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#he only convinced himself tommy would be completely fine with the breakup because he needed him to be fine so that he could do it guilt fre
giallos · 4 months
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a truly terrible idea has latched hold of my gremlin brain which is, buck and tommy do break up so that buck can pursue eddie because either tommy thinks buck is in love with eddie or buck feels like he should be with eddie because everyone else keeps suggesting there's something more there BUT buck/eddie getting together changes their dynamic so much that neither of them are enjoying themselves (and they're worrying about losing what made their friendship so special because of all the changes to the dynamic) AND buck and tommy keep hooking up [air quotes] platonically (with tommy stumbling into inconvenient feelings and pining pathetically for buck while fucking him) while buck struggles to sort out intense feelings toward eddie (which obviously have to be romantic of course) vs. his calm, more settled feelings toward tommy (they're not as intense as his feelings about eddie so they can't possibly be romantic) blah blah long story slightly less long but buck realizes he's been in love with tommy the whole time and was having trouble separating strong but platonic feelings for eddie from his romantic feelings toward tommy and then tommy's like "newsflash asshole i've been in love with you the whole goddamn time"
i'll never write it because it's irredeemably stupid and i value my peace but it IS sitting in my hindbrain tormenting me right now
#thank you for coming to my ted talk#i'm not tagging this bc i don't want it showing up in any show or ship tags but...............................#terrible evil plotbunny free to a good home#nobody ever writes about the friends who get together bc 'why not everyone else already thinks we're dating' and then it doesn't work out#because the dynamic changes SO MUCH that you're not sure if it was such a good idea in the first place#now add a third person to the mix that you like but aren't sure how you feel about them#not sure if eddie would be aware it's casual and non exclusive or if there'd be miscommunication leading to angst#honestly this is just me venting my frustrations with those breakup fics masqueraring as b*cktommy that have tommy#graciously sacrificing himself on the altar of b*ddie's true love and stepping aside magnanimously#that's not interesting to me to read even as a b*ddie shipper#if buck and tommy have to break up let it be real and messy because real people are real and messy#let tommy fight for buck even if it doesn't end up working out#let buck and eddie feel guilty because buck did genuinely care about tommy and eddie does like him as a friend#let tommy cut both of them off because even though he likes both of them he still has feelings and it hurts seeing them together#let tommy be petty about showing off a new love interest or fwb and how much happier he is with this guy than he was with buck#let buck wonder if he made the right choice or not bc he didn't ever want to hurt tommy#he only convinced himself tommy would be completely fine with the breakup because he needed him to be fine so that he could do it guilt fre#let eddie wonder if they made the right choice or not bc while he finally has what he's wanted for years it did hurt someone he really like#maybe it'll all work out in the end for buck and eddie AND tommy but i just want it to feel real and not overly polished and sanitized#and no one is hurt or upset or petty or flawed#anyway#i like mess#don't @ me#i might have to write this now but i don't want to be chased off with pitchforks and torches#text#shut up giallos
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cxptain-capsicle · 5 years
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Hello! Could you write something using Niall's song "New Angel"? Like Peter/Tom having a recent breakup,maybe not sooo recent,like 1 month? And finally going out with his friends,he sees the reader and it's like well maybe it's time to get my shit together bc holy shit she looks like an angel.
New Angel
Pairings: Tom Holland x Reader
I was supposed to see Niall in concert and I’m so upset cause I bet it’ll get canceled, I was so excited :((( this is also my first song request and Tom imagine so this is new territory but I actually really like this one
I also added Tom to my Taglist so if you would like to add yourself please go to my bio or send me an ask/message
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It’s been a few months now since you and Tom broke up. It wasn’t a clean split at all, there was fighting and yelling and Haz and your friend, (Y/f/n) were dragged into it. Tom had been busy and wrapped in work which you understood but it had gotten to the point where that excuse wasn’t cutting it anymore. Every time you were together you’d argue and when he was in town you’d both come up with excuses about why you couldn’t hang out. Tom had started it but after being ditched and yelled at so many times you started to put up walls.
Too many hours in the night
Every second is about her
Once the break up happened Tom was happy, he felt free but now he began to realize that maybe he wasn’t as happy as he thought. It was dark as he said in his bed, alone and with a cold spot where you used to sleep. He thought he was totally over you but once mutual friends started telling him how much better you were doing he realized that part of him still wanted you to love him because maybe he still loved you.
“Come on, get up!” Harrison’s voice shocked Tom out of his daze as he was hit in the face with a pillow.
“What the fuck?” Tom looked at his assaulter. “When did you get here?”
“Doesn’t matter, get up we are leaving.” Harrison now was rummaging through Tom’s closet and throwing some things onto the bed for him to put on. “We’re going out.”
Too many feelings in the light
I just need a new distraction
“Don’t worry Tommy, we’ll find you a nice girl to have a few drinks with and you’ll be done with this whole Y/n thing.” Harrison wrapped an arm around Tom’s shoulder and earned a glare. “Oh come on, we all liked Y/n but that ship has sailed by now don’t you think?”
Maybe Haz was right, maybe you had moved on and it’s time that he did too.
“Okay fine, but just a few drinks and that’s it.” Tom finally gave in hoping his best friend really did know what was best for him. Tom certainly didn’t.
Tom loved you so much, he had no idea where things went so wrong but he knew it was his fault. You were an angel, kind, selfless, beautiful, loving, and he didn’t treat you like one. He swore he would give anything to turn back time and get a second chance to treat you like the angel he knew you were. 
I need a new angel
The touch of someone else to save me from myself
“Out with the old, in with the new, we are replacing bad memories with good ones tonight.” Haz patted Tom’s shoulder
Haz told the driver to pull over in front of an Irish pub that Tom remembered all too well. It was small and quaint, somewhere people go to hang out, not just drink. This pub was where he had met you for the first time. Haz had pulled him there similar to how he was tonight, the two of them sat in the corner booth, both holding beers and watching the crowd of people dancing to a song that was playing overhead. When the song ended the group receded back to their booths and it gave him a clear shot of the girl at the bar. She was sat with a friend wearing a dark purple dress that wasn’t too short and also not considerably tight and drinking a drink that was an unnatural pink color, Tom would later learn how you resented wearing short, tight dresses and strong alcohol.
The boys stepped out of the car and went into the bar. They both ordered a beer and went to the only booth left, the booth that was sat in the far corner of the bar. It was pretty late so by now the people who had been here for hours were beyond drunk. People were singing and dancing to the song playing on the stereo. Their singing almost completely drowned out the music but Tom heard the lyrics they were singing:
Each time I close my eyes
She’s in there running wild
I’m hoping you get her out of my mind
I need a new angel
I need a new angel
Tom chuckled at how it almost exactly described his situation. Tom and Haz had both finished their beers by the time the song ended. Tom stood up, offering to go get another for the both of them but was stopped in his tracks when the crowd cleared and he got a view of the girl at the bar. She sat next to her friend laughing as she sipped from a bright pink drink and wearing a plum dress that flared slightly as the waist and hit above her knees. 
“Oh shit, that’s bad luck.” Harrison sat up in the booth as he recognized the girl as well.
“No, I’ve got it,” Tom said in a trance-like state as he pulled himself up to the girl. As he saw her laughing and smiling with her friend he realized how different she looked than she did at the end of their relationship. He also recognized that smile from the first time they went on a date, their first kiss, first time saying “I love you” and he was determined to be the cause of that smile again. So as he approached you, trying to come up with the perfect thing to say that would convince you to try and forgive him for everything he had done, he came up short and when you turned to see him in front of you he sputtered out the first thing he could think of. 
“Hey, Angel.” Because he didn’t need a new angel, he needed his angel. 
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