#& let her drive my wheelchair (which i need now that it's damaged but i didnt need before) & everything sucks & i hate everyone

[blackberryjambaby]

had a bad fall yesterday in my wheelchair so not only did i then waste five hours in hospital getting scanned but now one of my wheels doesn't rotate properly so i can barely drive i'm so angry

[oyasuminerd]

Since I'm under 25 and prescriptions r free the doc at the clinic got me pain meds but honestly my leg didn't/ dosnt hurt past like like a few hours of the break

Anyway I'm on the couch trying to be nocturnal to make this fasting bullshit easier so I'm just gonna ramble about this whole fiasco.

Tuesdays r dnd days and I always get picked up since I dobt drive and the neighbourhood we go to isn't great so no one would let me bike there. So I get the here text and head out the door..and like trip over my own feet and slam into the ground. I've sprained my ankle before so that felt pretty familiar but the pain in my right calf oof. I didnt even try to stand I just shifted to a more comf position and leaned back agianst the door focusing on my breathing ad my friends rushed out of the van to help.

I sat there for a while longer before trying to stand and instantly the broken leg is jut like no and I'm like yea this isn't happening. So I have a friend on either side of me helping me up and I'm hopping on my sprained ankle to the van and get in the back. And as we start driving I get really light headed for a a few minutes looking back on it I mightve been goig into shock but that passed. We get to dnd and Sean our dm is a nurse so he comes out looks at my leg which in the span of 5 minutes has swollen up huge and goes yea that looks like like a fracture u need an xray. And off we go to a clinic.

Since both my legs r fucked he carries me in and they get me a wheelchair. Funny story the secretary there is a friend of my mom's which I found out later that night. So I tell the Dr about what happened he thinks it was abuse and he made me promise I'm ok which is nice he was worried but also a little annoying I'm just that clumsy ok. And he didn't think it was a break he thought it was just soft tissue damage but he sends me to get the xray anyway and low and behold it's a clean break all the way through a bit below the midway point. So he tells me I need to get a boot and I'm goig tog a fracture clinic the next morning art 6 am. Fun.he asked if if wanted anything for pain and I originally said no but but the point was made that it would be free so I I said ok.

While I was getting the xray we passed through the pharmacy and Taylor got me a lil webkinz bunny. And when I came back from the doc reviewing the xray my BFF elicia was in the waiting room and even she was shocked seeing how fucked my leg was.

We go get the boot and thankfully that's in the same building. Less cool is that shit costs fuckig 260$. Sean paid said it's my Christmas present. Then they roll me back out to the van and plop me back in my seat while they return the chair and grab my pills.

This whole Time I was debating what was gonna happen next but it was decided I'd go hangout but we wouldn't be doing dnd. See pizza was orders before I fucked everything up so everyone was like ur gonna come have pizza first. The issue is they're ont the second floor. I got carries half way up the stairs and he was starting to lose grip and I'm feeling bad so I'm like I'll just scoot the rest of the way.

I have a alice of pizza elicia gives me a donut we have a chill time and eventually I txt my mom to come get me. I've been txribg her the whole time keeping her up to date and she had been trying to crowd source some crutches from her friends and coworkers a lil bit into the drive home she gets a solid hit on the crutches so we turn around and go grab those.

When we finally get to my mom's I tried and failed to use the crutches. I took a few steps before pathetic ly falling to the ground scraping my knee and thumb k the edge of the driveway and ending up in the grass. I just sat and cried in defeat while she ran to get my brother and they both helped me get to the door.

Now my mom's boyfriend is in a wheelchair so I was like if there's any place I'd want to be while I'm this fucked it would be here but for a lil while we really had no idea how I'd get around since rhe crutches where a no go nut eventually mom remembered Shawn ( her bf) has an old commode chair which is basicly a bed pan with a toilet seat on wheels but hey it works and that's how I've been getting qheeled around the house since then.

Fracture clinic told me I'd need a cast up to my thigh for 3 months and even then it might not heal properly or I can get surgery either a rod or a plate will get put in and I could be healed a whole lot faster. Obv surgery is the only really viable option.

Surgery system sux I'm fasting from midnight to potentially 9pm waiting for a call to say it's happening today or not. I've just entered day 3 of this.