#// kai moeru fucking clown moments but um. I didn't lose a lot anyway but if I did I would've just stopped then and there. no 320 for me

[m0e-ru]

art commentary on a separate post because um. I'm balling and tucked into bed im so tired well um. funny how I had a hard time the whole time trying to get color balance right and how I color blocked everything and made shit look perpetually low brightness but there would be no point if I uh. raised the brightness anyway. I redrew the sketches so many times until I stopped getting mad and THEN got mad trying to paint it because I hate myself apparently.

^ world's worst workflow but um. anyway.

it's funny because I realized the robe's inner sleeves look like bamboo BAHAHA I have to do something about that. I told myself wow I love this angle I don't have to do the herringbone pattern. but here we are. also there's this equal exchange that I can't do nice portraits when it's not cropped to faces so um. fuck it we ball. the joints are sloppy because I finished it with a pen tablet when I had to transfer to the laptop and I uh. just viewed like two picture references and went insane. the hair was fucking killing me the robe was killing me I hate painting for real I don't know where light comes from and where shadows go and um. that's the point of art I think. making illusions with whatever you have it's literally just colors and lines and patterns and shapes messing with your head until you get something that resembles. SOMETHING. then my signature one thousand million filters to cover up everything else I didn't render properly because that's how. I do everything apparently. whuh.