#[ i don't rb those things everyone else does bc do i rb them here or on each blog idk ]

[fatedvoyage]

i realized i don't talk about ships/shipping much and that's mostly because like... yeah sure, i've got things i'm soft on. i have preferences, there's certain characters or archetypes i think would work best with my characters. but i also really enjoy being surprised by what can develop in rp? and i do mean rp, i'm always happy to talk ooc about our blorbos and how they might interact, but i genuinely don't know how things workout or mesh until i'm sitting down and writing the thing.

like, i did not set out shipping bucky and tony. just thought they'd be good pals, they had a few good canon interactions and i wanted to build a better friendship off of it. but then amanda and i started writing and i realized bucky was putting out feelers, trying to make some moves, crushing hard, and was like oh. this could be something. and amanda and i chatted and wrote and chatted more and wrote more and now we've got two married dumbasses, which is not what i had in mind but it works! and it's probably one of my all time faves.

there's other's that i've tripped over in all my years of writing--feyn and dorian actually started in rp, zevran and inara was a surprise to me, zevran and emmrich was a joke but is fast becoming real, lucanis and josie have an on again off again situationship rn--which all of this is a lot of words to say that i'm open and i'm interested in ships! romantic ones especially, but all kinds of course, but i have to do some writing with it. i'm absolutely down if you message me "hey i'd like to try flinging our blorbos together, romantic-style" and we can put them in situations to see what comes of it. i just can't promise anything until we've also flung words back and forth some, bc my muse's thoughts and feelings aren't always clear when i'm just chatting ooc.

[nakanotamu]

hi! how many japanese womens wrestling leagues are there? where i'm sitting i count three but most of my info comes from you. also how would you rank the leagues? like, what are the important differences between them? thanks!

Oh there are way more than just the 3 that I post about (and I really only post 2 aside from the occassional rb) but those three are by far the easiest to watch/follow, especially if you don't know Japanese. Everyone else you'll either need some Japanese for their streaming service or they don't even have one and you'll need to do some searching to find their matches. Off the top of my head there's:

Stardom

Act Wres Girlz

TJPW

Marvelous

Sendai Girls

Ice Ribbon

Oz Academy

Wave

Seadlinnng

Pure-J

Diana

And there are probably some that I'm just forgetting or are really small. A few promotions also have women's divisions without being a full joshi company or will bring women in and have women's or intergender matches but frankly if you're here to watch women a women's promotion will always give them more of a spotlight than anyone else is willing to.

Everyone provides something a little different. People on Twitter love to paint every promotion outside of Stardom as being like super sports-based and not focusing on story at all but frankly they're wrong and are just using the fact that they don't know Japanese to ignore the parts they don't care about. But mostly the things that differentiate promotions are the roster, and maybe their match style, though no promotion only ever does one kind of match. Most promotions also bring in at least a few freelancers frequently, who then pop up in many different promotions over the same period.

I can't super talk to the pros and cons of most of the promotions I don't talk about frequently bc I've pretty much seen just enough to feel like they weren't really going to be my thing and moved on. Oz Academy I actually really liked but they don't run super frequently and are a little inconvenient to track down. TJPW I followed closely for a few years but eventually realized despite how much I like their roster they were just never going to do the style of story or match I want.

Stardom recently had really bad management and booking issues, but they're my favourite just bc they provide the product that's closest to what I want from wrestling. Act Wres is also kind of a mess on the management side but has so many gay women and got pretty good around last June. Stardom is the biggest women's company in Japan by a significant margin but every company has their diehard fans and their own stars and style, but it's just not something I can provide a lot of info on bc I already have mine.

[zoekrystall]

Added more in my pinned post and accidentally talked too much in the tags to hit the limit whoops. Added that txt yesterday bc I saw people primarily (some only) sharing donation links. Can you tell when I wrote stuff was I just ever so slightly irritated by all the emotions talk. Which yknow I get feeling angry and whatnot but I am specifically talking abt the stuff w "how can you not feel _". Idk if I already talked abt it or deleted it before hitting post some other time I think I did. Also was irritated by all the people yelling at people for being triggered like if you don't know the difference between discomfort and triggered do I not want you near me. That difference is very significant.

Idk man I am just tired of people equating empathy w humanity the most. I'm really glad I hardened up more bc I just think abt 2020 where I think I got first truly radicalized or/and learned a fuck ton but also all that guilt tripping and all made the already bad mental health further nosedive and that is just not sustainable neither for the cause or us. Like yes sharing and all actions that do help are important but it's also important to step away and do anything else to not burn out in like a day or two. Luckily the people that get followed got shaken up a bit and dash and rbs get focused more on positivity in general since then and that def helped long term (was gen "would _ rb that" "would _ scold if I would rb that" until it became a no brainer when my lifeline wasn't there. not the time to gush but fuck do I think I would still be in the same mud without him). Still not the best but better than then so sharing is easier on the mental health.

I feel. So weird for not being able to feel empathy for others but def feel it when others irritate me. Yeah I feel bad when I don't feel anything but what does it bring to force myself to feel something. I already knew in 2020 that the trying to force myself was empty I only felt like I have to try to feel awful bc of all the guilt tripping. It's hard to explain how it feels I think it's such a strange feeling. Anyways I'm at least aware enough to know if I get irritated around this I shouldn't constantly be vocal abt it bc it really does not matter in the grand scheme of things this is the only post and if further will I just on private bc no-one needs to see that but sometimes venting is needed.

I'm only really talking abt that bc reg the trigger stuff like ffs people still need to be able to function and there are things to do without getting triggered if the heavy topics are what do it. Also the people that want to help through sharing those can look at that if they know what they'll see and can get prepared first. I got ptsd doesn't mean I never ever look at any triggering stuff ever again I just need to be in the headspace and a heads up would always be very good. Really wish twt would do it like here w not completely not showing the tweet (minus in replies where you can click to show) if it has smth muted but saying "yo this post got this muted thing ya wanna see it". Like. People getting triggered are absolutely not the same people bitching bc they're just uncomfortable. The latter are the bad ones I do agree but know the fucking difference. Feeling uncomfortable just living happens like daily for the most standard reason so feeling that abt a horrendous situation should be a given. You however shouldn't get triggered daily. Also yes we can admire the people there but not everyone is as strong you shouldn't guilt them into dealing w more than they can. I'm gen (starting to consider, already did a few though) immediately blocking everyone posting that stuff esp the aggressive ones. I do not care if you have x or y not everyone experiences things the exact same way. I am being so good abt holding back insults.

And reg the emotions thing like people learn not everyone feels empathy and that it doesn't make people anything bad and that actions count challenge. Not everyone w aspd for example is automatically a evil person. What matters is if they talk abt things and if they genuinely stand behind them. Idk if I speak for most or if just past self but writing in all caps "how can you not feel bad/sad/angry/etc at seeing [atrocity, usually as video attached]" will make people not magically care if they didn't prior it'll just irritate them and scroll away. Factual information is what can make people turn around more (like, literally just share without that commentary for example). So many "both sides bad" focus on emotions afaik. Compassion, empathy, etc for both. There are people that see and feel bad abt what happens to them but still say both sides bad.

I'm tired I'll likely sleep now but yeah I just. Wanted to write abt it and get it out ig. Rb disabled and I won't bad faith argument idc if any of this sounded privileged to you. I can prob write all this way more eloquent but man idc this isn't a post that is supposed to spread and I wrote this while being sleepy. I also think there is, for individual people that aren't big names, some nuance reg having to talk abt something and being allowed to not engage in every important topic but 1 that is too complex to just kinda ramble about 2 this current event is less nuanced reg that I def think try to share as much as you can even if just occasionally. I think I only don't like it bc not saying anything online doesn't equal not doing anything. Someone could go to every protest they can and write and call but just not using their socials bc that takes their energy enough or smth. And some have multiple accs and only focus spreading it on their main (and/or w the biggest following, which should be used). I think that is what specifically gets me. But yeah didn't think abt it enough to form enough abt it and also maybe talking more abt it when this is over bc how I said it is less complicated rn. And. Yknow. When I am not tired as hell.

[kponion]

no worries about the late reply. we all have lives outside of tumblr. at least hopefully we do. i'm a bit late now too. fyi it frustrates me when i come to your blog and see posts i'm dying to rb but then i'd reveal myself pfft

nah kpop problem is a nice problem to have. we could do worse. thanks for doing the list for me, i love checking people's bias lists. namjoon, renjun, love, seungkwan <3 is victon's sejun that guy who has a crater dimple? i once reblogged a gifset only for that dimple...

nice songs you picked. love me now <3 i love baby don't stop so much but i'm also a little bit biased bc ten and taeyong. thanks for the youngblood cover rec! loved that, their voices <3 have you seen the spark mv yet? not that there is much to see if you're not a fan of the drama but it has little bit of the boys too.

ok so on the topic of music videos. i don't remember if i listed mvs as to why i love kpop but they are a huge part. i have a yt playlist for my fave kpop mvs, it's about 100 vids and i'm positive it's missing gems since i'm still so new to kpop and i definitely haven't seen everything. i like to rewatch mvs a lot.

once again it's hard to list any fave mvs without it ending up being a mile long list. i love so many. i think i'm generally into ones with lots of cool choreo but i do like some other kinds too, like story driven a la bts spring day. other faves are stray kids god's menu, taemin advice (choreo! outfits! styling! back up dancers!), bts mic drop and fake love and blood sweat and tears, ateez thanxx (vibrant is what i would call it), bts stay gold (it's so pretty and colourful and hopeful, gives me good vibes), enhypen drunk-dazed (the vampire concept and i lovelove the choreo and outfits), everglow first, agust d daechwita and bts idol (both have these traditional korean influences which i love), onlyoneof libido (besides the sultry choreo i love the daring themes for a korean group), red velvet peek-a-boo, bts black swan (gorgeous location and dance plus they all look so damn good in all black), ateez illusion (always brings a smile to my face, love the cute pastel concept with dark undertones in the lyrics), exo obsession (creepy and badass and i love it), hyuna i'm not cool (little bit weird in the best way), so many of nct mvs like simon says and kick it and make a wish and cherry bomb and uhhh maybe i should stop here. it ended up being a messy mile long list anyway, i apologise. i don't really know how else to say what i love in mvs. does these even give any kind of general view on what i like? idk. i don't think i dislike anything? maybe i just don't fixate that much on things i don't like, so i forget about them.

what are some of your fave mvs? can you say what you like and dislike in mvs?

-☀️🌙

I sure hope we all do too. So no worries! And haha, i can understand the struggle. You just have to go back and reblog everything once this is over, haha.

No problem! I think i's fun to talk about to! And crater dimple is accurate lol. Sejun really has the deepest dimple (almost everyone in victon has dimples, it's insane and i'm so weak for dimples it's not even funny).

Thanks for the reminder, i watched spark now! It was really good. And the drama looks super cute, maybe i should check it out.

Wow, that's quite a list, but don't apologise! I also think mvs are one of the reasons kpop is so interesting. They put so much into them, the production value must be insane. You've listed a lot good ones! Love the camera work and the cuts in skz's god's menu. And i also love mvs with traditional korean concepts/influences like idol, daechwita, oneus' lit, and a.c.e's goblin (favourite boys). (if you love traditional korean concepts you should check out a.c.e's version of arirang if you haven't seen it already, it's mind-blowingly good).

I especially have two mvs i will never shut up about. The first one is cix's jungle. It's just stunning in every way. The concept is fantastic, it's inspired by dante's divine comedy. It has some of the most beautiful scenes i've ever seen in a mv. And the choreo cuts are great, just the fact that they're dancing in water hhhhhnnnnn.

The second one is golden child's burn it. It's not even a mv, it's a wholeass zombie movie. It's so cool and beautiful and just heartbreaking. I almost cried when i saw it the first time.

I think i especially like mvs with a storyline. I find those more interesting. Honorable mentions are monsta x's all in and stray kids' side effects. Oh, and onlyoneof's libido, bc holy shit, that was something else. But then i also have a big soft spot for bright and goofy mvs, i love those. Like n.flying's the real and hot potato, skz's awkward silence and get cool, astro's breathless, and exo's power.

Oh, and i also have to mention kang daniel's paranoia, that one blew me away. And onewe's rain to be, love what they did with that one.

Lol i also ended up writing a whole essay. And i've probably forgotten mvs i love. Anyway, hope you have a nice day (or whatever time of day it is for you now)!

[videonoises]

i have MORE THOUGHTS NOW (and since it's a side blog, imma rb w them instead)

for context, my og tags:

(i put descriptions on the images, i hope they're done well enough, i'm not used to doing them yet)

but okay, so like, more thoughts, someone who met their soulmate(s) so young that they've always had very clear dreams, and they learn really late that not everyone has that, bc they always had the clearest dreams!!! turns out that's bc they're childhood friends with their person/their people

and YES to the dream constructing themselves with more and more soulmates when you have several, and it's just!!! it could be so cute

but also, if you go with the "you see what they're doing if they're awake and you're not" one, listen LISTEN-- one of them keeps sleeping super early on, knows everyone else, nobody knows them - or only knows their morning routine, and since everyone else /sleeps/ like /normal people/, they don't have a clue who it could be. OR one of them literally never seem to sleep, and everyone is concerned(tm). but when several of them are awake, do you switch between them like cameras??? or do you fluidly go from one then the other??? flip a coin??? do you see all the events at once and it feels super weird??? all of those are so interesting to think of

do you KNOW those are different people? or do you feel like it's "your soulmate" and it's a distinct feeling that makes them all seem like one, if you have several?

obviously the trope of the person who becomes amazing at lying through their teeth and pretending they're the dreammate when they're not, which can be so interesting!!!

character A seething bc they just heard someone do that, when they (A) are character B's dreammate, they RECOGNIZED THE DREAMS IN DETAILS!!! but they don't know how to go abt it bc obviously since they overheard the talk, they could be accused of lying too... the drama, the ANGST!!!

but also, the dream journals, accidentally finding someone's (your friend or not, really) dream journal and realising you're soulmates??? so much interesting ways to go abt this omg

another topic that i ALWAYS talk abt in soulmate AUs (i'm so sorry for my friends who keep!!! having!!! to listen to me talking abt it), are the bonds always romantic in a love at first sight vibe? or always platonic in a they're here forever vibe? is it up to the person? what does "soulmate" mean here?

to me, a soulmate is someone that makes you better, push you forward, push you to go beyond your limits, makes the world easier to face one way or another (including by making you stronger when you need to), and that you do the same thing for, without needing to ask or fairly effortlessly, which can make the soulmate range from your romantic partner for life, your best friend that makes everything so much better by existing, or even your lifelong rival that makes you want to get better (yes that means your rival in pokemon can absolutely be your soulmate, bc you're pushing each other to be the very best, listen--) and like, to me, the same person can also have a different way of being your soulmate throughout your life!!! you could be rivals then become friends, or friends then rivals, start one way and then evolve, because both of you have changed with life, and that means that there's a new way for the two of you to push each other to be the best you you can be!!! and even maybe at some points in life, have both a different perception of each other!!!

but then!!! what does the SOCIETY /within your AU/ sees the soulbond as? because you the author may know what the bond actually is, but we all know society can be very much not understanding of it - or have a misconstrued vision of things (same vibes as our society's amatonormativity placing romantic relationships as the peak of relationships, as is relationships had a hierarchy, which is the worst thing for anyone that isn't allosexual alloromantic) and with the knowledge of what society perceives the soulbond as, how do your characters perceive it? and even outside of society's impact on them, are they hoping for a certain kind of bond, what expectations do they have?

the soulbond manifesting through DREAMS, you have to have people mashing together the concept of "my dream person" / "the person of my dreams" and "my dreammate" / "the person in my dreams", there's so much to explore there!!!

ANYWAY yes hi, i'm sorry, i rambled, i really really love soulmate AUs and dream related AUs, and this is very very cool, thank u, i will now be thinking abt all of my blorbos in this context <333

Okay y'all new soulmate AU just dropped!

disclaimer: realistically I'm probably no the first who came out with this concept, I've just never seen it before and thought about it for quite some time now; that said if you know a story with this concept i'll be delighted to hear about it! (please)

Now that it's said, the AU itself!

I'm calling it "Dreammate AU"

The concept is very simple: people who are soulmates share their dreams in a way or another, it can takes different forms depending of what you, as a writer, decide to do:

soulmates can share dreams "since birth" or only after they meet for the first time

they can dream from the same pov (both the same "character") or from different perspectives (both have their own character, or one dream as a character (main on or not) and the other is just an observer...)

if they need to meet first for the link to form, it could be instantaneous (the next night they can share a dream) or takes some weeks (or more)

or it can be something else entirely, that one only dream of what the other actually do irl if they're not asleep (that's the one I use in one of my original works)

or really anything that you want, like that's the point of creation, right?

What do I like about this AU particularly? And kind of things can be explored in it?

wow so glad you asked bc I'd say it anyway

on a personal level (I know this one will not be universal) I love soulmates AUs but I always struggle a little with the idea of a cosmically predeterminated mate (I'm very unconfortable with the concept of predetermination as a whole irl), and this concept as opposed as more "visible" soulmarks can at least let some place to interpretation

I LOVE sharing my dreams with people irl, partly because my dreams are absolute bonkers and super fun to tell, and learn about other people dreams, so obviously this concept appeals to me

interesting ideas to explore in this AU include:

worlbuilding: how does a society in which sharing what you dreamed of could lead you to discover your soulmate(s)?

are dreams standard small talk? because you never know?

or is it the opposite? is "sharing your dream" something very intimate because that means/suppose you see your interlocutor as a potential soulmate and partner?

maybe both option cohexist in the univers you're creating, depending of origin or social backgroung, could be an occasion to explore differences in socialization

probably in this universe it's common to note everything you rememeber from your dreams as precisely as possible

I can totally see a whole profession (dreamkeeper?) which point is to collect, read, classify and trying to match dreams for people to kind their soulmate(s)

modern version of this job could include some kind of Internet side/social media with this purpose, and probably AI

and of course, your fav blorbos finding each other but being absolutely clueless about being soulmates

If you have other ideas, please share!

What do you think about it?

I would probably have some other things to add but the point is also to see what we can all create on this concept, it's not fun to do it alone, so please add your own ideas, tell me for which fandom you would write or read this AU, and how (please), reblog if you like the idea or if you think your followers may like it!

[gayspock]

honestly not to go on but it's quite embarrassing sometimes <3

been feeling like shite again, beloveds