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[thezombieprostitute]

Alphas & Algorithms - Pool Days

Summary: Just a post-series moment that I've never fully been able to stop thinking about.

A/N: Reader is tall. No other physical descriptors used. Original series used "Y/N" but I'm changing that for this story.

Warnings: Pregnancy. Please let me know if I missed any.

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The community center pool had become your favorite place since you started feeling the weight of the pregnancy. And given that you were carrying twins, you felt that weight early. Curtis had no experience with swimming but given how important the pool was becoming for you, he asked you and Jake to help him learn.

Twins, you think to yourself while Jake helps Curtis practice his floating. You're still not sure if it's the fact that you and Curtis ended up marking each other or if it was the courting beforehand, or maybe even a fluke. But you're the first Omega under the Algorithm's rule to have twins.

The Algorithm decided more data was needed and now you were even more hated by the other Omegas in your tower. You disrupted their status quo. Their fun. Again. Other towers were the control group while you and yours were now the experimental group. Colin hated having to actually get to know potential mates. Suzanne dreaded the prospect of being marked. Though Peggy did send you a small gift since there was no more forced matings for her.

You're distracted by a splashing of water and Curtis moving towards you. "Can't relax enough to float when I can feel the stress in your mind."

"Overthinking's always been a problem for Sweetie," Jake adds. "Though I'll be the first to admit, it's died down a lot with your help, Curt."

Curtis holds you close, his nose rubbing along the scar on your mating gland while his hand gently rubs your belly. You feel his trust, respect, even some pride, through the bond. You'll never deny he's been caring and attentive, even before your pregnancy was confirmed. He is very much a good mate, and you return those emotions to him.

As you calm, one of the pups decides to kick for the first time. You and Curtis both gasp in shock, waiting to see if it'll happen again.

"What's wrong?" Jake is immediately on the alert, waiting to be told to do something to help.

You feel another kick and you smile. "They're kicking," you whisper. You turn to Curtis with a smile and say it louder, "they're kicking." Curtis nods, his own smile forming with love in his eyes. You gesture to Jake to come feel for himself.

With all three of you feeling the pups kick and move, for the first time in your life, you feel like part of a pack. Like you'll never have to go through anything alone.

And part of you knows, you'll never let the Algorithm take your pups away from you.

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Tagging: @alicedopey; @delicatebarness; @every-username-is-taken-damnit, @icefrozendeadlyqueen; @ronearoundblindly

[mowiwow]

irrational (modern clarence)

It's irrational.

Completely and utterly irrational of him. Nonsensical, really.

He doesn't even like sweets; sugar makes him sleepy, after all. Even on Valentine's Day, Clarence has work that needs to be done. Arguably, he has even more work because it's Valentine's Day. Setting up a secret gifting system, organizing Valentine's Day related activities, dealing with lovestruck students meandering about on campus and throughout the halls...

Yes, Valentine's Day is a lot of work. Every holiday usually is. No rest for the wicked, as they say.

It starts as a simple observation. William had barged into the room bragging about how many chocolates he had received (most of which seemed to be obligation chocolates).

And amongst his collection was a small bag tagged with a familiar name.

Your name.

It haunts him throughout the day. It's silly, but every time the doors to the student council room opens, he waits for your voice to call out his name.

He's disappointed every time.

First, it had been William with his chocolates (your chocolates). Making a large fuss, as usual. Slacking off, as usual.

Clarence forcibly puts William to work.

(It's William's fault, Clarence thinks, that Clarence's mind ends up being occupied by the image of your little chocolate bag in William's hands.)

Then, it was two of the other student council members barging in with a panicked expression on their face. A miscommunication regarding the secret Valentine's Day letters, one says; various letters were lost or misplaced.

Turns out that they had just left it in a forgotten drawer somewhere in the student council room.

(He overhears one student council member mention you and how good your chocolates were as they leave the room with a box full of letters.)

And then the former student council president visited him with a lackadaisical gait and some teasing words for Clarence. And a gaggle of enamoured students drawn in by O'Connor's beauty.

He promptly shooed all of them out.

(O'Connor's teasing words about the lack of chocolates that Clarence has received has him unusually ruffled; Clarence shouldn't be one to care about those things. But, also, he does receive chocolates, he just makes sure they're out of the way of things.)

By the end of the day, he's exhausted. Clarence doesn't have any particularly strong opinions about Valentine's Day, but if this is what he'll have to face in the years to come—

He might just end up hating Valentine's Day.

And there's no chocolates on his desk from...

The door opens again.

The student council president's eye twitches as he looks up, ready to deal with whatever life has thrown his way—

"Clarence!"

It's you.

"Do you need something?" Clarence asks, pretending that he's not scanning your person to see if you're carrying anything. You are not.

"Just a little bit of the student council president's time," you reply with a cheeky smile, bounding right on over to his desk like you own the place.

"...For what?" he asks, somewhat warily.

"For this!"

You reach into the bag hanging from your arm and produce a small box the shape of a... ring... box...

Clarence's mouth almost drops open.

"I got you some mints! It's not the traditional chocolates people give on Valentine's Day but I figured you'd like mints more."

"Oh..."

What... was he thinking? Logically speaking, there was no way that the box was actually going to be—

He clears his throat and solemnly accepts the small box from you. For no particular reason, he shakes it a little. As expected, he hears small items rattling around. "Thank you."

"Then, I'll be on my way!" you say cheerfully, already turning to leave with a wave.

"Wait—"

You look back at him, confusion clear on your face. Clarence clears his throat, putting the box of mints down on his desk.

"I'm almost finished here," he says quietly. "It's getting dark out and there's data suggesting that crime rate increases when it's dark and it's always safer to be in pairs than to be alone, so—"

You laugh fondly, turning back to him with an amused grin. "Sure, Clarence. You can walk me home."

He feels a little embarrassed. To hide this, he adjusts his glasses and nods stiffly. "I'll be with you in a second."

And as he turns around to start tidying up his desk, he glimpses the small box of mints he'd put down. And, oddly enough, a pleasant warmth spreads through his chest.

Maybe Valentine's Day isn't so bad after all.

[lashysdomain]

@mageofspacemultiverse and @memurfevur 's Oc Name ARG Data

for those who AREN'T me who've spent the last 4 days and almost every waking and sleeping hour thinking about this, here's what we have so far + puzzles i've not yet been able to solve

characters: [name] - (blog they're at)

arceel - (memurfevur)

how we found out about ynygme (from here on referred to as E). ex moirail, used to be known as Balerion. this is the name that E knows him by.

Ynygme - (mageofspacemultiverse)

We have found E's name. it's recommended not to say it, just in case. they're currently in hiding while we find a tether and figure out how to decode the spell we need to bring them home.

the subjugate video

one of E's captors. we've been told to hide from them, so DNI. please. i know, villian, but dni. summoned by us guessing S

the warden video (loud)

another of e's captors, 110% fucked up on this one. i didn't notice, both of these are my fault.

current puzzle objective is solving the spell to get back to E and helping find any parts of their body to create their tether

extra characters and unsolved puzzles/extra info under the cut

watch'r - (memurfevur)

bound to arceel, knows what's going on to some degree, will take gossip as a bribe for clues, unsure what he'll give. that's my bestie

For now we're good on clues, but we might need more soon?

matild kirada - (memurfevur)

gilf. who said that mentioned in the poem posts image, likely whos help we need to find e's body

unsolved puzzles

i'm currently still trying to solve these, but i'm at my wits end in a way

possible code could be from the polls, setting the positions of letters in another key the letters and their resulting poll result numbers are: e2 r4 p5 i6 c6 h3 (the letters spell cipher. kilant you bitch.)

p is interesting, and has the options of 20 5 20 8 5 18 which when put into an alphanumeric substitution cipher gives us "tether" could be nothing but that seems purposeful? every other poll has just 123...

the pastebin clues, found from the description of the subjugate video.

these are settings for the enigma machine. what we put into it probably hasn't been sent out yet, it's also a clue about E's first name more than likely.

as dr el fj ky mt ob qx uz wh I 10 1 III 17 2 VII 6 4

A grandpre grid from the watch'r drabble and following judgements roman numerals gives us a likely second set of plugboard settings for the enigma machine.

the rest of the settings were found on a past post leading to a soundcloud link

ap cm dv gq iy ne rj sw uf zk V 4 6 IV 6 2 VIII 16 6

from the tags of the last ask + settings for another machine from the post where E told us about their past with balerion. it's unclear if the setting for the third rotor is 22 1 or 2 21

RC EY BF SG JM ID LQ KZ TU HO V 18 3 VI 1 5 III 2 2 1

from a poll with some sort of poem? poem might not actually be important, but the poll post is here

vuypo xu klt syet ya g rukobq crmgp fpkose kkmexf wkzoec knm bwbx qgzkem

Jcif xgs aphwvx rxdgdk jc boyf Irmm g inbfjh b qrqqevn onmzf Mcuvh omeccn diegypgp

from E's latest ask and pulled from the captions of the Warden video. if this is the spell, we're missing the last third piece still

i believe it might be a beaufort vigenere cipher, but we don't have it's key. could also need to be spit through specific enigma machine settings. there are far too many for me to brute force, so we'll just have to wait.

the words that bring them together are likely just the spell, not anything super complex (well more so than finding it all)

current state of the reset conspiracy board

[corishadowfang]

Hi. So random and probably weird. But. Earlier today i was scrolling thru the foreteller tag on ao3 and saw you were gifted two khux fics inspired by Hadestown and my school is doing hadestown for our spring musical and we literally just did our script read through today + i’ve listened to the soundtrack a few times now so im super familiar with the show now and now i NEED to hear your thoughts on khux and hadestown bc before i saw those fics i was thinking about how much those two medias would fuck combined . 🤲

I wish I could give you an actual, in-depth answer to this, but I've only listened to a couple of the songs, and it's, uh...been a while. ("Wait for Me (Reprise)" and "Chant" are the only two I've really listened to recently.) From what I remember, I can DEFINITELY see a lot of potential for crossovers (you could do some interesting stuff comparing Hadestown to the data Daybreak Town--or even standard Daybreak Town, given that becoming a Keyblade wielder, uh...kind of means you don't have many options for leaving).

...Honestly, now that I'm thinking about it, it'd be kind of cool if like--someone close to one of the Keykids who isn't a wielder realized just how messed up the whole child soldiers thing is, and went to rescue them much like Orpheus tried to, only for it to, uh...go about as well.

...I think that's as much as I've got, though. I'm sorry! Hopefully it's at least something??

[bigmouthlass]

Title:  Of Constant Sorrow

Author:  BJ

Fandom:  The Boys

Warning: Graphic Depictions Of Violence

Rating:  Mature

Synopsis: The after-the-fact deposition of the nurse brought in to care for a certain explosively hot patient.

Tags:  Solider Boy, Ben O'Connell, Original Female Character, Billy Butcher, Grace Mallory, Starlight, Annie January, Hughie Campbell, MM, Marvin Milk, Frenchie, Serge Cassell, Kimiko Miyashiro, Original Male Character, Unethical Experimentation, Unethical Medicine, Canon Divergence, AU, No Good Answers

AN:  Content warning -- unironic use of racial slurs.

This was actually my mother's idea-- my mom spent twenty years as a home health aide who specialized in elder care. She and I got to speculating on how someone might connect with Soldier Boy even in his vulnerable state at the end of S3, and this is how I ran with her idea. Factual errors are mine; I'm not a medial professional. Songs are, "Ship of Fools," by Bob Seger, "Man/Maid of Constant Sorrow," by Dick Burnett, "My Favorite Dream," by Bill Walsh and Ray Noble (the magic harp's lullaby from 'Mickey and the Beanstalk'), and "Too-Ra-Loo-Ra-Loo-Ral (An Irish Lullaby)," by James Royce Shannon. All recognizable intellectual properties are owned by their respective creators and holders of any trademarks or copyrights. This is a not-for-profit work of fan art and is protected by Fair Use.

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Data classified Top Secret/eyes only under authority of case officer Mallory

Interrogation session 8 re case Solider Boy. Subject: DePoister, Charlotte, captain, USA.

WB: We recording? Right, this can go all sorts of ways, love-- CD: You can knock off the intimidation schtick. I can see how sick you are. You should be in a hospital.

HC: He's been doing a lot better lately-- how can you tell? CD: Because it's my damn job, jackass.

WB: Don't you worry 'bout me. I'm sound as a pound. MM: Okay, let's not get sidetracked. Tell us about how you got hired to be Solider Boy's nurse. CD: I'm a Supe-- super-ability immunity to poisons and radiation. However, I’m not indestructible. I didn't even get super healing. I cut, I bruise, I bleed, I break. I age. At least my sister went gray first. Take that, ya brat. I turned down Vought and enlisted, got trained as a combat medic and went to college for my nursing degree after I was wounded in the line of duty. Immunity to poisons is a great thing to have for a first responder.

HC: Wait-- I thought the Army banned Supes. AJ: Supes that are the property of Vought are barred from serving. People with super-abilities aren’t. CD: Right. Given a choice, most Supes pick Vought because the money is a lot better. My dad never did forgive me for turning them down. I could be rich'n'famous right now. Decontamination Charlotte, complete with sequined “HazMat” suit with florescent Fuck Me boots. Instead I picked Uncle Sam, like an idiot. I came out of the Army with a captain’s commission, an RN license, and an average of about four nightmares a month. Anyway. Colonel Mallory came to me herself after the incident at Vought Tower. She explained the situation and pointed out my sister's six-figure tax debt thanks to her idiot husband's house-flipping business and how she could make it go away. That’s pretty much how I ended up taking what was basically an orderly’s job in that spick-and-span underground Purgatory. Nasogastric feeding tube in one end, Foley catheter in the other, and between the two a living body that still needed things like bathing and haircuts and whatnot. The Russians were clever to keep him in an upright position. No pressure sores. Not that he’d be prone to them. --- You think you’re gonna get used to it, but you never really do, Charlotte remembered her practical instructor saying as she completed her unit in the chronic care building at Walter Reed. Ward 4, where long-term coma patients and people in persistent vegetative states lived out their lives until a merciful God called them home. Especially when the patients were healthy otherwise-- young, strong, people who should’ve been out in the sunlight.

With that Me Doctor You Nurse sneer some of them just seemed to have, Dr. Sanjeer briefed her on the acceptable baselines for the patient’s vital signs. “Any independent motion, no matter how minor, must be reported at once. When he was originally roused from captivity in Russia, he blasted through a reinforced concrete wall before he was fully conscious and oriented to time and place.”

“So we’re worried he might haul off and punch a hole in the world.”

“In brief, yes.”

“Great.” Not that the good doctor was worried, from the other side of a camera feed in a laboratory in a completely different part of the facility. Leave the cleanup to Charlotte. Decontamination Charlotte, the filth doesn’t touch her in a bad place.

The containment capsule opened with a sigh of equalizing air pressure. Up close the wrong feeling was worse. White adult male, bearded, mass 85 kilos, height 185 centimeters, beautifully cut muscles, broad shoulders, and long legs. Electrodes stuck to his temples and on his chest fed data to the containment capsule's monitors, with telemetry readings well within Dr. Sanjeer's provided baselines. The only concession to modesty was a drape over his groin, the line of a catheter running to a onboard reservoir. Urinalysis made for a crude substitute for a proper blood test but the needle hadn’t been invented yet that could pierce his skin. A breathing mask clamped over his face fed him air laced with the nerve agent keeping him . . . keeping him in some Supe-enabled state that wasn't quite comatose and wasn't quite dead.

"Hi. Ben, right?” she said.

Over the monitor Dr. Sanjeer's condescending frown deepened.

Charlotte wasn't fazed. Dr. Sanjeer's specialties were in genetics and biochemistry, not direct care. She'd lay money he'd never gone near a patient in his life-- not a human one anyway, he had the look of a monkey man. “His brain still works, right? He’s not an inanimate object. I refuse to treat him like one.

“Ben, my name is Charlotte DePoister. I’ll be your primary care nurse. You have a tube in your nose feeding you fluids and a catheter’s been inserted into your penis. I apologize if either feel uncomfortable. I’ll be in for four hour shifts every day at 0600 and 1800 to see to your physical needs, which will include moving your limbs to keep your muscles from atrophy, keeping you clean, reflex checks, and tactile stimulation tests. I’m going to put something in your hand to demonstrate." From her scrub top pocket, Charlotte pulled out a tennis ball. She took the unconscious Supe’s hand and shaped it into a cup, fitting the tennis ball down into it.

No response. His fingers were warm and totally lax.

“All right. I’m going to give you a quick bath with some dry shower cloths. Clever things, keep you almost as clean as a full sponge bath and a lot less labor intensive. Full baths are still on the agenda, every fifth day. I’ll wash your hair then too. Beard trims as needed, haircuts once a month, but I don’t manscape.”

Charlotte hummed as she worked on the heavy pile of inert tissue that might've had a man inside somewhere. Dr. Sanjeer watched with a look of greed on his face that made her uncomfortable. Reminding her that he saw her patient as a specimen.

At the end of her shift, she covered Ben with a light blanket and sealed the containment capsule. The air inside went misty as it pressurized and filled with the Novachik nerve agent. Carefully, with the thick plastic gloves built into the capsule, she removed the breathing mask. The pad beneath him activated to hold him in place and the capsule went into lateral rotation mode, rocking him side-to-side. A child in a cradle made of lead and poison. "See you this evening, Ben." --- MM: What were you told about the actual research going on? CD: Just broad strokes. The laboratories were all dedicated to studying him, trying to figure out how that radiation of his neutralizes super-abilities. I sat through a lot of meetings with lab coats pissing and moaning about not being able to access their specimen directly.

WB: And you never thought to ask where you fit into the master plan? Spending all day wiping Soldier Boy's arse you'd think you'd be a bit more inquisitive. CD: What do you want from me, you prick? I'm a soldier. My job's to execute orders and hope like hell the officers over me know what the fuck they're doing. You're military too, you should know that. In the day-to-day it was pure routine, like caring for any long-term coma patient. I’d clean him up at the start of my shift, do basic physiotherapy, provide sensory and tactile stimulation with things like soft toys. I read somewhere that he's a baseball fan, so I started playing the radio play-by-plays over the speaker in the containment capsule.

SC: Why even bother? What care does a monster like that warrant in light of the crimes he's committed? CD: Because he’s a person, no matter how horrible a person he is. Nobody deserves to be tortured with the effects of long-term immobility. “We must be what we are, else we become our enemies.” Historical fantasy. A Song For Arbonne. --- "I saw that one on the TV," Charlotte said as she scrubbed her patient’s hair. Soft and fine like her own and sweet with the mild smell of Johnson and Johnson No-Tears. "The home plate ump totally blew that call. Even I could see that wasn’t in the strike zone." Over the capsule’s speaker Dickerson called it-- White Sox over Tigers, 13-6. "Buncha dipshits this year. The Tigers haven’t been able to get shit done with Cabrerra out. I hope we haven’t lost him for the season."

No response from her patient.

Charlotte turned the game off and rinsed out the shampoo. Careful of the clamps holding the breathing mask, she used a little travel dryer on her patient’s hair, lifting the strands to get the cool air at the roots. She sang as she worked. "'Tell me quick,' said Old MacPhee, 'what's this all got to do with me? I spent all my time at sea, alone' . . ." --- MM: Let's get back on track. So you were taking care of Soldier Boy while he was . . . out. The nerve agent should've had him totally insensate. What happened to change that? CD: Either his body started adapting to the Novachik or someone was deliberately dialing back the concentration. Possibly both. --- "This is a ball of hemp cord, it should feel rough and abrasive against your skin." Charlotte lightly ran the stim object down his forearm and checked No Response. "What's on the agenda for today . . . oh it's everybody's favorite, Leg Day."

Talking through each flexation and extension, Charlotte moved each of her patient's legs through their full range of motion. "Everything's still moving the way it should be, big guy. You're not even losing muscle tone. Reflex test-- I'm going to run the tip of an ink pen along the sole of your foot."

Accustomed to days and days of the same thing, Charlotte didn't register at first what she was seeing. His foot flexed, curling into the touch of the ballpoint pen as she ran it up the arch. "Woah." She did it again. Another flex. This time, the muscle groups in his calf twitched, like he was trying to point his toes. Charlotte finally registered what it was that had put her on edge-- his pulse and breathing had sped up, just enough to be noticeable.

Dr. Sanjeer had been very clear on this point. Any indication that he might be coming out of his next-door-to-dead state rated a five-alarm panic. Instead, Charlotte squeezed his ankle. "It's okay. You're safe. It's just Charlotte, Ben. Flex your toes again if you can hear me."

Nothing. Involuntary reaction, nothing more. Just a sign that physiotherapy was in fact indicated. --- MM: The doctor told you to sound the alarm if he showed any signs of coming out of it. How come you didn't? CD: I didn't think it'd be in anybody's best interest to punch the panic button, least of all my patient's. I know you don't take the idea seriously, but part of my duty as his nurse is to be an advocate for his well-being.

AJ: He roasted Crimson Countess alive, he bashed Mindstorm's face in-- CD: Have you read his quote-unquote "service record"? His brilliant solution to the Korean conflict damn near started World War III. Under international law he's an unindicted war criminal. And I'm sure all of you have been hurt by him. Directly. At his hands. Making him suffer when he's helpless doesn't do a damn thing to balance those scales or prevent anyone else from getting hurt. Justice is a higher duty than our fucking feelings.

MM: Look, I used to be a corpman. Okay? I agree with you. Just tell us what happened next. CD: According to the EEG, he started cycling between normal periods of dreaming and non-dreaming sleep. They weren’t happy dreams either. His vital signs would start spiking right the fuck off the scale and the Geiger counter would start sounding like a electric woodpecker. Scared the shit out of me the first time it happened. I’m immune to the neurotoxin and the radiation, not to getting vaped or having a mountain dropped on me. --- Charlotte had gotten into the habit of keeping the containment capsule open while she was in the room with her patient. With the room itself isolated and her the only person allowed direct access, it just made her job easier not having to constantly pressurize and depressurize the damned thing. She'd also gotten into the habit of holding his hand for part of her shift. Sometimes there'd be a faint twitch. Nothing that could be misconstrued as deliberate, purposeful action. Once his hand had full-on clamped, just shy of enough force to crush the bones. Hurt like hell. Charlotte blessed the foresight that had made her use her left hand.

The day everything changed was another day exactly the same as all the rest. Charlotte had been catching up on the charting when an alarm on the telemetry monitor went off. The Geiger counter started ticketing away, as the needle rocked right into the red zone. The pump on the gas canisters under the containment capsule kicked on, upping the concentration of the nerve agent in his breathing mix. It wasn't working fast enough, Charlotte could see. His pulse had risen to 50 and the EEG showed highly active REM sleep. Dreaming sleep.

"Holy Mary mother of God you're having a nightmare," Charlotte said. She grabbed Ben's hand and put it over her heart. "Ben. Ben, it's okay! Whatever you're seeing's not real! It'll pass in a second! Calm down! It's not real!" Nothing. His eyes rolled under his closed eyelids and his heart rate continued to climb like the price on a gas pump-- 70, 80, 90 . . .

Charlotte put her lips next to Ben's ear and sang. "I . . . am a maid . . . of constant sorrow . . . I've seen trials for all my days. I'll say goodbye to California . . . the land where I was partly raised."

The motion behind his eyelids paused. Charlotte took a breath and went on, softer and tuneful. "Your friends may say that I’m a stranger, my face they'll never see no more. There is but one promise given, that I'll sail on God's golden shore." As she watched, Ben's vital signs held their plateau . . . and started to sink.

"Oh thank God," Charlotte sighed. "All through this world, I'm bound to ramble," she brushed a lock of Ben's hair back from his forehead. Odd that his ageless face should look careworn, that the eternally sleeping should look so damned exhausted. "Through sun and wind and driving rain. I'm bound to ride the western railway . . . perhaps I'll take the very next train." The image struck her then, Ben out in the world, dressed in clothes for the outdoors, sitting in the open door of a boxcar as it rolled from somewhere to somewhere. God, even jail would be better than this . . . living death.

"I am a maid of constant sorrow, I've seen trials all of my days," she reprised. There. His heart rate had reached it's normal resting pace, as the nerve agent did its work and put him more thoroughly under. "I'm going back to California," on impulse she kissed the back of his hand, "the land where I was partly raised." She laid Ben's arm back by his side.

"Sweet Jesus you scared me," she said into the silence. --- WB: So you just sung the cunt a lullaby, gave him a kiss like he was fucking Sleeping Beauty, and what, defused him? CD: It worked didn't it? The next time it happened, I took his hand and did the whole lullaby thing and he settled. Sanjeer speculated he was having flashback-powered nightmares, but he had already associated my voice with harmlessness so he was able to reality-check his way out of it without waking up. He said to continue as before. I was just glad to end each shift in one piece to be honest. What I didn't know was-- well you guys probably know more about that than I do. There were parties very interested in obtaining my patient who'd finally succeeded in fixing his location. They were trying to access him directly and remove him intact, without waking him up.

K, via interpreter: . . . she's asking why they didn't just come to you. CD: Lack of opportunity, probably. Like everybody else who knew about our payload, I lived onsite, my movements were restricted, and my activities were monitored. That I’m talking to you guys and not to yet another interrogation specialist says Colonel Mallory's already cleared me of any conspiracy. I’m gonna spend the rest of my life in 'protective custody' anyway, so pardon me if I forget my fucking manners.

AJ: Well maybe we can do something about that. CD: Hah. Don't write checks you can't cash. The thanks of a grateful nation amount to not putting me on trial for treason or espionage because that would involve admitting Soldier Boy's alive in an open courtroom, and who knows what Vought or God save us Homelander might do with that information.

MM: We can talk to the Colonel. Move you someplace a little lower security, someplace that allows visitors. I mean, your family's gotta be missing you. CD: That carrot's already been dangled. My sister's been made aware of my status, and has chosen not to communicate. Christ alone knows where my ex is-- probably shacked up with one of his undergrads and a case of Jack Daniels. --- "It's raining outside." Charlotte said as she fiddled with the nail file. She couldn't clip her patient’s nails, exactly, none of the clippers she'd tried had even scratched the nail surface. But they'd file if she ground at them enough. "You know something? There are times I think I'd sell my soul just to take a fucking walk by myself. This place is so double-top-secret they interrogate fresh air before they let it in."

She laughed to herself. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't be whining to somebody who can't tell me to shut up. I just realized this morning it's my nephew’s birthday but because I'm incommunicado I can't call him and say Happy Birthday. My sister's a brat and her boys are bratlings, but they're my brats.

"They're probably going to the beach, since it's the weekend. Grand Haven State Park-- these long fine sand beaches and nothing in the water that might eat you. We went there two-three times a summer when we were kids. The wind blows right off Lake Michigan hard enough to make the air feel nice, even when it's like a million degrees outside. Lucky me I got the suntan gene but my sister'd burn'n'peel every damn year. That fair Irish skin-- you could probably relate. My ex-husband was like that too. Our honeymoon, we spent three days in the Keys. Chris got sunburned so bad we had to spend most of it inside. Kind of a bad omen in retrospect.”

Realizing she was rambling, Charlotte stopped. She glanced at the telemetry monitor; he was in REM sleep but his vitals were still well under the panic threshold. She hoped it was a nice dream. She cleared her throat and sang, "In my favorite dream, everyone is so delightful, no one's mean or spiteful . . ."

She put Ben's hand down. "Good night. See you in the morning," she said, and sealed the capsule. As she took off the mask, she swallowed when she saw a tiny trail of moisture running from the corner of one eye. Charlotte hoped with all her heart it was just a bit of extra water and, careful to keep the touch light, she used her gloved thumb to wipe it away. --- MM: Take us through what happened. Did you notice anything out of routine when your morning shift started? CD: No. The pump that fed the breathing mask was still going so as far as I knew everything was normal. I filled the canister with the Novachik in the lab and changed it out like usual. My guess is the nerve agent was a dud.

SC: That would not be difficult. Novachik is not so easy to synthesize. If the pH is even a little out of balance-- seawater. CD: Right. I was going through his stimulation drills and I noticed his brain activity acting up, so I took his hand and started singing and it seemed like he’d calmed down. So I turned away to get the things for his bath when an alarm started going off on the capsule telemetry display. I looked at his face, and his eyes were open. --- "You've been doing this more lately," Charlotte said as she flexed his hand around the rubber handball. "It can't be because the Phillies are doing more than taking up space in the cellar this year. I didn't mean to get your hopes up there. I gotta suffer through Tigers mediocrity, you get to suffer with me. So there-- oh shit." Ben's heartrate was climbing again, though thank God not as fast as that first time. Charlotte pressed his hand over her heart again. "Okay. Orient on my heartbeat. A-one-and-a-two-and-a-here-we-go-- Too-rah-loo-rah-loo-ral, too-rah-loo-rah-lee . . ."

By the time she finished the Irish lullaby, Ben's vitals were dropping. "There. And according to my handy-dandy calendar, it's bath day. Let me take a look at that manly mane of yours. Might be time for a trim." As she turned to her cart, an alert on the containment capsule started going off. "Wait, what the fuck?"

A look at the EEG waves and her heart turned to ice. Nice and spiky and active and awake. Charlotte barely had time to complete that thought when a hand snapped around her neck. A tiny trickle of urine ran into her underwear as her patient-- as Ben-- as Solider Boy slowly sat up, eyes open and full of enough rage to start a war. Black fog washed over her vision and she went ragdoll. In an almost abstract sort of way she said goodbye to her sister and nephews, remembered the last time she'd watched a really pretty sunrise, regretted running out of her room without making her bed this morning.

"Where. Am. I?" he growled, muffled by the mask. The grip on her neck loosened just enough for Charlotte to breathe.

"West Virginia. Hazardous Waste Containment Facility," Charlotte croaked. --- MM: What happened next? CD: You saw the video. He grabbed me by the neck, demanded to know where he was, told me to take out the tubes, then he told me to show him the way out or he’d rip my fucking head off. Direct quote. --- “I’m sorry, this is probably going to hurt.”

“Just get it out of me motherFUCKER!!!” Soldier Boy screamed as Charlotte pulled the Foley. He cupped his hands over his genitals, curling over them protectively. “Oh that hurt like shit!”

Thankful that her hands weren’t shaking, Charlotte tossed the catheter tube. Picking up a towel she said, “Feeding tube next. Take a few deep breaths, suck in, and hold it,” carefully, she tugged the thin plastic tube out of his nose.

“Jesus Christ snorting fiberglass didn’t hurt this much,” he groaned, taking the towel from Charlotte and using it to apply pressure to his nose. “My God, am I hungry. Tell me you’ve got some food stuffed down your bra."

Deep in that clinical space she’d paid the iron price to learn, Charlotte said, “This is a hot zone. No food or drink.”

“No clothes either, I suppose. Figures.”

“You were comatose and incontinent. Clothes would have been impractical.”

Soldier Boy did a double-take. Was he blushing? Hard to tell with the beard. "Incontinent? You've been wiping my ass the whole time I've been here?!?"

"Calm down. I'm a nurse."

Soldier Boy made another one of those scoffing noises. Charlotte had heard him called an analog Homelander. Nobody who'd seen either up close would make that mistake. Around Homelander there was . . . like hearing a song playing on an out-of-tune piano. There was a feral edge to his mannerisms that led one to question whether or not a whole human being looked through those lake-blue eyes. Soldier Boy, whatever else he might be, was human. Mesmerizingly so. Charlotte could see how he could command men’s souls with a snap of his fingers. Worth wondering if his intense personal charisma was part of his super-ability package or something uniquely his own. Either way, it was overwhelming.

Soldier Boy rolled to get to his feet. On reflex Charlotte grabbed his arm to help him balance. He jerked away. “Get your damn hands offa me!”

“Sorry! Sorry,” Charlotte backed away, hands held up and empty.

Say this much, he was good at assessing situations quickly. He looked around, noting the cameras, the smallness of the room, the cool stillness of the air, the particular quality of the silence. “How far underground are we?”

“I don’t exactly know,” Charlotte admitted as Soldier Boy snatched a blanket off the storage cabinet and wrapped himself up. “Construction on the main facility was abandoned twenty-thirty years ago when nuclear power development started to slow down. The main spaces were retrofitted into laboratories, a tunnel was punched down, and this,” Charlotte circled a finger, “was hollowed out. There’s this room, the observation bay, a decontamination chamber, a locker room, and an elevator.”

Soldier Boy’s twitchy eyes fixed on Charlotte. “That shit they use to knock me out-- why aren’t you dead?”

“Supe,” Charlotte said shortly. “Immune to poisons, including radiation. Also drugs don’t work on me. Made getting shot a bucket of fun.”

Soldier Boy looked her up and down. "I take it instant healing isn’t part of the package? Good. Get me out of here, or I’ll rip your fucking head off. Clear?"

Charlotte commended her soul to God. “Crystal.” --- AJ: It's okay. You don't have to be scared of him. CD: Of course I need to be scared of him, kiddo. You think something as trivial as a detention center crawling with Special Forces trained guards in the middle of a CIA black hole is gonna stop him from getting to me if he really sets his mind to it? So far the only person that’s put a dent in his paint job was Queen Maeve, and she had the help of a sixty-odd story drop. --- “Is there an evacuation plan around here somewhere?”

“What for?” Charlotte asked, pitching her voice to carry over the hiss of the shower in the decon chamber. “The only people down here are the indestructible and the expendable.” Using a pair of scissors she slit the hems and opened a few inches of leg seam on a set of scrub pants. No hope on the tops fitting over his shoulders but one of the cotton T-shirts should stretch enough.

The water shut off. “Fuck that shit is cold,” Soldier Boy grouched. “You have to do this, what, twice a day?”

“You get used to it.” Or learned to accept that God just liked a laugh sometimes. Charlotte remembered praying for cold the long months in the Iraqi and Afghani desert. Underground was nothing but cold. She opened her locker. Her accessories didn't amount to much-- just her watch, her ID badge on a lanyard, and her dog tags with her dad's crucifix on the same chain.

“Towel.” Charlotte tossed him one and turned her back as he emerged from the decon chamber. What was acceptable when he was comatose was an invasion when awake. “Okay. Now, if I had me in a secret underground cell, I’d have the rooms all rigged with that goddamned gas. I’d also have the elevator shaft rigged with explosives. So why am I still awake and we’re not buried under half a damn mountain?”

“I don’t know. I don’t know how you’re awake now. There should’ve been enough Novachik in those canisters to keep you under until Jesus gets back.”

“Yeah about that,” Soldier Boy said. “What date is this?” Charlotte told him. “Clothes.”

“On the bench.”

Fabric rustled. “No drawers?”

“I don’t think mine would fit you,” Charlotte said dryly.

Soldier Boy dragged on the T-shirt and toweled his hair. Moving normally, Charlotte noted. Better than normally. He might’ve just woken up from a quick nap. Catching her stare, Solider Boy's lip quirked in a leer. He stretched to his toes, preening like a peacock. "Quit eyeballing the goodies, babydoll. Let's get out of here."

The next indication the situation was FUBAR came when the elevator doors opened. Charlotte put her back to the elevator's side wall. "I don't recognize the guy at the guard station."

Solider Boy nodded and stepped out of the elevator. Charlotte heard a gunshot, glass shattering, and a choking gasp. "You can come out. I got him. Now," Charlotte came out of the elevator and saw the 'guard' on his knees, neck in Soldier Boy's grip, "who the hell are you, and who do you work for? Talk fast or--" the strange man gurgled.

Charlotte saw he was wearing Carmichael’s name badge and rushed past. Her suspicions were confirmed when she saw the big guard shoved in the corner, shot through the back. She checked for a pulse, nodded, and noted the time on her watch. Her mouth tightened when she looked at the Rogue's Gallery on the filing cabinet and saw the picture of Carmichael's three daughters gathered around the family mutt, all four grinning big and bright.

The mook who'd taken Carmichael's spot grunted as Soldier Boy broke his neck. Soldier Boy took Carmichael's sidearm from the mook's holster and let the body flop to the floor. "Come on doll, you can have the vapors later--"

"Fuck you," Charlotte said on reflex, taking the dead man's wrist. The dead man's pants darkened as he spasmed and voided. Under Charlotte's fingers his pulse gave a last feeble twitch and stopped. "I might be your hostage but I've also why you haven't spent the last several months floating in your own shit."

“Am I supposed to be grateful for that?” Soldier Boy examined Carmichael’s weapon, nodding when he found it loaded. “You bastards buried me alive and expect me to kiss your ass for it?”

“Never mind,” Charlotte shoved the reflex to put him in his place aside. Mom had always told her that her pride would get her killed one day.

“I wasn’t out the whole time, you know,” he went on, pushing past Charlotte and opening the filing cabinet with a screech of breaking locks. File folders and papers started fluttering to the floor. “Did you know that?”

“Dr. Sanjeer said it was theoretically possible,” Charlotte said.

“Theoretically,” he mocked, “I kept feeling what you were doing to me.”

“I’m sorry if I hurt you,” Charlotte said and Soldier Boy paused in his rooting. “I promise, I wasn’t trying to.”

For just a second, Charlotte saw someone else standing up in the old Supe’s skin, a man trying hard to hang on to himself through terrible stress. The blink of vulnerability vanished as soon as it happened. “Maybe just having things done to you is bad enough.”

Charlotte remembered his state of utter helplessness, and it took a moment to step down on a feeling of terrible pity. She looked over at the red switch on the wall, the one next to the fire alarm. The one that would switch the fire suppression system from halon gas to water vapor laced with--

A hard hand landed on her shoulder. Soldier Boy squatted to her level and leaned in close, so close Charlotte could smell the fresh soap in his hair. “Get it straight angel. I will hurt you if I have to, to keep from going back in the box. Do you understand?”

“Yes. Yes I understand,” Charlotte said. A tide of hysteria rose within her; she fought it back. Falling apart could come later.

“Good girl.” With a gentle shake, Soldier Boy let Charlotte go. --- MM: So you got him out of the containment area. And then? CD: The main facility was full of bodies. According to Colonel Mallory--

WB: Everyone in the underground levels was already dead. CD: Right, the Novachik traps in Sublevels 1 and 2 had all been popped off and killed the laboratory personnel and most of the guards. The ones not caught by the nerve agent were just straight up shot. We were not exactly dealing with subtle people. --- The long hallway between the access point to the containment area and the rest of the facility was empty. The next body lay just outside the security checkpoint at the other end, shot through the head. In the sublevel's main area, more people lay slumped in the corridors. From the condition of the bodies it was obvious what had happened. “Somebody deployed the nerve agent,” Charlotte said.

“Obviously,” Soldier Boy said, taking a sniff. “You never forget that smell.”

Charlotte looked up in surprise. “You’ve got a sharp nose. Novachik’s odorless.”

"Super senses were part of the package," Solider Boy said. He cocked his head, like he was listening for something. "Hmm. You wanna move it along already? These men are dead."

"Yeah." Charlotte laid the man's hand down on his chest. She knew him-- Dr. Lamar Reginald from Spring Valley, Pennsylvania. Would talk by the hour about fishing, even if fishing wasn't what he was really doing.

"Oh for God's sake--" Soldier Boy grabbed Charlotte by the bicep.

She squeaked as he pulled her to her feet and down the corridor. "Ow-- let go! You're hurting me!"

"Tough titty kitty, I don't have time to baby you through this. Hustle!" At least he let go. Charlotte rubbed her arm as she quick-stepped in his wake. "How many floors between us and the way out?"

"Depends on which way you want to go," Charlotte replied. "We're on Sublevel 2. The main entrance is on Level 1 and the helipad is on Level 2--"

"Nertz on the helipad," Soldier Boy said. "Anything airborne has a transponder. They'd shoot me down before I get ten yards. Tell me about the main entrance."

"The gates are programmed to maglock if someone pulls the alarms. Steel doors about four inches thick." Soldier Boy ignored the elevators and continued past the laboratories. Charlotte glanced through the wired observation windows and her jaw clenched when she saw more bodies. “There’ll be a trap there, most likely."

"I'm not an idiot sugarbritches. They'll knock me out and take me, and either shoot you dead on the spot or disable you and drag you along thinking it'll make me behave." Solider Boy paused, looking down his nose at Charlotte. "It won't. I don’t make deals for hostages.”

"A No Hostage clause was part of my deal with Colonel Mallory. I know--"

"Mallory?" Solider Boy cut her off. "Grace Mallory? CIA?" He laughed. "Well I'll be damned. She must be a million years old by now."

"Such a gentleman," Charlotte muttered.

"Now now," Soldier Boy said, and Charlotte cussed to herself-- right, sensitive ears. "I know how to treat a lady. Only it seems to be an endangered species these days. Even in the seventies, seemed every time I turned around I had a set of tits in my face. In my day, a girl went around dressed like that," he rounded the corner, "it's because she wanted a log for the beaver if you know what I mean."

"Vividly,” Charlotte said in her driest of dry voices.

"These days? Jesus Mary and Joseph, you got grown men acting like they want to be pregnant, women with pants so damn tight you can read their razorburn-- what is it with that anyway? What do men even want these days? Little girls who act like sluts?"

Twenty years in the service had pretty well inoculated Charlotte against offense when it came to male nasty talk. "Couldn't tell ya."

"And the niggers? They're fucking everywhere. God save us,” he crossed himself, “we even elected one President! The President of the United God damned States!" Yet another bigoted idiot who assumed anyone white secretly sympathized with their crap. "I'm not a racist," he went on when Charlotte didn't say anything, "I just don’t think it’s good when people try and do things their temperaments aren’t suited for. Niggers don’t belong in leadership positions, as anybody with any sense knows. Am I right?”

"Explaining why not would take more energy than I got," Charlotte said.

Soldier Boy scowled but let it drop.

Charlotte cussed when Soldier Boy opened the door. There was another body slumped at the bottom of the stairwell, a body with a big splotch of birthmark mostly obliterated by an exit wound.

"Knock it off," Solider Boy snapped as Charlotte bent. Jerry Rivers. Dedicated Slipknot fan, amateur guitar player. "This is-- what are you doing?" Charlotte took the pistol out of Rivers's hand. She looked up and saw the enemy’s body, blood puddled on the stairs where he’d fallen. "Look honey, why don't you stand back and let me handle the men with the guns, okay? I stormed Normandy, I survived Inchon, I think I can handle a bunch of--"

The snap! of Charlotte's patience failing was so distinct it made her teeth rattle. "If you think I'm relying on you to get me out of this alive, you are fucking deluded. I don't feel like being a sidebar in the New York Times piece describing the collateral damage you inflicted during your big escape."

Looking legitimately taken aback, Soldier Boy asked, "Do you even know how to use the damn thing? In an actual firefight? Where men are shooting back at you?"

"Three years in country as a combat medic in Iraq, another six as an RN in Afghanistan," Charlotte told him. "Besides, why the hell do you care if I'm armed? It's not like I can kill you with friendly fire."

"All right," Soldier Boy said. "Keep it if it makes you feel better."

A hissing gas grenade clunked to the bottom of the stairwell. In seconds the place filled with stinking clouds. Soldier Boy sniffed, and scoffed. "Tear gas. Good God." He raised his pistol and shot twice. A body clumped down a flight of stairs and came to rest next to their fallen mate.

Charlotte fanned the air in front of her face, coughing.

"I thought you were immune to poisons," Soldier Boy noted. His eyes were turning red and his nose had started running. Somebody standing downwind of a trash fire, not in a chimney full of toxic smoke.

"I am," Charlotte choked. "Doesn't mean this crap don’t smell bad."

Chuckling, Solider Boy cocked his head. "Shall we?"

"Captain DePoister!" a voice bellowed over the base PA. Solider Boy flinched; Charlotte frowned. It was a woman’s voice, heavily accented. "We do not wish to harm you! Lay down on the ground with your hands on your head!" Music stated to play, something synth-heavy with lyrics in a different language.

Soldier Boy froze. Threat response froze.

"OhmyGod." Charlotte grabbed his hand as he doubled over and fell to his knees. She pressed his palm over her heart. "Benjamin Arthur Michael O'Connell look at me. Look at me!" His eyes snapped to hers, wide and blank of sense. "Focus on my eyes and on my voice, okay? The sound of my voice--" she pulled from the belly and let it rip, carrying right over the pop crap, "I . . . am a maid . . . of constant sorrow . . ." he blinked the emptiness out of his runny eyes. Charlotte felt his hand move between her breasts. She didn’t pull back. If copping a feel helped ground him, let him feel.

To Charlotte's shock he joined her on the last chorus, singing in a sure and resonant voice that blended well with Charlotte’s soprano. They ran through the whole thing together, holding hands and shouting for Jesus, their mingled voices drowning out the other noise. By the time they were done with their second run-through, it had stopped. Silence.

Solider Boy took his hand back and stood, visibly shaking off the willies and shoving the whole episode into the memory hole. Charlotte squashed the urge to get some talk going; this wasn't the time or the place. Or the man. --- WB: So your magic lullaby kept him from popping one off on the way out the door-- right? CD: I did something right. He didn't blow a crater in the side of West Virginia. I know the results weren't optimum but gimme a break. The friendly casualties were not inflicted by Solider Boy. To his dubious credit the murders he committed since you geniuses broke him out of containment in Russia were of people who'd condemned him to forty years of physical and psychological torture-- --- Pale as cheese but composed, Soldier Boy hung back as Charlotte waved her ID at the door sensor. Nothing. "Shit. They must've reset the locks."

"Not to me they didn't," he said, taking two steps forward and using his bare foot to kick the door clean out of the frame. Hard enough to crash it into the opposite corridor wall.

Charlotte directed him to the right and followed him down the hall. She was watching the rear when she bumped into him, hard. Grumbling a curse, she looked past Soldier Boy and saw the long windows looking out over the Allegheny Plateau. The sun was hitting the maple leaves just right, turning the forest an intense, almost firey green. She kept quiet as Soldier Boy approached the window. She could see his reflection, a faint ghost in the wired glass. The sunlight turned his eyes jade green and touched off the red in his hair. It brought him to life.

Hesitatingly, he raised his hand and laid it on the window. He leaned forward to rest his forehead on the glass, closing his eyes against the sunlight and breathing hard like he was trying to reach the fresh air beyond. Like a prisoner just getting out after a long stretch in the stockade, or a patient allowed to go outside for the first time after a while bedbound. Both at once, come to think of it.

Charlotte kept her mouth shut, let her patient have his moment. It didn’t take long, and Soldier Boy straightened up. “What else is on this level?”

"Storage, armory, infirmary, receiving. Residential on Level 2.”

"Does this place have a kitchen?" At Charlotte's incredulous look, Soldier Boy shrugged. "I wasn't joking about being hungry. Give me a good red and a side salad I think I might eat you."

"'No! Don't eat me! I'm too chewy!'" Charlotte mock-screamed, and he laughed. "There’s a locker room for offsite personnel on this floor. You could probably scrounge a lunch."

"And different clothes," he said sourly, picking at the scrub slacks. "Don't suppose my uniform's around here someplace."

"I'm pretty sure they gave it to Homelander so he could burn it," Charlotte said.

"He can't do that!" The humor had flown right out of him. He seemed . . . offended. "I'm still a goddamned hero and all!"

"Oh boy." Charlotte did some mental backdating and-- "Fuck."

"Oh," Solider Boy said. "The smear campaign's started hasn't it?"

Fully aware these might be her last words, Charlotte said, "The Deep. He's one of the Seven--"

"I know who he is."

"He leaked your Vought file. The unadulterated file.” Soldier Boy's eyes widened and his already pasty complexion paled further. "The one that they buried after you," Charlotte finger-quoted, "'died' in '84. Made a bigger sensation than the fucking Watergate tapes. The official story is that you were kidnapped and brainwashed by former KGB black ops." Might as well pull the splinter now. "The Russians kept records. Of what they did to you. I've seen them." Charlotte didn't elaborate. The grainy video footage held special guest star status in her nightmares.

That flash of vulnerability was back, and deeper. For a second Charlotte saw the soul, trapped in a loveless, featureless, white-cold hell of pain. She didn't move. She tried her best to not even breathe. Through the stretched fabric of the heather gray T-shirt, she could see a sullen glow starting in the center of his chest. The end of her life written in a blast of poisoned fire.

Soldier Boy punched the wall and it caved in almost a foot. The whole hallway shook, cracks spidering everywhere. "Come on. Which way to the locker room?" --- AJ: You're defending him?!? If Vought Tower had gone down-- CD: Have you been listening? That doesn't make the collateral damage he's caused okay, and since you geniuses aided and abetted him while he was a fugitive I'm guessing you have a fair amount of moral flexibility on the subject.

HC: Soldier Boy sneezed on a busy street and killed almost 30 people. He's a weapon of mass destruction with PTSD and a two-second fuse. MM: And a racist motherfucker. HC: That too. CD: What's your point? The best idea anyone’s proposed for confining him’s failed. Twice. Look, it's true-- no one person should have that kind of power. It's why you need a roomful of people to agree when you start talking about nukes. You guys just don’t see an issue with using people who do. How is that anything but a lateral move in this idiotic arms race? Your solutions amount to continual escalation and/or fucking ethnic cleansing. Excuse me all to hell if that confuses my priorities somewhat. --- In the locker room Soldier Boy snapped the locks off each locker and rifled through the contents. Clothes and wallets piled up on the changing bench. "No," he said, as he held the bottom of each shoe to the sole of his bare foot, "no . . . no . . . oh for Christ's sake, quit it. You look like a frightened chipmunk, Captain."

Charlotte’s spine went straight and she snapped, "Don't you fucking dare. I earned that commission, you fucking pogue.”

“Right. You’re the real hero,” Soldier Boy drawled.

"I've seen your actual service record,” Charlotte retorted. “The only action you've seen in a combat zone was hanging out in Pusan long enough to call Truman a, quote, ‘spineless faggot sucking on Stalin’s balls,’ unquote. Soldier Boy. What a fucking joke. You are the fucking opposite of a soldier. You are a thug and a coward.”

The smile went out of Soldier Boy’s eyes, though it stayed on his face. It made him look insane. It made him look like Homelander. “May I ask how you arrived at that conclusion, Captain Butch?”

“Not gay. Brave men don’t corner teenagers in the shower for mutual masturbation sessions. Brave men don’t call their girlfriends dumb cunts . . . period.” Charlotte paused. “Brave men don’t take aim at kindergarteners.”

“It’s called acceptable losses, woman--"

"I don't see an insignia. What's your rank, mister?" Charlotte demanded. “Where are you in the line of command? What is your authority?!?"

"My authority,” he snarled, “is that I am motherfucking Solider Boy, and if I have to hear another word out of you--"

Today is a good day to die. "Oh for Christ's sake just fucking kill me if all you got's threats," Charlotte cut him off.

"Maybe I don't want to do that." Soldier Boy stalked close, his body language changing from athletic grace to something animal. He crowded up to her, towered over her. Charlotte clenched her fists to stop her hands from shaking. "Hmm? Maybe, it's been a while." He traced his fingertips down her neck, a featherlight caress that made Charlotte prickle. He put his hand at the juncture of her neck and shoulder, her clavicle under his palm and his thumb a spot of pressure against her throat. All he had to do was shake, and bones would snap like little branches. Charlotte shuddered; she couldn’t stop herself. "Maybe, I could feel you touching me the whole time I was under," his free hand pressed to her back and yanked her close, his body big and hot against hers, "and now, I want to touch you back."

“Look,” Charlotte said as she sucked air to catch her breath, slow her pounding heart, “in the last ninety minutes, you have threatened to rip my head off, promised to hurt me -- underlined -- if I didn’t assist your escape, and told me you’d write me off if I was taken hostage. You are also my patient and I don't fuck patients. These things make you someone I do not want touching me and my libido doesn’t get a vote. Now back off.”

"Is that what you really want, Captain?” Solider Boy purred. His body, his smile, all of him was pure seduction. Except his eyes. His eyes were empty as a skull's. "I can feel your heartbeat. Your mouth's saying no but your--"

"Sometimes you’d get an erection when I was disimpacting your bowels. You're the expert-- should I have fucked you right then?" Charlotte went up on tiptoe to speak in his ear. "Is that why you think you might like dick?"

The hands on her body turned to iron, hard and hurtful. "You watch your filthy mouth."

"Or what? You'll kill me? Assuming I live though this, I'm either getting shot for treason or put in jail for the rest of my life. I'm aiding and abetting an enemy agent. The UCMJ's pretty clear on what happens to traitors. The only reason you're still sucking air is putting you in front of a firing squad'd be a little pointless."

"Then why bother taking care of me? Hmm? You could’ve left me in the box to rot and just sat there picking your nose or playing with yourself or whatever people do to goldbrick these days. Why didn’t you?”

“Yes,” Soldier Boy shoved Charlotte behind him as two people walked into the room, “do tell why you did not simply leave this poor boy all alone in the dark.” Charlotte swore in Arabic; one of the newcomers was Dr. Sanjeer. The other was a lanky young man wearing a dirty baseball cap and orange All-Stars. In one hand he carried a large tablet displaying a woman’s face. Both men wore oxygen tanks on their backs, masks hooked to the shoulder straps. “My sources tell me you are not soft-hearted Captain. Despite the clichés, good nurses rarely are."

"Who are you?" Solider Boy asked.

"You may call me Nina, my Soldier Boy."

"I'm not your anything. Tell me why I'm not stomping your messenger boys' guts out."

"Because you haven't. You are not mindless, and you are not crazy." The woman on the tablet took a huff off a cigarette. "I would have preferred to discuss this in person. Unfortunately, my inside man could not access your cell directly.”

Inside man. "You bastard,” Charlotte spat at Sanjeer. “What’s she giving you? Money?”

“Quite a lot of it,” at the same moment Sanjeer said, “It isn’t about--"

Solider Boy pointed at Sanjeer. "You. Shut up." His finger jerked to point at the woman. "You. Talk."

"I have a proposition. It must be very clear to you by now you exist in a world that neither needs nor wants you. Vought has their poster boy, more popular than ever thanks to his reinvention as family man." Solider Boy snorted. "Grace Mallory has recently been diagnosed with heart failure and has been given a prognosis in months, William Butcher is dying by inches of brain lesions, and your former comrades are all dead."

"There's still Homelander, and Vought," Solider Boy said. "Those cocksuckers need to go down. Hard."

"A feat you cannot accomplish on your own and is even less likely now that he has taken your measure. What does it profit you, to kill him?"

"I have a commie lecturing me about profit."

"Your outdated thinking is showing, my Soldier Boy. If there is a lesson of our times it is this-- ideals are perishable. Like eggs, no? The only truths are the things that can be held in the hand," she cupped her palm like she was holding a pile of coins. "Like gold. A child's hand. A lover's cock. Your enemy's heart."

Soldier Boy's glower deepened. "There's a ribeye steak and a bottle of MacAllen 18 somewhere with my name on it. Get to the point."

"Directness, I like it. I've made a niche for myself as a facilitator for many things around the world--"

"You want me to do hits for you," Soldier Boy cut her off.

"In a word. You are both uniquely talented and very skilled, and despite recent evidence to the contrary I know for a fact you can be discreet. Vought left you to the enemy and replaced you with a very pretty maniac. You owe them nothing. Your country's best use for you was to shove you into a coffin and bury you alive. You owe them even less. You have no friends, no real kin. You have no one, except possibly Captain DePoister, who cares for you at all, and some time in your waking company has probably cured her of that."

All through this the lanky man stood still. Charlotte saw his eyes flick over to one side. A tic worked under one eyelid. Sanjeer's eyes kept moving in the same direction. His hands kept pinching and worrying the side seems of his trousers-- a nervous stim she'd noticed in him before when he was under stress.

Soldier Boy glanced back over his shoulder. "Well doll? You sick of my company yet?"

Charlotte squared her shoulders. She looked Soldier Boy in the eye, and deliberately cut her eyes to the right. "I know for a fact you were raised properly. You will address me as Captain.”

Soldier Boy did that scoffing thing. "You never answered my question. Why did you bother taking care of me, if I'm so fucking terrible a person?"

In her peripheral vision, she saw the lanky man's sleeve twitch. "HOLD YOUR BREATH!" she screamed and fired from the hip. The lanky young man flinched as the shot nipped a piece of fabric from his coat. The red switch next to the fire alarm exploded into pieces.

Sanjeer screamed and tripped running for the door, belly-crawling into a corner. Still holding the tablet displaying the Russian woman's smoke-haloed face, the lanky young man made a flicking motion with his free hand as Charlotte fired again. Agony burst up her arm as the whatever-it-was the lanky man could throw hit it. Charlotte fell to her knees; the kid fell on his back with a hole in his throat.

Charlotte curled over her wounded arm, panting out screams. Gritting her teeth against the pain, she peeled the pistol out of her right hand. She was an okay shot left-handed, not great, but--

A commotion broke out. Three more men had burst into the room wearing oxygen masks and shooting MAC-10s. As she watched, Soldier Boy turned them into piles of broken meat. The last man, he twisted the head off. Like opening a jelly jar. Blood sprayed everywhere. The head rolled on the floor like a soccer ball.

Charlotte grayed out for a moment. When the world came back online, Soldier Boy was talking into the tablet. The conversation must not have gone well-- he hurled the tablet into the bank of lockers so hard it punched through, leaving a dash in the metal shaped like a giant cockeyed coin slot.

Cowering in a corner, oxygen mask clutched in his shaking hands, Sanjeer moaned. Soldier Boy, covered in blood and looking like some sort of Celtic war god, paused in gathering up cash and clothes long enough to lift Charlotte to her feet. He picked Sanjeer up and twisted the portly doctor’s arm up behind his back. "Talk."

“Charlotte please,” Sanjeer said. “We need more. We need data. We need . . . we can end it, all of it!" He started to snivel. “He's the key to everything. Just . . . let us figure out how he can do it. Once we have that we have the upper hand over-- over--” he stuttered to a stop.

Over you, Charlotte heard the part he didn’t say. Spangled costume or GI issue, Vought or USA, Decontamination Charlotte or Captain DePoister. All the same. An error in the system. Even begging for his life, she could see the sneer he always had when he spoke to her.

“Please, please-- I,” Charlotte raised Rivers’s pistol, “I have a family--”

“And I don’t?” Charlotte asked. “Rivers? Carmichael? Dr. Reginald? Your lab techs? We were all here to help you.”

“Not fast enough. We need that weapon in our hands now but to do that we need examples of compound-neutralization effect in action. The subjects from the Vermont incident aren't enough. Too many variables. Analysis of data could take decades and we need answers now."

“Experimental data,” Charlotte said. “Test subject-- me. That’s why she tried to trigger him but she told me to get out of the way first. You need a specimen." Her guts turned cold as she ran down the chain of logic. "God have mercy-- I was never here to work was I? This whole time! You've been trying to get him to pop off while you had us both under observation. Did Mallory know about this? What am I talking about?-- of course she fucking did, that woman never misses a trick. God damn you!"

Solider Boy shoved Sanjeer to his knees. “He’s all yours,” he said to Charlotte as he went back to scrounging.

Sanjeer wrung his hands and begged, “Charlotte please, we’re close, I swear we’re close, just let me do my work. You owe it--”

Charlotte shot. One in the head, the rest of the magazine in the back.

“Good girl,” Soldier Boy praised.

"Piss off," Charlotte retorted. She tried to move her bad arm and the pain took the feet out from under her. Soldier Boy caught her as her legs gave out. “You can find the way out from here,” Charlotte told him. “Just follow the Exit signs.”

Instead, Soldier Boy bent and swept an arm behind her knees, lifting her into his arms. He picked up a duffel bag and a pair of hiking boots. "Where's the infirmary?" --- CD: Sanjeer was the inside man. The woman -- Nina she said her name was -- waved seven figures and a chance at a Nobel under his nose. I don't know if she was working with or for anybody; that'd all be guesswork on my part. The last of her strike team was waiting in the locker room on the main floor. The Novachik trap inside was still intact. While Nina had Solider Boy distracted, she had a Supe try and spring it. I shot him, and he broke my arm. Soldier Boy saved my life when the shithead's backup came in shooting. He could’ve left me there. He had a clear line to the door. Instead he took me to the infirmary and helped me administer first aid.

HC: Why would he do that? CD: Probably because he didn't want to walk out of there thinking he owed me one. Why he'd care about that, I don���t know. Solider Boy's not really capable of respect. You have to understand people have a value beyond what they can gain you to do that. He and Colonel Mallory are birds of a feather in that regard. --- Gently, Solider Boy set Charlotte down on the infirmary's exam table. Charlotte cussed in pain as she examined the injury.

"How bad is it?"

"Both the bones're fractured," Charlotte reported. "Swell."

Moving quick and efficient, Solider Boy ransacked the room. Looked like her Dad trying to figure out the kitchen, opening every cupboard trying to find the paper plates. A brace and some rolls of compression bandage piled on the table at Charlotte's hip. "Shit. Morphine, morphine, wherefore art thou morphine--"

"Bad time to get fucked up," Charlotte said.

"Not for me."

"Don't bother. Drugs don't work on me, remember?"

Soldier Boy paused. "Oh. Right. Sorry." He watched Charlotte hiss and whimper as she tried to reduce the fractures. "That must hurt like a sonofabitch. Here." Charlotte jerked away as Soldier Boy reached for her arm. "Stop that. Let me see."

"Why do you even care?" Charlotte snapped.

"What are you talking about? Of course I care. You probably just saved my life." A bitter smirk twisted his lips. "Such as it is."

"Knock it off. Self-pity's unattractive."

Giving her another one of those unreadable looks, Soldier Boy repeated, "Let me see-- this needs to be set."

“I can do this--”

“So can I. Learned how when I was a kid out camping with my cousins. Mother insisted I learn first aid.” Scoffing to himself, he added, “One of the few things she and my father agreed on.”

Taking deep breaths, Charlotte said, “Can you, just really carefully, pull between my elbow and my wrist?”

Soldier Boy grabbed some gauze and wound a roll over his first two fingers. “Bite down on this.”

Wrapping one hand around her elbow and the other around her wrist, Soldier Boy pulled. Like a thick piece of rubber tubing, the muscles stretched. The pain was amazing. Panting hard into the gauze between her teeth, Charlotte manipulated the bones with her left hand. Simple fracture of the ulna, incomplete simple fracture of the radius-- painful but not serious.

The broken ulna moved into position. Charlotte managed to get the brace on her arm and strap it into place. She spat the gauze out and said, “Slowly. Release.”

Soldier Boy slowly eased the pull and let go. He found a sling and helped her settle her arm into it. “How’s that feel?”

“It’ll hold until I can get somewhere with an MRI machine.” At his blank look, Charlotte explained, “Magnetic Resonance Imaging. Like X-rays but better.”

Chuckling a little, Soldier Boy patted her shoulder. His brow furrowed a little. Charlotte held still as he ran a finger under her neck chain and pulled her dog tags out from under her scrub top.

DEPOISTER CHARLOTTE O.E. ######### B NEG NO PREFERENCE

“What’s the O-E stand for?”

“Octavia Elizabeth. My mom’s favorite book as a kid was Charlotte’s Web. Octavia is the nurse who delivered me and my sister-- we're twins and we were high-risk. Elizabeth’s my Confirmation name.”

“That why you became a nurse?”

“That’s complicated.”

Soldier Boy frowned thoughtfully at the metal on his fingers. “If you’re an atheist how come you wear a cross?”

“I’m not an atheist.” Charlotte took the tags back and put them back under her scrub top. “Recovering Catholic isn’t available as an option.”

Soldier Boy took her left hand, thumbing at her watch. “You’re right-handed? That stinks.”

Charlotte’s eyes flicked up and there he was. Head bent close like a friend sharing secrets. He stank like blood and hot skin, and despite knowing better she felt herself melting at the quick. Vivid full Technicolor fantasies she hadn’t allowed herself in all the time she’d been his caretaker filled her imagination--

Son of a bitch. Charlotte snatched her hand back. “Stop that.”

“Stop what?” he asked, all low and sensuous.

“I mean it. Stop it.”

One of his blood-gritty hands cupped her face. His nose touched hers. “You're blushing for me, angel,” he said.

“Of course I'm blushing. I’m a heterosexual female with eyesight that works. Now, take your hands off of me and take one step back, now."

Instead, he kissed her. Gentle, insistent, and reminding her in painful detail exactly how long it had been since her last kiss. Soldier Boy smiled against Charlotte’s mouth as she put her hand on his chest. The look of total confusion when she shoved him back as hard as she could was almost funny.

"Read my lips," Charlotte said, pointing to her mouth. "Back. Off.”

Finally, finally, that seemed to get through. Soldier Boy stood there like an unplugged toy as Charlotte got down off the exam table, awkward with her slung arm. She gave him the room and pulled the privacy curtain as she passed, veiling his face. Blank, bloody, lost. “Get cleaned up and get changed."

No answer from the other side of the curtain, though Charlotte supposed the squeak of a faucet handle could be taken as one. She listened as he slurped a drink. Mild splashing as he washed his face. The soft sound of fabric shuffling as he changed his clothes.

Soldier Boy whisked the privacy curtain aside and found Charlotte gathering bottled water and boxes of meal bars. “Hey woah doll,” he said, "you don’t--"

“Captain. For the last fucking time,” Charlotte said. “My name’s not doll, or angel, or any of the other little pet names you use in lieu of a woman’s actual name.”

“Okay, Captain. I’m sorry.” Soldier Boy laid his duffel bag on the counter and packed it full, quick and efficient. In regular clothes and shoes, he was . . . he wasn't her patient any more. But he wasn't Solider Boy either, all dash and attitude and winking at the camera as he fondled the leading ladies. He was just a guy with a solid build and restless eyes. "Captain? Charlotte?"

Charlotte blinked, realized she was staring. "Sorry. Zoned out a moment." She took a deliberate step back. "Come on, the main entrance is--"

“I’m not a bad guy,” Soldier Boy blurted.

“I never said that you were,” Charlotte blurted back, surprised into bluntness. "Look, net effect of today’s adventures on my end is a broken arm and the rest of my life in jail-- if I’m lucky."

"Come with me." Charlotte's eyebrows shot straight up her forehead. "I'm serious," Solider Boy added.

"Don’t be ridiculous." Charlotte lifted her bound arm, grimacing in pain as she did. "I'm wounded. I'd only slow you down. Besides, not thinking you’re a bad guy’s not the same thing as trusting you."

Solider Boy put his hands on his hips. "So you're too good for me? Is that it?"

"For Christ’s sake--” Charlotte cried, “what do you want from me? Absolution? I'm a nurse, not a priest!” Soldier Boy’s arms went across his chest, like a man bracing for further blows. “You're not bad. You're indifferent. And for someone who can do what you can do, indifference is worse. Come on." She was half out the infirmary door when she realized she was walking alone. Solider Boy just stood there, again with that unplugged look. Like he was -- Charlotte wanted to smack herself when she finally put it together -- dissociating, an overstressed mind and wounded spirit fleeing from the Here and Now. She'd seen in before, in patients coping with post-traumatic stress. "Come on, you're wasting daylight and you're gonna wanna get gone before shift change."

"I didn't mean to kill anyone besides the twins. At that house," Solider Boy said, talking like he hadn't heard her. "And that building. I just," he waved a hand in front of his eyes, "I blacked out, and I guess this," he taps his sternum, "popped off by itself. In that stairway. I think I felt it starting to happen again. My head started hurting and . . ." he trailed off. Charlotte didn't move. This was Ben talking, not Solider Boy, and Ben deserved to be heard. "It almost happened again. But you stopped it." His eyes refocused, saw her. "How did you know singing to me would stop it?"

"I didn't. Not for sure," Charlotte admitted. "I've had patients who have," she picked her words carefully, "attacks like that. The usual protocol is to talk them around until they come back on their own. I had to be a little more direct in your case."

"Hell of a gamble. I could've killed you. I almost did." Charlotte shrugged. "Why risk it? You could've just gotten out of the way."

"And anyone else who might've been in the line of fire? They might've been the enemy. They might've been one of the guards here. Shit, they might be some random jackass hiking the mountains looking for standing stones."

Ben still looked blank, like a kid trying to parse meaning out of an algebra problem. Please Excuse My Dear Aunt Sally who can kill me in her sleep. "You never answered my question. Why bother taking care of me at all?" --- HC: What did you tell him? CD: 'Because it's my job.' We made it to the main security station. I told him where the nearest airport was. The last thing I remember was him apologizing for having to knock me out. --- "Watch your face Captain." Charlotte turned aside as Ben put his fist through the glass of the security station's observation window. He reached through and unlocked the door. A map of the immediate area hung on the wall; Ben examined it thoughtfully, then pulled it down and folded it up. “So what are you going to tell them when they find you?”

“The truth,” Charlotte shrugged. “You forced me to take you out of the complex, stole some clothes, and asked if I knew where the nearest airport is.”

Ben nodded, stuffing the map in his pocket. “That should give me enough of a head start. One of those freight trains should take me halfway to the--"

"Wait!" Charlotte snapped up her hand. "Better I don’t know."

"You're right. I'm sorry. How's the arm?"

"Hurts. Thank you for helping splint it."

Ben nodded. "Guess you know what comes next. You know where your knockout button is?"

"Yeah," Charlotte pointed, "just don't break my teeth. Dental work's a bitch when Novocain doesn't work."

"Affirmative.” He touched her face. “Thank you. For . . . just . . . thank you. I’m sorry to have to do this.” He pulled his hand back and curled his fist. “On three-- one--"

Stars exploded across Charlotte's awareness and the last thing she felt were Ben's arms as he caught her falling body and lowered her carefully to the ground. --- CD: I half-expected him to just kill me. But the next thing I know I’m coming to in legirons with Colonel Mallory explaining that I’m in protective custody, and I’m at least eighty percent sure I’m never leaving.

MM: Do you have any idea where he is now? CD: No. He didn’t share his plans with me. He was able to smuggle himself back to the US all the way from Moscow; I don't think he'd have as much of a problem staying under the radar as you guys seem to think he would.

WB: Oi Florence Nightingale-- if you knew, would you even tell us? CD: Yes I would tell you if I knew. I didn't forget my duties as either an officer or a nurse, and so far my reward is an indefinite term of imprisonment as bait, on the off-chance Soldier Boy grows a sense of duty or obligation and shows up to break me out. Which he won’t. So fuck you very much. Take me back to my cell. --- One early spring evening, Charlotte was in the yard with The Lions Of al-Rassan open in her lap. The alarm klaxon bellowed and she jumped a foot.

“What’s going on?” she asked Private Lett, the MP on duty in the yard. Seemed a bit overkill for one . . . whatever the hell Charlotte was on paper these days.

“Power interruption. Again. I think you’ll be okay back in your suite.”

“Cell,” she corrected. “Let’s call things by their right names, shall we PFC?”

She had the grace to look embarrassed. “Yes ma’am. Return to your cell. We’ll have this figured out in a snake flick.”

Compared to the stockade, Charlotte supposed, her confinement could've been considered comfortable. A little collection of buildings cut out of the nowhere between the UP and the Wisconsin state line, surrounded on all sides by a perimeter wall and a shitload of trees. In the winter, the snow piled up in yardsticks and the silence got so profound it hurt. Now that it was warmer Charlotte spent every moment she could get away with outdoors, soaking up sun like some half-assed weed. Just her, a handful of guards, and nowhere to go. Welcome to life in the discard pile.

Charlotte was halfway up the sidewalk back to Hut 3 when she heard something. A low, tuneful baritone floating from the thick box hedges lining the path, “I . . . am a man . . . of constant sorrow . . .” Charlotte dropped her book and knelt to pick it up. “Meet me by the birdbath," the voice softly instructed.

“No killing anyone,” Charlotte said.

"Haven’t yet. Go."

She'd just finished scribbling on the title page of her book when a dark shape cut itself out of the gathering shadows by Hut 2. "You about done lollygaggin, Captain?"

“Yeah,” she said, putting her book on the side of the birdbath. She took off her dog tags and her cross, kissing the cross as she laid it beside the book. “Let’s make like donkeys and haul ass.”

Ben laughed. “Come here. Faster if I carry you piggyback.”

“This isn’t,” Charlotte grunted as she clambered onto Ben’s broad back, “terribly dignified.”

“Woman, you have had your hands on my dick and your fingers up my ass. Your dignity can take a few jabs.”

“Yeah yeah.” Charlotte wrapped her arms around his neck and her legs around his waist.

Ben stood like Charlotte weighed nothing. “Hang on tight.”

Charlotte hung on tight and Ben took off, running free and easy. Vague memories of riding like this on her mom's back as Dad took Kay made her want to cry. She put her head on Ben’s shoulder and shut her eyes. Weird to feel safe in the company of a borderline lunatic and mass murderer, but she did feel safe with him now. Maybe Nina had a point about ideals. Charlotte’s had certainly died, bleeding out as she lived out her life in captivity and flatlining for good as Colonel Mallory’s Boys grilled her for answers she didn’t have.

“Here,” Ben said some time later, squatting to let Charlotte down. They’d come to a motorcycle loaded with supplies, parked next to a gravel road running roughly east-west. "How's your arm?"

"It's good," Charlotte said. "Aches a little bit when it's cold, which is all the goddamned time." Ben chuckled as stretched to his toes, shook out to limber up. Looked to be in perfect health, she noted, hair and beard neatly trimmed. She couldn’t even begin to imagine what the last months have been for him. "Do you have a knife?"

"Course." Ben opened a pocketknife as Charlotte shrugged out of her coat and pointed out the little scar in the fleshy underside of her arm. Working by moonlight, he slit the skin and pinched out the tiny black cylinder of a tracking device. At Charlotte's nod, he crushed it between his thumb and forefinger and flicked it away like a spent cigarette.

“Do you have--”

“Here, I got it,” Ben said as he bandaged the cut. “Can I ask you something?" he asked as he worked. At Charlotte's grunted yeah, he asked, "What were you writing in that book?"

"A note to my sister. Said I loved her and the boys, and to pray for me the next time she goes to Mass.” Ben nodded as he mounted up. “My turn,” Charlotte said. “Why come break me out?”

“Heard a rumor. Homelander.” Charlotte felt herself go pale. “Nobody deserves what that stupid motherfucker would do to you.” He hesitated. Honest feelings didn't seem to come naturally to him. Like learning to play an instrument-- all that came out was noise at first. "Besides, I owed you one."

"Okay."

Ben paused in getting himself settled, cocking an eyebrow back at Charlotte. "'Okay?' So you trust me now?"

"Let’s just say prison life's not agreeing with me." Ben patted the saddle behind him and Charlotte got on. "So what now?"

“You know something?” Ben said as he heeled up the kickstand. “For the first time in my entire goddamned life . . . I have no idea."

"It’ll wait for morning,” Charlotte said. “Let’s just make some miles. Head west."

"Hang on tight." Ben kick-started, and they sped off into the dark. ---

AN2: UCMJ-- Uniform Code of Military Justice, body of laws applying to United States armed forces personnel.

Crime-a-nilly it's so much easier when it's just porn.

[bellakenobi]

Tutorial - Extracting the assets from Shining Nikki for conversion for Sims games (or anything, really)

Finally! In advance I'm sorry for any errors since english isn't my first language (and even writing in my actual language is difficult for me so)

And first, a shoutout to The VG Resource forums, where I found initially info about this topic 😊 I'm just compilating all the knowledge I found there + the stuff I figured out in a single text, because boy I really wanted to find a guide like that when I first thought about converting SN stuff lol (and because there's a lot of creators more seasoned than me that could do a really good job with these assets 👀)

What this tutorial will teach you:

How to find and extract meshes and textures (when there's any) for later use, and some tips about how stuff are mapped etc on Shining Nikki.

What this tutorial will not teach you:

How to fully convert these assets for something usable for any sims game (because honestly neither I know how to do that stuff properly lol). It is assumed that you already know how to do that. If you don't know but has interest in learning about CC making (specially for TS3), I'd suggest you take a look at the TS3 Tutorial Hub, the MTS tutorials and This Post by Plumdrops if you're interested in hair conversion. Also take a look on my TS3 tutorials tag, that's where I reblog tutorials that I think might be useful :)

What you'll need:

An Android emulator (I recomend Nox)

A HEX editor (I recomend HxD)

Python and This Script for mass editing

AssetStudio

A 3D Modeling Software for later use. I use Blender 2.93 for major editing, and (begrudingly) Milkshape for hair (mostly because of the extra data tool).

Download everything you don't have and install it before starting this tutorial.

Now, before we continue, a little advice:

I wrote this tutorial assuming that people who would benefit from it will not put the finished work derivative from these assets behind a paywall or in any sort of monetization. These assets belong to Paper Games. So please don't be an ass and put your Shining Nikki conversions/edits/whatever behind a paywall.

The tutorial starts after the cut (and it's a long one).

Step 1:

Launch Nox, then open Play Store and log in with a Google account (if you don't have one, create it). Now download Shining Nikki from there.

After downloading the game, launch it. It will download a part of the game files. After that, log in on the game, or create a new account in any server (the server is only important if you want to actually play the game. For extracting it doesn't really matter since the game already has the assets for the upcoming events and chapters. It also doesn't matter if you actually own an item in game, you can extract the meshes and textures even if you don't have it in game). If you're creating a new account, the game will lead you through the presentation of it etc (unfortunately there's no way to skip it).

After that, click on that little arrow button on the main screen. There, you can download the actual clothing assets. Wait for the download to finish (at the date I'm writing this tutorial, it is around 13GB). When finished, close the game (not the emulator).

Step 2:

Now we're going to copy the assets to our computer. Click on Tools, then on Amaze File Manager. Navigate to Android > data > com.papergames.nn4.en > files > DownloadedBundle > art > character. This is the folder where (I believe) most of the assets are stored.

Now, where the stuff is located respectively:

Meshes are on the meshes > splitmeshs folder

Textures are on the textures > cloth folder

Tip: Want to really data dump everything? Just select the folders you want and copy to your PC! 😉

Click on the three dots on the side of the wished folder, then in copy. Then click on the three lines on the left upper corner to open the menu, and then click on Download. Now just pull the header of the app to show the Paste option and click on it. It might take a while to copy completely (the cloth folder might take longer since it's bigger, so be patient).

If you're confused, just follow the guide below:

The copied folder will be located at C:\Users\{your username}\Nox_share\Download

Step 3:

Now that we got the files, we need to make them readable by AssetStudio.

For this, we need to open the desired .asset file on a hex editor, and then delete the first 8 bytes of the file, and then save.

You can see it is a pain to do that manually to a lot of files right? This is why I asked my boyfriend to create a script to mass edit them. (I only manually edit when I'm grabbing the textures I want, because afaik the script won't work with .tga and the .png files, more about that forward this tutorial)

How to use the script:

Make sure Python is already installed, grab the nikki-fix-headers.py file and place it on the folder where you copied the folder from the game (mine is still the Nox_Share Download folder).

It should look like this, the meshs folder and the script.

Let's open the Command Prompt. Hit Windows + R to open the Run dialog box, then type in cmd and hit Enter.

Now follow the instructions pictured below:

The folder with the edited files will be at the same location:

Now, we finally can open it all on AssetStudio and see whats inside 👀

Step 4:

Open AssetStudio. Now click on File > Load Folder and select the folder where your edited meshes are (mine is "splitmeshs-fixed"). Wait the program load everything. Click on Filter Type > Mesh, and the on the Asset List tab, click twice on the Name to sort everything by the right order, and now we can see the meshes!

To extract any asset, just select and right-click the desired groups, click in Export selected assets and select a folder where you wish to save it.

Stuff you need to know about the meshes:

Step 4-A: Everything is separated by groups.

Of course you'll have to export everything to have a complete piece. Only a few pieces has a single group. When exporting, you have to select every group with the same name (read below), and the result will be .obj files of each group that you have to put together in a 3D application.

Step 4-B: The names are weird.

They're a code that indicates the set, the piece, the group.

Items that doesn't belong to a set won't have the "S...something", instead they'll have another letter with numbers, but the part/piece type and group logic is the same.

As for the parts, here are the ones I figured out so far:

D = Dress

H = Hair

AEA = Earrings

ANE = Necklace

BS = Shoes

ABA = Handheld accessory

AHE and AHC = Headpieces/hats/hairpins

AFA = Face accessory (as glasses, eyepatches, masks)

(maybe I'll update here in the future with the ones I remember)

Step 4-C: The "missing pearls" issue.

Often you'll find a group that seems empty, and it has a weird name like this:

I figured out that it's referent to pearls that a piece might contain (as in a pearl necklace, or a little pearl in a earring, pearls decorating a dress, etc). The group seems empty, but when you import it to Blender, you can see that it actually has some vertices, and they're located where the aforementioned pearls would be. I think that Unity (SN engine) uses this to generate/place the pearls from a master mesh, but I honestly have no idea of how the game does that. So you'll probably have to model a sphere to place where the pearls were located, I don't know 🤷‍♀️ (And if you know how to turn the vertices into spheres (???) please let me know!)

Step 5:

Now that you already extracted a mesh, we're gonna extract the textures (when any). Copy the textures > cloth folder to your PC like you did with the splitmeshs folder.

Open it, and in the search box, type the name of the desired item like this. If the item has textures, it will show in the results.

Grab all the files and open them in HxD (I usually just open HxD and drag the files I want to edit there), and edit them like I teached above. Then you can open them (or load the cloth folder) on AssetStudio, and export them like you did with the meshes.

Stuff you need to know about the textures, UV map, etc:

Step 5-A: The UV mapping is a hot mess (at least for us used to how things works in sims games).

See this half edited hoodie and the UV map for a idea:

So for any Sims game, you'll have to remap everything 🙃 Also, stencil-like textures all have their own separated file.

As for hair, they all use the same texture and mapping! BUT sometimes they are arranged like this...

Here's the example of a very messed one (it even has some WTF poly). Most of them aren't that messy, but be prepared to find stuff like this.

Shining Nikki just repeat the texture so it end up covering everything, for Sims you'll need to remap, and the easiest way is by selecting "blocks" of hair strands, ticking the magnet button to make your seletion snap to what is already placed (if you have familiarity with blender, you know what I'm saying). Oh, some clothes are also mapped with the same logic.

Regarding the hair texture, I couldn't locate where they are, but here is a pack with all of them ripped and ready to use. You can also grab the textures from any SN hair I already converted :)

The only items with a fine UV map are the accessories, at least for TS3 that the accessory has a UV map independent from the body.

"But I typed the ID for the set and piece and couldn't find anything!"

A good thing to do is to search with only the set ID and edit all the files with it, because some items (especially accessories) share the same texture file. But if even then you can't find anything, it means that there's no texture for this particular item/group because Shining Nikki use material shaders* to render different materials like metal, crystal, some fancy fabrics, etc. So you'll have to bake or paint a texture for it.

*I believe that those shaders are located on the other cloth folder in the game files. This one is way bigger than the other one and once I copied it to see what it was, AssetStudio took ages to load everything, almost used all my 16GB of RAM, and then there was only code that the illiterate me didn't know what it was 🤷‍♀️

So that was it! I hope I explained everything, although it is a little confusing.

If you have any questions, you can comment on this post or send me a PM!

[blu3stwizard]

Gerudian Dashboard Simulator 2

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Capitan Marcus Graphitter, Mariott's head crime syndicate boss who co-opertaes with the city guard, is a nasty little thottie and just died making it clap in his own tavern

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#Lascue #Knightly Adventure #Enchanting #Northwestern Vale #Breathtaking

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Ser Sean Mar y Lyonel de Lazure x !Arranged Bethrothed Reader Imagines

Keep reading

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gurll this is nottt the time he was just declared missing two days ago

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So like are we *totally* sure that Duke Berdrick isn't a lich? Because like. Have y'all seen him?

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The Duchy Necromancer when you ask him why he has to spend a minute with Berdick alone once every 8 hours

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Leaving the function almost immediately after entering. call that Huanthing

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Wait I gotta cast legend lore

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Okay yeah this is funny

🔪Butcher-than-a-butcher

I think that not having a courtyard to dunk on some barons during balls is false advertising, and should be illegal

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So i'm on my watch as a city guard, yeah? And we've been hosting mercenaries for the past two months, so it's been hectic, i've seen some shit, don't get me wrong, but this is beyond even me. I'm on street patrol on Smith's Bend, and i see this gagglefuck cluster of adventurers just like? Enter the sewer that were pointed out by a child or perhaps a gnome. And lemme tell you. They looked like professionals. I'm talking like plate armor and magic items. So protocol dictates that i observe and not intervene, because I don't want to get my rectum mangled by some jackass wizard's spell. So they enter, sure, why not, and I decide to move along on patrol, which takes me the better part of two hours, and as I go back there, there they are? BUt they're covered in some strange viscera, and one of them is like fucking caked in blood and mucus, and weirdest part is that one of them is missing??. Anyway they don't pay me enough to bother adventurers, but like what? Girl help

🏰Marthot

the tags on this post are killing me sksjhsjaj

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hey would that not be the guys who felled the sewer hydra

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Yes! They are called The Songbird Brigade, and they were also present at the Lazuli Palace Gala recently. they seem to be closely associated with both Lord Commander Creagan and Jacynthia's bethrothed, Krugan. Supposedly, they were also present at the great knighting of Ashenaide crisis

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So what happened to the last guy? Wouldn't they at least recover his corpse?

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maybe the sewers orcs got him?

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the what?

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Hey guys they're actually called the Nightingale Company

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what happened to my post

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Wake the fuck up sheeple. New archeological dig reveals the remenants of a long forgotten civilization from before the giants, along with what seems like an attempt to create an artificial god

✨Blame-Shift

and Marcianno Kordessa's third volume of Encyclopedia Geneticae STILL isn't out

#unproductivity king #go girlie give us nothing 💪

🌹Maidone

Need me nepo-dick from a cringefail Ashenaidean knight

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kys knife-ears

again. campaign meme. don't worry everybody

@zoomire @no-comment-data-missing

[felixcosm]

Transcript under cut!

HUNTER: Welcome to the OVER command center. Good to see you two again. You two were stuck in storage too, eh? RYAN: Yep. Feels good to stretch my legs again. How about you, Toph? TOPHER: I still got a cramp from how they jammed me in there. RYAN: Always something to complain about. HUNTER: I'm sure you'll get readjusted to the waking world in no time. You folks getting settled into your cabins okay? RYAN: Not really. Mine's a mess. 63A? It's a pig's sty. HUNTER: Yep. Heh. 63A is where Mikey used to live. He needs someone to keep him on the level or he can get just a little bit messy. TOPHER: My cabin's got a cat in it. Name tag says Delilah. She's mine now, I guess. RYAN: Aren't you allergic to cats, Toph? TOPHER: A little bit, yeah. I can't kick Delilah out though. Just got to live with the sniffles from here on out. RYAN: Did any of you find a weird button on a lanyard in your cabin? HUNTER: Ope, don't push that button! It's for emergencies. RYAN: Oh, I wasn't. I was going to take it apart and see what's on the chip inside. Should be interesting. TOPHER: I got job instructions saying I should drive a golf cart around. Where do I find that? I've never driven a golf cart before. RYAN: It's easy, it's like driving a car except nobody cares if you actually hit something. HUNTER: I'll get you set up with work in the morning. For now, let's get this compound stuff out of the way. Come in. You ready for us yet? 'MIKEY', OVER THE COMS: Testing, testing, uh, one, two! Yeah, we're here. Ty has patched us together, he's getting our end set up and then we're waiting for Operose to show up. Base Team is primed and ready. MARISSA, OVER THE COMS: Yo, what the fuck! How come he gets the ear piece? 'MIKEY': Because Ty trusts me with it, okay? OVER Team, all you need to do is monitor the situation from your command center, and wait for coordinates from tracing. We will send you that data and then Ryan can plug it into the program that he wrote. RYAN: Yup. We're giving Operose one big scrape. All I need to know is where it's at. HUNTER: I know Eagle. He's going to wait until the most inconvenient moment to strike. Do you folks have some sort of changing of the guards, or a time where everyone goes on lunch, anything like that? 'MIKEY': There's a guard shift change at seven, which is in, about two minutes. Which reminds me, I am starving, I have not had dinner. HUNTER: No time for a sandwich now. I'd be ready at seven pm on the dot, bud. 'MIKEY': Ten-four. Was everyone and OVER Team listening? We should be expecting company in about one minute. So expect to be transported very soon. Remember, hold the Michaels off but don't kill them. You're not trying to win the fight, you're trying to buy enough time for us to trace them back to Operose. Do you understand? MARISSA: Roger that. EMDUBYA: I understand everything except for why Mikey's runnin things. 'MIKEY': Well, get used to it, MW. In fact, I'm calling it. We're transporting in three, two, one- [TIME TRAVEL NOISE]

[sleepydross]

"Perimortem"

Chapter Two: Bad Bad Things

Warnings: Detailed Gore, Visceral bodily destruction, a metal skeleton being mean, this one actually isn't that cw-y.

Hi. Welcome to Chapter Two. Do me a favor okay? Mind the content warnings, I'll try to do them comprehensively on every chapter. Mind the tags, if you want to find story posts easily, search 'Perimortem Story,' every post will have this tag. If you like my work please reblog I guess, I'd like people to read it. <3 Thank you. >>>>>>.

Wind howled and rushed past her, and she just… let it, unaware of where she was, what was happening. It could have been a dream… it felt like a dream. Was she dreaming?

So bright… her skin ached, feeling dry and irritated and…

The stink of smoke was so, so… so strong. Her clothing was gone, completely. It was definitely a nightmare. She'd had nightmares like this all the damn time, as a kid, when her sister told her that if she misbehaved, that if she failed her father, she would be cast from the sky into the sand.

That nightmare had always come after she disappointed Nisal, or-

Her eyes snapped open, and she regretted it immediately, screaming and going blind - they were too close to the lightlace, the crystal light source that traced its lacework along the 'roof' of the main 'floor' of Hell.

The pain was, bizarrely, irrelevant - she was terrified, confused, and-

Shot. Shot in the head, shot through the torso a dozen times, shot… shot and…

"Yeah, I'm still here," The Thing You Can't Defeat said, chuckling. Only then did she become aware it was clinging to her back like a hot metal spider, her skin sizzling against its apparently steel body. Stranger yet, she barely felt weight from him, if at all, as if he wasn't FULLY there, mass wise. "Because you need to do one more thing, while you're still high up. Come on and get your broken, scorched body together. Exercise some rage, and force yourself to regenerate - or like, you know, do spells."

She didn't reply - couldn't. It had given her a gift, however, or a disease? Things were still foggy, its head still aching… a bullet-

"One bullet is still inside your think meat. Have some stones. Get a finger in there, freakshow. Rip it out," it ordered. She'd done nothing her entire life but follow orders, and not think about who the fuck they were coming from, or what a normal- "Sort your trauma later, assfucker. Get the bullet out of your fucking brain. I am saving your life, not manipulating you like your FREAK sister."

She reached up, unable to even feel her arms moving fully, and felt her head with a hand that was kind of like… a wooden prosthetic she had seen in a museum, articulated, capable of motion, but was not animated. Her fingers were useless things, clumsy, but…

"Nisal is sitting in her office, drinking a cup of tea while she day dreams about how, in approximately two hours, she is going to shoot your father in the head and chest," the reaper said. "Does that make you… angry? Hmmmm?"

Her father.

Did it?

She didn't have time to care if it ought to or not, because it did. It did piss her off. Her father… he'd shown her kindness so many more times than Nisal ever had, had been softer on her when she needed it. He was the only reason she became an operator at all, given her… squemish nature.

"Don't throw up on me," it added.

With renewed vigor and elevated rage, she plunged her fingers into the open, weeping hole on her fucking head. Her fingertips closed around the bullet, and in a motion as quick and smooth as could be, tore it free of her brainmeat. If she waited, all the… messy, incorrect data blasting through her head, and the agitation of her torn, exposed neurons…

She threw up, and in the spinning, twisting motion of falling miles from the sky, some of it DEFINITELY got The Thing You Can't Defeat.

With the bullet still clenched in her fist, and her rage stoked, her brain started healing - regenerating? She was able to think, and could feel the neurons lacing back together as an indescribable conceptual itch. Horrific memory blasted through her skull, the frozen image of Koka's head and shoulders sitting on the damn floor…

The taste of their iron and gore in her mouth…

"You're hurtling towards the execution pools twelve miles outside of Outer Vaingloria, you half-dead crispy tender. If you hit the lava, even my gift will not save you - and if you drop into radar range too close, when you do land, you'll be imprisoned, and then destroyed when they find out what you are - or worse, if they find out WHO you are. Figure it out," The Thing You Can't Defeat said, softly, excitedly.

Magic had been a necessity, and the magics she specialized in were…

Cowardly, pathetic, useless - piercing illusions, penetrating wards, deweaving curse traps and-

"Simpler, you fucking box of rocks with hair taped to it - well, not anymore, your hair burned off, but still," the Death hissed.

Redacted ran through her options. Pyrokinetics? Useless, probably. Telekinetics?

Force projection? Planar distortion?

"You're annoying, you know that?" TTYCD muttered. "You need to deflect from a downward course. You're going extremely fast, and have mild experience with… luxen constructs," it said, slowly, so sarcastic the words practically dripped with insult, indignant at having to interact with such an utter failure.

Luxen constructs. Telekinetics.

It started coming together, and she rolled over, waiting until the darkness came - her eyelids grew back, as did her eyes in kind - but her back burned as if the reaper itself wasn't there. She opened her fresh eyelids, and stared downwards. The sand was a blur, the heat distortions completely obscuring everything…

She closed her eyes again, and started focusing. Working without diagrams was difficult, so she created one - using thaumiostable meki particles, she built out a spell that would save her fucking life, or… at least save her life from being charbroiled.

"You would splatter, actually. Lava is dense, you're made of water. You'd splatter, then sizzle," TTYCD corrected. She rolled her aching eyes, then opened them, staring at the luxen construct built below her. It was huge, an enormous plane that she had formed. Luxencrystal could be ritually designed, but lightworkers like her…

They could manifest it. She'd not practiced much, but a simple shape was doable - and with this plane falling along with her, she could see the black lines of her semi-real diagram properly. Tweaking, planning, took time… and the pain was starting to matter again.

"This is going to hurt," TTYCD said.

"Yes, absolutely," she rasped. "But it'll turn a lot of this vertical momentum into horizontal."

"Clever, if you'd thought of it yourself, dumbshit," it grunted.

Malla ignored it, and set to work. The plane's shaping was critical. Luxencrystal was stable only so long as it had magic to feed it and light to devour and incorporate into its structure - light wasn't an issue. Magic was - but her well felt deep, deeper than she'd ever felt it before, and grasping this wellspring met her with the odd sensation of cold, of… a kind of void-touch, as if she brushed against the bitter shores of the Last River.

With this well of power, she shaped herself a lovely, long ramp. It was nice and smooth, luxencrystal damn near frictionless when made correctly. Her Death chuckled.

"Brace for impact, meat crayon."

Sighing, she rolled onto her back, focused on the ramp, and stared into the diagram made of meki particles, feverishly checking her work - and then, she triggered it. The ramp began to rise towards her, telekinetic forceplanes pushing it upwards towards her, gradually decelerating it until-

Stage two.

Nisal's eyes bored into her in her mind, staring down at her, with a pistol aimed. Her body hit the first telekinetic forceplane that awkwardly, painfully reoriented her onto the surface.

Stage three. The ramp rapidly stopped, the telekinetic counterforce required enough to really test her magical limits - but she accelerated, absolutely SHOT down the slick ramp.

"Oho, creative," TTYCD whispered, laying on top of her, essentially, weightless but still there. The ramp deteriorated, flooding the air with wylde magic, and as she sailed gracefully off the end…

Ahead of her, there came a sudden, sharp distortion in the air. Thunder rolled over them, as they raced towards a massive sphere of contracting hard light. It was taking everything, EVERYTHING that she had, to maintain it. In its forming, it had sucked them violently towards it, accelerating her enormously.

"Oho…" TTYCD said, chuckling. "You can have this for free - this is very clever. The whole... gas compression vaccum sucky orb thing? Very smart."

The orb of luxencrystal, pale pink in color, raced towards them - and she shoved it, with all the TK she could muster, downward.

They passed over it. Layers of hard light wove themselves under her.

Phase 4. Explosive decompression.

The orb dissolved, in an instant.

It might have been deafening, and it shattered every luxen shield she made as it expanded, but she already couldn't hear anything but the rushing of the air and TTYCD, when it spoke. The shockwave hit her, and she felt things go wrong inside - it didn't matter. She couldn't just dodge the pools, she had to…

She had to dodge the people manning them, too.

"This high up, folk aren't likely to notice an explosion… or will assume it's… a virrak and a clovus fighting. Happens… all the time. Read… an article, somewhere," she panted, finding it hard and strange to speak when she couldn't hear her own voice. It was all she could do to build out another plane of hard light, and then force her arms through it, locking her in place. It'd glide, at least a little… and let her rest.

"I did already understand that, yes, stinky. Unlike you, I've been down here before," it drawled, laughing. "Remember, my newborn friend. Drink some fucking people, as soon as you can - unless you like a ruptured spleen, half-liquified eyeballs and a heart that doesn't work. Drink… eat your fill. You will have to EAT."

Consciousness was, at that point, a limited resource. Redacted kept fading in and out, losing the thread of what was happening and then reacquiring it somewhere unfamiliar, in color and texture. Every time she slid back into the waking world, the Death was there, rasping in her ear. It had become something of a comfort, something less frightening.

Finally, she rasped, "are we there yet?"

"For what it's worth, you managed not to hit a building or road," it replied, and she took that as a-

[lightvsdark18]

Some responses to voicelines (Ortho)

Thanks for always looking out for me. I'll keep working hard to stay useful.

And thank you for staying by my side.

Archetype Gear

Who needs magic when you've got me?

Heck yeah.

If you're not gonna study, wanna play with me?

Sure, what game should we play?

Ghosts and I don't really click. I mean, where do they get off mocking me when they don't even have corporeal bodies?

The ghosts in Ramshackle aren't mean to you, right?

My databanks have a baseline of 100,000 books stored inside. Want me to read one aloud for you?

Maybe later.

Athletic Gear

I'm gonna sprint as hard as I can and see how fast I can go!

Probably very.

Vital sign alert: your breathing is ragged. Did you come running to see me?

Yeah... Also I was getting chased by Floyd.

I'm about to play tag with a drone my brother built! Wanna watch?

Sure...?

Frequent mandatory oral energy intake sounds like a pain. Ever consider switching to a rechargeable model?

What?

Precision Gear

Scan complete. ...Yup, you've got a clean bill of health today!

(Bit confused) Good to know.

I can easily handle the kind of work that's too delicate for human hands.

Can you help me with this?

I wonder if Grim will let me scan his body today.

Probably not, but you could secretly do it.

Burst Gear

When everybody's attending ceremonies, the classrooms are all empty, making it prime time for pranking.

What type of pranks?

My brother designs all of my bodies, and I'm super proud of every one of them.

Your brother is really talented.

Ack! Don't touch the heat exhaust port! You'll burn yourself.

Oops, sorry.

If another ceremony comes up, could you drag my brother here, even if he's kicking and screaming? I'd probably cave in and relent...

I'll try my best.

Stargazer Gear

I wonder what everybody wished for. Did you wish to go back to your home world?

I gave my wish to Grim.

From what I've learned, star alignment used to be super important in the olden days. I guess now it's just considered part of astrology?

I guess so.

I got Idia to decorate my gear with loads of stars! Doesn't it look like the Starsending Robes?

Yes, and it's very pretty.

I bet I could fly you all the away up to the stars! Come with me! Oh, wait... Your body's organic. That'd be super dangerous.

You could fly me up close enough that I wouldn't get hurt.

Ignihyde Gear

My AI personality "Ortho" is Idia Shroud's "brother." We're very close siblings.

I have an older brother too.

No matter how hard I search, I still can't find any data on you. That's a first for me.

[Actually, since Princess exists Ortho would find information on Alice, in a way.]

Halloween Gear

Boo! Quake with fear, Pumpkin Knight is here! ...Huh? You don't seem scared. Can I try again?

I don't know, can you?

I am Pumpkin Knight, he who forever wanders in darkness. Who wants to join my ranks?

Me.

There's a lot we can't explain about what comprises a ghost. Doesn't that make you want to capture one and analyze it?

I wouldn't say capture one, but I am curious.

[bllsbailey]

WATCH: Peter Doocy Triggers Karine Jean-Pierre So Badly That She Storms Out of the Briefing

It wasn't a good day for Karine Jean-Pierre. She showed up to the White House briefing room wearing an oversized, off-the-rack men's suit coat with the sewn-on tags still on the sleeve. She looked like a kid dressed up as a mob boss for Halloween. 

Far be it from me to speak on current fashion, but come on, what is this?

ALSO SEE: Peter Doccy Corners KJP on Disturbing ICE Data 

Her problems were just getting started, though. After taking a variety of softballs from various press members in the room, it was finally Peter Doocy's turn. The Fox News reporter proceeded to press Jean-Pierre on both the administration's response to Helene and the claim that Congress is holding up further aid. Let's just say that she didn't take it very well. 

JEAN-PIERRE: But instead, people want to do disinformation, misinformation, which is dangerous, which is dangerous because then, when folks on the ground hear that, they may not want to ask for the help that they need. That is there for them. That is there for them. That's our focus here.  DOOCY: But President Biden is fond of saying, "Show me your budget, and I will tell you what you value." If he's got money for people in Lebanon right now without Congress having to come back, what does it say about his values? There is not enough money right now for people in North Carolina. JEAN-PIERRE: His values... DOOCY: That's not misinformation.  JEAN-PIERRE: Wait, no that is, your whole premise of the question is misinformation, sir.  DOOCY: Which part? Is there money to send to Lebanon right now?  JEAN-PIERRE: I just mentioned to you that we provided more than $200 million to folks who are impacted in the area, and I just shared with you that people are deciding not to, people are deciding not to. (crosstalk) DOOCY: President Biden (inaudible) Congress. If there's not enough money to help people in North Carolina... JEAN-PIERRE: We're talking about the SBA disaster loan. DOOCY: That's money for people in North Carolina  JEAN-PIERRE: And that's important, and people in North Carolina need that. (Crosstalk). Wait, this is nothing new. Peter this is nothing new. Congress comes together, they provide money, millions of dollars for disaster relief. We are asking them to do the job they have been doing for some time.  DOOCY: (Inaudible) The president's letter is not misinformation, would you agree? JEAN-PIERRE: No, the way you're asking me the question is misinformation. There's money that we are allocating to the impacted areas, and there's money there for people who truly need it. There are survivors who need the funding, who need the funding, and it's there.  DOOCY: You can't call a question that you don't like misinformation.  JEAN-PIERRE: I said that, I actually said we have the money available to help survivors of Hurricane Helene and also Hurricane Milton. Now, there is going to be a shortfall because we don't know how bad Hurricane Milton is going to be. And so, we're going to need additional funding. We're going to need additional funding.  DOOCY: That's exactly what I just asked about and you said it was misinformation.  JEAN-PIERRE: No! What you're asking me is why Congress needs to come back and do their job. That's what you're asking me. Congress needs to come back and do their job and provide extra assistance, extra funding for the disaster relief fund. That's what Congress needs to do, and we're going to continue to urge that. You may not want that, but that's okay. That's what this president wants and what the vice president wants.  (Jean-Pierre walks out of the room)

The long and short of the exchange is that Doocy is wondering where the money to send to Lebanon, a clear attempt at appeasement of radical terrorist supporters who vote Democrat, is coming from while the White House insists there is no more money for Hurricane Helene and Milton unless Congress acts. I'm not suggesting that Congress does not need to provide additional funding, but what appropriation is being used by Joe Biden and Kamala Harris to ship American taxpayer money off to Lebanon to rebuild houses that can't be redirected to North Carolina? That's the question Doocy was asking, and it's the one Jean-Pierre called "misinformation."

It's not "misinformation" to ask for clarification. It's something a lot of people are wondering right now, and Jean-Pierre's haughty tone and inability to just give a straight answer is on display for everyone in the hurricane-devastated area wondering when help will come their way.

As to the idea that simply asking such a question leads people to not pursue assistance, that may actually be misinformation. What evidence does Jean-Pierre have to support that claim? It sounds like she just came up with an excuse for censorship that ultimately serves no one by her boss' political wants. "You can't talk about that because some may take it the wrong way" is not how any of this is supposed to work.

Frankly, I think a lot of Americans are sick and tired of Democrats hiding behind the "misinformation" trope every time they get asked a question they don't like. People deserve answers. Jean-Pierre's salary is paid for by taxpayers. Instead of acting like an entitled brat who answers to no one, she should be giving clear answers on important issues. That Doocy seems to be the only person in the briefing room willing to stand up to her is an indictment of the broader press corps.

[nathank77]

4/22/24

2:37 a.m edited..

So after a thorough investigation of fb, you can't hide your tags if the post is public if it's someone else's post. All you can do is untag yourself.

You only have full control over your posts. I mean you have control over your tags but I know you're not removing and re-adding your tags. I tested it with my multiple fb accounts bc I had to know. I'm actually a, "victim," of the metaverse/keyword data tracking. I went on my computer and searched first name last name family reunion, bam its there. First name last name ex husband's name bam.

So If I haven't terrified you and made you think I'm a complete psychotic mess, I mean you probably were waiting for me to make this discovery. Although I'm going to be real.

You're scared of me, you think I'm a crazy stalker, that I'm insane and you prob only come to my tumblr to make sure you and your family are safe.

I probably scared the shit out of you posting about your divorce, I could only imagine. I didn't type in info to find the photos, Elise. All i typed was your first and last name and fb constantly changed what was tagged under your name... and I thought you were communicating with me bc when I searched things up about tagging and fb I couldn't find direct answers.

Anyways If you aren't scared of me, I'm sorry I lost myself. I guess I'll check your actual fb occasionally like once a month or something. Cause that never changes and generally that's all you have control over. Unless you want to untag and re-tag yourself which isn't realistic.

I feel like a fucking idiot.

Wake up by silverstein really fits right now. I can only imagine what you see when you look at me.

As of this moment i have this:

1) your pose change

2) the fact you haven't blocked me or rejected it- which could be a way to protect yourself from me...

3) it going from everyone to friends the day before i went to the brass mill mall.

4) it going from friends to everyone the day before i went to the west farms mall.

5) your bio and profile picture changing the day after I posted about your divorce from your ex husband and how it appears he left your daughters without a father. And I posted shape shift the day before.

99% of this could be circumstantial. I mean the pose the day you blocked me is a little hard to believe unless you're protecting yourself... I don't think it was circumstantial...

The friends to everyone and back I mean it could be a way to say I'm reading...

Either way my intentions were good and fb really played with me. You never did.

I hope you don't see a psychotic crazy guy you need to protect yourself from. I'm not coming for you. I wish you'd come for me though.

I don't expect anything from you. I never expect to see or hear from you again. I can only imagine how I look. Over here like this post changed. Omg you posted this. Christ I want to jump off a bridge.

The worse part is only bc I have psychosis am I beating myself up over it- I would have assumed you could control individually what shows up when someone searches you...

Yet that doesn't matter. I'm sorry I can only imagine what you see when you look at me.

I'm sure you think I'm a psychotic stalker. I'm sure you don't see me as the boy across the Webcam anymore. I'm sure at this point our eye contacts only means one thing to you- I don't see Nathan behind those eyes anymore.

I'm sorry you met me. I'm not sorry I met you. You're still a poem earth wrote to keep me alive. Although I'm sure I'll never hear from you.

"I saw the light, I went to hell

But the devil never looked my way"

"Flatlines now I've lost my tomorrow

I've paid the debt of the time I've been borrowing

Nothing can save me

There's nothing in the mirror

Now all I am is a dead reflection"

I'll assume you are protecting yourself and you think I'm insane.

All I am is a dead reflection- I went to hell (psychosis) but the devil didn't look my way- bc I only ever meant to love you even if loving you meant never knowing you.

I truly hope you're happy and I hope I didn't terrify you. All I ever wanted was for you to be happy.

Goodbye Elise.

[sablewick]

It's a long slow path to getting what you want

It's a long slow path to getting what you want (3289 words) by Sablewick Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Stargate SG-1, Stargate Atlantis, Stargate - All Media Types Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Cameron Mitchell/John Sheppard Characters: Cameron Mitchell (Stargate), John Sheppard Additional Tags: Miscommunication, Angst, Post Season 5, Asexuality, Established Relationship, Misunderstandings Summary: Sheppard struggles to figure himself out. He wants to keep Cam but he knows he's going about it in the wrong way because he can't manage to get over his hang ups. Set after Atlantis lands on Earth.

Sunlight filtered down through one of Atlantis many stained glass windows. It reached across the floor, illuminating the dust particles in the air. It turned Cam's hair golden and lit up all the fuzz that adorned his bare skin.

"You have to try," Cam said, turning his face towards the light, turning away from John. "You can't be like this, you can't stop trying."

John looked up at him from the corner, his eyes dead, his hands clutched in his hair. "Cam…" he whispered so quietly that it barely carried across the room. "Cam, I can't. I don't know…I'm just…" He watched Cam's shoulder's slump minutely. "Please, Cam."

Cam didn't look back. He was gone.

John rewound the recording and watched it again. And again.

He didn't know how to get Cam to stay.

"Where were you earlier?" Rodney glanced at the control crystal in his hand, quickly discarding it and picking a different one up off the ground.

"What?" John said, distractedly, his eyes scanning the bushes at the edge of the clearing, P-90 held at the ready. It was great knowing they weren't about to be ambushed by wraith but it was weird being back on the Milky Way rotation. The planets were just that little bit different, the people a little less skittish. It was nice to be there with his actual team though. It was familiar, grounding.

"Earlier, where were you?" Rodney said. "We wanted you to look at the, ahh," he made a hand waving motion. "You know, the modifications we made to jumper one, I made some adjustments."

John fidgeted slightly. "What modifications?"

"You know, with the shield." He stopped what he was doing in order to explain himself properly.

John waved him off. "Just, tell me later. We need this fixed."

Rodney turned back to the device. "We were working on making the switch more-"

"Later, Rodney." John twitched his gun up, seeing movement in the trees. It was just Teyla though, back from her patrol. She shook her head slightly before slipping back into the foliage. There was thankfully still no sign of the planet's occupants.

Half an hour later Rodney dusted off his hands and replaced the crystal tray. "I'm done." He said, gathering up the spare crystals.

John nodded then flagged Ronon down, indicating that they should head back to the gate. "Let's go."

"So," Rodney rubbed his hands together. "Where were you earlier? Please tell me you aren't still ghosting Mitchell."

John watched morosely as Cam rolled off the bed, stood up and pulled his shirt back on. He stood there, facing the door, waiting for John to speak. Waiting to see what he'd say.

John didn't say anything.

So Cam left.

John asked Atlantis to rewind the image and sat there watching Cam leave again and again.

He still didn't know.

How were these things supposed to work?

"Colonel." Lorne nodded as he walked in the door and waved his hand in what could loosely be termed a salute. "You want me to take the new recruits out tomorrow?"

John turned to face him curiously. "Yes?" He said hopefully.

Lorne rolled his eyes. "Sir, the new SGC members are on site. Majority of the kids have the ATA. You said you wanted them in Puddle Jumpers straight away."

John held up his data pad to show that he was already taking care of the supplies. "Yeah, and pair them up with some of the scientists and see if you can't get some of this stuff cleared out." He waved a hand at the stacks of Ancient gizmos that were piled up around his desk.

Lorne nodded. "I'll send some people to move your stuff back to your old office then?"

John smiled ruefully. "Yeah."

Lorne smirked back. "You do know that if you told them to keep it all down at the lab and just mentioned that you'd drop in sometime they'd stop giving them to you."

"Yeah," John dropped the data pad back on his desk, sending a stack of labelled artifacts tumbling to the floor. "They just look so hopeful when they're handing it over. And you know, they're always so insistent about it."

Lorne laughed at him. "I'll send out a note to remind them that you're not the only one with the ATA."

John flicked through the recorded images, pausing to remind himself of moments but unable to make himself watch entire sequences. He chucked the remote at his bed and growled in frustration, pacing back and forth in his tiny room. Then he asked Atlantis to choose.

He flopped down near the window to watch it.

Atlantis liked to show him this image. That or the machine was busted and it's ability to randomise the collection was fucked. It always chose the moment where Cam was wandering about John's room.

He'd stand ‘at ease' in front of the window, then wander to the few photo's John had on the side table. He'd check where John was up to in War and Peace then flop down onto John's bed. He'd go to tuck his hands beneath the pillow but pause when his fingers would catch on soft cloth.

He'd sit up again, tugging the shirt from beneath the bedcovers, a look of recognition would pass across his face, then surprise. He'd flip it around and check the size, wrap his fingers around it and sit it reverently in his lap.

He'd hold it for a moment, faint surprise clearly visible on his face. Then the corners of his eyes would crinkle and a smile would creep across his face. He'd snort and shake his head, chuckle to himself and bury his face in the shirt for a second before folding it roughly, but carefully tucking it away again.

Then he'd sit there waiting for John to show up, not even trying to hide his smile.

John knew what he was seeing even if he didn't believe it entirely. And he knew that this (whatever ‘this' was) was what Cam kept wanting him to say. This is what Cam wanted him to admit. This is what Cam was waiting for in words - words that John wasn't sure he'd ever really have.

This was why Cam was still waiting for him.

This was why Cam would probably always be waiting for him.

This was probably why Cam didn't mind the wait; the whole situation was already bleeding obvious.

The image of Cam vanished as the doors slid open revealing a somewhat amused looking Teyla dressed in her Athosian clothing.

"Have you finished hiding, John." She smiled serenely when John looked at her, startled. "I do not wish to intrude, but I'd noticed a certain level of avoidance recently, and I was just wondering if I needed to contact a certain Lietenent Colonel-"

"No." John interjected.

"-Cameron Mitchell in order to…are you sure?" She raised an eyebrow at him.

John shook his head. "I'm sure."

"You're fine to go and pick him up tonight then."

"What?"

"You're not hiding anymore?"

"I wasn't hiding in the first place."

Teyla held up the mobile phone she'd been graced with upon Atlantis' arrival in the San Francisco Bay. "Because I would've called him to cancel for you if you were. But since you're not, he said he'd be ready by seven and that you should wear something casual."

John looked at her blankly, trying very hard not to reveal the fact that his heart was doing something rather unusual in his chest. "We have an early mission tomorrow, remember, I'll call him and let him know."

Teyla pocketed the phone as he reached for it and turned to go back out the door again. "I think you'll find it's been post-poned." She smiled again. "You should go…'hang out.' I think Cameron is in need of your company tonight."

John laughed nervously. "He didn't…you…he wouldn't tell you…he wouldn't say…" He tried to start the sentence again, and then rephrase it, but the words still didn't come out.

She shook her head at him fondly. "John, I've had much practice in interpreting what people intend to say but fail to do so." She touched his arm before walking out the door. "Give him my love." She said, and was gone before John could protest again.

The image of Cam reappeared as the doors slid shut and John turned to stare at it while he fished his own phone out of his dresser drawer and dialled Cam's number.

He picked up before the phone could ring twice and John couldn't help smiling as Cam's warm voice drawled in his ear. "So, I hear you're coming to save me from IOA meetings and infinite boredom."

John chuckled. "As long as you're providing the beer."

Cam groaned a little. "I'll provide way more than that, get your arse over here. Steal a Puddle Jumper if you have to."

John bit his lip and snorted. "And you say I can't keep my fool mouth shut."

"I was referring to food, Colonel. Now hurry it up."

John kicked off his boots and went in search of some pants.

John was waiting in Cam's office, standing awkwardly near the desk when Cam loped into the room. He hadn't wanted to wait outside because standing in the hallway would look weird. But he hadn't wanted to make himself look too comfortable either.

Cam wouldn't have minded, he really wouldn't. It probably would've made the situation ten times easier to deal with if Shepard had just draped himself over Cam's office chair and pretended like he owned the place. It would've gone a long way towards making them both more relaxed.

But Shepard had too much rejection weighing him down. No matter how much his head tried to convince himself Cam would just find it highly amusing, he was still afraid of Cam walking in and frowning at him. Of Cam being displeased. Of Cam saying things were fine but proving that they weren't in every little action and expression.

Of Cam turning away and leaving him, again. Because Sheppard couldn't be who he needed.

The fight was still lingering in John's mind, exacerbated by how many times he'd watched the recording of Cam walking out on him. Was it self flagellation? Or preparation for when Cam finally left him for good?

Cam greeted him with a bright, if hesitant, smile. "So what kind of hungry are you, steak and chips or all you can eat pizza?" He gave Shepard the once over before looking him in the eyes but Sheppard must've been giving high level fuck off vibes because he quickly looked away again. He didn't reach for Sheppard or try to touch him, just whipped around to the other side of his desk to pack up his things and then stood politely at the door while he waited for Sheppard to exit.

Sheppard tried to calm himself down, cursing himself for letting his nerves show. He could feel the chasm of space between them widening as they made their way through the checkpoints and up to ground level. He shouldn't have come, he knew this is what it would be like. But Cam had sounded so normal over the phone, and Teyla had implied everything was all good so John had pushed his anxiety down and gone with it.

But he wasn't over it. He hadn't sorted himself out enough to be normal. He was pushing Cam away when all he wanted was to be close to him.

Cam was always the one to initiate. Cam was always the one who pushed for everything. Cam was the one who put things into words and waited for John's yes or no before taking action. But Cam was also very good at interpreting body language and whenever John was even slightly antsy Cam didn't touch him at all.

John hadn't managed to find the words to explain that Cam's actions were the exact opposite of what he wanted. That's why he always waited until he was over it. His anxiety made Cam back away, which made John even more anxious and it was just awful.

They made their way to the car in silence. John could feel Cam watching him and he desperately tried to think of a topic of conversation to distract him, but nothing came to mind. Everything would be just as awkward as the silence.

Cam drove, becoming increasingly more fidgety as they approached the restaurant. When they rolled up in front of it, he turned off the car leaving the keys in the ignition. He folded his hands in his lap.

"It's ok, you know." He didn't look at John while he spoke. "If you don't want to go out, I can drop you back, it's no big deal."

That wasn't what John wanted. He didn't want to go out, but he didn't want to go back to Atlantis, either. "No." He grimaced, looking over at Cam apologetically.

Cam shrugged. "We could grab something and go back to mine."

Sheppard's heart sunk. That usually meant sex. Which he didn't want right now, but he did want affection and sex would definitely help with that so he slumped casually against the car door and smirked over at Cam.

Cam ducked his head, smiling, and opened the door. "Ok then," he drawled. "I'll be right back."

If Sheppard didn't know better he'd think Cam was disappointed.

Cam was a lot more jolly on the way back to his place, and John found it easier to play the part. Flirting, laughing, dropping innuendo. By the time they'd eaten and cleaned up after themselves John was feeling almost normal. The anxiety rushed back over him as soon as Cam leaned over to kiss him. And when Cam pulled him to his feet, intent on taking him to the bedroom it was like Sheppard lost the ability to operate. He tried kissing Cam again to get himself going, but it was like there was suddenly nothing there. Nothing between them.

Cam pulled away. "Now look," he said. "You make yourself pretty hard to read, and I'm as thick as two planks in that department, but even I can tell you're not into this right now."

Sheppard froze, his eyes fixed on Cam's shoulder, unable to force himself to respond.

Cam had never called him out before. Was this it? Was this the end? He could feel Cam's eyes roving over him as he let Sheppard go. That's the way he and Nancy had ended.

"You're never around and when you are you don't even want me," she'd said.

Had Sheppard run out of free passes in that department? How many times could you turn someone down before they stopped asking altogether and left?

It had been so much easier when they'd been living in different galaxies. Infrequent visits meant less time together meant Sheppard was happy to get whatever he could and if it was too much he knew he was going to be gone soon.

Atlantis sticking around on Earth was the worst thing that had ever happened. Which was stupid. Because you were supposed to want more time with your…significant other. Which Sheppard did, he absolutely did. He'd never let Cam go if he could manage it. He just didn't want to have sex with him. Not as frequently as it seemed to be expected of him, anyway. He didn't want to be just friends though, either. The thought of Cam going off to fall in love with someone else hollowed out his insides. He didn't want to lose him.

He absolutely dreaded the thought. He'd been dreading it for months. Because that's what was happening. Things had steadily been going down hill since he'd arrived back.

Did they even need to have a conversation about it at this point? Was there any way he could convince Cam that they weren't done? The only thing John could think of was Cam telling him he should never stop trying.

"Is it ok if I just hold you?" The words were out before Sheppard even realised he'd said them. And before he could berate himself over them, Cam was back in his arms and pulling him in close.

It took a minute, but Sheppard managed to force himself to relax into the hold, resting his head against Cam's shoulder and breathing him in deep. It wasn't long before Cam's hands started roaming again though and he started shuffling them towards the bed.

John stiffened when Cam reached for the hem of his shirt. "I don't want…"

"No sex, just sleep."

"Sorry."

Cam toed off his boots and shucked his pants. "It's ok. Sometimes I don't either. You've just got to say so to clue me in."

John had no idea how to explain that less sex would be preferable. No partner wanted to hear that. John was pretty sure even he'd be worried if Cam suddenly started refusing him. He seemed ok with it right now though, so Sheppard kissed him. Cam let it happen and then pushed him down onto the bed, crawling across him to get to the other side. As soon as he flopped down, he folded himself around Sheppard, pressing him into the mattress the same way he did when they'd just slept together except the touching continued, long and slow.

He slid his hand all the way up Sheppard's spine, burying his fingers in his hair, then gently scraped his fingernails over Sheppard's scalp over and over again. There was no teasing, no searching for erogenous zones, none of this was going anywhere. Sheppard's instinct was to make it go somewhere just to get that part over and done with, but Cam said no sex and Sheppard trusted him to mean it, so Sheppard relaxed and let himself enjoy it.

John had expected they would lie down and go to sleep, but this was way better. How did Cam even know to do this? Had he been angling for it all along and John had just misinterpreted his actions? It was very intimate. John could see how he probably would've freaked out if Cam had instigated something like this early in their relationship. He probably would've run away and never looked back. It was kind of a lot.

Now though, he felt like he couldn't get enough. Having Cam so close, feeling the weight of him, his firm but gentle touch, it made his chest ache. John drew him into a kiss again because he didn't know what else to do about it.

He wasn't sure how long it lasted but when Cam's hands finally stilled John was feeling completely blissed out. He tried to figure out how tell Cam what he felt without instigating something he didn't want and realised this was probably what words were for.

He wondered if Cam would ever say them.

He wondered if he ever could.

They woke with their limbs still entangled, their heads on separate pillows. John turned to look at Cam and found him staring, already wide awake. He had that expression on his face, the one that meant he was holding something back. John was pretty sure he knew what it meant but he wasn't entirely sure he was ready to hear it.

It was weird, knowing that it was true; Cam loved him, but at the same time being unable to believe it. He was really screwed up.

John reached out and slid his hand into Cam's, lacing their fingers together. He stared back at him as he pressed his lips to Cam's knuckles.

"I'm trying," he said. "And I won't stop."

Hopefully that would be enough.

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His Heir pt. 9 (Darth Maul x fem! reader)

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Dinner never came. Just as Maul and I were preparing to call for the droids, my comlink began going off frantically. 

“Who would be calling so late?” Maul asked confused. 

But I was just as confused as he was. No one should be calling this late. Not unless it was an emergency. 

I grabbed it and pressed the button. 

“Yn?” 

It was Qi’ra.

“Qi’ra it is late, why would you be calling so late?” I said, slightly irritated that she had once again interrupted my time with Maul. 

“Is Lord Maul around? I don’t want him to hear this.” She said.

She was clearly stressed. 

“I am right here, Lady Qi’ra. Why wouldn’t I be? You knew Lady Yn was spending the day with me. Now, what is going on?” Maul said, stepping closer so she would be able to hear him clearly. 

“Um… I need Yn's assistance on something.” She said. 

It took everything in me not to laugh as Maul scoffed at her answer. 

“Lady Qi’ra I will only say this once… When I ask you a question, I expect an actual answer, not some skirt around the edges, bullshit answer. Do you understand?” He was angry. 

“Y-Yes Lord Maul. My deepest apologies.” She stuttered out, “I was just trying to send out the new assignments for tomorrow and I sent some of them to the wrong people…” She admitted. 

“Seriously? How did you do that?” Now I was pissed too. 

“It- it was an accident. Is there a way to fix it?” 

“Yes, there is. Do you realize though that you could have just compromised all of Crimson Dawn?” I asked. 

“Yes, I know. It was an accident.” 

I looked over to Maul and sighed. 

“Where are you?” 

“Our office.” 

“I’ll be there in a couple minutes.” I told her before ending the link, not giving her the chance to answer. 

“Yn, she needs to fix this on her own.” Maul said. 

I sighed, “And she will. I’m going to collect the rest of the assignments to do them myself. She clearly was not ready for that. I’ll make sure she learns how to fix this mistake just in case she messes up again.” 

“There won’t be a next time, and if there is… I’ll have to find a replacement I guess.” Maul said as we both approached the door. 

“I’ll be back soon. Go ahead and call for dinner, I’ll just eat when I get back.” I sighed. 

“I’ll wait. Go clean up her mess.” He said, before kissing my forehead quickly. 

Once I left his quarters, I booked it to the office. As soon as I got there I sat down at my desk with my data pad and began frantically typing out a mass message for everyone. 

“What are you doing? You’re supposed to be helping me.” Qi’ra said in a panicked voice. 

“Calm down! I am helping you.” I said, not even looking up. 

“How? You’re just sitting there!” She was freaking out. 

“Hey! Listen, this was your mess up. I am here to help you, so don’t come yelling at me like that. I am sending out a mass message to tell everyone not to open their assignments to prevent your mess up from compromising anything. If I were you I would be thanking me.” I said just before I hit send on the message. 

“Why should I thank you for doing your job?” She asked. 

I looked at her like she was insane, which she might just be. 

“Qi’ra I get you’re new to working here at the compound, but let me tell you something, my job title is not “Fixer of Qi’ra’s Fuck Ups” okay? My title here is Head Advisor to Lord Maul. I’m only here because I know how to fix this mistake.” I said, getting angry. 

“Well then here, fix it.” She said setting her datapad down in front of me. 

“Um, no.” I said grabbing it and forcing it back into her hold, “You’re going to fix it. You need to learn. I’m not going to always be at your disposal to clean up your fuck ups. Especially once…” I gained my wits enough to stop myself before I said anything about Maul and me. 

“Once, what?” She asked. 

“None of your business. Now go to where you send out the assignments.” I said, quickly trying to change the subject. 

She tapped away on the datapad for a few moments before looking back up at me, “Okay, now what?” 

“Do you know which ones you sent out incorrectly?” 

“No, how could I? There’s so many of them.” She said. 

I rolled my eyes. It was going to take her so long to get up to where she needed to be. 

An exaggerated sigh left my lips before I answered her. 

“Okay, you should really pay attention to that more, but that’s a battle for another day. Down in the bottom right corner, there’s a button that looks like a diamond inside of a square. Press that.” I said. 

“What does it do?” 

“Just press it.” I sighed. 

I watched as her eyes light up with shock as all the assignments came flooding back onto the device. 

“It was that easy?” She asked. 

“Technically yes. But don’t expect to use that often. Maul gets alerted anytime you use it. And… if I were you I’d make sure you never have to use it again… for your own sake.” I advised. 

“Your threats don’t scare me.” She said. 

I scoffed, “Okay, it’s not my threat, it’s Maul’s.” 

“You know you are so disrespectful.” She said. 

“How, I don’t have to respect you so therefore I can’t be disrespectful.” I said. 

“Not to me, to Lord Maul. You don’t even use his proper title.” 

“I do when it’s needed… You see that’s the difference between you and me. I may work for Maul, but I am also his friend. You only work for him. I don’t feel the need to prove anything to him, you clearly do. I have a lot of respect for him, more than you would even understand, trust me.” 

I stood from my desk and began to make my out. 

“Where are you going?” She asked. 

I gave her an odd look. 

“The assignments still have to get sent out.” She pointed out. 

“I am aware. Get to it. I am going to go enjoy my dinner with Maul.” And with that, I left. 

The audacity of this woman. What the hell was her problem? I go to help her and she insults me like that. Part of me now couldn’t wait for the day Maul is finally able to announce that I was pregnant with his heir. Her reaction is going to be priceless. Watching her face as all the gears start turning and she starts piecing the puzzle together and realizing why Maul and I have been spending so much time together, not much is going to beat that. 

When I got back to Maul’s quarters, true to his word, he hadn’t eaten yet. We called for the droids and were soon eating while sitting on the couch together. 

“I saw your message. Did you get everything fixed?” He asked, which prompted a slight glare from me. 

“I am going to take that as a yes you did but something else also happened?” He asked. 

“Spot on.” I sighed. 

“What happened?” He asked gently. 

“She’s just a bitch.” I continued to explain the events that transpired in the office and telling him about how she said I was disrespectful. 

“Is it bad that I am really looking forward to the day that you announce I’m pregnant? I just know it’s going to get under her skin.” I asked. 

Maul let out a small laugh. 

“I don’t think so. In fact, I agree, her reaction is going to be priceless.” He said. 

His answer made me smile a little. I was glad that I wasn’t the only one looking forward to that moment, but it also made me think about that moment a bit more. 

“Would we announce it right away to everyone? Or would you want to wait until after they’re born to announce them as your heir?” 

“Why would we wait until then?” He asked, tilting his head to the side. 

“I don’t know… I don’t want anyone saying anything like we had an unprofessional relationship or anything… I don’t want anyone to think it was an accident and that you were being forced to name the child as your heir.” I confessed. 

“I’d like to see them try. If anyone ever says anything negative about you or our future child, you have my word, they will be dealt with. But Yn, most members of Crimson Dawn know that we have known each other for years and are more than just a leader and an advisor. They’d be idiots to not realize our friendship.” He reassured. 

I nodded, realizing that he was right… hopefully. 

We finished up our meal and were soon getting ready for bed. I opted to head back to my quarters for the night. I knew I was welcome to stay, but I didn’t want to seem like I was expecting to stay another night. When I got back to my quarters, I showered and got dressed for bed before pulling out an outfit for tomorrow. 

I opted for one of Maul’s favorite dresses, he had actually gotten it for me. I knew he’d notice it… and Qi’ra would notice him noticing it. Tomorrow will be fun. 

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hello !! so eliava aka @eightiesau aka one of my fav people ever tagged me to post some of my fav pictures from 2017!  andddd it was actually harder than i thought bc i actually like had a phone this year and could take pictures lmao so i chose 10 instead of 9 but eh who cares xD what we’ve learned from this is that i like snow (the app lmao but also the weather, only sometimes though), i like animals + also i like seventeen lol (and other groups but like... svt’s the only one i have pictures of that i actually took myself yes okay)

idk if i’m supposed to do explanations for the pictures also ? but why not

1. me and a doggo :’) when i went to dc this summer my cousin’s roommate adopted a dog and i went with them !! so ye this is their new puppy ^-^ 2. a v pretty ferris wheel i saw in barry (wales) 3. aNOTHER doggo @the petsmart where we went to adopt doggo from #1 4. that is seventeen lmao @diamond edge ny (aka like one of the best nights of my life despite the shitty ass venue yes) (if u are unfamiliar with svt then from left to right the visible ones are: chan (dino), mingyu (giving the piggyback lol), seungcheol (s. coups, the one on top of mingyu lmao) & minghao (the8, my bb, my love)) 5. me and my cat oliver xD sometimes his tongue just gets stuck out lol it’s real cute i have so many pictures of him with his tongue out he is a cutie and i love him to pieces 6. also seventeen lol i cannot name them all in this photo (maybe if i tried real hard but it’s like 2am lmao so no) but this is like one of the best pictures i took that night since my view was terrible and idk i just like the lighting haha 7. also seventeen and once again i also just liked this lighting  8. me !! in dc again, using snow filters (again) bc i don’t like my face 9. me again feat. snow, right after i cut my hair 10. me... again... using snow... again... after i got my hair colored and idk the lady curled it too ? i was trying to recreate this picture of iu lmao it did not turn out the best but also i kinda like this picture of me ? so not bad

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