#:') kagome's selfless nature honestly adds to her gushing internal injuries lmao

[kaigashi]

‘i’m lucky ‘ / analysis.

You ever think how Kagome literally never talks about her Father, who died in a car accident? Like she never does. Either it was too excruciating for her or she was too young to know him but obviously she feels the hole. Her mother mentions him in the anime very fondly but you can tell by her face his loss crushed her. Do you ever think Kagome endeavors to be even more cheerful for her Mother so she just...doesn’t worry about how she’s a single mom? That her life is the best just having ‘Mama’ in it?

Or how as she’s gotten older she’s looked at photo albums and the pain finally hits her and the vague memory of his face is pretty much gone and she isn’t wanting for family. She has her Jii-chan, Sota and Mama. But she never had a Father in her life. Worse, he died horribly and without meaning to, left the woman she admires most in the world, her Mama. 

You ever think that as the losses and tragedy pile up in the Sengoku Jidai Kagome literally hasn’t told anyone about it? Because knowing her she’s like ‘well they live here in the most brutal period of our nation, why should I even think I remotely have it bad? I’m lucky.” 

I’m lucky, she says as she becomes more and more traumatized and gathers more scars and bruises due to having a weak physical frame, not for lacking as a warrior just not a melee warrior. Obviously we see her grow into a master archer and finally ready to harness the limitless spiritual power that never ends. 

I’m lucky, she says as Kagome, the glue that holds everyone together, starts seeing the worst of humanity and demons and still chooses to smile and love everything as best as a flawed person could. As she gets injured and emotionally and physically. As people drop like flies in front of her: Kikyo, Kanna, Kagura, innocents, not innocents, children in the worst ways.  I don’t have it bad like Sango or Inuyasha or Miroku, it’s not important what I feel about this as much as making sure they have a good support system, it’s okay, I’m lucky I’m lucky I’m lucky -- as she develops severe PTSD, nightmares and immense trauma and has to sometimes go home to dissociate and cry blindly for her Mama because Mama the images won’t stop Mama I’m in pain Mama please -- Mama --

I’m lucky, she says, I’m not gonna be selfish.

Wishlist: Kagome opening up about her PTSD episodes with her friends / her Feudal Family.