#! really not sure whatll happen

[6okuto]

Hi, I really love your headcanons for Touchstarved, they’re so great!! If it hasn’t been requested yet, may I please request Leander falling in love headcanons?

LEANDER FALLING IN LOVE

gn!reader | thank u!!!! \o/ es leander time :-]

don't know how to describe this. for ais + vere + kuras, romantic feelings develop somewhere in the process (ais and vere generally love being little shits so they could've liked you from the start.) but for leander, it's clear he's kinda into you from the beginning. LOL

this doesn't necessarily mean the relationship will develop super fast! leander pays attention and keeps a pace you're comfortable with, though he doesn't shy away from your flirtations (might be surprised, but then he'll smile/laugh and flirt back) or physical touch if you go for it. he loves it even!

one moment is him wooing you with magic...again... another flower! multiple, even! little fireworks! stars! a trail of flickering lights where you find him waiting for you at the end! you can show you're genuinely touched or tease him about it (is a lot of your job doing little magic shows? / is a flower the best you can do?) and he says he'll do something even bigger next time

another moment might be you taking charge in some way. telling him to back down/up, defending him, asking to take the lead for one of your adventures. it isn't often that leander's offered the option to be anything but a leader, much less told not to be. he offers advice but generally follows your lead, and is it weird for him to say that it was really attractive when you told that guy to pay attention to you, not him?

it all just seems too good to be true, he's too good to be true. so you're wary, even if you do really really want to get close or kiss him etc etc. and leander can tell, of course, so he'll just keep trying to prove himself to you

there has to be a moment where you find out how and why he does things for free—why he's the renowned leader of the Bloodhounds. that's not for me to figure out though! i am not a theorist [heart emoji]

But :3 I will offer :3 leander protecting his people above ground isn't a rare sight. leander getting super ticked off or cold is. he's all but mastered his charm and negotiations, until you're involved, and the bloodhound leader might resemble his rumors more in that moment :3c

he doesn't really run from his feelings? he knows he likes you, and that you like him too, so he doesn't see a reason to beat around the bush there. the problems lie with his gang business and possible necromancy if the theories are true, so we'll have to see about. That because there could definitely be some kind of fight or confrontation between you two depending on what he's doing

but anyway. when the time finally comes, he tells you being with him will put a target on your back, but he promises to protect you, even more so than he has been.

plus! he hasn't taken you on a proper date yet! you didn't think hanging out at the bar or looking for books or sneaking into buildings was the best he could do, did you?

! having a hard time choosing how everyone finds out he has a partner now. he could make an announcement at the wet wick if you're comfortable with it, making your spot in the gang official. it could be that people were already gossiping/betting on when it happens, and when he kisses your temple at the bar someone sees and cheers. it's really up to you! i think he's happy with whatever you'd like :3

so! leander's into you. when does he realize he's In Love with you

because i don't think he really had a Serious Relationship in his plans LOL. and that's nothing against you!! he regrets nothing!! it's just... there's things to figure out, priorities to be made, long term plans that have to be accounted for

i'm kind of imagining like. an oh shit moment. he may not say that but the emotional impact is that level

yes he was always interested in you, but it's obviously getting more serious, because he's thinking of the mundane? if that makes sense. like it isn't just that he likes holding your hand or kissing you, it's that he imagines it when he's tired and uses the thought of seeing you again as comfort. it isn't just that he'd love to wow you and take you on a date, it's that he's wondering if you'd mind going on some errands with him. he's fitting you into every area of his life in his head rather than trying to keep you separate

and at some point it just clicks in leander's head.

he can be the one to say it first! might even be the same day he realizes. you're taking a nap and he says "i love you," just to try it out. it feels a little weird but not unwelcome, and now he has to figure out when to say it while you're conscious LOL

if you say it he [ ! ] [ :) ]. maybe sighs and makes a joke about you beating him to it, but says it back sincerely :3

[laylanatorseventeen]

me reading rumors about Mojang having a mob vote for previous mob vote losers, knowing that two of the options are for sure going to be the damn tuff and copper golems:

[derww]

ITS SO MESSY😭😭😭. Devotion duo please be clear about things for once in your life I’m dying. Zam IS Mapicc’s closest teammate like Zam knows stuff that not even Minute knows and Zam is the only one who consistently is online for them to do projects together. But also the Empire is a bigger team (even tho Mapicc, Minute, and Chief are the ones to put most the effort in) and Mapicc is loyal to his team so I can see how it can be conflicting 😭. It doesn’t help that they want to do this on session and Mapicc might not even be able to make it to the session. He said his thing is earlier in the morning but he doesn’t know. Sorry I’m yapping so much they are just so frustrating but I love them sos so much

i really dont know what mapicc thinks about it atp tbh. i can theorize, but not more. his loyalities to the empire and to zam could conflict, sure, but they dont have to. like, rn mapicc himself is the most opposed to including zam in the project, its not like his team doesnt like zam or anything.

its about his vision and principle and i can understand desire to make the empire project with only empire members. but one moment... the only reason why zam rejected the idea of asking to join the empire is jepexx, and he is not playing for now (probably forced by being on 1).

it dont have to be that hard, really. they need a grinder who undertands atleast something in farms, and zam really shouldnt be alone rn. but oh, well. we'll see whatll happens next.

dont worry, nonnie! i really like getting asks and always wanted to have anons in my asks. make yourself at home!

[cryptid-corpse]

heya, obviously you know yourself best out of anyone, but maybe at least give the couple a chance? i was in quite literally the exact same situation earlier this year and it was a bit of a rough start, but with good communication and making clear what you need, theres a really good chance itll still work out. i had the same fear/worry, but after communicating that with them theyve both put in the effort to make sure i never feel like a third wheel and its wonderful.

again, you know yourself best, but you never know whatll happen without giving it a try. i hope things go well for you regardless though.

It would just be uneven no matter what, they have been dating for 10 years and are getting married next year. Not to mention I'd be hidden from the family for not understanding poly relationships.

Not to mention when I fall inlove I actually get jealous and insecure easily

[emlos]

very long and detailed dream under cut

dream about an immigrant middle aged woman (wearing dark pink scarves) who asks me and my friend to buy her ice at a supermarket, then she asks if we can meet at 22 so i can hand it to her. friend im with says no but i say yes, so she leaves me and the woman to go to our rented apartment in a neighborhood similar to my grandparents (father side). the woman follows me after exiting the store (in the meantime i bump into something and the icebag rips a little, so an icecube falls onto the ground/floor). i keep getting uncomfortable by the woman who's kinda rude and doesnt seem to want to leave my side. its night.

at some point she decides to run somewhere so i take off in the opposite direction trying to lose her, and turn the corner left next to a building. sadly i see her (now wearing a yellow shirt or pants) going down darkened stairs in between two buildings and instead of running further (i was scared whatll happen if i dont manage to hide/outrun her) so i just say "hey [name]!!, there you are!!" (i know her name in the dream). she is indignant, huffing that i "cant make my running away better by just pretending as if i was looking for her" but apparently shes not that mad and i think we continue walking. we encounter something of an party in open space between commieblocks, where there are witchy teens. there is a raised stone structure with stairs leading to it a few metres away from the gathering. i dont really interact with anyone but for some reason im sure the stone structure is a portal that'l let me get home quicker (yeah magic). i move in to examine it and it looks like a small dead cells spawnpoint portal made of stone. the woman follows me after some seconds. on the back theres a rectangular plaque, also stone, and runes and a warning carved into it. i ask the woman (verbatim, i dont know which language) "hey can you read runes (apologetically) cause i dont and maybe you…" while shes trying to decipher them i manage to 'read' the warning and it says something to the effect of THIS EXIT IS SEALED (there are stone chains over the portal in a X shape) and ITS CURSED BECAUSE OF YOUR WAR "GO FIND A DIFFERENT SHORTCUT" (verbatim)

the woman is excited and reactivates the portal into glowing red? she tries to pressure me into going with her by pulling on my hand and talking to me and i think some of the teens are a bit scared in the bg, but i refuse. she shrugs and goes though the portal herself, and i decide to go home finally. next, the portal and the whole environment has disappeared, i am walking home alone, still buildings, no word from my friend from earlier, its still night

the dream shifts then into the perspective of the woman, now a wolf-like beast (i got that from growling and general behavior, i dont see her specifically anymore as its an 1st person pov), who starts stalking the streets of szczecin, specifically the place where i grew up with the long park, and attacking passersbys. now it gets funny here: i remember viewing the whole thing at this point as a metanarrative - i.e i dont feel emotions or myself anymore, its just as if i control the story events that "should happen" - ill explain:

i dont "control" the beast, but i remember trying to make sure she attacked a variety of people, from old grandmas, to random men, to children sitting in strollers while the mothers watched on. its daytime but for some reason theres no blood, just muted screams and horrified looks. the beast is definitely mauling them, but i dont see it from my pov. i remember trying to stagger the speed and amount of people that the beast attacked to make it "more realistic". during all that i remember being aware of something like corruption, and curse, and i think just before the "scene change" (yeah thats how i think about it) the people started transforming into some sort of zombie-like werewolf people, just standing up and walking behind the beast this keeps going and theres a shift, i see a character thats supposed to be me (i dont remember what they look like) thats almost at home, theres a dream-shadowy figure next to me, that was supposed to be someone heroical, like a friend of mine, from now on referred to as hero. things happen very like movie stills/sequences with different povs:

shot of the beast (looking inhumanly like a wolf) and the two legged wolf people behind it, shot of me and hero glancing behind and being scared, then running things get blurry after that. i think were in a city so we ("me" and the hero) push a comically sized metal lever that causes a big, like 5x5m hatch to open and the wolf people fall into it wilde e. coyote style (it isnt even that humorous, they just are pacified) they fall into some water becken at the bottom, and i remember thinking, what if the water gets infected? but they roll over the side of the becken and fall again into a deeper one. then i wished this was an incinerator. me and hero are relived but the scene changes, to us hearing something from the opened hatch, like a growl. we cautiously peek over the side, and dramatically, from the shadows, emerges a silhouette of an wolf human! they are in the sewers, is my first thought, but they leave the shadows and it turns out its some goofy looking homeless furry-human hybrid, which calms us, and then the dream kinda dissolves.

[bonesandthebees]

that ties into the fact that we have no idea whatll happen to wilbur afterwards

I would love to believe that he wont be forced into any roles (maybe even get to figure out his relationship with clara, communicate it out with her in a way or something tho that is very hopeful and foolish) and get to live as a person if he wishes to (which im confident to say he does)

he has phil on his side (and surely also tommy, niki techno, some other deathlings too) and I would even dare to believe eret wouldnt force him into a strict role like that, plus he did agree to the plan but im not sure if that really accounts for any insurance

but does any of that really matter if he still keeps getting visions

at this point it doesnt feel like enough for wilbur to get to be a person while still getting and relaying vision, bc there is deep rooted trauma

I think he either ignores the visions or fixes his relationship with clara ig (idk how that could even happens but it would definitely be very interesting ngl)

not sure if that makes sense but in general im just praying for some closure and freedom for him, my boy deserves at least that

wilbur has made some insane progress lately and it can be seen, especially in the last chapter and I go over that in my comments but just trusting more in general, less afraid to break pythia rules, ... im so proud of him

what I do want to point out is how, despite the deathlings being his friends/family now, the good ones basically, and even kristin being more there than clara ever really was, wilbur still doesnt like kristin and doesnt want to be a deathling

like hes with them and hes one of them in a way, but hes not a deathling, he isnt switching to kristin just bc he hates clara

and I absolutely love that, bc while switching to being a deathling would make sense, his journey here is about discovering himself, without the influence of anyone else, especially not goddesses (I think if he werent chosen as the pythia he wouldve been an atheist, talking to q about it was very intriguing to him)

on completely different note I noticed that the kind of visions wilbur receives (or maybe how he perceives them) is relevant to how he feels about something rn, like the vision about escaping vs the new vision being confused bc hes confused

not sure if thats what's actually happening but it feels like it

and ofc I cant forget, THAT SANDDUO SCENE? WITH THE NAME REVEAL? BONES YOUR SANDDUO ARE EVERYTHING TO ME

so unbelievably proud of wilbur for how far hes come and prying this all goes well and he gets to live the life he deserves

and a mandatory "the pythia"/"wilbur" narration changes bc I dont think ill ever be normal about that, it just always gives every moment even more meaning, its genius

2/2

hm... while it would be great for wilbur not to be forced into any more roles he IS still clara's chosen. he is still going to receive visions of the future whether he wants them or not. and that means something even if he doesn't want it to.

guess you'll have to wait and see how that turns out :)

yeah the thing is I think a lot of readers expected wilbur to switch to kristin since she's the 'opposite' of clara in a sense, but that's not the route i wanted to go down. wilbur's trauma is so deeply ingrained, any kind of religious institution leaves a bad taste in his mouth now. the past ten years of his life have been dictated by the rules of the divine, but he doesn't want that anymore. he wants to step away from the divine entirely, and get the experience he's been denied for so long: just being a person.

aaa thank you I loved writing that sandduo scene so much. he's made SO much progress it's been so fun to write his slow character growth throughout this entire fic, and finally reap the rewards.

[doggerell]

Im not playing her until I have the house to myself tomorrow and maybe not even then cause my thanksgiving plans are kinda cook A Ham -> spend the rest of the day pissdrunk and Im not sure I should really plug this thing in for the first time while fucked out of my mind on wine and whiskey. who knows whatll happen

[alfamangle]

listen normally this question (5. name an album you feel is perfect) would lead to me talking about Get Olde/Second Wind, razzmatazz, counterfeit arcade, litterally most crane wives albums or if were stretching the definition to include albums with only one or two songs i skip every time but are otherwise pretty nice we'd have alot. but you know what. yeah. the last life album is pretty cool.

so you know what. im going to go in order. what do i like about every song.

Light the Fire. ive never played castlevania but this is what id imagine itd sound like really short but a good intro. very nice and lovely gives the same impression of fucking around and finding out and coming across a shrine for the first time and going. oo whatll happen if i do THIS. similar feeling to coming across the first connie board. discovery of something very useful but is probably going to be more than you bargained for. only complaint is that its short and id love to hear a longer version but it works for what it is.

The Crown. i like the piano :] feels like a weird mix between a bossfight and a grand area where nothing spans and its just you alone with the scenery and somethings off. also noting abt the yt ver i like how the sky slowly changes colors and the sun sets. excellent touch. i almost didnt notice the change of song between this and the next one and thought it was one giant song and thought the switch was cool. the effect still stands if ur watching it back to back. overall its just a song w rlly good atmosphere

Divine intervention. repeat point about how it transitions from the previous song into this rlly well. like the weird rumbling noise in the back that kinda pitches up and down and dips in and out. like it alot. again another song that just has excellent vibes. also love the drums the drums were a nice touch. also i keep thinking theres SOME form of strings (again cant quite place it down. likely because its another synth but. the effects nice) overall rlly cool a nice lead into the next song. love the fadeout at the end (also i am not going to go over all the art but trust me i am noticing the cool transitions and changes in the artwork and i am going WWOOOOO THE FIRE WENT OUT YAAAAAAAAAAAAAA)

Console. like the weird little dips it does the dweeeoooooop. that. very cool. also the whiny high pitches noise is a very good addition for like a really weird comparison alot of the songs, and this especially, reminds me of the one factory level background music in jsab. you know the one. also like the instrument. not sure what it is but i like its addition halfway through. very cool. very awesome.also im not sure if this was my device or not but i like the occasional stutter it does where. (looked up the effects name and its simply called an audio stutter) like that. i think it only happened once??? but it fits the song and it fits the character the song is for very nicely. console is :] one of my favorite songs off of this album which. unsuprisingly it is VERY hard to choose. you put your all into these songs and it is VERY apparent.

Call of the Void. This song feels... very short???? for some reason when its not. its not anything detracting from it its just a weird effect. kinda like on other decent sized songs (call of the voids about 3ish minutes from my count) that still feel too short.. i think it just comes down to the songs just really cool. I like the . it sounds like a reversed flute?? towards the middle but im not 100% sure. like everything here it could just be another synth. insert a fallout 4 refrence here. either way this song is REALLY cool i like it alot also the garbled speech noises. cool addition. im not sure if its meant to be saying anything or is just garbled speech noises but either way. VERY cool. also obligatory !!! woaw people !! live on the tv. amazing

.execute() I LIKE THE WEIRD CRUNCHY BIT AT THE START. it sounds like weird messed up footsteps i like it. the cymbols are really nice. like the weird im not even sure how to describe it it sounds like a pitched down pipe being repeatedly slammed against a wall for a melody. very nice very cool. also like the weird garbled ??? scream?? audio distortion?? something 1/3rd of the way through. gives it a nice touch. also again love the string soundalikes. maybe one day we can have actual strings but until then the synth string soundalikes are super cool sounding. like the funky crunching symbol like noises. remind me of clapping. love the melody. love the song. fights w console for favorite song.

Fell out of the world. love the piano and softer sound it has to it. also shoutout to the 'pacing' of this album. i noticed alot of the more actiony songs are samwhiched between softer songs and vice versa with a few exceptions (which i do think those exceptions serve to enhance album pacing. it is. important to me that songs in order on an album sound nice when played back to back. its about how you spread out your songs. if that makes any sense). its a nice touch i dont know how else to describe it. its very nice. now onto the song. this once again feels like. some abandoned area you just. wander through to take in the scenery. again like the string sound alikes. if i wasnt aquainted with the nnk soundtrack and someone came up to me and showed me this song and told me it was the song to some secret area in the game, i might believe them. it has that sort of grand feeling to it.

Godshard. somehow more calmer than the last one. but it just feels sad. this feels like the song you get if you end up accidentily getting the bad ending in a game. a tragedy of errors that got you to this point. now im not a tip top expert on what happened after i got you know. murdered in a hole. which gg cant wait to avenge myself s2. but this seems to fit the story as best i know it. it just. feels sad. a building left to rot and decay. thats the best way i can describe that song. melancholy. thats the word im lookign for. godshard is melancholy.

Terminal Velocity. in contrast to the last this one feels sinister. something is wrong here. the piano feels slightly out of tune and i think that works nicely. love the lower chords :] it just sounds really neat. actually. you know what the piano here reminds me of. those like. really REALLY old pianos that are out of tune due to age and their keys only go down when you press oon them with some force, and their keys are rounded off from use. the keys are starting to yellow and it has a weird echoy hum to it. if youve ever played a piano like that you know what i mean. really adds to the eerie atmosphere the song has going on. a lovely closing song to a really really cool album. you worked so hard on this and you can tell. and it PAYS OFF.

but uh yeah. the last life album was pretty good

Everyone go listen to @bintied 's newest album !!!

[justfor2am]

Ok wait I have a question

which scene/character/place/whatever do u want me to make fanart of from the Detroit:Become Human au? (Side note, I’m not the best at drawing muscles so like characters like Scar might be kinda hard💀)

Haven’t been able to get that story out of my mind and like, I wanna say that I love it so much also because the story is (from what I know) original and it’s really interesting because it can go down so many paths, and I’m usually really good — to some extent — at making theories or predictions or something of the sort, but honestly? I have absolutely NO idea where the story could go from where it got left off, and to that I wanna say like congrats I guess???? Like I have completely no idea where it could go which is pretty impressive since I was usually at least have SOMETHING, but this is just totally new and exciting for me to read. Like what’s gonna happen to Grian, what will Mumbo do about Impulse, when will Scar meet Grian again, is Pearl the one that traumatized Grian? I think so,,,,,,,, what’ll happen if Grian meets the others, what’s going on with the rebellion, what’s gonna happen when Scar meets Impulse, WHATLL HAPPEN TI IMPULSE??? So like umm yea sorry to rant …. Just. uh. yeah (if u can’t tell…. I. Like this story.)

(Side note pt2, this isn’t meant to be like “keep writing it😡”, write whenever u want to, and also this isn’t meant to stress u out, it’s just me being stupid and letting u know I like the story. Only a bit for sure definitely totally……)

okay SO 1) anything you wanna draw i would love. literally not picky at all (ik you already drew smth but like. i will eat up anything <3) i won't spoil anything, but that's a very interesting comment about pearl! she's not the android grian was traumatized by, but that doesn't mean he doesn't know her. :)

also like, you're very sweet to send all of this. even when i'm working on other projects, knowing that people haven't like, immediately forgotten my older stuff is relieving, you know? fic writing is a lot of throwing your soul into the void so hearing that someone out there really likes what i've made makes me super happy to hear. thank you.

[boydyke]

unwell ramblings again

last psychotic episode was triggered by my grandmother's sickness and how we thought she was gonna die. I don't really know whatll happen to me when she finally does. everything about my family and how they talk to me and each other and how they are and their expectations of themselves leads me to feel a responsibility for their lives, a responsibility that is only, currently, an arm lengths away--resting currently on my grandmother, which I will inherit in her passing. I think I knew this before, but I hadn't processed that this is how I feel and processed why I feel it. maybe having processed that trauma will give me a boon when she does pass. but I doubt I'll go *less insane* in the event I *actually* lose someone. I never really stop to feel in relation to my life and circumstances. I've never really had the opportunity to do that. I can't stop to feel when I have so. much. to be ready for. any moment. at random. I could gain more responsibility than I'll ever be ready for, but I might as well make myself as ready as I can, every moment of my life. sometimes I recall my full psychological and how the psychologist said she hadn't seen someone with such a wide symptomology before who didn't screen for a personality disorder or someone with my particular dissociative experiences without really qualifying for any dissociative disorder. I'm dealing with stress that makes a man amnesic. I've got several forever lasting mental issues but am so fucking chill. I am cool. I am cool. I've never had a meltdown and lost control I've never fucked up a responsibility irreparably I just black out and come back to with 3 jobs and a family I carry burdens for so they don't snap and kill each other. system of 1. working fucking overtime. I'm my grandmother's daughter. granddaughter sure but still daughter. 'daughter' in bold within granddaughter. I could only dream to be like her. I've inherited this 24/7 workaholic when our job is keeping people alive ability to keep going and going and going and going and instead of hitting a point where we can't keep going we just leave and keep going anyway. black out and do it anyway. do it blacked out. even when we aren't piloting our bodies they're working on muscle memory and that shit is fine tuned. "Yes, and" to responsibility. I really could do anything. I'm not sure what I'd be happy to do though. but anything I end up with I know I can do it. I've got an endurance to me. I know once she passes I'll do the job I inherit. I'll do it psychotic. I'll do it insane. I'll do it. I know myself enough to trust my autopilot. to trust myself. trust every self I'm capable of being. I've never met her but I know her intimately. I've trusted myself in her hands before. hell my capability to keep going while psychotic while dissociated while gone while silent and asocial and weird and awkward but you keep going and going and you do it scared you do it gone you do it alone and small while hearing voices and you do it when disowned you do it when you're miles away from any support system and you do it unmedicated. you do it like the good kid you are and you don't break where people can see it. my capability to be this got me through homes and grades and chapters . through the worst experiences of my life. I know I'll get through it again. I trust her

[bluebird584]

its been getting so cold at night. my fingers and legs feel really numb a lot of the time. but its only so bad that it hurts sometimes. like when i go outside at night or stand too close to the doors in the mornings. the heater keeps everything ok enough. but sometimes it goes out. and im not really sure whatll happen when it goes out in the middle of the night. i just hope the gas canisters dont run out too quickly.

[namuneulbo]

week one hundred and one

im not sure how i should write out the week numbers anymore.

this week had two,,,, main events? good news, bad news.

lets start w the bad news.

c and w are a thing... not exclusive but a little bird (cs friend) has come to me (through l) w the information that theyve hooked up. tbh theyre a better match probably and yk,,, ive been mentally preparing for this for the past week so like,,, i didnt take it too harshly bc i had already gotten out most of my emotions by then. in a way its almost a bit of a relief, i was so nervous around him all the time.

good news! l is matchmaking me and es friend. it was such a random thing too bc me, c, i and l were having a tortilla night at is place and bereal went off and while scrolling through everyones bereals i casually told l like "lol es friends kinda hot" (LIKE I USUALLY DO BC IM NOT EMBARRASSED AB FINDING OTHERS HOT SO IM USUALLY QUITE OPEN WHEN I SEE SOMEONE ATTRACTIVE) but after like 45 mins or so l just goes "es friend asked for ur number"... literally so? i had no idea l had even told e but they then explained it and it was like funny and shocking and scary and cool and exciting all at the same time. i asked if e showed a pic of me to him so he knows what hes working w and l said they assumed so but theyd ask e to be sure. we get a reply once were at the bar and l just shows me her phone screen w the message: "he said shes so cute".

so im in a new era guys!!!!!! hes really cute though. really nice smile and luscious black hair down to his shoulders, a nice little beard and slutty glasses (yk,,, the ones slutty men wear). we dont know too much ab him bc its a v new friend of es but we know hes a music producer and around 24 (WHICH is a littleeee too old but its doable, five years i can work with but if he ends up being even older i think ill have to decline TT) but im excited to see whatll happen w this lol so random.

sotw: leathermouth - leviathan

[tried-andtrueblue]

looking at apartments n stuff... hurts. knowing its impossible. if i do find a place i can afford, ill be completely alone. im so scared of being alone. im sure ill get used to it very quickly, but its the isolation that will get to me. not seeing my friends every day. i think ill fall out of contact w them and then ill really be alone. i need a pet friendly place i need to get a cat to keep me sane. i need to get a job. theres so much shit i need to sort out this year and next. i want a place close to a gym. a gym with a pool. i want to live with someone. someone i can look after. if not i get a cat. maybe 2. no i dont think i could handle two. i need to get a bicycle so i dont have to use the car or petrol unnecessarily. i want to have a lot of plants. i wanna b close to my friends. close to a grocery store. a place with a nice view of the sky. where i can see the clouds and the moon and the stars. a place with morning sunlight. close to a bookstore or a library? cosy on the inside. maybe i should be closer to the beach. but that would make me sad. get a job. probably 2. a quiet neighborhood. with trees. and walkways. maybe that place opposite school would be good. yeah i know the location well enough now. it's relatively quiet. close to friends. i can go for walks. long ones. i dont know what to do. i wanna move in with a friend but none of them are moving out or want to live w me. living alone is scary. i know. im scared for whatll happen to me. ill really have no money next year. theres so much i need to sort out and pay for.

[ts-janus-rp-blog]

"Morgan... You're an idiot for assuming what my standards and ethics are. I could care less about what the goddess is planning. All I care about is that she has Patton, and that she made a deal with me. If I do these tasks she'll let me see Patton. And frankly, that's all I care about. That's where my standards are. You really don't know anything about me if you think my standards are anything else. Oh? And what are you helping with? Let me guess, condoling the wolfs emotions and making him feel better? Aw, tell the baby that it's very sweet. But he needs to get over himself." Logan rolled his eyes, "Hes not a boy. He's a fully grown adult wolf that needs to take accountability for his actions. Aw, frightened, hollowed, and lonely... How sweet... He won't be any of those things though if hed just do what the goddess told him to. If he'd cared more about his mate then his stupid pride he won't be any of those things right now. He'd have his mate, and he'd be happy. But no... He had to go and ruin everything. Oh, I don't just refuse to see. I refuse to care." Logan shrugged, "I may be a boy, but at least I care about my family."

"Well, guess we do have different standards after all. Sorry that I care more about my family then any stupid pride I may have. No wonder why the wolf went to you. You two are one in the same."

"answers?" Logan glared, "Unless those answers are getting Patton back to me, I could care less, witch. And why would I ever want to be civil to a wolf that betrayed my brother?" Logan crossed his arms, "I'm not putting this anywhere and I'm not stepping inside. Either you tell me these mythical answers right here and now or I'm leaving. I want Patton back, Morgan. I want my family back. Surely you'd understand that...if you even truly care about your family to begin with." Logan chuckled, "you know, I wonder whatll happen if I have lily wear this. She's not entirely human, isn't she? What would happen if she wore a cursed item like this? Would she die?"

@pattxnsanders

Patton knew better than to wander in the woods this time of year. Everyone knew strange creatures and monsters would make their way nearby, passing through on their migration from the southern valleys to the northern forests, and so it was much too dangerous for anyone to be wandering.

And yet Patton was going out, alone. He was hoping to get a peek of the strange yet mystical creatures that would pass through, as well as getting some berries so he could make jam for his older brother. He walks quietly and swiftly, and keeps his gray cloak tucked in tightly.

Janus stumbled through the harsh greenery. He was keeping his roughened rags for clothes tightly against his body. His knees were trembling as he was trying to walk. One step. One step. One...step... The entire world spun around him, it was getting hard to see what was in front of him. But he has to keep going. One foot in front of the other. Come on Janus. You can do it. Once you reach the forests you'll have a much better chance at hiding from the predators. You can rest. Just gotta keep going. Keep going... Keep...

He tried to open his mouth, but then he was faced with the sharp reminder that he cannot. Why? Well, the predators got him once already. But he was able to run away... Not without some scraps and bruises, and a silver muzzle strapped tightly over his mouth. He can't even open his mouth slightly without the fur on his snout hitting the silver, causing his fur to hiss and be burned off. He can't even take the muzzle off with his fingers or else he's risking burning his fingers off. He also can't use his rags to take it off cause the silver burns him through the clothing. Ow. Ow. Ow.

Cause of this muzzle the werewolf hasn't been able to eat in... Oh, how long as it been? Months? Probably. It feels that way. Even as he is walking his stomach is painfully growling at him. He could feel his bones ache with every single movement. His knees won't be able to handle the weight of his body for very long. His ribs were poking out of his sides and he could feel it every time he held his arms to his sides. He's so hungry... So hungry... So hungry...

His head suddenly lifted, and he stopped dead in his tracks. Slowly he turned towards a sound. Footsteps. Who would dare go near this pathway for mythical creatures such as himself? Either predators or someone that is asking for a death wish. He's one of the last remaining creatures to use this path for the season, everyone else is already ahead of him. Maybe they thought everyone was gone already so they can use this path again? Probably.

Or it's predators hoping to snag a few stranglers of the bunch.

Everything in his brain was telling him to keep going and try to hide away. It's most likely a predator hoping on snagging him. Go. Keep going. Try to find shelter and hide away until the human is gone-

That was, until he spotted the human.

His brain turned to mush. Every thought in his mind evaporated from his mind just like that. His pupils became slits. His mouth began to water. Drool splattered on the ground below him. His fur became thicker, denser, to protect his fragile body. And, his claws extended.

So... Hungry...

He let out a snarl before he went down onto all fours. Before he could even think he started bolting towards the human. So hungry. So hungry. So hungry. Food. Food. Meat-

SNAP

why isn't he moving? Janus snarled and growled as he clawed at the ground, trying to drag his way forward. In his wolf state he didn't even notice that his leg got caught in a bear trap.

@pattxnsanders

[cornflowercanine]

i dont f33l safe iding as a les8ian anymore (8cs a good half of all les8ians i s33 do not want me here 8c im akoiro) 8ut for me to not 8e a les8ian i’d have to reside just in the nlw/nln “communities�� and uh. ah. well. -gestures at the fact that looking up the tags on TUM8LR garners little to no results made 8y other nlw/nln people, and flat out doesnt exist anywhere else On Fucking Line- well. um. so im kinda just in this awkward lim8o of 8eing a les8ian 8ut knowing im not welcome or wanted or wholly cele8r8ed here 8c i dont force myself into unhealthy ro8otic rel8ionships anymore like :terezismiling: hi .  everyone .

[sick-as-a-dog]

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