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tankgotstuckinthecircusgate · 1 month ago

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last night before falling asleep i thought fuck i so do not care bout approval or disapproval when it comes to my personal work (art writings etc) bc wow i literally do it for my own entertainment it isn't serious things and i dont have any clients to please and work for... this is literally what i do for my own fun & sharing this only bc why not & to keep it somehow organised (i wish blogs had folders option tbh). and this feeling was so sincere & true like wow.... nature is clearing

#such a freeing thing... like wow i don't owe anything to anyone.. and im just a Diogenes in the barrel but calm ver #& thought bout script some technical things doesn't matter but still i always thought ohh #If my theater's director would read id be so embarrassed bc hes like a professional director #Writes plays stages plays won some insane contests literally works as a prof #N i realised that he actually would never like say ew this is stupid bc hes actually very kind and gentle #Wow #& thought again bout his philosophy when teaching kids (bc he also teaches them not only uni students)#That the worst thing a professor teacher etc can do is to kill kid's personality #To kill what they truly like and enjoy #And i mean it easy to treat it this way when its bout students or kids anyone who's not u #God knows how long i tried to raise this feeling of freedom. Bc praise etc doesnt help for sure #Its a tet a tet w ur own personality of course. Obv. And i think almost for the first time #Feelin of freedom is sincere or at least close to it #Feeling that is built on calmness not on aggression n fight or fly stuff or on some uh work ethics idk

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