#the chell one up top is mine though

[lupinus-bicolor]

portal stamp dump

[bathboysblog]

the Valve Sibling post

Disclaimer: This is my own funny lore on my funny Tumblr blog, and will not at all be accurate to Valves lore. Everyone's ethnicity is kept the same as in canon. How are they related then? Your guess is as good as mine, but they are. 

I've always felt like Gordon and Chell have a bit too many parallels to have never been tied to the others story. Not only with the rivalry between Mesa and Aperture, but you're telling me that the guy who relies on his wit, is in the shooter and the canonically pissed girl is in the puzzle game? I've connected the dots, and now they're siblings.

Gordon was always ambitious when it came to his education, having a specific adoration for science. He loved the idea of discovery and creation, of changing humanity with scientific advances. Being awkward around his classmates meant he wasn't invited to a lot of hangouts, so Gordon threw all his time into classwork. Graduating highschool early and moving right on to college, the only real socialization was with his roommate, Barney, who never really stuck to a single major. The two ended up hitting it off as friends, and while Gordon was looking for work; within the following years, both had decided to enroll into the Black Mesa training program.

Barney, having no knowledge in science or math, was put on duty as a low level security officer. The guy was always a bit of a conspiracy theorist, and from all the shady stories circling around Black Mesa, he was excited to be front and center to where they were hiding the aliens. And hey, cool gun permit. Of course, Gordon thought he was a small town nut for it, but was happy that he wouldn't be transferring completely alone. 

Gordon himself was too inexperienced to qualify as a full scientist, not with how high maintenance the facility was. He was too shaky to wield a gun, too jumpy not to shoot himself in the damn foot. Though, instead of turning Gordon away, Breen made a deal of employment, hating to shoot down such a young mind. If Gordon kept up with his studies, he could be paid as a trainee for dealing with radioactive materials. It was a dangerous job, few trusted a suit that was fresh out of beta, but with the promise of one day studying alongside these great minds, he took the offer. 

(which is also why I think Gordon has some more complicated feelings about Breen in HL2 than just pure rebellion hatred, but that's for another post.)

For a few years, Gordon walked the thin line of employee and student. His coworkers didn't take his research too seriously, having such limited knowledge of the tests in the first place. He’d often arrive late to work, trying to juggle lectures on top of the physical training to get his body used to the suit. The metal was heavy, awkward in mobility, not to mention Gordons sweating. A lot of jumping and crawling, even more climbing and running. He was almost jealous of Barney, having the luxury of icing his muscles on their days off. Instead, Gordon took a few painkillers and pushed onto his lectures. Just pull through, and one day, all of this hard work would pay off. 

Then the Half Life franchise happens. canon follows.

Chell was more grounded compared to her older brother.

She wasn't a well known name in school, with passing grades and a low social battery. She wasn't sure what she wanted to do in life and was indifferent towards college. 

The only reason why she sought out Aperture Labs was to bug Gordon. 

During the holiday season whenever he visited home, Gordon would fill everyone in on his special little job. Push this cart, Gordon! Move this canister, Gordon! She had always thought the man lived life with his head in the clouds, but Christ, it sounded like he was kissing Breens shoes before clocking in. 

With the talk of Black Mesa, Aperture was mentioned somewhere along the lines. How stupid it was for Jhonson, the man who sold shower curtains, to start a research facility. He had no knowledge of business- of science, the place was built inside salt mines! With the lawsuits raking up, they would be closed down soon enough. Either that or go bankrupt from blowing all of this money. Aperture labs may have the glory now, but Mesa was in it for the long run. 

But hey, 60 bucks is 60 bucks. 

Chell thought it would be funny to volunteer for a minor experiment. Instead of having her organs rearranged or having her DNA mixed with a praying mantis, she chose a safer option. A sleeping capsule, they’d wake her up within a month and see if the hibernation had any effects on her body. The capsules tracked her heartbeat and fed her meals through an IV, it seemed safe enough. She could already see it, Gordons red face, bitching about causing more drama for Thanksgiving. Getting paid to do it, nonetheless! ‘It was dangerous, stupid, everyone knows Jhonson is a pathological liar who cuts corners for the health inspector, what the hell is wrong with you Chell?!’

Chell wakes up in an unfamiliar glass chamber, in an unknown amount of time in the future. Canon events follow. 

I do think that Wheatly holds some sort of truth in Portal 2 when he talks about Chell having brain damage. The human body isn't meant to last, we don't even know HOW many years into the future. It's clear that she hasn't aged, and her physical body is fine, but no precautions were taken for her mental well-being. Not only do I believe Chell forces insomnia onto herself, terrified of not waking up for another thousand years, but as cliche as the trope is, her memories are probably scrambled. With how many dreams shes had in her comas, with how long its been since she's seen any other life form, Chell has little to no memory of Gordon. not to say they’re complete strangers, her unexplained emotional connection still holds, but if they ever meet in stasis (the cut ending of Portal 2), I doubt either will remember the others name.

[heshoes]

She was his best friend and they shared everything together already anyway. What difference would it make if it were a hat, shampoo, or the same bed sometimes? So what? That's what the Uni Daze were about, having fun, traditions, getting serious, new relationships, friendships, heart ache, break-ups, make ups, secrets, the occasional/casual bajingo here and there, and possibly, just maybe, finding the love of your life and hoping that it all works out.

Warnings: smut, slow burn, angst, mentions of abortion, mentions of verbal abuse

Harry Styles x OC (Face claim Zendaya)

Uni Daze Masterlist

Chapter 2 ( Word Count 6.7K )

Harry

My school day was absolutely long but it kept me busy and busy to me is a good thing. It keeps me balanced though I know Chelle would disagree since he keeps telling me as such over the phone.

"The only reason you think that trying to fit 72 hours in a 24 hour day is a balance is because of your parents. Just because they're work driven arseholes doesn't mean that you have to follow in their footsteps.”

"That's impossible to do, I don't work that much. My parent's aren't arsehole's they're just successful. Is that so wrong to want success?”

"It is when its your last year of uni and you're being a kill joy.”

"I said I would go out for drinks, Chelle. How is my compliance to something that I don't want to do being a kill joy?”

"Because you're not doing it with a smile. You've become boring. Your sex life and your regular life has turned about as vanilla as a middle aged man. We never had to beg you to come out last year or over the summer, Harrow. Think of it as a week of extended holidays. No one does anything the first week of classes anyway. It's all rules and instructions on how to prepare. We've been in uni for three years. We should know the jist of it by now.”

"But it's not summer anymore, Chelle and you know some professors like to give assignments in the first few days. We have two papers already in seminar for fucks sake.”

Michelle sighed in annoyance.

"Yeah, but, those aren't due for ages, Haz. Fun is due right now.”

"This is the year to pull your shit together. Everyone can't not study and get perfect marks like you. Sorry.”

"The phrase 'can't not' is a double edged sword.”

"What?" I spun around in my desk at work, handing a first year her keys. Its only the first day and she's already lost her keys and has to use her spare for a fifty pound charge. She looks nervous as well and her face is kind of red. She grins at me and says a shy 'thank you' before walking away, staring back at me and kind of tripping over her own feet on her way to the lift. I tried not to laugh, but honestly it was kind of funny.

"You know, a double edged sword? A double negative?You can't say 'can't not' next to each other in a sentence. It's repetitive of itself. You should be embarrassed. This is primary school stuff Harrow. Mr. “I have to take the UKCAT this year.”"

"Whatever Chelle! See? That's what I mean. I need a balance. I need to be able to be involved in school. I should have taken it more serious when we first started out.”

"You do realize balance means a good amount of your job, school work, AND a social life which includes parties and pubs and going out with your mates without a grumble?”

"I'm going out for drinks tonight! You're starting to piss me off."

"If the truth is anything it's annoying, Harry." I nodded my head and began to swivel around in my chair. I'd just gotten to work and had three and a half more hours to go. I'm glad I have a job and all but this one is fucking boring.

Speaking of truth.

"Do the boys know about your um...your new team?”

"No. Actually they don’t."

Oh.

“Oh?"

"Yeah, um, I was hoping that it was something that we could keep between me and you for now. Just until I can figure things out. I'd love to say that I'm for sure just this one thing. I know I said it this morning, but I'm still not sure, okay?”

"Yeah. Sure, of course." I stopped spinning in my seat and dizzying myself when I heard my manager's voice,"Look I've gotta go. I'm not supposed to be on the phone and my boss is coming.”

"Oh so there is some rebellion left in you? You're living on the edge now, Hazland. Why can't you use your phone? All you do is sit in a chair and answer phones and make people keys when they lock themselves out of their dorm.”

"Bye Michelle!" I quickly hung up the phone and stuck it into my pocket smiling awkwardly at Professor Forrester as he approached the front desk with someone else right next to him. She had on a Cambridge work shirt much like myself letting me know that I more than likely wouldn't be alone for the rest of my shift.

"Rion, this is Harry," Professor Forrester spoke to her before addressing me, "today is her first day here at the university and working. I told her that she would be in good hands if I left her here with you. Show her the ropes and maybe show her around campus when you're not at work? I've got to go," Professor Forrester turned to face the new girl before he nodded back at me, "any questions you have, ask him. He'll know all of the answers.”

She nodded her head up and down slowly before giving a shy grin and we were left alone as Forrester left the building.

“Hi."

“Hello."

"I'm Harry.”

She laughed to herself before nodding her head at me.

"So I was told. Nice to meet you.”

Rion, I think her name was, sat down in her seat next to mine after speaking back to me, lowering her rucksack down to the ground before pulling out a book. It was a good idea really. Maybe I should have brought one? I barely get the chance to read, especially living with Michelle. She always finds a way to interrupt, either that or my ADD kicks in, all the more reason for me to put in more effort at school. I took out my phone once I knew that Forrester was gone, but I really had nothing to do with it. I had no new text messages besides Michelle.

Chelle: Drinksssssss 🍻🍺🍺🍺🍻🍻🍻😉

I grinned before shaking my head and replying back to her, something just as stupid as she sent me.

To Chelle: Tortureeeeeeee😣🔫🍺😒

Chelle: Dramatic!

Ignoring her last text, I took out my earphones and turned up the music on my phone as I placed them in my ears. I suppose it was a bit loud because out of the corner of my eye I could see Rion scrunching her nose while she tried to read.

"Oh, sorry. I didn't mean to disturb you.”

"No disturbance, I was just trying to figure the tune. Runaway?”

“Wh-what?"

She laughed before she pointed to the phone in my hand and repeated herself.

"Is that Runaway by Ed Sheeran?”

I nodded my head, not able to stop the stupid grin that cut across my face.

"You know Ed Sheeran that’s not on top 40?”

"Who doesn't? The man's a musical genius.”

She smiled at me before she turned back to her book, but I couldn't help but to keep talking to her.

"What school did you used to go to? Um, if you don't mind me asking…"

"Nope, don't mind at all. I used to go to Bristol Uni. How about yourself? Have you been at Cambridge all of your university career?”

I nodded my head and she looked impressed, but I'm sure she wouldn't be if she knew that I was a legacy and that I slacked off for the first three and a half years. Good thing that I'm getting my shit together now.

"Yeah, it’s alright here.”

"Just alright?”

"One of the best alrights I guess. Welcome to Cambridge and congratulations.”

"Thank you.”

I smiled at her and the conversation was on the verge of ending, but before I stuck my other ear bud in I paid closer attention to the book that she had in her hand.

"Scott Fitzgerald."

"Pardon?" Rion raised an eyebrow at me.

"That's F. Scott Fitzgerald.”

She raised her book showing me the spine, shocked that I hadn't seen the cover but still got the author right.

"You know F. Scott Fitzgerald?" She smiled at me while relaying my words back to me.

"Who doesn't? The man was a written genius. Not to mention that the book you're reading happens to be one of my favorites.”

She smiled again.

"Usually people only notice Fitzgerald if The Great Gatsby is involved." She turned her chair towards mine giving me a better view of her.

"Gatsby is a classic, but I think that The Curious Case of Benjamin Button has more character.”

We continued to talk and before I knew it the shift was over. No one else needed keys and the phone barely rung. I probably would have stayed beyond the time that I was supposed to get off talking and creating awkward conversation with Rion had it not been for Michelle's reminders:

Chelle: Tonight is gonna be fun 😊

Chelle: You're off work in 1⃣5⃣ min🎉🎊

Chelle: I'm gonna get you so fucked up!😝

Chelle: I'm excited 😬

To Chelle: No 💩. Too excited I reckon 😐

I laughed to myself as I gathered my things to leave the building, not fully believing that I allowed Michelle to talk me into drinking tonight, even though part of me knew that I wouldn't be able to break tradition. Rion put her book away, that she never really got into reading and followed behind me out the door and to the parking lot. She seemed cool from what I got to know about her in the amount of time that I did and since she's new, I figure that it wouldn't hurt to ask.

"Hey, a couple of my friends and I are getting together tonight to The Mill. Its a pub right up the road on Mill lane, if you're not busy, you should, um, you should come.”

"Mill pub? On a Monday?”

"Yeah, it's kind of a tradition that we started when we started here." I rub my shoulder as I wait for her answer. I don't know why I feel nervous about it but I do.

"It sounds like fun, but I shouldn’t, not tonight at least. I wouldn't be able to bear it if I missed class tomorrow because of a hangover, and I kind of also have plans.”

"Oh, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make it like you didn't have anything else to do or-”

"No it's fine it's just... I have a date.”

"Right. Sorry again.”

"I'll see you around though I hope?”

"Yeah, I'll see you at work.”

Rion nodded her head while giving me a content smile before she got into her car and as she pulled off, she waved to me. I waved back but as soon as her car was out of sight, I slapped myself in the face with the palm of my hand. Maybe six months is too long to go without any type of real interaction with the opposite sex besides Michelle, but honestly she doesn't count...or maybe she counts for both now?

I cleared my head of my thoughts as I got into my car that I feel like I'm too tall for. Even with the seat pushed down as low as it can go, I still can feel the top of my head brush against the roofing of it. By now I'm sure I've saved up enough to get a new one. A new car could be my mini treat to myself for cutting myself off from a social life. The more that I think about the way that my conversation with Rion just ended the more that I start to agree with Michelle and the more excited I get for the night of boozy tradition.

As soon as eleven thirty-five hit, my phone rang. When I answered it Michelle's voice came through clear as if she were sitting here next to me in the car, even though background noise and music blares in the room around her.

"Everyone is here but you. Are you en route?”

"Everyone?" I ask her with skepticism in my tone. I would be shocked if everyone showed up.

"Yes everyone. Niall, Darragh, and Zayn. Everyone but you. Are you on your way?”

I don't know why I even asked her if everyone would be there. I knew that Louis wouldn't show even though it was him and Darragh who started this tradition..

"Yeah, I'm on my way. This should be fun.”

"That's the spirit I've been looking for Harrow. It sounds like you've had a change of heart since earlier.”

"Yeah, I think I've been looking at my textbooks too long and not at real people. One night won't kill me I suppose.”

"If one night is done right, then yes, yes it will. And what do you mean you don't see real people? I see you everyday.”

"You're not a real person, Michelle. I'm not quite sure what you are yet.”

"I think I might have an idea by now." Michelle said while chuckling on the other end of the line.

"And what would that be?”

"Getting lucky tonight. Get here soon and I can be your wing-lady.”

The pub was in the early stages of being crowded when I got there and I couldn't deny how excited I was to see the boys, Michelle included even though I saw her only just this morning. The last time that we were all together was in the middle of June, but after that we really hadn't had time to hang out. Everyone had gotten busy and into their own things. Besides keeping in touch over the phone occasionally, we haven't really talked that much either.

The first person that I saw when I got in was Niall. He sat next to Darragh with a cigarette hanging from his lips, patting down his jeans in search of a lighter no doubt. When we made eye contact, he stuck his arms out to the side with his fingers spread wide and a smile on his face. Darragh looked at him as if he lost his mind until he followed Niall's line of vision and then quickly stood from his seat.

"Harry! How are you lad? Drinks are on Liam so order the most expensive thing possible.”

I received two claps on the back from each of them when I reached the table and then a smack on my ass that made me jump and then turn around find the guilty culprit. I should have known who it was straight away.

"Chelle! That actually hurt.”

She laughed at my discomfort with some kind of frothy drink in her hand as I grabbed my bum cheek and rubbed it over my jeans.

"Probably because there's barely any meat there to cushion the blow.”

I shook my head at her and squinted my eyes before I responded, "It's not about what's back there, its all about what's in the front. Girls don't date me for my bum.”

“Well, according to you, girls don't date you at all, not recently at least.”

Niall and Darragh started to laugh and a stream of smoke came through Niall's nose reminding me of an angry bull from a cartoon before he took another drag from his cigarette, this time intentionally blowing a ring of smoke before sucking it back in through his nostrils. I probably could have strangled Michelle in that moment, but it was true. My mind goes back to Rion and work and I can feel my cheeks burn with embarrassment.

"Mitch told us about your six month drought.”

"Stop calling me Mitch!”

Niall ignored Michelle's outburst before continuing, "She says you haven't gotten laid since your birthday.”

"Do you know what a penis fly catcher even looks like anymore?" Darragh added to Niall's teasing causing my nose to scrunch.

"Penis fly catcher?”

"Yeah, it's better than what you call it. What do you say again? Bajango?”

"No Darragh," Niall cuts in, "Django was a movie. He says bajingo. It makes sense to me.”

Michelle scrunches her nose in disgust and confusion at our conversation but doesn't say anything. Really though, what more could be added to this?

"It's not that big of a deal guys." I bring the conversation back to where it was before it drifted into a dark place so quickly. It can't be that bad. Can it? Perhaps it is? I don't even know at this point anymore.

"Oi leave him alone," Zayn chimed in as he walked up to the table with Liam with two beers in hand, passing me one before he sat down, "its alright Harry sex isn't everything...but six months is a long ass time. But enough about that. What has everyone been up to?”

It was almost like a show and tell as we went around the table talking about what we'd missed out on over the summer since we hadn't seen each other. Niall and Darragh went to Ibiza for the month of July staying in hostels and partying until all hours of the morning. Apparently Niall is in love with a girl he met there, but he doesn't remember her name so I don't know how accurate that is

Zayn spent a good amount of time in France with his girlfriend, sorry, fiancé. The fucker got engaged in France. Everyone thought that he and Daphne were gonna be a short lived thing since they met at a club and all, but people find love and fall in it in mysterious ways I guess. Michelle would be a prime example of that...but love is not involved with her apparently. A player not to be played anymore. I still have questions to ask her about that but I guess I'll have to wait until later since she doesn't want the guys to know that she's traded outies for innies. I could out her like she did me and my drought, but that's way more personal and I've decided that I'm not that much of an asshole, if I'm one at all that is.

Liam was arrested and his parents flipped out. For what I'm kind of scared to ask, but I'm sure it was something accidental. Sometimes I wonder how Liam even got into Cambridge, but I guess that they don't test for common sense, only book smarts.

When it got to Michelle's turn, she just talked about how she flew back home for a few weeks at the very start of summer to visit family and then came back here, but of course that's not anything that I didn't already know. When she came back was when I noticed all of the girlfriends that she had. It was odd to me because Michelle generally hated girls and hanging out with them, but then again, she obviously doesn't hate them that much.

When I told them that the most exciting part of my summer had been joining a book club for some work that I had to get ready to do for senior class, studying for the UKCAT that's not until the end of the school year, and sometimes coming here to Mill pub with Michelle I realized that what she said was true. My life had become vanilla, but I'm honestly kind of alright with it.

We continued to talk, share, laugh and drink until it was at least half three in the morning. I was waiting to see if Michelle was going to change her mind and let the lads know about her newfound liking but she kept it private between me and her the way that she said she would and it kind of made me smile. That along with the ridiculous amount of beer and shots consumed brought a goofy smile to my face by the end of the night.

By exactly three forty-five I was seeing double and couldn't drive home. Niall and Darragh had left to go back to their apartment that happened to be a few blocks down from ours, and Zayn and Liam stayed behind at the bar to drink deciding that they were too far gone now and might as well finish strong. They also decided that class tomorrow isn't important.

Michelle would have stayed behind with them I'm sure, but she has the tendency to be this odd motherly type when I get beyond the legal limit. I think she just likes to laugh at me because I start to say foolish things when my tongue loosens up in my mouth and my words slur. I tried to get up from the table discreetly so that I could walk home while Mitch, Zayn, and Liam continued to chat, but I knocked over a chair.

“Oh shit. I'm sorry bro." I chuckled to myself like an idiot as I picked up the chair earning the lads attention.

"Where are you going?" Michelle's eyes seemed to widen as she took in the state of me.

"Home. I've got class in the morrow-morning.”

"Do you honestly think that you're going to make it to class? Look at you, you can barely stand. My job is complete.” Michelle grins in triumph and I squint my eyes at her trying to figure out when she was going to tell me that she was a triplet.

"You're a horrible people and I don't know why we're friends." I think I was looking at her when I said it, but it could have very well been one of her sisters.

"Alright, and that's my cue. We'll see you later guys." Michelle spoke to Liam and Zayn as stood from the table, a little wobbly at best bus still in a better condition than I was in.

"You don't have to walk me home, Michelle. I'm not no kid.”

Michelle laughed as I stumbled, almost tripping on a crack in the pavement.

"Since I live there too I'm not technically walking you home. I'm walking home with you.”

I checked to see if my car was locked before we began our walk. The crisp early morning air sobered me up a bit, but I was still highly intoxicated and grinning.

"How was your first day of classes?" Michelle asked me breaking the silence of our trek back to our flat.

"Hmm, was okay. Good actually... I met this…met this girl.”

"You did? You were holding out on us at the pub! Who is it? Do I know who she is?”

"No, I don't think you do," I paused to hiccup hoping that was all that I had to do, "She's new here and you don't like girls. I mean, well, you know what I mean. You wouldn't know her.”

Michelle laughed while shaking her head.

“So it's a first year? I'm ashamed of you! I know you haven't dated in a while but that's sweeping the bottom of the barrel, Harrow.”

“No not a first year," hiccup "She's around my age, just new to Cambridge.”

“Oh," Michelle spoke putting her key in the door before she opened it "Where'd you meet her?”

“Work. I kind of asked her to come to the pub with me, but she said she had a date and I kind of sounded like a blubbering idiot when I asked her. I don't know.”

“Harry! You can't just invite people to come to the pub and we haven't met them yet! What if she was awful? Good thing she didn't come. That tradition is sacred for us. Whatever you said to her was probably fine. She just had other plans... Do you know why I've recently started calling you Harrow Harry?”

“Because it's one of the many odd nicknames you've created for me?”

“No. Harrow as in the adjective, it just so happens to fit with you. Har•row when used in verbal tense, means to cause distress to. You're causing unnecessary distress to yourself when you worry about things like the UKCAT and assignments that aren't due until the end of the year, and whatever you've said to this mystery bird that you've met at work. Fun. You used to be much less tense and more fun. You need to chill out and relax. You need to I don't know, get some maybe.”

I rolled my eyes before running my hand through my hair and walking into the kitchen, opening the cabinet in search of my favorite drunken snack, grabbing it when I found it and heading for my room. Quickly stripping off into my boxers, I fell against my bed before I turned on my television and got under the covers. I ate my snack in peace before Michelle knocked on my door twice and then let herself in.

"I could have been naked! you could at least wait for me to say come in.”

“Yeah well, its not like I've never seen a penis before and they're not really my main thing anymore you know?” Michelle climbed into bed with me, intruding while I tried to hide my snacks.

"What are you eating?”

“Nothing.” I slowed my chewing in hopes that she would lose interest.

"Harry I see them! Are those teddy grahams?”

“No!”

“They are! They're a snack for a five year old.”

“Teddy grahams don't have an age limit.”

“You should be embarrassed.” Chelle spoke before grabbing the box and taking a handful for herself, moving around too much for my drunken stomach to handle.

"Oohh these are nice. These are new sheets aren't they?”

"Chelle! Stop moving! Why are you in my room? Get out!”

“My room is too hot, so I've decided that we're going to have a sleepover. You get the better ventilation. You should trade with me.”

“What?”

“I'll sleep on the floor. It really is dreadful in my room.”

I sigh before I grab my pillows and comforter and toss them on the ground leaving Michelle the bed as I make my way to the floor.

“Aww Harry you're the sweetest, but I can really take the floor.”

“No, it's fine. Just don't do anything perverted while you're up there.”

“What like masturbate? I'm not you.”

I chuckled turning to face her from my position on the floor.

“Exactly, but if you do at least that I’m asleep first…Thats just common courtesy. ”

“Sure thing, Harlot. I can do that for you.” Michelle responded without pause causing me to chuckle before my head hit the pillow.

****

“ My head,” I groaned, waking up on the floor with my covers wrapped around me too tight much like a swaddling cloth. After successfully the blanket away from me in an attempt to escape confinement, I sat up slowly only to make the headache worse than it already was and add a new pain to the mix. “My back.”

I had almost forgotten that I slept on the floor to be nice and allowed Michelle to stay in my bed, but when I turned around to look at it I quickly discovered that she wasn't there. I could hear fumbling around in the kitchen and when I stood to follow the noise, the pounding in my head grew. When I reached the small space that we mostly use to microwave shitty food and store alcohol and juice, I saw that Michelle was fully dressed. I mean, well, if you can call an oversized sweater and tights with ladders down the legs in random places dressed then thats what she was.

“Morning, sunshine. How do you feel.”

“Like my head might explode all over the kitchen and I still have to get ready for class. Today is going to be long as shit,” my words slurred proving that there was still traces of alcohol in my bloodstream and when I swayed back and forth feeling as if I might lose my balance, I knew, “I'm still fucked.”

Michelle laughed at me before she flipped her pancake onto a plate and ran it back and forth below my nose. I snatched it from her and took a bite of the buttery breakfast cake without using the fork that she offered.

“Don't be such a savage, Haz. I'm not going to take the food from you after I've clearly been slaving over the oven for five whole minutes so that you could eat. Slow down, chew your food, and sit like a civilized human being. If you eat like that you're going to require the heimlich maneuver and unfortunately I don't know it. You'll turn blue and die in front of me on a Tuesday afternoon and that would put a slight damper on my day.”

“Afternoon?” I asked her while chewing around the pancake, “Afternoon?”

“Yes, Styles. Thats what I said.”

I put the plate that I was holding down on our small kitchen bench before I walked out into living room to squint at the only other clock that we had besides our cell phones, only to confirm what Chelle had just said. I rubbed my hands over my eyes hoping that it was just an illusion and what I'd seen was wrong because if it was the truth, I'd missed all of my morning classes for the day.

“Three eleven? It can't be three eleven! I had classes from nine until two!”

“And you slept through them like a baby.”

“Fuck! Michelle why didn't you wake me up? What's the point of having an Ultimate Alarm if it's not going to be used?”

“Harry, remember that little chat we had yesterday about distress and the use of your nickname? And in order for me to wake you up, I would have had to been up too. Even if I was, I wouldn't be using the Ultimate Alarm to save you with the splitting hangover that I had,” Michelle shakes her head in clear disgust before she continued, “too loud.”

My eyes widened as I looked at my friend, bewildered, annoyed, and somewhere deep down, somewhat amused. I waved my hand between the two of us before I gave up and ran it over my face exasperatedly. This is not how I intended to start the year off. My hand ascended from my face to sliding through my hair in distress, “Thats the point of the alarm, Michelle. It's supposed to be loud. It's supposed to wake you up.”

“Harry, calm down. When we got to sleep it was like seven in the morning anyway. I don't know how you expected to be up, awake, and alert in class. Don't you have like seven others that you can go to tonight? Over achiever.”

“If I shower now I can make it to my organic chemistry class.”

“Gross.”

I looked over to Michelle and frowned before I continued, “ Thanks for throwing me off by the way, making pancakes at three in the afternoon and making me think that it was morning.”

“Whatever time of day that you wake up is morning to me. I was feeling like pancakes, so I made pancakes. You didn't seem to mind them by the way that you were eating them a few minutes ago, arsehole.”

The mention of the food reminded me of how dry my throat was and how alcohol will leave your mouth feeling like you'd guzzled sand if you consume enough of it. I felt like a raisin.

“Do we have anymore orange juice?”

"No. Sorry I finished that all yesterday morning when you almost killed me and Alison with that damn fog horn.”

“Alison?” I smirked at Michelle before I started to tease. "Usually a player doesn't remember a conquests name.”

“You would know," she retorted back while squinting her eyes, “ you used to be one. But don't worry, Harry. I'll get so good at it that you won't ever catch one of them leaving the next morning ever again. I'll be like a black widow or is it a praying mantises that kill all other intimacy as soon as they've finished with them? I'll send them on their way so that I can sleep in my bed alone. It'll be like a switch.”

Michelle grinned as she spoke, silently approving her idea as I thought about how lonely it sounded. It actually saddened me. Michelle isn't the type that can handle being cold hearted and callous enough to kick people out of bed. After being in a monogamous relationship for three years, I could tell that she was the type who craved intimacy. She deserved it. What she just explained to me sounded like eventually it would take its toll on her and she would break down like she did before, substituting my shirt sleeves for tissues.

I keep my opinions to myself, not having enough time before my next class starts to really sit down with her and talk about them. If it's one thing that I cherish about Michelle and I's relationship is that we can literally almost talk about anything, if we had the proper amount of time to do so. I shake my head at her before I head down the hall, calling back to her.

“I never was a player, Mitch. I just wasn't steady in my relationships like you.”

"Whatever you say, Harold. Please go put on trousers…I don't want to see your moose knuckle.”

****

I'd made it to my chemistry lecture on time, and though I tried my hardest, it was extremely difficult to keep my eyes open. Even though I'd slept past all of my morning classes, I still didn't get the best rest from sleeping on the floor. Michelle was irritatingly right again. The only thing that was really mentioned today since it was still the very beginning of the school year, was instruction and what the professor expected from us as a class, so when my eyes closed momentarily as I sat at the back of the room, I didn't feel so bad. Before I knew it the lecture was over and I was rustled awake my the movement of students as they gathered their bags to leave the room.

"You've got a bit of dribble there." A familiar voice laughed as I stepped out of the classroom I wiped my mouth sheepishly before smiling at her.

“Rion, hi how are you?”

“I'm good. Getting around campus well enough, but how are you? You look pretty worn out and its only the second official day of the school year. Did your tradition get the best of you last night? You've got imprint marks from your sweater on your face.”

My hand went to the side of my face that she pointed out, the imprints from my clothing giving away my previous position before I flashed her a quick grin and responded ,Um, uh yeah kind of. I may or may not have missed all of my classes this morning. Mitch didn't wake me up, bad influence I guess.”

“Mitch?”

"Oh, um sh- Mitch is just...Mitch is my roommate." I explained in a panic I didn't want to scare her off with the details. I think I might actually have a chance with Rion, if I don't put my foot in my mouth that is.

“Oh I see.”

Rion smiled at me and I didn't even realize that we've been walking and talking this entire time. Conversation flows easily with her even though I stumble over my words. I feel like I'm just remembering how to talk to the opposite sex besides Michelle and feel kind of pathetic, but Rion doesn't seem to mind as she continues to smile laugh and start on new topics of conversation.

“So how long were you out for?”

“I didn't go to sleep until seven this morning and my head was pounding when I woke up. I really have no one to blame but myself. I told my friends that I would only have one drink and ended the night on my ass. I still have to go back to the pub and get my car, because I had to end up walking home. How I got to the right apartment on the first try is a mystery to me.”

Rion giggled in a cute way before tucking a stray piece of hair behind her ear allowing me to see her features more. Her neck was slender and long, connecting to her shoulders delicately. She had a small tattoo that looked to be a ballet flat behind her left ear. Those tattoos placed just there always seemed like they might hurt, like they deserved to be kissed better even though the ache from the needle has been long gone. I could envision my lips on just that spot. I must have glanced at her just a bit longer than I should have causing a rosy hue to make its presence known on her cheeks. It made me smile before I quickly changed the subject this time, not wanting her to think that I was rude or weird for staring.

"How did your date go?"

She took deep breath before deciding if she wanted give a response or not and we ended up in the courtyard right before the student parking lot.

"It came and went, I suppose. Nothing really interesting to report. It sounds like I would have had more fun if I had taken the offer to go out for drinks with you. I'm usually not really big on drinking on the weekdays, but after that date I honestly might have taken a shot or four."

I smiled, selfishly happy that she didn't have a good time. I want to ask her out, but I feel like its too damn soon. I only met her yesterday anyway. Maybe its a good thing that she turned me down. When the time is right to ask her I'm sure I'll know. Hopefully I will.

"I'm sorry it didn't go as planned. Someone should take you out and show you a good time."

"Yeah, hopefully someone will sooner rather than later."

I think the emphasis that she put on the word someone was aimed at me, but I could be wrong. I don't know what else to say so I cap the conversation off with a , "Yeah" and mentally slap myself in the face before I grin awkwardly at her. I look around the parking lot as we come up to a white Toyota and she takes her keys out signaling that the tiny car is hers.

"Oh, well I'll let you go and get on with the rest of your day. Good seeing you."

"Okay, yeah." She responds quietly before she puts the key in the lock to open the door.

This has to be the most awkward I've felt in a while. I radiate awkward and though I don't want to believe it's because of what Michelle and the boys said, I'm kind of starting to think that they might be right myself.

"Wait, Harry?"

"Yes?" I turn my head to look over my shoulder before turning around to face her.

"I can take you to go get your car if you'd like. It looks like it might rain and it would suck if you were to get all wet."

All wet. I blush at her word choice and from that point on I know. Michelle, Niall, and Darragh were right.

"No. No its okay. You don't have to and I mean, don't you have other classes?"

She shakes her head and then opens her other car door, "I'm done for the day. Really I don't have a problem taking you. Get in."

I walk back towards her, thanking her and then giving her directions to the pub from the main campus. When we pull up, sure enough my car is there. Along with a ticket taped to the window for leaving it in the lot overnight. I sigh and rub my hands over my eyes before I get out and thank Rion again. Just as she's about to pull off, I call her name causing her to stop the car and reverse.

"Yes?" She looks at me eagerly with her eyes slightly widened and and traces of a grin on her face. I scratched my head out of embarrassment before I speak while pointing to the passenger side of the car.

"I left my book bag in your car."

"Oh, sorry. Here you go." The grin falls as she unlocks her car door so that I can get my bookbag. This time when she pulls off, I wave an awkward goodbye to her before getting in my car, knocking my head against the steering wheel in defeat causing the horn to honk.

[prettywordsyouleft]

for cc : favorite soft boys from kdramas? leads or supporting or both haha.

I had to think about this for a bit, hence why I didn't answer last night when I was part zombie, lol.

Here are my top 12 recommendations:

Angel's Last Mission: Kim Dan <3 I watched this last last year and I'm still in love with Myungsoo's character so much!! He was the first character to come to my mind when I read this post. I couldn't recommend watching this drama enough. It's amazing, I'm still in withdrawals from it. And it's even inspired my own angel au (though, mine will be quite different)

Flower Boy Next Door: I've watched this drama so many times! Basically anything Yoon Shi Yoon touches is gold, but the supportive ways of his character Enrique is totally swoon-worthy and will make you melt for him.

Because This Is My First Life: Namsee is a formidable male lead here. Lee Minki did an excellent job in creating a really believeable character who's introverted, yet will go the mile to make sure the woman he loves is okay.

Still 17: I think Yang Sejong's character Gong Woojin is amazing. Sure he's suffered a great deal and has a very closed-off persona throughout, but he's so caring for all those around him, and he looks out for everyone in his own quiet ways. 100% fell in love with him and wanted my own Woojin in my life, haha.

Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo: Nam Joohyuk in this was the cutest puppy like boyfriend ever. How could you not fall for Joonhyung?! Ugh. I still smile every time I think of him in this.

Run On: Siwan's character is adorably naïve yet a wonderful and refreshing main. I love how he develops throughout, yet doesn't lose that kindness for the people around him and supports them endlessly. Bless him so much.

Where Stars Land: This is one of my absolute favourite dramas, and whilst Jehoon's character gets REALLY angsty and admittedly, is still very juvenile from his past experiences... he genuinely cares for people, even if people have really messed up his world. Ugh, I love him and I want to rewatch it for the 43895784239th time lol.

Extraordinary You: Am I a Baek Kyung fan over Haru? YES. Did I think Baek Kyung was jipped despite having the BEST character growth in this world? YES. Still will I put Haru on this list for being the softest sweetheart known to comic book character creations? YES.

Just Between Lovers: this is my favourite Junho drama for a reason. If you put aside the angst, and the trauma (considering they're main themes of this story, it's a little hard to) you can see a guy who's really out here doing his best for the people he cares about. Seriously, this drama makes me so emotional.

Hotel Del Luna: some might say Chansung wasn't soft all the time, but he's steadfast, and really calms down Manwol a great deal, so I love him. Also, major props for Lee Dohyun's character in this - I loved him even more.

When the Camellia Blooms: I admit, I didn't finish this drama. I just... yeah we won't get into my problems with it here... but I'm sure Haneul's character and the word "soft" go together.

Mystic Pop-Up Bar: Sungjae's character is a blessing. In fact, the trio leading this show, together are a blessing. I cried and laughed so much. But looking at Kang Bae as a character... he's so soft and adorable and wants good things for everyone *sighs happily*

I bet there's more I could think of... but after sitting here staring at my kdrama list, I think I better stop here... hahhaha.

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[lovemesomesurveys]

“I’m going to stand on the ground like a skyscraper”

Is there a necklace that you wear all the time? No. I haven’t worn a necklace in years. How often do you wear skirts? Never. Do you enjoy baking? I used to, especially during the holidays. I haven’t done any baking the past few years, though. Do you have a large kitchen? No, it’s really small. Is anything sore on your body at the moment? Of course.

Do you like 3D movies? No. Where were you 3 hours ago? Sitting right here on my bed. Have you ever heard of Hot Chelle Rae? Yeah. I liked a couple of their songs. Do you know where Poland is? I know it’s in Europe. Are you afraid of dying? Yes. Are you wearing socks right now? Always. Do you speak your mind? I keep a lot to myself. If you found a wounded bird, what would you do? I honestly don’t know. I’ve never encountered a wounded bird. Ever rode on an elephant? No. Have you ever had braces? Yes, but not for my teeth.

“Cause I finally realize that I can’t get you off my mind”

Have you ever eaten a crayon? No. Do you like strawberries? Yeah. I haven’t had any in years, though. Wrestling or boxing? Neither. When's the last time you went to the mall? Last December. Have you ever gone Christmas Caroling? I have, actually. A few of us from the psych club I was in at my community college went caroling one year to a few different nursing homes. It was nice, they seemed to enjoy it. What song do you never get tired of? There’s numerous songs that will always be a favorite of mine. Do you have a favorite chef? No. Do you know who Travis Pastrana is? Yeah. What song pumps you up and makes you feel good? Hmm. What's bothering you right now? My back and the fact that I don’t feel well.

Favorite flavor of gum? Minty flavors. Does your school have air conditioning? How many mirrors do you have in your home? 5 that I know of for sure. That doesn’t include handheld mirrors, though. What does your wrapping paper look like for presents this year? I haven’t bought any, yet. Do you like Jay-Z? I’ve only liked a couple of his songs. However, the Linkin Park and Jay-Z collab album was/is dope.

“we’re gonna party like it’s your birthday”

What time was it 14 hours ago? 5:30PM. What's the craizest thing that happens in your hometown? Uh, high crime rates. :X Have any of your friends ever stabbed you in the back? Yes. What's your favorite city? Beachy, touristy cities throughout California. Have you ever laid on a hammock? I think I have as a kid. Who's the most famous person you met? Jamie Lee Curtis. Have you ever had a boyfriend/girlfriend stolen from you? No. Where do you want to live someday? Near the beach. I’d love to have a beach home one day. Do you like your eyes? I wish I had blue or green eyes instead. Do you wear a watch? Nope. Do you like peanut butter? Yes. Do you tan easily? If I spend a day at the beach I’ll sunburn and then it turns into a tan. That’s the only time I spend a long period of time outdoors. Do you have sensitive skin? Yes. Do you care if people smoke/drink? Not in general, no. If it becomes a problem then yes. Has anyone ever gives you roses? Nope.

“every little thing that you do, I’m amazed by you”

How many hours of sleep did you get last night? Sigh. I dozed off around 5AM and slept until 7AM and here we are now at 7:53AM. I don’t understandddd. D: I’m going to definitely attempt more sleep, but I have to call my doctor soon. Do you hate it when babies cry? If it’s loud and excessive it gets overwhelming and annoying. Would you like to get snake bites? (the piercing) Not now, but I wanted them back when I was like 16.  Would you move to a new state/country to be with the one you love? That’s one of those situations I’d have to be in to know what I’d do. It’s hard for me to even imagine cause I’ve never even been close to that before. It’s also hard for me to imagine ever moving far away from my family. I think I’d try to work something else out to be honest. Like, maybe they wouldn’t mind picking up and moving here? Why would I have to move?  What is your name? Stephanie. What do you plan on buying in the future? Christmas presents for my fam soon. Who is your favorite "That '70 Show" character? I don’t have one. I actually watched that show during its original run, but I tried again years later when I was older and couldn’t get into it. There is a mummy behind you. What do you do? Uh, run? What do you think of Miley Cyrus? I like her. Do you tend to think you are always right? Absolutely not. What was your favorite toy as a child? Barbies. I was obsessed. Do you think more about your funeral or wedding? Uh, neither.  Dinosaurs or unicorns? Unicorns, I guess. You need new jeans. Where do you go? I haven’t bought a new pair of jeans in years. I’d probably look at JCP first since that’s where I used to get them. I always found the perfect fit there. What do you think about Maroon 5? I like a lot of their music.

“someone pinch me, I must be dreaming again”

Have you ever snuck into an R-rated movie when you weren't old enough? Nah. How many Emily's do you know? I don’t know any. Have you ever slept in a tent outside? No. What's your favorite kind of Girl Scout cookie? I like all of ‘em really except for the coconut ones. Their newer cookie, Lemonades, are quite delicious. What do you hear at the moment? An ASMR video. Why do you think a lot of people left Myspace for Facebook? Facebook became cooler for some reason. I remember not wanting to make the move at all, I thought Facebook was lame lol. I just did it because everyone literally left. I don’t know about everyone else, but when it happened for me it was soon after graduating high school and Facebook was for college students, so I guess we just graduated from Myspace or something. *shrug* It’s crazy how quickly it flip flopped, though. Myspace became lame and now we all kinda laugh about it. Do you watch the Olympics? Nope. Have you ever been to Minnesota? No. What's the strangest thing you've seen on TV? Hmm. What do you miss most about elementary school? I miss being elementary school ages the most, but also school was fun back then. I liked the projects and music class and this thing called field day that we did on the last day of school every year that consisted of like relay games and whatnot. It was fun. Anything funny happen to you while you were at Wendy's? Uhh, no. I very rarely even go to Wendy’s. It’s been awhile. When's the last time you picked up a stick? I have no idea.

How often do you have camp fires? Never. I’d like to do bonfires in the fall.

“honestly, I haven’t been happy for a long time”

How long has your computer been on? Hours. Do you like chips and salsa? I used to love chips and salsa. I can’t eat spicy food anymore, though. :( Do you have any pictures of the guy you like? There’s no such guy at the moment. Ever touched a fish? I don’t think so. Maybe as a kid with my pet fish. When's the last time you uploaded pictures onto Facebook or Myspace? I uploaded a new profile picture last month on Facebook. Do you have any band-aids on right now? Nope. Ever had a blister? Yes. Not fun. Do you watch the show The Hard Times or RJ Berger? No. Have you ever voted for anything? Yeah, for elections and other smaller stuff. Do you like high top shoes? I can’t wear them cause they’re hard for me to get my foot into. Do you think those nerd glasses are cool? What are nerd glasses, exactly?

Do you own any t-shirts of your favorite band/singer? Yes. Have you ever worn a tie? No. Have you ever made dinner for someone? No, cause I don’t cook. Do you only listen to your muisc loud? No. I like to listen to it at a comfortable level. It varies, but never super loud.

“my give a damn’s busted”

Have you ever taken drama class? I actually did take two drama classes in community college. :O Shocking, I know. Have you ever rode a mechanical bull? Nooo. That would be very dangerous for me to do and I’d never even attempt it. Have you ever played on a basketball team? No. Ever stayed in a motel? Yes. What number was your jersey in high school? I didn’t have a jersey, I didn’t play any sports. Have you ever choked on something? Yes. I had one really traumatic experience that changed how I take my medicine ever since. That happened almost 10 years ago now, but ever since I’ve had to crush my pills. When I tried taking pills again not long after it happened, it literally felt like my throat was closing up every time and I was terrified of it getting lodged again. That day was really scary, my dad literally almost had to put his finger down my throat. Do you wear a belt? Nope, I only ever wear leggings. I’ve actually never worn a belt before, though. Do you have a rug in your room? No. Do you go camping during the summer? Nope. I have no interest at all in doing that. Do you carry a purse everywhere you go? Not anymore, but I used to. In most recent years it was a mini backpack. Where's your favorite place to get coffee? Honestly, I’m a basic bitch and just go to Starbucks, ha. It’s nearby and convenient and yeah. Plus, people hate on it but I actually like it. *shrug* I get really into it when they come out with their winter drinks, like they have now. I wish we had a Tim Hortons so I can see what that hype is all about. What's the last time you searched on Google? When’s the last time I searched on Google? Earlier. Which of these singers have the best voice: Katy Perry or Usher? I think they both sing well. They’re very different, you can’t really compare. What food is your weakness? Boneless garlic parm and lemon pepper wings from Wingstop. How many unread emails do you have right now? I don’t feel like checking at the moment.

[jjpmoans]

✉ For those who made my 2019

This is going to be long (or maybe not)

First and foremost, I’d like to thank everyone who has been following me since day 1 until the new year. I am thankful that you keep supporting me though I went missing a few times and I didn’t write much. I promise 2020 I will write more and give you more contents instead. 

To these people whom I hold very dearly to my heart. Talk to me on daily basis or once a week. 

@prettywordsyouleft💕 - Your url has become the top suggested if I were to tag anyone, meaning how important you are to me and how often we interact. I know I’ve told you this so many times, but I am glad I know you when I was new on Tumblr. I don’t know if you know this but you have a lot of people inspired by you than those who hates on you. The more successful you are, the more haters you’ll gain. I’d love to say that you are very inspiring and god, Chelle. My works here all started with you. 

@itsallabigmess💕 - This one right here, is my lifeline. If she’s gone then I’m gone. Everyday I pray that she will be fine, seeing how shitty 2019 has been treating her. You have become a significant person in my life, I immediately becomes a whiny baby whenever I talk to you. You make me feel like I have a real sister and really, I can’t wait to see you. I hope you will get better and return to write because I can’t wait reading more of your works!

@ahgase55g7💕 - This one right here has been a ghost for a few weeks because of her internship. She’s not a writing blog nor a content creator. But she is my partner in crime. The one that will rile chelle up whenever we have time. I miss tagging us in some random jinyoung pics because we have been too busy to be on tumblr. But be careful chelle, we might start tagging you again this year! This baby of mine is having a wonderful time (I hope) in US so I hope everyone can wish her goodluck on her internship!

@jj-nyoung💕 - I know I’ve driven you crazy in 2019 hahahahahaha. probably you’ve never thought of meeting someone this horny who wants to jump at jinyoung 25/8. But i hope you know that I enjoy teasing you bcs I love your reactions sooooooo, to more teasing and priest jinyoung in 2020? I love you and please don’t break yourself from working too hard!

@tuanyiems💕 - ems has a way of making my fingers curl at the slightest cheesiness. I learnt how cute she is and how cheesy she is ahahhahahahaa. her stories are gold, always making me feel in love with the characters. I am glad I meet you ems. Though we didn’t interact much, but I know that you will feel the same way like I feel. Like we aren’t obligated to interact 24/7 but I know that you’ll be there for me when I need you!

@riceeater22💕 - This one, the one I hold dearly. The one mutual that relates the most to me bcs of our nationality. The one who ‘kak!’ me in the chat and I’ll always excited to talk to her. We talked about a lot of things and I’m glad that you made my 2019 very interesting. The best part was when we got into a conflict but we straightened everything out. You’re one of the best thing that happens to me brea. love you.

@lamptastical💕 - this, the one who I had the most serious conversation with. Even a dick talk will become serious with this one hahahahahhaa. I love how she views everything and no being biased about the view, not romanticizing the acts and explain to me carefully about everything. You’re the best counselor I’d ever had. Thankyou for making my 2019 even more better.

@fairygyeom💕 - A lot of you know she’s been lurking on here now hahahahaha. Aia is a complicated one but once you crack her open, she’s a cute little girl who likes to deny everything until you give her a logical explanation. She’s not good at showing her emotion but she appreciates your act by acting bitchy instead hahahahhahaaaa. As much as I respect her decision to leave tumblr, I hope she’s here instead because I’d her to see how people has grown fonder of her fics and herself. Let’s hope aia will come back on 2020 okayy?

@mara-twins💕 - i remember you said to me ‘i like you! You’re so funny’ when we met through ems hahaahhaha. I’m glad we clicked right from the start and you even helped me in my teaching. Though I’ve been busy and didn’t get to talk to you much, I hope you know that I always support you and I hope that you will be alright. I hope 2020 will be better to you and probably more surprises!

@transparentweepingstudent💕 - ohh ishitaaaa! I remember when she came and talk to me how she loves my fic and all. Times flies and now she’s talking about jinyoung dick with me hahahahhahhaah. she is a permanent chat in my whatsapp now, proving how much she has been talking to me. I am glad how we went from anon to being friends. I am proud of you too when you succeed to post that fic! Hopefully you’ll gain more attention and getting lots of loves!

@kpopchangedme💕 - I remember meeting you when you were on shadow ban and damn you were really really down! But I love your fics too much to give up talking to you and now here we are, fighting over bang chan and jaebeom’s dick lol! I know, sometimes we just too busy to talk to each other but hand on lys! I’m coming for you in 2020!

@listlessmaenads💕 - I told you this but your url gives me a lot of dark vibes. I came across you probably through some mutuals but I definitely didn’t expect that we will be talking on daily basis and I am even involved in the family now hahahahahhaa. I am glad that you are there, kat. And I feel like having older sisters where they correct me when I’m wrong but also let me go on horny spree bcs they just love watching me horny hahahahahahha (thats you and val EARLIER!) 

@defsenses💕 - You! I don’t know where to start. I have faint memory of how we met, of how i even met you. But all I know, we were suddenly in a group chat! and were talking about jaebeom and jinyoung and all. I know we aren’t the closest yet and I’m very jealous of aya talking a lot to you but I have resolutions that I’ll talk more to you and let aya gets jealous of me ahhahahahaahhaa (see my evil plan??) thank you val. I don’t know how if I didn’t meet you and we just see each other’s url in the timeline but didn’t say hi.

@ayasmess💕 - from anon to sudden yelling at me, you surprise me everyday!  this one, is my personal cheerleader. I remember I got anon from her, saying how she love my fics and she admires me, ngl, I teared up. No one ever told me that and as a smut writer, I am used to my readers come and go, bcs smut writers provide smuts and only smuts. People don’t really get engaged talking about smuts compare to people sending asks about fluffs and all. So when I got that ask, I stared at it real hard and I can’t believe it. She guides me through heavy days, hyping me up and always always be teasing me. but when its her turn to be teased, she’ll be running away, scared. I love how you open up to me and warming up to others. I hope people shower you with loves and whoever hurts you, will get my fist to their face.

@softseunies💕 - from dearbeommie to softseunies, I never thought I would be talking this much to her. And even meeting her as soon as talking to her (yes I met her) and I wonder what will happen if we didn’t approach each other. She’s just a few miles away from me and I will still be oblivious to her existence. I love when she wants my feedbacks on her stories because she is insecure of how people view her work. But best believe, you won’t get works like hers somewhere else.

@beomslut7💕 - SHE IS IMPOSSIBLE. HAHAHHAHAHHAHA. Elsa is everything you need as a fried. You want her to hype you up? Wait for it. You want her to talk about dick? Bring it on. You want her to give you imagines? Right up! Hahahahhhahaa. Even though we met in short time, damn, I think the amount of sins piling up in our chat are unforgivable. and its just for a few months!

To those who made my days and I hope to get to know you better this year 

@stargyeom @jinyoungsir @wikihoeofgot7 @arsyeong @shimshimsz @babybirdgyeom @writingsfromtheseaside @twinmoles @girlonpanic @got7-markjinson @inyournightmares97 @defnabeom

i hope we will talk more in 2020 and become closer than 2019! Honestly, knowing you guys are absolutely exciting so i look forward to more interactions!

To my anons and mutuals that we haven’t interacted, please, I won’t bite. Come talk to me! I hope 2020 will be the year where you meet new friends and share new mutuals. Hopefully 2020 is a happy year!

Happy New Year peeps! To more moments with you guys!

[ladymatt]

Alec Lightwood Ask Game

Tagged by the incredible @intangibel to do this unusual Ask!❤ Here goes! 

1. Archer boy - What is a skill that you know you are objectively good at? In other words, what’s your thang?

Writing mildly-humorous poems - with a smutty 35-verse ode to Malec being a personal favourite! LMAO! Idk, maybe I should’ve said untying knots?! 🤣

2. Consul - If you could get some serious life advice from a leader (real or fictional) who you gonna annoy?

King Aragorn II (LOTR) - so I could absorb his hard-earned wisdom (which he’d deliver in that soft, poetic way of his), while also absorbing his beautiful face! 👑

3. Doubtless repellent brat - What is one thing about you other people find annoying? Spill!!!

Asked my eldest this and he says I’m stubborn - he’s not wrong (but being the nearest to me in character, so is he)! Hubby could only come up with my snoring - but that’s out of my control, so I’m basically flawless in his eyes, right? 😉  Anyway, I’ll go with holding grudges - if you’ve passed judgement on me or mine, it WON’T be forgotten - or forgiven! 👿

4. Big brother - What is an inside joke you have with your siblings?

Nothing springs to mind, I’m afraid! 🤔

5. Gay mess - When was the first time you saw someone of the same sex and went daaaaaaayuuuuuuuuuum?

Olivia Newton-John in Grease - that transformation! 👀

6. Fool’s Prince - You have one (1) date to impress your crush. Whatcha gonna do, boo?

I’m a great believer in simple pleasures, so it wouldn’t cost the Earth, involve extensive travel or distract from conversation - maybe try a fun activity neither of us have done before so we’re on a level footing, can talk and if it turns out to be a disaster, you’ve tried a new experience anyway! *Can you tell I’ve been married for 20+ years?*😅

7. Not-Your-Bitch - What is one quality you will not tolerate in other people? What makes your blood boil like maggi noodles?

Just one? Because I’ve got a few pet peeves when it comes to anti-social behaviour! Don’t worry, I’ll spare you my too-old-for-this-shit list of gripes and go with bad manners! Why? Because they don’t cost anything, and when used they invariably show consideration for others that can be priceless in these very selfish times - I’m old-fashioned like that! Sweeping generalisations is a VERY close second though! 😤

8. Gideon - Is there a family member/relative/ancestor you look up to? Whomst is this?

I mean, I love my family and admire their individual talents and traits but there’s no one person I’d single out for hero-worship! 😂 

9. Parabatai - If you can become best buds with a fictional character, which hot piece of ass are you gonna choose?

My bone-deep love of Magnus Bane is the polar opposite of platonic, so he’s ruled out of this one! Instead, I’m going to choose someone who loves music, movies, video games, has a great sense of humour, is loyal, fun, compassionate, a great listener and would see you at your worst and still stick around - and that’s Simon Lewis! Surprised, huh? 💕

10. Alexander - What’s your name and what the fuck does it mean?

Well, I and my fellow namesakes can justify calling ourselves ‘God’s gift’ because Michelle is the feminine form of the Hebrew name, Michael, which means - Close to God, Who is like God?, Gift from God. I’ve been addressed as Mich (Meesh), Mitch and M, but family call me ‘Chelle (Shell) or Mammy/Mamz! 💘 Also, aside from the references to ‘beauty,’ ‘flawlessness’ and being ‘outgoing’ - Urban Dictionary’s top definition for ‘Michelle’ is me in a nutshell! 👍

💜I’m tagging all who are interested in doing this!💜

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Forbidden - Part 3 (Dimon Romantic)

The story can also be found on Wattpad You can find the previous chapters here Feedback is greatly appreciated. I went to the bathroom and finally took the much needed shower from the night before. The whole dorm was still densely filled with the smoky-alcoholic scent so I also made sure to open all the windows and doors to get some fresh air in there. “Got any suggestions where to go?” – I yelled through the bathroom door before starting the shower. “How does Starbucks sound?” – Chelle replied from her room. “Works for me.” – I said back and proceeded to wash my body Starbucks was both Chelle and I’s favorite spot for a morning coffee, the café was located in a very nice area, quite close to the centre and was easy to get there on foot from the dorm. The smell there was also blissful, nothing better than a banana cake to match the strong coffee aroma. It was the best time to go out and sit there, especially on such sunny days when the tables outside were available. On the not so bright side though, we could only go there like 2 times per week without going bankrupt. I love those guys but man, are they an expensive place. At the end of the day, I am a student and that meant being on a strict budget and having zero freedom. I put my hair in a high ponytail, and quickly put on a pair of jeans and my favorite oversized t-shirt saying “I’m sorry for what I said when I was hungry”, a present from my sister Dallas, the second biggest weirdo on this planet after me. I noticed I also had dark circles under my eyes, so now the choice was either for some make up or for the big sunglasses. “Demi, are you ready?” – I hear Chelle asking, meaning she was done with her preparations. Well, it will be the sunglasses, then. “Yup, a second” – I replied, putting the last few pins on my hair and spraying a bit of perfume around my neck. “Okay, let’s go” – I told her, letting go of my door handle and going to the front door. The way to the café was a short 10-minute long walk, but we could still notice some leftovers from the few parties that were hosted yesterday. The most common type of garbage was the occasional McDonalds’ huge paper bag or Subway’s sandwich wraps and napkins. It looked as if the rubbish bags were out of stock in this country, a horrible mess. We reached the coffee shop and picked a nice cozy table in the corner on the right. Thankfully not too many people had come yet so the tables outside were still not all taken. Our seats weren’t in the middle of the hustle and bustle if I may call it like that, yet they were also close to the inner part of the café so we wouldn’t need to walk too much with the purchases in our hands. Chelle and I sat on the table and we both started flipping the pages of the menus, as if we didn’t know it all by heart by now. I was certainly gonna be having a frappe today, it was hot AF and the alcohol was still running in my system, so I was sweating like a mine worker. Not the biggest fan of ice coffee, but the situation was of a pressing matter. I turned a few pages further, the breakfast items didn’t look too bad either, the question was if I was actually hungry or just wanted to have a snack though. I thought about having a coffee cake, but that usually bloated me up a lot, so I would rather have the white chocolate chip cookie. It was not too heavy and it usually did cover me well when the sweet tooth hit me with cravings, so I was good with it. “Alright, I can go in there and get the stuff, can you stay here and keep the table?” – Chelle asked a few minutes later. “Yeah that’s cool. Can you get me a frappe and a chocolate chip cookie, with white chocolate chunks though?” “Sure, be right back. Watch my stuff there.” “Here, take 10, should be just enough” – I handed her the bill. Chelle went inside and I plopped myself back on my chair. The day was beautiful; lots of the students from our uni or the few others in town were out as well. Sunday was the day of procrastination and it did hold a very truthful rule for students: If you put it off for Sunday, it won’t happen, dude. At some point a pretty loud noise for my still hangover head came from the road. I turned around to see a black car pull over on the other side of the street. It was a type of car that was pretty rare to notice in Boston or in the states in general, quite low over the road and with a foreign registration plate. It did resemble a very familiar car that I had definitely paid attention to before. If you’d ever watched “Gone in 60 seconds”, then you would know it too – a British Jaguar. How did I know? That was Marissa’s favorite movie and therefore my least favorite one, because we’d watched it like a billion times. The only difference here was that this car was a lot newer – a model I couldn’t name for sure. I kept my gaze on and saw the person on the driving seat fidgeting with something and then opening the door. The driver stepped out, but kept his head towards the car. It seemed as if he was looking for something, until he finally found it and grabbed it from inside. I wondered what it was like to have that much money and to be able to afford such comfort. Surely I was now in a position where finances were not the greatest developing aspect of my life, but that would change later on hopefully. I would love to buy stuff without having to look at the price tag and not worry about it. Just to be impulsive, like: a Jaguar? Yes, please. That car was worth about a million dollars last time I checked. I re-focused my look over to the driver and realized I had seen this man before. Not only that, I had actually known him and already spoken to him. That was Mr. Cowell, my Music Production lecturer. And also the man whose car - probably one of his many, I kicked. And if that wasn’t awkward enough, the man I had the audacity to call ‘a fool’. He was very casually dressed this time – in just a white t-shirt and some jeans, no trace of the formal black blazer he was wearing at the university. He was also wearing a pair of dark ray-bans and was puffing on a cigarette, whilst slowly making his way to internal part of the café. At this point I actually wondered what the best thing to do was: hide from him behind my bag, bury my face in my phone and pretend I never saw him, greet him with a simple nod or step into the dangerous zone of another possible embarrassment and talk to him. In case you wondered why would I talk to him – because I wanted to apologize!? If my math was right, he would be my lecturer for quite some time, and feeling this awkward for so long was something I’d rather pass. Anyway, the problem here was that instead of actually following one of the scenarios I thought of, I was doing probably the worst I could have right now – I was looking, actually I was staring at him as if I was bewitched, with my mouth slightly opened and my chin propped onto the fingers of my hand. Good thing was I was still wearing my sunglasses and so was he, so there was still a chance he didn’t just catch me watching him like some weirdo. He reached the entrance of the café, took the cigarette off his mouth and dogged it in an ashtray on a nearby table on the porch. Once he pinched it off, he carefully lifted his gaze and for a moment looked into my direction. My immediate reaction was to look down for good 3-4 seconds, only to make my sunglasses fall down and hear the cracking sound of them hitting the ground. So much for your strategies, Demetria. I clumsily moved the table to pick them up and saw he was getting inside once I did. My face went deep red; could this have gone any more wrong? I silently hoped there was someone else his eyes were on, but when I looked around, there was no one neither behind me nor closer than 2 tables away. So chances were somewhere between very small and absolute zero. “Sorry I took so long, but there is such a long line, and oh they wrote my name wrong on the cup, so they had to change it…” – Chelle said coming to me, almost out of breath, putting the purchases on our table and taking her seat. “There you go with your drink and the cookie” – She said again, handing me my items. “Thanks Chelle.” - I said kind of distracted. “Since when are you a fan of frappes?” – She asked me. “Yeah I’m not but now it is a bit hot so I will try it out.” – I said, taking my sunglasses off and waving my hand to bring some wind to my still heated face. “Are you alright? You look nervous.” – Chelle asked. “No, nothing” – I replied, mixing my drink with the straw. A few minutes later I saw Mr. Cowell coming out on the porch from the inside part of the café, carrying two cups of coffee, only this time it was not just him, now he was accompanied by a tall blond female. She was wearing a short grey skirt and a top that was outlining her boobs quite clearly. She looked as if she was taken straight out of a magazine cover. I wondered if this was the type of women he was into. They made their way outside and quickly chose their seats, a single table distance across from us. I was facing her back and his seat was positioned in a way that we both could see each other directly. I now started to regret taking my shades off. “Dems, come on, what is it? You seem kind of lightheaded.” – Chelle asked me once again. “How come?” “You seem to not even be listening to me?” “I am, sorry, it is just…” – I said uncomfortably, looking at Simon’s table and then back at her. “What?” “I will tell you, but promise me you won’t look” – I warned in a very quiet voice. “Not look at what?” “Shhh! Okay, Mr. Cowell is sitting right across our table” “What? Where? ” – Chelle asked a lot louder than I would’ve preferred. A few people from the other tables turned their heads towards us. “Don’t shout, he’s going to hear you! There, right behind you.” - I yell-whispered at her. Chelle slowly turned her head, pretending to be fixing her hair and noticed him along with the woman that was sat on the same table. “Woah, talking about appropriate skirts” – She commented, lifting her eyebrows in amusement. “I know.” – I replied, doing the same grimace. “Are you alright?” – She asked me. “Sure, just surprised, though” – I shrugged my shoulders. “Anyway, so tell me about the guy from yesterday, he texted you in the morning didn’t he?” – I asked her, pointing at her phone. Although I had no interest in the guy she hooked up with yesterday, I knew I had to change the topic. I couldn’t possibly talk about Simon the whole afternoon; I mean who talked about their lecturers all the time? Not even geeks did. I asked Chelle more about him, letting her show me photos of them together from last night and share some unnecessary details for me to know. She was quite caught up onto the subject, and despite the fact I should have probably listened to her, I didn’t. I was barely paying attention to her and was occasionally nodding just to confirm I was a part of the conversation. My mind was busy with the man sitting on the table behind my friend. There were two factors creeping into my head constantly though: One was the common sense, telling “He is your lecturer” and two was the guilt, following with “Why is your lecturer such interest to you?” I mean how should I even define this? In general I have always been quite an impulsive person, so yelling at him on that first day we met was no surprise. Okay, the following actions were a bit too aggressive, I take that. But now what? He was offended, didn’t like me, like any other person also wouldn’t. I, on the other hand, was apparently feeling homesick; having the guy I’m in love with thousands of miles away from me, I was looking for comfort. Man’s comfort. That was the only reason behind my strange thoughts. In the meantime I noticed both Simon and the woman stood up. He pointed at the engine to her and motioned that he was going to join after going inside first. She quickly nodded and walked towards the car, whilst he went for the café bar. I followed him with my eyes before turning to Chelle. “Excuse me for a bit.” – I told her and adjusted my shirt. “Where are you going?” – She questioned surprised. “To the bathroom, be right back”- I said, leaving my seat. I got inside the café bar and saw Simon standing at the counter, placing an order for a take out. I pretended to be looking at the cakes behind the glass, standing a few feet away from him. In my ideal world, he would have turned around; I would have greeted him politely, maybe make some small talk and bring him under a somewhat good impression of me. Actually any impression that was better than the one of being a rude, aggressive bitch I had given. That was my goal right now. In reality though, after receiving his order, he was way too busy fixing the 5 items on his hands to pay any attention to me. He kept his head down the whole time, careful not to drop anything on the floor. He passed by me and did not acknowledge me even one bit, his eyes focused on the drinks. He had two drinks in each hand and a cake, which he supported against his chest. He was also mumbling something to himself while looking down, something I couldn’t fully figure out, but it was along the lines “yeah I can carry the office drinks, don’t help me”. Needless to say, I was quite disappointed of not getting the chance to talk to him. I did try to I don’t know, establish some kind of a contact, but it didn’t go as planned. To be honest, it was probably not only the lack of luck, but also the fact that he most likely didn’t want to talk to me. I couldn’t blame him, though. Perhaps it was for the better. Asking for his attention wasn’t a good idea, regardless. As I was about to make my way out to the table and Chelle, I accidentally noticed something, which looked like a small folder, standing by the edge of the counter. I looked over to the staff members, but neither of the them had noticed it yet. I guessed it was because it was left on the front side of the bar. I slowly approached the counter to see it was an open leather wallet. My first thought was to hand it over to the bartender and say I found a lost belonging. Probably what every normal human being would have done. Probably what I should have done. Instead, I decided to check it out on my own first, without giving it much of a thought. I squinted my eyes to see the beholder's name over the documents, only to confirm the doubts I'd had. On the front side of the wallet there was a driver's license, along with a photo and personal details of the beholder - Simon Philip Cowell. This time the question in my head was judged way less by morality and more by motivation. “What are you going to do about it?”

[ask-jaq-and-chell]

(I completely forgot to post about this on my Jaq & Chell blog I am so sorry) 

A month and a half ago, a massive Cypress tree branch fell on my car around 10:00 in the morning, the day after Spring Semester college classes started. 

The top was completely crushed and there was hood damage and electrical damage that ended up draining the battery only a few hours after the incident. There was still another dangling branch hanging overhead and I jumped in my car and moved it out of the way. (I have a family of four, and we do not have room in our garage, so my brother and I have to park on the street.) 

Technically that tree is part of a park, meaning its County property. It took me around two weeks to sort everything out with my insurance company, and I got half the original price of my car. I made an attempt to contact the county and see if they’d help pay some of the rest (or at the very least the 1K deductible)...but they basically told me to F*ck off. Suing is too much work, but it was certainly on the list of things to do, since this park across the street has screwed us over multiple times in different ways before. /:( 

Anyhoo, I have wonderful neighbors, family, and friends. A great support group that has let me borrow their cars to get to school, ect.. However, not having a car that is truly your own, especially when I’m unemployed and nearing the end of my college years is not good. I have the sweetest relative that is gonna help fund a new car for me, and I hope I can figure out how to repay her back someday soon.

But I’m still no where near done with all this. Mid semester is in two weeks and I’ve had a lot of projects. I have been neglecting my art and all my comics the past few months. I think I got depressed and got art block through all this so I haven’t been keeping up with everything very well. So that will probably explain my absence on this blog. I love this blog so much though, you guys have no idea how sad I am that I haven’t gotten around to all the asks yet. 

Also the weather here is still pretty bad. Every few days we have a massive windy rain storm. We’ve gotten hail, flooded roads, trees are uprooting, dozens of tree branches are breaking. Power lines have gone out/went down. Two weeks ago the power went out in my neighborhood for a full 19 hours. The company took that long to figure out the problem. Neighborhood fences including mine have been blown over. Literally they are just in shambles, tipping at 40 degree angles if not completely collapsed. I don’t even have to mention how cold and muddy it’s been getting here either. My family is paranoid about more trees falling. One nearly hit my neighbor’s house behind me by a foot. So its been very dreary here too. I can’t get out an walk around much as I used to, and my garden is absolutely destroyed. I’m frankly surprised my window hasn’t shattered from the sheer force of wind yet. I don’t know when this weather will let up, but its been pretty dangerous. My friend and I have skipped college classes at least three times now because of dangerous weather conditions. SOS from California! 

I have no idea when all this will finally come to pass and when I’ll feel like myself again. So much has changed in the past few months its been tough to catch up to it all, but I’m certainly not giving up on anything. I hope I can get back to updating this blog again soon. Jaq, Chell, and I are thanking all of our followers. You guys are such sweet and creative people. I tease you so much with my replies to your asks. I can only hope what I have in store for this blog in the future will be fun to follow along with! In the meantime though, we thank you for patience with us! 

~Hezu, Jaq, and Chell 

///I also have a Patreon and Kofi set up incase any of you would like to support me financially. Whether you do or don’t, I’m still just so happy to have you guys enjoy my work! 

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He Cums Back

A/N: This is in relation to the post by @thehonorablekingerik. It’s not exactly the same but the post reminded me a lot of it. The event surrounding this story is true. I was only 17 when i wrote this. Enjoy.

 I turned eighteen four months before my ex-boyfriend died.  He called me on my birthday asking for sex to celebrate.  I was thankful that he remembered, but I turned him down. He was crazy for thinking that I would lose my precious virginity to someone that I doubted even loved me anymore. We dated seventh, eight and tenth grade. Granted all the times we broke up were my fault, except for the last time. The last time had been his fault, for the very first time. So I moved on without him, my senior year coming to an end. But then I got the phone call that Alexander was dead.  After going to his funeral earlier that afternoon, I lay surrounded by the purple comforters of my black metal day bed, listening to the Quiet Storm on the local radio station and the real storm going on outside of my window.  My mother and step dad were asleep in the room next door to mine, having long retired. The only light in my room came from the florescent flower inside of a black box lamp that played sweet nursery rhyme music when wound up.  There was a crash of lightening and then the doorbell rang. I wondered who it could be this late at night. I checked the clock in the dark hallway on my way to the door. It was one in the morning. This wasn’t like me; it was way past my bed time. I opened the front door, the door that lead directly from the living room to the outside, and a gust of cool air hit my bare legs.  All I wore was a black t-shirt with my high school’s mascot on the front. I had forgotten to grab the matching sweatpants. Luckily for me, there was no one there. I cut the porch light on and looked around. My Golden Retriever, that sat guarding the back door that lead to the kitchen, came around form the back porch to see what was going on. I shook my head, explaining away my actions to him, and closed the door. Maybe I had fallen asleep without knowing it. I must have heard the doorbell in a dream.  I went back into my room closing the door, gently as possible, behind me.  I turned around ready to go back to bed, but there was a dark figure standing right in front of me.   I opened my mouth to scream, but a large hand covered my lips.  It was Alexander.   “Don’t scream” he said taking his hand from over my mouth.  I tried to back out of the room, but the door was closed and there was not enough space to open the door. He seemed to be all around me and I was trapped against the wall. “This is just a dream,” I said  squeezing my eyes shut and I began to cry.  “Does this feel like a dream?” He asked.  And then he kissed me.  His lips were soft and warm, unlike when I touched them just this afternoon while he lay in his casket.  I thought about the casket and tried to scream again, but his wet tongue was running back and forth over my lips. I felt my body tremble and give way to him.  Alexander pressed his full weight up against me.  He had always been built like a Mack truck with bulging muscles in his arms and thighs. I could also feel the hardness of his dick pressing against my left thigh through his baggy jeans.  “What are you doing here?”  I whispered enjoying the tongue lashing he was giving my neck. He always loved to suck and lick on my body, even when we were way too young to be doing the stuff that we did. But I loved it even more. His pink tongue gliding over my skin felt like heaven then and it did now.   Alexander let go of my body and looked into my eyes. “I just came to get what’s mine,” he said plain and simple. My firth thought was that he was going to kill me. I shut my eyes tightly and silently prayed because I was way too young to die. My poor mother would find me in this room, her only child, dead! But I opened my eyes, when I realized I was still alive, and watched as he walked over to my bed and began to undress. First his shoes, then his t-shirt, then the jeans.  Finally his eyes met mine as he removed his boxer shorts. He was erect and at full attention.  “Come here,” he commanded and as if in a trance, I did. I couldn’t speak and the urge to scream had left a few seconds ago as he held my hand in his and looked as if there was something he needed to say. Instead of talking though, he gripped my waist with his long dark fingers and pushed my body back on to the bed. He lay down on top of me and kissed me deeply. We played tug of war with our tongues as he caressed my thighs with his strong hands. I could feel them smoothly travel past my black silk panties to my stomach, then on to my breast that eagerly awaited his touch.  He squeezed first as if testing the ripeness. Then his fingers found my nipples. They were hard and sensitive before he even touched them by gliding his thumb over each one, then squeezing them between his thumb and forefingers. I moaned and squirmed under his weight.  Alexander sat up suddenly and pulled me up with him. He removed my t-shirt, leaving me in just my panties. He grabbed my short hair, pulling my head back so that my neck was fully exposed to his mouth. He attacked my throat like a vampire leaving the skin tight and sore. I knew little red marks would eventually form on that vicinity of my body down to my chest.  I could feel his eyes burning holes into me as he licked first the right nipple. I moaned trying my best to be quiet, I had no desire to for anyone to find me in this states. Not only was there the fact that I was making love in my mother’s house, but I didn’t really know who or what I was making love to. There had to be a special place in hell for this kind of stuff.  My nipple was growing so tight it was becoming painful.  His tongue was strategically placed in between my breast now as he fondled both nipples before moving his mouth onto the left one.    “Lay down,” he said coming up for a just a little air. I lay down, closed my eyes, and felt my panties being slipped off with just one finger. They were unwrapped from around my feet and tossed to the floor. There were more soft kisses on my lips, prompting me to reach out and caress his swollen dick. But he pushed my hand away and whispered, “No,” into my mouth, simultaneously removing his tongue and gliding it down the length of my body. At my pussy, he stopped to plant soft kisses where stubble had formed from a close shave. His lips wrapped around mine as if they were kissing him back while he held my thighs completely apart so that he could attack my clit with a hungry viciousness.  This was the first thing anything like this had ever been done to me. I hoisted myself up on my elbows to get a good look at his head working between my legs. His face burrowed deep into my pussy as he lapped away at my clit like it was his last supper. I felt the tingling start in my toes. I curled them up and tried to lift my butt up off of my cold sheets to get away from Alexander’s tongue, but he held me down with his body as he inserted his middle finger into my sopping wetness. His tongue and hand worked together as I came a sweet and agonizing cum on his face and finger.  I lay back on the bed exhausted, but not ready for this to end. My breath, once labored, was slowing down to a normal pace until I could feel his tongue the trail that my cum made from my pussy to my ass. He was licking me clean, even lifting my leg up and over my head to get the job done thoroughly. All I could do was claw at my bed sheets when his tongue began to probe my hole, in and out. Probes became sucks and I felt my heart stop.  Alexander sat up on his knees and spread my legs even further apart. They seemed to be all over the bed by now, numb. He pulled my body by my hips to him and wasted not a second, thrusting tenderly into me. I tried my best to get away from the dull pain as he penetrated where no man had gone before, but he gently pulled by body back to him again. Sweet pain turned into the feeling of fullness that seemed to incase more than just my womb, but my whole being as he rode my body. I watched him watching the meeting of pussy to dick over and over again. Effortlessly he put my limp legs over his shoulders and methodically rubbed my throbbing clit.  I shuddered as I felt myself exploding again. For the first time, a moan escaped him as I came on his dick, wetting him and warming him, he began to move faster in me. His thrusts were deep and strong, sweat mingled with sweat, and his moans became louder as did mine. My parents in the next room were totally forgotten.  His embrace became tighter and I could feel his muscles tighten as warmth seeped into every crevice of me. “Mmm,” we sighed breathlessly into the drenched skin of each other’s body.   “I love you,” Alexander whispered into my ear as he collapsed on top of me. His warm breath covered my face. His cum mingled with mine and dripped down my thighs. The only thing missing was the beating of his heart.  I woke up the next morning alone and naked in my bed. I hurried to put my shirt on and conceal my lower body with my disarrayed bed covers just as there was a knock at my door. My mother opened the door without an invitation. She eyes me suspiciously. I felt guilty. “You sure were making a lot of noise last night.”  I shook my head. “I just kept having the same dream over and over again. I didn’t sleep very good.” I flopped back down on the bed, put the covers over my head and pretended to try to retrieve my lost sleep. She closed the door.  I smiled to myself as I leaned over the edge of the bed and retrieved my panties from under it. That’s when I saw Alexander’s clothes on the floor along with his shoes. I picked up his shirt and breathed the scent of him deeply into my lungs.

© 1995 Chelle Morgan

[hannah-heartstrings]

May I Have This Dance? (Chelley Oneshot)

Sparks fell from the ceiling onto the white floor of the test chamber. Though well-lit and still usable the whole thing looked broken down, a missing tile here, vines hanging there.

High above the rest of the room was a small platform with a big red button in the floor and a closed door. Landing on the platform Chell took a few steps as momentum carried her forward. She dropped a cube onto the button and the door opened.

“That’s a new record!” said GLaDOS, her tone light. “…For the slowest you’ve done so far.”

Chell tried to ignore her as she went through the door. In the elevator she leaned back on the wall and closed her eyes to rest if only for a second. While her muscles and mind were wearing down her heart just kept speeding up, making it hard to catch a breath. Much like the facility she was still running while feeling broken down.

She felt the elevator stop and pushed herself out of it; if Wheatley could do what he kept saying he would then they’d both be out of here soon, she just had to keep going.

Stepping into the test chamber she looked it over noting all the components, a moat of goo, a button on a stand, a funnel for dropping cubes, a-

“Psst.”

She stopped. What was that?

“Over here,” there was a whisper.

Following the sound she found a wall panel removed with Wheatley peeking through it.

He waved his lower handle, gesturing her to come closer.

Scanning the room again she found the camera and shot it down.

“Really?” GLaDOS drug out. “I thought we were passed this.”

“I didn’t find a way out” he whispered once Chell was close enough, “but I did find something.” A panel below moved and he disappeared into the darkness.

She crouched through and followed to a small barely lit room.

“Tadaa!” he spread his handles out. “I thought it’d be a nice place to sit and rest and take your mind off your imminent death. Look,” he scooted back to look down at some cubes with a radio on one, “there’s even some relaxing music. I’m surprised it still works, everything else is broken.”

It wasn’t much but she was grateful for it, she smiled at him. Plopping down on one of the cubes she set the portal gun beside her and stretched out her arm, wiggling the cramped fingers.

“There you go, rest those muscles, they’re probably tired.”

She untied the jacket from around her hips and used it to wipe the sweat from her face.

“I wouldn’t know though, I don’t have any; well I do, just not physical ones, mine are more… metaphoric.”

She dropped the jacket on the gun. Looking at Wheatley she noticed his gaze dancing around the room, looking as restless as she always felt, even in a cubby away from the test chambers Aperture never felt safe. The music wasn’t helping that, she thought; the slow tune and somber tone made the light flickering on the dirty walls look even more eerie.

She turned the dial, getting a variety of static until she found a tune. There was still static in the background but it had an upbeat tempo. As she closed her eyes and listened gradually her heartbeat calmed down, her foot started swaying in time. Glancing to the core she saw he was still looking around as if he expected something to jump out at them. He’d helped her calm down but was unable to himself.

She jumped up and held a hand out to him.

“What?” he glanced from it to her face. “What’s that for?”

With her other hand she motioned to the radio.

He looked to it, to her, to the radio again; the light in his eyes shrunk as it dawned on him. “Are you asking me to dance?!”

She nodded.

“But I don’t have any feet, not even two left ones!”

Taking his lower handle she came closer till her face was right in front of his eye. Slipping an arm around him she pulled him back a step, then stepped forward, scooting him along his rail. She turned them to the side then again before stepping back and forth.

After a moment he seemed to be calming down and she no longer had to drag him, instead he moved with her.

She smiled at him.

He pulled the plates over his eye up to smile back.

She stepped back at arm’s length then forward again.

“Um,” he glanced around nervously, “shouldn’t I dip you or something?”

Turning to the side she leaned back, moving the arm around him to his top handle so she wouldn’t fall as she dipped herself.

He leaned towards her, looking sideways to see her face.

After staying like that for a second they started laughing.

She righted herself, pausing as she heard the song end. A slow tune started. She wrapped her arms around him, settling her head against his side.

He looked confused at her arm and followed it up to her head. He smiled. He turned and started swaying them side to side.

They closed their eyes, for a moment able to pretend they were somewhere else, somewhere safe and calm.

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Chapter 2: The Island (Dawn)

Ugh, shit…

My eyes fluttered open, struggling against each painful flash of light. Outside in the distance, the sea sparkled under the blinding sun.

What time was it? How did I get back to the villa? And what happened last night? I racked my brain for something but the effort only made my head throb. Why couldn’t I remember? I let out a long breath, already exhausted. Details about last night would have to wait— I’m pretty sure Erin won’t be able to keep quiet about whatever I’d done anyways.

Groaning, I rolled onto my back, taking in more of the room around me. I noticed right away the wood paneled wall at the other end of the bed. Something was off. I’d picked a room with all white walls—that I could recall. I propped myself up, confused, sensing the tenderness in my body as soon as I did. What? Why was I so sore? Anxiety started building up in me as every little move I made revealed more troubling clues about god-knows-what I’d done last night.

My breath quickened as I struggled with the bedsheets. I already knew what I would find, and even though I was dreading it, I had to make sure.

I was naked— except for my diamond choker which I wouldn’t count as cover. My aching mind raced. This could only mean one thing—the one thing I couldn’t remember. I stared accusingly at the pillow beside the one I’d used. Ignoring the dull pain in my muscles, I reached for it and sniffed, catching trace of an appealing, musky scent.

Men’s cologne.

In that moment, I noticed the faint sound of the shower running in the bathroom. Whoever I’d slept with was in there. But who—?

Fuck…

I held my head between my hands, zoning out in disbelief. He couldn’t have possibly ended up fucking me, could he?

“Morgen”.

A sharp yelp slipped from my lips. Marco Reus leaned on the door frame, the towel around his hips the only thing covering his dripping-wet body. My face went hot. He looked so attractive— but as far as I can remember I hadn’t been obvious about it last night! How did it get to all this?!

Marco chuckled as he walked towards his suitcase. “Sorry for scaring you”

I could only stare back, dumbfounded by the half-naked footballer in front of me.

“Uh, you drank a lot yesterday” Marco said, as if I couldn’t tell already. But could he tell I’d blacked out during the entire act? Probably not.

“Hallo?” He turned to look at me, confused. Maybe he didn’t understand why I was so shaken—I had to play it cool.

”Uh, everything’s fine. Just have a headache”, I answered, my voice coming out weared out and raspy. I tried to smile it out too but his intrigued look told me he wasn’t buying it. My pulse quickened as he moved towards the bed. Marco sat and leaned towards me and I made sure I was holding the bedsheet tight around my boobs.

“Last night was fun”, he breathed, his face inches from mine. I gulped. So much for playing it cool.

He pinched my chin and brought my lips to his, kissing me in a deep, suggestive way. It was easy to go with it; he was a good kisser and soon I even found myself kissing him back. His tongue brushed the underside of my top lip so gently, I forgot how to breathe. He wasn’t good, he was great. Had he been this great at sex too? It seemed such a long time ago since the last time I’d been this intimate with a guy—

I pulled back as soon I went through that train of thought. Disbelief struck me once more when I opened my eyes and saw his face again. This was Marco Reus. Our worlds were somehow the same but so different in many other ways... It’d been enough of a surprise to find him here and coexist in the same social space, let alone spending the night with him.

“Are you okay?”, Marco asked. Did I have to tell him it had all been a slip-up?

My voice was off when I spoke. “Look, I don’t feel well. I should go back to my place and let the girls know I’m fine…”

He pursed his lips. “Okay… let me take you. I am going to change”. Marco stood from the bed, ready to fling the towel off his bottom half. My eyes widened and I hurried to stop him.

“Oh n-n-no! Don’t worry!”, I almost yelled at him, “it’s a short walk—”

“I want to help”, he insisted. I wasn’t sure if he was trying to be the gentleman or just felt sorry for me; I’d never had to deal with guys other than Ja—

“No, no, no! I’m fine”, I blurted out, more frustrated at myself than him. I’d sedated my emotions long enough and was bound to be a mess again soon. I had to leave fast.

“Alright, I will leave if you want to change”. Marco looked slightly offended but it didn’t phase me.

I couldn’t meet his eyes. “Thanks”.

He closed the door behind him and I started picking pieces of last night’s outfit from all over the room, getting dressed as fast as I could and trying not to have a panic attack.

As I made my way to the door which led to the patio, I caught my reflection on a mirror. My hair was everywhere and so was my makeup, lips big with the messy shadow of last-night lipstick. There was a time when I would’ve cared about looking scruffy in front of a a guy I found attractive, but now I was only grateful I hadn’t broken down in front of him. Whatever. I’d deal with the consequences. At least it’d been a one-night thing. I didn’t look back, and walked the brief walk of shame to the Villa next door.

*****

“Damn girl, and here I thought I was hitting it off with cute little Marcel but you... you really blew it out of the park!” Erin tittered, amused by the whole situation.

Talia, on the other hand, looked regretful. “Oh Chellita! I’m so sorry! We were having so much fun hanging out with the other guys and he offered to go get you— I didn’t think he would get you out of there! I should’ve done something!”

“Talia, you don’t have to blame yourself; I’m fine”, aside from feeling like a time-bomb, I thought, puffing a lock of hair out of my sight.

After a good cry and a much needed aspirin, I was able to better appreciate the beauty of the sunshiny day. The bougainvillea were in full bloom this time of the year. Their bright fuschia colors scattered all over the walls and up around the pergolas, creating a pleasant shadow for us to enjoy the breeze while staring at the endless blue scenery. But as cheery as the setting was, I couldn’t make myself get into the mood. I’d said I was fine, and it was half the truth. For some reason I felt guilty about last night, which was stupid. It wasn’t like I betrayed anyone (that was long over, even if the pain was still sharp). And more troubling, part of me wished I could remember the part of last night when I had sex with Marco Reus. Emotionally unstable as I was, it made me curious. He’d said it had been fun, and that kiss this morning had stirred me up. He isn’t hard on the eyes, and I’m a girl after all. But was I really ready to do stuff like this? Just yesterday I’d thought I wasn’t. At least remembering would’ve made these mixed feelings about last night’s event worth it.

I snapped back to reality and Talia was still going at it. “I just feel like I had to take care of you!”, she fussed, her abanico moving so fast it could fly off her grasp any second. “We promised to not get you in trouble and you could expect Erin to break that promise, but not me! I’m so sorr—"

“Talia!” I cut her off, my voice coming out harsh. “Honestly, enough! I know you feel responsible because of that dumb promise we made but at the end of the day, I’m still an adult who made her own shitty decisions! Drunk or not it’s on me and me only!”

It was quiet for a second and neither Talia or Erin met my face. Maybe It’d been over the top but I was already uneasy and just wanted to avoid thinking about the whole thing— as if that were possible.

When Talia spoke again her voice was shaky. “Está bien querida… but you have to remember you’re like 4 years younger than us. We’re naturally going to try to watch out for you”.

“I’m not exactly a child; I’m twenty-two”, I answered, trying to soften my tone. “Look, I appreciate it, but I’ve been on my own for almost five years now and I’ve been doing okay”, mostly.

Erin hesitated to speak but did anyway. “It’s just… he’s like, what— 28?”

And James is 27… dammit. I shook that thought off quick. “Whatever— I think I’m just disappointed because I didn’t give everyone the impression I wanted”.

Erin snorted. “You know, for a rockstar you’re not very wild. One night stands are normal—happen all the time. Don’t stress about it, I bet the guys don’t think anything crazy of you”.

Of course I knew that too well but not by personal experience. Davie picked up girls as a hobby.

“But I’ve never done it before and I didn’t intend last night to be the first!”, I complained. “This was not how I expected meeting Marco Reus would go...”

Talia shook her head. “What are you talking about?”

Erin chimed in with a sly pucker to her lips. “Chelle knew who Marco was as soon as we walked up to the table”.

“Really?”

Talia’s questioning stare fell on me. I shrugged. “I’ve watched football my whole life. I admire the guy’s skills. Actually Talia, I’m surprised you didn’t recognize him too; as a Spanish girl I thought you liked football—“

“I think it was more than just admiration”, Erin cut in, the pucker of her lips turning into a grin. Of course Erin would be the one to notice...

I sighed. “Erin...”

“C’mon, do you think he’s hot or not?” she pressed.

I stayed quiet. No way I was going to give her the satisfaction of admitting it out loud; it was already obvious. I adjusted my sunglasses and turned my gaze towards the sea, trying to tune out Erin’s annoying giggle.

“Guess we could’ve saved ourservelves this entire discussion....”, muttered Talia.

I picked up my unfinished mimosa and sipped at it. They’re never going to let this go but I had to try to change the subject.

“Doesn’t matter; we should leave this behind now that it’s just going to be us three. What are we doing today?”

They got all quiet again.

“What?”

“Um, about that…”, Erin played with the ends of her blonde bob. What more surprises could they have in store? It was making me anxious and it was barely day two. She looked back at Talia for some reason, who looked back at me with a sheepish smile.

“Uh, we actually wanted to stay here and chill by the pool, have some tapas and drinks...”

But I could tell she was leaving something out— for my sake? I could feel my eyes narrowing as I realized. “You invited them over didn’t you”.

“Chellita I’m sorry; we planned everything last night since we were getting along so well! I didn’t know it was going to be this awkward— we can call and tell them no if you want”, Talia offered, but I could tell she didn’t like the idea. Erin was practically whining beside me. I groaned. I couldn’t be a party-pooper and make her cancel, but it occurred to me by the nature of the plans I didn’t necessarily have to be involved if I didn’t want to.

I stood up and placed a hand over Talia’s tan shoulder. “No amiga, it’s okay. But you’ll have to excuse me. I’m still hungover and I wanna rest it out, okay?”; an easy excuse but also true. I still felt queasy all over and my headache wasn’t entirely gone.

“Alright querida”, she complied. Guess Talia felt guilty enough to not keep pushing me. But Erin didn’t give up so easily.

“Marco will be disappointed”, she remarked.

I shot a last humorous glance at her, feeling relieved that I’d dodged tonight’s event.

I headed to my room with a glum smile on my face, for a much needed beauty sleep. Avoiding Marco now didn’t mean I’ll be able to avoid him the entire trip though. I wasn’t stupid: this was going to turn into a thing after they hang out tonight. Talia had said it herself, they’re all getting along so well. But will I be able to just get along with Marco Reus after what happened?

I stripped away my robe and let my face fall on the pillow, dozing off without difficulty considering how bright it was outside.

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out of your list who is the most suitable to you, if you believe in compatibility? who isn't? would you still want that person even if they don't match you well? curious!

I have pottered around with zodiac/synastry compatibility now and then, out of curiosity. I think we all, even with the clear conscience of knowing it'll never happen, like to turn to compatibility to humour ourselves, and I'm no different.

My bias list is full of incompatible people. Someone who might have a good synastry score with me will not match with their sun/chinese zodiac sign at all, haha! And vice versa. I'm really attracted to Scorpio and Capricorn men - always have been. But most of the time that would just be a short term passion-fuelled relationship. Would I say no to that? Absolutely not XD

But to answer out of the top 10 I just posted (there's 12 but okay lol), the top three are Changkyun, Jinyoung and Brian. Changkyun has a mid range synastry score (61%) but scores a perfect match with both his sun and chinese zodiac signs. Jinyoung is similar scoring on synastry (69%) and a perfect chinese zodiac match. He's not so great with his sun, but being a virgo-libra cusp improves this. I actually think he and I match best, which is why no one believes me when I say my ult is Daehyun (who has the highest synastry out of everyone but even I don't believe we are as compatible as others are). Brian has the second highest synastry (89%) and being a Sag helps him a great deal. Chinese zodiac, not so much. Some would argue Brian is the best match for me, but I try not to believe in it because To Be Continued is a fiction for a reason XD.

The worst two are Eunwoo and Jaehyun, which makes sense because I adore them for their concept and feel they're too "perfect" for me anyway. Eunwoo makes my heart swell for him, but I actually think it stems from a nurturing love for him, which when I think about it isn't so fun lol.

So to sum this up real quick, it's the bias wreckers who made it onto my bias list who would match me best. The ones who irk me because they're so annoying, yet have morals and habits that compliment mine. Yay >_>

(I spent too much time thinking about this question, welp.)

Forgot to answer: even though I believe in the aspect of compatibility, if I met someone who didn’t match me, but I felt a connection to them, I would be inclined to pursue it. 

I'm always interested in knowing - just for fun - who my mutuals think match me best! If anyone cares to let me know since we're on this topic, fire away!!

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My ask box is open for this week’s Chelle Chats!

[ducksbellorum]

Rock Force Part II (listen/download)

a basic training mix in five parts - bct 2012 - arranged by ducksbellorum

Part I; Part 2;

I Get It In Omarion I get it in, I get it in I get it in, I get up in the game I get it in, I get it in I get it in, I get up in the thing They only called us into the DFAC (dining facility) like thirty at a time, so sometimes you stood out there and waited for a while. We always used to try and see how many we could get in at a time, which prompted me singing this song every time we went down to chow. I’m pretty sure he didn’t mean getting privates into the DFAC, but whatever. Dog Days Are Over Florence + the Machine Run fast for your mother run fast for your father Run for your children for your sisters and brothers Leave all your love and your longing behind you Can’t carry it with you if you want to survive I mainly had this song because it was on Covert Affairs. When we went to Victory Tower, we had to rappel down a forty foot wall. So much fun. If they’d asked for volunteers, I would’ve been first in line and that made me think of Annie Walker and her fearlessness in most everything. And there’s also the running aspect of it, we do lots of running around. Too much. And finally, there’s now the fact that the dog days of BCT are finally over! The Old Landmark James Brown Let us all (all go back) to the old (old landmark) Let us all (all go back) to the old (old landmark) Let us all (all go back) to the old (old landmark) And we’ll stay in the service of the Lord Ahh, church! The refuge of the tired, the lazy, and the fraternizers. Oh yes, and the people who actually want to worship. I sang this on the way to church every Sunday. I loved church at BCT. It was a very encouraging atmosphere, full of dancing and singing and general friendliness. And no drill sergeants! At least until the last couple weeks. Anyways. Church was awesome. Screw the Okampa! Voltaire So hoist up the aft nacelles See how the warp core burns Tell Janeway to go to hell I wanna go home This song really needs no explanation. I wanna go home. I wanna go home. I say fuck Basic Training, I wanna go home. I only sang this on the really bad days, or first thing in the way too early morning. But some were singing this chorus right up through Victory Forge. Lately OJ da Juiceman Little do they know, white chalk on the pavement All about my paper If you owe me, better pay me Lately, I feel like e'erbody hate me Hey, in BCT, everyone does hate you. Drill sergeants hate your existence, civilians hate you for some reason I still haven’t figured out, and you all hate each other because you’re all different and awkward and so freaking stupid. When you’re a private, no one likes you. Privates will get to like other privates (we did), but there’s always some senior somebody that’s going to hate your guts. Promise. Rawhide Theme Rawhide Keep moving, moving, moving Though they’re disapproving Keep them doggies moving Rawhide Marching to the gas chamber! It was at the bottom of a really freaking big hill. Marching down, no problem. Marching up? A whole other story! Add to that the fact that I watched the Blues Brothers three times in a row the day before I shipped and you get me singing 'rolling, rolling, rolling’ all the way there and back. Keep them feet rolling! Rawhide! Love Song Sarah Bareilles Promise me that you’ll leave the light on To help me see with daylight, my guide, gone 'Cause I believe there’s a way you can love me Because I say I won’t write you a love song Foot march number one! That was honestly fun, tell the truth. All the other marches were hell, but this one… Two miles, very little gear, and everyone was happy. Most of the time the drill sergeants made us be quiet, but this time we got to sing. My bay leader started singing this song and pretty soon the whole platoon was singing. It was awesome. Aspiring Fires Mother Mother Maybe, you’re watching too much TV Because crazy in the box is everything that crazy’s not A little advice for aspiring fires You’ll get put out if you don’t get a little wild As privates, we’re what you’d call aspiring fires. Aspiring to be something great, but we’ll get snuffed out in a heartbeat if we don’t get motivated and put 100% into what we do. Get crazy. :) My platoon, through the first like three weeks, tried and tried but we could never get it right. We were the worst platoon for a while. Then, suddenly, we clicked. We still sucked, but everyone else sucked worse. We Found Love Rihanna Yellow diamonds in the light And we’re standing side by side As your shadow crosses mine We found love in a hopeless place Even though we were at boot camp, a place some would call a fairly hopeless place sometimes, we found ways to be happy. We heard this while riding out to a range one day and it struck me as appropriate. Even in BCT where we were supposed to be miserable, most of us were happy most of the time. We pulled each other through. Tonight Tonight Hot Chelle Ray There’s a party on the rooftop top of the world Tonight tonight and we’re dancing on the edge of the Hollywood sign I don’t know if I’ll make it but watch how good I’ll fake it It’s all right, all right, tonight, tonight Obviously sung on weekends. It was always a really really messed up week for one reason or another, but every night was rest and every morning was a new day. You had to learn to brush off yesterday and start new the next day. Otherwise you get all tangled up and mad all the time. You had to learn that it really was alright in the end.

[we-are-all-of-legend-now]

Never Say Goodbye Playlist: Part Two

Youtube Playlist

|Part One | Part Three|

Part Two: Songs That Remind Me Of The Text*

(*If a song matches a certain part in the text, it will be indicated, if not, it’s a general inspiration)

A Father’s First Spring - The Avett Brothers

When I'm in my sweet daughter's eyes, My heart is now ruined for the rest of all times, There's no part of it left to give,There's no part of it left to give. I never lived til I lived in your light, And my heart never beat like it does at the sight, Of you baby blue, God blessed your life. I do not live 'less I live in your life. I do not live 'less I live in your life. I do not live

All I’ve Ever Needed - Paul McDonald ft. Nikki Reed

My bed sheets feel empty, When you're not home, Your heartbeat helps me sleep, Your breath soothes my soul, Baby, you’re all, Baby, you’re all, Baby, you’re all I've ever needed

All That You Are - Goo Goo Dolls

I feel wrong, I'm so human and flawed, I'll break down even though I'm still strong, And time... will make fools of us all, Build us up and then laughs when we fall, You... pull me through, When I'm alone in the dark and the fear is my truth, Yeah all the things that you are, Beautifully broken, Alive in my heart, And know, That you are everything, Let your heart sing and tonight, We'll light up the stars, All that you are

A Million Skies - Kensington Prairie

We’ve witnessed many sunsets,Watched as many moon falls, And I know you’re not far away now, Tho’ oceans divide us, And worlds may come between us, I know you’re not far away now. 

All The Years - Wild Child

You're my best friend, You, you know you mean the world to me, I can't think of a better thing than growing old with you, You, you know I need you by my side, And everything seems better now with you here in my life

All This Time - OneRepublic (Chapter: 12)

All this time we were waiting for each other, All this time I was waiting for you, We got all these words, can't waste them on another, So I'm straight in a straight line running back to you

Always Be Together - Little Mix

We'll always be together, Don't you worry, Don't you worry, no. I'll always be by your side, Don't you worry, Never worry about a thing, no no no no no no no, The circle will never end, It'll never end, Just know that we'll meet again, We'll meet again, And we'll always be together, Forever always, Don't you worry, I am here

Angel - Leona Lewis

So we take it each moment our love grows, I see it, you see it, What we have is made of gold, We're so filled with meaning, Nothing can make us shallow. So I hold it, and you hold it, The promise of tomorrow. When we make love its overwhelming, I just touch the heavens. You're an angel, you're an angel

Army Of Angels - The Script

This world’s a war zone, But I’ve got a shield, And I won’t surrender, 'Cause your love feels, Like an army of angels 

A Sky Full Of Stars - Coldplay

'Cause you're a sky, you're a sky full of stars, Such a heavenly view, You're such a heavenly view

As Love Is My Witness - Westlife

‘Cause love is my witness, I swear, I'll be with you till the end, Nothing in tear this love apart, I'll put my hand upon my heart, This is the promise I'll make to you, Whatever comes we'll see it through, Nothing can break it, This feeling's too strong, 'Cause love is my witness

As Much As I Ever Could - City And Colour

No I am not where I belong, So shine a light and guide me home. No I am not where I belong, So shine a light, guide me back home.

Beautiful Love - The Afters

Larger than the moon, my love for you, Worlds collide as heaven pulls us through, The secret of the world is written in the stars, I'm carrying your heart in mine

Because You Live - Jesse McCartney

Because you live there's a reason why, I carry on when I lose the fight, I want to give what you've given me always, Because you live and breathe, Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help, Because you live, girl, My world has twice as many stars in the sky

Because You Loved Me - Celine Dion (Chapter: 39)

You were my strength when I was weak, You were my voice when I couldn't speak. You were my eyes when I couldn't see, You saw the best there was in me, Lifted me up when I couldn't reach, You gave me faith 'cause you believed, I'm everything I am, Because you loved me

Before The Goodbye - Britney Spears (Chapter: 49)

Though, You're near, Still, I wanna make it clear, Love, I will always be around, You're leaving, I'm waiting, Forgive me, I'm always missing you, Before the goodbye, I Feel It , Already, Forgive me, I'm always missing you, Before the goodbye

Be My Forever - Christina Perri ft Ed Sheeran

We're on top of the world, We're on top of the world, Now darling, so don't let go, Can I call you mine? So can I call you mine now, darling, For a whole life time? My heart finally trusts my mind, And I know somehow it's right

Bleed - Hot Chelle Rae (Chapter: 139)

I bleed my heart out just for you, And it's all here in black and white and red, For all the times those words were never said, I bleed my heart out on this paper for you, So you can see what I can't say, I'm dying here

Blindfolded - Kris Allen

If I was blindfolded, If my memory was erased, If every sign pointed to another place, I'd still find you, I will still find you, I'd still find you, If I was blindfolded

Borrowed Time - Thompson Square

Let's not waste what we have left, Just talking about goodbye no, We can sit here pretending, We have more than a lifetime, Than a lifetime, How can something end so soon, When it feels so right, Yeah it feels so right

Bring Me The Night - Sam Tsui ft. Kina Grannis

Measuring days in the spaces between our goodbyes, Learning to wait through the endless parade, Of our same old see-you-next-time's, But when I close my eyes the miles melt away, Like you're here in my arms at the end of the day

By Your Side - Faber Drive

Your heart in mine, Don't you know I'll always be near, Even in the hardest times, Don't you know I'm always right here 

Changing Tides - The Fray

Changing tides, Baby that's the hardest part of life, Hold me tight. And we will move as one in the changing tides 

Closer - Westlife

Don't give up, don't let go, Come on get closer, Give all we have inside, Don't look back, Come on get closer, The world is ours tonight, Tonight, tonight, tonight, The world is ours tonight

Close Your Eyes - Westlife

I know I'm gonna see you again, But promise me that you won't forget, Cause as long as you remember, A part of us will be together, So even when you're fast asleep, Look for me inside your dreams, Keep believing in what we're sharing, And even when I'm not there to tell you

Come Home Soon - SHeDAISY

I sleep alone, I cry alone, Without you this house is not a home, So please, come home soon, I walk alone, I try alone, I'll wait for you, don't want to die alone, So please, come home soon

Darling I Do - Landon Pigg ft Lucy Schwartz

Notes on the keys, meant nothing to me, The world didn't sing without you, Birds in the trees fell silent for me, The world didn't sing without you, Without you, I know pleny' of people with eyes closed, They don't see you like I do

Daylight- Maroon 5 (Chapter: 21)

This is way too hard, cause I know, When the sun comes up, I will leave, This is my last glance that will soon be memory. And when the daylight comes I'll have to go, But tonight I'm gonna hold you so close, Cause in the daylight we'll be on our own, But tonight I need to hold you so close

Dear Daughter - Halestorm (Chapter: 139)

These are words, That every girl should have a chance to hear, There will be love, There will be pain, There will be hope, There will be fear, And through it all year after year, Stand or fall I will be right here, For you

Dear God - Avenged Sevenfold

Miles away from those I love, purpose hard to find, Dear God, the only thing I ask of you, Is to hold her when I'm not around, When I'm much too far away, We all need the person who can be true to you, I left her when I found her, And now I wish I'd stayed, 'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired. I'm missing you again, oh no, Once again

Dear Love - Quanah

Dear love hold tight, I’ll be coming home really soon, to under the time, And the distance from me to you, I Won’t disappear, So don’t shed a tear for me

Destiny - Jim Birckman ft. Billy Porter/Jordan Hill

Maybe all we need, Is just a little faith, 'Cause baby I believe, That love will find the way 

Devastated - Gemma Hayes

Don't forget me, Now don't regret, Left there. Left bare. I'm left devastated

Does Anybody Know? - Us And Our Daughters

How does a glance turn into a lifetime? How does a touch turn into an embrace? How do lovers outrun? How does two suddenly become one?  Does anybody know how to keep how to hold love close? Closer than your heart, so nothing can break it apart 

Don’t Deserve You - Plumb (Chapter: 44)

And you're quick to forgive, When I make a mistake, You love me in the blink of an eye, I don't deserve your love, But you give it to me anyway, Can't get enough, You're everything I need, And when I walk away, You take off running and come right after me, It's what you do, And I don't deserve you

Don’t Give Up - Peter Gabriel ft. Kate Bush

Don't give up, You still have us, Don't give up, We don't need much of anything, Don't give up, 'Cause somewhere there's a place, Where we belong

Even Now - Dashboard Confessional

Even now I can see you smile, I can hear you hum, I can hear you sing, And I always can find you again, Even in the dark of night, Even in the lowest light, Even as the world outside, Is spinning, and spinning

Everything - Lifehouse

You are the strength, That keeps me walking. You are the hope, That keeps me trusting. You are the light,To my soul. You are my purpose, You're everything. How can I stand here with you, And not be moved by you? Would you tell me, How could it be, Any better than this?

Everything - Michael Buble

And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man, And I get to kiss you baby just because I can. Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through, And you know that's what our love can do. And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times, It's you, it's you, you make me sing. You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

(Everything I Do) I Do For You - Bryan Adams

Take me as I am, take my life. I would give it all, I would sacrifice. Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for, I can't help it, there's nothin' I want more

You know it's true: Everything I do, I do it for you, oh, yeah. There's no love like your love, And no other could give more love.

Falling - Oh Gravity

So fall, I'll be behind you, I'll be there to guide you when you've lost your way, Yeah forever's a long time, But far from enough time to spend with you

Father And Daughter - Paul Simon

I believe a light that shines on you will shine on you forever, And though I can't guarantee there's nothing scary hiding under your bed, I'm gonna stand guard like a postcard of a Golden Retriever, And never leave 'til I leave you with a sweet dream in your head, I'm gonna watch you shine, Gonna watch you grow, Gonna paint a sign, So you'll always know, As long as one and one is two, There could never be a father, Who loved his daughter more than I love you

Final Goodbye - Rihanna

Hold, draw me close, close to my lips, Listen intently as I tell you this, Outside the world wages its wars, I'll rest in peace as long as you know, Before we turn out the lights and close our eyes, I'll tell you a secret I've held all my life, Its you that I live for, and for you I die, So I'll lay here with you 'til the final goodbye

Forever - Rascal Flatts

It wasn't long enough, It wasn't long enough together, but it was long enough, yeah it was long enough to last forever. Sometimes I get so mad, I scream, I swear at this, ‘cause this isn't how we planned it. I sit here in a cold room prayin', waitin' on you, to run back through that door,

to the way it was before, you left

Forever - Westlife

You are the sun,You are my light, And you’re the last thing on my mind,Before I go to sleep at night, You’re always round, When I’m in need,When trouble’s on my mind, You put my soul at ease, There is no one in this world, Who can love me like you do, That is the reason that I,Wanna spend forever with you.

Forever In Your Debt - Jamestown Story

You gave me hope, when all my hope was gone, You gave me strength, when all my strength was gone, You picked me up, when I couldn't go on, You took my side, whenever I was wrong 

For You - Keith Urban

And I wonder, would I give my life, Could I make that sacrifice, If it came down to it, Could I take the bullet, I would, Yes I would, for you 

From Where You Are - Lifehouse

I miss the years that were erased, I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face, I miss all the little things, I never thought that they'd mean everything to me, Yeah I miss you, And I wish you were here

Gold Dust - Galantis

Keep coming down that street, There’s a hollow in this house whenever you go, You’re like gold dust 

Gold Forever - The Wanted

Promise me you'll stay the way you are, Keep the fire alive and stay young at heart, When the storm feels like it could blow you out remember, you got me and I got you,’cause we are, butterflies, butterflies, we were meant to fly,You and I, you and I, Colors in the sky, When the innocence is dead and gone, These will be the times we look back on.

Gone Gone Gone - Phillip Phillips

When enemies are at your door, I'll carry you away from war, If you need help, if you need help. Your hope dangling by a string, I'll share in your suffering, To make you well, to make you well.

Goodbye My Lover - James Blunt

Goodbye my lover. Goodbye my friend. You have been the one. You have been the one for me. And I still hold your hand in mine. In mine when I'm asleep. And I will bare my soul in time, When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodnight But Not Goodbye - Nina

This love is a dream that came like clouds out of the blue, Raindrops fill my eyes 

Gotta Have Him - Emily Hearn

Oh, I can't believe he loves me like he does, He takes my hand and flies my heart to the moon, That's what it's like when he's loving you

Greatest Prize - Nat And Alex Wolff

When I am around you, All my worries wonder off, at different times, Different times. When you speak so softly, I'm entranced and cannot move, I’ll blink and nod, blink and nod.

Have You Ever Been In Love - Westlife

Have you ever felt, How far a heart can fall, Have you ever stayed up waiting, For a telephone call, Just to hear her say hello, Cause you miss each other so, Have you ever been in love?

Hearts Collide - Mans Zelmerlow

You forgive mistakes that I made and nurse all the scars then away, You set the, the wind in my sails, sparking me over and over again, And all I kept running from was staring me straight in the eyes, Now I don't ever wanna say goodbye

Heaven - Bryan Adams

Now nothin' can take you away from me, We've been down that road before, But that's over now, You keep me comin' back for more, And baby, you're all that I want, When you're lyin' here in my arms, I'm findin' it hard to believe, We're in heaven

Heaven - Kira Isabella (Chapter: 49)

Hearts don't beat to be alone, Hold me close, don't you let me go, I'm right here, and you're right there, We can have a little bit of heaven, We can't stay forever young, But you can stay 'til the morning comes, Before the dawn, before the tears, We can have a little bit of heaven

Heaven Knows - Five For Fighting (Chapter: 133)

There's no time to waste, In this famous goodbye, There's angels landing on the shore, So lay down with me, Let the river run dry, It's Sunday in the six-day war, Smile darling don't be sad, Stars are going to shine tonight, Tell me where the good men go, Before I wash away, Walk me down the old brick road, So I can die where I met you, Hold me like we're going home, Turn your tears to rain, Bury me beautiful, Heaven knows how I loved you

Here In Your Arms - Hellogoodbye

I like where you sleep, When you sleep, next to me. I like where you sleep ... here, Our lips, can touch And our cheeks, can brush, Our lips can touch here

Hero - Enrique Iglesias

I can be your hero, baby, I can kiss away the pain., I will stand by you forever, You can take my breath away, Oh, I just want to hold you, I just want to hold you, oh, yeah

Hey Jude - The Beatles (Chapter: Bonus Chapter - Maia’s Origin Story)

Hey Jude, don't let me down, You have found her, now go and get her, Remember to let her into your heart, Then you can start to make it better

Hold Back The River - James Bay (Chapter:105)

Once upon a different life, We rode our bikes into the sky, But now we're caught against the tide, Those distant days all flashing by, Hold back the river, let me look in your eyes, Hold back the river, so I, Can stop for a minute and be by your side, Hold back the river, hold back

Home - Daughtry

Oh, well I'm going home, Back to the place where I belong, And where your love has always been enough for me, I'm not running from, No, I think you got me all wrong, I don't regret this life I chose for me, But these places and these faces are getting old, I said these places and these faces are getting old, So I'm going home, I'm going home.

How Do I Live - LeAnn Rimes (Chapter: 138)

How do I, Get through one night without you? If I had to live without you, What kind of life would that be? 

How Long Will I Love You - Ellie Goulding

How long will I love you? As long as stars are above you, And longer if I can, How long will I need you? As long as the seasons need to, Follow their plan

I Can Wait Forever - Simple Plan

Every time I leave my heart turns gray, And I wanna come back home to see your face tonight, And I, Cause I just can't take it, Another day without you with me, Is like a blade that cuts right through me, But I can wait, I can wait forever, When you call my heart stops beating, When you're gone it won't stop bleeding, But I can wait, I can wait forever

I Could Not Love You More - Bee Gees

If you promise to believe that it's you I'm living for, And I could not love you more, Seasons may come and season go, But these are the truest words I know, Face to face, eye to eye, This is the summer of our lives, One love that cannot die, Here you are, owner of my soul, Never let you say goodbye

I’d Lie - Taylor Swift

He looks around the room, Innocently overlooks the truth, Shouldn’t a light go on? Doesn’t he know that I’ve had him memorized for so long? He sees everything black and white, Never let nobody see him cry, I don’t let nobody see me wishing he was mine

I’d Wait A Million Years - The Grass Roots

I'd wait a million years, Walk a million miles, cry a million tears, I'd swim the deepest sea, Climb the highest hill, just to have you near me

If I Could Be Where You Are - Enya

If I could be close beside you, If I could be where you are, If I could reach out and touch you, And bring you back home, Is there a way I can find you, Is there a sign I should know, Is there a road I can follow, To bring you back home to me

If I Lost You - Travis Tritt (Chapter: 36)

Like a ship with no harbor, Like a bird with no wings, Like a fish out of water, A dreamer without a dream, I have learned about losing, I could lose most anything, But if I lost you, There'd be no sunshine shinin’ through, I don't know what in the world I would do, If I lost you

If The Moon Fell Down - Chase Coy ft Colbie Caillat

I just always wanna have you right here by my side. The future's near but never certain, So please stay here for just tonight. I musta done something right, To deserve you in my life, I musta done something right, Along the way

If The Sun Comes Up - Trace Adkins

I believe you’ll watch the sunrise, With me for years to come, But if it turns out this morning’s our last one, Baby, Go on living, Don’t stop loving, Please find something you can put your heart into, And if the sun comes up, without me tomorrow, You’ll be fine, Just let it shine, On you

If We Hold On Together - Diana Ross

If we hold on together, I know our dreams will never die, Dreams see us through to forever, Where clouds roll by, For you and I

I Knew This Would Be Love - Imaginary Future ft. Kina Grannis

There were days when I thought I'd lost you, I read the letter aloud, what could I do? Now, we're right back where we belong, Don't second guess your heart, it's never wrong

I’ll Be - Edwin McCain

And I've dropped out, I've burned up, I've fought my way back from the dead, I've tuned in, turned on, remembered the things that you said, I'll be your crying shoulder, I'll be love's suicide, I'll be better when I'm older, I'll be the greatest fan of your life

I’ll Be Seeing You - Billie Holiday

I'll be seeing you, In all the old familiar places, That this heart of mine embraces

I’ll Be There - Westlife

I'll be there to comfort you, I'll build my world and dreams around you, So glad that I found you, I'll be there with love that's strong, I'll be your strength, I'll keep holding on and on and on, Oh yes I will

I’ll Be Your Strength - The Wanted

This is not gonna last forever, It’s that time when you must hold on. And I won’t let you surrender, And I’ll heal you if you’re broken.

I’ll Fight - Daughtry

But if you ever fall down straight to the bottom, And you can't get back where you started, With no strength to stand, I'm gonna reach for your hand, When the going gets rough right when it's hurting, I will be there to help bear the burden, Any place any time, You gotta know for you I'll fight, (Ooh ooh, ooh ooh), Any place any time, You gotta know for you I'll fight

I’ll Never Say Goodbye - Barbra Streisand

When I say always, I mean forever, I trust tomorrow as much as today, I'm not afraid to say I love you, And I promise you I'll never say goodbye

I’ll Stand By You - The Pretenders

I'll stand by you, I'll stand by you, Won't let nobody hurt you, I'll stand by you, Take me in, into your darkest hour, And I'll never desert you, I'll stand by you 

I’m Falling For You - Chester See

But I don't know how long I can stick around and be, just another friend time and time again and hold my tongue. I don't know how long before it breaks me down inside, and all my strength has gone away, and it's too late before I say, I'm falling for you, I'm falling for you, I'm torn between the chance for everything and a price that I can't pay, losing you is something that I'd never chose so I'll just have to wait, but it kills me everyday

I’m Gonna Be (500 Miles) - Sleeping At Last

And when I'm lonely, well I know I'm gonna be, I'm gonna be the man who's lonely without you. And if I grow old, well I know I'm gonna be, I'm gonna be the man who's growing old with you.

In Your Arms - Kina Grannis

Anything we have known, anything we've forgotten, In the rain, in the dark we'll lay, In your arms, in your arms I'll stay, Follow me, We both know the way, It's always been the same

In Your Arms Again - George Canyon/Crystal Shawanda

Oh, whatever I may have to do, Nothing’s gonna stop me, coming back to you, Every stolen moment, washed away, I want all these troubles far behind us, Better days to come and find us, I just wanna be in your arms again, I just wanna be in your arms, again.

I Wanna Grow Old With You - Westlife

The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger, But it hurt so bad I can't take it any longer , I wanna grow old with you, I wanna die lying in your arms, I wanna grow old with you,I wanna be looking in your eyes, I wanna be there for you, Sharing everything you do, I wanna grow old with you, A thousand miles between us now, It causes me to wonder how, Our love tonight remains so strong, It makes our risk right all along

I Want You - Tom Waits

All I want is you, Give you the stars above, Sun on the brightest day, Give you all my love, if you would only say, I want you

I Will Love You - David Myles

When we’re close, when we’re far, Over the mountains, under the stars, I will love you, I will love you, I will love you

Just A Dream - Carrie Underwood

Baby why'd you leave me, Why'd you have to go? I was counting on forever, now I'll never know, I can't even breathe, It's like I'm looking from a distance, Standing in the background, Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now, This can't be happening to me, This is just a dream

Just Fishin’ - Trace Adkins

I say, “Daddy loves you, baby” one more time, She says, “I know. I think I got a bite.”, And all this laughin’, cryin, smilin’ dyin’ here inside’s, What I call, livin’, And she thinks we’re just fishin’ on the riverside, Throwin’ back what we could fry, Drownin’ worms and killin’ time, Nothin’ too ambitious, She ain’t even thinkin’ ‘bout, What’s really goin’ on right now, But I guarantee this memory’s a big’in, And she thinks we’re just fishin’

Kiss Me - The Fray

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight, Lead me out on the moonlit floor, Lift your open hand, Strike up the band and make the fireflies, Dance silver moon’s sparkling, so kiss me

Knocking On Heaven’s Door - Guns ‘N’ Roses

Mama put my guns in the ground, I can't shoot them anymore, That cold black cloud is comin' down, Feels like I'm knockin' on heaven's door

Last Mile Of The Way - Westlife

Like day turns to night, Stone turns to dust (yeah), Like life becomes memories, Steel becomes rust, Pain's just a lesson learned, We'll look back one day, And I'll take you with me, To the last mile of the way

Lay Me Down - Sam Smith ft John Legend

Your touch, your skin, Where do I begin? No words can explain, The way I'm missing you, Deny this emptiness, This hole that I'm inside, These tears, They tell their own story, Told me not to cry when you were gone, But the feeling's overwhelming, it's much too strong, Can I lay by your side? Next to you, you, And make sure you're alright, I'll take care of you, I don't want to be here if I can't be with you tonight

Letters From The Sky - Civil Twilight

That you and I were made for this, I was made to taste your kiss, We were made to never fall away, Never fall away, One of these days letters are gonna fall, From the sky telling us all to go free, But until that day I'll find a way, To let everybody know that you're coming back, You're coming back for me

Light - Sleeping At Last

I’ll give you everything I have. I’ll teach you everything I know. I promise I’ll do better. I will always hold you close, But I will learn to let you go. I promise I’ll do better. I will soften every edge, I’ll hold the world to its best, And I’ll do better. With every heartbeat I have left, I will defend your every breath, And I’ll do better.

Lighthouse - Westlife

This kind of love, Is more than a feeling, For a man who really cried, I get all choked up each time, You say you love me, You could've walked away, Could've give my problems back, Could've left, You took the chance

Like A Wrecking Ball - Eric Church

That whole house is gonna be shakin', I hope those bricks and boards can take it, But I won't be surprised, If the whole damn place just falls, Wanna rock you baby like a wrecking ball, And that old house is gonna be shakin', Rafter rockin', foundation quakin', Crash right through the front door, Back you up against the wall, Love you baby, Take it right there baby, Rock you baby like a wrecking ball

Lost Without Your Love - Amy Pearson

I count the days now where apart, And each hangs heavy on my heart, I know it has to be this way, Tomorrow happens gone away

Love - Nancy Adams (Chapter: Final Epilogue)

Once we watched a lazy world go by, Now the days seem to fly, Life is brief but when it's gone, Love goes on and on

Love Is A Song - Donald Novis

Love is a song that never ends, Life may be swift and fleeting, Hope may die, yet love's beautiful music, Comes each day like the dawn

Love Lives On - Mallary Hope (Chapter: 133)

She comes with me on your birthday, little flowers in her hands, she’s always known there’s something missing, but too young to understand, and someday she’s going to ask me, what kind of man you were, I’ll tell her all the ways I loved you, and all of you I see in her

Love Me Tender - Elvis Presley

Love me tender, love me sweet, never let me go. You have made my life complete, and I love you so. 

Lover Lay Down - Dave Matthews Band

By my lover's side, Together share this smile, Each other's tears to cry, Together share this smile, Lover lay down

Love Takes Two - Westlife

Love takes two, Time after time we've talked it through, Cause baby, I need you, What am I supposed to do, When your words could disguise what you're going through, But they can't fool your heart, Now it's time to decide what you wanna do,  I'm telling you

Lucky Ones - Faber Drive

We're the lucky ones, We are the lucky ones, Going strong and it's getting better, You're still the one I'm dreaming of 

Make Me Yours - Beth Crowley (Chapter: 2)

I've said too much but I have got to get this out, Don't blame the timing, 'Cause the only time is now, And if we're done we'll go our separate ways, And say goodbye, But I think we'll both have our regrets if we do not give this a try, This push and pull, Aren't you tired of running, Making me feel like I'm the fool, And this back and forth, Is stopping tonight 'cause I'm standing here telling you, Make me yours

Me And You - Kenny Chesney

Everyday I live, Try my best to give, All I have to you, Thank the stars above, That we share this love, Me and you

Mess Is Mine - Vance Joy

You're the reason that I feel so strong, The reason that I'm hanging on, You know you gave me all the time, Or did I give enough of mine?

More Than Anyone - Gavin DeGraw

I'm going to love you more than anyone, I'm going to hold you closer than before, And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free, I'll be free for you anytime, I'm going to love you more than anyone, Free for you, whenever you need, We'll be free together baby, Free together baby

More Than Anyone Deserves - LeAnn Rimes

Cause I love longer and wider, Deeper and higher, Cause I've been loved, More than anyone deserves, If tomorrow for some reason, Somehow I could not hear, In silence there'd be music, Of a love that's always here

My Heart Belongs To You - Hayley Westenra

Hold me, touch me, Let the love come rushing through me, I’m yours with every breathe I take, Forever and ever, Hold on to love, Cause deep down that’s what we’re made of, Never let go for my heart’s sake, Cause my heart belongs to you, Don’t give up but just give in, I will always be here waiting for you, Love will see us through

My Heart With You - The Rescues

A tattered photograph my pocket holds, I keep you secretly. I've studied every line. You're etched upon my mind, for not a million soldiers could take you from me. My love, the reason I survive, trust we'll be together soon. Should our fire turn to dark, take my heart with you.

My Love - Westlife

To hold you in my arms, To promise you my love, To tell you from the heart, You're all I'm thinking of, Reaching for the love that seems so far, So I say a little prayer, And hope my dreams will take me there, Where the skies are blue, to see you once again... my love, Overseas from coast to coast, to find the place I love the most, Where the fields are green, to see you once again... my love.

Mystery - Brooke Fraser

Your love endures forever, Your love changes me, Your love makes me whole, makes me better, Your love endures

Never Gone - Backstreet Boys

Never gone, never far, In my heart is where you are, Always close, everyday, Every step along the way, Even though for now we've gotta say goodbye, I know you will be forever in my life, Never gone, No no no, I walk alone these empty streets, There is not a second you're not here with me, The love you gave, the grace you've shown, Will always give me strength and be my cornerstone

Never Gonna Let You Go - The JaneDear Girls

I'm never gonna let you go, I'm never gonna let you walk away, There's not an inch of me that you don't know, I'm never gonna let you go

Never Make You Cry - Eric Clapton

I'll never ever make you cry. I'll never ever say goodbye. Can't you see it in my eyes? I'm yours until the day I die.

Never My Love - The Association

You say you fear I'll change my mind, And I won't require you, Never my love, Never my love, How can you think love will end, When I've asked you to spend your whole life, With me

Never Say Goodbye - Bon Jovi (Title Song)

We danced so close, We danced so slow, And I swore I'd never let you go, Together - forever, Never say goodbye, never say goodbye, You and me and my old friends, Hoping it would never end, Say goodbye, never say goodbye, Holdin' on - we got to try. Holdin' on to never say goodbye

Nobody But You - Gloriana

Steal my soul, steal my kiss, Rock and roll, I can't resist, No, I just wanna dance with you, Take my hand, blow my mind, Do it to me every time, No, and not a moment to soon

Nobody Without You - Nikola Sarcevic

'Cause you're my sunshine, To keep me warm,You're my shelter and my hideout, In rainy days and storm. You're my laugh-line, make me feel new. You give the only love I know, I'm nobody without you. 

No Matter Where You Are - Us The Duo

I'll take care of you, and love you just because, You and I are better than forever, Nothing can stop us, I won't let you fall, I won't let you go, No matter where you are, No matter where you are, I'll be there

No Place That Far - Westlife

If I had to run, If I had to crawl, If I had to swim a hundred rivers, Just to climb a thousand walls, Always know that I would find a way, To get to where you are, There's no place that far, It wouldn't matter why we're apart, Lonely months, two stubborn hearts, Nothing short of God above, Could turn me away from your love, I need you that much

Ocean Wide - The Afters

If love is an ocean wide, We'll swim in the tears we cry, They'll see us through to the other side, We're gonna make it, When love is a raging sea, You can hold on to me, We'll find a way tonight, Love is an ocean wide

Oh, It Is Love - Hellogoodbye

Oh, dear, It's been hardly three days, And I'm longing to feel your embrace, There are several days, Until I can see your sweet face, Oh say, wouldn't you like to be older and married with me? Oh say, wouldn't it be nice to know right now that we'll be,  Someday holding hands in the end, All our broken plans will have been, I will kiss you soft so you know

One Safe Place - Marc Cohn

Life is trial by fire, And love's the sweetest taste, And I pray it lifts us higher, To one safe place

Only Of You - Green Day

I wish I could tell you, But the words would come out wrong, Oh if you only knew, The way I felt for so long, I know that we're worlds apart, But I just don't seem to care, These feelings in my heart, Only with you I want to share

Parallel Lives - Azizah Rowen

I see you here, You are my dream, The end is near, But time will tell, The leaves have fallen, I could be whole if you were with me, oh, Time will tell

Please Stay - Warren Zevon (Chapter: 138)

Don't leave me here, When so many things so hard to see are clear, I need you near to me, Will you stay with me to the end? When there's nothing left, But you and me and the wind, We'll never know till we try, To find the other side of goodbye

P.S. I Love You - The Beatles (Chapter: 139)

As I write this letter, Send my love to you, Remember that I'll always, Be in love with you, Treasure these few words till we're together, Keep all my love forever, P.S. I love you

Remind Me - Conrad Sewell

When I think about love, you are right beside me, I think about us, you will always find me, When my heart is lost, I know that you'll guide me, I think about all the little things that still remind me

Rest Of My Life - Michelle Featherstone

I don't want to leave, I don't want to be one night, Or one day. So I'll stay the rest of my life, How 'bout that, Waking up every morning with me. Spend our time drinking coffee, Speaking softly as the days go by.

Roses And Violets - Alexander Jean

Days are getting longer, The nights are feeling colder, When we are not together, I'm falling apart, 'Cause all I want is you, And all I need is you, Baby, you may be somewhere else too far from me, Come home soon

Running - James Bay

When the lights are faded to black, Only stars are guiding me back, I'll keep running, To the place where I belong, When you think you're on your own, I'm still coming home, When you think you're on your own, I'm still coming home

Sacred - Victoria Banks

This is no ordinary love, angels are watching over us, nothing on earth is strong enough to shake it, it’s sacred 

Safest Place To Hide - Backstreet Boys

I know I promised you forever, Is there no stronger word I can use, To reassure you when the storm is raging outside, You're my safest place to hide

Saturdays In September - The JaneDear Girls

And those up all night Friday nights, phone calls and our goodbyes, Reading and writing love letters, It's hard to sleep in between thinking 'bout you. And me dreaming of being together on Saturdays 

Say Goodnight - The Click Five (Chapter: 21)

Baby just say goodnight, I'll be gone tomorrow, Baby just close your eyes, I can't take the sorrow, Baby just walk away. You know I can't stay, There's no easy way to say goodbye, So baby just say goodnight

Say Something - A Great Big World ft. Christina Aguilera (Chapter: 105)

Say something, I'm giving up on you, I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you, Anywhere I would've followed you, Say something, I'm giving up on you, And I will swallow my pride, You're the one that I love, And I'm saying goodbye

Say You Love Me - Steve Grand

What if I say you love me? Could I make it true? We could build us something, That would mean something to you, Cause when I close my eyes, I'm in this world where you don't have a girl, And I'm right by your side, Say you love me, It don't mean that I'll ever have you, Oh, no 

Say You Won’t Let Go - James Arthur

When you looked over your shoulder, For a minute, I forget that I'm older, I wanna dance with you right now, Oh, and you look as beautiful as ever, And I swear that everyday you'll get better, You make me feel this way somehow

See You Again - Carrie Underwood

I can hear those echoes in the wind at night, Calling me back in time, Back to you, In a place far away, Where the water meets the sky, The thought of it makes me smile, You are my tomorrow, I will see you again, whoa, This is not where it ends, I will carry you with me, oh, 'Til I see you again, Sometimes I feel my heart is breaking, But I stay strong and I hold on cause I know

Singing Forever - Westlife

You took my hand, long ago, And you've been by my side always, I didn't know where to go, You showed me the way, Ohhh.. who knows what the future holds? Ohhh.. we'll never know

Soldier - Gavin DeGraw

I'll get it if you need it, I'll search if you don't see it, You're thirsty, I'll be rain, You get hurt, I'll take your pain, I know you don't believe it, But I said it and I still mean it, When you heard what I told you, When you get worried, I'll be your soldier.

Soldier - High Valley

Hey hey hey, I'll be coming home to you, You're the burning fire that my heart is beating to, You're like red, white, blue, I'd do it all for you, I'd fight a war and win it; you make me bulletproof, I'll be your soldier

Soldier On - Richard Hawley

As the stars they slowly die, Thunder cracks across the sky, These are the words I've longed to say: Be with me, my love, always, But no our moonlit silhouettes they part and fade, I'm left with a loneliness that has no name, For so long, For so long, I'll soldier on

Song For A Friend - Jason Mraz

As long as you got me, And I got you, You know we'll got a lot to go around, I'll be your friend, Your other brother, Another love to come and comfort you, And I'll keep reminding, If it's the only thing I ever do, I will always love, I will always love you, Yes you

Stand By You - Rachel Platten

Even if we're breaking down, we can find a way to break through, Even if we can't find heaven, I'll walk through Hell with you, Love, you're not alone, cause I'm gonna stand by you, Even if we can't find heaven, I'm gonna stand by you, Even if we can't find heaven, I'll walk through Hell with you, Love, you're not alone, cause I'm gonna stand by you

Start Saving Me - Mike Corrado

Forget the world, start saving me, I'm holding on, I can barely breath, So come on home and rescue me, Save me, I can feel myself breaking down, Piece by piece, Another phone call, My fingers crossed, Come on rescue me, You're half a world away, I'm holding on to faith, But there's only so much, I can take

Stay - Hurts (Chapter: 138)

My whole life waiting for the right time, To tell you how I feel. Know I try to tell you that I need you. Here I am without you. I feel so lost but what can I do? 'Cause I know this love seems real, But I don't know how to feel. We say goodbye in the pouring rain, And I break down as you walk away. Stay, stay. 'Cause all my life I've felt this way, But I could never find the words to say, Stay, stay.

Stay Just A Little - Kina Grannis (Chapter: 138)

It kills me as I lay awake at night, Remembering the last kiss that we shared doesn't feel right, Is it impossible for me to win this fight? Keep you a little longer in my life, Would you stay just a little, my love?

Still Here - Digital Daggers

Every night, I dream you're still here.The ghost by my side, so perfectly clear. When I awake, you'll disappear, Back to the shadows, With all I hold dear. With all I hold dear. I dream you're still here. I dream you're still here.

Still On The Line - Tim McGraw

I just called to hear you breathing, Your last words before you're sleeping, I can't sleep without your body next to mine, Yeah, I know I'm always leaving, Breaking your heart, breaking even, I'm just a number in the middle of the night, But, I'm still on the line, I'm still on the line, I'm still on the line

Surround You - Echosmith

Where ever you are, When ever you need me, Just crawl in my arms, Oh and I'll hold you beside me, I want my love to surround you, I want my love to surround you, And I'll just sing it out, I want my love to surround you

Tangled Up In You - Aaron Lewis

You're the fire That warms me when I'm cold, You're the hand I have to hold as I grow old. You're the shore When I am lost at sea, You're the only thing That I like about me.

That’s How I Like It - Doc Walker

You're mine, you're mine, And that's how I like it, I'm yours, I'm yours, And nobody else's, You're mine, you're mine, You hit me, I felt it, I'm yours, I'm yours, And that's how I like it

The Best Is Yet To Come - Us And Our Daughters

Here's to today, Here's to tomorrow, Here's to our love, From which we will borrow, Here's to forever, To you and to me, Here's to tastin' last time, Cause the best is yet to come 

The Best Of Me - Josh Kelley

I got demons all around me, I hear them whisper in the night, Trying to break me down, but they ain't got a prayer, With this angel by my side, They can't get the best of me, The best of me, the best of me, Can't get the best of me, The best of me, the best of me, Cause I got you, cause I got you

The Last Goodbye - Lara Fabian

So just, Close the door, Let nobody else in our head, Close the door, We can lay right here in our bed, 'Cause anything else is wasting time, You're all I've wanted, All of my life, Just let me grow old, Here by your side, Until the end of time, Till the last goodbye

The Promise - Tracy Chapman

Remembering, Your touch, Your kiss, Your warm embrace, I'll find my way back to you, If you'll be waiting, I've longed for you, And I have desired, To see your face your smile, To be with you wherever you are

There By Your Side - The Milk Carton Kids

I wanted to be there, I wanted to find, I wanted to be fair, I wanted to go there by your side, I wanted to be there, I wanted to find, I wanted to tell you, I wanted to tell you, Goodbye

Thinking Out Loud - Ed Sheeran

And, darling, I will be loving you 'til we're 70, And, baby, my heart could still fall as hard at 23, And I'm thinking 'bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways, Maybe just the touch of a hand, Well, me—I fall in love with you every single day, And I just wanna tell you I am

This Is What It Takes - Shawn Mendes

And if this is what it takes, Then let me be the one to bear the pain. Oh if this is what it takes, I'll break down these walls that are in our way, 'Cause if you don't understand yet, Then I'll never let you forget, That you don't have to do this on your own. I'll be your shoulder to lean on. I'll be your right when you feel wrong. So come on, take my hand, we're moving on.

Through The Years - Kenny Rogers

Through the years, You've never let me down, You turned my life around, The sweetest days I've found, I've found with you, Through the years, It's better everyday, You've kissed my tears away, As long as it's okay, I'll stay with you, Through the years

To Be Loved - Westlife

And you move me with ease, And you rescue me time after time, Oh Oh you give your all, And you take it all in your stride, Oh with all the power of a symphony, That's how my heart beats when you're holding me

I can't conceal, this is how it feels, To be loved by you, Oh yeah, to be loved by you, If everybody knows, it's only 'cause it shows, Because I take your love, Everywhere I go

To The Moon And Back - Luke Bryan

Through the bitter and the sweet, The cold and the fire, Lonely cotton sheets, And the burning desire, Until our song is over, Til the stars all fade to black, I'm gonna love you, To the ends of the Earth, To the moon and back, Yeah, I'm gonna love you, All the way to the moon and back, To the moon and back

Touch - Troye Sivan

Night is young and we're living, Hands move, moving steady, And the time is moving slower, I can feel we're getting closer, closer, Standing in the eye of the storm, My eyes start to roam, To the curl of your lips, In the center of eclipse, In total darkness I, I reach out and touch

Two Soldiers Coming Home - Lori McKenna (Chapter: 141)

When that plane landed, We watched one soldier leave, But the second soldier we never got to see, An army band was playing, By a long black limousine, Two soldiers coming home, Returning to their families, They've been away from the so long, There's gonna to be some flags waving, And some tear stained faces, Oh the journey’s over for two soldiers, Coming home

Unforgettable - Natalie Cole ft Nat King Cole

Unforgettable, that's what you are, Unforgettable, though near or far, Like a song of love that clings to me, How the thought of you does things to me, Never before has someone been more, Unforgettable in every way, And forevermore (and forevermore), That's how you'll stay (that's how you'll stay), That's why darling, it's incredible, That someone so unforgettable, Thinks that I am unforgettable too

Us Against The World - Westlife (Chapter: 43)

Cause it's us against the world, You and me against them all, If you listen to these words, Know that we are standing tall, I don't ever see the day that, I won't catch you when you fall, Cause it's us against the world tonight, We’re not gonna break, Cause we both still believe, We know what we’ve got, And we’ve got what we need all right, We’re doing something right...

What If I Kissed You - Temecula Road

Your eyes, Been dancing to the dashboard, And landing on the floorboard, It's cute when you're nervous, Your hands, Reaching for the dial, Been static for a while, But I don't think you noticed, No, what if I just closed my eyes, What if I lean in first 

When I Fall In Love - Westlife

When I give my heart, I give it completely, Or I'll never give my heart, And the moment I can feel that you feel that way too, Is when I fall in love with you

When I Look To The Sky - Train

Cause when I look to the sky something tells me you're here with me, And you make everything alright, And when I feel like I'm lost something tells me you're here with me, And I can always find my way when you are here

When I See You Smile - Bad English

'Cause sometimes it seems like this world's closing in on me, And there's no way of breaking free, And then I see you reach for me, Sometimes I wanna give up, wanna give in, I wanna quit the fight, And then I see you baby, And everything's alright, everything's alright

When The Darkness Comes - Colbie Caillat

I'll be here waiting, Hoping, praying that, This light will guide you home, When you're feeling lost I'll leave my love, Hidden in the sun, For when the darkness comes

When The World Stops Spinning - Kyler England (Chapter: 138)

And the world stops spinning, When the terra firma quakes, When the oceans tidal wave, I would rather die than to ever say goodbye, To you my love, to you my love, I will let you go when the world stops spinning, I will let you go when the world stops spinning, I will let you go when the sun and the stars explode

When You Got A Good Thing - Lady Antebellum

So baby, hold on tight, Don't let go, Hold onto the love we're making, Cause baby when the ground starts shakin’, You gotta know when you've got a good thing

When You Say - Jamestown Story ft. Michelle Rene

I give you my heart to have and to hold, in sickness and health, when we grow old, and if we get lost we'll find our way home, you don't have to worry anymore, I've been waiting for this moment and as long as I'm alive I promise, I'll be here for you when you say "I do"

Where Does The Time Go - A Great Big World

Where does the time go? I don't want this to end, Where does the time go? Let's hang on to the moment we're in, Of all the things we will remember, The good, the bad, and all the blessings in disguise, Today will stick with me forever, Even if we have to say goodbye

Wherever You Will Go - The Calling

If I could, then I would, I'll go wherever you will go, Way up high or down low, I'll go wherever you will go, And maybe, I'll find out, The way to make it back someday, To watch you, to guide you, Through the darkest of your days

Where We Belong - Thriving Ivory

Hold on we're gonna make it if it takes all night, Hearts racing like a rocket at the speed of light, Don't fight it we've been running for far too long, We're going back where we belong, So hold on we got our wings and we're chasing the wind, Farewell to all the places that we have been, And if it takes us all night long, We're going back where we belong

Wild Thing - The Runaways (Chapter: 20)

Wild thing, You make my heart sing, You make everything, Come on, wild thing

Without You - My Darkest Days

If I had my way, I'd spend every day right by your side, And if I could stop time, Believe me I'd try for you and I, And each moment you're gone, Is a moment too long in my life, So stay right here, right now, 'Cause without you I'm a disaster, (The moment you go), And you're my ever after, (Just thought you should know), 'Cause I need to know your answer, (Just say you'll stay with me), I want you to say you're gonna stay with me, (Just say you'll stay with me), I die every day that you're away from me

Worth It - Francesca Battistelli

Love can hear you, Love can heal you, If you let it inside, Oh, remember now, Love's not easy, But it's worth it

Written In The Stars - Westlife

I wasn't meant to love like this, Not without you, ‘Cause when I look at my life, How the pieces fall into place, It just wouldn't rhyme without you, When I see how my path. Seem to end up before your face. The state of my heart, The place where we are, Was written in the stars

You - Keaton Henson

If you must leave, Leave as though fire burns under your feet, If you must speak,Speak every word as though it were unique, If you must die, sweetheart, Die knowing your life was my life's best part, And if you must die, Remember your life

You And Me Song - The Wannadies

Then we watch TV, Until we fall asleep, Not every exciting, But it's you and me, And we'll always be together

You Are The First, My Last, My Everything - Barry White

The first, my last, my everything, And the answer to all my dreams, You're my sun, my moon, my guiding star, My kind of wonderful, that's what you are

You Bring Me Home - Brandon Chandler

And I'm almost in your arms, Just a little too far, You bring me home, You bring me home, And I'm almost in your arms, But I'm just a little too far, Please, please, please don't be sad, I know I've been gone for way too long

You’ll Be In My Heart - Phil Collins

Oh, you'll be in my heart (you'll be here in my heart), No matter what they say (I'll be with you), You'll be here in my heart (I'll be there), always, Always, I'll be with you, I'll be there for you always, Always and always, Just look over your shoulder, Just look over your shoulder, Just look over your shoulder, I'll be there always.

You’ll Be Okay - A Great Big World

'Cause you're never alone, I will always be there, You just carry on, You will understand, You'll be okay, You'll be okay, Just look inside, You know the way

You’re My Best Friend - Queen

You're the best friend, That I ever had, I've been with you such a long time, You're my sunshine, And I want you to know, That my feelings are true, I really love you, You're my best friend, Ooh, you make me live

Yours - Ella Henderson

And I would fight my strength to untape my mouth, When I used to be afraid of the words, But with you I’ve learnt just to let it out, Now my heart is ready to burst, Cause I, I feel like I’m ready for love, And I, wanna be your everything and more, And I know every day I say it, But I just want you to be sure, That I am yours

You Should Be Here - Cole Swindell

You should be here, standing with your arm around me here. Cutting up, cracking a cold beer, saying cheers, hey y'all it's sure been a good year. It's one of those moments, that's got your name written all over it. And you know that if I had just one wish it'd be that you didn't have to miss this. Aw you should be here.

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[SASO2017] Haikyuu!! - Caught Staring

Title: Caught Staring

Fandom: Haikyuu!!

Pairing: Kurodai

Summary: For SASO2017 Bonus Round 3.

“Prompt:

I Like To Dance - Hot Chelle Rae     Drove All Night (Punk Cover) - The Wildboys     When Can I See You Again? - Owl City”

Also found here on AO3.

Word count: 1,117

He’s got Daichi hooked, all long legs, slim, swinging hips and a beckoning gaze that reaches right across the dance floor, accompanied by a knowing smirk once he catches Daichi staring. Daichi looks away quickly and buries his nose into the glass of something Asahi had just put before him. For the record, he blames Asahi for this. It is his first day at work as a bartender here and Daichi had dropped by to give him some moral support and to assure him that he would do absolutely fine. Not make eye contact with unfairly hot strangers and possibly get dragged into something that would make his night even longer. Daichi is a busy guy. He doesn’t have time for this. He has papers sitting at the back of his mind, at the front of his mind, behind his eyelids when he blinks. He is just here for Asahi and his free drink and then he’ll be out of here before— “Hey,” a voice says from beside him. Daichi glances sidelong and he catches a glimpse of a familiar profile, dressed in black from head to toe and wearing a smirk like it is his best accessory. He has an elbow propped on the counter, his body half-turned towards Daichi in a gesture that screams interest, and Daichi just wants to put his face in his hands so he doesn’t look his way. Daichi had been staring for a reason and that reason is coming back to bite him in the ass. Daichi is a busy guy, a simple guy, but he is also a guy with needs and wants that unfortunately involves the walking disaster next to him. The moment he had seen him dancing, he had thought about slamming him against the nearest flat surface and putting his lips against that smirk of his. Maybe more, but Daichi won’t admit it even in the private confines of his head. He has papers to write, he is stressed, and stress does weird things to his brain like finding perfect strangers unfairly attractive and staring at them shamelessly without realising what consequences that might have in a place like this. “You’ve been stuck at the bar the whole night,” the stranger prompts when Daichi doesn’t respond to his casual greeting. “Something on your mind?” “Not really,” Daichi says coolly, which he thinks is an incredible feat considering his current state of mind. “Well, you’ve been on my mine,” the stranger says, completely serious and completely shameless. Daichi has to bite the inside of his mouth to stop himself from snorting aloud into his drink and he finds himself turning reflexively to look at the stranger sitting next to him properly. Behind the stranger, Asahi goggles, his eyes wide and incredulous, and Daichi privately agrees with him. If he is lucky, the stranger is going to talk Daichi out of his unfortunate attraction to him. “I don’t think I’ve done anything to warrant your attention,” Daichi tells him. “But I’ve obviously done something to catch yours,” the stranger responds with an easy smile. “Like what you see?” “No. That’s why I looked away.” Daichi knocks back the rest of his drink and nods at Asahi over the stranger’s head. “I’ll be leaving first.” The stranger looks stricken as Daichi makes to leave and he blurts out, “I’ll help you with your thermodynamics paper.” That catches Daichi’s interest, even though he has no idea how the stranger knows about the papers plaguing his mind, and Daichi drops back down in his seat. “What?” “I’m, ah,” the stranger clears his throat awkwardly, “I’m in your physics class, Sawamura. I sit at the back.” There is only person who sits at the back of his physics class and Daichi hadn’t even been sure that was a person when it had looked more like a random assortment of sweaters, sweatpants, and hoodies topped with a beanie. The only time he remembers seeing the pile of clothes move is when the TA had handed back their first assignments and Daichi had passed it back to a decidedly human hand sticking out from it. He remembers the name printed on the top of the paper, and the A grade that had accompanied it. “Kuroo?” Daichi asks, staring hard at the stranger and trying to reconcile him with the moving pile of clothes that had attended his physics class every week. “That’s me,” Kuroo says sheepishly. “And before you say anything, I get cold in the mornings.” “I always thought it was because you were wearing pyjamas under everything.” “And that too,” Kuroo admits. “It’s an 8am class. Nobody looks good at 8am. Except for you maybe.” He leers but it is much less effective when the strongest impression Daichi has of him is no longer as a beautiful stranger on the dance floor but an animate pile of clothes which has trouble waking up in the mornings and an enviously high grade in physics. “Are we still doing the thing where you flirt with me badly and I try to leave?” Daichi asks, raising an eyebrow. “Because I can leave.” “Shame. I thought my offer to help you with your paper was really sexy.” Kuroo props his chin on his hand and grins at him. “Why go for the D when you can get an A?” Daichi can’t help it. He bursts into laughter and Kuroo looks delighted, his eyes alight as he watches Daichi. When Daichi had first seen Kuroo on the dance floor, he hadn’t expected anything but trouble from someone who looked that good and moved like that. He certainly hadn’t expected him to catch him staring or to come over and accidentally reveal that he knew exactly who Daichi was from a mandatory science class he had taken to graduate. Daichi wonders if Kuroo realises the implications of that because it is one thing to proposition a complete stranger at a club and another to proposition a classmate you had been sitting behind for almost an entire semester. “Alright,” Daichi stands and glances at Asahi, who had been watching the entire bizarre situation unfold before him nervously, “Now, I’m leaving.” Kuroo looks stricken again. “I, uh, don’t have any other earth-shattering revelations to stop you from going this time.” Daichi looks at him and raises an eyebrow. “Aren’t you coming along?” Kuroo scrambles to his feet and the look on his face is almost worth all the bad pick-up lines Daichi had to endure from him. Daichi still has deadlines breathing down his neck but he supposes that if he has someone like Kuroo is helping him with one of them, he can afford to take one night off.