#// but that's also bc if you're so smart and what is reality just felt like they had deeper meanings

[brokentoys]

even tho it's not in my canon (my eddie was the head of the cybercrime unit in the GCPD - inspired by ark origins) but i do like the story of eddie getting fucked over by a company and doesn't receive his royalties for creating such a big, successful game. because this happens too often. like the strawberry shortcake creator, and the hello kitty creator didn't receive royalties either - even though you would think they'd be millionaires because of their creation. but nope. some of them are even quite poor. this also, technically, happened to eddie's creator - bill finger. who was actually the ghost writer / true creator of batman and many of the rogues (including eddie!!!!) but bob kane took all the credit. and bill finger, unfortunately, died a poor man with little recognition. so i did like how the animated series took a unique approach to eddie's story and instead of making him a Scientist of any sort because he's Smart, they went with video game developer who got fucked over by corporation. the job fits eddie quite well, and it can also be a PSA. (also really nice to see eddie standing up for himself in this situation. fuck mockridge.)

it's one of the reasons why eddie's debut eps is one of my favorites from TAS. it's also just satisfying to watch eddie get away with it. and although bruce mentioned eddie still on the run - dick actually seemed more upset that MOCKRIDGE got away with making profit off eddie's work. which bruce then proceeded to joke about mockridge being literally traumatized because of eddie. it's suuuuch a satisfying end.

which is also why i don't get why bruce is so harsh to eddie in riddler's reform. like i always criticize how much nicer bruce is to harley in harley's holiday versus eddie's ep. like in harley's ep, bruce does have hope for harley (despite being madly in love with the joker.) yet in riddler's reform, bruce acts like eddie will never be good because of his "obsession." (which how is eddie's obsession worse than harley's?) like yeah, i know unlike harley, eddie was just pretending. but it's still weird for bruce to have zero hope for eddie when in his first debut episode, bruce seemed to have understood completely - he just didn't approve of eddie's methods of dealing with his situation. (clearly bruce thought mockridge was a Terrible Person, bruce just can't let anyone be Killed tho)

[fuckhouse2theelectricboogaloo]

I was wondering or not to send this in: but whoever needs to hear this rn is for them tbh. As I didn't have to say shit about this clown to begin with. Anyone who believed his rumor about me still after it came out of all his bs is probably actually an inept fucking slug at that point as much as he is, but I put everything to do my part for the people he hurt and he dragged my ass into it. So to begin? Knowing how spiteful Shep is? I have realized going through my archive: that about 10 months later, that I had made a post I was less active/busy, but that somehow gave him the idea I was gone. I found this mostly to cover any loose ends to the story, but also realized how pathetic he really is. Bc during this time, I had completely forgotten Shep, I was talking with friends, my gf, rping and doing my hobbies and loving life. And that's where the rumor of me being a pedophile started from him in the vent chat and them calling me a nonbeliever and nursing a grudge that extremely for 10 months. This rumor never came back to me until everything exploded, bc he insisted to his circles it be a block and move on and tell no one as he knew I wouldn't have taken it lying down and the fact Shep is spineless to confrontation, I know from us talking that he is. And then never showing evidence and it was that lack of evidence even after being asked I believe if I remember from Star? Is really what made her start catching on among other things.

Yet Shep was that assmad that I found them weird, that nicely I told them it was a lot but internally I thought: even with knowing my gf for 4 years, I found him that insufferable but forgettable and if he talked like this to anyone else? I imagined he had little friends tbh, I actually felt sorry for him to some degree because I couldn't tolerate him even when handling him with 'kid gloves' bc of how much of a little bitch he was and wouldn't calm down and stfu even after being patient with him for an hour bc he wanted empathy in reality. We wouldn't have made it past the first convo if not for that and his past close friend relations to my gf which he USED to get me to trust him so I'd tolerate him more. I also didn't appreciate their subtle flirting I've come to realize they weaseled in the convos (I thought he was just weird, I didn't realize that was supposed to be flirting or getting us to bond or some shit) or weird meltdowns in the week that we knew each other.

So doing all of this after being blocked: if that is their response to me? How they feel about everything and everyone else is probably driving them up the wall. They are probably having meltdowns and crying and I know when it first started they probably did bc I know how much of a little bitch they are when confronted. They'd crumple to me in convos when I told them: 'You're acting weird again. Stop it. o: ' . It took me a total of several hours our first convo when we JUST met to calm them down until I told them to knock it off, they were being weird and that quickly clammed it. In response the funniest thing that made me first notice it was them saying: 'maybe we shouldn't talk.' Me: 'Okay let's stop talking then and block each other.' Them: 'No wait.' Essentially is how that convo went bc again, just trying to be pathetic and a sad loser to get empathy. So Shep if you're reading this bc I know you will from how much you read my blog to find when I was 'gone' but not really? You're not slick, you're not smart, you're obsessed with anything or anyone you want or dislike including blogs like Fuckhouse or ppl you once knew like me even for just a week or so. Then throw a whole ass toddler tantrum when you don't get your way or nurse a grudge for nearly a year bc I almost think you took what happened as rejection from me, but I can't confirm that other than at least as a friend. It's the only way to explain why tf you acted the way you have and how I've seen you be a sex pest to trans fem ppl or kids that let you in though but in general are a sex pest and don't take no for an answer unless it damages your image. But the only thing I'll give you credit for is being decently 'ok' at preying upon ppl's kindness and inexperience to manipulate them the short term. No one thinks you're a mastermind, bc I thought you were fucking stupid when we met, but now I know you're even dumber thinking you could go behind my gf's back, my back when both of us thought you were a friend to both of us even if I didn't want to talk to you. And that if you had just stfu? I wouldn't be involved in this or be aware of what was happening and neither would my gf who btw, was actually angry and thought you were disgusting for doing that all that time when first meeting her to the now. And tbh I'm glad it hurt when I saw your ass groveling to a literal child, bc Shep you don't give a fuck unless it's your own pain because that's all you understand or care about.

Posting as is

[golbrocklovely]

I’m not trying to be rude but I get so sick of hearing Sam talk. Like yes we know life isn’t easy but sir you have two mansions lmao I feel like he gives the same energy as kim k telling people to get off their ass and work. Rich people are so detached from reality and sadly Sam seems to be one of them. Sure he makes some good points here and there but most of the time it’s just a bunch of nonsense bullshit

this might have turned into a bit of rant here but i'm constantly think about this type of stuff anytime sam goes on his spiels lol

i think one of the things i've always hated about celebrities, influencers included, is that they all like to pretend that they just worked hard and that's how they got where they are. and while that's true to some extent, to pretend that luck wasn't also a huge factor pisses me off deeply. to just tell ppl "work hard and you'll go far and succeed" is such a cop out to admitting that hard work can only do so much for you. and if luck isn't on your side, you're not gonna be as successful as you want to be. that's just a fact.

so with sam, and colby too, while they definitely have worked their asses off, i also think a lot of it was also right-place-right-time and luck. and maybe that luck manifested itself into smart business decisions. maybe their luck was being born attractive thus ppl paying attention to them more. maybe it's a whole list of other shit i can't think of. either way, they were lucky. and for both of them to not admit that, or at least not tell ppl that that to some degree that's how they got where they are now, is annoying.

and as for what sam talked about on snapchat….. oh brother lmao

this is gonna be a long winded story, but it goes with what i think about sam. so i went to a liberal arts university. and since i was in the arts side of the school, i knew plenty of philo majors. i also had to take a bunch of philo classes myself (plus my brother was a philo major too) so while i'm not the smartest about all different types of philosophies, i've heard of a lot of them and can understand them decently well. and one of the things i HATED when i was in college was the amount of ppl, literal teenagers/young adults, claiming to know the meaning of life or trying to argue which one was right or not. and i think the reason why i hated it so much is bc i was literally suicidal the last two years of college. and at the time i hated hearing about "oh life is about this and that and this other thing" when life to me has never had meaning. even now, while i'm mentally a lot more healthy than i was back then, life doesn't have meaning. but i don't mean that in a cynical or sad way. i just mean that i don't think there is an answer. you're supposed to exist, and what you make of that existence is your own meaning or reason. i don't think there is one mold that fits everyone. especially when you haven't lived that much life. and on top of all of that, i don't think the meaning to life, if there is one, is easy to find. so a random 20 year old in philly ain't gonna know it lol

most times, it felt like a lot of the ppl that were saying what they thought the meaning of life was, or just generally any philosophy that they were talking about, it sounded to me like they were trying to sound deeper for the sake of looking smarter. they wanted to come across as intelligent so that's why they were saying nonsense.

so, to bring this back to sam, he reminds me of those ppl i went to college with. good ppl, kind ppl, but they were only speaking to sound smart. and personally to me, i would much rather talk about "vapid" things than pretend to talk about something i don't understand fully (or might not even have an opinion on). plus, sam hasn't had a bad life and hasn't had any crazy experiences, at least to my knowledge. and i'm not trying to discredit him just bc he hasn't had any major death or loss in his life, but… when you have experienced hardships, things are put into perspective in a way that ppl who haven't experienced that type of stuff just don't see. i don't wish the life i've lived on anyone bc i've experienced a lot of terrible things. at the same time, i've grown from those experiences and realize what truly matters and what doesn't.

it also helps that i'm extremely introspective, which i kinda think is sam's major issue: he isn't. every book he reads is a how-to book; how to be stoic, how to influence ppl and make friends, how to speed read, ect. i think he's doing everything in his power to find himself in other ppl's work. "oh see, i relate to how stoic ppl act", "i can see myself doing something like that to make friends". he's trying to understand himself thru other ppl's work instead of just looking inward and trying to figure things out. which is why i find it funny he talked about emotions for a while on snapchat bc i was just like "…you are one of the most emotionally constipated ppl i've ever not met. what the fuck do you know about controlling your emotions?" but then it kinda makes sense bc that's all he does is control his emotions. he needs to express them more.

like i'm extremely expressive with mine, and i might react with them a lot, but i don't just blow up at ppl. i think most ppl who are emotional based in their thinking or acting aren't constantly angry or sad. and plus i've gone on this rant before, but those two emotions are always used as the negative emotions when i really wish ppl would realize there is no negative emotions. the only thing that can be perceived as negative is your reaction to your own emotions and what you do with them.

to kinda connect this all together, i think some of this type of stuff is why i always disliked metalife. for the short period of time i was on there, i just… didn't get why ppl were going insane for the shit snc were talking about. like a lot of what they were saying was either really basic or not as deep and profound as others claimed it was. not to mention, even if i wanted to follow with what they were telling me, it's hard to see two privileged white guys who haven't had even an ounce of the struggle i've had tell me life is worth living and all i gotta do is put in the work and i'll succeed.

they don't want to seem like they're above us, but they're trying to tell us this information from the top of their grand staircase in their gated community mansion so…. it's a little hard to listen lol

[notmyrick]

4 am roles around and here I make another observation/ theory. Warning there will be spoilers if you are reading the comics.

Rick J19 Z7 (aka doofus Rick)

Doofus Rick is... special to say the least, and on my previous reposts I see a lot of people also admire him. However, let's see what I can do with what the show, game, and comics can provide.

Lets establish that there are multiple versions of "doofus rick" all sharing appearances, all sharing a belittling name.

So assuming this, there are multiple versions of "doofus ricks" all which are made fun of and belittled by the other Ricks. However I'm going to focus on J19 Z7. Known under the name Doofus Rick.

First off, I'm going to assume a few things about Doofus Ricks:

They never had a family

They share similar backstories

They are all bullied

With this let's grapple the information we have.

In the show, Doofus Rick never married and never had any children, so his Morty was assigned to him from another reality. I assume the first point is applied.

Now in the comics of Rick and Morty, we look at, if I remember correctly, issue 10.

This "Doofus Rick" is not the Doofus rick we know in the show, but has a very similar relationship with a Jerry. This is Rick J19 APLHA-7. There is no "repeats" of Doofus as the very top picture shows that another "Doofus" look a like is named Dingbat Rick.

Jerry says that this Rick also has a Erick-stoltz-in-mask Morty. Which either means this alternate reality directly mimics the one in the show, or this is suppose to be Doofus Rick and there was a typo of some sort. I am inclined for the former. This Rick also said to Jerry that he was like the son he never had and stressed the word Heartbroken. I apply point 2 where doofus Ricks have similar backstories.

However, I am curious about A7 stressing heartbroken. This can validate that Doofus Ricks are more empathetic in nature, but I'm inclined that it's related to their back story. For a Rick who had no family to lose, had seemingly no emotional attachments to cling to, and has the ability to form or create a relationship, why did he stress heartbroken. If anything, by his choice of words, Doofus Rick's are the most emotionally incapable and only speak through general observations. But that's another 4 am theory for another time.

No I think, Rick A7 and subsequently Rick Z7, have truly felt heartbreak. Whether from a SO, friend, or a regret.

Going to Pocket Mortys, we go to the battle of Doofus Rick. When you defeat him in battle he replies as the pic shown above. He says he never wins anything. My presumptuous brain then ties to how in the comics, A7 stressed the word Heartbroken. Still applying point 2, I concluded that "Doofus Ricks" never had a family, because he lost his "Diane" or his wife. To who? Science. Remember in Rick's potion #9, Rick C-137 said "Listen, Morty, I hate to break it to you, but what people call "love" is a chemical reaction that compels animals to breed. It hits hard, Morty, then it slowly fades, leaving you stranded in a failing marriage. I did it, your parents are gonna do it. Break the cycle, Morty. Rise above. Focus on science."

What if Doofus Rick did exactly that? The reason he has no family, no beth, no morty is because he focused on science. That this decision to focus on science has left him heartbroken and full of regret. That when Doofus Rick says he never wins anything is because the alternate realities where he chose to marry and have a family, he is just as miserable.

Now jumping back to the Rick and Morty comics issues somewhere in the 20s, we appear in Doofus Rick's dimension (was later verified; will show through pics). This mini arc pissed me off because I really hate Jerry in this one, but it builds up to my argument. Doofus Rick Z7 is the "truest of Ricks" and he is depressed and suicidal. The latter point can actually apply to all Ricks of any universe, but when I read over Doofus Rick I always get an upbeat vibe to him (I may or may not have been listening to Bullet by Hollywood Undead on repeat). In this issue(s) Rick Z7 is constantly belittled, bullied, or otherwise.

In his own dimension he gets called a mushroom by his dimension's Jerry. Okay well Jerry Z7 is an ass, this makes him invalid. However, the Jerry we know also disregards Rick Z7 in favor of hearing out his alternate version of himself. Rick Z7's concern wasn't misplaced as Jerry Z7 pulls a gun on them. It's also known that the Citadel of Ricks don't favor Z7 as well.

Also previous to the gun encounter Rick warned Jerry to be quiet of transdemensional hopping, which normal Jerry disregards as well (although I do give fault to Rick Z7 for saying infront of him, but maybe that's another theory?).

Which leads to why I hate/love these comic issues:

God dammit, does my intensity of hate grows for Jerrys. I tried to give him a fair shot, but he is a constant disappointment. Anyways back to Doofus.

At this time, Doofus helps Jerry. But the advice Doofus gave to Jerry about life, really sounds like a cry for help.

"Life is unbeatable"

"Anyday you wake up and accepts its challenge you've won"

For some reason I feel compelled to ask Doofus if he's okay? If it's true that Doofus is more emotionally inclined, giving that advice to Jerry seems like he knows the struggle all too well. That he wakes up everyday and feels depressed wanting to off himself. Maybe he feels everything is too much. Maybe it's the constant bullying he faces, maybe the belittlement of others, maybe the knowledge that no matter if he picked family or science he is unhappy. Maybe that knowledge itself is why he's depressed. What if Rick J19 Z7 is the "Truest Rick"? Notice his dimension didn't know transdimensional travel. Doofus Rick found it by himself. He focused on science, saw his alternate selves, saw the crumbling family dynamics, the way he drunk himself to oblivion, and became toxic. He knew everything and didn't like what he found. He went to the citadel to find if there are more of him than his toxic versions of himself to find himself greatly outnumbered. Doofus Rick not only has the knowledge of the universe in his mind, but also has an empathetic nature due to his travels. And what do Rick's do best? Try to leave everything behind. He left back to his dimension hoping to find comfort, but the knowledge he possesses, the nihilistic outlook of life haunts him, that no matter what decision he picked, most versions of himself are doomed to suffer. That discovering transdimensional travel caused his suffering, but not discovering transdimensional travel caused his death. He is balancing on a tight rope to live or die. Doofus Rick knows, knows too much. As most versions of himself tends to drown their emotions through other vices, he embraces them, confronts them everyday.

Rick C137 has self proclaimed to be the Rickest of Ricks which funnily enough was relabeled as the weakest of Ricks in these issues until he killed Jerry Z7. Maybe to be the Rickest of Ricks mean he is the most incomplete.

Rick J19 Z7 may be his true opposite. Doofus Rick is the "un-Rickest Rick" bc he is the most complete version of Ricks.

The other version of Ricks may call him a Doofus for accepting this complete knowledge and living through all this pain. Hell they might be jealous that he can live such an upbeat life with this knowledge and bullies him for it because every Rick should suffer. However, Rick Z7 takes this in stride and accepts the bullying and comments because he wants to show the other versions of himself that it's going to be okay. If Doofus Rick can do it, then every version of himself could too. Jerry sated in the comics during this mini arc that Doofus Rick "You're so smart, but you dont make other people feel dumb". Doofus Rick's persona could very well be an attempt to unconsciously tap into the other versions of himself to accept this complete knowledge by playing to their egos.

However, this is just a theory.

[dracwife]

Dex, I'm in love with a slasher character, what do I do? You're one of the few community members I know that loves slasher-esque/violent characters. It's... complicated though cause they're morally reprehensible but really pretty too?? I have never been in this position before cause the character is really complicated and my thoughts/feelings for them are complicated. So I'm just looking for advice if you can give any if that's okay.

Absolutely!!!!!

I do have quite a few slasher/violent f/os (read: Hannibal, Eddie, Nathan, Amanda, Anton, and Dandy who is probably the Worst™ offender) and honestly? My advice is to roll with it! It depends on how you read and choose to portray the character but don't feel bad about liking them!! You can always consume media critically and while you shouldn't simply excuse an f/o's negative traits, in cases of my f/os with rather violent tendencies, I try to work around it -- take for example Hannibal, he is violent, he is a murderer and a cannibal obviously, but it's also canon that he was in love with Clarice and I'm pretty sure Tony Hopkins himself even said he'd never actually hurt her; In short I take this quote and I just...project it onto my s/i, honestly! And there's nothing wrong with that. A LOT of people who have suffered abuse or trauma of some sort use selfshipping with characters that have similar trauma (as many slashers do, as per sad-backstory trope with a few exceptions) as a coping mechanism, and I'm one of them: It helps me process my feelings much better than it would had I tried to on my own without complicating things, in my mind it's something my f/o's and myself can sympathize with about each other and bond over, if that makes sense?

In another sense, there are the exceptions: I'll use Anton for this one. I felt almost exactly how you're describing when I first read the book. He's also one of cinema's most famous psychopaths, and according to psychologists, the most accurate. I've done a bit of looking into things on top of some psych classes I've taken (Another point I'd make is I'm attracted to slasher-like characters bc I find the psychology behind them and horror as a genre extremely fascinating, and I don't think there's any harm in that if I can make the distinction between fictional slashers and the glorifying of true crime...which is a whole other can of worms but just know it's disgusting and being able to draw the like between fiction and reality is crucial when referring to violent or slasher f/os in particular -- but I digress) and psychopathy as Anton is characterized is more-so exhibited by him through a lack of guilt and empathy. In that sense, he can't exactly 'love' someone in the typical way, but nonetheless I believe he wouldn't want to see me hurt as he knows how I feel about him and though he doesn't reciprocate it in the way I do he "cares" about me in his own way, and is particularly fond of my company.

tl;dr, The heart wants what it wants. There is nothing wrong with falling for a slasher or slasher-like character. While you shouldn't try to excuse their actions, we are all flawed human beings (some more than others, obviously) there is undoubtedly a strange attraction many feel towards villains in particular, and slashers are no exception -- so why not have fun with it? Just...be smart. Don't go f/oing My Friend Dahmer or Zac Efron Bundy but Michael Myers? The power in shipping with him. Thomas Hewitt? That bad boy can fit so much love in him. Candyman??? A SPECIAL LITTLE BEE BOY!!! SO so good,,

Besides, in my honest opinion, slasher-related f/os are far more interesting when you're their "I murder everyone" exceptionand that's just self care babey!!!!!! :^]

[corisanna]

I'm curious, what's your take on Aizen? Do you think he's as smart as canon/canon makes him out to be? Bc i had this major epiphany about the fake karakura town battle and how Aizen didn't fight very strategically and I wanted to know how you interpret him bc of how strong your Urahara voice is and if youve had your own epiphany like insight into Aizen. It's great that you're feeling better and I hope that garden is giving you peace!! (In both senses of the phrase!)

Sorry it took me so long to answer this. I had to think about how to word it.

I absolutely think Aizen is as brilliant as advertised. However, as soon as his decades of elaborate plans start actually working, he fell victim to the enemy of all those who would challenge gods: hubris.

select excerpts from Wikipedia:

Hubris... describes a personality quality of extreme or foolish pride or dangerous overconfidence, often in combination with (or synonymous with) arrogance. In its ancient Greek context, it typically describes behavior that defies the norms of behavior or challenges the gods, and which in turn brings about the downfall, or nemesis, of the perpetrator of hubris.

...Hubris often indicates a loss of contact with reality and an overestimation of one's own competence, accomplishments or capabilities.

...A common way that hubris was committed was when a mortal claimed to be better than a god in a particular skill or attribute. Claims like these were rarely left unpunished, and so Arachne, a talented young weaver, was transformed into a spider when she said that her skills exceeded those of the goddess Athena. Additional examples include Icarus, Phaethon, Salmoneus, Niobe, Cassiopeia, and Tereus.

...The proverb "pride goeth before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall" (Proverbs 16:18) is thought to sum up the modern use of hubris. Hubris is also referred to as "pride that blinds" because it often causes a committer of hubris to act in foolish ways that belie common sense. In other words, the modern definition may be thought of as, "that pride that goes just before the fall."  

In this way, Aizen is a modern example of the age-old cautionary tale about the downfall of those who think themselves superior to gods.

In his secret planning stages, he was meticulously careful with every detail. He did well at the “haha I’m doing this right under their noses” part without blowing it; I think it was due to lack of reaction/feedback/immediate gratification by his enemies. He felt powerful by virtue of moving in the shadows unseen and playing with powers others had no knowledge of. I think things changed for him when he “went public” in the Soul Society arc. When he started seeing open reactions and fear and an entire spirit military scrambling to figure out how badly he’d torn them apart from within and how to fix it or work through it. That had to be a great high. It was a new kind of power... and it was like a slow-acting poison.

I do think he did maintain some decent strategy for the battle, but I think he also allowed too much toying around and let himself have too much fun traumatizing shinigami when he could have gone for the goal faster. It’s been awhile since I read it, but I remember noting that Aizen had a lack of urgency during the whole ordeal. I think it was because he got too convinced that his plans were so awesome that struggles against them were pointless, so he found it entertaining to observe the battle like watching a hamster running in a wheel. “Haha, look, it thinks it can actually get somewhere.”

He got comfortable in his own superiority and it undermined all his careful planning. You can be the most intelligent, well-educated person in the world and have it amount to nothing if you get so cocky that it becomes a form of ignorance.

[springwritess]

mr.cook | sanji vinsmoke

anime: one piece

word count: long, but not as long as zoro’s

note: im going to write mini fics for each strawhat (including my boy jimbe hopefully) which is gonna be a zombie apocalypse au. not all of them will be romantic bc some characters are hard to write romantically. i doubt you’d really fall for someone you just met right? anyway either luffy or usopp is gonna be next.

tags: zombie apocalypse, sanji fluff, cooking, hunger, dehydration, sanji being the dork he is, recruitment (sorta)

****

The hunger was ever-present; from dawn to dusk it gnawed at you. Food was your constant obsession. You couldn't look at an animal or plant and wonder if it was edible. You didn't care if the food was tasty, just as long as it could make the stomach pains go away for awhile.

You sat there still, like an elderly person. You started to wonder whether you were going to die from starvation or from the zombies. You were too tired to move, or do anything really. You ran out of water and there was no fresh water source. It was only time for your death to approach. You couldn't even sleep either, because sleeping meant a chance for zombies to attack and devour you alive.

You were in the middle of the forest. You were camping in there after being driven out of your home. You took what you could find and left the city as fast as possible. You needed to get away from people as much as possible. Staying alive was horrible, you ran out of the food you stole from the city. You didn't possess the abilities or tools to be able to hunt or cook animals. You were such a shifty cook that you didn’t know how to make fucking tea. You couldn't stay there forever however. You needed to get off the island soon. Your stomach rumbled again.

First however, you needed food.

There was a crunch of leaves and twigs behind you. Each footstep crackled. There was someone coming. You dove behind a tree that was close by. You grabbed a large stick. It wasn't much of a weapon, but it was enough to try and knock the person out to steal their food. You closed your eyes and waited for them to draw near. Each step felt like a ripple in the ground.

You jumped out behind the tree and lunged forward. It was a blonde-haired man who was idly walking by. You attempted to land a strike across his cheek, but he jumped back. You tried again, but he dodged it. He was fast on his feet.

“What's going on?" He asked as he continued to dodge all of your attacks. "I don't want to fight a women."

"Give...me your food!" You growled as your grip tightened on the stick.

You lurched forward again and landed a blow across his left cheek. The man fell to the ground. He didn't get up after that. You ripped the bag off his shoulders and shifted through it. Your pupils dilated.

"No..." You said with a hint of panic in your voice.

You went through it again, this time your hands were fumbling. Your fingers jumped rhythmically, as if in a spasm. Your bowels suddenly churned. Please let there be food in there, you prayed. This couldn't happen...not now. Your heart was in your mouth. You couldn't speak.

“No! No! No!" This time you said it much louder, "please...I just need food."

Your heard some shifting and then a grunt come from behind you. Blood drained from your face as you turned your head around. The man was getting up. He took a cigarette box and a lighter from his breast pocket. He lit a cigarette and placed it in his mouth.

You grabbed the stick and gripped your two hands on it. You held it up in the air in front of you. You glared at him.

"S-stay...a-away or I'll hurt you!" You warned. Your hands were shaking as you fumbled on your words.

He took a breath and smoke floated up into the sky. "I'm not going to hurt you. You're hungry right? I'll make you something. I'll never let someone stay hungry."

You felt your stomach grumble again. "Liar! Y-you're going to kill me!"

He gave you a grin. “I'll never hurt a women. That's what a shitty old men taught me."

Your stomach rumbled again, this time loud enough for him to hear it. You fell to the ground and clutched your stomach. It felt as if someone pierced your stomach with a sword. "It hurts....I'm going to die."

He ran over to you. You didn't have the energy to run away. "Shit...you're malnourished and dehydrated. Is there no fresh water source here?"

You didn't have the energy to answer him, so you simply shook your head. He picked you up with his arms and started to run through the forest. You had no energy to protest or push him off. You were barely conscious at this point too, as the trees were starting to become a blur too.

After what seemed like forever, you started to smell cologne mixed with the smell of cigarettes. Your eyes fluttered open. You were still in the forest, but instead in a part that wasn’t covered in trees. There were no creatures around. The light from the sun hit your skin. Your eyes shifted to the side. You were laying on a black jacket. Ah so that’s where the smell was coming from.

You sat up. Your throat was extremely dry too. Your stomach was still hurting, but you ignored the pain. You looked around and the man was nowhere to be seen. You weren’t in any mood to talk to him anyway.

Your lips were cracked from dehydration. Your hair was matted with dirt and your clothes were were smeared with grass stains and dirt. You looked terrible. You needed a shower and some fresh clothes. You felt the bottom of your lip quiver. Will this be your new life? You no longer had the same luxuries you used to have. You took them for granted, and you only realized how lucky you were when they were gone.

You laid back down and turned to the side. You couldn’t afford to cry, because that would just make you even more dehydrated. Drowsiness overtook you. You closed your eyes and eventually fell asleep.

***

You were greeted with a sweet, savoury aroma that wafted through the air as you started to wake up again. The smell mixed in with the fragrance trees and grass. Your stomach clenched with hunger at the thought of devouring whatever food that was creating the smell.

You sat up and saw the blonde man making stew using ingredients from the forest, plants and animals you’ve seen before. He somehow was able to find bowls to give pour your stew in. You stated at him for awhile, transfixed by his ability to cut various vegetables and plants. He was so swift with his fingers.

He removed the cigarette from his mouth and exhaled the soft tendrils of smoke. His gaze shifted to you. The man gave you a smile.

“I’m so glad you’re awake.” He said softly. He came cover with a bowl of water. “I’m glad I had utensils and bowls in my bag. The water is still hot too because I boiled it. Please be careful.”

You moved the bowl of water around. The water swished back and forth. There was steam floating from it. It was definitely still hot. You sniffed the bowl of water. There didn’t seem to be any poison. Immediately after examining it, you guzzled down the water within mere seconds. You ignored your throbbing lips and your throat which felt like it was on fire. You sighed in relief. It was nice.

He finally handed you a bowl of stew. Taking in the sweet aroma, your stomach rumbled again. Every part of you wanted to lurch forward and devour the bowl. You couldn’t however. It didn’t feel right. You clenched your fists.

You spoke up. “I don’t understand.”

The man raised his eyebrows. “You don’t understand what?”

“Why are you doing this for me?” You asked again. This time with your voice shaking. “Why are you helping a complete stranger? I don’t know your name. I don’t know where you’re from or who you are. I..I don’t have any money if that’s what you want.”

He took the cigarette out of his mouth and breathed out. “My name is Sanji. I’m a cook on a ship. I already told you. It’s because I can never ignore someone is hungry. I don’t need money from you, so you can eat up. Besides....”

“Besides what?”

He gave you a smile. “Your cute face is enough of a payment for me.”

You rolled your eyes but felt a smile creep up onto your face. “Thank you Sanji.”

You ate your food in silence. You quickly finished it in mere minutes, but you were too embarrassed to ask for more. Much to your surprise, Sanji took your bowl and filled it up to the top. He handed it to you. He lit up another cigarette and sat next to you silently. Your cheeks flushed up in embarrassment.

You cleared your throat. “Aren’t you going to eat to. I’m fine really...”

Sanji shook his head. “I’m fine. I ate before I came to this island. I also have a few questions about it, if you don’t mind me asking.”

“Oh sure. Also I didn’t introduce myself yet. My name is (f/n). I worked as a mechanic in my mother’s shop. It was apart of the family business.” You rubbed the back of your head sheepishly. “I’m not the greatest cook, so you saved my life. Thank you so much. I’ll help you with anything you need.” You said. You gave him an awkward smile.

“What’s happening on this island? The city I was just in, it was a wreck. Did something happen? I was also attacked by a group of people. I need answers. I was separated from my crew too, so I also need a map.”

The smile from your face immediately vanished. You managed to forget about everything that happened for awhile, but the reality didn’t change.

“A group of pirates brought this virus to the island. Their crewmate was dumped here. He was rushed to the hospital.” You explained. “He survived, but the virus seemed to induce range and the need for human meat. He bit the nurse that was treating him and she started to act the same. I’m not sure, but I think the virus probably travels through saliva.”

“They’re like zombies, but still alive?” He chucked. “They aren’t as smart as the ones on Thriller Bark.”

You cocked your head in confusion. “What? You aren’t scared?”

Sanji shook his head. “I have a damn skeleton who can walk, talk, eat and even take a shit on my ship. There’s nothing that surprises me anymore.”

Your eyes narrowed. You weren’t sure if he was joking or not. The Grandline is full of surprises, so anything could happen. Speaking of which, why was this man traveling on the Grandline? Is his boat a restaurant ship that floats around by any chance.

“What kind of ship do you work on..?”

“A pirate ship.”

Your stomach dropped. Of course. He’s a pirate. You felt anger churn deep within you. A pirate was the one who destroyed this island. You tried your best to ignore it. He did save your life. Perhaps he wasn’t like the others.

“What about you? Why are you here in the forest? Where’s your mom?” He asked.

You were silent for a moment. “She died three years ago. After she passed, I took over the business. My shop is probably rubble right now.”

“That’s a shame. Do you want to go take a look to see if there’s anything left? There must be something.” He asked.

You shook your head and chuckled. “It’s whatever I guess. I gotta get used to how I’m living now.” You got up from where you were sitting. “Also, I should have a map in my bag. Let me go check.”

You got up and went to grab your bag. There were mostly essentials: empty water bottle, first aid kit, a change of clothes. You let out a grunt. There was no map in sight.

“Sorry about the map. I don’t seem to have any.” You rubbed the back of your head sheepishly.

“It’s fine.” Sanji stood up and stretched. “We should get going then.”

You raised an eyebrow. “Going where?”

“To your home of course. Seeing it might give you a sense of relief. You’ll never regret not taking the chance to see if there was anything there.” He replied. He lit another cigarette into his mouth.

You were at a loss for words. “I...”

“Hmm?”

You shook your head. “I can’t go.”

“Why not?”

“Even if I do get a sense of closure from seeing my home, where would I go?” You bit the bottom of your lip to stop from crying and took a deep breath, “I have nobody left. I don’t have a ship nor do I have the skills to travel to another island. I also don’t trust you. You’re a pirate. What if you try to hurt me?”

The tears splashed forth and trickled down your cheeks. The thought of your home in rubble and the memories of your mother came flooding into your head all at once. You tried to quickly wiped your tears away, but they kept coming.

“Shit I’m crying. I’m sorry about that.” You chuckled.

Sanji gave you a smile. “It’s okay to cry. Everyone cries. I also won’t lay a finger on you.” He looked up into the sky. “Regarding your future, it’s up to you. You can do whatever you want. I won’t try to stop you (f/n).”

Hearing him call you by your name caught you off guard. You got up. “Let’s get going then Sanji.”

[heartsoftruth]

1/Hi, I apologize in advance for this long message but I just wanted to ask you if you had ever received insults or criticisms or even guys who harassed you because you're a girl who loves football? I'm asking you this because I live this constantly. Yesterday when Barça won the CDR I was so happy so I shared my joy on my social media and I commented on some FB publications related to the match and the majority of ppl on these pages are men so I have only received insults degrading messages.

Anonymous said:2/I was told to go back to the kitchen, that I should go back to clean, that I loved Barça only for cute players or that I probably didn’t know anything about football and was probably repeating what men around me were saying to look smart,.. I will not tell you everything they told me but it was really degrading and mean, I absolutely did not say anything bad, there were comments from guys who writed bullshit on the post but no one answered them but under mine there was like 100 replies.

Anonymous said:3/And I just wrote “I’m so happy and sad at the same time, I will miss Andres so much, it will not be the same without him..” On my other comments also I received insults like "Come suck my c*ck, you will be more useful” “oh a girl trying to make herself interesting by loving football” “shut your mouth bitch it’s a page for men here, go back to cook” And all that just because I’m a girl, if it had been a man who had commented the same thing they would have agreed with him.

Anonymous said:4/It’s unbelievable that a woman can’t love football as much as a man do without being looked at or asked to justify why she really loves football because if a girl likes football it’s surely because she’s in love with the players or wants to fuck with them or that she invents it to have the attention of men, because it is impossible that a woman can really love or understand football, so when it happens I have to justify myself so that they are convinced that I really like this sport..Anonymous said:5/It’s sad that in 2018 for a lot of ppl women = cooking, doing housework, pleasing men and keep quiet. Usually I avoid going into the football debates of my male friends or those of my family because they automatically make fun of me and my opinion is irrelevant. So if you have a vagina your brain is too stupid to understand football and enjoy it? I’m tired of having to hide my passion for football because I risk being insulted. It’s sad because I know I’m not the only one who suffers this..

Anonymous said:6/I discovered football when I was a child, I quickly became a big fan, I even played it many years but growing up my dad start laughing at me and telling me that I should be more interested in girls stuff and he asked me which player I was as much in love to continue to love football like that and the men around me told me that women’s football was not real football so I should stop playing it, my mother also agreed that I should stop because she was afraid that her daughter become a tomboy.

Anonymous said:7/I was stupid enough to believe theses bullshit and I stopped playing at my club. Yes I am feminine in general, I also like makeup, dresses, shoes and stuff like that but sometimes I like to wear my Barça jersey or football outfits too and when I walk in the street with it I get glances, guys who come to talk to me or say that I’m ridiculous with my jersey, one day 2 guys even come to ask me questions on the club to see if I really know about Barça and that it’s not just to get attention..

Anonymous said:8/It’s tiring and exhausting, I’d like to love this sport without suffering all that, what’s the deal with that, it’s a sport among many, why it’s impossible to let a girl enjoy this sport without belittling her? Why is it so difficult for men to believe that we really love this sport too without necessarily wanting to fuck with players? I’m tired, it’s getting depressing and with all the insults I received yesterday I feel like I’m going to be crazy, I really wanted to cry because of my anger..

Anonymous said:9/If you or the followers of your blog undergo this too, can you tell me how you do to support it or to finish with that please? And if there are guys who follow your blog I’d like them to explain to me, if they do these things, just why ? Why a woman who loves football should deserve so much hate and criticism and why it’s as difficult for guys to accept that women can love football too? I’m really sorry again for this long message but I’m really fed up.. 😫

Heey girlie!! OMG dont apologize for the long message! I feel like you needed to vent a little and then it’s 100% better to just write it all down instead of keeping it in. and DAMN you had all the reasons to vent, because what those neanderthals wrote to you MAKES MY BLOOD BOILLLLLLLLL FUUUUUUCK!!!

BOOOOOILLLLLL!!!! 

Im gonna reply to the parts in parts because otherwise the answer will be an unstructured mess. 

½/3: I dont even know where to start with my first off all comment with this ask! But pffff. It;s so so soooo sad that in 2018 people like that put comments under just a very normal and very correct post. It’s also really sad because probably right now you will think twice before commenting something under a footy Facebook thing. 

AND PLEAAAAASEE! Let me know what kind of FB page that is? I am literally fuming and almost on the verge of making a Twitter account for my Tumblr page to post it on here. It’s not fucking normal that when a girl says something about football guys talk like that. It’s not and it’s not ok. 100 replies under your comment? And all like that?? Pfff. Damn. FUMINGGGGG. 

I can understand you feel bad about it bc of all these people jumping on some kind of bandwagon behind their PC’s. Insecure bunch of dicks! 

4/5: Indeed we women have to know WAAAY more about football then men, because if we dont then we’re not serious about it or only watch it for the guys. “YESSSSS!!! THATS TOTALLY TRUE!!!! I watch 90+ minutes of football just for a few close-ups of the football players I like!!!11!1 Makes total sense” said no women who watches football ever. 

6/7/8/9: aaawhh… That is so sad… :( I can’t imagine how that must have felt as a child to be doing something you love but your parents make it out to be as if it was wrong. Not every girl likes pink and barbies just like not every guy likes blue and cars/football. Indeed I also love make up and getting dressed up etc etc. But I also love sitting in a cafe and watching football with a beer or something haha. 

I never wear a football shirt on the streets - unless im going to a match or watch in a cafe - today was the first time actually in my yellow PSG shirt haha. But no one said anything to me (other than a few hey girl). But it’s sad we have to prove something to these idiots… 

I think we’ve sadly all have had an experience like that. When I was younger and asked my friend at her party (or whatever it was) to see the football score a guy was like “what??? You dont watch it? Well then explain to me what off side is?!” That was the first time some guy asked me it and I did do it, but when someone would ask me it now I said: “You would ask a guy that too who says he watches football? Nope huh? So I won’t show you either!”

In Paris also on the way to the hotel the Uber driver was talking etc etc. And we spoke about football and I said how excited I am to finally see Neymar and hope he’s not injured anymore (because at the time he was stil injured and unclear if he would play) and all that blabla. And in one moment he said (in a joking way) oh you’re only here to see Neymar other than that you dont watch it. And I gave him a reality check real quick. My friend wanted to interfere and talk over it and I was like no no noooo. Lemme say my peace. 

Or at work people know I also love Neymar and then one new colleague thought it was funny (and maybe cool in front of the other guys) to say I only watch football for Neymar. And I gave him a reality check too. 

I used to bite my tongue when it came to that, but nowadays I’m like nope. I dont watch so much football for some insecure dick to be talking like that to me. 

But theres also many guys who you can just have a normal convo with about football. Like yesterday I had one with a guy I didn’t know and he was so chill. Or when I’m in the bar watching you also have guys normally coming up like are you also this nervous etc etc. During the Euro’s too. Met many friendly people who just spoke to us about football. Ok and s

What I also think is one of the problem is because many girls indeed just wear a shirt because it looks cute (which they of course can), but it makes it more difficult for us to be taken serious. Especially with tournaments like the Euros and WC many just watch football bc it’s fun with everyone in a cafe but they have no idea what they’re watching. And end up only confirming some of the thoughts by these neathertals. 

Can I ask you where you’re from btw?And please do tell which bs ass fb page you posted this one. I would be a good thing to create all these accounts to back you up or something. 

And indeed I’m curious too how other followers react to stupid comments like that?

And keep watching the sport you love girl! I know its tough at times being doubted to often for just watching something you like but lets hope that someday no one will question why we watch the sport we love.