#// i've never liked genius characters or stories about “exceptional others” who are leagues above everyone else

[ladyofloptyr]

my thoughts aren't organized enough to put this in the tag or call it an essay proper by any stretch, but i haven't felt so deeply saddened or moved by a character in a while!!!

maybe it's the fact that i'll always have a soft spot for mutually self-destructive relationships in fiction where it won't work out even if both characters want it to.

i was just struck by how isolated ugetsu was and while that's not a justification for how he lashes out, i was heartbroken that his raw talent could elicit such strong feelings of envy from those around him including people that genuinely admired and loved him.

aki was always comparing himself to ugetsu and used it as a justification to not bother trying to reach greater heights even though ugetsu didn't want him to quit. i have no intention of demonizing aki for this, but it devastated me how this view of ugetsu alienated him.

that ugetsu's very existence was a detterent to aki's own passion for music. nearly every other relationship in given is one where both sides are inspired by the other instead of demotivated.

ugetsu for his part ofc could be vicious with his criticisms and i didn't miss how he often used his words to further tear down aki in a twisted attempt at self-sabotage. however, i think the way he treats mafuyu demonstrates that he is more than capable of giving people their accolades.

i can't imagine how frustrating it must be to want to pursue a passion for music knowing that the person you love feels lacking and uses you as a scapegoat. no wonder ugetsu felt as though he had to choose between love or music.