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AISLINN INFO DROP !

language

she was born in southern ireland and has spent most of her life in southern ireland. her accent is definitely southern irish.

she went to a gaelscoil primary school ; a school where the primary language is GAELIC.

irish gaelic is technically her first language but she is totally bilingual. she spoke + was spoken to in gaelic until her ma died , then english when they moved in with trish. the other schools she has attended were a mixture of irish and english speaking.

as soon as she was prescribed hearing aids , her pa was extremely keen for the two of them to learn sign language ( he himself is hard of hearing in one ear but never learnt ). since she was six , the two of them have taken free isl classes and are both fluent. aislinn has also taught herself the alphabet in bsl and asl , as well as some other basic phrases. but she can sign and read her alphabets REALLY FAST. like , often too fast for fluent speakers to read and they’ll have to ask her to slow down.

she and her pa talk to each other in equal measures gaelic , english and isl depending on the situation. there’s not one she prefers over the others.

autism / ocd

aislinn was diagnosed with autism when she was six. she went to school a little later than most children and had trouble from the start. disrupting classes ; fighting with other children.

she struggles to understand other people her age , mostly. feels separated from those around her because her background & lifestyle is so different. she’s always struggled to make friends.

BUT if she sees something similar to herself in another , she will latch onto them very quickly. likes the idea of being part of a group of outcasts.

she has a very bad temper. long fuse , but big explosion. she’ll either totally shut down ; usually ball herself up in a corner and refuse to talk , or she lashes out. she has been in a lot of fights at schools ( that she always lost ). only ever with other kids though ; she isn’t afraid to SCREAM at adults when she thinks they’re wrong.

she also has ocd which was diagnosed when she was 13. HOWEVER she took this to mean that because she has ocd , she is not autistic. she’s never embraced her autism ( having spent several years of her childhood being told by the female role model in her household that it made her stupid and the school attitude that ‘ autistic kids are trouble kids ’ ) ; instead insisting that her ocd is what’s ‘ broken her brain ’. she has !!! a lot of internalised hate over her neurodivergence >:(

she is hypersensitive to touch + sound. especially shrill noises.

sound :

when she first went to school , she found the noise level of other children extremely difficult to cope with ( even when she was older it sometimes can cause panic attacks ).

her hearing loss was pretty much a direct result of this. to make things QUIETER she would fill up her ears with crayons ; glue ; anything. they got very badly infected as a result.

she has mild hearing loss in her left ear ( can hear normal voice level just fine ; cannot hear softer / distant sounds ) and moderate / severe hearing loss in her right ( loud sounds like traffic are extremely muffled ).

she has been prescribed and given hearing aids multiple times but does not like wearing them —— prefers it to be quiet. wears the right one maybe 50% of the time and ONLY EVER wears the left one alone in the car with dad ( takes both out when she’s angry with him ).

touch :

she loves to touch other people. always shakes hands in greeting ( and is uncomfortable if people don’t want to ) , loves to touch others’ hair or sit with knees touching.

she also touches everything in supermarkets and other big shops —— especially if it looks soft. her fingers / hands aren’t actually super sensitive so she finds it a comforting reality.

she finds uncomfortable clothing awful and has always hated school uniform and would often scratch herself to bleeding around her neck , stomach and on her arms.

her dad used to find her ‘ fairy ’ shells / flowers / stones that would give her ‘ magic protection ’ and stop her scratching ( it’s something her ma started ; gave her a seashell necklace made by fairies that would always keep her safe ). and ... they actually worked , to an extent. didn’t make it any more comfortable , but eased the obsessive need to scratch a little.

she still wears quite a lot of them as necklaces. cant stand bracelets , or more than one ring per hand , but is always wearing at LEAST four necklaces ( in even numbers ).

nearly all her clothing she’s either had for a very long time or she gets second hand. her clothes have to be pre - worn and SOFT. shoes and socks are exceptions.

she suffers from trichotillomania —— the obsessive need to pull out her hair. it started when she was around 10 , partly from the anxiety of moving schools and everything changing.

she’s kept her hair very SHORT since then ; between shoulder length and ( a couple of times ) totally shaved. it’s probably the thing her pa struggles most to help her with.

things they’ve done to try and combat it include : she always has a teddy bear or soft toy that’s FLUFFY so she can tear that out instead ; getting out every couple of hours on long journeys to tear up handfuls of grass ; keeping her hair braided or full of clips / flowers / other things she can fiddle with ; letting her shave her hair instead of pulling it ( and also then it’s not a sensory issue around her neck / face ).

the one that’s been MOST SUCCESSFUL is to keep her hair dyed. she’s been doing it since she was 12 and has been just about every colour under the sun. it helps in a couple of ways : firstly , because she really likes the look and idea of it , so tries her hardest to keep it intact. secondly because she often doesn’t REALISE she’s pulling out hair , but when it’s pink or blue it’s easier to notice when her hands are full of it and she can stop.

gender

y’all ... aislinn is 18 years old and super confused in general about both her gender and her sexuality. she’s has fairly limited interaction with people her own age and very little experience on the internet. she also lives in southern ireland. some of her views and knowledge is skewed and misinformed. she’s had very few female role models and even fewer queer ones.

nearly everything she knows about sex , gender , and sexuality is what she can talk about with her dad ( they’re best friends they talk about anything and everything openly ). he is surprisingly well educated about all of the above , but still she’s nowhere near as knowledgeable as an ordinary british 18 year old would be.

she doesn’t experience dysphoria but something doesn’t feel quite RIGHT inside her. she’s not sure if that’s because of her gender , or her neurodivergence , or anything else , but the only way she can think of to figure that out is to try out labels.

the one good thing about moving around a lot is she’s had a lot of opportunities to restart with a NEW identity. she’s tried using they / them pronouns , she’s spent a couple of months with a buzz - cut going by ‘ jack ’ and using he / him , she’s tried calling herself non - binary and given up very quickly trying out other pronouns ( unable to cope with the frustration of people refusing to use them ). but none of them felt any BETTER than she / her.

it’s not really that she feels like she’s anything instead of female ; there’s nothing that feels more right , she just doesn’t really feel CONNECTED to being a girl.

at the moment she uses she / her pronouns and the label demigirl. she’s not totally sure about it , but she finds it helpful to use a bunch of different labels until she finds the right one rather than wait and remain label - less until she’s TOTALLY sure.

sexuality + sexual experiences

y’all guessed it she’s pretty confused abt this too !

what she is most certain about is that she is a lesbian. she’s done sexual stuff with a guy once and Did Not Enjoy. she’s never found a guy attractive ; she’s not had a crush on a guy.

asexuality is something she’s felt comfortable labelling herself with for a couple of years , but she’s still not totally sure if she actually IS asexual because , like ... she does feel like she is sexually attracted to some women. thing is that it’s only celebs ( and almost excusively much older women as well ) ; she’s never even had a crush on someone she’s known in real life. so while the idea of doing sexual stuff with a hot celeb seems appealing , she hasn’t enjoyed any of her real life sexual experiences so it’s like. is this false hope ?? has she just had bad experiences or is she actually asexual ???

which is the reason she calls herself ‘ quoiromantic ’. finds it difficult to distinguish between platonic , romantic , and sexual attraction. honestly tldr is she’s muddled about this and while she doesn’t know What she’s feeling , it’s nice to have a label that fits her confusion.

unsurprisingly , she is a virgin. she’s had a handful of sexual experiences of various sorts ( a few with guys ; mostly with female - presenting people ) + a couple more teen kisses outside of that , but she’s never had a relationship and never been any further.

she is still questioning and that’s ok. she thinks she’s a lesbian but still kisses boys sometimes. she thinks she’s ace but still is vaguely sexually active. she’s not sure , so she’s still experimenting. and that’s all ok ok !!!

random

it’s pronounced ‘ ASH - LING ’.

she is an excellent swimmer and can hold her breath for nearly two minutes.

she ‘ ran away ’ quite a lot as a little kid but only ever to mcdonalds. it would only ever end in pa coming to find her and them eating chips & carrot sticks on the walk home.

her parents weren’t married when she was born ( mostly because they didn’t have the money to ). they got married when she was nearly four years old.

she loves dogs. hates cats. the feeling seems to be mutual with each.

she grew up with a german shepherd called walter who was her ma’s originally. they left him at a shelter when she + pa ran away , knowing they wouldn’t be able to look after him.

they do have a dog now ! his name is romeo ( ROO for short ) , he’s bright white and 85% floof. he likes to sit in aislinn’s lap while they’re driving.

they nearly ran him over when he sprinted into the road out of the fog. they took him to the nearest village and they said he didn’t belong to anyone there —— he’d been living off rabbits and scraps from the shepherd. they were going to take him to a shelter at first but at the sight of him sitting up in the back seat , watching the landscape pass out of the window , aislinn burst into tears at the idea of leaving him. he’s been driving around with them ever since. aislinn is 100% certain he’s a ghost or an ancient god or something.

his bark is actually pretty much the only loud noise that doesn’t affect her. it’s that deep , sort of quiet ‘ BOOF ’ that big dogs do and it’s probably her favourite sound on the whole earth.