#& if you saw me reupload this 8 times no you didn't

[les-miscellaneous]

happy valentine’s day! i wrote this poem almost exactly a year ago, my very first poem after realizing my crush on my now boyfriend. just re-edited it & wanted to share <3

[Image ID: de-crystallizing.

I want to write a poem that makes your hands stick together turns your tea from white to yellow erodes your molars like a worm snuggles earth

I want to swarm into your mind as easily as you breezed into mine.

come move me soothe me lick me from your fingers

I want to write a poem that oozes with honey for you. /.End ID]

[wisteria-empress]

My dear living adventure to escape (sabigiyu fic also includes sanegiyu and Rengiyu.) reupload with adjustments.

Reupload of my og fic. It’s rewritten with some parts changed

No one's pov:

There sitting in the garden two darling children one a prince and one more beautiful then ever ,one admiring the flowers and one admiring the more beautiful then ever.

"look how pretty these flowers look" Giyu said picking one of the flowers form the bush to show Sabito. "Not as pretty as you"sabitom winked and moved a bit closer to Giyu.

"Sabito I feel like your lying to me"

" Giyu I would never"

"You said that exact same me when you locked me in a room with you"following that sentence came a slap in the face by giyu to Sabito 

"HEY Well this time I'm not lying to you"

"Sure you aren't "

Over an hour past of the just arguing about random shit until it was 6:30 

"Giy-" Sabito got cut off when one of the maids called out to them

"Giyu ,Tsutako is looking for you also Sabito your mother wants you for something I'm not too sure make sure you go to her before 8"

"Giyu listen"

"I don't wanna speak to you"

As Giyu starts to stands up ,and walk away from Sabito 

"Hey Giyu your not mad at me right?" He asked tugging on his arm;stopping him.

"what do you think? I'm going inside now you should too" Giyu tone shifted to a cold one. It was out of place for Giyu. Sabito had to be worry,right?

(Inside of the palace)

"You called for me nee-San?" He asked the black haired women. Her tied with a red bow. A elegent woman with a even softer smile. "Mhm, Giyu I didn't want you to stay out that late" She nodded her head in response. Sweeping in the kitchen of the palace.

"We've been tasked with preparing dinner tonight. It is our turn after all" she chuckled handing Giyu a knife. "Oh yeah I forgot" he rubbed the back of his head taking the knife from her. 

"That's a bad habit you know" her words bouncing off. He's barely listening to her

"Yeah..."

"Well Giyu what did you do today?"

"Nothing much really the only thing that really happened was that I got into a argument with Sabito"

"Well you know how he is"

"Yeah I guess"

"Also makomo was looking for you earlier you should see what she needs"

 Swift movements from both her and Giyu made making dinner a breeze. Giyu chopped some potatoes and carrots and dropped them into a large pot. Tsutako getting the rub for the chicken in the oven. 

After an hour or so of cooking she asks Giyu to set the tables for them. 

(Sabito pov)

"Hey giyu your not mad at me right?" Sabito asked while pulling on his arm

"Well what do you think,I'm going inside and you should too" he turned away from him and said in a cold tone. Shaking sabito off of him. His grip loosening from him. 

An exaggerated gasp came out. 'How rude of him' he thought to himself. Althought he did have a point ,mother was looking for him. His presence was needed.

Sabito took one last stroll around the garden before walking by the flowers giyu was looking at earlier .

"I guess these are as pretty as giyu but giyu is definitely still prettier 

He said to himself. Doing what any responsible 15 year old with a pretty boy crush and pick some of the flowers and took them inside 

(the flowers are azalea for anyone wondering and I chose these flowers for their meaning)

Placing the flowers inside a vase in his own room and went to knock on father's office 

"This is such a drag"mumbling beneath his breath the fact Father's office was on the other side of the palace was gonna irritating the living fuck out of me I got to his office and knocked on his door

"who is it?" She asked

"Sabito" I replied 

"Sabito come in" she responded

"Mother,what did you need me for?"i asked as I was looking around the room of stacked books files and a map on the wall I saw my father and he gave me a glance and my eyes met with a women that looked slightly older then me and she looked okay I guess I thought to myself before my mom interrupted my thinking

"Sabito meet lady kizana" mother moved out of the way to present her. A beautiful indeed but she could never compare to Giyu. Her hair was up decorated with flowers. A scarlet colored European styled dress. Contrasting the traditional Japanese style of both mother and father.

"Hello Sabito"she gave me a smile as well as bowing her head.  Seemingly looking like a genuine women.

"Hello lady kizana"I did the same thing

"I hope you two will get along. You will be in a arrange marriage with her. Strengthing our bonds with neighboring kingdom will do well for us.

"WHAT?!?! YOUR KIDDING ME RIGHT WHY DO I HAVE TO DO IT IM ONLY 16??!?" I shouted and questioned her 

"Sabito I married your father for the same reason. Do not be so selfish"

(No one pov)

"hey nee-San" giyu asked. Arriving back to the servants quarters. They had their own room that they shared. They were lucky enough to even get a room here when most of the others had to share one if they lived on palace grounds.

"what is it giyu?" She asks him. Busy with her own things. Sweeping up the room and folding the extra bed sheets.

"How is your fiancé doing?" Inquiring about his welll being wasn't a common thing he did but nonetheless it it wasn't rare either.

"Pretty well why?" Reasoning to his question with her own. She chuckle at Giyu's curiosity. Seeing how much he cares for her was touching to her.

"nothing really I haven't seen him around lately" 

"he's probably busy Giyu don't worry about it"

They continued to chat about what was going in their life's until a knock on their door.

"WHO IS IT?"giyu asked knowing full well on who it was. None of the other royals cared about them very much neither did the other servants within the palace's porcelain walls.

"It's Sabito" He mumbles accepting his defeat with his earlier argument with Giyu. "Go away" he shouted back to him not wanting to open the door.

"Giyu just please listen to me" Sabito pleads his fist ready to knock on the door once again.

"Please just go" Giyu mumbled out. Ignoring Sabito persistence.

Sabito banges on the door ,still didn't open this was about the time when Sabito was about to knockdown the door when giyu opened the door and Sabito falls face first on to the floor.

"I'm okay"-sabito

"Yeah but you don't look like it"-giyu

"HEY"

"Ha loser"

"Hey but you finally opened the door"

Giyu being flustered stopped talking and gave sabito a stern look a slapped him

"Anyways Sabito why are you here?" Tsutako asked

"I just wanna talk to giyu about something"

"Alright"

Sabito was dragging giyu out to his room when half way there giyu stopped him 

"Look Sabito what do you want?"

"My mom spoke to me about something I wanted to talk to you about it"

"Well what was it?"

"That's what I was planning to tell you but you made me fall on my face"

"Yeah I'm not sorry."

"Why must you be so mean to me Giyu" Sabito says as he dramatically falls on the floor like some Disney Cinderella. "Anyhow I wanted to speak to you about what my mother told me something when I was in her office earlier."

Sabito takes Giyu hand and takes him to his room. Running across the halls. Passing vases and the many portraits of the family.

(In Sabito room)

"So what did your mom tell you?"

"Well my mom want me to get married to a girl to raise the kingdom status but I don't wanna so I'm planning to run away soon and I already try to talk them out of it but there was little succession and when I run away I want you to come with me" sabito said he grasped giyu hand 

"Why do you want me to come with you?" It looked giyu by surprise running away with sabito

"Cause I need someone who won't tell anyone and besides I'm your only friend besides from tsutako" he told that in confidence and I think we both know her getting punched sooner of later

"HEY YOU DONT KNOW THAT" Giyu screamed at Sabito pulling his ear. He was going to get an earful and this was going to be a long night.

"Giyu this is serious, will you run away with me?" Sabito asks raising his voice in his desperation of trying to convince Giyu  

"I'm not sure...what will Tsutako think?" Giyu eyes diverted from Sabito's gaze. His body shifting from the bed. They both sat in the bed still not speaking for a few moments.

"How do you plan on escaping anyways?" The uneasiness he felt never went away when he spoke again. Giyu didn't want to escape but he didn't want Sabito to be alone either. 

"Observing the guards schedule. I've done something like it before as a game with makoto;I'll be taking is for use."

"And how do you suppose we pay for any part of our trip?" Our trip? He's finally seeing this more than just Sabito. It's not Sabito and Giyu!

"I have money saved up. Although not much,we'll figure something out" Sabito said holding Giyu's hand. A sincere look in his eyes made Giyu want to stay with him.

"And if worse comes to worst I'll hustle sell you" he said a teasing joke. Ruined the moment definitely but it was worth the laugh for them.

"You really are the worst" Giyu chucked elbowing Sabito.  Laughing at Sabito words.  He's been smiling a lot more lately hasn't he?

"If that's all you wanted to talk about I'll think about it ,but if I do agree when are we leaving?" Asking the question. If they ever do escape from Sabito's arrangement how would they?

"Probably tomorrow night the sooner the better really"

(Little did they know someone was at the door listening to their little conversation)

"Well good night Sabito"

"Good night giyu"

Giyu opens the door seeing sabito older sister at the door

"Where the hell do you and Sabito think your going?"

"I'm not sure what you're  talking about"

"Don't play dumb with me Giyu" the moon lit up the halls once more. Makomo stood in front of Giyu. Black hair pink night gown. 

"I would rather not my brother marry her. She's a nice girl for sure, but I wouldn't want Sabito to be miserable with her." She spoke once more. Her way of speaking was different than her usual way. Her dreamy and abstract way of talking was gone during the conversation she had with Giyu.

[starmonsterrr]

[ * Hi folks, this post is gonna be a really unconventional one to my usual blog things; I'm reuploading 2 posts from nearly a month ago that I deleted due to a moral conflict with myself that I finally (sort of) solved and I can now rest in peace ]

[ * These are 2 asks I got from Ink Anon (#1) at nighttime (my timezone), which.. led to my usual Late Night Insanity™ ]

[ * I will also be sneaking in what I remember of my train of thought from that night + what I think could be the root of that ]

CONTENT WARNING: Yandere trope themes, knife mention, me being cringe when answering

[ * Also, to the folks who were there when the asks first got posted and witnessed it all. sorry I didn't tag the posts properly I think. But I'm (sort of). fixing that YAHOOO!!! ]

[ * Posted on February 1 definitely post 10 PM, deleted on 8:40-ish AM on February 2 ]

[ * When I first got this ask I was quite confused. I somehow didn't have the initial thought of it being a yandere thing, so I didn't add the tag. I thought it was gonna be some kind of subversive thing or smth like that, hence the unsure tone of my answer. ]

[ * Then my brain exploded. Seriously, never in a million years had i seen this coming, but I like yanderes, so......that happened ]

[ * I just wanted to answer quickly to hopefully get another ask in my inbox and continue this convo, which... Never happened btw, as you may notice. ]

[ * basically, Ink anon scratched at the right spot in my brain. A little too well, perhaps. Also reminder that this happened post 10 PM and you can't trust your brain things after that time. ]

[ * my leading theory on why I reacted like this/enjoy yanderes is that they'll hardly ever leave behind whoever they're obsessed with. And um. The last thing I would ever want is to be abandoned by Ink (character), so.... Ya. He has helped me throughout a lot of things in the past 3 or so years, it hurts to even think of him leaving. And also the idea of Yandere Ink makes me feel better about being NOWHERE NEAR being normal about him. ]

[ * Aftermath of those 2 posts? The next morning I woke up and I saw smth on Tumblr and one thing led to another and I started feeling really bad about this ocurrence, but I ✨got better✨ ]

[ * So yeah! That's it, that's the post. Definitely darker than the usual stuff you'd find on my blog, but here's a post. ]

[ * Also I'm now tempted to draw some things based on those 2 posts so um.... Oops ]

[tellmethisisnottumblisnextfuckup]

why are you unable to reupload your own masterdocs? i saw you say you can reblog them but not post them yourself

The TMTINL blog is gone, not accessible. Before deleting there was an influx of anons asking "if you ever want to delete, if you ever leave will you keep your blog.." so I added all my mp's into a doc, and I cannot upload docs here, and the gifs are not owned by me, plus I didn't feel the motivation to do it. PLUS the length of the posts allowed today is not the same as it was in the past, many times I ran into this stupid error that I surpassed the character limit.

Just imagine, that with a swoosh of a pen someone overwrote 8 yrs of work, and that's countless hours, efforts being made by me. The realization that it can go away by someone hitting a button, without ever consulting me, or notifying me, it's just made it completely imbalanced and I don't feel motivated atm to make any new posts.