#//i'm having fun with these snippets if you cant tell. these are the pieces that are living in my head rent free. :3

[kitakami-zorua-kin]

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"I can't believe they lied to us, it's not - it's not fair, we didn't do anything wrong-" I know, I know - it's going to be alright. We'll prove them wrong. "We have to get stronger - have to show them it was wrong, have to make them regret it-" We will. We will. I'm by your side. We'll get stronger. --- "... so with Kieran as our newest Champion, that does mean someone has to leave the Elite Four." "... Russet, will you be stepping down then?" "... i'd like t' ch'llenge." "... Rus you don't have to do this." "... i do.." "... Very well. A series of battles, starting with Crispin, then moving to Lacey, then to myself, and ending with Drayton. Is this amenable?" "... yeah." --- "We did it. We'll make them regret what they did to us, what they did to me." ... of course, Kier. I'm at your side.

[sable-skies]

QUICK -while that Anon is incapacitated from being hit with TWO Voltron mentions- TALK EVEN MORE ABOUT VOLTRON!

Your biggest issues with the show! Wasted potential! And of course the biggest piece of Drama; SHIPS?!?!??

We will never get proper closure. We all share Voltron trauma ✌️😔

the people yearn for a five hour video essay talking about why voltron sucks. (I've literally wanted to make one for Years about it but alas, life happens)

i cant do that yet because of my schedule, but I will give you a snippet on some of my thoughts

Forgive me, for I am about to yap like I'm a fucking professor in the subject, got my master's years ago and all it did was give me fandom trauma (/lh, but there's a reason why I don't join fandom discords anymore or anything like that!) so strap in my brother (gender neutral)

I WILL ADDRESS THIS FIRST: Ships. I actually never shipped anything in VLD! No offense to Klance, but I never really got the appeal? And obviously there's that Other Super Popular one that I'm not gonna name because it's fans are gonna kill me, but I didn't like that one either.

For Klance; I think I never got it because I just. never considered them love interests? Like I would see people losing their minds over it and my (at the time, unknown) aroace ass would just slow blink at them like "yeah man i guess. what?". Could it have been good? Maybe, but it was never the horse I backed personally. I will say, some of the content that came from that ship was absolutely phenomenal though, never doubt what yaoi-obsessed teenagers can do.

I won't say much more on the fandom tbh, but trust me I saw some shit. This blog wasn't around back then but I witnessed some things. Remember the socks? I do.

Moving onto the actual show itself, I actually rewatched at least the first season (and half of the second) because a few friends and I were talking about it again and I wanted to try and get some notes for that video essay I'm totally going to do, and I realized that from the get-go the show was absolutely fucked worldbuilding wise.

I'm a big worldbuilding nerd, I never share my various insane projects but I literally make a new google document every week with ideas for various stories I would love to tell. Worldbuilding is such an essential part to telling a good story and having a believable world, and upon rewatching at least season 1, there's some loose foundation set but then completely butchered by season 3.

I will be honest, people always say that season 4 was the worst, and I will agree it did suck, but in my opinion season 3 was the worst for me. I absolutely hated that they started to switch lions, which I understand is a reference to the original 80s show, but it completely disregarded one of the lines in the FIRST EPISODE about how a bond between a lion and it's pilot is scared, cannot be forced, and is a rare thing. only for that to get thrown out the window. AUGH.

I'm a firm black paladin allura believer personally, I think that would have been so much fun seeing her step into the leadership role she pretty much had from the start alongside Shiro! (Never shipped them for anyone worried, they're just really good friends)

Speaking of friends; I don't think the show really established the team's overall bond well enough. Looking back, there's nothing in the show that promises found family friendships and all that, but the showrunners said that would be the case, and I think they were the biggest reason the show failed. (more on that later)

Sin Squad once said in one of their videos that everyone on the team felt more like co-workers and honestly? I still agree on that sentiment. I can believe that Pidge and Hunk are friends, I can believe that Keith and Shiro have a familial bond, I can believe that Hunk and Lance are friends. But Keith and Pidge? Hunk and Shiro? Hunk and Allura? There are so many potential really good friendships that are completely ignored in favor of other established bonds, and I think it makes the whole "we gotta work as a team!" message a lot weaker because of it. They're all co-workers at best, "strangers forced to be friends under the worst circumstances" at worst (shout out to keith for that line, he was actually spitting)

Additionally, and this is just because I'm still a big Keith head at heart (when I was 15 I wanted to go by that name because I was so attached to him. its funny looking back), I really dislike how they treated his character? In season 1 he didn't get much development, but we got the hints of him being half-galra, and I loved that! Season 2 really built on him and S2 E8 "Blades of Mamora" is still my favorite episode. I love that one with my whole fucking heart. Oh my god.

But then season 3 hit, forced him into a leader positions I don't think he ever grew into, and then his. mom. came back. Don't get me wrong, I love Krolia (big fan of women), but all of Keith's angst being cured by spending a few space whale years with his mom continues to completely disregard the bonds he made with his team. And Keith isn't the only one who suffers from this, everyone does.

I understand family is an important bond (despite the fact that I keep many of my personal family members at arms length, for reasons) but every character only got a "complete" arc or ending when they were reunited with their blood family, not the "found family" that the showrunners promised. Pidge's only arc was finding her family, sure there was the stuff about nature and coding being similar but that was for a single episode. Hunk only got development again post season 1 when it was about his family being enslaved. Lance only ever wanted to see his family again, and then he never got an arc past that except for his dead space girlfriend. Shiro never even got an explanation for his family past his totally-boyfriend Adam.

SPEAKING OF ADAM

I will say that I disagree with the fandom's opinion that the entire show queerbaited with Klance. I think you had to have Klance-sized glasses on to see that. The show truly did queerbait with Adam though, with promoting and hyping him up for season 7, only for him to barely get a minute of screen time. Actually such a waste of time, and such a waste of an interesting character. Voltron writers and showrunners when i GET YOU.

A final note I'll make because I'll never stop writing otherwise: there was some discussion about whether or not the show's failure was the writers, showrunners, or executives fault. I personally think it was the showrunners who were at fault here. She-Ra came out the same year VLD ended, and it soared in terms of worldbuilding, storytelling, and queer representation.

For She-Ra to come out around 2018, I imagine these shows started development around the same time (Did you ever realize VLD only had a 2 year run time? 75 episodes in 2 years? I did and it made me upset.) They were probably working with same executives, under the same people, same deadlines, etc. She-Ra succeeded (i think), and VLD fell apart and crashed at the end. Hell, in the final year it was airing they were STILL in the storyboard process. I think the showrunner's either majorly mishandled the production of this show, or they were given shit terms and didn't do anything to make something of it. Either way, Lauren Montgomery and Joaqium Dos Santos I will remember your names forever because of it

(On a serious note, I don't actually dislike or hate them. I'm just disappointed in what happened is all)

Anyways that barely like. scratches the surface of many more issues I have with the show, but those are some of the major problems I saw in it!

And for some more positive notes: I love the ost of the episode where Allura's AI-father dies, it still sticks with me even now. (i ugly sobbed at that episode I'm sensitive to parental death), and Keith is still my beloved meow meow, I love him so much I miss him. Steven Yuen the GOAT. I also loved the concept of these bio-mechanical lions, they could've gone a bit more cosmic horror eldritch with them, but it's still good regardless.

shoutout btw to my friends who sat in call with me as I typed this like a madman.

[smoosnoom]

Hi! I have a couple of writing related questions. I was curious how you decide when a story is finished? Do you come up with the ending first or just go with it until it "feels right"? How do you motivate/discipline yourself to finish a story? Or do you not struggle with that so much? I'm having trouble structuring stories and finishing things. I find myself writing all the time, but it always ends up being little snippets or a couple thousand word scenes and I can't seem to fit them into an overall plot or story…? Does that make sense? I feel like I have like 18 different stories going on and sometimes there's like a bunch of scenes that could fit one story but I can't make them… Mesh. Also I can't just finish it off. I always feel like there's something missing or like I'm just not sure what the overall point of the story is so I don't know how or when to end it. Anyway, thinking about this made me curious what your general structure is. Do you start with a scene and then flesh out from there when starting a story? Or do you start by having an overall plot and writing based on an idea? Like do you block out your stories scenes/pacing etc first or just write in order, beginning to end or jump around from scene to scene and stick it together later? Does your process change depending on the story? So sorry for the kind of aimless questions. I'm just curious about your process. I'd love to be able to actually complete something, but I don't really have anyone to talk to about writing, and I thought maybe getting advice from someone who I see and enjoy the finished work from could help me in some way. No worries if you don't really know how to answer this and don't want to. I won't be offended lol Anyway ty love your work, have a good day :D

hello ! im so sorry for taking so so long to get to this, i would keep coming back to change or add something to say :)

I was curious how you decide when a story is finished? Do you come up with the ending first or just go with it until it "feels right"? ... I can't just finish it off. I always feel like there's something missing or like I'm just not sure what the overall point of the story is so I don't know how or when to end it. - this fluctuates from time to time; sometimes i feel like a story is done right when i write the last scene, and then i'll come back to it and add a whole other scene because it doesn't seem right . i try to consider if whether or not the entire story has come full circle, if it's satisfying and the ending is something worth having read the previous paragraphs for, if the last few lines are conclusive enough, or if it feels like something should be coming after it . i don't know a proper formula or fool-proof solution to this, its just a Feeling u get, but if u are at a complete loss, what i try to do is completely forget about it for a few days (at least five), and then come back and read the entire thing, editing Nothing, but only taking notes on what to fix, until u reach the end, where u, with a fresher perspective, can tell if the ending is right or not . sometimes, theres just no point to a story other than being written - if that's the case, then thats fine . writing is meant to be fun, if it feels incomplete, come back to it at a later time, don't look at it for a while . if u cant bear to do that, then maybe rewrite it completely - i've done this several times, rewriting thousands of words because something is just . missing . so i take the old work and rework it into something i like better, rewriting and removing and adding bits and pieces . try to spend some time away from the work, that helps me immensely !

another piece of advice from aaron sorkin is that sometimes when he finds a lull in his writing, he takes a shower - showers are great for getting ur imagination flowing :) something else i heard is to take the work and put it in a place not easily accessible, and then, after a few weeks, looking at it again . another version of this is putting it away and rewriting the entire thing from memory . ive done all three and they help as well :)

How do you motivate/discipline yourself to finish a story? Or do you not struggle with that so much? - if u mean continuously working on a story til the end, then absolutely i do struggle with it !!! half the time its the sheer want to write that keeps me going, or if its a story so daunting i dont know how to write it, then i try to make it easier to write for, maybe telling myself ill stop writing after thirty minutes, or until i get a thousand words done, or just until i reach a scene that i really want to write . that, as well as just Forcing myself sometimes really helps, sometimes i just need to get myself to do it in order to the words to flow out properly. ill also admit that sometimes what gets me going is the idea of feedback, what people might think of it or even how satisfied i might feel from writing and finishing it . if u need a friend to cheer u on, or u need to post a bit or two on here to get that encouragement, then feel free . also implementing a "write for thirty mins/for five hundred words/etc." really helps too :) maybe giving urself a deadline as well, such as getting a certain amount done by a certain day

I find myself writing all the time, but it always ends up being little snippets or a couple thousand word scenes and I can't seem to fit them into an overall plot or story…? ... I feel like I have like 18 different stories going on and sometimes there's like a bunch of scenes that could fit one story but I can't make them… Mesh. - it does make sense :) i have a doc just called "cut" that is a series of scenes and snippets and phrases that arent related in the slighted - its only for the sake of putting the idea in my head out and onto the screen, which i might later use for a story i write at a different time if i find that it fits . u don't need to make all these separate scenes fit, sometimes they just aren't meant to . if u find urself writing eighteen different stories, and then only extensively working on a specific few, then i suggest combing some of these stories where they fit . if they don't, then go for the one u want to work on the most, the one that matches ur current writing mood . i know saying "work on which one uwant to work on" is pretty unhelpful, but theres no better solution . maybe asking someone else which one they'd like to read the most also helps, something i do :)

Do you start with a scene and then flesh out from there when starting a story? Or do you start by having an overall plot and writing based on an idea? Like do you block out your stories scenes/pacing etc first or just write in order, beginning to end or jump around from scene to scene and stick it together later? Does your process change depending on the story? - sometimes i do all of these . it does change depending on the story ! for some, i get a flash of a scene that i quickly write out, and, from there, an entire story is inspired in me and i start writing it as quickly as i can, and this changes from just writing down the parts i really want to implement or i feel are imperative in the work, or i finish the initial scene and begin from the start . other times, i have a plot in my mind and i start to write it, but never have i stuck with the initial plot - it always morphs into something else, and ive never resisted from that urge . one plot point will turn into five, and i have sticky notes i keep next to my bed and desk and in my bag and by the door whenever these ideas stick, or i get a sudden scene idea, which i quickly jot down, and, most of the time, i start jotting down quick outlines for the next few scenes . these are never detailed, especially on a sticky note, it's usually just (bike scene, diner scene, "insert quote i just thought of/want to include", etc.) . things like that . i also almost always jump around - i've never written anything in a linear manner, and i probably never will . sometimes the place u are in during the story is in such a lull u want a change of pace, and that's fine :) let that happen ! then u go back to the part u need to work on, and sometimes its even easier to tie two separate scenes together .

im so happy u enjoy the work i put out ! u mention not having anyone to talk about writing with, but my dms are always open and id love to chat if u want :) and if u ever want a second opinion/some help (it feels weird to say help because i am just trying my best on here LOL) then let me know !!! please feel free to just hit me up, i'd love to talk !!!!!!

none of these questions were aimless, and im so sorry for taking forever to reply this, i tried my best to answer as thoroughly as i possible could :) if i missed anything or u want any more clarification on anything, please let me know !!

thank u for the ask !

[wellsayhelloaagin]

Spoiler free Black panther: Wakanda Forever review in one word:

Powerful

Spoiler riddled, incoherent and chaotic brain thoughts about the movie under the cut. Read at your own discretion:

Okay, my brain is still a big old jumble from seeing the movie so I'll try and organise this as best I can.

First of all, that post credit scene was not on my bingo card. Baby T'Challa was not expected but oh lord the audible gasp I let out in the middle of the cinema was loud. I'm so glad I went into this blind because I think that's one of the biggest "holy shit" moments I've ever had in a Marvel movie.

Second, that marvel logo scene at the start. Talk about poignant. Holy cow. The collection of scenes from his time in Marvel almost had me sobbing in front of strangers. The cinema was dead silent and it was honestly such a touching moment.

Adding to the not on my bingo card moments, we have the Queens death. So not what I saw coming. I can understand why it was necessary in terms of the plot but damn it did hurt (even if she kind sucked in the movie but I mean we all process grief in our own way so she is totally forgiven). Her UN moment was so fucking boss. The way that scene was cut together had me frothing. Ugh, love love love.

The end with Shuri burning the outfit and remembering her brother. The way it all kind of built up to that moment and again the silence was just a great piece of cinema. Kudos to the editors for that one.

I gotta say, the Black Panther movies really have a way of making me love the villians. It's the way you can understand their motives and why they are doing what they are doing. Like you know that they have taken it too far and are proving their point the wrong way but you can sympathise with their cause. I really cant wait to see Namor again (and him being gorgeous is just a bonus)

I love that the movie still kept some of its humour from the first one, its why I love this franchise so much. It is so impactful and has such deep messages and conveys meaning so well but it's also light-hearted and fun and just a joy to watch.

Seeing Val was great. I like how we keep getting snippets of her as it builds to the Thunderbolts. She's a complex one and sneaky as hell but damn she is smart and knows how to get what she wants. It was good to see Ross again, even if he was reduced to a bit of a pawn. Adding their marriage to things that were not on my bingo card as well.

Also, M'Baku. That's it really. He really is just a fantastic addition to the movie and I fucking love his character so damn much.

I think overall the movie was fantastic. Held up to the original and honestly, in my opinion it may have surpassed it. The pacing was good, the storyline complex enough to hold your interest but still easy to follow. It showed the characters in a new light and once again, grief was the real villain. It let the characters be human and process their emotions in ways that aren't always healthy. It felt true to life in that sense.

The visuals in this film were sublime, honestly, it felt like marvel at it's best. The score really added depth to the story telling and it just felt like a true cinema experience. I loved it from start to finish and I know it's going to become one of those films I watch over and over and find new things to love each time.

10/10 flawless. I can't recommend it enough. If you're a fan of the first film you should enjoy this one.

[butmakeitgayblog]

How do you keep yourself motivated to keep writing? I'm not talking about writers block I mean anytime I try to set myself a schedule for writing or getting a chapter out I always break off of it after a few months or have no motivation to write anymore. I've tried not having a schedule either and just writing as I get an idea and I couldnt do it either without losing interest. I've tried planning out what I'm going to write, like a general idea if each chapter, but I cant get myself to keep writing after awhile

I'm going to be totally honest with you, I'm possibly the worst person in the world to ask this 😬. Truth is, I am not a writer. Or, well, I wasn't. City of Angels was the first thing I'd ever written creatively and it just kind of... happened. And then more people kept encouraging me to keep going and I started having more ideas. So really most of the time I feel like a fraud amongst all the fantastically talented writers in this fandom.

To try and help tho, you mention over and over you lose interest. Possibly your problem is you're setting yourself too broad of goals? Maybe step back and instead of thinking of the story as a whole, worry about it chapter by chapter. The mindset of "oh god, I need 7 chapters to complete this story" can feel overwhelming and defeating. I find small goals help A LOT. 200 words. 10 minutes of writing. 5 minutes of writing. Make deals with yourself. "I won't start a new episode without writing for 5 minutes first."

The main thing is just getting words on the page. Doing word sprints helps me a lot, because I'm forced to just get it out of my head and on the page, and then edit it later.

Maybe try pushing yourself toward smaller works as well instead of longer pieces. If you lose interest when you're forced to continually revisit a story, then maybe rework it so that you're only telling short pieces of a story. I did that with Romeo and Juliet au and the Vampire au and the Witch au. I couldn't make myself plot out an entire fic, but I wrote snippets of their lives that were meaningful. For R+J, I didn't want to write the sprawling details of their months of clandestine rendezvous, I just wanted to show one night of their love, how they fell in love, and how they promised each other forever. That's it, no more no less. Maybe approaching your stories that way could help you get your story out without feeling bogged down by a bunch of stuff you don't really want to deal with 🤷‍♀️

Fwiw I find world building boring and tedious af to write so,,, I generally skip it and rely on my readers to invent certain things in their mind. That can be part of the fun of reading anyway, so I don't torture myself over it. Maybe something like that is unconsciously holding you back too?

Just don't get down on yourself. Keep working at it and trying different methods until you find something that works for you. You have stories to tell that people will want to read, so just believe in yourself. You'll get there, I promise.

[gay-salt-amber]

How Fallen Leaves, Breeze Pelt and Jay Feather got together (Human AU)

Some of these may seem like little snippets from their lives but I hope that's alight -w-’ 

Warning: Incest *kind of since in this au Breeze is adopted* Boy x Boy, my AU, Jay Feather likes wearing dresses cause they’re non binary and they don't give a fuck, Swearing, make-out sessions and hickeys

Also the pov’s will change from time to time!

Jay Feather pov-

Ever since a few moons ago, me and Breezepelt have been talking more and getting along a lot better. Sure its taken a while to get here but, we’re comfortable around one another now and now he doesn't hiss every time he sees me. Right now, I am heading to the Wind clan border to chat with him for a little while, now why am I doing that? Well, he’s a nice relief to see whenever I’m on break and since him and I have similar personalities, he’s a good person to talk to when I need to vent.

Once I reached the border I scented him near, I walked closer to the scent and waited, then I scented him near by, “Hey Jay!” He greeted, using my nickname to address me.

“Hey Breeze.” I greeted back, making a waving motion with my hand.

“Wanna go on a walk for a while?” He asked as he stepped over the border, ‘The questions for that are gonna be fun..’ I thought as I scented him over the border.

“Sure as long as you doing do anything stupid.” As I spoke I heard him chuckle,

“You know me, of course I wont.” I smirked as we started walking,

“Sure you wont.” 

As we kept walking we just chatted for a while I scented a patrol coming near us, It was a Thunder clan patrol but I could tell who was on it right away. I could tell Breezepelt scented them too.

“Are we gonna hide or are with gonna be dumbasses and stay out in the open?!” I snapped, after I spoke I could tell Breezepelt was likely looking around for somewhere to hide before the patrol got closer,

“There's some tunnels over there, lets hide in there till the patrol leaves.” 

“Fine.”

But I know one cat would catch us, just not the same type.. 

When we entered the tunnels, I felt at ease again and not worried about the patrol. It was nice being back here, in a way. I then tried to scent out Fallen Leaves but he wasn’t around this part of the tunnels, ‘Maybe he’s near one of the holes and looking out?’ I thought. While I was discussing with Breezepelt if the patrol was gone, I heard my name being called,

“Jay Feather?” It took me a moment but I soon recognized the voice of Fallen Leaves and stood to walk over to him.

“Its been a while hasn't it?” I greeted as I walked closer to him.

He let out a chuckle, “I suppose so.” 

While we were talking I completely forgot about Breeze Pelt who was sitting just a few inches away, I didn’t mean to, shit just happens.

“Uh, Jay who is he?” Breeze Pelt asked from behind me,

I turned around, “This is Fallen Leaves, he’s a good friend of mine.” But I could tell that answer only left him more confused,

“How do you two know each other?”  I could tell Fallen Leaves would be ok with me explaining it, and I don’t think Breeze Pelt would fail to keep a secret.

Fallen Leaves chuckled, “Do you want me to explain or do I have to?” 

“I can, thanks for the offer though, I guess.” 

I then started my explanation in the most dumbed down way I could think of, “I am reincarnated from a cat named Jays Wing, back when this dipshit was alive,” I motioned to Fallen Leaves before continuing, “We knew each other, now that I am reincarnated and he’s stuck down here, we got close.”

“Honestly not the most bad-shit-crazy thing that you have going on.” Breezepelt said, 

“I mean you’re not wrong.” 

Once I sat down with Fallen Leaves next to me, Fallen Leaves spoke, “Oh, I never got your name.” 

“My name is Breezepelt.” 

“Oh! Now I know who you are, great to meet you.” Fallen Leaves then scooted over and shook Breeze Pelts hand,

“Also Breezy, don’t tell anyone about the reincarnation thing, and or about Fallen Leaves cause I don't wanna have that talk today.” 

I could sense Breeze Pelts smile, “I wouldn’t tell anyone, don’t worry about it!” 

We started talking more, Breezepelt talking about Wind Clan, me bitching about the dumbasses in my clan and Fallen Leaves trying to keep me sane. It was nice with the both of them here, they were the only two cats that I felt comfortable around. Then the conversation transitioned to me,

“Hey Jay, what kind of clothes do you like?” Breezepelt asked,

“Uh, anything I guess..”

“Don't you like dresses a lot? I’ve seen you down here when you come to visit me, and you wore a dress a few times.” Fallen leaves point made me embarrassed, 

I felt the blush growing on my cheeks, “Yeah, I guess. What of it?!” 

“We ain’t gonna judge you on what you like to wear, don’t worry about it.”

After that we went back to normal conversation, such as how much Millie annoyed me and Breeze Pelt even talked a bit about his Dark Forest training and how oblivious Tiger Star was to Dark Stripes crush on him. And we just had a good time.

Breeze Pelt then stopped talking, “It seems to be night time already.” 

When he mentioned that I finally noticed the cold night air biting at my skin, “I guess it is.”

Me and Breeze Pelt both stood, “It was nice meeting you, Fallen Leaves.”

We started walking out of the tunnels when I felt a pair of arms wrap around me, “Can you guys come and visit more often? It just gets lonely down here..” Fallen Leaves murmured the last part,

“Sure we can. I normally don’t have much work on Fridays so I can drop by then.” 

“Same here, we’ll visit you every Friday if that's ok with you.”

“That is perfectly fine!” 

After saying our goodbyes, me and Breeze Pelt walked back to the Wind Clan border, 

I let out a rare chuckle, “That was probably one of the best nights I’ve had in a while.” 

“I can tell, and hopefully you’ll have nights like it soon enough.” 

When I thought he left, I started to walk back, I heard him speak again, “Wait..” I spun around and he planted a quick kiss on my cheek. 

“You can go now.” He then walked away leaving me a blushing mess.

“See you later, I guess..” I muttered under my breath. I then started to walk back home. When I reached the door, I opened it and walked into the kitchen for some dinner that Leaf Pool seemed to have made.

“Oh Jay Feather you’re back late. Did something happen?” Bright Hearts voice rang out after I sat at the table to eat, 

“Not really, I just didn't know how late it was.” 

“Oh alright, good to see you’re back in on piece!’ Then the scent of my former mentor drifted as she left go to her room.

I let out a sigh and continued to quickly eat the food that sat infront of me. It was only then that I really noticed how tired I had become. Once I finished my food I went to my room and screamed into my pillow, my cheeks burning. ‘Why did he kiss me?! What was that dumbass thinking?!’

“Why did I like it..” I whispered

Fallen Leaves pov-

It has been a few weeks since Jay Feather and Breeze Pelt came to visit me the first time. I do enjoy our visits and their stories are funny and I enjoy hearing them. But something seems off with Jay Feather.. He blushes a lot more often, he stammers a little bit too. I shrugged it off since I may just be over reacting, but I cant help but let that question run around in my mind.

I sat at the cave entrance, watching the sun rise while I stretched and tried to wake up a little bit. Jay and Breeze Pelt don’t normally visit on days like this so, I just sat and daydreamed, like I did often. Before I knew it, I was asleep.

Jay Feather pov-

When I awoke I just sat, thinking about that kiss again. I have been thinking about it for WEEKS! ‘Do I love him..?’ I asked myself, ‘But I love Fallen Leaves too! What the hell..’ I'm surprised they haven't caught on, I have been blushing like crazy around them.

I a bag and headed out of my room, down the stairs and to the kitchen to make breakfast. Despite the fact that I am blind, I can cook pretty well.

“Morning Jay Feather.” Leaf Pool greeted

“Morin’.” I greeted back and went silent as I continued to make some waffles.

Once I was done, I ate quickly and walked out the door. I had to talk with Fallen Leaves. When I got to the tunnels, I took a breath before I stepped in. When I got inside I could hear Fallen Leaves’ soft snoring, ‘He must be asleep.’ I smiled with love and walked closer to him. 

When I touched his skin it was pretty cold. Due to how cold the tunnels get, its to be expected. My bag was big so I had a blanket in it for emergencies or if I just needed it. So I pulled it out and put it around Fallen Leaves’ sleeping body. I didn't want to disturb him so I got out my phone, put in my earbuds and listened to a audiobook while I waited for the ghost tom to awake.

Fallen Leaves pov-

When I awoke I felt warm. Which I knew didn’t come from me since I’m dead and don't have body heat. I looked down and saw a blanket wrapped around me. ‘I don’t own a blanket..’ While I was trying to figure out where it came from I looked to my left and Jay Feather was sitting there peacefully, with earbuds in and relaxed.

“Jay? What are you doing here?” He didn't here me at first then they must have noticed I was awake and spoke,

“Oh, what were you saying?”

“I wanted to know what you were doing here.”

“Oh right...” He paused, moving his hear infront of his face, but the color of his ears could show that he was blushing.

“I wanted to talk to you about something.” Their voice was quiet and nervous which concerned me.

“Ask away, I’m all ears.”

“Uh well... I'm kind of conflicted..

“About..?”

“I love you and Breezepelt!” They blurted out, their words shocked me, but at the same time, I felt relief.

“Call Breeze Pelt so we can talk about this together, okay?” I said softly. 

“Alright.” Jay Feather then got his phone out and called Breezepelt and told him to come down to the tunnels.

Breezepelt pov-

After the call ended I walked down into the tunnels and saw Jay Feather and Fallen Leaves quietly talking, quiet enough to the point where I couldn't hear it.

“What's going on here?” I asked as I started to walk closer to them

“Oh! Come sit, please.” 

“Alright?” I was confused since this was quite unusual.

“What did you wanna talk about?”

Jay feather then started to speak, “I uh..”

‘I love both of you..” Those words made me blush furiously, Jay Feather their head in their hair which led to Fallen Leaves letting out one of his adorable laughs,

“I love you both too.” He said looking at both of us,

“Yeah, I love you both too.” 

Jay Feather lifted their head and the blue, blind pools they called eyes were bright, “Really..?” 

“Mhm.” Me and Fallen Leaves both hummed out in unison.

Fallen Leaves then jumped off from the little ledge that he was relaxing on and walked over to Jay Feather, with me scooting over to be by the both of them. 

“Thank you, I love you.” They said to the both of us.

“We love you too.” We both said.

While we were flirting talking to each other, Jay Feathers phone buzzed, “Fuck my life..”

“What's up? Did that Fern Cloud have more kits or something?” Fallen Leaves joked,

“Surprisingly not. I Just have an all night shift. So, I should get going, sorry I couldn’t stay longer.” Jay Feather then stood up, I turned to Fallen Leaves, we must have been thinking the same thing, he nodded and we stood up with our new mate. 

“I’ll see you later then.” Fallen Leaves said giving them a kiss on the lips, with me next to the ghost tom kissing Jay Feather’s cheek. We stepped back and Jay Feather’s face was as red as a Death berry.

“Y-yeah..” They then gave both of us a kiss on the lips and walked away. 

Jay Feather pov-

When I walked into the Medicine cat room, Leaf Pool instantly noticed me, 

“What happened to you? You’re as red as a Death berry.”

“Nothing, nothing at all..” 

“Alright if you say so.” 

-About half an hour later-

Work was going at a decent pace so Lion Blaze and Briar Light popped in with coffee to keep me awake. Then Briar Light whispered in my ear, so nobody else could hear, “Me and Lion Blaze know about your relationship and we fully support you.” I was about to respond but she wheeled away in her wheelchair. I blushed from embarrassment and took a sip out of the coffee... It was burned.

“LIONBLAZE WHAT IN THE FUCKING HELL?!”

I calmed down and went back to work sorting herbs and just keeping Leaf Pool company, then I got a call, “I need to take this I’ll be back.”

I answered and heard Breeze Pelt’s voice on the other line.

“My mom knows.” 

“Knows what?” “About the relationship.”

“I mean, is she supportive?” I asked

“Yeah, does anyone know in Thunder Clan?”

“Just Briar Light and Lion Blaze, they’re supportive though so I don't mind.” 

“Alright, I’ll see you tomorrow, yes?”

“Sure, I’m free tomorrow.”

“Alright I love you.”

“I love you too, see you soon.” I then blew a kiss and ended the call. 

I then turned around to scent Briar Light near by, “Damn~” 

I hissed  “Shut the fuck up.”

“You really are whipped for him and you’ve only been together a few hours.” She teased

“Not like you and Dove Wing are any better.”

“That's a low blow.” she murmured.

I smirked, pulled my long hair back into a ponytail and walked back into the medicine cat den.

-A few hours later/the next day-

It was finally the end of my shift and all I wanted to do was go into the tunnels and collapse onto Fallen Leaves and Breeze Pelt. 

“Oh Jay Feather are you going out? I thought you would want to go to your room immediately?” Leaf Pools question sent a shiver of anxiety up my spine,

“I'm just going out on a walk to relax, I’ll be fine.”

I grabbed my bag and walked out the door and carried my tired body to the tunnels and when I scented Fallen Leaves it was like a weight off my chest.

“You look tired, did work wear you out?” 

“Mhm..” I murmured as I sat down next to him,

I could feel him smiling as he wrapped an arm around me, pulling me closer.

“Here, get some sleep you need it.” 

“Thanks.” I said before I drifted into sleep on Fallen Leaves’ shoulder

Fallen Leaves pov-

When they was asleep I moved them to lay on my chest so that they were more comfortable while we waited for Breeze Pelt. They started to shiver a bit so I grabbed the blanket that they left here and wrapped it around both of us.

I sat there with a smile gleaming ear from ear as I ran my hand through the sleeping cats long blue hair, they were beautiful.

“Hey.” I heard a soft voice greet, I turned to see Breeze Pelt. His black hair was dirty, more then likely from a patrol. I smiled and called him over.

Breeze Pelt quietly sat down next to me, "They asleep?” 

I nodded, “Yeah, out like a light.”

Breeze Pelt gave a loving smile and gave me a kiss on the cheek, “I love you.���

“I love you too.” I let out a quiet purr as I held his hand and laid my head on his shoulder.

Breeze Pelt then reached into one of his pockets and pulled out a book and started to read. I read bits and pieces, but I generally wasn’t not interested. I just kept my eyes on the sleeping medicine cat in my lap.

-About 2 weeks later Jay Feather pov-

I was sitting in the kitchen when I saw Dust Pelt walk in, then I had an idea. You see, Fallen Leaves always talked about how he wished he had a home of his own and I know Dust Pelt can build anything, so I wanted to know if Dust Pelt could build him a house but in the tunnels. Obviously it would need to be VERY flood proof but I know Dust Pelt could pull it off.

“Dust Pelt! Get over here, I need to talk about something!” 

He walked over, pulled out a chair and sat down,

“Yeah? What's up?”

“So you know where the tunnels are, correct?”

“Yes, I believe so, what of them?” 

“I have a friend who lives down there, and they we’re talking about wanting a house.”

‘“And you want me to build them a house in the tunnels, correct?” 

“Yeah, how much do you wanna get paid?” 

“I’ll do it for free, all you  got to do is get all the furniture and all that and then we got ourselves a house.”

 “Alright, thank you, also don’t tell anyone about this, I don’t wanna have that talk with anyone.”

“You’re secret is safe with me, Jay Feather.” 

“You may wanna distract your friend for a while if this is going to be a surprise.” 

“Yeah, I was planning on it.”

“How many days do you think it’ll take?” 

“About four weeks, maybe.” I nodded at that answer,

“Alright, thank you.”

When I was done talking and discussing the tunnels with Dust Pelt I walked up to my room and called Fallen Leaves, “Hey Jay, what do you need?” 

“Well, I was curious, you know how you talk about wanting a house?”

“Yeah, I do, what of it?”

“What would you want in a house?”

“Well uh.. Just basic stuff, a nice kitchen, a decently sized living room and just a bedroom that can hold all three of us, I guess.”

“Alright thanks, love you.” I said then I ended the call.

4 weeks later, Breeze Pelt pov-

When I woke up I saw a text from Jay Feather from about 2 minutes ago saying, ‘Get down to the border, bring your car with you too.’ I found the text kind of weird but, I did as they asked. I got dressed, grabbed a piece of toast for breakfast and drove to the border where I saw Jay Feather. 

I rolled down the window, “Hey get on in.”

Jay Feather nodded and hopped into the passenger seat, “So where are we going this early in the morning, babe?”

“So you know how I told you once that I had Dust Pelt work on a house for Fallen Leaves?” I nodded,

“Well I wanted to go get furniture for it, since it is fully built.”

I smiled, “Sure, we can do that, bu-” Before I could say anything I saw Jay Feather whip out a cup,

“Here's your Dirty Chi coffee.” 

“You know me too well, Jay.”

A few minutes later a timer went off, I read the name of it before Jay Feather turned it off it said, ‘Moon Pool meeting.’ 

“Why’d you wanna get furniture on a day you medicine cats had to go to the moon pool?” 

“Because missing one isn't the end of the fucking world, also Yellow Fang would just yell at me anyway,” They paused before adding on, “And we also skip gatherings all the time to hang out together so, its not much different.”

“If you say so.” I chuckled before going back to singing along with the radio, which made Jay Feather smile.

Jay Feather let out a chuckle and started singing along with me, I thought I was going to die at that wheel honestly, their voice was so sweet when it came to singing. “You’re voice is beautiful.”

Jay Feathers face lit up like a cherry blossom, “N-no its not, you dumbass.” 

I smiled and quickly planted a kiss on his lips before turning back and focusing on the road.

-When they got there-

“Time to figure out what Fallen Leaves likes.” I sigh

“Well, here I have a list of stuff he likes when it comes to furniture.” Jay Feather then whipped out his phone and opened the list

Jay Feather showed me the list it went as follows:

Darkish colored things are ok, but preferred pastel, light colored stuff

Anything soft he will love

He wants a good size kitchen for the pure reason of me having a good place for cooking whenever I visit

Wants a good size couch for cuddling and a fuzzy carpet

A shower/tub hybrid

A comfy bed, a king or queen because he wants cuddles

A few bookshelves for Breeze Pelt

A desk so that Breeze Pelt + me and get work done if we want to go there and do our work there

Get some stuff that me and Breeze Pelt like so it feels even more homey

“Now we know what we need, that's good.”

Jay Feather nodded in agreement “Yeah.” 

It didn’t take long to get much of the stuff he wanted, it actually took a shorter amount of time then I thought. Once we got the last thing we needed (A TV) We paid we used my dads credit card, because fuck him. We got the stuff into the car and headed to the tunnels asap. 

-When they got to the tunnels- 

We got there when Fallen Leave’s was still asleep so we started moving stuff into the house as silently as possible. It took a minute but, we still got everything inside and hooked up and ready for him to see. When we went into the bedroom, I spotted a box near the door,

“Hey did Dust Pelt tell you he was leaving something here?” 

“Nope, why?” 

“His name is on this box.” I pointed out and opened it, it was full of little nick knacks, like photo frames, salt and pepper shakers, movies that Fallen Leaves said he liked, and more importantly, there was a a few more boxes next it, I opened them and they were 3 laptops, one for each of us I guess and a printer in the other one. On top of the one with the printer was a note that said, ‘Don't try and pay me back I wanted to do something nice for you guys- Dust Pelt’ 

We set them up in each one of our rooms and set the printer on a table out in the hall that connected our rooms (with a walk in closet too but that doesn't matter.) 

Jay Feather was on the other side of the room, putting flowers in vases and doing smaller stuff like that. “Didn't you say you had a plushie ordered for Fallen Leaves?” 

“Yeah its on the bed.” I looked over and it was a cute little bear holding a heart with a feather and wind symbols on it.

“You made a good choice.” I said.

Fallen Leaves pov-

When I awoke from my nap I was being shaken awake, “Wha? Is something going on? Why are you shaking me?” I rubbed my eyes and saw Breeze Pelt and Jay Feather infront of me, 

“Its nothing bad, just take my hand and close your eyes.”

I do admit I was curious what these two had to show me, I grabbed Breeze Pelts hand and closed my eyes, Jay Feathers fingers interlocking his hand with mine with my eyes closed which I thought was kind of cute.

After walking for a few moments, I was tapped on the shoulder, “Open your eyes, Fallen Leaves.” I did what Jay Feather said and opened my eyes to see.. A HOUSE?! Was that a house?!

“Oh my gosh.. How did you manage this?”

“Jay Feather set it all up, I just helped with the inside.” Breeze Pelt chuckled.

“Come on, lets go inside.” When we went inside I noticed that there were stairs, so I went down them, which led into the main house, I looked around, at the kitchen, at the living room, at everything. On the next floor was the bedrooms, which looked absolutely amazing! Every part of this place was incredible. From the beds to the photos of us on the wall, everything was just how I would want it.

I felt tears well up in my eyes, “Hey Fallen Leaves, you ok?” Jay Feather asked before I hugged them and Breeze Pelt.

“Thank you! Thank you so much!” 

“You’re welcome.” They said in unison as they both kissed me.

-A day later, Jay Feather pov-

After the house was built we agreed to stay the night. Breeze Pelt had to leave earlier then I did because of warrior duties and all that shit. So I stayed and me and Fallen Leaves at breakfast together. Once we were done I took our plates out to the kitchen and started washing them. I thought I heard Fallen Leaves enter but his scent was nowhere to be found so I let it go. 

I then felt some ones hands around my waist and lips on my neck, I was about ready to say something then Fallen Leaves started to bite and suck on my neck, which made the words I wanted to say before come out as a gasp. I quickly whipped around and kissed the ghost tom, quickly kissing him roughly and basically had my legs wrapped around his waist. Neither of us wanted to let go for air, “Wanna continue this in the living room?” I panted, all I needed was a ‘mm’ and off to the living room we were.

We didn't waste any time getting onto that couch and full on making out instantly, neither of us seemed to stop our tongues from exploring each others mouths'. We were desperate to touch each other, even when our claws found themselves sinking into the others backs, the pain of the claws only turned me on even more and we kept going,

“Aw, started without me I see?” It was Breeze Pelts voice, deep and rough as usual.

Fallen Leaves broke the kiss and motioned him over to the couch,

He sat behind me and left even more hickeys and bite marks all over my neck and claw marks all over my back. And I was making out with Fallen Leaves in the process. I don't mind being in the middle, even though they know I can top the both of them, I like being in the middle too though. 

After about 15 minutes of the same thing Breeze Pelt muttered, “Wanna switch with me?” I nodded and switched with him quickly. I grinned as I left hickeys and bite marks all over his neck and a bit on his shoulders. I started to claw under his shirt causing him to moan and his breathing to hitch. Then Fallen Leaves crawled to move onto Breeze Pelt’s lap he broke the kiss between him and Breeze Pelt, ‘Seems me and him have the same idea..’

I started kissing Fallen Leaves like before, but to add onto the fun Breeze Pelt started running his hands down Fallen Leaves’ chest, starting to leave claw marks which caused Fallen Leaves to moan and gasp which just gave me more room in his mouth to explore. Once Breeze Pelt started leaving hickeys and biting on Fallen Leaves’ stomach, oh did he moan loud and it was like music to our ears.

--Not writing a smut cause I cant write 3 ways just yet, but just imagine they fucked :>---

 a week later-

Thunder Clan has come quite close to finding out, I’ve been coming back with hickeys a few times and a limp once or twice. But I didn’t really care. I even started sneaking out every night, sleeping at Fallen Leaves’ house and coming back to perform my medicine cat duties. The only times my room was used is if I really couldn’t make it and just needed to crash, which wasn’t often. I was about ready to do the same thing tonight when,

“Jay Feather? What are you doing up so late?” Leaf Pools voice rang out from the kitchen door

“Going out.”

“You go out every night, just tell me why. I wont tell a soul.”

“So you know how you asked where I got all those fucking hickeys and shit?” 

“Yeah I do. that was a funny chat.” Leaf Pool laughed

“Those were from Fallen Leaves and Breeze Pelt.”

I hear Leaf Pool spit out something, more then likely water. Good thing it didn’t get on me. “I didn’t know you were in a relationship!” 

“Say it so the whole clan can hear you, why don't ya?!”  I hissed,

“Sorry, sorry! You’ve just never struck me as the romance type!” 

“The fuck does that mean?!” 

The older medicine cat skipped over my question and sighed, “You’re secret is safe with me, just, be careful ok? Don’t do something you’ll regret.”

“I’m not you mom, I wont run away and get pregnant.” 

I could tell she was hurt by my comment but did I care? No. 

On a patrol, Lion Blaze pov-

I was on the late night patrol with Thorn Claw, Berry Nose and Toad Step, Nothing special was happening, just re-marking the borders, and chatting like old friends do. Then I could pick up Jay Feathers scent near the tunnels which didn’t concern me. But it did concern the people on the patrol.

“I scent Jay Feather.” 

I played dumb, like I didn’t know (you don't know shit anyway so), “I cant pick up the scent.”

“Lion Blaze, I love you, but you’re a fucking idiot.” Toad Step murmured 

I let my head down in sadness, “I know.” 

“Lets go and check-” I cut Berry Nose off,

“No! I’m sure they’re fine!”

“If you’re so sure, then there's nothing wrong in making sure you’re right.” Thorn Claw pointed out.

I know Jay didn’t want the clan to know so I quickly said, “Fine I’ll go in with Thorn Claw, you guys wait out here”  The other two nodded and we walked down into the tunnels that me and Heather Paw used to run and play in, and now the tunnels where Jay Feather spends their time with their boyfriends.

When we reached the house the porch light was on and this was the first time I ever saw it up close, Dust Pelt did a good job. But I couldn’t stare at it for long, “The doors locked.” Thorn Claw groaned, “But Jay Feather could be hurt so,” He then pulled out a bobby pin from his pocket and started picking the lock till the door was open. And we were soon inside the house.

As we walked in I couldn’t help but be in awe on how nice it looked, it looked better then the whole Thunder Clan house! Every item there was probably cost more then my net worth to be honest. But sadly we’re not here to admire furniture, I’m here because Thorn Claw wants to check something that I’ve already confirmed. “Their scent leads in to that room.” 

Breeze Pelt pov-

The room was filled with light snores of Fallen Leaves and Jay Feather, as they slept under the orange and white covers. Even though the pillows were perfectly fine they used my body as a pillow instead. I was relishing in the peacefulness with my back against the bed rest, a pillow propping it up so my back won’t hurt after, and enjoying a nice book. With a small light illuminating the pages my eyes were glued to, I didn’t notice at first that there were noises out in the hall. But when I did I had a feeling I knew all to well what it was.

I wanted to investigate by my want to keep the two on my lap asleep, I decided to ignore it and go back to my book. Then I heard the door open, and in the doorway I saw a Lion Blaze who craved death and Thorn Claw who just looked confused as fuck.

“What in the..” Thorn Claw murmured

Lion Blaze started to rub his neck “I tried to stop them, Breeze Pelt, sorry.” 

Thorn Claws eyes widened, “You knew?!” 

“Yeah, that's why I said Jay Feather was fine.”

Jay Feather then started to wake up, “One of you better explain why you woke me up before I turn your spine into a PEZ dispenser.”

I laughed, “Thorn Claw must of thought you were in danger, so he rushed down here since Lion Blaze couldn’t stop him.” I explained

“Both of you two dumbasses need to get out of here before the only thing that will be seen of you is your head.”

“Ok  bye!” Then they ran out, with the door slamming.

“Heh, good job.”

“Shut the fuck up and lay back down.”

“Alright then.”

When they awoke later Jay Feather pov--

When I woke up, I saw that Breeze Pelt and Fallen Leaves were still asleep. I softly smiled and checked my phone, I had multiple texts and voice mails.. What the hell happened?! I sighed, got on some pants a shirt and a jean jacket. I walked to the kitchen while I did my hair to make them breakfast since I would probably have to leave after we eat. So, I ended up making fruit pancakes and coffee. My phone kept blowing up, telling me to head home,

“Jay Feather, are you heading out already?” Fallen Leaves asked as he and Breeze Pelt exited the bedroom

“Yeah, medicine cat duties are a pain.”

I could hear them both walking over to me, “Well, I’ll see you soon.” Breeze Pelt said, planting a kiss on my lips Fallen Leaves soon followed suit and did the same thing, “I love you.” I said to the two toms.

“We love you too.”

I opened the door and walked out and out of the tunnels, I brushed the soot off my pants and went back to Thunder Clan. When I entered through the back door of the medicine cat room, I could feel Leaf Pools gaze lock onto me,

“There you are!”

“Why was my phone spammed with messages?”

“Well I wanted to talk to you about something, come sit.”

I did as my mother said and walked over to her sat on a stool, “What’d you wanna talk about?”

“I am going to give you the week off if you promise to go to the next medicine cat meeting.” My eyes lit up at her words. Spending a whole week with those two?! That sounds like pure Star Clan.

But I tried to keep it cool by just saying, “Sure, sounds good.” I checked my phone and saw it was Monday. 

“Go get packing.” She chuckled.

‘This was gonna be a fun week.’

END (non story stuff under cut)

Hello! This is my first fanfic on here! It seems easier to navigate so I may start uploading more fanfics here. I will also probably make a part two if people want it. If you want headcanons just ask for them. Any hate for this post will not be tolerated and I will delete and or block anyone who tries to give me non constructive criticism.  ~🏳‍🌈 Amber