so. "nah I know there somethin' wrong with me I feel it so deep but whenever I think I got a handle on this all?" recalling how he has lashed out and nearly hurt even Leo cause of this. He chews on his bottom beak a little bit starting to pull away away from Leo "Never- never mind I'm fine. I'm just sulkin' cause Splinter got on my case again thats all. Ya don't gotta check on me, I won't take off okay." Raph reduced it too because that was usually what he did. Took off and got into trouble, figured that was the only reason Leo was here after all. "I wont cause trouble for you with Splinter so ya know go on leave me alone...better that way."

[ducknotinarow]

Raph: Casey said we were having burgers

Leo: if Casey jumped off a cliff would you?

Raph: .......

Leo: Raph!

Raph: Well I mean it depends

Leo: Don't jump off a cliff!

Raph: well I wasn't planing on it

Leo: but if Casey jumped you would?

Raph: .....

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@forthehonorandtheglory || Continued from [here]

Home had just been awful, everything was awful. leaving home didn't make it better. Even with a distraction. Even with leo back no it was still awful. Raph thought maybe that would fix things? But Leo stay away longer for a reason right? Was it Raph? it felt like whatever this was it just followed him. Home was just falling apart around them as they sat and waited, Raph didn't want to put his life on pause just because of Leo! Part of him knew it wasn't fair to pin so much on Leo and yet. Seeing Leo again didn't fill Raph with what he thought it might when he thought about them coming back before. Hell part of Raph had wondered if Leo would ever come back when the letters had stopping coming. Yet here he was bound to be the savior of everything wrong once again. Unaware of the shit show things had become when he left. Pft did Leo even care to know how things were? something about the banter between them was off. Sure Raph and Leo had ah abit of fighting but..no this wasn't thier normal air. Raph couldn't even pretend to enjoy how he got Leo's eye to twitch in annoyance.

"Mikey sleeps like a log these days, Don if he even asleep won't move much."

It kind of bugged him. Why didn't Leo come back when he was meant too? Why did he stay away? It was something about them wasn't it? Ever since Leo left... Raph just rolled his eyes at the last remark,

"An' how would ya know that?" he questions fixing Leo with a look as arms move to cross over his plastron. Challenging them but not in his usual manner. No this was a different challenge he was presenting to Leo but far as Raph was aware of they lost already. Leo had no fucking clue what he was coming back to. This mess he made! that he was happy to leave behind and let fall apart. Making the rest of them.. "Ya haven' been 'round long time Leo. Don't go an' act like you know anythin'" he grips a bit some venom dripping as he speaks. it was easier to focus his anger at his brother. Turn Leo into a punching bag so to speak. It didn't make Raph feel any better though. "you though? pft bet you changed a lot so much ya can' even tell how different everything else here is." He stares glaring at them a moment.

"shoulda jus' stayed away." He tells them before making his way out of the kitchen now. He had better things todo then spend it looking at Leo's stupid face. Least the others could be happy now "least you bother ta remember the others to come back for."

[ducknotinarow]

@forthehonorandtheglory

the actual clip goes for more than 10 seconds,

leo is an ass fghjdfskj

[ducknotinarow]

“Raph. I’m only going to say this once. Put on the damn jacket.” ( I had to send this. Honestly for either 2k12 or 2k3 - Leo )

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Raph just grumbled a little under his breath, it was due time for a supplies run, or what others would call grocery shopping. Not much the right wording when you had to hide out under the city. But they were running low on some stuff, Raph had been just sitting on the couch, idly nodding off listening in to the talk around him as they made up a list of what was going to be needed. For someone who often took of on his own it was a odd comfort of his to be just away from the group but close enough to hear them, like white noise or something. Though he did have to remark on the amount of back and forth going on about what they were going to be needing. Jeez not like them to go so long that they ran that low of stuff, then again it was winter time now so that did sort of add to the sudden demand. When Leo suddenly spoke up about them going, he followed it with that demanding tone towards Raph. Looked like it would be them making the supplies run.

Eyes opening fully as Raph very begrudging wen to move up from the couch just as he was settling in just right on it too. “Let’s go Raph” he mocked Leo with despite it though he was still making his way to join next to his brother. Getting enjoyment out of the face Leo made when he had mocked them. Hey just because he listened to Leo didn’t mean he wasn’t going to also give them a hard time on top of it all. Leaning over a bit to take a glance at the list the rest of them all made up, and he just scowled a bit. “Man were gonna be out there in the fuckin’ cold for hours with this list.” he went on to complain over. Soon landing a good smack against Leo’s shell chuckling a little when he did so, it was out of affection but it be a lie if it wasn’t also to just annoy Leo more “alright best get movin’ the soon’r we do sooner I get to be back here not freezn’ my ass off.” only stopping when Leo set his arm out to stop him, Raph glancing at him as Leo held up a jacket for him. Offering it over for him to wear, well adding that in verbally saying he didn’t need his brother turning into an ice cube when they went out. Raph soon looked between Leo and the offending jacket as he crossed his arms over his plastron “i ain’t wearn’ that thing.” he stated firmly. Brushing past Leo as he snatched the list from their other hand making his way out from the lair. He could Hear Leo gruff and sigh in annoyance at Raphs defiant nature but went to follow after him. Raph already working his way up the ladder to the nearest manhole cover that would lead them outside. When that ever annoyed demanding tone came out of Leo once more.

“Raph. I’m only going to say this once. Put on the damn jacket.” 

“Or what you gonna ground me mamanardo?” Raph scoffed out smiling the little nickname he just gave his older brother. He wasn’t wrong Leo did have a very bad habit of acting more parental over brotherly. Continuing his way up the ladder and pushing the metal cover over, he froze as he felt the icy cold air blowing down towards him, quick to shiver. He was smart enough to pull the cover back to close it off making the cold stick but it was warming up as he dropped down landing next to Leo. Raph didn’t brother looking at him he knew the look they had on, ‘told you so’ as he reached for that stupid jacket and started to put it on. “Shut it or i’ll make you eat those words.” Was his threat before climbing back up on the ladder. Now ready to get this over with sooner because he be dealing with leo being right the whole trip.

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[ducknotinarow]

It looked like he was stuck there for awhile. Leonardo didn't know exactly how to get back to his dimension unless he came across their Donnie that knew dimensional travel at least. Well, least he could start looking considering no one had stopped him from stepping further into the lair.

"Hello? Is anyone here?" ( for the start of things- 2k3 Leo & rise!Raph uwu )

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It was movie night in the lair so everyone was gathered up in the space marathon through some Lou Jutsu flicks this time around but seemed by the fourth film maybe everyone had just gave into the need for sleep. Raph happen to wake up as the credit were rolling loud yawn given out as he paid a moment to look over his brothers and dad. Tempted to just go back to sleep but nah had to snap into that big brother role as he moved up to his feet one by one he was taking his brothers off to bed when he heard something trip in Donnie’s room as he was setting them down to their bed. Curious  as he made his way to the wall of monitor seemed it was for the security of the lair. None of the alerts went off so chances were it was just a rat or something. Still though Raphael went to take a look eyes looking over each screen till he saw someone?

Eyes widen a bit, he just couldn’t understand why nothing tripped when this intruder made their way in, from the looks of it they were coming closer. “Don’t panic Raph“ he says to himself to clam his nerves as he tried to wake Donnie up but no dice. He just groaned and made his way out trying Leo and Mikey but he didn’t have time to wait for them to budge! “Ugh of course it up ta me again! oh im so makin’ em run drill for this!” he said to himself. Making his way out to where he last saw this intruder going. He couldn’t risk them hurting anyone on here. Tonfas in his girp as he made his way to this possible incoming threat. maybe they messed with Donnie’s system somehow? Maybe they were something beyond earth? Raph wasn’t sure if that made sense but he wasn’t positive on how the system worked he just knew Donnie had it set up to go off for outside threats. They had to beef up security recently so if this person could get through? Raph shook his head he couldn’t focus on that he needed to get his head in the game.

"Hello? Is anyone here?" 

Coming up the top of the half pipe when he heard them call out uh little weird wasn’t that? Maybe if this was anyone they would think more than once on this whole situation but this was Raph and he only went with his gut at times and right now his gut was worried about some unknown maybe threat in his home. MAYBE if his brothers weren’t out like fucking logs. Not the time, he gruffs to himself adding to his threat on more training later for them as he stepped out into view.

“Yeah bozo I’m here and I’ll give ya at least to three to either get outta my home or tell me what you doing here in the first place! One” jumping down so he could reach them at the bottom landing near them. Not outright going for an attack more to land his threat. “two thre-” as he moved to stand the snapper froze in place. It was a turtle like him and his brothers but the weirdest part was they were dressed nearly the same. Bandana and ninja gear. He just looked them over a few seconds, arching up his brow as he slowly lowered his arms to show he wasn’t going to attack now. Wait should he still be on guard actually thinking about it? But they had two swords and wore blue? That had to mean something right? It couldn’t just be that much of a coincidence right? “L Leo?” he questions as if somehow this near look alike was his own brother? but well they almost looked like him missing those stripes sure but. Maybe that was why no alert ever went off? Raph turned his attention in the direction of his Leo’s room, he just put Leo to bed so? Looking back to this other Leo, back into a fighting stance just in case as he narrowed his eyes at them. “Alright who are you and why do you sort look like my lil brother?! oh and how did you even get here in the first place?” had to toss that in as well after all had to make sure he got all the information he was going to need. Man he wished Donnie was awake maybe they could explain what was going on even a little?!