#sorry for no sprites but it's 1:40 am rn

[th3kintsugi]

50 Questions

tagged by: @so-tired-yet-so-alive (THNX BOO!)

rules: answer all the questions, add one of your own and tag as many people as there are questions

1. coke or pepsi? to be honest, I don’t drink either of them. they have this weird taste and I prefer sprite or root beer

2. disney or dreamworks? DREAMWORKS

3. coffee or tea? Tea, definitely. I love a good coffee every now and then but I’m addicted to tea so much that if you cut me I’d bleed earl grey

4. books or movies? if it’s reading or watching movies then reading, but if its the book or the movie that came from the book......it’s still the book i love reading srry 

5. windows or mac? I don’t know enough about computers to choose but I have windows rn and i like it so....

6. dc or marvel? MARVEL

7. xbox or playstation? I’ve never played either of them before 

8. dragon age or mass effect? Dragon Age, but only cuz i saw the gameplay on youtube awhile ago

9. night owl or early riser? NIGHT OWL ASF.

10. cards or chess? It depends on the card game tbh, like if it’s blackjack or chess then i’d pick chess, but if it’s ERS or chess, then ERS anyday

11. chocolate or vanilla? *inserts that fish in spongebob screaming CHOCOLATE*

12. vans or converse? Converse all the way. they just really suit my style

13. Lavellan, Trevelyan, Cadash or Adaar? Lavellan, cuz those face tattoos are bomb as fuck

14. fluff or angst? maybe a mix of the two? I like stories that start out angsty and then get better. it satisfies both my pessimistic and optimistic sides equally

15. beach or forest? I have VERY mixed hair and do you know what mixed hair’s mortal enemy is? Fucking sand. Plus, the way that light reaches through trees is my aesthetic ngl

16. dogs or cats? I love dogs, but cats are so much more chill like me

17. clear skies or rain? RAIN. I get more inspiration for writing whn it’s rainy idk why

18. cooking or eating out? “eating out, take that in whatever way you will” - @so-tired-yet-so-alive Honestly this answer was pure gold so imma keep it here because damn this is good

19. spicy food or mild food? Spicy, good for the sinuses

20. halloween/samhain or solstice/yule/christmas? I didn’t grow up celebrating these, so Chanukkah cuz that’s what I grew up with (no I’m not Jewish, no I’m not going to explain)

21. would you rather forever be a little too cold or a little too hot? A little too cold becuz being a blanket burrito is another one of my aesthetics 

22. if you could have a superpower, what would it be? the ability to switch powers whenever I wanted, cuz if you look up in the dictionary for “Indecisive (adj.)” You’ll see three different pictures of me because I didn’t know which one to choose.

23. animation or live action? Live action

24. paragon or renegade? Srry idk anything about Mass Effect

25. baths or showers? Baths. They’re more comfy even though I take more showers

26. team cap or team ironman? Team Cap

27. fantasy or sci-fi? FANTASY

28. do you have three or four favourite quotes, if so, what are they? 

“The path to Heaven run through miles of clouded hell right to the top.”  

- Imagine Dragons, ‘It’s Time’

29. youtube or netflix? For entertainment and laughing, Youtube, but if I wanna chill ;) then netflix

30. harry potter or percy jackson? HARRY POTTER! They were written so well and I cried a lot. I haven’t read Percy Jackson, but I’d be willing to tho

31. when do you feel accomplished? Seeing people smile and/or being moved by something i did is honestly my ultimate goal in life as a stranger, as a friend, and as a writer

32. star wars or star trek? Star Trek, but only because my mom is a major trekkie and she didn’t even let star wars into the house so i’ve never seen them

33. paperback or hardback books? HARDBACK

34. horror or rom-com? rom-com, cuz i’ve actually never seen a horror movie

35. tv shows or movies? TV shows because you get to know the characters a LOT better over longer periods of time

36. favourite animal? my top 3 favourites would probably be ravens (they’re my patronus), wolves and barn owls

37. favourite genres of music? Indie, Alternative rock, Punk, and Kpop would be my top genres. I’m kind of a musical chameleon cuz i like SO MANY different genres like you should see my spotify playlists its crazy

38. least favourite book? FUCKING LORD OF THE FLIES

39. favourite season? Either autumn or winter 

40. song that’s currently stuck in your head? Young and Menace by Fall Out Boy cuz it came out last night and that shit is FIRE

41. what kind of pyjama’s do you wear? I don’t really like wearing anything other than underwear ;)

42. how many existential crises do you have on an average day? WAIT IT’S NOT JUST ONE CONSTANT CRISIS??

43. if you can only choose one song to be played at your funeral, what would it be? Would it really matter if I can’t hear it?? Hmmmm probably Anna Kendrick - Cups (cuz they’re gonna miss me when I’m gone) haha I’m so sorry

44. favourite theme song to a TV show? The fresh prince of bellaire theme song cuz NoStAlGiA

45. harry potter movies or books?THE BOOKS

46. you can make your OTP become canon but you’ll forget that tumblr exists. will you do it? i don’t really have an otp and if i did then NO! WHERE ELSE AM I GOING TO SPEW MY UNHEALTHY COPING MECHANISMS?!?!

47. do you play an instrument and if so, what is it? Sadly, I cannot play an instrument but i’d love to learn the piano and/or the harp

48. what is the worst way to die? honestly any way that’s slow

49. if you could be entirely invisible for a day, what would you do? For only a day?! Go to D.C and shake my bare ass at the president Hmmm maybe sneak into movie theaters and watch them for free

50. (my question) What are you planning on doing with your life? Well I’m glad you asked I’m planning on going to college for a major in english and a minor in photography so I can become an author and photographer :D

YAAAY this is one of the first things I’ve been tagged in despite me being on the website for like idk four years, so it was fun!! I’m tagging @kihyunslips, @cjphoenix135, @literally-just-yoongi-trash, @realistic-but-optimistic, @twisted-decisions, @tabby-flenderson, @onlywanttobeyourequal, @asalookslikeloki, @canislupusdingo, & @im-made-of-vanilla

[purple-possibilities]

I was tagged by the very wonderful @raendown

Here we go!

Rules: Answer all questions, add one question of your own and tag as many people as there are questions.

1. Coke or Pepsi: Depends. Diet Coke in a can, Diet Pepsi from a fountain machine, 7up in mixed drinks but Sprite by itself, and Regular Coke and Regular Pepsi are tied.

2. Disney or Dreamworks: Everything is Disney.  Plus it’s what I grew up watching.

3. Coffee or Tea:  Tea. I don’t drink plain coffee it’s not strong enough.  Espresso or Turkish coffee or lattes though over tea any day.  But I can’t drink caffeine anymore, so that’s like, half the teas gone and only decaf coffee for me :(

4. Books or Movies: Books. Unless it’s Lord of the Rings then throw me the move I’m never making it through those books.

5. Windows or Mac:  Depends.  I’ve always had Windows at home and Mac at school/work.  They’re both good for different things.  Windows for writing, Mac for drawing.

6. DC or Marvel: I grew up on DC but Marvel’s been killing it lately...

7. Xbox or Playstation: I’ve only ever played PS like, a handful of times, so Xbox.

8. Dragon Age or Mass Effect: Never played DA so ME

9. Night Owl or Early Rise: What do you call that person that stays up through the night and ends up going to sleep after the early risers get up? Me? Oh yeah. 

10. Cards or Chess: Cards. No one ever wants to play chess with me.

11. Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla!

12. Vans or Converse: Vans got me through a lot of concerts

13. Lavellan, Trevelyan, Cadash or Adaar:  does not compute

14. Fluff or Angst: There was a time when I was mad at the world for having no stories with unhappy endings...and then they all had unhappy endings and I just wanted my fluffy blanket back. 

15. Beach or Forest: Beach, as there are typically less mosquitos

16. Dogs or Cats: All cats, but only certain dogs.  So cats.

17. Clear Skies or Rain: Fuck rain.  I said it.  I don’t mind a little rain but all the time? No I can’t do it/

18. Cooking or Eating Out: I am a fabulous cook...when I feel like cooking.  Tonight the answer is eating out.

19. Spicy Food or Mild Food: SPICY!  I’m that person asking for spiciest thing on the menu and then saying “it’s not spicy at all! here, try this!” and then you take a bite and proceed to die.

20. Halloween/Samhain or Solstice/Yule/Christmas: HALLOWEEN.  i love dressing up.  I always have like, three costumes lol.

21. Would you rather forever be a little too cold or a little too hot: Rn I am forever a little cold and it’s not so bad.  Better than sweating. 

22. If you could have a superpower, what would it be: Timetravel, without paradoxes, that could be controlled by scale.

23. Animation or Live Action: Live Action, although I love Animation.

24. Paragon or Renegade: I always play paragon, I feel so guilty making the renegade choices, even if you get cool scars.

25. Baths or Showers: Showers, then baths. As in, let me shower real quick so I can sit in that bath for 3 hours.

26. Team Cap or Team Iron Man: CAP!  Sorry Iron Man but I’d follow dat ass the Cap anywhere.

27. Fantasy or Sci-Fi: What about...Sci-Fi Fantasy? No?  Then Fantasy.

28. Do you have three or four favourite quotes? If so, what are they: 

"When music affects us to tears, seemingly causeless, we weep, not as Gravina supposes, from “excess of pleasure,” but through excess of an impatient, petulant sorrow that, as mere mortals, we are as yet in no condition to banquet upon those supernal ecstasies of which the music affords us merely a suggestive and indefinite glimpse.” --Edgar Allen Poe

“The vampire in us never sleeps, and always hungers for something we think only another can give.  But while we take and take again, it is temporary at best, and at worst, creates in us an ever increasing starvation of the soul.  There is no give and take, only take, and take, and more take.  Give me, give me.” --Beth Winegarner

“Throughout human history, as our species has faced the frightening, terrorising fact that we do not know who we are or where we are going in this ocean of chaos, it has been the authorities---the political, the religious, the educational authorities---who attempted to comfort us by giving us order, rules, regulations, informing---forming in our minds their view of reality.  To think for yourself you must question authority and learn how to put yourself in a state of vulnerable open-mindedness---chaotic, confused, vulnerability---to inform yourself.” --Timothy Leary

29. YouTube or Netflix: Netflix

30. Harry Potter or Percy Jackson: Harry Potter

31. When You Feel Accomplished:  When I complete something I felt was difficult

32. Star Wars or Star Trek: Star Wars (I did tell you there was only Disney, didn’t I?)

33. Paperback Books or Hardback Books: Hardback

34. Handwriting or Typing:  Depends.  Typing for writing stories, handwriting for everything else

35. Velvet or Satin:  Satin

36. Video Games or Movies: Video games

37. Would you rather be the dragon or own the dragon? Depends.  Is the dragon with me of its free will?  Are we chummy?  If yes, then sure I’ll own the dragon.  I don’t really want to be one.

38. Sunrise or sunset: Sunset

39. What’s your favourite song? No favourite.  I’ve already listed my most listened to song, so my second most listened to song is Creepers by Kid Cudi.  Neither this song nor the other one I listed are representative of my general music taste, though.

40. Horror Movies yes or no: Hell to the yes!  As long as they’re not just gore.  I don’t find that entertaining.

41. Long hair or short hair:  Long on me.  On other people it depends.

42. Opera or Theatre:  Theatre.

43. Assuming the multiverse theory is true and every story ever told has really happened somewhere, which one of the movie/book/tv show/game/etc worlds would you pick to travel to first?  First? Honestly they all seem kind of horrible.  But...somewhere where I can pick up some skills/powers to be better equipped to deal with the other shit.  If I can’t gain powers, then hook me up with the Marvel Universe, or maybe even Naruto (because Kakashi you know I had to).

44: If you had to eat only one thing for the rest of your life what would it be?  Steak, but like, I could choose what to marinade it with, right?  Right???

45: Older guys or young guys? Always older

46: If you could erase any show from TV history, what would it be?  90 Day Fiance. My brother watches it.  It’s so dumb.

47: Singing or dancing? Singing is a gift from the gods, but dancing is important too.

48: Instagram or Twitter?  Insta

49: Flowers or chocolate? Chocolate

50: Thomas Jefferson or Lafayette:  I feel like I’m not American enough for this.

51. Be able to fly like a bird or swim like a fish (and breath under water)?: The swimming is tempting but the flying is more powerful.  Just...I don’t want to have my arms transform into wings.  I couldn’t deal not having hands.

52. You listen to videogame or movie soundtracks?  If so which ones?: I Yep.  Sucker Punch, Sweeny Todd (with Johnny Depp and HBC) and the Batman Forever soundtrack (yes you read that right) it’s the shit.

53: What is something that under no circumstance you could never forgive? And why? I don’t forgive maliciousness.  Like, if you accidentally hurt me or even someone else, I can understand and maybe forgive but if you did it on purpose well...bye.

54: What’s your happiest memory? idk. I can’t choose.  That’s either a good thing or a bad thing XD

55. Would you rather be given a hover board or a talking dog (assuming that these are not the only of their kind)? The dog.  I can’t skateboard so I’d be screwed with the hoverboard, likely, but the dog would be cool.  

I...am stlll not tagging anyone.  I know I know, but I just...ok no I’m going to tag some people.  @mouseymightymarvellous, @bluefurcape, @nikkigrand, @cassandrasdreamworld​ and...that’s all I can be bothered to write out.  That’s not 55 people but whatever. 

and my question

56. Waffles or Pancakes?

[myhighladyfaeofthenightcourt]

Can I ask you to answer all of it? Is that allowed?

Im sorry its so long aha. I tried to make my answers short so u wouldnt get bored half way down. x 

Have I ever:

1. Skipped class? – sooo many times 😂 

2. Done drugs? – yes 😬dont do drugs kids…

3. Self harmed? – yes

4. Drank? –ooft yes

5. Shoplifted? – nope

6. Gotten a tattoo? - I wish. 

7. Broken up with someone? – yup

What’s your favorite:

8. Show? – shadowhunters or teen wolf

9. Movie? – rn its fantastic beasts 

10. Song? – ‘Dream’ or 'Smoke and Mirrors’ (Imagine Dragons)

11. Tumblr? – i dont actually have one specific one

12. Singer/Band? – hmmm not too sure

13. Memory? – I used to live in some flats and we were about 5 floors up. one day my friend and i stuck our butts out the window for the traffic to see 😂we were 6 so dw ahahaha

14. Book? – yeahhhh no i cant choose aha

This or that:

15. Invisibility or Ability to fly? – flyyy

16. Cookies or Cake? – cake

17. Twitter or Facebook? – facebook

18. Movies or Books? – books

19. Coke or Sprite? – coke

20. Blind or Deaf? – deaf bc i know sign language 

21. Tea or Coffee? –COFFEE

What’s your:

22. Age? – 16

23. Sign? – virgo

24. Height? – about 5 foot 6 idk aha

25. Sexual orientation? – BISEXUAL 

26. Shoe size? – 5

27. Religion? – dont have one

28. Longest relationship? – with a girl, we lasted just over a year i think

Opinion on:

29. Gay rights? – im all about that 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈

30. Second chances? – depends but usually yes

31. Long distance relationships? – i lowkey love them bc they rly cute 

32. Abortion? – personally im not a bug fan but there are exceptions 

33. The death penalty? – yes

34. Marijuana ? – HELL YES

35. Love? – I love the idea of it but idk if ill get it sorta thing

Do you:

36. Believe in ghost? – nahh

37. Shower facing the shower head or turned away from it? – away. or i sit down bc thats how lazy i am

38. Sleep with the door opened or closed? – closed

39. Love someone? – not rn

40. Still watch cartoons? – ahahaha who doesnt

41. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend? – i wish

42. Like yourself? – mehhhhhhh

[no25]

redoing a survey i took 4 years a go!!1! :~) 

1: Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?

ya because i have asthma so fuck dat // yes

2: Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused?

all of the above loooooool // taken uwu

3: What if I told you that you were pretty?

i’d say thank you, you are too // same answer!!!!

4: Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”?

probably // not that i know of

5: Are you interested in anyone right now?

nah // yes uwu

6: What are you looking forward to in the next week?

nothing. sleeping in on monday pretty much // nothing....

7: Do you want to be single?

i dont mind // not rn bc i am happy in my relationship atm!

8: Did you go out or stay in last night?

i went out and i had jollibee // i stayed in but i wish i went out...!

9: How late did you stay up last night?

til like 1 or 2 i think doing fuckin nothing lol // i dont remember but it was late!!

10: Can you recall the last time you realized you liked someone a lot?

junior year??? and RIGHT NOW ???????? LMAO!!! // yes (: rn!

11: Last three things you had to drink?

breakfast, lunch, and dinner: mocha cappucino, sprite, and water // water, strawberry lemonade, baja blast ! 

12: Have you pretended to like someone?

ya man i’m fake af lol // yes

13: Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it?

ya man i’m fake af lol // not sure, but maybe...

14: Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months?

my mom probably // my bf tony omg the answer difference

15: Is it hard for you to get over someone?

depends but not rly bc i’m fake af lol // idk wtf i was talkin bout but in terms of platonic relationships, it rly depends on my closeness with the person! and i’ve never been thru a breakup so i cant say anything...

16: Think back five months ago, were you single?

ya what was that like august? been single since i was born tbh // no uwu

17: What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon?

getting ready to shower // i was still in bed lol!!

18: Hold hands with anyone this week?

trisha but she was only holding on to my pinky // tony!

19: Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?

no bc it is too late for me // same answer lol

20: What would you name your future daughter?

clara after the singer or adora after that prodigy // who the hell was i talkin about... okay just googled who adora svitak was (the prodigy i was talking about) and sis was born in 97... i too was born in 97....damn i was mute for like half my life and sis was in a TED TALK at 12 so thats cool... anyway i want to name my daughter after my mom!

21: Do you miss anyone?

not really. just one person // yes :(

22: Have you kissed three or more people in one night?

yea but they were just quick pecks on the cheek // yes

23: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed?

no it took place while i was sitting down in a chair and it was from my pops on my forehead //  i do not remember actually LOL

24: Are you good at hiding your feelings?

ya bc i’m fake af lol… just kidding my friends say i make shit hella obvious sometimes guess i’m not as good of an actress as i thought i was // hmm no but i wish i was... but i’m a PISCES i ABSORB EVERY EMOTION AND IT SHOWS

25: Have you ever cried from being so mad?

fffuuuuuuck yyyeeaaaa // yes :(

26: Who did you last see in person?

my parents? what you tryna ask here // i dont rly understand the contxt of this question, im just gona say my roommates bc theyre in the room with me

27: Are you listening to music right now?

yes chandelier by sia // no i’m listening to an asmr video!

28: What is something you currently want right now?

to finish my hw but that’s not happening anytime soon bc f society // i was sooo angsty back then omg lol but i want new makeup, clothes, and accessories!

29: What is the last thing you said out lot?

this question because i read it out loud bc of the typo // hmmm i don’t remember! i think it was... can u wash my fork

30: How is your heart lately?

heavy // empty (: damn i’ve been depressed my whOLE LIFE huh

31: Do you wear the hood on your hoodie?

yes because my head gets cold // sometimes!

32: Are you wearing socks?

yes and they’re grey / not rn

33: What do people call you?

chacha or princess sometimes but not really mostly just charlene // charlene, char! not rly chacha anymore! i miss being called chacha! but ppl who arent that close to me started calling me it so its weird! but it might b my fault for pushing the nickname... but i mean nicknames are only a given IF ur close with that person right... so idk why ppl thought itd b ok right away! like cmon ppl!

34: Will you talk to the person you like tonight?

maybe~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~but if i do i’ll feel like i’m bothering him lol / maybe ! but it’s ok if we dont

35: Are there any stressful situations in your life?

you think this a joke ofc there are wtf!!!! // yes.. same answer LOL

36: Who did you last share a bed with?

my mommy // tony

37: Did you do something bad today?

procrastinate)))))): // same answer, add two shots of ~hate myself~ in there too

38: When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you?

like two days ago? is that sad / today!

39: Do you get stressed out easily?

ya but it’s my own fault i’m hella dumb but in the end i’m just like oh well ALOT which is actually not healthy at all / yes! it fries my brain and i become numb to it lol

40: Will you sing today?

i sing everyday // i hope!

41: Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t?

yes because i am so bad at talking / same answer!

42: Who do you go to when you need to talk to someone?

kaithleen and i like talking to megs but when i do tell people stuff i feel like i am giving them more stuff to worry about so i usually end up not going to them at all lol / tony or my vocaloid sisters groupchat! 

43: Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance?

no; thanks jesus / no

44: What are you listening to right now?

we could happen by aj rafael / same asmr video!

45: What is wrong with you right now?

a lot of things / i need to find new ways of unlearning the harmful coping mechanisms and negativity i’ve internalized, but i know it takes a lot of work for self improvement, so i think it’s easier to just be sad :(

46: What is on your wrists right now?

my sleeves and my veins / wtf angsty bitch lmao NOTHING is on my wrist lol chill

47: Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing?

t’s a house find and it says tiburon and conference center lodge so ig uess it’s from there / it’s a free shirt from a programming company! or gaming i cant remember....

48: What do you like better: hot chocolate or hot apple cider?

hot chocolate wtf is hot apple cider i never tried it / hot chocolate!

49: Do you make wishes at 11:11?

i used to / aww same answer, maybe i should start again! but i always lose track of time...

50: Are you a good artist?

fuck yeah. sike i’m a disgrace / no :(

51: Love really is a beautiful thing huh?

ew / yes!!!!!!

52: Do you miss the way things were six months ago?

who do you think i am do you think people like counting the months backwards? anyway idk i didn;t do shit in july / yes bc i would b at home with my cat!!!!!!!

53: Ever been on a golf cart?

no / not while it was moving!

54: Do you have trust issues?

ya bc i’m fake af lol / yes :(

55: Ever stayed up all night on the phone, with who?

tony or kaithleen kinda but she always falls asleep / tony!

56: Do you own something from Hot Topic?

yea think so from my middle school days but the only thing i can rly think of is this pikachu shirt / yes!!! that pikachu shirt, a goofy movie shirt, and a spirited away shirt!

57: Do you use chap stick?

i used to / not the brand chapstick but yes! i think my lips have become too dependent on it tho bc they dry out or sunburn easily if i dont use it for a while or if its a rly sunny hot day!!

58: Have you ever slapped someone in the face?

yes probably but on accident pretty sure i’d remember it clearly if it was on purpose / not that i know of!

59: Do you have a little sister?

no but if i consider my friends as little sisters i’d have like seven or soemthing / no!

60: Have you ever been to New York?

no but i would love to go / not yet!

61: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?

yes and i love them too / same answer !!!!

62: Have you hugged someone within the last week?

ya and it was the opposite sex dude you asked about earlier / yes!

63: What were you doing at midnight last night?

talkin to the late night people you asked about earlier / on my laptop watching asmr videos lol!!

64: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?

no / yes 😥

65: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?

ya like 10 / i cant believe i counted... but yes!

66: Were your last three kisses from the same person?

no / yes, tony!

67: Have you kissed anyone in the last five days?

i actually don;t remember oops sorry mom give me up for adoption / yes, tony!

68: Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?

i am okay with both but i have to be close to you first to face you if we sleepin on the same bed lol / im fine with either !

69: Will next Friday be a good one?

i dont think so. everyday feels the same and i am bored all the time / im gona speak it into existence, YES!!!!