#[ either is fine w/ me but i'll message u in a few hours to talk more when i'm back online]

[myjinri]

"that might explain the slight decline i've been feeling all year. i sign one contract and suddenly i'm hosting a little drinking show as if i'm that social." jinri was talkative, not social. there was a fine line between being the two. as a result, hosting and interviewing other celebrities had been challenging for her. it served it purpose though, improving the perception of her to the people that decided to tune in. "that's fair. i should've left it when i had the chance. now it's just another thing i have to look after." she may not have had much of a choice anyway, as social media has become a huge part of being a somebody in the world. it's just an aspect she's not interested in.

"i'll keep in mind that i have grey himself anticipating something from me. just keep the excitement relatively low. i've got almost a year worth of rust to knock off myself before i come out with anything i'm comfortable with anyone releasing." considering she also occasionally writes for true north, it was very possible that whatever she worked on might go to them. "hell, it'll be easier focusing on making songs for myself first, which i've been toying around with but not really committing to." it's been thoughts and brief discussions about concepts and overall themes, but no lyrics or ideas has been recorded.

for a second it had slipped her mind exactly why she was called a workaholic, and ash's words couldn't be more true once she had recalled it. "it may be surprising, but i needed that reminder." she definitely did not miss the long periods she'd spend in the studio, but it was all part of the process. "everlast is holding my creativity hostage until the lawsuit's finished, unfortunately." she half-heartedly joked. it felt partially true, as the ongoing lawsuit was the main reason she took a step back from producing and writing. "honestly? i'm just hesitant to pour my energy into myworld when i'm not even certain i'll have the legal rights to the music i made before." this was possibly the first time she has voiced that concern to anyone, as she'd just shrug and say she's uninspired when she was asked why she wasn't working on any music. however, ash seemed to be the type of person to understand where she was coming from, being a producer and songwriter himself. "but money really isn't a motivator for me. i need something that'll actually be of use to me. your soul any good? or did you already sign that away?"