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[hannahbanana629]

My 9-1-1 Thoughts

This is long winded, but I wanted to share my journey with watching this show. I need to share and release all the thoughts bouncing around my head after last nights episode before I go insane.

I'm posting my thoughts here on my main blog and then will repost it on my 9-1-1 side blog (@911whatsyournewaesthetic). It is mostly for the show and bucktommy, if you don't want to see it please stay away and be nice.

All will be under the keep reading and I'm going to try and tag careful because I'm a nobody and don't feel comfortable posting in the tags.

P.S. this is not a goodbye to the show, I will continue to watch, I'm just sad about last nights episode and want to reflect on how I ended up watching in the first place.

I began watching 9-1-1 when it moved over to ABC. I live in a small town with not great antenna signal so I only get ABC, which means I didn't know about the show until last year.

My first episode was of course S7E1, I believe (if my memory serves me right) I think I caught the last 15 minutes of it (I have a weird work schedule so bear that in mind). Then the rest of the cruise ship arc happened and same thing caught last 15- 30 minutes of those episodes too. Then i believe ABC aired all 3 episodes back to back one night and I was able to catch them all, and was hooked and also very confused.

What confused me was well everything I guess. I didn't know who these characters were, didn't know their names, even when they said them I couldn't remember them, but I was hooked all thanks to that damn cruise ship and Angela Bassett and Peter Krause. The other characters hooked me in too, their wit and humor and care for one another was a real draw.

The rest of the season went on, continued to catch episodes here and there, missed some entirely but was still hooked, trying to figure out everything with just Season 7.

Then comes the decision to binge watch, after the season had finished I knew I had to watch the other seasons to fully understand everything that went on. That, that decision has led here.

During my binge watch, I knew immediately that all these characters were important and something about them just felt comfortable to me, not sure how else to describe it.

What drew me to the show in the first place was Athena and Bobby but as I watched from the beginning each character became my favorite, in some way, shape or form. I truly do not hate any of the characters (shocker, right!). The stories were also interesting which felt like I needed to know more, no matter what the story was, whether it was backstory or an emergency, I couldn't stop watching.

Now I don't really want to get into the whole "ship wars" and everything (but I will), but imagine my surprise when I began searching online in the middle of my binge watch, for anything about the show, and came across B*ddie. Now that was truly confusing to me, I had no idea that was something people were watching for or were "seeing". I'll be honest I wasn't opposed to it at first when first reading about it, but when I re-entered the world of Tumblr (I left many moons ago, after my other dearly loved show (OUAT) and "trauma" of being in fandom sent me away) and began to read things, I was immediately turned off by it because of how mean and nasty some people were (this was before I even got to watch S7E4). Plus I just didn't see what all the B*ddies were seeing, Buck and Eddie reminded me of me and my friend where we just care about each other deeply, but have our own separate lives.

Eventually, through my binge watch I got back to season 7, understood all the cruise ship arc better then when I first watched, and continued on, which leads to being quite surprised when Buck and Tommy kissed. Now this goes back to my previous statement about the whole "ship war" I did not want to hop on to any ships, I was trying to stay very much General Audience (LOL), but I was very intrigued by BuckTommy, I don't know why but for me, there was excitement there. I continued watching and lurked around here and after some time, decided to hop aboard the BuckTommy ship. There was just something about them and all the post that I was seeing involving them seemed much more welcoming and happy compared to the other ship.

As I continued to lurk around, I felt more and more passion for the show, especially now hopping aboard a ship that I liked, there was something exciting, it felt like being in the OUAT fandom again, without the "trauma". I learned to just laugh at a stupid take, block and move on. However, I was still hesitant on actually posting about the show or BuckTommy, but lo and behold here I am, started posting after the breakup (how stupid is that LOL).

Now to last nights episode, what a gut punch. Bobby being one of the reasons that I started to watch this show, where no one dies, suddenly dying of a fucking virus. What The Hell!!! I don't really have much to say other than I'm sad and mad and clearly the creator of the show is insane, for wanting to change up the aspect of the show for "creative reasons" *cough BULLSHIT cough*. And the cast all trying to sway him to not do it, is so shitty as well.

Like I said at the beginning of my post I will continue to watch the show because as much as Bobby and Athena where the initial draw into watching the show I have developed much care and a lot of feelings for the others too, Buck, Chimney, Hen, Eddie, and Maddie. They all make me feel warm and fuzzy, and I am interested in seeing how they manage without Bobby.

Anyway.... thanks for letting me rant and reminisce.